well it is over, that's for sure! it's the eve of the Sydney trip woohoo!!! but i havent packed even a sock. and plans were a little sidetracked, making me feel rather anxious about the whole trip altogether. i just feel the trip isnt gonna be the same, and i'm gonna be stranded somewhere...

but there's enough pessimism in this world, it doesnt need mine. yesteday was sucha a holiday! i mean it finally feels like i'm on a holiday. i was content to stay home and veg as always, when i was called to come out for lunch and coffee. so i dawdled the time away, and coffee was drunk with 2 extra people! sera and chiew joined us. and then more spontaineity after we decided to head to the city for some (window) shopping. and to end a good day, was a great night. Sera invited chiew and myself to join her, Angie and Nick for TAPAS AND DRINKS! yess. we were at a restaraunt.. champagne, wine and Sambuca (aka Bonjela/cough medicine) shots. oh godd. all the tomato-red faces at one table... sera was about to knock out, i had to help her with her share! hahaha. but i had fun anyway, and no. i was not drunk OR tipsy. we leave that to Sera to fulfil. heh.

and now, i prepare myself for Sydney.. tried my best to remove all negativity from my mind. but it just keeps coming back to me. *sigh* i figured, this is God's way of making me learn to be INDEPENDENT and less of a chickenshit. i guess this way, i cant depend on ANYONE to make decisions for me, no matter how small. and that i'll have to be my own person. GO NADD! 8 days of ME time. i suppose this is where i begin "self-discovery".. bring out the 18 year old that i long to be.

she takes a breath at 05:40 p.m.

Saturday, June 25, 2005

mmm. in less than 5 hours i'll be FREEEEEE! i've made it this far without my head imploding, so i should be alright. oh but, what am i doing online?? haha. i just planned my Sem 2 timetable.. how efficient. what great priorities too! heck it. as Sharifah says, "Who the heck studies for the last paper?" you go girl! =)

Tash had the car since sunday, so i'll be getting a lift to and from uni today! hooray. no need to freeze in the cold cruel winter winds. but i guess there will be another time when i can talk abt more pressing issues. for now, i'll suck it up and study. it will end soon.

she takes a breath at 03:10 p.m.

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

well i fucked up Monday's paper didnt i.. the shit i studied, or at least what i remembered, didnt come out. and those i didnt, did!! fuckup. and because of that, i've lost all hope and motivation for Saturday.. partly due to the fact that i have the house to myself ALL DAY LONG, so i can veg when i want. and all this GRAND-ness will end in about 12 hours or so. *sobs* i like the solitude. it gives me a sense of space and peacefulness. and relaxation, sth i should not be indulging in at the moment, but WHO CARES!?

yes, come tomorrow, i wont be as free as i'd like to. i'll have to revert back to the sharing and compromising and hiding out in the confines of my room, where i can FREEZE to death. wouldnt it be just ideal if i could move out NOW with no hassle. just up and go. yeahh... well i'll have to wait at least another year! Patience, child. something i really am lacking.

ohmygod. i just realised from 27th June, i'll have to live with the Pig without Tash being here! thank god for Sydney, that takes 8 days of the list. but hell, it's gonna be crap! i just hope he goes somewhere with his mates. leave me alone. at least i wont let the house turn into a sty.. pray for my soul, people!!! :|

she takes a breath at 03:14 a.m.

Sunday, June 19, 2005

first week of exams are over.. 6 days to go! shit what the hell am i doing here? i SHOULD be studying now.. key word: should. bloody hell tmr and Saturday's papers start at 545pm!!! ok tmr isnt so bad. but SATURDAY NIGHT EXAM!?!? cmon! i'm beginning to hate this even more than when it began. *grunt*

and it's FUCKING COLD here now!!! omg u have no idea! imagine. it's so cold that my bones in my hands have been aching since this arvo. i think i'm getting rheumatism.. brr. ergh i cant wait for it all to just be bloody over!!! then only can i stress over non-life-changing issues like freezing to death in this matchbox of a house. wait. if it WAS a matchbox, i could light it to keep me warm... ARRRHHHH!!!! i'm going mental.

hmm if you're wondering how i got to use the com, it's because i'm ALONE AT HOME TILL WEDNESDAY WHOO!!! Tash and Ryan have gone to the Sunshine Coast, and some other places... i have the WHOLE house to myself. yess! all 2 rooms, and a kitchen/living area! how grand.

she takes a breath at 11:31 p.m.

