10072004
just got back... had dinner in the Valley with the mother, Uncle Cecil and Aunty Jacqui... im still hungry man.
the Valley Fiesta started today. wow!! didnt know Triple J was the radio host.. mann i missed all the good Aussie acts... live!! the oldies should really learn to get a life. while trying to get thru the crowd, my hand was on someone's boob for the longest time ever.. i'm sorry i really couldnt help it! there was absolutely NO space. but mann the music was good. wish i could've stayed on... but sadly it would be a whole lot better if i had friends who would enjoy it with! i dont think anyone i know likes the music im currently into.. oh well.
we're going to IKEA tomorrow morning. Tasha just told me to wake up EARLY tomorrow. like what the!?! then she said we're coming home after IKEA.. what a waste of good sleeping time.. some holiday this is. geeez.
oh yeah i didnt mention about my new blogskin.. hehehe. i was so happy when i found it.. finally got something to do with music which noone is already using. i hope... yay!!loveit.loveit.loveit.
Saved by the Bell at 12:26 a.m.
08072004
everyone's falling for SOMEONE.
wow time sure flies by when its freezing like mad... went to Harbourtown on Sunday.. I FINALLY GOT MY NIKE DUNK LOWS!!!! hooray! not the exact colour i wanted, but this'll do. went to Noosa on Tuesday and stayed the nite... it was AWESOME!! sadly we couldnt hang out on the beach because of the mother... *surprisesurprise* i can just see myself being a beach bum during hols man!! unfortunately, there arent any in Briz. *sobz* the Big Pineapple was sucha bore though. besides the yummy ice cream, there was nothing else to see... i guess i'm not your average tourist eh?
in all my years of despising my mother, i have never had to despise her on someone else's behalf.. i dont understand how Tash can control her temper around her.. i know this world is filled with crap drivers... but the worst kind -in my books- are BACKSEAT drivers. and what makes it hell worse is one who doesnt drive!
Ryan has his phrase, "Turn it up!" well.. im gonna do my own edition, specially dedicated to her.. "turn it OFF!" its absolutely impossible.
ooohh!! i FINALLY bought my Palmers cap today too!! hooray hooray! hahahah. loveit. it matches my hair colour hahah!!
saw someone that i THOUGHT was him.. my heart almost stopped, although i dont know why... then i remembered he's in school.. geeeeez.
*grinz like crazy* just remembered the really erotic dream i had last nite... like WTF!?! let's put it this way.. my imagination will not fail me later in life... *hehehe* i give credit to the wild Love Fest between BigBro's Ryan and Monica. talk about a Public Affair! i dont know whether to hate her for what she's doing to Joe on the outside, or cheer them on with all my heart. wheee!
but my greatest fear is coming to life.. maybe im deluding myself.. or maybe it just is... but i think im falling for him. aaarrrrrhhhh!!!!!
Saved by the Bell at 10:21 p.m.
04072004
how's it goin? im miserable thats how... SHE is pissin me off. goddamned woman cant leave me alone for one minute.. just have to have a go at me whenever she can.. jeeeesus.
ryan is really taking it well... i didnt know he would be so tolerant. he was telling me how upset he was when SHE dissed his fishies.. poor fishies... how much longer can i take!?! not long i assure u.
whatever
well anyway, had a good time yesterday. we went for the Jazz & Blues Fest at Roma Parklands. good music!! even if i could hardly see the stage... hehehe. that StacieSarah chick was goood. ooh her voice. sounds like a smoother, sweeter, soul-ful, jazzy Kelly Osbourne.. ahha! she had pink hair! but anyway, when the latin dance lessons started, the lady was inviting everyone to join in. she even told the girls without a partner to go up anyway. "some boys would ask you" she claimed. yeah.. i wish.
went to Southbank today, and i got a pair of earrings.. its a spiral patterned stud.. hope it looks nice on me!! saw Festia there too.. i knew it was her from a mile away!! cos i recognised her hair. haha! what a coincidence!
just came back from dinner at Dos Amigos... whhooo. im full! might be driving to Harbourtown tomorrow... in a rental... i trust Tasha with her driving... she better not crash!! oooh Harbourtown.. hope i get good stuff!
a very worthy "What The" has been discovered by yours truly.. our Chinese Rice Wine's label suggests that it should be used "for cocking purposes". what the!!! im gonna send it in to Rove... hopefully it gets put on air soon!! will update..
caught myself thinking about him several times this weekend. i dont know whether to smile or slap myself. this is not good. if i dont prevent it from growing inside, its gonna be difficult. but to tell the truth...? i've never felt this way before.
Saved by the Bell at 10:03 p.m.
03072004
okkk.. i totally flew thru the exams!! it was... alrite? i expected Physics to be bad.... well, it WAS. hahahha! surprise of the century. i think im gonna flunk it all.. ok maybe not TS.. but yeah.. shitt.
the Mother arrived this morning.. i was realllly hoping for things to be better this time.. but some things will just never change. the only great thing is, i finally realised why i have all this negativity towards her... she is just way too critical about every goddamned thing.
the first things she said when we got back was "Nadia why isnt your bed made?" and "be nice to your sister, please." and then she made a really fucked comment, "you guys dont even take care of the house.." like who the fuck asked you bitch?! this is our house we take care of it in our own way. dont like it? get stuffed. Geeeez.
i dont think i can stand another 2 weeks of this crap. if if i do anything stupid anytime soon, i want you guys to this entry to her after my funeral...
Saved by the Bell at 01:28 p.m.
