Anyway, I've just invented -not quite new- soup for me again. I don't know what to call this, but I add squid (stir fry first), chickens, as well as maccaroni and potatoes, I also put steamed tofu at the last minutes. I don't know what it called for you and how it'll taste, but I like it much though now I'm minimizing the salt and sugar I had on my food. Diet can be so distressing somehow, but those who trying to fulfill the plan will do anything to feel better and eager for the next step. That's what I'm trying to do.
I've finally finished downloading Samurai Deeper Kyo, and increasing my Japanese reading. He he he, it was a good comic in my opinion. I really like how the author peel the secret slowly and one by one, he's really good on keeping the suspense up!
My novel went on the completely on 180 degree roundabout. That's weird and also strange since I feel easier but also completely wrong... Guess what's wrong with me. Somehow, the coffee ain't make me feel better.
Something coming over me....
It's Friday, June 16th 2006
And I Write Sins not Tragedy - Panic at the disco flows as the wind blows
I've caught a summer cold, well... the peak was yesterday, I really couldn't do anything at all!! That's quite distressing for me. There are so many things that I have to do but my body pleading as 'no'.
I'm still reading Les Miserables vol 1 and missed several match on the World Cup, but I try to keep up with the latest news. My body still feeling unwell though it's already better since yesterday and two days a go. He he he he
I really don't know what to do or say, my ears keep buzzing and my nose were swollen, I even don't think that I'd be able to through the day without sleeping as usual. I owe to myself 100 sit ups, but then I realized that if I pushed myself too hard, the result is I got collapse! What a terrible turn out. At this moment, I agree with Umeda Hokuto's word on Hanakimi, "all those sportsmen are narcissistic masochist!" What a quote, ne...~~!
Everytime I read Samurai Deeper Kyo, I'm getting scared with Aka no Ou or the Red King, okay this might be a spoiler, but if you read the last chapters or two last books, you'll find a horrible truth about the King. His power and everything seems to be insatiable and also irresistible. He's cute though, but still so scary.... Now, as I read the last volumes I've downloaded from here I'd minimize the window and mumbling 'he's so scary... scary... so scary...' just as Yuya felt (okay, spoiler). Anyway, I'm so thankful I've downloaded those volumes. At least, I'm not feeling curious again. He he he...
I'm still reading Les Miserables vol 1 and missed several match on the World Cup, but I try to keep up with the latest news. My body still feeling unwell though it's already better since yesterday and two days a go. He he he he
I really don't know what to do or say, my ears keep buzzing and my nose were swollen, I even don't think that I'd be able to through the day without sleeping as usual. I owe to myself 100 sit ups, but then I realized that if I pushed myself too hard, the result is I got collapse! What a terrible turn out. At this moment, I agree with Umeda Hokuto's word on Hanakimi, "all those sportsmen are narcissistic masochist!" What a quote, ne...~~!
Everytime I read Samurai Deeper Kyo, I'm getting scared with Aka no Ou or the Red King, okay this might be a spoiler, but if you read the last chapters or two last books, you'll find a horrible truth about the King. His power and everything seems to be insatiable and also irresistible. He's cute though, but still so scary.... Now, as I read the last volumes I've downloaded from here I'd minimize the window and mumbling 'he's so scary... scary... so scary...' just as Yuya felt (okay, spoiler). Anyway, I'm so thankful I've downloaded those volumes. At least, I'm not feeling curious again. He he he...
Something coming over me....
It's Saturday, June 10th 2006
And The Chase of Highway - Nobuo Uematsu flows as the wind blows
Yesterday, the world cup finally began and the opening match between Germany and Costa rica turned out to be 4-2 for Germany. Well, I've just never expected that Costa rica will be that easy on giving up. I mean, just as Klose scored the third goal and make the score 3-1, Costa Rica attacked desperately, though it was awarded another goal for them, but as soon as they made the situation 3-2, they turned out to be in total defense mode. I'm not saying that Germany is an easy team, no way... they've won the world cup two or three times. Even so, I felt the desperation that Costa Rica had at that moment. Anyhow, I missed the next match between Polandia and -I don't know, can't remember-
Recently, my memory turned out to be total messed up. I memorize those unimportant items and forgotten the otherwise. K, that's a big trouble!
