hmm i take SOME of my words back. Friday's Anatomy pract wasnt so bad after all. cos Crystal was organised and she read the text, so we cruised through! haha. but the fun stuff starts on Monday. cos we'll be starting on Cadavers. for those of you who arent scientifically advanced, this means that we'll be examining REAL HUMAN BODIES! dead ones of course. i'm still trying to figure out if this is a good thing or a bad thing.. but it's interesting...

Tasha asked if i'd like a job at Pancakes. she said she can ask Paul if he needs staff now, cos i'll only do weekends if anything. so i'm wondering. do i want to work there? just on the surface, i'm gonna be stinking every weekend, and my feet will be so sore. but then again, do i want to work with Tasha? *sigh* it's a whole new world for me, working. so i'm entitled to my fair share of doubts and stress. and a good environment is vital for survival, i reckon. decisions decisions. it never ends.

right now the main stress priority is really beginning Sem2. cos we've been briefed on the assessments to come, and it's a lot. there's a whole truckload for all 4 courses. so top on my list, starting on the right foot. i dont want to go through like last sem. cos i struggled, and i procrastinated. and look where that got me! i cant afford crap grades like these. not anymore.

Please God of Academics, guide me. Lead me from temptation to bum, and let me be willingly studious for once.

she takes a breath at 08:37 p.m.

Saturday, July 30, 2005

hmm i take SOME of my words back. Friday's Anatomy pract wasnt so bad after all. cos Crystal was organised and she read the text, so we cruised through! haha. but the fun stuff starts on Monday. cos we'll be starting on Cadavers. for those of you who arent scientifically advanced, this means that we'll be examining REAL HUMAN BODIES! dead ones of course. i'm still trying to figure out if this is a good thing or a bad thing.. but it's interesting...

Tasha asked if i'd like a job at Pancakes. she said she can ask Paul if he needs staff now, cos i'll only do weekends if anything. so i'm wondering. do i want to work there? just on the surface, i'm gonna be stinking every weekend, and my feet will be so sore. but then again, do i want to work with Tasha? *sigh* it's a whole new world for me, working. so i'm entitled to my fair share of doubts and stress. and a good environment is vital for survival, i reckon. decisions decisions. it never ends.

right now the main stress priority is really beginning Sem2. cos we've been briefed on the assessments to come, and it's a lot. there's a whole truckload for all 4 courses. so top on my list, starting on the right foot. i dont want to go through like last sem. cos i struggled, and i procrastinated. and look where that got me! i cant afford crap grades like these. not anymore.

Please God of Academics, guide me. Lead me from temptation to bum, and let me be willingly studious for once.

she takes a breath at 08:37 p.m.

Thursday, July 28, 2005

first week of Semester 2. it's Thursday night. and tmr isnt the greatest day of the week. no siree. what weekend??i hate Mondays and Fridays!! ohmygod. my timetable! more than 4hrs of pract per week! it goes up to 7 on alternate weeks.. *sigh* this IS just the first week. i should prepare myself for the worst, huh? boohoo...

but as a consolation, there's tennis to be played. not sure if it's going to be a weekly affair, but i hope it is. i'll wind down by getting pumped. haha! yeah. really need to exercise... hmmm. which reminds me. i have to email the people in UQ bball and soccer regarding training times and stuff. what shall i join ppl??

oh YESS! we had Chappati for dinner tonight. hooray!! cos HE wasnt home in the evening. DOUBLE HOORAY! but he's home now. and i dont like that one bit. somehow, he still finds ways to get up my nose. and that's even when i try at all costs to avoid any communication whatsoever. i catch myself thinking ill of him. but what scares me the most is, i dont feel guilt or remorse most of that time. *sigh* cant help it. it's my post-adolescent incompletely-formed brain that's doing the thinking, not me. oh well.

she takes a breath at 09:39 p.m.

Friday, July 22, 2005

i am NOT aching today. all thanks to DeepHeat spray. whee! went to the Valley with Creme this arvo. thought i'd go along for her grocery shopping session. we can make Chappati now that i bought Atta flour!! yay!! a little taste of home in our pantry... but while getting the stuff, we went a little bit off our heads. as usual. maybe it's PMS, but our craving for spice made us go mad when we saw all the chilli and sambal and sauces on the shelves. i really overworked my salivary glands today.

so the weekend is here, and soon it'll be the start of Sem 2. AAARRRGGGHHH!!!! omg.. i'm not ready to go back to that shit lifestyle. and to make things worse, i'll have to get a job. on top of the heavy workload, isn't that enough stress for a lifetime?? i cant wait for October... *sigh*

she takes a breath at 09:16 p.m.