25062004
woohoo the Labs are overrrr!!! never been happier. ok i have.. but anyway.. this "Junior" thing is getting outta hand!! i can never win against these people. the conversations just go round and round and round... grrr. what did i do to deserve this, Phoe!? whyyy!?
one of the worse days happened yesterday... it was a double blow! sitting in front of the Ice Creamery during the break when the Newbies appeared.. and Max was there.. Chiew started saying something but i only heard part of it... so i acknowledged the fact that he was there.. apparently, she said "your Max", but i didnt hear that.. enough said.
then while waiting for the 2nd session to start, Chiew said Se Mi looked liked a banana.. she was wearing a yellow jacket. so i said something like "i want a banana!" (not the exact phrase) and they burst out laughing... i tried to correct myself with "As in, i want one to eat!!!" and that made the whole situation even worse. should've seen Phoe.. she was as red as a tomato!! soon after, Max commented about my 'S' beanie... what a good impression he has of me... i'm starting to wonder. does any of this have to do with the age thing..?
but jokes aside.. i dont know what i'm really feeling right now. i mean about him... its too unclear. i just cant put my finger on it. its exactly like the Clara thing a long time ago... *nudges Fizah* after a long time of someone telling me what i feel.. or more like pretending what i feel, it kinda becomes reality? well not complete reality, but it grows inside...
oh what the fuck is wrong with me.
Saved by the Bell at 01:53 p.m.
22062004
i just remembered something that was bugging me a couple of days back.. was reading all the blogs.. and i found out that there was a 4/8 '03 reunion on Thursday. at that moment.. i just re-lived the fun memories mentioned by Mori.. like how we all just crapped non-stop and stuff.. practically evryone was there! apparently so was Miss Yap.
when i read that last bit of information, my mood totally swung around. i didnt think it would ever happen.. but i think i became jealous..? and pretty upset. the fact that Ms. Yap was there made me feel like i was missing out on a whole lot more than it seemed. couldnt control the hot tears forming in the corner of my eyes.
seems like i've repeated this over and over again.. its boring me too... but for some reason, i felt as if no one noticed my absence? i've always thought that i was "everyone's friend", sort of... i mean.. if that really were the case, wouldnt at least one of the closer people mention me not being there..? ohh who am i trying to kid.. this is not a plea for pity mind you. just my random thoughts and gut-spilling... i'm starting to sound really pathetic here.. maybe its time i put a stop to including emotions in my entries... i never fail to make my self miserable.
Saved by the Bell at 09:27 p.m.
22062004
finished Bio labs.. FINALLY!!! *hallelujah* thank god... but i woke up late on Monday.. so i walked in late.. felt so lost!! it was a good idea to read the booklet in advance.. at least i knew what was happening...
but today.. woah... i never wanna be a surgeon/vet/anything to do with cutting up animals.. that rat was the ULTIMATE! and the smell.. oh GOD the smell!!! if it wasnt for the horrid smell, i could safely say that session was fun. or at least interesting! i had this sick feeling in my stomach from the moment i walked in the lab till we left for lunch... *shudders*
well, now its all down to Physics... how i love physics. (can u sense the sarcasm?) its bad enough i'm lost in class 3/4 of the time.. now it's gonna be worse in the lab. as i told Meiyee this evening, at least half of our group knows what's goin on.. i'll be happy to just follow orders.. it would definitely save our group a whole lot of misery in the end...
at least i have one thing to look forward to... even if it's the last thing till the end of the month. i'm watching Potter tomorrow!!! laugh it up, all of you.. i dont give a shit. i'm just glad i get to watch it without having to suffer in a packed cinema with kiddies running around and someone kicking the back of your chair the whole time. WHEE!!! i cant wait. just cant wait. *runs around madly* YAY!!!!!! =P
Saved by the Bell at 08:39 p.m.
18062004
wow.. a week has passed by so quickly! maybe its due to the fact that we hardly had any lessons this week. revision. revision. revision. exciting stuff. yesterday was even worse.. went to school for a total of 1 hr... what a waste of brain cells i tell you.
today was unofficially the last day of Semester 1. its supposed to be SWOT VAC next week.. but no... we have labs... thanx alot Max... oh speaking of Max! i made a new friend today!! whee.. his name is Max, from the US. one of the few people i noticed the first day the newbies arrived. hehehe! well. actually that's all i know about Max. name and nationality.. dont worry i will find out more in time to come!! i'm sure we'll be hanging out pretty often getting a few games on the table... *grinz*
but if i know my friends well enough.. the next question would probably be "IS HE CUTE?!?" hmm.. well he's not a total BABE... or as Phoe would say "Shagedelic".. but he's pretty good looking i suppose. hehehe. dont read too much into this anyways.. it's not like i'm into him or anything..? not really my type... *wink*
Saved by the Bell at 02:49 p.m.
12062004
Vomitting and Defecating is NOT a good thing.
you ppl have no idea how horribly sick i was Friday morning. woke up at around 3am and started puking my lunch from the day before. then i started having the shits... it was really troublesome when i had to puke and shit all at once.. then when i had no more food to throw out, i puked out green stuff- also known as bile. this made my stomach contract horrendously. i mean.. i think it was nearly as bad as being in labour, girls!! you just lay there. not moving, and moan in pain. but in my case, i moaned myself to sleep. and as queitly as possible. i thought i was going to die of the pain.
but now i'm all cured!!! whee!!!! hahahaah it must've been a 24 hour bug... how inconvenient. was supposed to catch Potter-3 after class.. but obviously couldnt since i was laying in bed half the day... found out that about 15 ppl went!!! i missed out!!! what the... and i doubt i'll be going anytime soon. this weekend would be too packed, so Tash wasnt very keen on going.. and exams are just around the corner for us.. so i guess i'll be waiting for a month. grrr.
