Gosh, finally selesai juga baca Harry Potter and The Deathly Hollows, setelah puasa agak lama........... I've finished it in 3 sittings (Yay, aku pake istilah sitting sekarnag, bukan pake jam lagi.... lagian klo sitting kan ga tentu. Xixixixixi)
Hmph... I've made several important decisions here... I gave up some of my accounts somewhere.... I have to since I got bored, depressed and so on... I know I'm such a blockhead. And now....
Yay, I back to pitas once again.... Lama2 kangen jga ternyata... Heheheheh.... Nggak seh bukannya gitu, tapi dipikir2... alamat blog ku di geocities panjang sangat... sementara anak2 lain suka di blogspot. I, myself, personally choose pitas soale HTML yang bisa diulik seenaknya... Wuakakakakakakakaka......
Well, that's the main reason... jadi bisa promosi jga. Ehehehehehee..... Alasan laen, soalnya aku kangen posting... Yap! Aku kangen posting... Selama ini cuma nulis di txt trus di upload... Kan orang2 ga tau update terbaru dariku. LOL... Ngartis amat diriku! Now, klo sempet, aku jga bakal nambahin gambar (klo ada en inget) dan laen-laen......
Apa lagi ya? aku... jga mo nambahin tagboard, klo inget seh... ato klo sempet... Heheheheheh..... >_<
Akhir2 ini.... ada good news (as usual) and also bad news (perlu diomongin ga yah?)... Good news, I know my standing point exactly (for some issues, and no... I won't tell you a bit of it!), Bad news... something confuses me once again (humph, bener2 bukan berita baru seh... klo mo dipikir secara logis, kapan jga aku ga bingung!).
I just don't know what to do
"In this fake world....."
It's Wednesday, August 15th 2007
Song Mood: Fake Plastic Tree (accoustic) -
Aku........ masih kena penyakit kemaren... masih sangat amat super duper capek plus bosen...... I don't wanna sleep... that's for sure......
Thanksfully, now I've made up my mind upon several things..... and yeah... I got my reading mood back. Currently reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows and also Eliot's Adam Bede. Still some other moods to go XD
Yeah.... I'm still easily irritated and my song mood won't walked away from those mellow and psychotic songs T_____T
Hmmmm.......... I miss Fuu so much, dunno why... tapi yang pasti aku bener2 kangen ma pembicaraan psychotic plus ga masuk akal kita berdua. Komentar2nya yang pendek2... sikapnya yang cocky... banyak hal lah........ Another person that I miss much is my Yang...... she told me a few times that she's about to go to my office but she never came...... I simply miss her.
Can't talk much today, my mood is to stay silent and watched the current or simply wandering aimlessly......
Thanksfully, now I've made up my mind upon several things..... and yeah... I got my reading mood back. Currently reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows and also Eliot's Adam Bede. Still some other moods to go XD
Yeah.... I'm still easily irritated and my song mood won't walked away from those mellow and psychotic songs T_____T
Hmmmm.......... I miss Fuu so much, dunno why... tapi yang pasti aku bener2 kangen ma pembicaraan psychotic plus ga masuk akal kita berdua. Komentar2nya yang pendek2... sikapnya yang cocky... banyak hal lah........ Another person that I miss much is my Yang...... she told me a few times that she's about to go to my office but she never came...... I simply miss her.
Can't talk much today, my mood is to stay silent and watched the current or simply wandering aimlessly......
I just don't know what to do
"Do you know that I love you?"
It's Tuesday, August 14th 2007
Song Mood: Black Coffee - All Saints
Lately, I'm getting too tired to write here... Well, not just write I think, but simply to think of something to fill this blog. Everything around me seemed like draining my energy too fast. Can't keep them coming and coming....
Current mood seh 'messed up' as usual..... Kapan jga aku nggak messed up >_< Tapi kali ini beda, so different.... I got my period... and I was on a high, no... I still haven't do 'it' yet... so keep that question away....!!!
