Fading Away...

I wanna write... but I should sleep... but I wanna write... but then want am I going to write about? ... I don't know... The blank pages are waiting to be filled with the scribbles of ink, barely legible with stretched and thin writing. There formed ideas and thoughts of fleeting fragile worlds that shatter at a slight noise. A miscalculation lending to the destruction of an universe that is yet to be born. People being born and unwrapped from a single event. Yet powers must be contained and no overwhelming god powers must come to birth. A balance that a single grain of sand can disrupt. Why does it fail and break apart before my eyes? The scale of balance.
--- the scale of balance. ---
Sunday, July 20, 2003 -11:34 p.m.

It seems that I always post with bad stuff? =P Anyways, I just run around because there isn't much to say except... Give me a computer job!!! *pouts*
Anyways, I saw Pirates of Caribbean. It was a fun movie! Cheesy, but entertaining. Just don't expect it to be very deep and much expected actions of the characters, though I did like the sassiness of the Elizabeth character. Just wish that she could have done some more fighting too. =P Now, let's count down all the other movies that I have to see and ... let's count how much sleep this silly one is going to get tonight. >.<;;; Nites.
--- growliness ---
Wednesday, July 16, 2003 -12:07 a.m.

I am a stressball. I am a stressball. I am a stressball. Can I spend the rest of my life hiding in this little room behind a monitor? Yes, I'm frustrated with my life. I wanna go back to college. ;_; But I have definitely come to the conclusion that I must go somewhere were I don't have to deal with customers because my mind seems ready to explode. I feel like this is a deja vu of a long ago dream that was on the verge of a nightmare, but I made it change.... ... and... and... I don't think I'm making any sense. ... well... that's what I get for breaking both of my shoes in one day and tying them with string for a temp fix. >.>;;;; Wanna go shoe shopping with me someone? Please~~. I hate shoe shopping because next to impossible to find a pair I like? Okay, I stop before I roll and roll and fall asleep on this silly keyboard of mine where the 'V' gets stuck. Nites silly silly crazy world.
--- gigantic stressball ---
Wednesday, July 9, 2003 -12:41 a.m.

Because Kitsu's cooking worries me. Burning... water... ;p
Just in the other realm, I had fun meeting up with Sun, Kitsu and Hector on Friday. The only prob was that I hadn't finished HP by the time we met. ;_; I needed only two more hours... but those hours would come from sleep and I needed to sleep for interview and work! ArGH!!!! ArGH!!! *runs around in circles* HP was goood~! I felt like I could feel Harry's character more. But... but... *pets K-chan* ;_;
... *hides* ... *pops back out* ... work is killing me!!! no... not really, but it's stressful and I'm learning a lot, but I wanna go grrr a lot. =P okay... i need to sleep... nighty nite!
--- teasing muchly ---
Tuesday, July 1, 2003 -12:33 a.m.

Did I scare you? =P
--- scary~~~ ---
Friday, June 6, 2003 -09:44 p.m.

This skin...
Wanna shed
Hides
Not mine
Crimson hatred
Nails digging under
Separating
Sound of stickiness
Sucking away life
Away false shell
Popping as freed
Crimson drops
Spleching of steps
Footprints bloody
Wandering nowhere
--- shed skin ---
Thursday, June 5, 2003 -11:41 p.m.

There are the good days. The normal days. The weird days. The rainy days. The sunny days. And the bad days.
Wanna shed this skin of mine. Because it's not mine. Let it drop and go away. It hides me.
--- silently screaming ---
Thursday, June 5, 2003 -11:18 p.m.