Friday, February 27, 2004
two-mix: eternal motion ~~ i'll be super busy this weekend. guess i won't be able to internet for a while. my entries has gone way too long and loading wise did slow down a bit. will do archiving starting next month. not sure if there'll be any new layout. i got too many characters to choose from. it's kinda hard who should be in the spotlight... hahaha XD

Thursday, February 26, 2004
fake: care ~~ the stomach flu is killing me... arghh!!!

Tuesday, February 24, 2004
plastic tree: angel fish ~ it's a boring day to start with. so sleepy that i barely can hold my head up. ...zzzzz...

Monday, February 23, 2004
fake: taste maximum ~ a lazy morning? nah, after packing about nine boxes of books. duh!? worn out; and hell my back is killing me...

Thursday, February 19, 2004
d'sire: knot ~ my brain screwed. i'm not sure what i'm doing. i'm not sure what i'm thinking. i'm just way out of the line.

Wednesday, February 18, 2004
baroque: butterfly ~ i just remember that i bought kinki kids live concert vcd. it comes with postcards -err, it's still wrap up in the plastic. so, i can't tell you what's the picture included. and well, everyone was surprise -because i'm not even their fan.

Monday, February 16, 2004
boowy: guerrilla ~ oh ya... i'm broke! i left few dollars in my wallet... which is impossible to survive till month end. i really screwed my budget last month. *sigh *sigh *sigh. that applies to aya-bro. he was hoping that the sky will drop him a computer, going for second-handed cds... what really surprise me -getting a watch from 'pasar malam' (night market)!

Thursday, February 12, 2004

Wednesday, February 11, 2004
d: riot grrrl ~ glad that i make it early to work. for the past weeks, i missed the bus countless times... and my pocket hurt too -cab fares. i'm so tired that i wish i can sleep for days... yeah right. i'm not a morning person -that adds up to the disadvantages.

Monday, February 9, 2004
l'arc~en~ciel: ready steady go! ~ weekend was so quiet. i made a trip to sls just to get three boxes of cd-rs. within two hours, i'm home already. that was crazy, i thought. sometimes, i don't know what the heck i'm doing... aside from being a computer freak. so lifeless...

Thursday, February 5, 2004

You're Skittles!!! You have a very interesting
personality, you're so unique. You're the kind
of person who always thinks outside of the box.
You're also a very accepting individual, and
believe in inner beauty.

Which kind of candy are you?
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Wednesday, February 4, 2004
metronome: gimmicks ~ finally my gifts arrive... the much awaited graphic card and a scanner. now i can start to hunt for other parts -building my new computer.

Tuesday, February 3, 2004

Yours are DEMON wings, possibly resembling
those of a bat - huge, black, and clawed. You
are cold and impure, and a born Creature of the
Night. Possibly with an interest in those of a
vampyric nature, or possibly one yourself. You
have little sympathy or care for humanity and
see them as existing for no real purpose -
thus, you can be very manipulative and bend
them to fit YOUR purpose. And you do have a
purpose, to everything you do. Nine times out
of ten it will be strictly for your own self
gratification or perhaps merely amusement. As
soon as a person or situation is no longer
productive or pleasurable in your life, you
will rid yourself of it or them. You could very
well have just a touch of superiority complex
(or perhaps more than a touch?). Despite all of
this, you are capable of love so intense that
you place that person's wishes even above your
own - the only time that you will do so.
Chances are you are attracted to people in
which you see...yourself. Though many hate you
for your carelessness and evil...Sexy, fierce,
sinful, and mysterious...you turn me on.

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Tuesday, February 3, 2004
moi dix mois: night breed ~ well, i seldom watch tv myself but i somehow switch it on and it was the american idol. so i sit back and laugh all the way, till this william hung turn up. i solute him! compare to other contestant, he calmly accept his results; no tears, no madness, no violent. i read a blog who's been looking for his video and such... and found a fan site at William Hung: A Real American Idol! The Online Tribute to Will Hung a.k.a. Hong Kong Ricky Martin.

Saturday, January 31, 2004
my superior instructions:-

-replace the security tape for recording because monday is a holiday.
-reset the firewall... it normally hangs during public holidays -my superior try to avoid going back to the office.

Friday, January 30, 2004
poisonous doll: murder ~ it has been raining since the start of lunar new year... -freezing cold at night! frankly speaking, i hate cold.

january is ending soon... in hibernate mode for a while now. i just carried myself thru everyday... tough year ahead? i don't know.

Wednesday, January 21, 2004
metronome: arigato ~ i was late... switch off the alarm -in my dream! anyway, i made it to work... today half day, can go home early and sleep. my room is a mess, haven't got time to clear things up. need to start packing ...during festive day? well, that's the only free time i got; yeah right.

Tuesday, January 20, 2004
plastic tree: sunday ~ happy chinese new year. it'll be a long weekend. i definitely watch 'peter pan' but still not sure whether to go for 'the last samurai'.

peter pan
starring: jeremy sumpter, jason isaacs, lynn redgrave
directed by: pj hogan
---------------------
peter pan is the boy who won't age, who lives in neverland with other ageless kids, the lost boys. tinkerbelle, a fairy, gives three children: wendy, john, and michael darling the ability to fly; and soon they're off to neverland, where they're soon in battle with the evil captain hook and his band of pirates.

the last samurai
starring: tom cruise, ken watanabe, billy connolly
directed by: edward zwick
-------------------------
set in the late 1870s, this epic film depicts the beginnings of the modernization of japan, as the island nation evolved past a feudal society, as symbolized by the eradication of the samurai way of life. we see all this happen from the point of view of an alcoholic civil war veteran turned winchester guns spokesman, captain woodrow algren (cruise), who arrives in japan to train the troops of the emperor, meiji, as part of a break away from the long-held tradition of relying on employed samurai warriors to protect territories, as the emperor's new army prepares to wipe out the remaining samurai warriors.

