i hate my sister she passed me her disease!!! I AM SICK! *sobs* i hate being sick.. i cant breathe through my nose, and my head is throbbing, and my throat is unbelievably scratchy. ERGHHH! bloody hell. this thing better go away before the exams get nearer. i slept in till almost 2pm! well, mainly because i was watching BB Uplate.. ohmygoddd! hot stuff last nite man! drinking and pashing everywhere! hehe.

but yeah i just feel like sleeping all day long now.. i have no will to move. bleah.

i just feel like dying...

she takes a breath at 09:15 p.m.

Friday, May 27, 2005

update on highlights in my life: WE'RE GOING TO SYDNEY!!! got the tix on thurs. for now it's Bev, myself and Sera. we're gonna rough it out, backpackers all the way. omg i cant wait. whoo!

and so there was an excuse to go shopping. we walked around Queen St Mall for ages. well we didnt walk around, it was more of up and down to the same stores. heh. thanx to a certain CremeBrulee... but hey i'm not gonna complain. after much consideration, i finally got my BEANIE! thankyou CityBeach for putting this in the sale cart. loveit! but shit i think i need to shop somemore. i'm pretty sure my so-called winter wardrobe is insufficient for Sydney's winter. apparently, their hottest temps during the season is 16degreesC, and can get to as low as 8degreesC!! holy shit. i'm screwed

OMG! just chatted with Nat. Koh! man i havent spoken to her in eons... the last time was when we met for dinner while i was still in SG. i miss her so... *sigh* she's graduated from Poly and applied for UWA... everyone's leaving. by the time i get back, it'll be underpopulated! just imagine SG being underpopulated... hah! highly UNlikely.

she takes a breath at 09:39 p.m.

Monday, May 23, 2005

Doc's appointment tmr arvo. hmm i better prepare my great speech for why i am oh-so-ill. more like why i WAS ill. hah.

cheap thrill for the day, i bought a nice winter jacket from Kmart whoo! haha it's the corduroy kind.. but it's thick and warm. what i've been needing for a long time!

Serene called again this arvo! and divulged more stuff that i dont really want to know. hmmm. yeah... well, she's a little too candid abt it for my liking, but hey! better i know than no one at all! but i love talking to her it's like being in SG all over again... *sigh* dont know when i'll see her, or anyone else for that matter, again.

she takes a breath at 09:37 p.m.

Sunday, May 22, 2005

good morning world! oh shit it's 3pm! hahaha well we blame it on CREMEBRULEE for keeping us awake. the insomniac had company to insomnia-ise with her. heh.

had a little lunch before the movie. then played a game of pool at Southbank, cos sera needed STATS! haha. OH met someone's BOYFRIEND hehhe. shyguy though... anyway, the movie was alright, as you ppl can tell, i'm not much of a fan. so headed to WestEnd for dinner... then SHISHA BABYYY!!! ahahah although it was just Bev and i, it was pretty fun. it was kinda crowded when we got there, just after 8.. mmmm SHISHA.. *drools* Sera and Florens came to join us soon, but not join IN. stupidos. yeah.. had a good time! all the smoke is probably eating away my brain by now, but WHOCARES?!

arrived at Depper ard 11, changed, and Sera convinced us to GAMBLE. i hate that word. gamble. it just reminds me how shit i am at it! cos every bloody time i gamble, i lose money. BAH. well i think i lost maybe $5 in coins.. cos i only had small change. and finished with not one coin left! hmph.

Sera's gone home cos she's got work later, so i'm left here with the WOMAN. she said she'll cook lunch for us, but my tummy has been thunderous since abt 12! hmmmm. i dont wanna go home.. *sobs* life is grand like this.. well as grand as a student can get i mean. but yeah. home is just so not doing it for me nowadays. because lately, i just cant take HER shit. i'm probably being a little brat, but she gets so unreasonable at times it kills me. erghh.

she takes a breath at 03:09 p.m.

Oh how i fuckin hate them all sometimes.

she takes a breath at 10:27 p.m.

