oh what the hell!! i just realised that i dont have a tut tomorrow morning... in Uni for 1 hour! grrr. well at least i'll be a)meeting Chiew and b)doing research. so it's not all for nothing i guess. but bloody hell can u believe it? it's the last week of the semester! good and bad, as everything always is, but CMON! it's almost june! tomorrow will also be the last time i see my classmates especially those from SG cos they're finishing this semester and are going back to NIE. poor kids. i dont envy them. hopefully, our plan to catch AFL next Saturday at the Gabba goes through.. it'll be free and we'll have great seats WHOO!

will also be having my hair cut tomorrow afternoon. i'm excited... it's partly for the wedding but i need one anyway. speaking of The Wedding... heheh Paul will soon be the MARRIED manager at Pancakes... old fart. i cant imagine seeing him through the whole event. it would be one of the few occasions that i will be in his presence where he isnt drunk/getting drunk. this is before the reception of course.. and quite possibly DANCING hahahaha!! the only downside is that i am wearing heels =( ohh and that i'm working the day after..

had a chat with Peiyee today about career opportunities back home. she was suggesting that i take up something in the SSC later on... i knew that this was definitely a plausible path and i've looked at it previously. but i thought i wasnt quite qualified for the Council jobs until she told me not many people there are actually have a sport background anyway! it's renewed my interest now... but i prob will stay here for abit before i look at that again.. at least now i know there is a chance, i guess. i feel that little bit more hope.. cos with the Olympics knowledge i now have, i could very well do that in the Council or the Singapore Olympic Association as a research person or the like. i'm feeling excited.. i'd like to further my studies on that if i get the chance but now i just have to worry about getting a job here first...

she takes a breath at 07:49 p.m.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

I MET SUSIE O'NEILL TODAY OMGGGG!!!!! how exciting.. i loved the fact that it was a small setting not big lame public crowds thank god... i am SO blessed to be doing what i'm doing because in 2 years i can say i've met at least 5 significant sports-affiliated people. and almost half of them athletes! i shook Susie's hand and got a few cool group pics with her. she's really down-to-earth though. although she's done so much in her life, Gold Olympic medals being just a few of them. and yet she was so casual and modest about it today. just like Norma Croker was a couple of weeks back. ahhh this is the life. i can only imagine what it will be like 5 years down the road.. there are a few paths i'd like to travel at this point.. but i have to take action and get there. i dont know how that will happen and it is daunting and exciting at the same time. the future is still a dream for me.. i still have "dream job(s)" quite vivid in my head. yet now and again i see myself in that seat clearly. i guess i just have to make the effort.

but for tonight i will just stress over the decision or not to wake up at 445 to catch the Champions League final. bloody Kopites and the Ones That Kicked Us Out. hmmm who do i choose?? *gags* i wish i could throw a ball at the telly. but then i would have no more telly.

speaking of telly! i initially made the decision not to follow the State Of Origin, especially tonight's game, and get some work done instead... BUT. with Ann screaming outside, and her stereo up full blast to Roy & HG, how could i miss it... grrrr. depressing. but in the end i compromised with myself and watched FindingNeverland. well Mighty Maroons won anyway, which shut her up. but got the rest of Toowong running amok. so i dont quite know if i won. =/

she takes a breath at 11:15 p.m.

Sunday, May 20, 2007

first venture back into the nightlife in 2.5 weeks last night. it was ok. but that experience was overpowered by a great period of disappointment/anger/frustration. and ending in greater agony of defeat in the fucking 116th minute GODDAMNIT. it was so painful to watch i almost bit of my fingers in stress and equally painful to think of all the what ifs with Rooney, and the very much despised Steve Bennet now. it could have been a much nice score. and a much nicer end to the season. my season back, so to say. 2 for 3 would have been sweeter than 1 for 3 by a mile.

the Pig is packed in when we get there, and we eventually find a couple of seats with a decent view, although the company was less then tasty. nevertheless, the atmosphere was good as gold. if not for certain skankyhoes with shortshorts sitting closeby, it would have been great.