Saved by the Bell at 10:49 p.m.
10062004
had Chem Labs for the past 2 days.. never been so happy to finish Practicals!! had to stand up for 3 hrs straight yesterday.. god damn metal Ions... funny thing is.. the tutor from one of the experiments remembers my name!! saw her at the bus stop and she said hi to me! gave me a fuckin fright though...
was gonna cook fajitas for dinner... but what a freaky accident. cut my thumb real deep. so i just dipped in water.. oddly enough i thought that would stop the profuse bleeding, for some reason.. few seconds later, i got real dizzy. then i just passed out. right there on the kitchen floor. tasha came just in time with the BandAid to witness my fall... i've never fainted b4 in my life... and i never knew it felt that scary. but i know for a fact that it wasnt the blood that made me pass out.. i've seen my own blood b4! it was just sucha weird feeling... i know its an exaggeration to say.. but it was almost like a near-death experience.. i'm dead serious. no pun intended hey. my heart was still racing when i came to. for those of you who have not got the chance to faint, trust me. its better that way.
well, Harry Potter opened today. Phoe wants to catch it tmr afternoon... we are so lagging u have no idea. but Fizah didnt seem to excited about it when i asked her.. its rated M-13 here i think... not sure about everywhere else... but the characters have matured so much.. with the deep voices and the Ron-Hermione story... not the same classic Potter that we're used to i suppose... oh well. we'll see tmr!
Saved by the Bell at 10:39 p.m.
08062004
AAAAHHHHH!!! the seminar is in half an hr!!! what the! butterflies are forming now.. its been a long time. i just hope the class actually participates.. without the activity, the whole seminar would be total crap!!! wish us luck!
we had new timetables again... i think it was the 3rd in 3 weeks!! im all confused. its mostly due to the Labs.. but im also pretty happy cuz most of the days i get to wake up relatively late!!
ooooh i have goss!! found out that Fernanda is going out with Abs!!! he's one of the guys that went rockclimbing.. but mann when i saw them together in front of the lift.. it was sucha shock. didnt think they would make a couple..? shoulda seen my face. i was smiling from eye to eye!!! ahahhaha. and then during Math lecture this morning (where we were obviously not paying attention) i found out that Sera thinks Oscar is the cutest guy in IES... at first i though she was referring to Benoit!! ahahha what a laugh!
well. after 4 months... i've finally gotten used to the ppl here... pretty comfortable with them.. it seems like i'm back in Sec school. the everyday jokes and lame conversations and never-ending giggles(Phoebs....) basically all the fun times in my life. oh how i miss those days!
honestly, i think i've matured since i got here.. it could be due to the fact that i had no friends when i first arrived.. but yeah. nowadays, i'm more mature mentally.. if i say so myself! hehehe. but seriously. i doubt i can be the same person i was in Sec school. those days of fun is finally over, sadly. and they can never be relived. i've been lying to myself whenever i think about going home and everything would be as i left them. *sigh*
well.. i'm here to update. our seminar ROCKED THE PANTS OFF EVERYONE!!!! hahaha yeah. we had feedback from Koko (shuttup Phoe) that it was the best activity of all! we split up to help the groups out. i think only 1/2 of the class was present... surprise of the century. but anyway, i happened to help Yutaka, Fernanda and Benoit's group. oooh... hahaha! but yeah it was so funny!! when Fernanda asked me "so do i just say, 'oh my job sucks. my job sucks. what am i going to do.'" in this really monotonous tone.. i was about to die laughing! i had to act with them too. and it was reallly lame... but yeah! all's well, ends well. had a good time. *grinz* [12062004, 10:48pm]
Saved by the Bell at 03:06 p.m.
06062004
geez i havent blogged for a long time eh... lets see. what interesting incidents took place over the week? hmmm. i got Tasha a novel. but it has a PINK cover.. its about this Indian family who moves to London and her husband ups and leaves them... the story is abt them dealing with hardships.. and they do alot of the dealing with FOOD!!! i knew she would like that. Ryan got her a HUMONGOUS photo album. we waited till 12mn to give them to her.. was soo sleepy the next morning...
but all was good. went for all-you-can-eat Yumcha in Sunnybank. only costs !! boy was it crowded. but we were about the only non-chinese among the BSA ppl! was supposed to go for the IES bbq at Roma... but in the end Phoebs and the rest left cus there was no more food!! so no point in me going.. ahhaha what a joke! well. i kinda regret not going.. cuz i was quite keen on meeting the newbies.. and playing soccer!! *eerrgh* watched Raising Helen in the end.. it was alright.. but i need to know who the girl is!! the eldest daughter.. she's so familiar but i just cant put a name to her face... anyone knows? fill me in...