Friday, May 20, 2005

the hail storm was hot news all day! but there were other parts hit much worse. major roads were blocked, and ppl were still shoveling ice out of the way today... the ABC studio in Toowong had major water damage.. haha but ppl were sledding in the QUT Kelvin Grove footy grounds! cool...

last HMST lab today.. we did some computerised reaction time tests.. and since it was really simple we got out an hr early! whoo.. Nikki and i were praying we made it home before anymore hail storms hit.. haha there wasnt any hail today. anyway, NO MORE ASSIGNMENTS FOR THE REST OF THE SEMESTER WHOOO! such a big relief, you have no idea. i can finally get down to studying.. i cant bear to finish this Sem with an average of 4s... already barely scraped through the tests and assignment up till now. gotta pull my socks up!

i'm trying to convince myself here.. what am i talking about!? this weekend is devoted to fun and workless pleasure. to the city for lunch with the girls. then StarWars at 4.. then maybe SHISHA at WestEnd whoo! really hope we go. DONT play me out CremeBrulee... i'm not much of a StarWars fan, but knowing me, i'll probably get all caught up in the wave. well anyway, i'm looking forward to the night more than anything.

ohh!! i had a mysterious visitor couple of nights back! already in bed, half asleep when i heard scratching sounds. thought i was dreaming, but the sound continued. jerked up to turn on my lamp, when sth scratched my leg. it was a CAT!! in my room! hahaha. put it outside and went back to bed, 5 seconds later, it was scratching my room door. and it came in and decided it liked the bottom of my bed, and played there. if it werent so fuckin cute i would've been pissed. past 12mn, i was sleepy. i played with it for awhile, weird how it took to me, and not ran away like most strays do. but i realised i had to sleep, so i brought it out and this time closed all the windows too. it's been a frequent visitor eversince. heh. i named it Stone.

she takes a breath at 09:42 p.m.

Thursday, May 19, 2005

on the contrary to the last entry, i quite like my Longbeach Mild. cos after the 2nd stick, i realised they were good! they dont leave a bad aftertaste! so i'm happy.

HAPPY FAKE 18TH, CREMEBRULEE! hahaha we celebrated it yesterday. had Michel's at Toowong.. cake&coffee dont need special occasions though. hehe. then headed to Depper for dinner. but the night was spoilt by one fucking person. SHE locked herself out of the house. and SHE calls me. SHE asks me to pass HER my house keys. but why did SHE have to be such a bitch about it? i didnt do a fucking thing wrong. SHE tells me to leave earlier so that i can let her in, and that I should be more considerate?? seriously. telling me to drop everything i'm doing to help HER, and I'M being INCONSIDERATE! FUCK NO! i've been so upset since last night. but the weird thing is, i've been having a bad feeling for almost 2 weeks.

cant explain, but i've been feeling sth bad is going to happen soon. i mean between us. god only knows what and when. but yeah this kinda triggered the chain effect of things. bev says i should talk to HER. but i'm not one to talk. erghhh i hate this.

oohh! it hail-stormed today!! was kinda freaked out since i was home alone, cos it sounded like the house was gonna cave in on me. came home in perfect autumn weather. then there was thunder. didnt think twice about it until it started pouring like mad. went to close some windows when i realised there was ICE on the floor! ARRRH!! it was a hail storm!! hahaha. it looks like it snowed... there's a sheet of white on the grounds now. how picturesque!

she takes a breath at 10:12 p.m.

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

had a badbad weekend. ok bad saturday! was so stressed out with the HPRM assignment.. i couldnt find a single research paper!! after 3 hours non-stop, i was about to break down. never had to cry over work.. it was pretty bad... well now that fuckin presentation is OVER!! whooo! volunteered to do it today, one of 8. but i'd say i stumbled the last min.. cos time was running up. heh. whatever! it's over!! now just the Lab report with Nikki and i'm done! =)

also, i skipped my Lab on monday. hmmm met Chiew and Phoebe today, and they mentioned sth abt it being compulsory? uhoh.. just started panicking, but i composed myself and sent an email to the coordinator. i'll prob have to resort to my great acting skills at the doctors! i noticed i've skipped a fair bit of lectures the past few weeks. dont know why, but i find myself using "i dont have notes" as a common excuse to myself.. hah! who am i kidding? oh well. it's the same as attending them anyway. i dont learn cos i cant focus! hmm.

