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date: Friday, June 26, 2009 time: 12:21 a.m.
Well so my leave was cancelled due to the impending moving to the new place. Well that sucks. But it's ok at least they let me change it to off and I can still stay at home. I can't wait to skate tomorrow.
Anyway, I took my IPPT today and sad to say I failed the standing broad jump station. It's so irritating how until today I still don't get it how you can jump so far. The only time I got silver for it was duringmy training days at HTA as it was one of the requirements to graduate and I was glad I made it. Now I guess I just need more training and I know I can do better. At least after this first attempt I know where I stand now.
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date: Sunday, June 21, 2009 time: 10:14 p.m.
I don't know why today I am in such a very bad mood. I feel pissed off at anything and everything. Issit because I'm working on a beautiful sunday? I don't know. I am so pissed off that I am trying to blog again to make myself feel better. I remember how blogging always makes me feel better during those bad days in my life. I will always be reminded how wonderful my life is actually and there are always people who are in a worst shit then me.
Now lets blog about something happy. I've started skating again. I got myself a new board. It's a new set I got from go sports. And I've had so much fun on it learning all the tricks all over again. I got my kickflips back and my crooked grind. My brother got a new board too and we skated with our cousin yesterday at this spot in an abandoned fountain. It's the best spot I've ever skated. and it was only us skating it. Good times!! Well I am working morning tomorrow. I am hoping that my leave will be approved for this weekend.
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date: Wednesday, February 4, 2009 time: 10:59 p.m.
After 4 days of not working, it's finally back to work for me tomorrow. 4 days of not working is kinda long for me. I didnt have any concrete plans, most of the stuff I did was unplanned. I pretty much wander around, hang around. I managed to hang out with Ahmad and Yan for awhile. I had breakfast in Raffles place and watch the stupid robot people drag themselves to their pathetic office. I went bowling but didn't get any strike, cus I was distracted by this 2 MATS beside my lane trying very hard to make their balls curl, obviously trying to impress their girlfriends who jus look on. I bet their arms are too weak to carry the bowling balls so only the bf bowls.
Oh and I got the new Metallica cd, death magnetic. I cant stop listening to it. It really sounds like metallica again. Unlike St anger. If you love their music you should get it. Or listen to the day that never comes. Amazing track. Well I have to sleep now. I am hoping to go to the gym before work tomorrow. Just hope I am not lazy.
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date: Sunday, February 1, 2009 time: 01:29 p.m.
It is a beautiful Sunday afternoon and I just felt like updating my blog which has been dead for many months. I dont think anyone comes here anymore.
I can't wait for the KL trip with the guys. We'll be getting the bus ticket today. At first I wanted to book flight tickets. After much consideration I think taking the bus would be more convenient, as Is apartment is just a walking distant from the puduraya, compared to the taxi ride and fare from the airport if we were to take flight. So this will be a good one I'm sure. It has been such a long time since I've gone for any vacation.
I've won a nikon coolpix camera recently at the dnd from work. So maybe if I am not lazy. There will be pictures on my blog. I also bought a samsung 22" lcd and altec lansing 2.1 speakers. So now I have to stop spending so much.
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date: Thursday, January 1, 2009 time: 10:41 p.m.
5..4..3..2..1..HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
We went to countdown to the new year together at marina barrage. There was so many people. Human traffic jams everywhere. I kept thinking how we are going to get home. But it was a wonderful night, spent with my closest friends. The fireworks seems too far away. Maybe we should have gone to esplanade.
2008 is gone. I kept saying it wasen't a good year for me. It was the time when I felt most lost and confused. I hope 2009 will be better for me.
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date: Sunday, August 17, 2008 time: 11:47 p.m.
It has been ages since my last update yet again. So many things have happened and went unrecorded into this blog. I have to start bloggin regularly again. I think it has always been a good way to put down my feelings and all. It is morning shift for me tomorrow. On some days I get to use the car so it's good. I hate long early morning train rides. I'd rather drive while listening to morning shows on the radio. It's a better way to start the day. I hope it will be a good day tomorrow for me at work. So good night for now.