Rosanne, Des, Lin and Martin came over Friday night.. and Boz beat me to buying the cake... its ok. at least Tash got to have a cake, since she didnt have one last year.. was a fun little celebration.. even if it was really small.. Then Saturday morning i found out that SOMEONE CUT OUR GARDEN HOSE!! how lame is that.. i think the neighbours were somehow pissed with us?? probably just pissed with alcohol... but it was really weird.. the hose was SLIGHTLY sticking out onto their side of the fence... and it was cut there. how bizarre..
just got back from dinner. what a banquet! Tash treated us to Ouzeri. its a Greek restaraunt. my godd! i havent felt so full in ages. dont have to eat for a few days.. but trust myself to feel hungry in a couple of hours! hahaha
this week we have a weird ass timetable all thanx to the Chem. labs... i'll be going to Uni on Wednesday and Thursday.. the booklet is so thick and the experiments are like.. woah! hahahah. just as long as i'm able to do the experiments and finish on time, im happy.
Saved by the Bell at 09:10 p.m.
01062004
ITS THE FIRST DAY OF WINTER MAN!!! im frrrreeeeezing.. hahaha enough whinging...
well... yesterday was the first day for the newbies!! surprisingly, there are far more Westerners.. well i doubt they're all from the US or UK.. but i saw quite a few whites. ahhh.. it wasnt so long ago that we were like them.. just "floating" around like lost souls.. hahaha! we havent seen them around much though. but i wouldnt mind getting to know a few of them...? *big grinz* well, we WERE told to make them feel welcome and help them around and stuff...? hmmmm. i dunno. i just cant bring myself to go up to someone and simply introduce myself... now. doesnt this all sound so familiar...
a couple of groups presented their cultural seminars this morning... the Qataris, and India-Paki. woah... i dunno if anyone else felt this.. but i thought it was sounding a little like a religious preaching session... he was going on and on about Islamism... okok. then what the hell am i.. i know!!! but still. its the first time i've heard anyone speak so fondly of Islam. hahha. and Niraj from India was really witty with his comments about the Brits... his tone was so Anti. it was really funny!! beats watching a stupid video.. like what we did during Bio lecture... *sigh* Dayana still hasnt found the wonders of teaching skills.
and crap. we have just about 6 days or less to get our Report seminars done... which we hardly started on in the first place! well at least we have an activity in mind to engage the class in discussion... hope it doesnt turn out as SILENT as Zaheer's did today. and i really have to find a quick cure for stuttering and speed-talking in front of a group. help!!
Saved by the Bell at 10:40 p.m.
30052004
whooo!! we finally have a new TV!! no more stupid disco lights. went to Indooroo yeasterday... after a few trips up and down.. we decided on the LG tv from JB HiFi... never got so excited over a new tv before.. hahahah
also bought 2 pairs of pants.. i love my Cords... and believe it or not.. got both pairs for ONLY !!!!! Target's having a sale... hahah what a good day. now i just need to get a few long-sleeved tops and maybe a jacket.. and i'll be set for winter!!! awesome dude.
Saved by the Bell at 02:50 p.m.
28052004
brrrr.. right now it's supposed to be 7 FREAKING DEGREES CELSIUS!!! all u ppl in SG.. u never will appreciate SG's weather til u have to suffer like i do.. sheila. i change my mind.. i think i will die of pneumonia.. not skin cancer like we said a long time ago. aahahha! ohh and maybe rheumatism too.. my bones are aching from the cold! (is that even possible..?)
geez.. there was something Phoebe said today that got me thinking.. dont worry nothing deep. its just that she mentioned something about finally being human again! went to the city today (in the cold) and had Vietnamese for lunch. Spicy Beef Noodle Soup is real good for winter. then walked around.. Phoe had to buy some STUFF, then we wandered aimlessly around. thought i could find something for Tasha.. obviously a lost cause. i totally agree with you Phoe!!! its been TOO long since i went out with friends... we've been locked up in our houses far too long.. hahahhaha
anywayyy. went for Coffee at WestEnd tonight (in the cold again) with Tash, Lin and Rosanne. btw.. Lin is seriously creepin me out.. i have never met anyone like her... i can see the stress she gives Bozzzz... wonder how long they will put up with her. and this Martin-Rosanne thingy is all just a rumour. according to Bozz.. hhaha but Tasha believes her.. so ok. i guess.... well better get to bed.. my eyes are drooping!! nites all.
Saved by the Bell at 11:10 p.m.
26052004
what a day... dayana didnt turn up for class... so what d'ya know? we had a 3 hr break.. it was well spent i must say... kinda completed my presentation.. but not till i saw presentations from Zaheer and the Japs!! mann.. mine, in comparison, is total shit. i mean.. they have so much culture, and history that's actually interesting... and the Japs even brought stuff to show.. kinda like show and tell! Megumi was so cute.. hahha! think Singapore's would be like... "uhh. ok...?" hahaha thank god i didnt present today...
hell the exam timetables were posted at the end of last week.. i have all 4 papers within 3 days! and with the labs falling on SWOT VAC, i have no more than a weekend to intense study b4 that! geez... that will totally help. guess this is an obvious sign for me to STUDY NOW! oh well... time for me to get offline and do some exciting chemistry problems... total highlight of the day dude!
Saved by the Bell at 10:51 p.m.
24052004
well anyway... this song is dedicated to all those who found someone special... take care of urselves, and each other.
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish I could take it all away
And me the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I found a reason for me
To change who I use to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
Saved by the Bell at 04:58 p.m.