Aku capek.... sangat.... sangat........ capek...... otakku capek... ototku capek....... mataku capek.... All inside me are tired. Aku juga bosan....... bosan....... bosan......... super duper sangat amat bosan........ Aku bosan dengan rutinitas gila-ku, aku bosan dengan semua orang yang aku kenal, aku bosan dengan semua yang ada di sekitarku. I want something new, I want something different, I want an adrenaline rush!!! Sekarang semua orang rasanya dah jadi transparan semua... ga seru! I know I'm not psychic or some sort, but somehow -and also lately- my predictions went true... I just noted out, spilled out some words, and hell yeah! It's true!!!! And that's freakingly weird....
Semuanya jadi nggak seru lagi.... niatan yang cuma nebak asal jadi beneran, yang cuma iseng ngomong jadi kejadian, yang cuma asal njeplak ternyata iya.... T____________T
Okay, the strangest thing,.... why it never worked out on my lovelife???!!! Gampang kan pertanyaanku! Kenapa klo msalah yang berhubungan ma yang namanya perasaan.... all those no-longer-called-surprises never worked! Kenapa aku nggak bisa ngelakuin hal yang sama.... T_______T
Jadi buat hal2 yang laen aku bisa asal njeplak, ngomong seenaknya, and they came true eventually.... tapi klo masalah lovelifeKU aku nggak bisa sesantai itu..... aku masih harus ngerasa thrill + rushed feeling itu.... padahal... klo bisa... justru lovelife yang aku pengen bisa kayak yang laenna.... I don't want to feel any thrill related to those feeling!!!
I think I'm getting more and more pathetic... I've said some words that I KNEW worked best for myself to other people... Rasanya aneh.... klo dipikir2 sama sekali nggak normal. Aku bilang ke orang laen, 'ayo semangat...!!! Ganbatte...!!' just in the same time that I also need such words.... Yah, emang seh aku nggak ngeharepin balasan ato gimana... Somehow I felt like I was ensuring myself by telling the others what they should do....
Anyhow.... I've just realized that I'm not good with any, okay pay attention on ANY type of intimate relationship. Pacaran, TTM-an, apalah, apalah.... I'm just too moody for that. Pilihanku dua.... the first one is to find someone who can work on my mood, the second one is to handle my mood by myself. Moodku terlalu fluktuatif buat bisa ada dalam satu steady relationship. Aku terkesan cerewet, tapi aku lebih milih buat stay silent for most of the time. When it's about anything that troubled me... I prefer to stay silent.
Aw... cut the craps.... I'm off now... jyaaa....~~~!!!
Current mood seh 'messed up' as usual..... Kapan jga aku nggak messed up >_< Tapi kali ini beda, so different.... I got my period... and I was on a high, no... I still haven't do 'it' yet... so keep that question away....!!!
Aku capek.... sangat.... sangat........ capek...... otakku capek... ototku capek....... mataku capek.... All inside me are tired. Aku juga bosan....... bosan....... bosan......... super duper sangat amat bosan........ Aku bosan dengan rutinitas gila-ku, aku bosan dengan semua orang yang aku kenal, aku bosan dengan semua yang ada di sekitarku. I want something new, I want something different, I want an adrenaline rush!!! Sekarang semua orang rasanya dah jadi transparan semua... ga seru! I know I'm not psychic or some sort, but somehow -and also lately- my predictions went true... I just noted out, spilled out some words, and hell yeah! It's true!!!! And that's freakingly weird....
Semuanya jadi nggak seru lagi.... niatan yang cuma nebak asal jadi beneran, yang cuma iseng ngomong jadi kejadian, yang cuma asal njeplak ternyata iya.... T____________T
Okay, the strangest thing,.... why it never worked out on my lovelife???!!! Gampang kan pertanyaanku! Kenapa klo msalah yang berhubungan ma yang namanya perasaan.... all those no-longer-called-surprises never worked! Kenapa aku nggak bisa ngelakuin hal yang sama.... T_______T
Jadi buat hal2 yang laen aku bisa asal njeplak, ngomong seenaknya, and they came true eventually.... tapi klo masalah lovelifeKU aku nggak bisa sesantai itu..... aku masih harus ngerasa thrill + rushed feeling itu.... padahal... klo bisa... justru lovelife yang aku pengen bisa kayak yang laenna.... I don't want to feel any thrill related to those feeling!!!
