Around the World in Many Years

I hate liars. With a passion. Liars whose lies affect others lives in a great degree. Little lies such as a Christmas present or anything like a positive surprise. But lies because someone is trying to avoid you. Lies about someone who thinks that the person they're lying to will be happier before. Happier only for a little while, for lies like that will always come out, and then they will shatter them, not just break them.

Someday, somewhere, I know there will be a person I find who won't disappoint me. Who won't lead me on, and who will actually not find me boring. -_-;

I don't know...I can dream at least, but I think everyone like that is taken. At least, I haven't found one like that who isn't taken. Perhaps I should pursue my languages more, and enhance them to the point where I can find someone special who doesn't speak English....-_-

"Even if the voices aren't real.....they have some pretty good ideas!!!!" - Holly

Ahh....as usual, I have one thing, but not the other. Though, perhaps, if all goes well, I'll finally have both. And then I'll really be content with things. ^_^

I went out on a date today....such an awesome girl too. Into video games, anime. Energetic, cute, and tomboyish. A little embarassing in public, but thats pretty much the only negative. And its still not such a bad thing.

The only worry I have is....how long will this relationship last? I've never been able to maintain a happy life for long. Something happens, something comes up seemingly out of my control. I'll enjoy the happiness while it lasts. A girl who likes me and cares about me (Or at least says I'm sexy. ^_____^). And if nothing else, its someone to dote on for the time being, and allow me to enjoy life at current.

I honestly would like it to last, but who knows? I'll get my hopes up, much to my annoyance. -_- But my heart is at peace now, so I'll just let it rest for now.

"Did anyone ever tell you, you Brazilians have an odd sense of humor?"

Well, I got kicked out of the place I was staying. Was homeless for over a week. Finally decided on moving to a different state.

Slept in the basement of the chocolate cafe. Stalled for an extra day so I could catch my airplane to New York. It was quite the adventure.

Thursday, when I got in. It was raining, so I didn't do anything. I woke up early on Friday though, and went in to New York. Walked around a lot, checked out Central Park, the Rockfeller Center, and the Empire State Building. Went to China Town for lunch with my friend out there. Though she enjoyed teasing my lack of knowledge of Chinese.

Saturday......made me realize that 400 dollars was a lot of money. -_- Then Sunday, I found my way through the transportation of New York (Which is an awesome subway system, btw) all the way to the JFK airport. Which took me to where I am now.

Anyway, time to get some sleep, and then do some job stuff. Hopefully updates will become a little more frequent with time. -_-

Ah, gotta love clockwork. Within the 3-4 month range, I am again, homeless. And not finding any luck for a place to live. The places I'm finding are about as bad as the place I was at when I first got here. -_-

I just wish this cycle would stop, but I have a feeling it won't. I wish I could have some credit, so I wouldn't worry about a good place, and I could getin on a lease. So many things, so much lacking. -_-

I've got work in about an hour, I got off work about 4 hours ago. Yay, at least I've got something to do. I just wish I could find a place close, instead of finding a place 'elsewhere'. I.E. in a different state/country. -_- Its getting to the point of annoying. Seriously to the point. Thats all I've got to say for now, I'm on the verge of tears, but I'm holding it in, because if I break down, there'll be no stopping, and I can't afford to break down. I have too much riding on everything. Someday, perhaps. Though likely not.

"They're going out with trash...they're playing with trash...they're dumping trash." - (Ahh...double meanings! ^_^)

Well, lets see....where to begin....Lots of work, as usual. Though one less jobs of yesterday.
The hotel job finally hit the last straw, and I ended up walking out on them after confirming that my other job would give me more hours, and that a job I've had lined up is looking to start me in possibly two weeks.

Not to mention the fact that I feel like I'm stagnating again. Hopefully I'll figure something out, a good goal, a special someone to do things for. Something.

Maybe thats why I got sick of work. Had no purpose. I don't really care that much about myself. I want to make others happy, though, selfishly, I want someone to hold. -_-

Hold close, and in my arms....make them smile and see them smile. *sigh*

Well, I guess I'm good as far as updating people on whats been going on. I've been getting into bouts with my roommates and landlord. I need to move. -_-

On the bright side though, I've got at least one friend to do stuff with. ^_^ Thats about the only good news I've got. -_- Oh well, sometimes its a start.

"Yay! I can pick up cats!" - Larry

Heee...sorry for the late post. ^_^;;;

I've had my new computer for almost a week. It is awesome!! The only complaint I have is that when its been sitting idle all day it takes a minute or two to whirr up to full activity. XD But now my friends can get ahold of me and leave me messages, those that don't/can't call me. And now I've got anime, and music, pretty much a lot of things I was missing. And I can get to work on my book again. -_- And my video game! Huzzah!!