Friday, July 22, 2005

i didnt meet Hafeez in the end! the train times weren't too convenient between the city and the airport... so yeah. well. it's all good. cos i went for tennis instead!

oh goddd. my limbs... about.to.fall.off. thank god for DeepHeat sprays. i'm so in need of a regular exercise activity.. the thrill of playing sport never dies out for me, but mann the reduction in my stamina and strength really gets me! i'm in Human Movements for god's sake!! hmmm maybe this Sem i'll make it to the Bball try-outs...

we were meant to chill out at Sera's this weekend.. she's got the whole house to herself for 3weeks!! oh man... we ALL know what that means to me.. heh. but i dunnoo.. i wanna go, but i dont wanna go. we'll see.

she takes a breath at 12:05 a.m.

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

AARRHH!! the bloody Psyc sign-ons appeared out of nowhere!! it was half full when i saw it.. damn i didnt get the tut i wanted. but it's all good! my timetable could have been MUCH worse. heh. so yay for me!

the brothers are leaving for US for good. flying out on Thurs.. hmm we were meant to meet them one more time today, but again plans were changed at the last minute.. it's a good thing i'm not too close to them, so there's no love lost, so to speak. *sigh* boys. sometimes they just make you SO mad.

Tash is back.. and she came with my CDs! yay!!! I LOVE THE WHITESTRIPES!! and i also got the BEP album and the ChemicalBrothers album.. aah. sooo good. i'm a happy camper!

oh godd. i need a job. ASAP. we are about to have further reductions on our budget. great. i think i should take this as a good excuse to DIET. hmm.. *ponders* whateverr. I LOVE THE WHITESTRIPES!!! =D

she takes a breath at 06:23 p.m.

Sunday, July 17, 2005

another early day ahead.. last 2 sign-ons at 6am!!! omg... ridiculous really. and Tash is arriving in Brisbane at 925am... so i'm sure i wont be getting to sleep in.. great.

oh Hafeez is in QLD! his sister is starting at Griffith at the GoldCoast campus... i'm supposed to meet him sometime this week, before he goes back.. i was surprised that he actually remembered i was here to begin with!! then he called me a few days ago when i was still in bed. hahaha! answered with a cracked voice. hmm. i'm not even close to him, we're just mutual friends.. i sure hope it wont be weird. but yeah.. he wants to go to some skate shops in the city. i can only think of the one in TheValley! shit. what a great guide i'll make...

so anyway. it's the last week of the Sem break.. NO!!! how horrible. cant believe it went by so quickly. and in no time, i'll be back in my little world where life sucks. the next highlight of 2005 would definitely be October!! oh my what a long time ahead. it's like staring across the horizon and looking for the edge of the sea. *sigh*

she takes a breath at 11:16 p.m.

Saturday, July 16, 2005

how can 2 people spend more than 12 hours straight together? beats me, but i did with Ms KremeCreme today. fortunately or unfortunately? it's all good! met in the city for lunch before some minor (window) shopping, when we bumped into Lin and her sister!! went a little bit mad for awhile.. NOTHING SUSS! *waves hands* hahaha!

an unplanned visit to DepperSt while on the way home, had dinner, then a spontaneously unanimous decision to catch SinCity at Southbank. we had 15 mins to get ready, leave, pick someone up and get our tickets. thankfully, we only missed some of the opening credits, but it was fairly packed so the group got split in half. to anyone who hasnt seen it, or dont plan to.. GO WATCH IT NOW!!! if you liked KillBill, or Tarantino flicks, or simply like severed limbs and ripped-out balls and swords through the head, you'll love this one trust me. the lineup was massive. i cant even count the number of stars appearing! WHOO! what a rush...

so anyway.. that's about all the fun i'll be having for awhile.. since i'm missing out on tmr's action. *sigh* but somehow i dont think i'll be as liberated when Tash comes back. it's not that she restricts me or anything.. i just dont get the chance to be as free i suppose. ergh. bloody 3 months. hurry up already!!

she takes a breath at 01:46 a.m.

