Saturday, December 25, 2004

jingle bells

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! wow it's already the 25th December.. Yvette arrived last night.. and the house hasnt been the same since. hahaha! time sure flies by real quick. i have new CDs for Xmas!! and a new DVD player for Tasha and me! and a new black tie! and an Esprit bag, and new shades! yay! i'm a happy camper.

i hope everyone's having a great xmas too.. drink and be merry ppl! Yvette said we're gonna drink all day today. ri-ght. well, i have had a Baileys and soda to start.. we'll see. the kitchen is constantly busy with someone cooking for tonight. asked around about who's gonna be here, no one knows.. hmm. i hope it's not gonna be 3/4 of the ppl i dont know... oh well.

oh!! met up with Serene on Wednesday.. I'm so glad we did!!! it was a great day out with my mousey!!! i missed her.. we just talked all day long.. about IJ, friends, family, our non-existent love-lives.. (mine anyway) played pool for abit.. bad pool day for me!! should practise at home before i leave.. we talked about how everyone would be at school when we go back..so she said it's gonna be just the 2 of us everyday. hey! i dont mind!! i love talking to her! she's like my soulmate? hahaha we're so similar.. in thinking too. *boohoo* ok i rambling.. i shall stop to try Darren's saffron rice.. he claims its "shiok"... till next time. Merry Xmas and Happy New Year everyone!!!

Strumming my P.A.I.N. at 12:21 p.m.

Sunday, December 19, 2004

western part of the country...

i'm in perth! i'm in perth!! i'm soooo sorry mousey.. feeling guilty for not calling yet. i arrived Wednesday night, Thurs was out with Darren, dinner at Hyatt for Uncle Derrick's bday.. Friday out at Carousel with Aunty Yvonne.. and today i'm going to Freo... whheee.. spent the day at Carousel helping Aunty Yvonne look for Tasha's pressie. and Yvette has been calling everyday asking me to help her figure out gifts for everyone.. geez. i had to sneak into everyone's room. felt like sucha thief, although i didnt take anything.

i actually cant wait for her to get here! dont know why though. Darren's at the WACA watching the cricket.. he was so tanned when he got back yesterday.. would he get any darker today? hmm. and one of the highlights of being here: FOXTEL!!! whooo i feel so at home in front of the telly. its a couch potato's dream-come-true... MTV, Channel V, ESPN, Nick, Disney, TV1, Arena, Comedy Channel... what more could i ask for? i better not turn into a tv hog.. i might not be so welcomed here later on if that happens.. hahah!

update on the House issue.. we're definitely moving.. Tasha called yesterday to let me know.. she viewed a place on Sherwood. it sounds pretty good from what she said.. whoo! new house. i'm getting all excited!! will be moving when i get back from Perth. so it'll be a busy last week before i go home.. *sigh*

the year is almost over. exactly a week till Xmas, and then time will go by even quicker.. i dont know if i should be happy or sad. the New Year brings new beginnings, and i'm not so sure i'm ready for it yet.. it's all pretty intimidating if you ask me. wonder if anyone else in my situation feels the same way... oh well, just have to take it all in stride.. i must NOT go mental over it.. stress is not an option.

oh btw, Fely and Siankia!!! can u please give me your mailing addresses? thanx.. it's prob a lil too late, but i'll get some cards out to you guys anyway... take care!! see ya soon.. real soon.

Strumming my P.A.I.N. at 02:05 p.m. [Saturday]

today's outing with Aunty Yvonne at Freo was an eye-opener for me.. i learned new things about my family... things about my the past..

we started chatting about the family. talked about feminism, and my mother's naiveity when she was still with Dad.. how she wasted spent her life. hearing Aunty Yvonne say "Your dad never loved her... not as much as she loved him." i couldnt respond to it.. probably because i knew it was true all along. some of the things she confessed to me, i actually recalled witnessing a long time ago! couldnt believe how chauvanistic he was.. prob still is.

while we were driving back home, she told me a story that may have changed my life. apparently, my incessant crying for hours as an infant made my mother have an instinctive urge to visit the hospital.. and she had horrible news in return.. cancer was not on anyone's minds. Aunty Yvonne is convinced that it was a sign from God and that i saved my mother's life. when i heard it all, i couldnt help the emotions that came.. sipping DietCoke made quite a pathetic distractant.

i guess my mother's horrible childhood has been significant in shaping the person she is today.. the way she reacts with her children is caused by the relationships she had as a child herself.. it is devastating to know her mother died when she was 7-ish.. and her father was anything but. so she led a bitter adolescent life.. who can blame her? i think i'm trying to understand where she's coming from most of the time, and trying to give in to her ways.. its a sympathy thing now. but still...