Saturday, January 17, 2004
pierrot: home sick ~ yesterday, when we board the train, it was crowded. so, there's no pole for my sis to hold on to but my arm. we start to brag about every incident in the train that we came across. that reminds me few days ago, i boarded a train jam-packed like 'sardines'. there's this woman stranger in her early 30's was unable to grab the nearest pole to her. then my arm became her pole throughout the journey. and another lady behind me seems unbalanced and lean on me several times. never mind that, the man in front of me had a big hairdo and i've to tilt my head to the left -to avoid eating his hair. that was a rough one... so much strength used on my legs. as if i'm in a martial arts training...

Friday, January 16, 2004
mucc: hidden track ~ my mags are here... yesterday kknm sms me; so advance. going down after work tomorrow to collect. it would be better if they can send to my door step. then i can save my trip from going down town. hahaha... so lazy that i've become. it's better that i stay at home; prevents me from buying more things. but that does not stop me from the routines such as movies, music cds and mags; anime and manga. still... a load!

Wednesday, January 14, 2004
dir en grey: drain away ~ thought of playing around with flash mx but hell the software expired. i'm getting another copy today. couldn't find it anywhere in the internet. gheesh... i hope that the uncle is still around.

Friday, January 9, 2004
baroque: tight ~ lack of sleep... zzz... trying to do a proposal; done but sucks! i was wondering how people will accept such lousy work. i'm not good at it; further more, no sample for reference. sigh! sigh!

Wednesday, January 7, 2004
hide with spread beaver: leather face ~ i'm gotten too annoyed. everytime this 'custard'! see me: -"hi (me), (who) is not around." pengz... if (who) reading this, you should be quite familiar with this line.

Monday, January 5, 2004
la'cryma christi: sweet suicide ~ a new year to start with... as usual.

whole bunch of people had left and leaving the company. me? still stuck here wandering when will be my turn. i'll let the time decide my fate.

oh well, riding with the wind is more fun then tying yourself to some old hag.

Wednesday, December 31, 2003
happy new year!

Saturday, December 20, 2003
in the first movie, the lord of the rings: the fellowship of the ring, a group of men, elves and dwarfs is entrusted to protect frodo and his buddy sam on their quest.

by movie no 2, the two towers, the fellowship has been split and was is raging between the forces of good - led by gandalf - and an army of blood-thirsty orcs commanded by sauron.

as return opens, sauron and his army of orcs are planning a final assault on the city of minas tirith, the centre of power in the land of gondor. meanwhile, frodo and sam draw near mount doom. as they approach, the ring's power grows stronger and its seductive lure tests their friendship.

in the end - and movie fans will see that return has several natural endings strung together - the lotr trilogy hasn't really ended, jackson admits.

the key question is whether there will be a movie based on tolkien's 1973 novel, the hobbits, which precedes the rings trilogy and is also set in the land of middle-earth.

Friday, December 19, 2003
sophia: kuru kuru ~ cheap labour again... printed 3000+ labels for dgm department. heck!

Wednesday, December 17, 2003
sons of all pussys: high ~ i can see that i haven't post that promptly as before. wondering what is in with me. my mags had arrive but yet to collect it. been raining for the past few days thou. maybe i'll go down town tomorrow. yep, -confirmed.

Friday, December 12, 2003
scissor: from z to f ~ i'd been reading my company's employee handbook... it was so well written, which has thirty seven pages to be exact. it look so wonderful and such... but one mistake you make, you'll face dismissal without question ask. how cruel, there's no chance for you to get warning letter. it's straight to the grave policy. i was wondering...

Tuesday, December 9, 2003
velvet eden: street of alice ~ my ext. hdd fail on me again. thank god there's no important files. i was wandering why those hardware so vulnerable. or maybe they over-work. not sure if there's anyway to revive it. sometimes it's a miracle... for a short while or longer. remind me of my notebook where the hdd died but came alive. it didn't give me much problem -for now...

Monday, December 8, 2003
orange range: viva rock ~ how forgetful... i left the whole bunch of cards at home. kinda late and rush out. *sigh.

Friday, December 5, 2003

You are Spearmint. You are quick-witted and sharp. You pay close
attention to details and you can tell what your
friends are feeling. You are always the first
to understand a joke and you are valued for
your insight and advice. However, you
sometimes isolate yourself from other people,
afraid to share your own feelings. Most Compatible With: Cinnamon

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Friday, December 5, 2003
wyse: misery ~ i managed to reply a letter which i should've done it long long time ago. kim is upset and thought i'd forgotten about kim's existent. ... i remembered kim in my heart, always. kim had been sick and gone under knife countless time.

i'll pray for your health. god bless kim.

Wednesday, December 3, 2003
tamaki nami: believe ~ going home soon... i'm still thinking about yesterday's beef 'bee hoon' soup. it's so delicious. thanks to hl who brought us to the coffee shop specializing in beef only dishes. it makes me want to go back again and have some more. i got plenty of things to do tonight, need to clear some back log... haven't reply letters for ages, whole list of songs that i've yet to listen, i'm still reading the october issue magazines...

Tuesday, December 2, 2003
jils: my dear ~ yep, changed the layout... a red / black combination. need to fine tune a bit, something is not right thou.

meeting my aya-mom for dinner today. it's been a while, and i won't be in town for christmas. so, me and hl will pass her the christmas presents in advance.

ho, ho, ho... i haven't got the time to shop for gifts, yeah right -another excuse. busy with my anime every night... hehehe. i still have a few more things to buy, so i can slack-off a bit for now. XD

Friday, November 28, 2003
miyavi: coo quack cluck ~ things can just happen without you even prepared to hear the truth. it did surprise me a little. i'm not sure if i felt pity or sad at that moment...

this big hat doesn't fit to be in anything; nothing at all. working together is just impossible nowadays. what you always get in return from a superior is all the back stabbings, bad mouthing... you should be lucky if there's one who is really on your side; in a million.

a sudden goodbye is not easy to say. one can't hold back tears and leave...