walked from uni after meeting Nikki cos i decided to try sth new today... went to buy myself a pack. the lady was useless though, so i just chose sth vaguely familiar. Longbeach is pretty common around these parts.. but i think i made a bad choice! it gives my throat a scratchy feeling.. damn i have 18 sticks to go. heh.

she takes a breath at 09:23 p.m.

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

had a badbad weekend. ok bad saturday! was so stressed out with the HPRM assignment.. i couldnt find a single research paper!! after 3 hours non-stop, i was about to break down. never had to cry over work.. it was pretty bad... well now that fuckin presentation is OVER!! whooo! volunteered to do it today, one of 8. but i'd say i stumbled the last min.. cos time was running up. heh. whatever! it's over!! now just the Lab report with Nikki and i'm done! =)

also, i skipped my Lab on monday. hmmm met Chiew and Phoebe today, and they mentioned sth abt it being compulsory? uhoh.. just started panicking, but i composed myself and sent an email to the coordinator. i'll prob have to resort to my great acting skills at the doctors! i noticed i've skipped a fair bit of lectures the past few weeks. dont know why, but i find myself using "i dont have notes" as a common excuse to myself.. hah! who am i kidding? oh well. it's the same as attending them anyway. i dont learn cos i cant focus! hmm.

walked from uni after meeting Nikki cos i decided to try sth new today... went to buy myself a pack. the lady was useless though, so i just chose sth vaguely familiar. Longbeach is pretty common around these parts.. but i think i made a bad choice! it gives my throat a scratchy feeling.. damn i have 18 sticks to go. heh.

she takes a breath at 09:23 p.m.

Friday, May 13, 2005

Your #1 Match: ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

Your #2 Match: INFJ

The Protector You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity. Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is. You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience. You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them. You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.

got it off Dee's blog. some true stuff here.. i wonder who comes up with these things! i mean.. it's online, and they dont know the people who take the tests.. how can they get results that are so close to the truth!? hmmm. food for thought.

she takes a breath at 10:12 p.m.

it's Friday the 13th! all you superstitious people out there, hope the day has been kind.. spent a total of 1HOUR in lecture today, and realised there wasnt a BIOL lecture scheduled. bahh. so i tried to get some work done in the library. to no avail. Nikki came soon after, and we got more work done, then i went back with her to college for abit. the visit made me wish i was out of here and living in college even more!! it seems so nice there! dorm life sounds and looks just GRAND.

had dinner at DepperSt. THANX GERRI! hot laksa on a rainy day. yummm! but it looked like the day was coming to a bad end though. i just hope everything is alright... the week was pretty shit enough. just hang in there... you'll be ok. i'm here if need be. *hugs*

she takes a breath at 10:32 p.m.

Monday, May 9, 2005

just a footnote to yesterday's musical adventure.. while i entertained myself, Bev asked something pertaining to some stuff here. and only God knows why, but i couldnt bring myself to talk about it. i mean, how long has it been?! i was fine at first, slowly telling, till a point that hit a raw nerve of sorts.. shit. i was about to BAWL! GODDAMNIT. why cant i let it go.. it's fuckin frustrating to have all this baggage weighing me down. sorry girl. i guess what she said was right. her room emanates depression. or something like that haha! some time soon, i hope...