24052004
Tasha had her operation on thurs... and thanx to her, i never want to have an operation. if everything is what it seems, and if she's not exaggerating, she looks like she's in alot of pain.. its supposed to be a routine op.. gall stones are pretty common..? she hasnt been able to walk about like normal. so.. being the great sister that i am, i've been helping her out.. cook and clean and keep the house looking like a house.
but this weekend hasnt been very good for me... had a little moment with Him on Saturday. what He did really pissed me off.. UHH!! i know its really tiny... but still! so i just told Him off. this whole week He did not lift a fucking finger... well not anywhere besides from the keyboard. i dont know why i got so worked up over this... but it all just piled on. well anyway, i havent spoken 2 words to Him since Saturday. wonder if He even knows why...
im home today cuz tasha needed help... cooked again... im sucha maid its not even funny. over the past few days. i've been seriously contemplating moving out. mum told me to just ignore Him, which is what im doing obviously.. and also because i shouldnt put tasha between us... EEEERRRGHHH!! so fuckin frustrated. what am i supposed to do..
Saved by the Bell at 04:02 p.m.
20052004
just been ard giving testimonials... oh how i miss evryone back home... its so sad... people why hasnt anyone called... ie: nadia bte hanafi!!!! what an idiot... there's so many things goin on... and i havent got a clue... oh well.. i think of it as a long-distance relationship... people that were so close just drift apart.. and eventually it simply stops.. hahah how sad. oh well... i will be quick.. and sign off here.. i have class in 5 mins!!!!
Saved by the Bell at 04:17 p.m.
Friday, May 14, 2004
behind my mask... this is what i feel
been thinking alot lately about evrthing and nothing... and just now when i was on the toilet bowl (sorry but there's nothing else i can do there!) i realised that i'm a very bad conversationalist. i mean... its not that i dont have the English skills... but it seems words dont come by as easily to me than to others. i dont like the feling i get during long periods of silence with someone..
in one of those quiz-about-urself thingies, i've described true love as being able to share a silence with someone comfortably.. and that hasnt been one of my greater capabilities so far! (i hope this doesnt stop me from finding true love, though.. heehee!) and then i remember all the times i thought back on sth i said or sth that happened, and i feel stupid because of what i said.. and i go on to think of how i could have said it in another way... this has been happening for godknows how long... (u ppl might be thinking "what the hell is she crapping abt?!".. well its MY fucking diary.) but i cant change the way i am.. thats the fucked up thing.
and i also hate it when people(mostly me) say things just to break the silence, when they just pick a totally random topic from nowhere... its real obvious when this happens and it makes the 2 speakers feel awkward.. well i do anyway. i feel like im being sucha hypocrite cuz i say i hate it when I'M doing it... but in actual fact im just hating MYSELF for doing so! dont get me wrong.. sorry if im sounding like sucha bitch now.. maybe its PMS.. but i have alot of things on my mind...
there's another little thing that has been nagging at the back of my mind lately... i've gone on and on about my fear that frens from home will become so distant that they completely forget my existence.(or lack of...) well. now i think about when i go back and meet up with these people.. it would be outings filled with sessions of silence and annoying random conversation topics. whenever i read their blogs, i learn about all the things i've missed. (results, thanksgiving mass, outings..) then there's all the things i have no clue about. like siankia getting attached.. i only found out after seeing their pics! and sheila and her "baby" (dont ask me...) then there's Nad with some Anthony fella.. and prob alot of other fellas too.
okok i know i dont have the right for evryone to tell me evrything that goes on... but these are the people i was closest to when i was still "around".. and i mean before school ended.. not in 2004. oh well. trust me to get evryone feeling real low.. ok. i should shuttup now. to anyone who read this: sorry. i dont expect any apologies or explanations about anything. this is just my haven to rant and rave. love yous.
Saved by the Bell at 09:03 p.m.
14052004
the week has come to an end once again.. i shall relive the highlights, if any... we just found out that the TSA misery is not going to end anytime soon. before we hand in our final report, we still have to give a group seminar based on it. and i thought my troubles were over... now i have to get in front of the class and speak for at least 10 mins! erggh!! when will it end!??!
on a lighter note, thursday afternoon was spent in a more leisurely manner.. after lunch, we (Phoebe, Chiew, Festia, Steph, etc) proceeded to begin our increasingly ritual card-playing. after a few rounds of Daidee, most of them had to head to class.. leaving Phoebe, Festia and me. so i suggested we play Speed. we started off playing Phoebe's version... then continued with mine.. i must say, im glad we switched to mine.. much more challenging! it was hilarious trying to beat Phoebe.. and having Festia beside us cheering and jeering at the same time contributed greatly. my heart was going a mile a minute trying to throw the cards down while keeping an eye on Phoebe...
today was International Food Day. (no comments please) after thinking for so long that i wouldnt give a care about this, Sera comes to me a few days ago and asks what i was bringing... maybe im too soft, or maybe its just guilt.. but i couldnt just say no to her.. so off to Woolies i went to figure what i could cook... chose Fried Bee Hoon in the end... it was real packed in the student lounge... i never saw so many people in it on a friday afternoon!! but there were some tasty looking dishes around. i managed to try Marie's Swedish Meatballs... YUUMMM~ and Dave's Anzac cookies.. and the Indon dishes... whoo sambal never tasted so good! but i couldnt be bothered to stay to the very end, so i left.. obviously un-missed. (if there was such a word) but not before we managed to take a few group pics!! at least there's sth for keepsakes.. all in all... it was a pretty good week. especially since Donna, totally unexpectedly gave us the afternoon off on Tuesday!! she wanted us to spend it catching up for the essay.. ri-ght. good on ya!
Saved by the Bell at 07:48 p.m.