Yesterday, Ony and I had a talk about the relationship that most people had. I mean, both of us had no lovers during this study, but we're enjoy that part somehow. What we're talking about was the dependency of women to her lover. We've watched many of our seniors as well as other couples from our year that has such dependency and they're not afraid to show it publicly. OK, call me a feminist or whatsoever, but I don't think that women should be dependent on men. If we're asking them to do something, -in my opinion- make it sure that it's not bothering anyone. I mean, it's his own will for doing so and not because we're asked them to do so.
Even so, based on my own experience most women and men didn't aware about that fact, they thought it as something natural since they're lover at that time. The men should spoil the women, while women demanding much from the men. I think it's weird. Everything should be in equal, if he pays me the bill I'll pay the ticket, if he's busy with his friends, I'll go own my own, something like that.
The fact is that me and Ony both were afraid on being dependant, we hate the demand and pressure for being a dependant woman. As the other reason was that we're afraid that we'll be losing ourselves that has been built in hardships and joys.
Recently, my memory turned out to be total messed up. I memorize those unimportant items and forgotten the otherwise. K, that's a big trouble!
Yesterday, Ony and I had a talk about the relationship that most people had. I mean, both of us had no lovers during this study, but we're enjoy that part somehow. What we're talking about was the dependency of women to her lover. We've watched many of our seniors as well as other couples from our year that has such dependency and they're not afraid to show it publicly. OK, call me a feminist or whatsoever, but I don't think that women should be dependent on men. If we're asking them to do something, -in my opinion- make it sure that it's not bothering anyone. I mean, it's his own will for doing so and not because we're asked them to do so.
Even so, based on my own experience most women and men didn't aware about that fact, they thought it as something natural since they're lover at that time. The men should spoil the women, while women demanding much from the men. I think it's weird. Everything should be in equal, if he pays me the bill I'll pay the ticket, if he's busy with his friends, I'll go own my own, something like that.
The fact is that me and Ony both were afraid on being dependant, we hate the demand and pressure for being a dependant woman. As the other reason was that we're afraid that we'll be losing ourselves that has been built in hardships and joys.
Something coming over me....
It's Tuesday, June 6th, 2006
And Advent: One Winged Angel - Nobuo Uematsu flows as the wind blows
K, here's the day!!! 666 Wow! What a day! I've never thought that I could experience this day. That reminds me about my ideas when I was still at high school to have my wedding day in such similar order, whether it's 666 or 777 or 888 well the limitation will be 121212. 12th of December year 2012. That will be such a long time...
My character in Adventure Quest has reach level 8. Well, since it's free what else can I do? I mean, I've tried many and many times but I've failed so many times as well. I guess, I better learn to manage my gold and train up to level 10 or 13. I still haven't played the runescape though.
This track is the one from the Advent Children. I totally in love with this song, more particularly in Latin. After so many years, this time I've realized how Latin can be hymned over and over in your head like a chant. I mean, my sister even can continue my singing since she heard it over and over again. Even it's just the 'Sephiroth' part but I like it....
I've finished my drama paper and my friend thought it as a thesis since it consist of 40 pages! I even can't believe it myself, now I'm working on Poetry and another Drama task. My literary criticism also on the list. Anyway, I'm still reading Les Miserables vol.1. Talking about my books, last week one of my lecturers told me that the one published by Wordsworth, Everyman, and Pinguin were an abriged one. I told her that the title has the word 'Complete and Unabridged' How come she said that? I mean, can't she read it well? She didn't explain it to me though... *shrug*
My character in Adventure Quest has reach level 8. Well, since it's free what else can I do? I mean, I've tried many and many times but I've failed so many times as well. I guess, I better learn to manage my gold and train up to level 10 or 13. I still haven't played the runescape though.
This track is the one from the Advent Children. I totally in love with this song, more particularly in Latin. After so many years, this time I've realized how Latin can be hymned over and over in your head like a chant. I mean, my sister even can continue my singing since she heard it over and over again. Even it's just the 'Sephiroth' part but I like it....