didnt have pract today!! yet another of life's simple pleasures i cant live without. so for some reason, i decided to walk from uni... at times like these, i wished i wasnt such a lazy ass. the walk was really good. got to clear my mind, while filling it with poisonous gases of course. intially the plan was to go all the way home, but i changed my mind and cut it short to SirFredSchonellRd. bought a pack of smokes and jumped on the bus. damn!! i've been cheated all this while! Chai's sell their ciggies cheaper!! bloody 7-11 and their commercialism. anyway, alone time always satisfies me. and oddly enough, it's even better when there's masses of random public around. i guess the fact that all the strangers are simply blurred faces, making the experience of being "alone" more significant. it's all visual really.. *sigh*

a horrible shock when i got home though. the Pig left the fuckin door open! that's not the worse thing... Tash told him about it, and he had the nerve to indirectly blame it on me!! ERH!! he claimed he thought i was home. then he said "next time let me know.." excuse me, BRAINS?! something he's obviously lacking in... when i found the house in this state, i thought to myself once again. What's wrong with her? i removed all biasness and tried to find an explanation, and thought seriously: "how can anyone be like that?" shit.. it seems like i'm never gonna find any. 'love' definitely is blind.

she takes a breath at 04:52 p.m.

Sunday, May 8, 2005

spontaneity once again.. got a msg from Bev asking me to meet her for coffee, among other things. *grins* didnt realise the msg was sent at 3am! but yeah... met her for coffee, amongst other things... then did a little Coles shopping, then more other things... and she convinced me, after much some deliberation, to go back with her! the influential WOMAN. so we hung out in her room, i entertained myself for awhile by being very "photo-graphic".. and then narcissistic... and then we killed the neighbourhood.

HAHA!! started singing along to some of her MP3s, without a second thought. so imagine, 2 "teenage" girls, alone in a room with music... yess we sang till our hearts content and our mouths dry. till i had to leave, we realised that the whole neighbourhood was soo silent you could hear a pin drop. THE WHOLE FUCKIN NEIGHBOURHOOD WOULD HAVE HEARD US! shitt...

frankly, i find the whole incident rather amusing.. i mean who cares right? so we may not be Lauryn Hills or Noel Gallaghers, but we didnt suck ass! :) but Bev is set to be humiliated and embarassed the rest of her time at DepperSt... VATEVER. i think this is the best fun anyone can have in their young adult lives... simple pleasures are so underrated.

she takes a breath at 10:03 p.m.

Saturday, May 7, 2005

doing the 2nd part of our BIOL1015 eConference. reading the other papers and presentations, and some things are rather interesting. so i think i'll post them up here so anyone reading this can have a read too.

Genes determine not only physical characteristics, but also emotional, behavioural and mental characteristics. I was attracted by the point made regarding genetic determinism and criminal activity. Specific attention to a question raised: "should those with a genetic predisposition towards crime be punished in the same manner as those without such a predisposition?"
However, is there a possibility that criminals, alleged or not, who have knowledge of their potential "predisposition towards crime" use it to their advantage?

Reproductive cloning "refers to the creation of an animal from a reconstructed embryo, made by transferring the nucleus of a donor cell into an oocyte from which its genetic material has been removed" "Adults who invest in these technologies will aim to produce offspring who will follow a specific life-plan". My main question is: should parents be allowed to use such technology to pave the lives of their offspring? After all, it is basically allowing them to play God.

Many people believe that human life begins at the moment of conception between a sperm and ovum. However scientists rather distinguish that up until ten days an embryo is unenabled, meaning that it "has no preferences or feelings that an experiment might disturb". But who really has the right to determine how long after conception does life start?

so people... think about these.. they may affect you at some point or other in your adult lives.

she takes a breath at 09:47 p.m.

Saturday, May 7, 2005

whoo home alone at last! :) i'm supposed to be using this precious time doing work though, got a new fucking assignment for HMST. FUCK! Lab report in pairs, i'm working with Nikki. maybe i should do some research now? nah! heh.

damn yesterday's Lab really made me ache.. my collarbone area is throbbing and my triceps are in pain. *sobs* well at least i know i can manage 26 proper pushups without rest! *beams*

hmm last night was one of much spontaneity... one phone call, and i turned on my heels to go back out. hahah! i'm sucha good liar. went back to St Lucia to "meet Nikki at college for the assignment"... my improvised answer for "why didnt you just stay in uni?" impressed even me! i wish there were more nights spent hanging out smoking and chatting. i wish i had more ppl to do that with. *sigh* as selfish as it sounds, the reason for the whole of last night was due to pretty bad circumstances. but i guess things just turn out in ways you'd never expect.

she takes a breath at 02:33 p.m.