Thursday, July 14, 2005

crap. sign-ons at 830am tmr morning. i have to wake up at that ungodly hour on a holiday just to get a good slot for my timetable.. i'm a slave for the system i tell you. but in order to sign-on, i'll have to mark my territory early, which means stopping the Dickhead from using the com before i do. *sigh* i'll never get to stop fighting for my rights, not unless i move out. or i get my own com. not too sure which is more reasonable at the moment..

hmmm i've been invited out this Saturday night. and yeah as we ALL know, i'm the only one left who has a problem with the law. [pun un-intended] so.. i've been thinking really hard about this since last night, and about the whole duration of time from now till 9thOct.. and i've decided to wait. for some reason, i made an intelligent and mature decision, knowing fully well that i could just act my age and go! but no, i dont know why. i guess it's my 18 year old self thinking and talking. thankfully, overwriting the 17 year old self that says, "Just fucking go, NAD!!" hmmm i'll probably regret for awhile, but i know deep down that it will defintely pay off when October comes.

i reasoned with myself before i fell asleep last night. i came to realise that if i go against the law now, and go out with fake IDs or just bluff my way through, the novelty of finally turning 18 will be gone. i mean what's the point of having a legal age if i do everything now, right? i know i know. i'm one to talk. but seriously, i believe in what i'm saying. and i'll try to stand by my words. dont tempt me guys.. OH BY THE WAY!!! all this only applies to clubbing yeah? nothing is gonna stop me from drinking!! whoo!!! =D

she takes a breath at 10:52 p.m.

Your Kissing Purity Score: 69% Pure

For you, kissing isn't a casual thing Lip to lip action makes your heart sing

omg!! how true!! well since the sydney trip anyway. hehehe. i'm sorry but i just couldnt resist it. i had to take the test!! but how cheesy.

she takes a breath at 11:45 p.m.

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

went down to the city yesterday arvo. collected my work visa and sent the TFN application... right. this just means that i now have no excuse not to find a job. ARRRH!! noooo.. damn you, JOBS!

she takes a breath at 02:07 p.m.

Sunday, July 10, 2005

went down for Valley Fiesta last night. WHOOO I LOVE EVERMORE!!! hahaha. finally, i can share my love of the Hume brothers and Peter's ORIGINAL dance style with someone. thanks for going with me Ms Creme!! :)

after that we went to Park Road for coffee at LaDolceVita... i learnt the difference between a Cappucino and an Italian Cappucino. the italian one is wayyy stronger! so are all their variations of everything. too much for me though...

hmmm i'm feeling all weird now. regarding him. he's outwardly professing his love for me and it's making me think twice. it's just not mutual! and it's all my fault.. ohmygod what have i done... *sigh* and this morning i had a weird dream. Creme and i were standing in line for something, and there was this guy nearby. and he was chatting me up, and i was reciprocating! hahahah so lame. i think it's just my internal clock telling me it's time to get out there and mingle!

but you see, to mingle i'd have to be in a crowd. which means i'd have to be in a venue with a crowd. which means i still have to wait for 3 months to get into that venue with the crowd. OHMYGODDD. i'm impatient.. i cant wait! but Creme has so generously offered to be my PARTY PLANNER whoo! i trust her. i think... well yeah she's decent and mature enough i guess... hehe. i cant wait!! oh godd. it should be a blast. i'm counting down the days people!!

she takes a breath at 02:11 p.m.

Sunday, July 10, 2005

ok quick entry.. just to let you know, i uploaded some pics from the Sydney trip!! so yeah take a look here or just link from the 'Me' page..

she takes a breath at 02:47 a.m.

Saturday, July 9, 2005

up late and using the internet?? well it's not everyday i get the priviledge.. obviously cos i'm not at home. just chilling with my homies and listening to Rage. this is the life eh? it was my unfortunate revelation today, there's only a couple of weeks of the semester break left. *runs around madly* SHIT! where have i been!? oh. right. Sydney... still.. i'd like to think i have a little bit more time to wind down... cos the start of Sem 2 is not very promising as it is.

OH MY GODD!!! guess what people?! it is exactly 3MONTHS to my 18th BIRTHDAY!!! mark your calendars, set your alarms, tell the PRESS!! i've been PATIENT for this long.. and it's finally paying off.. it's COMING!! *dances wildly*

so what am i planning for the big celebrations? i have no idea.. i'm not gonna play it up too much, for fear of being disappointed later. i'd like to have a big ass party... *hint hint* but then again i dont know that many people to make one. boohoo! we'll see in a couple of months. surprise me... :D

she takes a breath at 02:49 a.m.