Aunty Yvonne eased the conversation a little by letting on about some other stuff. who would've thought that Darren was that protective over me?? to think that he would stand in my defense against my mother, made me so proud to have him as a cousin.. the only other cousin that mattered. [to understand why it's such a big deal is to know my mother as MY mother] hearing Darren's words made the both of us laugh out loud!

geez. Yvette and Darren are so so lucky to have them as parents.. Aunty Yvonne also talked to me about why they decided to leave SG so long ago.. and about matters of religion. with the terrorism threatening so many innocent people of the world today, she made me realise that i'm in more danger than i think. her words will definitely be kept in mind. i cant believe i've had so many conversations with Aunty Yvonne, even if they were mostly one-sided.. why cant this be with my parents for a change??

Strumming my P.A.I.N. at 12:38 a.m.

Monday, December 13, 2004

bye for now...

woke up early AGAIN to go collect our VCR from repair. grrr. spent less than 5 mins at the shop itself, but took at least half an hr to get there and back. today it was soooo hott!!! like burnt-skin hot. but this weather is getting so bloody unpredictable. it was forecasted to storm today... so we were keeping a close watch on the sky.. then as soon as we got on the bus home, it drizzled. and as soon as we walked from Toowong, it fuckin' poured like crazy! and i mean POUR. my pants were soaked! really frustrating.

Sera and Melissa left this afternoon... and Chiew should be leaving in a couple of hours.. hmmm. i'm officially alone here. besides Tasha of course.. but hey! i'm leaving for Perth in exactly 2 Days!!! wheee.. i think i'm getting pretty excited. firstly cos i'll meet up with Serene.. my MOUSEY!! and also cos i havent visited the place in almost 5 years. yay! cant wait.. hope it'll be a good vacation.

right now, we're deciding on whether we should move or not. some issue abt our water heater and the owner not wanting to get a new one, and it's eating our money for electricity bills. so Tasha might finalise sometime this week, and possibly start looking for some place ard here.. she said the apartments next door is up for rent. the one with a pool!! wow. i've seen some of the ppl living there, play guitars, late night conversations.. that sorta ppl.. pretty cool if we move down 50metres? hahaha.

i guess i'll pack tmr.. unfortunately, noone's gonna be seeing me off at the airport.. it's just too bloody expensive to get the ticket there.. so Tasha might just see me off at the Airport station.. boohoo. how sad. this might be the last entry i make before i leave, and could be the last one till i come back. not sure if we got internet access in perth? i think they do, but we'll see. well then if not, MERRY XMAS in advance anyone reading this.. and see you when i get back!

Strumming my P.A.I.N. at 09:29 p.m.

Sunday, December 12, 2004

summer days are here to stay.

Saturday. woke up real early to go to Powerhouse Market.. and for what?? German hotdogs and juice. the bloody Yogurt and GingerBeer stalls weren't there!!! i felt so cheated... *sobz* i'm not gonna get my gingerbeer for the rest of the year!!! the weather has done a 360 again. it was 33degrees on Sat! so we walked ard the market soaking in our Tshirts.. what a gross feeling. we left before 11, but it was too hot to go home.

so we headed to Southbank for an early movie... hung out at Southbank while passing time. watched EllaEnchanted! hahhaha she's so damn funny.. i felt lame knowing that i love PrincessDiaries, but i have no regrets liking her after watching Ella.. there's sth abt Anne Hathaway that interests me.. you can see her personality in all her shows! like some sort of trademark.. the way she talks, the way she acts.. hahaha.. im rambling.. hey but i dont LIKE like her.. not what you think... =P

went to Indooroo after the movie to beat the heat.. Tasha got a Xmas pressie for the Dickhead.. expensive.. and a couple of DVDs for ourselves. i think we're gonna invest in a DVD player soon. like a Xmas pressie for ourselves. walked ard a lil more, and i was ready to collapse! my legs weren't moving properly.. and my eyes were closing. dead beat! guess i didnt have enough sleep. got home at 4-ish and slept till 6.30! refreshed... seems like lazydays are back in demand.

Strumming my P.A.I.N. at 01:46 p.m.