I've finished my drama paper and my friend thought it as a thesis since it consist of 40 pages! I even can't believe it myself, now I'm working on Poetry and another Drama task. My literary criticism also on the list. Anyway, I'm still reading Les Miserables vol.1. Talking about my books, last week one of my lecturers told me that the one published by Wordsworth, Everyman, and Pinguin were an abriged one. I told her that the title has the word 'Complete and Unabridged' How come she said that? I mean, can't she read it well? She didn't explain it to me though... *shrug*
Something coming over me....
It's Saturday, June 3rd 2006
And One Winged Angel - Nobuo Uematsu flows as the wind blows
I've finished The Women in White and Thirst for Love today, as for the latter just now. Two days ago, I've cut my hair again. It's been my record, I've been cutting my hair three times since last November. Still boyish, I like the way it looks though my friend told me it was an awful cut, too boyish for her. Perhaps she's right, but I don't give a damn, it'll grow soon.
Joined an online RPG game, after torncity , I've played Runescape and Adventure Quest. I'm still a newbie though, I have to keep on trying and playing!!
I really, really, totally and absolutely loved this track. From this morning, I've kept humming and shouting 'Sephiroth!'*giggle* I just in love with that word.
Another new thing from me is that I've got my period, God, it was very painful! My period wasn't well, and I only got it for once in four months or something in the similar time length, and previously I've never felt the pain. I only pretending to feel some pain though in fact I didn't feel anything. I also started workout of 45 sit ups a day and the usual leg work. I have to lose my weight as the new students came or at least when I started teaching around next two months.
Joined an online RPG game, after torncity , I've played Runescape and Adventure Quest. I'm still a newbie though, I have to keep on trying and playing!!
I really, really, totally and absolutely loved this track. From this morning, I've kept humming and shouting 'Sephiroth!'*giggle* I just in love with that word.
Another new thing from me is that I've got my period, God, it was very painful! My period wasn't well, and I only got it for once in four months or something in the similar time length, and previously I've never felt the pain. I only pretending to feel some pain though in fact I didn't feel anything. I also started workout of 45 sit ups a day and the usual leg work. I have to lose my weight as the new students came or at least when I started teaching around next two months.
Something coming over me....
It's Saturday, May 27th 2006
And Yuzurenai Negai - Tamura Naomi flows as the wind blows
K, once again I'm trapped in someone else' lovelife problem. I'm stuck and also being the neutralizer. I think that's quite awful for me. I don't want and I don't think I need to be in their problem, I don't even want to know!
Just read SD Kyo 31 once again, it's my favorite part up to this time. I really like Hotaru even more as I read that part. At a point, I could understand it well, "power" or "strength" means nothing when we're alone, it means something and getting even bigger when we have someone to protect. Somehow, I just can't do that, I don't know -or perhaps I'm still haven't found- what I'm protecting and why??
Since this morning, I keep repeating this song, I even sang it when I was taking a bath. The title literary means 'Unyielding wish'. Well, actually I had this one and Yasashii Yoake by See Saw for a day long. The lyrics trickled me. They reminds me of many things, perhaps I shouldn't give up at anything I've been giving up before... Even so, I coudln't change the past, right?
Yesterday, I've finished 'The Decay of The Angel', it's kind of killing me since sometimes I couldn't decide between dream and reality. Now I'm starting The Woman in White by Wilkie Collins. I've been up to chapter XIV in Bleak House and 8 in David Copperfield. What a pushover.
Just read SD Kyo 31 once again, it's my favorite part up to this time. I really like Hotaru even more as I read that part. At a point, I could understand it well, "power" or "strength" means nothing when we're alone, it means something and getting even bigger when we have someone to protect. Somehow, I just can't do that, I don't know -or perhaps I'm still haven't found- what I'm protecting and why??
Since this morning, I keep repeating this song, I even sang it when I was taking a bath. The title literary means 'Unyielding wish'. Well, actually I had this one and Yasashii Yoake by See Saw for a day long. The lyrics trickled me. They reminds me of many things, perhaps I shouldn't give up at anything I've been giving up before... Even so, I coudln't change the past, right?
Yesterday, I've finished 'The Decay of The Angel', it's kind of killing me since sometimes I couldn't decide between dream and reality. Now I'm starting The Woman in White by Wilkie Collins. I've been up to chapter XIV in Bleak House and 8 in David Copperfield. What a pushover.
Something coming over me....