Wednesday, July 6, 2005

OH god. i'm back in Brisbane.. i wanna go back to WakeUp!!!! *sobs* the journey home was exciting in itself, but damn being in this house, it's just so fucking depressing! realised something on the way back, the reason why i was so keen on this trip was because it was a good excuse for me to escape my life. i was just drifting along in Sydney, and i loved every bit of it!! who cares if i was stranded or not.

it was abit weird leaving today. i feel like there's unfinished business or something. there was no closure, checking out by 10am everyone was still asleep. i'm assuming the boys were out drinking again last night. heh. well i woke up to find an extra sleeping body in the room. so there. it was just a matter of time. i dont care. i'm never gonna see him again anyway...

*sigh* everything just seems so weird now.. where do i go from here? most people have gotten jobs and stuff. i guess that's next, or maybe the Ls first.. whichever is more convenient heh. hmmm... i think the FIRST thing i SHOULD do is unpack my bag.. ahahah. it's still on my room floor, right where i left it when i got back!

hmmm a little update seems to be required. with him. we talked online. and we got it out... okok I got it out. and we decided to meet one last time. and so we did... and for some reason, it just wasnt the same. that night on the couch seemed so nice, so right.. but maybe i was wrong about it. maybe it was just the night air, and the lack of sleep. maybe i just deluded myself into thinking it was right because i'm so fucking desperate and i'm almost 18. maybe i'm just mad. but yeah.. we left it at a higher, weirder note. i gave him what he'd been waiting for for days. and i feel bad for it now, cos the feeling isnt so mutual after all. hmmm. well at least i wont have to SEE him anytime soon yeah. but geez! it was all in a matter of 7 days... what's becoming of me?

she takes a breath at 11:21 p.m.

Monday, July 4, 2005

it is the 4th July now.. and more stuff has happened since Friday. firstly, I AM SICK. i have a fuckin sore throat and a splitting headache. why do i have to be so unlucky?? erghh.

and with the Cooper adventure.. it has ended on a weird note. i got back after a movie and dinner at Bankstown on Saturday night.. boys of 705 were going down to SideBar to GET PISSED. yess. they told me so. and i was invited, probably out of courtesy. but anyway! yeah there was this new chick in the group- Emily. she's nice and all but.. hmm i hate feeling like this towards such a nice person, it really cuts me. but i know i have to give up that dream. it was after all a FLING. so there. i'm surrendering. SHE can have HIM.

but the funny thing is, i think my low was sort of replaced by another incident.. it's weird how things happen. i mean when you're totally not asking for it, it just falls in your lap. while all the other times u're desperate and u feel like you're waiting for the sky to fall.

hmmm. i dunno. i felt a little weird with him, cos i wasnt attracted, but we clicked! with Cooper, on the other hand, he's just nice to look at, but there's no connection. so you see people, life has a funny way of evening things out for you. it doesnt necessarily mean you have to compromise, it's more like you should take what's best for you. i just wish i wasnt so selfish with him. he was so sweet and caring, i could have returned the favour. knowing it was only for a night or so, i cant understand why he bothered, but i'm flattered that he did! :D

thinking back now, i feel so guilty for the way i acted. i mean there were countless times where he practically said "I like you" without using those words, but i just chose to partially reject him at that point. *sigh* why am i such an idiot?

she takes a breath at 10:44 p.m.

Friday, July 1, 2005

3rd day in sydney has gone by now... wow time sure flies past quick! so how are sera and i? we're totally winging it here.. we got no plans for the whole time we're gonna be here. right now we're at her friend Alex & James' place.. having a LAN CounterStrike (wtf?!) party. what am i doing here? i have no clue. i could have been at WakeUp having some alone time in the room. *ahem*

since wed, i have gone to the next level of life. stuff happened to me. all thanks to sydney! if it weren't for sydney, i wouldnt be at the backpackers. if not for WakeUp, i wouldnt be in dorm 705. if not for 705, i wouldnt have met GARY COOPER. ohh babyyyy. well what can i say i'm not so young and innocent after all heh.

[sera wants me to give her some credit for this. thanx for lying in my bed. and thanx for getting the hell out! 2's company, but 3's a fuckin crowd for a single bunk bed.]

the hot Pom from Newcastle with the nipple ring, and the infamous jocks. and I HAD HIM FOR THE NIGHT OHHH YEAAAHH. all of 705 got the honour of seeing his balls Monday night! heh. the dude ran around the whole building and then dropped it for us on our floor. ohhh yeahhh. well at least i have some sort of adventure to remember this trip by. ohhh yeahhh. notice i'm happy. ohhh yeahhh!

errrgh i'm too fuckin lazy and half drunk/half smoked out to type in the details here... so i'll just leave it at that. and all u suckers can go wallow in misery reading this. :D

she takes a breath at 11:40 p.m.