I think I'm getting more and more pathetic... I've said some words that I KNEW worked best for myself to other people... Rasanya aneh.... klo dipikir2 sama sekali nggak normal. Aku bilang ke orang laen, 'ayo semangat...!!! Ganbatte...!!' just in the same time that I also need such words.... Yah, emang seh aku nggak ngeharepin balasan ato gimana... Somehow I felt like I was ensuring myself by telling the others what they should do....
Anyhow.... I've just realized that I'm not good with any, okay pay attention on ANY type of intimate relationship. Pacaran, TTM-an, apalah, apalah.... I'm just too moody for that. Pilihanku dua.... the first one is to find someone who can work on my mood, the second one is to handle my mood by myself. Moodku terlalu fluktuatif buat bisa ada dalam satu steady relationship. Aku terkesan cerewet, tapi aku lebih milih buat stay silent for most of the time. When it's about anything that troubled me... I prefer to stay silent.
Aw... cut the craps.... I'm off now... jyaaa....~~~!!!
I just don't know what to do
"What would you do if....."
It's Saturday, August 4th 2007
Song Mood: Balaclava - Arctic Monkeys
Okay, most of us mostly put a set up or several requirements about our dream partners (living partner, not merely a domestic partner or even just sexual partner). Yeah... as I do the same....
Dari dulu, yang namanya kriteriaku itu selalu berubah... Pasti.... dulu waktu masih kecil (masih barusan puber secara umur, walopun secara biologis aku baru puber sekarang) I always said that I want someone who is tall, smart, cute (not good looking, but cute), and honest. Move forward, kriteria berubah..... smart masih ada, cute dah ilang tapina, diganti jago olahraga (simple reason, soale aku nggak terlalu bisa Olahrada >_<). Move forward again.... abis kenal makhluk namanya Monou Fuuma. Semua tipe idealku ilang.... lenyap... disappear, seriously. I've found him as my perfect one.... He has all the thing that I ever wanted from a man. Gila memang karena dia cuma kartun. Tapi attitudenya dia, appearancenya dia, personalitynya.... semua bikin aku, nggak cuma suka... I think I've really fallen for him. Dia emang ga terlalu cakep (kalo masalah cakep, paling cakep itu Yuuto-san.... ^_^v), tapi attitudenya, sikapnya yang cuek, sok easy going, suka seenaknya, arogan, cocky, pokokna mbencekno soro itu..... bikin aku bener2 suka ma dia.
Dakara.... sekarang set upku ga cuma smart, tapi juga cocky, arogan, mbencekno soro, carefree, yah... someone who resemble my lovely honey Fuuma lah to put it simply.
Kriteria yang aku bikin, memang di satu sisi aku bikin yang luar biasa susah. It's just because I don't want to commit.... I don't want to set up a certain relationship with someone. Makana, aku bikin kriteria ga jelas, ga normal, dan yah... nyaris ga mungkin ditemukan... Emang ada orang yang smart, suka baca buku, egois, suka seenaknya, arogant, suka minum kopi, hard worker, straight forward, introvert, open minded, carefree, orang yang apa adanya sekaligus nutupin banyak hal.... *sigh*
Strangely, I've found him... oh sorry, correction, them.... Honestly, my boss (iya... yg ultahna kemaren aq heboh ga karuan, tapi jga ga jadi ngapa2in soalnya tengah bulan.....) memenuhi kriteria itu.... suka baca buku, tahan maen game (nilai plus), smart... dan yang pasti bikin aku ngerasa thrill itu. Okay, I'm a thrill seeker for most of the time, and he gave me that sensation. Whenever I'm around him. Aku selalu tertantang buat bisa lebih, well at least matched him. Itu alasan utama kenapa aku ngakuin aku suka dia.
Kacaunya, sekarang aku ketemu sama orang yang juga sama kayak kriteriaku itu!!! What theee....???!!! Yeah... yeah... he admitted it to me, and so I admitted to him that I find what I was looking for in him, but we have so many differences... Dan karena sama2 cuek, ya sudah.... biasa aja.
At a point, it's a good thing when you meet somoene who matched your criteria (especially a hectic and crazy one like mine). But still, me.... as the one who set that crazy criterion still choose to passed them by.... It does feel good though, to talk with someone that you know you'll like the most.