so at the end it's almost 3am and i'm sitting in a very quickly-deserted Pig, head in my hands, tears welling almost, silence of defeat defeaning and heart heavy. and also bladder busting so i had to leave. all in all, a depressing night. and it did not help one fucking bit that everything today seemed to rub it in. i could not escape the highlights and reports and pictures and videos of THE GOAL.grrrrrrrr. i'm telling the depression is here to stay. goodbye 2006/2007, bring on 2007/2008!!! we'll be stronger and wiser. The Reds Go Marching On...

she takes a breath at 11:27 p.m.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

i cant believe it's the end of week 11 already bloody hell! i have yet to begin on my Olympics essay.. and do my bit for the media and culture project, and above all that start on all the backdated readings for the final exams. yay the next few weeks are gonna be fun fun fun. doesnt help that i stayed home on tuesday, skipped the lecture and group meeting and WATCHED THE LAST DISC OF SCRUBS SEASON 3. i am a horrible slacker and i'm going to hell.

this week was a little odd tho. both the Media and Culture and Intro to Socy lectures were on Sport! how convenient. and today was the first time i contributed so much in the Socy tut. it was good knowing what was happening and actually knowing what i was learning. and it was weird cos Sue said "holy fuck" HAHA i didnt want to seem like i was shocked so i didnt look at anyone else's reaction. then she told us something about when she "became a lesbian" which was interesting.. she's a nice lady/girl and it seems like i'm the only one who has a conversation with her about non-uni stuff. maybe the others are uncomfortable with it, who knows. and it's also REALLY weird how our class seems to be able to hold a discussion every week and most people contribute, then when we're done and are all in the lift, it's completely silent. today i felt that the room was a safe place, and people didnt feel like they could talk otherwise. it was just a funny revelation. maybe it's just the bloody sociological analyser i have come to discover in me.

as i was about to head to the busstop after breaking a microfilm (hehe) i bumped into Lin! which was nice... had a short chat with her before she had to go.. everyone's just so busy now. again. havent seen chiew and sera in 2 weeks... GUYS PLEASE MEET UP SOON. *sigh* i dont see it happening before the exams tho... =(

she takes a breath at 05:41 p.m.

Saturday, May 12, 2007

it's been awhile since i've thought about things. like really thought about things.. not just what to wear to uni today. (not that i really care about what i wear anyway...) but things that will affect me and my future. it's getting down to the business end of things. just got a letter from UQ about having to make an appointment with the Dept of Immigration and Citizenship regarding my VISA. goddamn it... why did they have to be so on-the-ball?? this means i wont have any excuse to stay longer than i have to. how am i gonna get to stay? i dont have a job in line, nor do i know where to find one! i dont have great qualifications either. a BA isnt fantastic nowadays. but i know that if i had stuck with HM i would be drowning right now. unless some miracle helped me to study well. unlikely! so now i have to figure out what to do with myself... yay.

on a different line... have you ever crossed paths with someone you thought you shared a bond with? someone you thought understood you, and was a friend. someone you once borrowed clothes for a spontaneous sleepover, but now hardly bats an eyelash when you pass by in the corridors. it comes to a point where you ask yourself, "Why did i bother all that time?" i feel cheated, hurt even. i feel bitter. angry. now just the thought of them makes my blood rise. but at the back of my mind, something says "wouldnt it be nice if we just kiss and make up?" and then it says "NOT!" the things i would say if that person was standing here right now.. the nuns would have a heartattack! but you know, i cant do anything about it. if they've chosen to ignore and forget, then i guess i can do the same. only i dont come up with FUCKED UP excuses like "i need friends of my age" and shit. BALLS TO YOU.

she takes a breath at 08:55 p.m.

Tuesday, May 8, 2007

like i said the last time, I'M BUSY!!! grrr. well not really. but i should be now... i've got 2 assignment due at the same time in less than a month from now.. and i have more social issues to worry about. like what to wear to Paul and Ange's wedding.. ARRHHH. i hate wardrobe stress!

on a lighter note, Tony's gone home for a holiday.. haha that sounded mean. but no. anyway, and UNITED HAVE WON THE PREMIERSHIP with 2 games to go BOOYAH! i've been out of the game for so long it's good to feel triumph once more... like being back in '98... unfortunately we're one short this time. =( and Ann is back, and i should apologise for a mistake in a previous entry, i will not be alone until August not a couple of weeks haha.

she takes a breath at 10:19 p.m.