12052004
omg.. its really becoming winter.. i cant feel my fingers AND my nose!!! and my constant shivering is no help either...
had an essay exam today... was pretty bad.. i never knew i would have trouble writing with a word limit of 250.. i couldnt summarise! hahah im sure to fail this one... oh well... 2.5% big hairy deal. had the Chem test on monday as well.. i think i'll fail that one too. even Dave said he didnt realise so many of us couldnt answer alot of the Qns.. hmm.. not a good sign! at the rate this is goin, i better start mugging now. NOT!!! hahah.
i wish lessons would have more interaction.. from the student's part. i pity Dave cuz he's always trying to get our attention but noone ever responds.. i dont feel comfortable speaking up in this class. mainly cuz i dont know 3/4 of them. if other ppl start participating only then will i be myself more naturally... ie: be the loudmouth! but things like these takes time.
Saved by the Bell at 07:54 p.m.
07052004
HOORAYYY!! no more TS report shit for another week or so!!!! i can wash my hands of it for that long... never been so happy to finish an assignment.. hahahaha. oh well.
im SUPPOSED to go to uni to play ball with Sera and some other ppl... but im soooo lazy to leave the house... errgh... should have brought my stuff along to school. now i dont wanna go out again... mann.. but i havent played in sososo long!! what should i do..? this sux. oh i just remembered.. there's the student-VS-teacher badminton thingy on today.. so if they have the courts booked, we cant use them... oh mann i dont have any mood to play outdoors... ok i wont go..
i found out a few minutes ago that Sean knows Rachel Thomas!! figures, cuz he was in AC for awhile before coming here... how cool is that?! hahhah Spore is sucha small place. and also, IES has a friendster page... what the...?! haha but i added it to my list anyway... right.. this weekend i HAVE to do some serious studying.. the freaking exams are nearing..(not really) and i dont want to make the same mistakes as before... i will start early! phoebe... stop laughing, im serious!!!!
one more thing. was walking down the corridor after class yesterday, when we bumped into Liz. she told me the Council members didnt believe i'm 16. ??? they thought "i act mature for my age" or sth like that. never knew i was being talked about outside class! didnt think people actually noticed me. how interesting! it really made my day though.
Saved by the Bell at 01:10 p.m.
02052004
brr! its cold in here... well thats cuz winter's near.
what did i tell you guys. ITS ALREADY THE 2ND OF MAYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!! time passes by so quickly i cant even begin to describe it. and also.. i will begin my torturous whinging about how ridiculously cold it is getting here in Briz. well, maybe its just the fact that im from a tropical country, with no experience in winter.. its all new to me.. Phoebe says this is nothing to her.. (something to that extent) but seroiusly.. im positive its excusable when it comes to the point where i cant feel my fingers... i.e now! *brrrrrrrr* but i have to admit.. it beats the 40 degree summers... at least i have means of keeping warm.
was at Phoebe's today. we met to start on our report... we made quite good progress actually... actually managed to finish.. oh i dunno... 1 section...?! hahahah! what the hell. its going to be one long week...
Saved by the Bell at 12:23 a.m.
30042004
mann. time passes by so quickly... its already the end of april... and it feels like i only just left Spore. but anyway, we went to uni to do the questionnaires today... wow.. phoebe and i started of pretty bad.. got rejected twice in a row. then it got better.. took quite awhile for me to get into the groove of things.. but we finished it in less than an hour!! ok not all the questionnaires, cuz the rest were saved for people out of uni... i got one from a guy sitting in toowong. hahaha! i rock!!
oh and i saw benoit there too! with some girl.. ooooh! juicy!! hahah. dont know her.. i think their group finished pretty fast too. we met them at uni.. and they only just started.. they finished just before us.. we're quite efficient actually.. what do u think Phoebe?!
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24042004
wheee.. went to Surfer's today. woke up bloody hell early-8.30?! wtf! well.. stupid thing was, i forgot to bring my money, and ID. hell i was pissed with myself... was so upset that i couldnt spend my OWN money to shop.. errgh.. but other than that, it was a nice day at the beach. it was really relaxing. but it was freaking cold i tell you! then when tasha and i went into the water.. i was freezing inside.. my tummy was chattering with the cold! brrrr.. had a picnic of sandwiches, grapes, crackers and dip, and chips. what a healthy meal... hahaha!
was in the city on friday. while waiting for tasha i went to City Beach.. mann.. i wish i was rich.. i mean REALLY rich. there's sooo many things i wanna buy.. but so little money.. and also the fact that i cant fit into half the jeans they have on sale... bloody aussies and they're stick legs... oh well. i may just make myself content with the Palmers cap then.
Saved by the Bell at 09:38 p.m.
23042004
i feel stupid again. was nervous that i didnt study for the physics test we were s'posed to have today. in the end, Steve said we'll do it some time next week. errghh. now i have no excuse not to study..theres a long wkend. gotta get down to doing actual revision! not just bringing the book home and leaving them on the table. hhahah! oh well. i'm waiting for time to pass by.. plan to go into the city and do some shopping? hope i can find City Beach there and maybe i can finally get the cap!! hehehe. goin to Voda to cancel the voicemail, then meet Tasha. she has to collect her Medical results for her visa. hope nothing's wrong with her. not that there isnt any.. HAHA! you know what i mean.. Anyway, this namecalling thing is gettin out of hand!!! so frustrating... PHOEBE I'LL KILL YOU!!!!! now evryone calls me that stupid name.. i wore a skirt today.. and they all went mad when they saw it.. i mean mad as in they started the teasing all over... *sigh* it's out of my control, unfortunately..
Saved by the Bell at 12:07 p.m.