Work has been keeping me busy as usual, and I've got so many things to work on that I've been sorta procastinating because I've been enjoying my computer, but now I'm cracking down. Of course work is getting busy too. With holidays coming up, we're gonna get busy. -_-

And now I gotta figure out how to get rid of the cockroaches before they become much of a problem. But at least the fleas are gone....except for a rare one or two that have cropped up the past two days. @.@

I'm becoming happy now, things are going well, I'm just wishing for a few more things. If everything goes to how I'd like, I'll be here for about 3 more years, and then I'll be moving. I'll hopefully have a lot of cash saved up by then, and will be pretty comfortable with life. I'd still give all of this up for a girlfriend. XD But at least having this is better than having nothing. -_-

I guess thats about it for this update. I'll probably spend this next month paying back all the people who helped me out the past two years, and then the next 5 months saving up for something I tried to save up for about this time last year. I need that 5000 for the day when I can put the plan into action. What plan? Hehehehe, only the best idea I've had. I think I've told 3 people, and I don't talk to any of them anymore. But lets just say that when its purpose comes to fruition, then I'll let everyone else know about it. ^_^

Other than that....I haven't anything I really want to save up for. A car would be nice, but I can't justify putting so much money into something, or only 0 for a real junky one, I simply don't know enough about cars to buy one for a good price without wondering what is wrong with it. And then insurance and all that mess.....I think what I hate most is upkeep. I want to pay for something, and then its mine. None of this month by month crap. Someday I won't have to worry about rent or anything...and even my house payments won't be on a mortgage....I'll get a decent interest rate from a bank perhaps. Regardless, now that I'm moving up, I'm focusing on my plans for the future. Now I don't have to worry about having one. Even if its currently a lonely future. -_-

"Your happiness is under your control. Grasp it with both dimples and take it where you want."

Geez, sorry everyone. I've been very, very busy. 3 jobs is a bit too much for me to handle. >.< I quit Quizno's about a week ago now, and am working nearly full-time at the other two. Its pretty nice to have money though. ^_^;; So much better income versus cost of living than when I was in California. Unfortunately, thats about the only thing thats nice around here. -_-

Notre Dame campus isn't bad, really. It doesn't hold enough interest for me to stay there for too long though. The reason I moved here, the girl, as I expected, my fears came true. The moment I got here, she pulled a "I'm not interested anymore" type deal, and just left me to fend for myself. -_- On the positive, if it weren't for that, I probably wouldn't be working so hard to keep myself busy and working back up to at least some semblance of dignity.

I'm purchasing a computer on Monday, a really nice one. Because I have no credit, I'm having to pay for it all in cash, but I've got all 1000 dollars in cash to pay it. ^_^ As opposed to barely scraping by paycheck by paycheck. o.o
I'm lonely, but at least I've got money. I guess this is how the world works, you either have close friends, or lots of money.....in all honesty I'd rather have the close friends; or better yet a gf. -_- *sigh* I still hold a very high anemosity towards the girl here. Very, very mean. But sadly expected by nearly everyone. Regardless, I can finally work on my game. Heck, I make enough money I can pay people to work on my game for me now. Instead of playing a 'royalties' type deal. But of course, now I'm having people think they're not qualified. -_- Can never win.

Oooh, and I broke my old record. I worked 17 1/2 hours straight in a single day! My old record is only 16 1/2 hours. But I work 16 1/2 fairly often anyway, so it wasn't much of a record. ^_^ Maybe I'll go for 24, or more! o.o I'm a self-proclaimed workaholic. ^_^;;; Maybe its the way I deal with dissapointment and stress? By working to exhaustion so I don't have time to worry or mope. It is more productive, and financially benefical too.

Perhaps I can finally hit my goal from last year and reach the 5000 saved up that I needed.......

"If I had a brain, I'd be dangerous."- Ron Patterson when he couldn't find his Mountain Dew.

Geez.....I've been upside down (literally), right side up, thrown down to the bottom and am working on my way back up. For some reason, I'm prone to starting out at ground zero no matter where I move. O.o

I got the vehicle registered on Friday, and headed out that same day. 2 1/2 hours from Salt Lake City, I got into a wreck. -_- The car jerked me to the left, and I slammed on my brakes and overcorrected, ended up on flipping upside-down, completely wrecking my car. Yeah, that was lovely. Ironically, I walked away nearly unscathed. Only thing damaged was my hands when I climbed out of my car and they got cut up on the glass. 400 dollars for the towing fee.....107 for a 'failure to maintain lane' ticket. (Which I'm just now getting the money to pay off).

So I grab what I can salvage, and hop on the bus, another 300 gone...I figured that once I got to South Bend, and was with Heather, all would be better. HAH!, was that a misconception. I really should've taken some time and visited old friends and relaxed a little after the accident. -_- But I was anxious, I wanted to get here.

And so, off on the bus I went. And I arrived here on the following Monday. Everything seemed good and well....right up until we met face to face. For some reason I think she was expecting something different, and that is why she got all quiet and depressed.

*sigh* -_- Yet again, my search ends in failure. There might still be hope, but I'm not counting on anything good happening. I'm working 3 jobs right now, trying to earn up as much money as possible as quick as possible. It leaves me exhausted, and next to no free time. But it will allow me to have some money, and figure out what I'm going to do as far as living, etc. And let me pay off the upcoming cell-phone bill too....@.@ This is close to as bad as the Florida incident, but at least I'm more experienced, and got jobs pretty quickly. ^_^

"So you're like Frodo or something?" - Danyl "Well, my feet are almost as hairy, but I'm a bit taller." - Me