Wednesday, November 26, 2003
fanatic crisis: heavenly body ~ slept at five something this morning. i was doing a second fresh installation after failed the first. i got attacked by the security worm after plugging in to my friend's network. then i realize they're running on open ports. sheesh!!! that's go my effort. my network at home is more secure and even running without antivirus would not pose any problem. for this time round, i'm making sure that my notebook defense unit is well prepared before joining any outside forces.

Monday, November 24, 2003
plastic tree: barrier ~ over the weekend, i was optimizing and tweaking one of my notebook. somehow it really irks me with all the jerking and frame to frame thingy. i end up formatting it and downgrade the operating system for better performance... it's slightly better for now but there's one other problem. no sound!!! argghhh?! will fix it tonight. i hope it works, else...

these days, applications tend to eat up a lot of resources, even to the extreme edge -virtual memory/hdd. too much, eh? just imagine when you're still running some first generation pentium computer. *sigh. even my p2s and p3 were exhausted. it just either lack of this or lack of that... my poor pcs.

Thursday, November 20, 2003

YOU ARE..... : Kira Yamato ! Let's say that you're
shy, clumsy but hey what knows, you're actually
intelligent and superbly kind !!

Kidou Senshi Gundam SEED Character Personality Test !
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Wednesday, November 19, 2003
ryuichi: ..so deep ~ lately, most of the anime that i saw is about mankind, survival and deaths... involving blood and science. it just somehow lead me to -disturbance, mentally unsound, depression... so much so for such influence. i'm alone again...

Tuesday, November 18, 2003
i'm relieved...

Tuesday, November 18, 2003
i'm depressed, shattered... my heart aches and still aches. i somehow lost my appetite during lunch and to make things worst, my colleague was in the topic about the human science exhibition in expo plus how he slaughter a live pig and chicken... uaccckkk! i can't finish half the 'char kway teaw'.

well i started an anime marathon till six something this morning watching stellvia for the second time from episode one to twenty five minus the final twenty six -still waiting. when i first watch this anime, it's more like a kiddy show to me but not till i see episode twenty five which really makes me want to know what is going to happen to 'katase shima' in the final episode. so i told myself to search for some spoilers first thing first i reach the office. i'm almost late but am not -lack of sleep thou. i get to find one spoiler. after reading the first part, i was devastated of the so-called ending. i'm not sure how true is it but things just play around my head, -'why'?

Sunday, November 16, 2003
syndrome: fiction ~ time is ticking slow... i'd been browsing my mecha mag whole day. i somehow felt restless; i don't know why... my room is a mess, and i can see everyone is busying themselves spring cleaning -new year. to me everyday is the same, i can't feel the festive mood... or because i don't fit in. is it the 'kekkai' that i built?

Saturday, November 15, 2003
'my life without you is like a year without a spring time which comes to give illumination and heat to the atmosphere saturated by the dark cold breeze o winter' ~ kjubei

Thursday, November 13, 2003
mist of rouge: goodbye ~ school holiday is just round the corner... the streets will be fill with students - time for me to avoid town areas. it somehow brings back some memories when i was doing support for schools. end of a semester, the schools will be so empty and you get to hear clearly -bird chirping, winds blowing, water dripping. i get to see only the schools' clerks around; -misses them the most. and of course, i get to work peacefully without any interruptions -minus the virus out-break. ;D

Monday, November 10, 2003
d'espairsray: marry of the blood ~ too bad that i always had to share the jrock thingy with myself... i wish i had someone(real-life) to have the same interest as i am -impossible. how many? no thanks to count dracula.

the saga session:-
visual kei is a musical movement originated in japan – that finds its roots in western rock from the 70's and 80's. it is called visual because of the emphasis the bands put in their look. the word 'kei' has different meanings; it can either mean 'band', 'group' or 'type', as in 'visual type'.

typically, visual rock bands have a very complex image, shifting between a variety of styles, like goth, punk or glam, many times receiving influence from manga/anime (some of those fictional universes are influenced by visual kei as well). some visual bands have a lighter look.

the most common question i hear when showing some of these bands to people is:

'those chicks are really hot! who are they?'

well, sorry to break it to you like this, but most visual bands consist of an entirely male line-up – usually visual bands assume a very androgynous/feminine look, and cross-dressing is not uncommon.

there's only a handful of women in jrock, which kinda makes you wonder, since the vast majority of the fans are female...

some non-visual bands are frequently put under the 'visual kei' label, so keep in mind that i'm talking about japanese rock in general. there's also the fact that some visual bands aren't really rock or metal acts and are actually washed-out pop, but they hop onto the visual carriage.

Saturday, November 8, 2003
spiky: little by little ~ a new layout -simple as always, i think i should try something complicated next time round. i watch this anime at least three times per episode -a little too much? yeah, my sis think so. i don't know, maybe when you like the anime, you tend to watch it over and over again -5x, 10x or more.

the transformation part is rather simple for kkj with different backgrounds. others like ccs, mask rider, guyver, d.n.angel, ultraman(oops!); unlike some anime which always show the long transformation, same background, same uniform? no offence.