22042004
we had a super long break today because the computer system was down, so we couldnt have a lab session for physics. anyway.. Phoebe and i were utterly bored.. one extra hour added to our 3 and a half hr break was too much. but we made use of it of course.. after doing some work, we played Daidee with Sera and Meng. Sera was going mad, rushing all of us to put our cards down within evry second! then Festia and Stephanie came and sat with us.. and started playing this weird card trick with me... i kinda got freaked out. hahaha.
it was the best ending to a day i've ever had in school so far... was having biology, which i must announce was a complete waste of time attending, since we only did a tutorial and checked answers... during this time, Dayana came around to check on our work and stopped at Benoit's table. (he's a french guy, btw)
Dayana: What happened to the spindle fibres?
Benoit: (in French accent) What?
Dayana: The spindle fibres. Where are they in your drawing?
Benoit: (un a dead serious tone)I dunno.. Zey Zisappeared.
omg!!! Phoebe and i started giggling horribly, trying to control ourselves. then we heard Marie and Fernanda laugh out loud.. and so we burst out laughing. mann. should have seen us both. we were about to implode. i think i finally started my pec-forming sessions once again. we were still laughing about madly all the way to Central.
Saved by the Bell at 08:54 p.m.
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hehe i like the date today! ri-ght. anyway, i have morons for classmates this year... ahahah nothing mean that is... but it all started with stephanie... she was telling me about justine's "new nickname". it was from some Indon drama- a sexy maid. and then i have no idea how it turned on me... and phoebe starts to call me that instead. just great. hahahah. lameasses...
tasha is thinking of taking a trip up to sunshine coast this weekend. just for saturday. oooh!! i hope we go!! i havent been to ANY beaches since i got here. this is AUSTRALIA for goodness' sake!!!
Saved by the Bell at 08:41 p.m.
16042004
Fizah: omg really?? i think if they had that here, i would be in it too!! we're just fated.. hahah! what the hell... CIP club.. why not bball? or at least some other sport or sth... what do you do in CIP club? ohhh my school work isnt too bad. i actually know how to do the amaths parts!!
Letitia: wow i am surprised! hahah but yay! the more the merrier! go put my link on all your blogs!! hahaha spread the good word.
Dee: if NY is boring, u should see me. shops close by 6, except thurs, and there's not much to do here... so quit complaining! haha yeah!! come visit me!!!!!!!!
Mousey: hi serene!! yeah i know.. my MSN was don for awhile, and also cuz my sis' bf hogged the com the whole week... moron. its good to know that im not the only one feeling the way i do... u know what i mean. i miss u alot.. hope you're doin fine.. besides your truckload of schoolwork.. hehehe
Saved by the Bell at 01:40 p.m.
16042001
the end of a long, relaxing, deserved break.
holy crap. the break is almost over... and i only used the com once..? ryan was running his Camelot marathon while tasha was away. so obviously, he hogged the com the whole time!!! moron.
anyway.. tasha is back. we fetched her from Central yesterday.. well almost. she was so disappointed that we weren't at the platform to meet her, cuz we were still getting her gifts! so its not totally our fault... hahahah!!!
well. after a long time of bumming in the house, i finally went out on Wednesday. YAY! Pam, Phoebe, her friend Katherine, and i went to Indooroo to watch Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen. hilarious!!! i never knew Lindsay Lohan was a singing/dancing kind of actress.. but only after the movie started did i realise that i read the book a longgg time ago! we walked around, did some shopping too.. and now i want to get the Palmers cap from City Beach!! whhooo! they're having a JEANS AND SHOES SALE too. so i wanna try and get a pair of jeans... cant wait. i planned to go at 1(now!!) but im really taking my time as you can see. and also because im chatting with faisal. its been soo long... catching up with him..
Saved by the Bell at 12:49 p.m.
05042004
having a free period now. donna went home cos she's sick.. eheheh wheee!!! its very rare that we get free time in the labs during school hours.. so im making full use of this opportunity!
well... i just got a couple of friendster messages from sheila and stacey pestana.. so good to hear from them! sheila CLAIMS that she has alot of bitching to fill me in with... hmm. i wonder what it could be..? i also saw pics of fizah in her MJ uniform.. oooh looks good i must say.. she looks mature and JC-fied.. heheh not the lameass crapper that used to be. haha! it feels really good to see photos of these people back home.. after so long of not seeing them i mean. its the closest i can get to hanging out with frens... i've been trying to upload my rockclimbing pics unto friendster but i dunno why it can get thru... stupid error.. i will try until i get it! well... till next time!
Saved by the Bell at 03:10 p.m.
Friday, April 2, 2004
help!!! i am in school now.. and i just finished 2 tests within the short period of 2 hrs!!! it sux. physics was just bad. no other word describes it. i already lost 11 marks from incomplete questions.. and the rest was just pure guessing. sooo.. YOU do the math... im gonna fail. no surprise there though.. bio was alrite.. but im pretty sure im gonna get a whole loada careless mistakes.. and there were some i simply couldnt remember.. no matter how simple.
but anyway... on a lighter note.. i finally saw the rockclimbing pics!!! they rock.. no pun intended. but there weren't many of me.. but there's the grp one(most importantly) u guys can see some of the ppl from school! woohoo!! ahahaha.. ok i have another half an hour to kill before the math test starts... soooooo im gonna read ur blogs!! take care all!
Saved by the Bell at 12:44 p.m.