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date: Thursday, July 3, 2008 time: 10:33 p.m.
It has been too long cine I last update. Alot of things had happened. I have finally ended me residential training in HTA and now I'm posted to remand prison. In queenstown which is very far. But I like working there. Still have alot to learn and I got to pick up fast. And it is just the first week and I am already very tired.
Work is good. Besides that everything seems so sucky. Maybe I'll just keep that to myself.
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date: Friday, June 6, 2008 time: 07:46 p.m.
So it's another friday. I just got home after a long week. This week sure sucks. So many things to do and the final exams is just next week. But a few things cheered me up throughout the week. Listening to plainsunset new cd and getting to see yan in hta. He was there for his one week orientation and his bunk is just few bunks next to mine. I hope he's coping well with staying in again. But still it felt wierd to see him there.
Oh well I got to go study soon. Wish me luck..
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date: Friday, May 23, 2008 time: 10:52 p.m.
I hate listening to sappy love songs these days. Cus they remind me of her. I may seem ok and all but I am constantly thinking and having stupid useless flashbacks. I still love her but thinking of what has happened makes me sick and disgusted and I totally lost my trust for her.
and so, here I am stuck with these complicated useless feelings.
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date: Sunday, April 27, 2008 time: 10:01 a.m.
I just wanna wisha happy belated birthday to me and yan. I spent my birthday in HTA. They had a small celebration for me, which was good and I also got powder in my pants and soap in my hair which is not that bad. 1 more year and I'm 25 which is to me a pretty old age. That's like 50 divided by 2!!! I don't want to be 25.
I got myself a creative mp3 player. Now train/bus rides seems shorter with my PSP and mp3. By the way I want to thank everyone for their wishes and I know some people who sms me on my old number well I changed my number. So I'm sorry if I didn't get your msg. thank you.
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date: Sunday, April 13, 2008 time: 11:34 a.m.
Finally I have cleared silver for my ippt last friday. Right before booking out and it was a great feeling. Despite the long wait for the cab back home the feeling was keeping me smiling throughout this weekend.
Somehow or rather for the past few weeks I am starting to feel lost. But I know, that I've been here before. It is all too familiar. And I know that it can bring me down if I let it. Maybe it's one of those stages in life where you don't know what will happen to you or what you want anymore and it makes you feel vulnerable somehow.
I know I'll get over it.
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date: Friday, April 4, 2008 time: 09:19 p.m.
Training today was very tiring. I feel so worn out now. The weekends came so fast and I haven't made any plans. I don't know what I'll do tomorrow. I hate doing nothing on a saturday. It's like wasted.
I almost lost my wallet last night. Yan, Ahmad and me were having our dinner at burger king tampines mall. After that we went wandering around and decided to hang out at coffee bean. When I reached my hand to my back pocket, my wallet wasen't there anymore. Just my fat ass. I almost freaked out but try to remember the last time I took it out. Lucky for me the wallet was somehow found and handed over to the burger king manager. What a relief. I even bumped into my ns platoon mate. Been such a long time since I met him and he was all happy to bump into me and I was like I lost my wallet!
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date: Wednesday, April 2, 2008 time: 11:23 p.m.
do you miss me
do you think about me
do I make you cry everytime you think of me..
I love you i still think about you
you still make me cry everytime I think of you
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date: Sunday, March 30, 2008 time: 06:58 p.m.
Here I am my nose is all runny because I was cleaning up my room. My room looks better now with the new wardrobe and pc table.
So yesterday morning I was at this childrens' home somewhere in serangoon gardens with my squadmates for our community service and the kids were really fun to be around with but almost impossible to control while we were conducting the games and all. They do say the darndest things. Its even more darner if you asked them a question and they give you a funny look and just walk away. Then you will have your friend laughing at you.