Wednesday, May 4, 2005

i'm finally back to post a full proper entry. hooray!! first part of the fucking eConference assignment is overrr!!!

back to Woodstock. hmmm right. our campsite was a very STUBBLY patch. meaning little plant stumps all over. so we had constant acupuncture. and the land was on a little slope, so yeah we rolled everynight ahha! Tasha bought a little camp stove and frying pan, so we had a couple of hot meals each day. but they were mainly bread and a few tinned stuff. and eggs and tomatoes.. mmm. she claimed our camp breakkies were better than our normal breakkies! haha! but there were the usual stalls at the festival. so there was chips and dagwood dogs. i had 3! muahahah.

Ohhh! bathtime is a must tell. they provided these mobile showers, where each cubicle was separated by plastic sheet things.. so you could sorta see sillhouetes of the person. hmm yess i had to shower in that. very outbackjack haha. and yeah the toilets were the portable ones too.. stank every morning due to shit, but they were fairly clean overall.

and our very noisy neighbours.. the boys' camp a little down made frieds with the "CrazyFamily" girls' camp next to us. just listening to their bloody conversations, we figured out names.. there was Curly, Rosco and Alex, among others... and the singing... ohmygoddd they really kept us up on the last night... "Hey Good Lookin!! What ya got cookin?" errrghhh. one line over and over all night long. i wished our camp was a little big bigger... cos all the camps had fires.. boohoo. we were the lone tent among the big ones.

it was so great that we just walked down to the stages everynight and spent time listening to live music under the stars on verycold grass.. haha how hippy-like. yeahhh dudee feel the loooove. :) well i just love the atmosphere. it was so feel-good there. so carefree, despite my anxiety over the lack of mobile communications and my freaking incomplete assignment. maybe it was the ciggie smoke-polluted air, or the alcohol in every direction. i dunno.

speaking of ciggarettes and alcohol, i cant fuckin wait for the 9th October. fuckin legal age... then i wont have to depend on any-bloody-one else but myself for drinks... hmph. fuck this waiting business.

ohhh!!! BIGBROTHER STARTS ON SUNDAY!!! whooo!!! cant bloody wait... omg. excitement.

she takes a breath at 09:26 p.m.

Tuesday, May 3, 2005

i left my fuckin phone on the fuckin train on Friday!!! godammit. dont have a mobile for 5 fuckin days. Tasha is gonna get it back for me this arvo... lets hope the office doesnt screw with me.

well other than that Woodstock was FUCKEN AWESOME! hahah so was Spiderbait (pun intended). mannn the feature bands were great. especially Killing Heidi. Ella's so cool.. and hott! ahhaah. i wished we were still there... there's so much to say where do i begin?!? aaaarrhhh!!!

but shit why does Tasha have to be sucha a partypooper. she didnt drink a single drop!! which meant i couldnt get any either, since i'm still fuckin underage. hmph! oh well i still got my life ahead of me to ruin my liver. ohh and i guess she knows abt my smoking now. since i smoked at woodstock heh. well yeah so what. as long as she doesnt rat on me. cos i dont think i can stand a conversation with Mum. i might just fall asleep on the phone!

she takes a breath at 09:54 a.m.

Hey Ho Let's Go!! saw that on a tshirt at woodstock. all the kiddies bought it. hhaha. just spending a little time to elaborate before i continue with the assignment. ok who performed. first night: Thirsty Merc and Spiderbait. Sat night: Evermore and Killing Heidi. Sun night: AccaDacca. all were great!!! i love Ella from Killing Heidi.. Ahhh... ohh and Martin's band were in the Rock Challenge too. but TheRavens didnt win unfortunately/fortunately. but they sold 6 EPs! haha cool.. mann there's so much more but i gotta go. *sigh*

she takes a breath at 10:30 p.m.