Friday, December 10, 2004

MOVIEWORLD

Hola!! back from the outback... boy was it green and environmental. but surprisingly, Beenleigh is pretty self-sufficient! ahahah.. i'm only kidding. i was in civilisation the whole time.. just that, it was so far off from the city areas...

went to MovieWorld today. praying against all odds that it wouldnt rain. but yess.. most weather predictions do come true. and the week of wetness was definitely wet! anyway, i actually rode on a bloody rollercoaster!! omg.. i thought i would puke or faint or sth equally horrendous. but i didnt! the 5 loops and high-speed vertical drops and ascends were horrifying!! i thought my legs were gonna dislocate. and at one point, we were going down one of the drops, and as we were going back up, i left my head in the same position facing downwards... but the gravity and force of the ride pushed my head back down. i couldnt look up!!! oh godd. to think Sera told me abt it, yet i didnt take the advice. Fear causes temporary amnesia.

ok i'm too tired and pruney-toed to continue now.. so maybe i'll add the rest tmr? nites world.

Strumming my P.A.I.N. at 11:19 p.m.

continuing on the adventure... after riding the LethalWeapon rollercoaster, we headed for more rides... Melissa was too traumatised to join us, so she went off on her own for abit.. we rode on the ScoobyDoo Spooky ride, which was unexpectedly good! it wasnt spooky, but the ride was good! there was one part when the car went down backwards!! aRRGGH! imagine... falling backwards... and we also sat on the WildWestFalls.. one of those rides that drops from a high point into the water... you know what i mean... we rode it twice! first time was quite scary... then the 2nd we posed for the camera!! ahhaha.. cool. also went on some Batman thingy.. like a simulation thingy.. it was alright.

and it started to rain so badly... we were just walking ard in our ponchos like white penguins. quite stupid looking.. had lunch.. and went hunting for more rides.. hoping they werent all closed cos of the rain. but most of them were anyway. so we went so low as to go for this LooneyTunes river ride.. how lame!! it was so slow and hardly heartbeat-raising. just to get out of the rain? maybe.. the rain "dissolved" our moods.. Melissa's word. spent the whole day at Movieworld, left at 5 just before it closed. the bus ride was fun too! it was so packed, we had to stand shoulder-to-shoulder.. and our wet ponchos were spraying anyone in our way. the driver was a little manic.. too fast for us to stand grounded.. hahah. but it was fun nevertheless.

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Strumming my P.A.I.N. at 01:43 p.m.

Wednesday, December 8, 2004

Graduated!

oh gosh.. had our Graduation today. got my results back too. I"M GOING TO UNIIIIIII!!!!!!!!! hahahah yes yes. i have been accepted thank you very much. i'm not gonna be deported, i'm not gonna be my father's slave. *phew* TS: 7; Math: 5; Bio: 5; Chem: 5; Phys: 4. GPA: 5.2 believe it or not, i got 64% for my Phys exam! hahah and the Chem exam was like 46%... how sad. whatever!! i passed. and i have the certificate to prove it!!!

it was a surprise for some of us that the ceremony was actually the real graduation-ish type.. had some talks before, then everyone went up to recieve their stuff individually. and pics taken too. haha but we didnt stay after, Sera wanted to avoid the teachers cos Angie was with us.. Max's dad and Mark came too.. his dad is pretty funny.. as in lame jokes kinda funny.

oh well. i can finally rest in peace. i have positively zero worries on me now. nothing's nagging at the back of my mind.. no panic attacks expected. WHEEE!!

Sera, Melissa and i are goingplanned to go to Dreamworld tmr... and we're staying over at Chiew's... for some reason i kept thinking today was Tuesday, and forgetting that the Dreamworld plan was for Thursday, which is tmr.. ok, gotta prepare myself the whole night, then wake up bright and early to get there! hope nothing bad happens to me.. i've got a little rotten luck when it comes to things like these.. like getting injured or sth.. *prays* oh well.. no worries!! i'm free....

[ended up watching The Grudge at Indooroo on Thurs... then stayed over at Chiew's watching a couple of movies.. then headed to MovieWorld instead today!]

Strumming my P.A.I.N. at 05:09 p.m.

Tuesday, December 7, 2004

CRAAAZZEEE!!

went for Rosanne's graduation this morning.. woke up like a normal school Monday, left the house at 8.30-ish!! i felt mixed emotions at the ceremony... not cos i was emotional for Boz! but i was thinkin about the future.. what a weird feeling. i thought about how it would feel to be there on the stage, your name being called up by the head of whatever, with the title at the end of it...

on the mic: Nadia Syed Ali; Bachelor of Human Movement Studies, Exercise Science with class 1A Honours, and Bachelor of Physiotherapy with class 1AAA-Star Honours.
in the audience: wooohoooo!!! *clapclapclap* GO NAD!!

wow. my imagination. a girl can dream ok. so anyway, i became photographer for the day.. pics everywhere. random ones, nice ones, crappy ones.

rested for the rest of the day, then met them again for dinner. had STEAK at Norman Hotel. which isnt a hotel btw, i was deceived too. bloody big steaks!! fat and juicy too! omg my pants buckle almost popped out! ok slight exaggeration. but i was really full. then headed to Park Rd for coffee after. ARRGGH! the rain.. no. the STORM.. crazzzeee!! just got out of the car, and my back was soaked. ok, maybe its due to the fact that i walked through the unsheltered part on the path for 2.5 seconds without realising. but it was craaazzzeee!

still full now. and its a miracle we didnt step in to find the blob planted infront of the com. god only knows where he is. s'okay! more internet time for me..