It's Wednesday, May 24th 2006
And Last Impression - Two Mix flows as the wind blows
The first time I heard this song was as the ending of Gundam Wing Endless Waltz special. One of my friends was rather disbelieving when I told her that this song was the ending song, not White Reflection as usual.
Still as usual, I wanted to shout it all out loud. The world is getting too demanding for me.
This noon, I had the talk about religion, and as I used to say, here in Indonesia, religion is one of the most questioned query when you meet someone. We have Moslem, Christian, Buddhist, Hindoo, Catholic, and recently added Kong Hu Chu -I guess it's something like COnfusius or something like that-. The problem is that you can't get your nationality as proven by your id when you said you've got no religion at all. Therefore, having a religion become merely a formality. To legalize something, to judge someone, or even to be a based to have an opinion. That's really strange...
Having a religion not because of your own belief and free will, instead it's because of what your parents were. If they're a moslem, you'll be a moslem, they're a christian or catholic, you'll be the same. Even if they're atheist, unfortunately here you can't be an agnostic like them, you have to know in what way your parents were married and therefore joined the same religion.
One of my friends never know why he had to go to the church. Once, he ever asked his friend 'why we're in church?'. That's a funny but quite realistic story.
After a series of attack and people started to questioning their religion, I think it's good if we take a deep breath and reflected to our mind and asking 'Is this what we want? Do we need or wanted something else? Why we're believed in God?'
I'm not sure whether I'm still moslem or not, my Id said so, my appearance said so, sometimes my heart said so, but when I see many moslem do some severe foolishness, I prefer to be an agnostic.
Still as usual, I wanted to shout it all out loud. The world is getting too demanding for me.
This noon, I had the talk about religion, and as I used to say, here in Indonesia, religion is one of the most questioned query when you meet someone. We have Moslem, Christian, Buddhist, Hindoo, Catholic, and recently added Kong Hu Chu -I guess it's something like COnfusius or something like that-. The problem is that you can't get your nationality as proven by your id when you said you've got no religion at all. Therefore, having a religion become merely a formality. To legalize something, to judge someone, or even to be a based to have an opinion. That's really strange...
Having a religion not because of your own belief and free will, instead it's because of what your parents were. If they're a moslem, you'll be a moslem, they're a christian or catholic, you'll be the same. Even if they're atheist, unfortunately here you can't be an agnostic like them, you have to know in what way your parents were married and therefore joined the same religion.
One of my friends never know why he had to go to the church. Once, he ever asked his friend 'why we're in church?'. That's a funny but quite realistic story.
After a series of attack and people started to questioning their religion, I think it's good if we take a deep breath and reflected to our mind and asking 'Is this what we want? Do we need or wanted something else? Why we're believed in God?'
I'm not sure whether I'm still moslem or not, my Id said so, my appearance said so, sometimes my heart said so, but when I see many moslem do some severe foolishness, I prefer to be an agnostic.
Something coming over me....
It's Sunday, May 21st 2006
And Swing, swing - All American Rejects flows as the wind blows
Yesterday, I've done my observation, and therefore I have to finish the paper only. That's the good part, at least I don't really have to think and work that much, it's only that I have to finish my translation fast since I have to submit it on Wednesday...
Anyway, yesterday got a phone call by one of my friends, he told me a loads about his love life, and he's thinking about breaking up with his girlfriend right now. That's not the real problem though, the main point is that he's getting tired and doubtful about his lover right now, he kept repeating my lines over and over again. -when they started going out, he told me all the story and I gave him all the possibilities, just like usual-. The real trouble is that she's my friends too, and the worst is that he told her that he trusted me better than his lover's bestfriend. That's rather confusing, right? Anyhow, I have to make a good step for all of us, not just between them, but also my relationship, I don't have either of them have an altered perception on my moves.
Yesterday, he also told me that he wanted me to talk to her first, then he'll make his choices. Now, that's what I called as a real trouble...
Two days ago, finally Ady lend me 'Eldest' the continuation from 'Eragon'. It's still good, and better than the previous book, but somehow, I can see the end and how the story turned out when I read half of the story. Still as weird as I used to be, I guess... On three days a go -Thursday-, it's Rury that lend me her book, 'Samurai: Autumn Bridge'. I've read the prequel before, 'Samurai: Cloud of Sparrows'. Yeah!!! And on the day before that, I've finished Adam Bede, and I was reading Mishima's 'The Decay of The Angel' before those interuptions...