Monday, June 13, 2005

ok. so the whole week went by and i'm not exactly ready, BUT i'm not exactly screwed either. PHEW! i've been studying... just dont know if i can keep everything in till the papers end.. and i have to bloody wait till at least after 7PM on 25th JUNE! omg.. this is ridiculous.. i cant believe i have to wait THAT long! and what makes it worse is i'm still "illegal" so i cant really go anywhere to celebrate can i? unless... someone lends me their ID. hmmm..

oh there was an incident in the week.. regarding Tash i mean.. but i'm surprised i didnt have to listen to her.. Thanks to a certain CremeBrulee who talked to her. well. i couldnt possibly leave after what happened!! so yeah all's good.

so now i better get some food in and start my daily mugging routine once more. *sigh* how i hate studying.

she takes a breath at 11:17 a.m.

Saturday, June 4, 2005

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TASH! early morning today, she liked her card.. and the $50!:) went for Yum Cha brunch, then Milton for bowling. i won the first game, and she won the next. i was shocking. i never played a worse game than the second one. *shakes head in disappointment*

but anyway... yeah the phones have been off the hook all day. ppl calling in to give their wishes and blessings.. blahblah. hmmm. she told Yvette that i smoke. couldnt figure out when she did, cos i was there throughout her whole conversation. it must have been via sms. oh but Yvettes's fine. she said, "i think it's good." HAHA! sure she does. as long as the MOTHER doesnt find out. nagging is not on my Favourites list.

having her bday thing tmr. just a couple of handfuls of ppl will be here. thankfully, Bev and Sera have been invited. so i wont be bored. i expect the BEER to keep the 'party' going hehe. little bit of fun before we really get down to the wire... *sobs*

she takes a breath at 11:03 p.m.

Thursday, June 2, 2005

ergh being sick sucks. everytime i step in uni my head throbs.. hmmm maybe it's a psychological thing..? haha. got another MC today. cos i skipped prac again! whoo Nad the Rebel. dont mess with me.

havent been online in a week! saw no urgent need to do so, maybe it's getting old. and also mainly because HE has been hogging the com 24/7 this week. bloody asswipe.

this week's the last week of uni before revision starts... and i'm not making any progress. it's more of a DE-gress! and i just know for a fact that i'm gonna procrastinate further, using the excuse of "i have lots of time in between papers!" seriously. i know myself too well! but hey.. i did make at least ONE accomplisment this sem...

BIOL1015 lecture today was spent on prize-giving for our eConferences.. and lo and behold, Trish and i won for our Cluster!!! whoo! go TEAM! yeah it was so unexpected.. stupid Jess warned me not to fall down the stairs when i told her i saw my name.. hmph! well we both walked down the aisles with stupid looks on our faces. then Roger was like, "i suppose you both weren't expecting this?" ahhaha!!! prizewinners each got a $25 gift voucher at UQ Bookshop. so it's about time i got my hoodie.

ohh i have to share the lame humour of the UQ Bookshop ppl... they're having a sale on some of the merch at the Bookshop. so above all the hoodies there was a sign that said, "Be COOL, not COLD this winter. Buy a Hoodie." ohmygodd.. and i thought i left that when i left IJ. haha!

one more worry. Tasha's bday this weekend. i still havent got her gift!! shit. oh but i found a very "appropriate" and suitable card for her. i'm sure she'll see the love and appreciate it. HEH!

she takes a breath at 10:24 p.m.