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in school relaxing before i start work. got my cuppa ready on the table.. phoebe brought her notebook in today.. cool. now she can access the documents from home.. i think.. oh well. she's using it now.. she will never have to wait for a free lab com ever again. i think i gotta go off soon.. seems to be alot of people who wanna use the com all of a sudden. i'll be a nice person and give up my com. soon... i just realised that i have to take my chem test tomorrow.. and the other 3 on friday!! i have to come in at 9 just for stupid dayana and her bio! asshole.
havent spoken to ppl in spore since nadia's bday.. that was on 23feb!! wow.. i have actually lost almost all contact from people back home. this is not good.. its gonna be weird i go back in dec... *sigh*
Saved by the Bell at 02:29 p.m.
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geez... i've never spent so much time at a library before in my life.. but UQ Library is an exception.. its totally unlike any other one i've been to. so im not a nerd. with the stupid TSA individual plan due on friday, im nowhere near completing it. as usual. i've got to go to the library TOMORROW!! sunday at the library.. exciting. not like i have a choice...
got a new shirt from KATHMANDU today! yay! but.. its pink. my very first. ahahah... well i like it! bite me. heard from fizah that they got their steeples!! dad made it to Thomson.. so i have my copy tooo!! i cant wait to get my hands on it... must remember to ask mummy to post it. cant believe im getting all excited over a school magazine. *sigh* one of the highlights in my life.
ohh! we bought our tent and sleeping bags and deck chairs from KMART today... yay! cant wait for mid-sem break!!! the big event im anticipating is the week long trip to whitsundays island... i've never went camping with non school people b4... this should be fun. hope the weather isnt too harsh! ok i should go... gotta wake up early!
Saved by the Bell at 11:10 p.m.
22032004
been sick for the past 2 days.. feel really crappy. my head's constantly spinning and it feels like its about to explode. went to the doc at UQ and now im waiting for tasha in the library. cant even blow my nose cuz its so damn quiet here.. geez. got an MC for 3 days... i missed the math and chem tests today. and i will miss the bio one tmr.. hooray! wasnt prepared anyway. wonder what i'll miss at school. hope nothing happens while im away! i miss B and M. *sob* ok gotta get back to researching... not going well though. *sigh*
Saved by the Bell at 04:33 p.m.
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what was up with pitas yesterday!? couldnt login.. stupid. anyway... i have gone back to my old ways again... only a certain few of u will know what i mean.. im not gonna elaborate. but this time there's 2 involved... kinda complicated.. the first one totally reminds me of N. we'll call the person M. M is slightly older than N, but they share many similar qualities. and i cant help but think that i feel the same again... it sux though... cos M is also frens with B!! thats the other person.. it sux... and i cant help it cos both M and B are in many of my classes. AND both M and B coincidentaly always sit behind me... i have no hope. it doesnt help being the youngest. noone notices u.
ohh! student comm. results are out! Zaheer got the position for our class. i knew he would.. i voted for him!! goes to show that age doesnt matter. others include Sera and Oscar the Mexican guy. dont know who the rest are. congrats ppl!!! but why do i still have this feeling of disappointment.. and regret. dont have any freaking idea why i still wanna be part of that life.. Commitee member.. but i did! i do... i suck.
Saved by the Bell at 01:42 p.m.
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ppl can u believe it!! i have been studying evry weekend for the past few weekends! how lame is that... its cuz there's not much to do here.. hohoho. i actually know whats goin on in bio. and chem.. unfortunately i cant say the same for physics, though... its just too complex for my incompletely developed mind. i go slow... hahaha. ri-ght. well anyway.. i should get to bed now.. wouldnt wanna miss lecture tmr!
Saved by the Bell at 10:30 p.m.
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its a boring draggy day... bio was the pits.. Dayana was going on and on abt god knows what... was trying SO hard not to doze off.. but that proved to be a real task. having my break now.. phoebe has her PPT workshop, so im alone for an hour... sad. talked to Jerry yesterday for the first time... he's in some of my classes. and he didnt even know that till yesterday! idiot. hopefully tasha and i can make it to Schonell for the movie tonite... i dont wanna stay home all nite. too boring, plus there's too many mozzies ard... they're getting on my nerves! i've been bitten uncountable times so far... and trust me its not the end... the weather's getting all weird now.. sposed to be autumn and its in the 30s.. geez. cant wait till tmr.. gonna go shopping at Indooroo!! hope i get to buy nice stuff... till later!
Saved by the Bell at 01:45 p.m.
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hey all!! today is a happy day... although its wet outside, im happy!!!! goin rockclimbing after lunch today... should be a fun event! i cant wait... been lookin forward to it since monday!! yay! quite a few ppl i know are going... so it'll be really cool... mann. i hope we stay there for a long time... havent been doin any sports since i cant remember when.... i hope i dont pull any muscles or crap.. hehehe.
Saved by the Bell at 11:09 a.m.
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shitt!!! i lost all my previous entries!! this sux ppl. i forgot to link the index thingy, and now i cant get to the damn thing. soo.... if u dunno whats been happening with me the whole time i've been here, sorry. hahaha!! geez... i wld have to tell evrything all over again?? ahh cant be bothered. heheh. having a break now, an hr before the next lesson. rarr!! i hate waiting around!! cant do anyting productive.. *sigh* might be going to the bank during lunch.. cuz there's sth wrong with the ATMs... found out im not the only one who couldnt transact.. so i'll prob go with phoebe.. hooray!! wont be alone. yay!
Saved by the Bell at 11:06 a.m.
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