Friday, November 7, 2003
doremidan: asia ~ check out this site ani-magic 2003. ...hoping that one day i can be part of the cosplay too. :D

currently working on a new layout. hopefully it can be live soonest as moonchild had been up here somehow over-stayed. oh, how mean... anyway, everyone seems to have new layouts and i should be the next in-line. XD

Thursday, November 6, 2003
vinett: twinkle twinkle ~ after much talk about furi kuri, i somehow got influenced and had its wallpaper put-up on my office desktop.

i think i spend too much these few weeks -a bit out of control for no reason. i still have tons to buy thou... having christmas round the corner -it's a long list. by then i should be eating grass for the months ahead. *sigh *sigh

Monday, November 3, 2003
endorphine: the end ~ i'd been thinking about the 'art of life' for a while now. and i thought i was struck by lightning.

things to ponder:- are you suppose to tell everything to your friends? share your happy and sad moment together? what's friend all about anyway? just merely a companion?

this is one's opinion:- 'i despise people who keep good news from their friends. anyway people tend to have different thoughts about friends and the importance of friends to them. maybe one day i'll understand...'

Wednesday, October 29, 2003
was listening to art of life (28:58) by x japan on my way back home.

desert rose
why do you live alone
if you are sad
i'll make you leave this life
are you white, blue or bloody red
all i can see is
drowning in cold grey sand

the winds of time
you knock me to the ground
i'm dying of thirst
i wanna run away
i don't know how to set me free to live
my mind cries out feeling pain

i've been roaming to find myself
how long have i been
feeling endless hurt
falling down, rain flows into my heart
in the pain i'm waiting for you

can't go back
no place to go back to
life is lost, flowers fall
if it's all dream, now wake me up
if it's all real, just kill me

°£ÁÖ

i'm making the wall inside my heart
i don't wanna let my emotions get out
it scares me to look at the world
don't want to find myself
lost in your eyes

i tried to drown my past in grey
i never wanna feel more pain
run away from you
without saying any words
What i don't wanna lose is love

through my eyes
time goes by like tears
my emotion's losing the color of life

kill my heart
release all my pain
i'm shouting out loud
insanity takes hold over me

turning away from the wall
nothing i can see
the scream deep inside
reflecting another person in my heart
he calls me from within
"all existence you see before you
must be wipe out
dream, reality, memories, and yourself"

°£ÁÖ

i begin to lose control of myself
my lust is so blind, destroys my mind
nobody can stop
my turning to madness
no matter how you try to
hold me in your heart

why do you wanna raise these walls
i don't know the meaning of hatred
my brain gets blown away
hearing words of lies
i only want to hold your love

stab the dolls filled with hate
wash yourself with their blood

drive into the raging current of time
swing your murderous weapon
into the belly the Earth

shout and start creating confusion
shed your blood for pleasure
and what for love
what am i supposed to do

i believe in the madness called now
past and future prison my heart
time is blind
but i wanna trace my love
on the wall of the time
over pain in my heart

art of life
insane blade stabbing dreams
try to break all truth now
but i can't heal this broken heart in pain
cannot start to live, cannot end my life
keep on crying

°£ÁÖ

close my eyes
time breathes i can hear
all love and sadness melt in my heart

dry my tears
wipe my bloody face
i wanna feel me
living my life outside my walls

you can't draw a picture of yesterday
so you're painting your heart
with your blood
you can't say no
only turning the wheel of time
with a rope around your neck

you build a wall of morality and take
a breath from between the bricks
you make up imaginary enemies
and are chased by them
you're trying to commit suicide
you're satisfied with your prologue
now you're painting
your first chapter black

you're putting the scraps of life together
and trying to make
an asylum for yourself
you're hitting a bell at the edge of stage
and you're trying to kill me

i believe in the madness called now
time goes flowing, breaking my heart
wanna live, can't let my heart kill myself
still i haven't found what i'm looking for

art of life
i try to stop myself
but my heart goes to destroy the truth
tell me why
i want the meaning of my life
do i try to live
do i try to love in my dream

ÇÇ¾Æ³ë °£ÁÖ

i'm breaking the wall inside my heart
i just wanna let my emotions get out
nobody can stop
i'm running to freedom
no matter how you try
to hold me in your world

like a doll carried by the flow of time
i sacrificed the present moment
for the future
i was in chains of memory half-blinded
losing my heart
walking in the sea of dream

close my eyes
rose breathes i can hear
all love and sadness melt in my heart

dry my tears
wipe my bloody face
i wanna feel me
living my life outside my mind

dreams can make me mad
i can't leave my dream
i can't stop myself
don't know what i am
what lies are truth
what truths are lies

°£ÁÖ

i believe in the madness called now
time goes flowing, breaking my heart
wanna live, can't let my heart kill myself
still i haven't found what i'm looking for

art of life
i try to stop myself
but my heart goes to destroy the truth
tell me why
i want the meaning of my life
do i try to live
do i try to love

art of life
an eternal bleeding heart
you never wanna breathe your last
wanna live, can't let my heart kill myself
still I'm feeling for
a rose is breathing love in my life

Tuesday, October 28, 2003
hyde: horizone ~ just days ago, no_on told me that m met ery in the street; and today a mail from ery came. can't describe what's my feeling now but really happy to hear from ery again whom i know since 1990. ery will only write to me once in a year. i don't blame ery, even if i've to wait longer; i'm just glad.

ery and family was going thru some hard time for the past years due to some misfortune; things just torn a-part. ery has been really mobile, so i can't get hold of ery's contacts and addresses. most of the time, i need to get my peers to track ery down -unsuccessful.

ery told me that the wedding bell is on the way but that was three years ago. the actual day is still not known but i'm looking forward to ery's big day.

~ god bless ery and family.

Thursday, October 23, 2003
'i am not scared to die because of death,
more because of i haven't experience enough i tried to commit suicide too many times.' ~ kjubei

Wednesday, October 22, 2003
s.q.f.: cradle songs ~ going out later to meet up with my jap-freak friend. it's been a while... most of the time we sms-ing each other. now then i notice that my hp batt left one more bar -hopefully it will last thru the night. kjubei wanted to show me the gothic lolita mag and maybe the diary with bitter memories. i think there's much to catch up... one of kjubei favorite hangout is at 'kuni-kunya'. ok, i'm at it again, it's kinokuniya. ;p that'll be our meeting place. here's something from kjubei:

i want to die while you love me
while yet you hold me fair
while laughter lies upon my lips
and lights are in my hair

Wednesday, October 22, 2003

What Anime Mech Are You?