Dari dulu, yang namanya kriteriaku itu selalu berubah... Pasti.... dulu waktu masih kecil (masih barusan puber secara umur, walopun secara biologis aku baru puber sekarang) I always said that I want someone who is tall, smart, cute (not good looking, but cute), and honest. Move forward, kriteria berubah..... smart masih ada, cute dah ilang tapina, diganti jago olahraga (simple reason, soale aku nggak terlalu bisa Olahrada >_<). Move forward again.... abis kenal makhluk namanya Monou Fuuma. Semua tipe idealku ilang.... lenyap... disappear, seriously. I've found him as my perfect one.... He has all the thing that I ever wanted from a man. Gila memang karena dia cuma kartun. Tapi attitudenya dia, appearancenya dia, personalitynya.... semua bikin aku, nggak cuma suka... I think I've really fallen for him. Dia emang ga terlalu cakep (kalo masalah cakep, paling cakep itu Yuuto-san.... ^_^v), tapi attitudenya, sikapnya yang cuek, sok easy going, suka seenaknya, arogan, cocky, pokokna mbencekno soro itu..... bikin aku bener2 suka ma dia.
Dakara.... sekarang set upku ga cuma smart, tapi juga cocky, arogan, mbencekno soro, carefree, yah... someone who resemble my lovely honey Fuuma lah to put it simply.
Kriteria yang aku bikin, memang di satu sisi aku bikin yang luar biasa susah. It's just because I don't want to commit.... I don't want to set up a certain relationship with someone. Makana, aku bikin kriteria ga jelas, ga normal, dan yah... nyaris ga mungkin ditemukan... Emang ada orang yang smart, suka baca buku, egois, suka seenaknya, arogant, suka minum kopi, hard worker, straight forward, introvert, open minded, carefree, orang yang apa adanya sekaligus nutupin banyak hal.... *sigh*
Strangely, I've found him... oh sorry, correction, them.... Honestly, my boss (iya... yg ultahna kemaren aq heboh ga karuan, tapi jga ga jadi ngapa2in soalnya tengah bulan.....) memenuhi kriteria itu.... suka baca buku, tahan maen game (nilai plus), smart... dan yang pasti bikin aku ngerasa thrill itu. Okay, I'm a thrill seeker for most of the time, and he gave me that sensation. Whenever I'm around him. Aku selalu tertantang buat bisa lebih, well at least matched him. Itu alasan utama kenapa aku ngakuin aku suka dia.
Kacaunya, sekarang aku ketemu sama orang yang juga sama kayak kriteriaku itu!!! What theee....???!!! Yeah... yeah... he admitted it to me, and so I admitted to him that I find what I was looking for in him, but we have so many differences... Dan karena sama2 cuek, ya sudah.... biasa aja.
At a point, it's a good thing when you meet somoene who matched your criteria (especially a hectic and crazy one like mine). But still, me.... as the one who set that crazy criterion still choose to passed them by.... It does feel good though, to talk with someone that you know you'll like the most.
I just don't know what to do
"Hmmmm................"
It's Monday, July 23rd 2007
Song Mood: Marry Me - Ellegarden
Currently, I'm in a position that make me feel rather uneasy. First is about my Elektra complex. For those who have no idea what an 'Elektra Complex' is, here is the link for you. But to put it simply, Elektra Complex is the reversed version of Mother Complex or Oedipus Complex. So a young girl that prefer much older man.
Ada beberapa hal yang aku bener2 pengen omongin.... SO many things perhaps... But still, I couldn't (as always) bring myself to say it blandly... I always felt rather relieved though I simply say it in my head (as always....) without any words spoken. Sides, my significant other was inside me....
Ada beberapa hal yang aku bener2 pengen omongin.... SO many things perhaps... But still, I couldn't (as always) bring myself to say it blandly... I always felt rather relieved though I simply say it in my head (as always....) without any words spoken. Sides, my significant other was inside me....
I just don't know what to do
"It's a small crime...."
It's Tuesday, July 17th 2007
Song Mood: 9 crimes - Damien Rice feat Lisa
Yeah... to have a feeling, or an indefinite thought is a small crime for me. But recently it happens alot! And that fact started to freak me out.... Iyaaa!!!! dame da!!!!
To put it simply, I don't have much to say now.... no... not that much actually...