OUR graduation is in 2 days. AARRRRRHHH!!! someone save me from the misery. i cant go through it!! i may go mental. what if i really fail?!?! omg cant imagine what would happen. actually i can. i'll be forced onto the next available flight, against my will, where i will be locked away as slave to my father as payment for wasting his money. *boohooo*

Strumming my P.A.I.N. at 12:54 a.m.

Saturday, December 4, 2004

Lazy days.

spent yesterday at Indooroo. met Rosanne to get more stuff for her place, and i also got a TV stand for ours at Kmart! had a late lunch before Martin picked us up. have i mentioned that they're going now? well, yeah. so much for rumours. hahaha!

anyway.. i'm alone again. and the weather is pretty gloomy too. great atmosphere to think. but im not gonna think. i think i'll spend the holidays relaxing. no stress, no depression. just rest. unless of course i do really badly for the exams. then i stress. had a dream a couple of nights ago that i got my results. and i did well for everything except Physics.. 6s and 7s around, but 2 for physics.. AARRRGGHHH!! what a nightmare! i hope like hell it doesnt come true. i'm too afraid of what will happen if it does! everyone has called up to get their results, everyone but me. shitt the feeling is horrible. not knowing, but also not wanting to know.

[so much for not thinking or stressing]

Strumming my P.A.I.N. at 04:09 p.m.

Friday, December 3, 2004

Holiday! Celebrate...

oh goddd. i just read all the tags from you guys, and realised what a prick i am!! here i am complaining about god knows what, being selfish and thinking of myself only.. yet there are ppl out there who're still around to support me in my lameness. i cant thank you guys enough. i'm sorry. and i love you all!!

and. oh god. i cant believe what a dick the Dickhead is.. he just got back from the store, and i was online for less than 5 mins, and he asked if it was his turn. *rolls eyes* WHAT THE FUCK!?!? he played for the whole fucking day! and i cant have peace on the com.. dickhead.

anywayyy. i spent the most part of today cleaning Rosanne's kitchen!! hahah she just moved in across the street, new neighbours!! and then spent an eternity at KMart trying to find things for her place.. wow. i've never walked up and down the aisles of KMart for more than 30mins!! and we were there for at least an hour. as Tasha says, our feet started having minds of their own. hahaha! Boz had dinner at ours, cos the poor child has no food in the house.. awww. we decided to save her and invite her over. so cool, now we know someone in the area who has a pool!! summertime isnt gonna be that bad...

Sera called just now.. told me she got some results.. i had forgotten all about it until she asked me if i got mine.. SHIT! i have a very bad feeling about it.. called Dad this arvo, he told Tash that i should remember the school will send him my results.. was it a threat?? shitt. not feeling the least bit confident. can you imagine on Graduation day, when i collect the results, and i dont get an offer letter with it?? how devastating.. it will seem like i'm never moving on.

whatever, i cant do anything abot that now. unless of course i get to do supplementary papers.. even though i'll have to study again, at least i get a second chance at it. cos i know very well that i can do it, i just need the motivation and discipline. and knowledge of the fact that if i dont do well, i'll get sent back home and probably be locked away, and never see daylight!!!!! aarrhhh!!!! omg, i'm going mental. great holiday Nad.

Strumming my P.A.I.N. at 12:02 a.m.

one more thing to add. rem i said lotsa times abt being lonely and shit? well, scratch that!!! not at home anyway. the 2 morons got back Tues evening, and the peaceful silence in the house that was around before they got back has completely disappeared. when they were gone, i noticed that i felt less.. "claustrophobic". not that i really have the phobia. its just that when they're around, especially the Dickhead, i feel like the house is too small for comfort. i feel like everywhere i go, someone's in my way, or vice versa. right now, im on the com and they're both snoring behind me.. talk about invasion of privacy!! but i cant help it.. so much for not liking Tasha's absence in the house. HA!

Strumming my P.A.I.N. at 01:02 a.m.