Wednesday, October 22, 2003

You are Form 9, Vampire: The Undying.

"And The Vampire was all that remained on
the blood drowned creation. She attempted to
regrow life from the dead. But as she was
about to give the breath of life, she was
consumed in the flame of The Phoenix and the
cycle began again."

Some examples of the Vampire Form are Hades (Greek)
and Isis (Egyptian). The Vampire is associated with the concept of
death, the number 9, and the element of fire. Her sign is the eclipsed moon.

As a member of Form 9, you are a very realistic
individual. You may be a little idealistic,
but you are very grounded and down to earth.
You realize that not everything lasts, but you
savor every minute of the good times. While
you may sometimes find yourself lonely, you
have strong ties with people that will never be
broken. Vampires are the best friends to have
because they are sensible.

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Tuesday, October 21, 2003
dasein: i miss you ~ okie... where i'm suppose to start? back in vietnam, most of the time that i spend is walking around the streets from north, south, east and west. i was hoping to see if there's any computer shops around but can't find one. just cyber cafes which charge 40 cents usd per minute. it was broadband but still very expensive! manage to go to their museum which mostly features those things left during their war time. the weather is humid and rains most of the evenings. my last day before departure, i stroll around the street and get a glimpse of the buildings. what i remember most is their beef noodle, beef with rice, beef this and beef that. tried even their seafood fried rice -very light taste, not oily, no pepper... steamboat give me much umph. unlike sg -things just taste so dull.

Thursday, October 16, 2003
gackt: secret garden ~ yesterday, went to the cu chi tunnel, 70 kilometers north west of down town ho chi minh -well known historical vestige of the vietnamese revolution. as a distinctive architecture, this cobweb-like tunnel complex is a network of underground dug-outs of over 200 kilometers long, consisting of many layers and turnings with meeting, living and fighting quarters. the cu chi tunnel represent the will, intelligence and pride of the people of cu chi and symbolize the revolutionary heroism of vietnam, cu chi has officially been cited as "vietnam's land of steel and bastion of bronze". understanding the hard and protracted struggle of the vietnamese people as well as their keen desire for everlasting peace, independence and happiness. i tried the 40 meters tunnel -a little exhausted by the size of the tunnel where you need to duck but some area requires you to crawl. it was raining at that time which make the trekking muddy but not so bad in the tunnel. it was made from clays. what makes me more tired is the traffic jam back to the city which took 2 hours -normal ride was about 40 mins.

Wednesday, October 15, 2003
la'cryma christi: groove weapon ~ we had dinner at the restaurant boat which flows along saigon river. there's not much on the night view. but rather, we enjoy the seafood serve on board. i think i whack too much prawn... ooo -high cholesterol. but guess what, i'm hungry already -time for my supper. lucky that i brought a loaf of bread on my way back to the hotel. :D

Tuesday, October 14, 2003
glay: street life ~ was wandering around ho chi minh city with a companion. bought some souvenirs for my so on and so on... just another long list. oh well... most of the shops sell identical items -their target was tourists. craft-work and paintings along the streets. i don't see much traffic lights but plenty of zebra crossings. imagine three in one street. motorcycles were their popular transportation. i was told that it was more convenient because there's a lot of narrow streets. we reach ben thanh market. it's big with a mixture from wet market, clothing, all kind of wares, souvenirs... etc. later, we pop in to a coffee shop after covering the west area. it was owned by a vietnamese chinese who can speaks mandarin and cantonese. we ordered their delicacy -beef noodles. it was great -superb. we got back to the hotel, as my companion is totally worn out. maybe because of the hot weather.

Sunday, October 12, 2003
ayumi hamasaki: heartplace-ayu-ro-mix ~ just woke up, my brain is still sleeping. not sure if i'm fit to blog? hahaha. but hey, i'm flying off today... kinda miss my routine with the computers but they get to rest for now since i'm away for holiday. huh, as if... me packing along my blue pc. not sure if i can get internet access over there. will see how once i touch down. i just done packing my luggage, laziness which took me down. i hope i didn't miss out anything. normally i'll pack a week earlier. it's proven that i failed to do so. oh well, sayonara!

Friday, October 10, 2003
kuroyume: autism... ~ been doing some ridiculous stuff lately. that bitch can't stop her motor-mouth. hate that when people abuse their power -esp. orders which does not apply to you! baka! extra:- found out that the bitch was suppose to be in 'ho' but was transfered to 'dg' because she's too agressive.

never mind that... i'll be away next week. at least, avoid those sickening people. my sis were looking forward to that day, so that she can have the whole room by herself -how pathetic. i haven't pack a thing yet... huh!? excuse -oh well, been watching whole load of animes. my computers had been working extremely hard, round the clock serving me the master. the silver pc will get to rest next week, blue one might travel with me while the chrome one will go to my sis. yeah, she hate computer at first, even using it frustrated her so much! she will screams and yells if she can't get things done. seems now she gets along well with it. she'd learn quite a load -scanning, using a digi-cam, bloggin', auctions, neopet (she blames me introducing her this site although i don't play myself -as it occupies her time and because she's an animal lover so she can't let her pets die). next thing next -how to cut a cd and own a pda; hopefully to learn html (she envies the 12 yrs olds' work).

not only that, i'd been playing user support at home. it's kinda rough as i'd been doing it at work and now at home. i'm not really good using software. i'm more to a technical person who is better with hardware. whenever my sis has a project, i've to crack my head a bit. well, it's kind of a learning experience or should i say a self refresh course?! i do get calls from friends seeking help on their computers but sometimes i find them annoying; yeah, my hand phone bills too!!!