*grin* I have a small secret... another small crime... that I prefer to keep it until I really want to tell it...
To put it simply, I don't have much to say now.... no... not that much actually...
*grin* I have a small secret... another small crime... that I prefer to keep it until I really want to tell it...
I just don't know what to do
Tabris/Hikari is born in October 1st, 1985. So, her zodiac sign is Libra. Much more about her can you find here or here, hee hee
Anyway, she's a junior in a university on her hometown. She's taking the english department and now still working over her thesis.
She's totally and absolutely crazy about technology, Monou Fuuma, games, books, and animanga. Her love of the lifetime would be reading and writing. Nothing much to say about that...
This one is Anna Toudou, the main character. Hmm.... I really love fast-paced story like this one. I mean, the manga finished in just 4 tankoubon!!! Yay!!! So fast delivered, so amusing.....
Sennen no Yuki by Bisco Hatori
Ouran Kouku Host Club by Bisco Hatori
X/1999 by CLAMP
xXxHolic by CLAMP
MPD Psycho by Eiji Otsuka X Shou Tajima
The Name of The Rose by Umberto Eco
Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy
The Bleak House by Charles Dickens
Veronika Decides to Die by Paulo Coelho
Avatar: The Legend of Aang
Kamen Rider Kabuto
Bleach
Ultraman Nexus
Heroes
J-Drama: none
K-Drama: none
Digimon World II
Harvest Moon: Back to Nature
Wild Arms 2
Final Fantasy Tactics
Brigandine: Legend of Forsena
GBA
Kingdom Hearts Chain of Memories
Final Fantasy VI Advance
Final Fantasy Tactics Advance
Sword of Mana
Tales of Phantasia
Breath of Fire
Riviera: The Promised Land
Archive ++ here
2007
Anyway, she's a junior in a university on her hometown. She's taking the english department and now still working over her thesis.
She's totally and absolutely crazy about technology, Monou Fuuma, games, books, and animanga. Her love of the lifetime would be reading and writing. Nothing much to say about that...
About The Image
This time, the image was taken from the manga Anne Freaks. Yay, such psychotic but beautiful manga after all. I really love the story, and also the psycho point.This one is Anna Toudou, the main character. Hmm.... I really love fast-paced story like this one. I mean, the manga finished in just 4 tankoubon!!! Yay!!! So fast delivered, so amusing.....
Current stats
Reading:
The Silmarilon by J.R.R. TolkienSennen no Yuki by Bisco Hatori
Ouran Kouku Host Club by Bisco Hatori
X/1999 by CLAMP
xXxHolic by CLAMP
MPD Psycho by Eiji Otsuka X Shou Tajima
The Name of The Rose by Umberto Eco
Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy
The Bleak House by Charles Dickens
Veronika Decides to Die by Paulo Coelho
Watching:
Not watching much recently, too occupied with the booksAvatar: The Legend of Aang
Kamen Rider Kabuto
Bleach
Ultraman Nexus
Heroes
J-Drama: none
K-Drama: none
Playing:
PlayStationDigimon World II
Harvest Moon: Back to Nature
Wild Arms 2
Final Fantasy Tactics
Brigandine: Legend of Forsena
GBA
Kingdom Hearts Chain of Memories
Final Fantasy VI Advance
Final Fantasy Tactics Advance
Sword of Mana
Tales of Phantasia
Breath of Fire
Riviera: The Promised Land
Working endlessly on:
SimplicityArchive ++ here
Cliques, Links, and Fanlisting:
Alter ego || Monou Fuuma
Tabris is a proud member of IYF ~Indonesia Yaoi Front~
tabris has Split Hinoto
seiyuu ¤ Ishida Akira
¤prince charming¤
Subaru x Seishirou
Dystiny || Shirahime Shou
I am || Sumeragi Subaru
*Kisu* : Monou Fuuma, Sesshoumaru, Uesugi Tatsuha
CLAMPING!! I've own Fuuma's bike
Kurenai Shi RPG Community
Shirahn The Seven, A Fantasy RP
Shinjitsu gakuen
Gundam Seed Eternal
Elemental Race
Carnelian School
Gaia Online
For Richer or Poorer: Ouran Kouku Host Club Forum
St. Elsewhere
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