Anyway, yesterday got a phone call by one of my friends, he told me a loads about his love life, and he's thinking about breaking up with his girlfriend right now. That's not the real problem though, the main point is that he's getting tired and doubtful about his lover right now, he kept repeating my lines over and over again. -when they started going out, he told me all the story and I gave him all the possibilities, just like usual-. The real trouble is that she's my friends too, and the worst is that he told her that he trusted me better than his lover's bestfriend. That's rather confusing, right? Anyhow, I have to make a good step for all of us, not just between them, but also my relationship, I don't have either of them have an altered perception on my moves.
Yesterday, he also told me that he wanted me to talk to her first, then he'll make his choices. Now, that's what I called as a real trouble...
Two days ago, finally Ady lend me 'Eldest' the continuation from 'Eragon'. It's still good, and better than the previous book, but somehow, I can see the end and how the story turned out when I read half of the story. Still as weird as I used to be, I guess... On three days a go -Thursday-, it's Rury that lend me her book, 'Samurai: Autumn Bridge'. I've read the prequel before, 'Samurai: Cloud of Sparrows'. Yeah!!! And on the day before that, I've finished Adam Bede, and I was reading Mishima's 'The Decay of The Angel' before those interuptions...
Something coming over me....
It's Thursday, May 18th 2006
And All The Thing She Said - t.A.t.U flows as the wind blows
Listening to t.A.t.U and reading MPD Psycho was such a perfect combination. For the first time, well not the very first actually, I can feel some kind of emotion when I was reading a comic. That was wonderful, the feeling was incredible...
MPD Psycho was a wonderful manga, really-really highly recommended by me. I used to call it as the logical version from Death Note, and also much vulgar as well as creep one... I mean, you won't and never be able to see a naked body or mutilated corpse in Death Note, I think by using a shinigami as a killer, ther author meant to give us a clean killing, it wasn't bloody at all, For God's sake...
I'm still emotionally unwell, don't know why and especially how to fix this, everything seemed to be too messed up in my mind... I still have to finish a lesson plan and so on, two days later I have to go on an observation, then on Sunday, I have to go to Bunkasai, on next Wednesday, I have to finish my translation task. Now, what a week to go huh???
It's really hard to come up when you have so much on your mind like this... Anyway, what the hell about it. I have to keep on going on...
MPD Psycho was a wonderful manga, really-really highly recommended by me. I used to call it as the logical version from Death Note, and also much vulgar as well as creep one... I mean, you won't and never be able to see a naked body or mutilated corpse in Death Note, I think by using a shinigami as a killer, ther author meant to give us a clean killing, it wasn't bloody at all, For God's sake...
I'm still emotionally unwell, don't know why and especially how to fix this, everything seemed to be too messed up in my mind... I still have to finish a lesson plan and so on, two days later I have to go on an observation, then on Sunday, I have to go to Bunkasai, on next Wednesday, I have to finish my translation task. Now, what a week to go huh???
It's really hard to come up when you have so much on your mind like this... Anyway, what the hell about it. I have to keep on going on...
Something coming over me....
It's Tuesday, May 16th 2006
And Bye Bye My Friend - Ost Sassy Girl Chun Hyang flows as the wind blows
I've made up my mind. I'm going to send a confession to him. I have to! I have nothing to lose here. Anyway, that's just a confession of what I'm lacking of, not something that I should and could boast of.
One of my friends made me as her spiritual teacher, now what's that!!!???
For me, it was quit ridiculous. Anybody should as his/her ownself about spiritual things. Sides, I'm senseless and heartless... It's just very funny...
Emotionally, I'm sick, everything feel too crowded at a moment and very and also more confusing than ever... I couldn't do anything nor feel anything...
One of my friends made me as her spiritual teacher, now what's that!!!???
For me, it was quit ridiculous. Anybody should as his/her ownself about spiritual things. Sides, I'm senseless and heartless... It's just very funny...
Emotionally, I'm sick, everything feel too crowded at a moment and very and also more confusing than ever... I couldn't do anything nor feel anything...
Something coming over me....