Monday, October 6, 2003
sophia: yume ~ seems like everyone is on hiatus... wonder why. anyway, was late this morning... really late. it's 9am! thank god and no thanks... my sis was sick -vomit and faint. worried that she might pass out, took her to the doctor, yet she complain and insist to go to school because exam is round the corner. i'm just glad that the medicine cause drowziness... she should rest. i know she'll try to go for the afternoon class... and skip her evening karate training -hope so. ...we ate the same thing...

weekend was like non-moving picture kind of atmostphere. boring or not so. i can't seems to think right lately. i'm concious but blank mind is what i had, for now...

thank yous' people who prayed for me, being there for me... i don't usually invite others to my problems. i prefer to be quiet about it. but if i had one, it's just too great to handle -help is useless. i wonder, why there's always obstacle in between -i don't mind bumpy roads but not to that extreme. i'm just a human being born to this world like everyone else. i'd gone through much hardship alone and become independance in my late teens -work, study, all on my own. my relatives, friends envies the way i brought myself out; how i fought typhoon, storm and thunder; so far away. but no one really understand me and i don't need all that praising -it's for my family.

Thursday, October 2, 2003
hide: a story ~ my aya-bro wanted to watch 28 days later -so badly... very disturbing show; that's why it was rated nc16. anyway, we waited for the alternate ending, which was stated in every reviews -but sadly, just two of us; the rest walk-off... sounds like we're sitting through -to fully utilize the tickets -heh, not true. back to the story, it was like 'what if...' ok. that's it -no spoilers here. i'll only post it in forums.

Wednesday, October 1, 2003
deadman: blood ~ it was chaotic before i could settle down. our telephones screaming like hell. my colleague rush-in to the operating room to save mr watchguard. rip... we desperately need a replacement. temporary blocked all access as strangers attempt to crash in forcefully. and finally mr watchguard2 came in -way too long. resume normal activities but i'm still stressing up -paper works!!! doctor -help!

Monday, September 29, 2003
hide: a story ~ i'm cold-blooded -that's what i was told, first thing i reach office. i'm not affected by such remark. i know i carry such attitude -my mum can't stand it either. somehow i need to mend my way -to be less cold and be respectful?! i don't know. yeah, maybe i should try hard.

Monday, September 29, 2003
phobia: section ~ i can't believe i'm working on sunday. i still have to clear-up the mess next day... yeah, it's already monday thou. i thot of going out after work but somehow i didn't. i ended watching some stupid show on tv -boring. good question, why didn't i watch my anime?! -i really don't know. guess i'm not in the mood to do anything but lazied myself with some blank mind... whatever.

Saturday, September 27, 2003
schwardix marvally: hunting days ~ upset -anipea exceeded bandwidth limit. it can be view only next month -extremely sad. desperately looking for a web-host now. i like to see people come visit my sites. i wanted to hear their comments and suggestions -it makes me happy. but... i'm shattered

Thursday, September 25, 2003
wyse: air ~ not really in the mood these days... bloggin in such hours. heck. hate to see good things go away. blindness stop ones from enjoying the best of another. killer always survive -why it has to be like that? one wish for devil power but will that bring any good? breathing disturbance; so uncomfortable, annoyance. things are beyond control -only fake can live that way. in the mist of drowning... will one see the sun light again?

Monday, September 22, 2003
mirage: ...air ~ it's been pouring heavily whole day. yeah, stayed at home most of the time... got ill after that. finally get out from my nest -searching high and low for my gundam. managed to get justice gundam but freedom gundam is out of stock; hope to get aegis gundam as well. also grab the last copy of my anime mag -how lucky! so excited and not so excited... haix.

my sis pop a question saying that my fren hl is a weirdo... i'm also one of them?! she can't describe what make us in such categories... sometimes you couldn't see what kind of person you're but the people around us do know better. not sure what in me today but hope for a smooth sailing life -i'll be contented.

Friday, September 19, 2003
t.m.revolution: out of orbit-triple zero ~ woke up late -suppose to prepare breakfast for my sis. oh well, slept only in the morning -was working on my notebook -it's now up and running but not sure what will happen next as i re-use the supposedly dead hdd. yeah, bad luck really hits me -one revived and the other external hdd died!!! and all my beloved important data lost!!! arrrggghhh!!! i am sooooo sad... ;C

Wednesday, September 17, 2003
oblivion dust: destination ~ i like to daydream sometimes -making my soul go away for a while... it's a waste of time but i get to start with a blank mind; it's not that bad thou. at least i feel lighter, happier. looking back to my past, i used to think about my work -be it at work or at home. worst still, i even work in my dream! it's hard to not believe. i even got myself to see a doctor thinking i'm ill or something. to my surprise, the doctor prescribe me stress pill! i was like -huh?!? that's not really important now. i got better things to worry about rather than work itself. through out my experiences and such it seems to be enough for me to shoulder... no any more.

Tuesday, September 16, 2003
dir en grey: obscure ~ the clock is ticking... continuously without fail. i look back but don't know what i've done so far. so pathetic. courage -do i have one? risk -can i take it? failure -will i still be alive? i'm just bits and pieces everywhere... no-sense of direction. i used to live with this quote 'ride on with the wind'. yeah, i end up not in-line. feh.

Monday, September 15, 2003
pleur: minuet ~ yesterday i went to check on the gundams at toy r us but they don't have the size i want which is the usual 1/100 scale. i'm not sure if they've run out of stock or what. should've check on 'taka' the other day. i'm not in a hurry to get it -i wonder how true. heh.

Sunday, September 14, 2003
neiL: deep eternal ~ one of my notebook -rip. managed to copy most of my files yesterday. heh. have to get a new hdd for replacement. i don't know if i can get it free... to buy one is quite ex compare to pc hdd. it's my very mobile notebook -be it overseas or at my friends' house. now that i've to leave home without it till i get the replacement... *sigh. i wonder how soon...

