been a little slack, but i think i should at least post briefly tonight.. Clair went to visit her mum in Hervey Bay yesterday, and we realised it would be the first time since we started hanging out that we would be apart for more than one day in a row. she's gone for 4 days. and so she convinced me, Monday morning 2 hours before she leaves, to go with her for a night! so i packed some clothes and toiletries and met her at the train station. and so we spent hours on the train. and met her mum at Maryborough West station. it was a little weird, cos her mum already had the idea that i was a "friend" of her's haha. but it was a good getaway for us, and her mum is the sweetest. she's pretty cool too. although i now see where Clair gets all her isms from! i love her mum... and so now i'm back in brisbane, and she's telling me she misses me and blah.. after i left, clair said her mum was asking her lots of questions about me and us. and said something about visiting Singapore in the near future. HAHA. this was getting weird, but nice at the same time... ohh well. no expectations!

she takes a breath at 09:12 p.m.

Friday, June 13, 2008

so yess. it's my final exam period of my degree. and i'm blogging. i havent actually started studying for the paper tmr. i dont know why i'm so unbothered by it. but i think it's the constant distractions keeping my mind occupied that takes the stress away. so, the boat is still floating. i'm not sure if it's just me reading too much into it, but i think she's caught in the web as well. it used to be just daily hanging outs. now it's frequent hanging out in bedrooms and stayovers. and i think it's safe to say she's treating me like we are together. oh well let's see what happens when August is here...

anyway, it's PRIDE tmr!! this will be my first Pride ever, and what better time since i came out 8 months ago! haha. unfortunately, i have an exam in the morning that wont finish before 1, so i'm missing the march =( will be at the Fair though, gotta purchase the gayness, like i'm not gay enough! and well, proceeds go to a good cause so i'm not fussed! and then later that night we will be making our way to TheBeat for more gayness haha. should be a blast, majority of Brisbane queers will be in one location! cant waitttt! i will probably be painted with rainbows... =P

she takes a breath at 07:06 p.m.

Thursday, June 5, 2008

OK I KNOW IT'S BEEN 2 MONTHS... a shit load has happened in that 2 months too... holy shit it's been eventful. and i still stand by my Motto! so i really have to update on EVERYTHING that has happened since... but i'll try to be concise.

April Sometime
a newbie started working with us at the start of Feb this year... but since i've been on day shifts due to uni commitments, i never got a chance to meet her or work with her for this whole time. finally, i got a chance after one shift. i helped her out with some bar stuff. later on, we exchanged some messages and planned to hang out some weekend. a weekend came and she was ecstatic to have a friday night off. so we planned to head to TheBeat. we danced, and chatted... we got to know each other's stories. she doesnt drink. hmmm...
2 days later, she texts me after having a fight with "her girl" and wants to hang out. i invite her to come along with me to a Going Away drinks session for one of the staff. we hang out while i finished my bar shift, and proceeded to head to the houseparty. there, we were convinced to head to Fluffy for a night out with a couple of gayboys from work. a Gay Night Out indeed. the night went on, we had fun dancing and being silly. all was good. i got a little drunk. we sat in a corner to chat.. we got close. headed back for food, and we got closer. by 6am, we were in each other's arms. and after a quiet toilet session, things went to the next level.
we spent time together and a couple of days later, we made a decision to try it out. i didnt think i was into her, but the idea of having a relationship was too appealing to pass. 4 days later, she turns around and changes her mind. she cant do this, doesnt want to hurt me, she's involved with someone else. that someone else is overseas. by this point, i'm bloody invested, and it did hurt.

she takes a breath at 02:40 p.m.