After that I drove to bukitpanjang to meet su cus we were going out. I got lost and it took me such a long time to reach her block. It was my first time driving there so yea. I also sort of lost my way to orchard but it wasen't serious just missed the turn to this carpark. Twice. I was so embarrased. But she makes me feel so anxious. Anyway we watched step up 2. It was a good show. Cool moves. The dancers I mean.
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date: Saturday, March 22, 2008 time: 02:31 a.m.
Today went by kinda fast. I was bored in the afternoon. I met up with yan but he had to go to work so there I was all by myself at the airport. I went walking around citilink. Waiting for firdaus. I bought this new found glory hits cd. I almost wanted to buy this new zen mp3 player. It has a speaker at the back and it's really small. Cool. Maybe next time. Cus I'm not in need of one now.
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date: Friday, March 21, 2008 time: 12:59 a.m.
Thank god its thursday and we get to book out cus tomorrow is a public holiday. We had this test today, kinda like a term test paper back in poly days. The notes the late night studies, it almost felt like poly exam days really. I guess I really havent got over poly days have I. But the paper was ok. Do-able, cus I studied. I hope I pass
I am bored.
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date: Sunday, March 16, 2008 time: 11:02 a.m.
On friday, I experienced the most painful moments of my life. I almost passed out and I thought I could just die so the pain would go away. Although in lasted for only about an hour, everyone got through it. And I am glad that part of training is over. And so is everyone else. Nobody would want to go through the exposure ever again.
So I saw another movie last night. Secret sunshine. This korean show. It was alright except for the ending. And we couldnt buy popcorns and drinks into the picturehouse. I was kinda dissapointed. Cus I could have picked a better show.
So it is back to HTA tonight and the progress test is this thursday. I have to study today.
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date: Sunday, March 9, 2008 time: 02:38 a.m.
Today I watched jumper with Is. Super cool show.
I think I am having some kinda major crush on this girl. It's complicated and wierd and almost crazy.
So we were at the beach just now. It was 11pm and she pointed to one of the clouds above and it looks perfectly heartshaped.. how cool is that?
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date: Thursday, March 6, 2008 time: 08:57 p.m.
I'm tired, bored, lonely, bored and I can't wait for the weekends to come.
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date: Tuesday, March 4, 2008 time: 11:58 p.m.
My body is aching all over.. thanks to the breakfalls. This is only the second day. This is gonna be a long week.. I am so tired..
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date: Sunday, March 2, 2008 time: 02:20 a.m.
Plainsunset was a blast.. except for my brother and yan who didn't get into the crowd cus of their gfs. Before that the whole bunch of us including fauzie and his friends, Is and us were at al majlis. I have to thank my friend nuraida. Cus of her all our drinks and sheesha was on the house. It was the first time she met my friends. I hope she had a great time. Oh and we got ahmad a cd and all of us signed on the cd with a happy birthday message. Hope that cheered him up. Anyway I'm tired now. Laters.
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date: Saturday, March 1, 2008 time: 12:04 p.m.
Today is the 1st or march. It just passed noon. If you notice, every first afternoon of the month you can hear some chimes if you were ever to look out the window. Whenever I hear it I would spend a moment to think about what happened the past month and this time I will blog about it.
So I am by myself again. Because my girlfriend left me for another guy. A married guy. Of all the things that could happen. I was sad at first, it's normal i guess but now that I know the truth I am able to slowly accept it.
I am over it by now. Besides, training alone has taken it's toll on me. I expected it to be stressfull but now it's quite fast paced and I just have to keep catching up. But it's been fun too. I am trying to make the best of it and not let things distract me.
I am happy now. Yes I am.. I have more things to look forward to.
Oh and happy belated birthday to my dear old friend Ahmad. He is a great person to have as a friend and I hope he writes good things about me in his blog too for my birthday. HAHAH kidding. We'll all be meeting up today to watch plainsunset. Today will be a blast.
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