Saturday, September 13, 2003
yoshiki: seize the light ~ my aya-bro icqed me -the letter. i haven't experience such way where people push me to that extend. normally it's my decision no matter how's the condition. could it be time-due, upgrade or closed down... there's no fullest. i had it small but memorable; with a hand-full of people who had been supportive. -unforgettable and thank you.

Friday, September 12, 2003
giant step: super feedbacker ~ things just don't turn out the way i wanted. instead of reading mag, i continued with my anime. heh. i was a bit tired then and sick too; i'm sure i'll fall asleep if i read. -blah- didn't get enough sleep -almost late for work -my sis yelling; thanks.

Friday, September 12, 2003
glay: misery ~ yep, went out to orchard. bought two mags -one about anime then another about the mechas in gundam seed. stupid me when i reach home and found out that i don't have the october issue for another anime mag!!! arrrgghhh!!! what can i do, i'm not sure if it's still avail on my next outing -shit!! it's pass 12 already. time is really that precious. oh well... i think today can't watch any anime, must read at least one unwrap mag. if not my info is quite out-dated already.

Wednesday, September 10, 2003
buck-tick: death wish ~ i think i'm sick... it's a sign when my eyes get sore. so unfortunate... i hate it. it's not my day either. got stuck up with so many things; how i wish they do not exist, or i shouldn't be here at all. i'm not sure. it's a question long time ago... too long ago. my mum ask me once -'i don't know'.

Monday, September 8, 2003
beast: lr-7 ~ not really a good start for the day. but heck! that's why they always say 'monday blues' but it doesn't affect me that much... my aya-bro insists that i complete the project by today... yeah yeah, no reward some-more... should i do it like a tortoise or snail???

09072003 - must have items: ZGMF-X10A and ZGMF-X09A mechas!!! i'm suppose to get it today... oh well, maybe some other time. too lazy to move myself away from the computer.

09062003 - i was sleeping, wake up for lunch -anime; sleep again, then wake-up for dinner -anime... read my mag. still got two unwrap mags (hobby and anime). heh.

Friday, September 5, 2003
siam shade: black ~ just came back from my outing. aya-bro want to go to the so-called new anime shop. to our disappointment on how it was describe by a mag... nothing much thou. i only got struck by kira yamato and athrun zala posters. it was so cool but i didn't buy... heh...

Thursday, September 4, 2003
x-japan: rusty nail ~ face some problems with a nasty provider. after this bitch took over our company's account, we the client have difficulties working with her. it's like -that we need to contact the whole world instead of her to inform us the status. what is this?! we'd complain but still get the same treatment. i really got annoyed by this... how to ignore such irresponsible person?? oh well, my sis is sick, have to rush back to prepare porridge...

Wednesday, September 3, 2003
kagerou: marvellous na kubikazari ~ partly of my mia is because of this not-so-impressive layout; finally. i'm quite happy with it. i'll have to miss my atashi from now on. *sob

Tuesday, September 2, 2003
schwarz stein: release me ~ i was on mia for a while... so many things that had happen, i would say - happy and sad; angst and more angst. some people just walk up to my desk and scolded me for not being there to answer their calls! not only that, helping them also a torture -and i get face-off in return. the nature of my job requires me to move around within six floors and sometimes out from the building to get things done. *sigh... my sis called, -bad wheather and bad mood (same applies to me). so we're not going to lantern festival.

09012003 - was really sleepy at work, dozz-off a few times but can't get my seat hot. there's so many things to do. can't recall what i did... i was too tired, so didn't go to lantern festival. my sis called again -what's for dinner: burgers and pie.

08312003 - i woke up quite early -suppose to sleep until afternoon.. oh well, need to watch my d.n.angel -cool! then later... my sis call -not her day. some national. rantx3.

08302003 - went out with my sis and aya-bro after work. managed to get my anime mag and also a mecha mag at 'kuni-kunya'. the vr mag is not out yet... maybe second week of september or earlier. then we had dinner... err, i would say it was a late lunch thou. kfc-chicken, chicken and chicken.

08292003 - nothing much... but i know aya-bro still angry for what i did.

Thursday, August 28, 2003
dueljewel: paranoid trash ~ what a lame start of the day... sleepy eyes, blank mind; the incident still plays in my mind. the priest said that i was in the wrong. wicked and not knowing the boundary on one's dignity. being so blunt; hurting others' feelings. should return to my reserved self, anti-social, away from everything...

Wednesday, August 27, 2003
velet eden: cold sleep ~ i'm a fucking bastard in the very morning. aya-bro is really piss off. i can see erruption, larva, smoke, black... it's written all over the face. -bbq, everything turn upside down. i don't know now...

Monday, August 25, 2003
malice mizer: gardenia ~ after my last posting, i continued another 10 episodes of inu yasha. can't resist the on going fights along their journey. teary eyes -it's a sign telling me to sleep, oh well. it was 3-4am...

Monday, August 25, 2003
08242003 ~ i'm a bit obsessed with inu yasha for the whole day... my eyes sore, red, dry, itch... after clearing 24 episodes. i still manage to gobble down three meals without fail. impressive huh?! with snacks in between.

08232003 ~ i'm out for movie again with my sis and her friend, aya-bro, and another friend of mine. not a so horror flick with psychological mix. it's setting, i would say quite artistic... and really sad. -a tale of two sisters (korean). thank goodness it has english subtitle; yeah, my chinese sucks!

Friday, August 22, 2003
heath: daydream ~ manage to throw away 3 bags full of rubbish... i can get rid off even more but some junk are so precious. well it still didn't reduce anything thou... sigh. guess tonight i need to work out something to at least clear my table.

Thursday, August 21, 2003
l'arc~en~ciel: vivid colors ~ i can't barely open my eyes... so sleepy. i was thinking the whole night to re-arange my messy room. my cds, vcds, mags, manga had been stake sky high - it'll topple some day. i some how need to get rid of those unwanted things -i got plenty (computer parts, pentium tower casing, boxes, manuals for routers/switches, cables...); some unlikely to be re-use. need to have a better storage system to keep my room tidy and of course -spacious.

Tuesday, August 19, 2003
sophia: gj escape ~ i'm caught in the middle of blast. screams, shouts ring thru my ears. cotton wool please but no one heard me... it bleeds.

Monday, August 18, 2003
sex machineguns: hell rider ~ lightning, thunder, typhoon... me no son of any almighty gods. can't humans be more realistic over stupidity? is small matter need to be blown up?? is brain had reach it limits? my sunflower just melt...

Monday, August 18, 2003
08172003 ~ disapointed that i was unable to catch inu yasha on cable tv. but not to spoil my mood further, i went to see lxg-the legend of extraordinary gentlemen. it's not the best or that you need to give a miss. it's just that the time is not enough for every characters to show their capabilities. well, i'm not going elaborate further... bought also three models - gat-x105 strike gundam, gat-x303 aegis gundam and ms-07b-3 gouf custom(desert) from uncle tidbits?! -it's true

08162003 ~ i had a great time over the weekend. i should do it more often... it was my first outing with my colleagues after 20 months in the company. we had a late lunch and then bowling. we teased each others' bowling skills -it's been a long time that i didn't laugh that hard. my cheeks tire. we parted after three games... i feel that i'm older and so are the rest. my muscles somehow aches all over... bought l'arc~en~ciel -the best of l'arc-en-cielx3

Friday, August 15, 2003
angst...

Thursday, August 14, 2003
sads: sads ~ i really need to breath... i didn't have a chance to do anything. i don't wish to live my life like this. i'm awaiting oportunites come knocking on my door. let me be free; to do things i wanted. will that come true? life is so cruel...

Wednesday, August 13, 2003
weiss kreuz: no surrender ~ hamster ran out from alcatraz. it has been creepily wander around in the wild for days. re-captured; out again. the guard were worried sick. looking out for any sign, trace -footprints... but anxieties was put to an end. happily, the guard want to feast and invite two crowds. -true story

Tuesday, August 12, 2003
plastic tree: monophobia ~ my alarm did go off this morning. and I just sleepily turned it off and rolled over. anyhow. thanks to my sis, who snooze me -by kicking my bed. i was thinking that i'll miss the co. bus but thank god it's still there. phew! i wonder what i'm going to have for lunch later...

Monday, August 11, 2003
devil kitty: drive ~ i keep on dozzing off... from morning till now. i'm not sure if i got notice but somehow i felt i am. i wish to munch on something to keep me awake but seems that i ran out of it. what a horrible day to start. anyway, it's time to go home soon.

Monday, August 11, 2003
klaha: stay in the rain ~ went down town to get myself some air. after a stroll at a bookstore, had naan for tea break, check out the latest tech gadget, coffee... and head home. kinda refreshing, really. as usual; tv, gaming and internet to the remaining of the night.

Sunday, August 10, 2003
guniw tools: misty gate ~ i had a rough ride which is the worst i encounter. i was so dissapointed. after years of redundancy, i can't seems to accept such results. my heart beat faster and i couldn't control my fear. it makes me so alert; so awake. i always think highly of the skills but it turn out to be the other way. :(

Saturday, August 9, 2003
phobia: universe ~ today is national day. i wake up quite early and had breakfast with my sis. after that was like eating and eating kinda thing. talking about food, i feel hungry again. i'd been watching tv, gaming, tv again, gaming, internet... so boring huh?! i thot of going out but not sure where. i know i can make a day more meaningful thou... heh, guess i'm just too lazy to move around. not sure if i'm going fishing later...

Friday, August 8, 2003
lastier: will ~ i'm very tired and sleepy today. i doze off earlier in the office -that was bad... not sure why but i seems to get the right amount of time to sleep yesterday. yawnnnn... i somehow lost my mood to surf the net or design my new website. really strange. i also notice that i'm hungrier than usual -had rice during lunch and 'tau huay'(bean curd) for dessert. what on earth is happening to me?

Thursday, August 7, 2003
hyde: the other side ~ i suppose i'm ok today. i continue to work on anipe@ which i abandoned days ago. only one thing that annoyed me is the radio sitting two partitions away from me. it was turn on everyday not really that loud but with all the bzzz (bad speaker, high pitch); it's driving me crazy. i can't really concentrate, it's giving me headache! if only my colleague can turn it on louder... directors floor-what do you think? how i wish that i don't have to pick up calls, if not, would've jamed my music using ear-phones.

Wednesday, August 6, 2003
la’mule: mind control ~ yesterday, i’m out with a friend - looking for books of certification exam-prep. i waited at the wrong place despite the sms stating the intended location. i reach home quite early but felt tired – my usual practice (doze off without shower). don’t worry; i still shower for god shake! that’s when i wake up around midnight. –logon to the internet; check my icq, mails and such. someone even blame me for not going online – well I did, but at the wrong time. today, i felt better. i’m not sure why. my depress mode somehow got switched-off. strange. but it's not over yet...

Tuesday, August 5, 2003
d+shade: alone ~ i kept on falling... i felt unconcious. why on earth did that happen to me. why can't i have rights to do things i wanted. why restriction? arrrggggghhh!!!!! ... i sat in despair. entering my dark closet.

Monday, August 4, 2003
penicillin: new future ~ i'm sad over the weekend. and that's why this layout come about. nobody seems to notice the real me. i’m glad. i can only struggle within myself. i hate to complaint my sufferings, bitterness to others. it’s just not me. bottle-up and fight within...