Song Mood: OASIS - Talk Tonight
Hmm.... ga terasa dah mo lebaran... salah satu event tahunan yang paling kubenci. Somehow... I can't feel the truth and rejoice the moment as many people used to do. >_<
Anyway... still... karena masih pengen dianggap manusia dan makhluk sosial di alam semesta ini. Saia, mengucapkan Minal Aidzin wal faidzin mohon maaf lahir dan batin yaph. Jangan kuatir, saia jarang sengaja bikin kesalahan, kecuali kepada kalian2 yang memang deserved that.... ^^
LOL... there's always two side of a story, two way of thinking and perceiving. Well, in fact, as for me, semakin banyak yang tahu, semakin banyak pula versi dari satu cerita. Umpamanya koin yang asline dua sisi, jadi lebih dari 3 sisi well, ato mungkin lebih lagi... ^^ bergantung dari banyaknya orang yang tahu cerita itu.... *sigh*
Ada satu cerita, ttg seseorang... (bukan lagunya Anda, though well yeah.. I love that song ^^), yang bener" ngebuktiin ada begitu banyak versi kisah hidup seseorang. Hmm... asline aku dah tahu + sadar dari dulu seh tentang hal itu (refer to own personal experience), but still I want to see on others... >_<
Dakara.... beneran deh... hmm... gmana yah jelasinna... Err.. inget lagunya Meredith Brooks yang Bitch ga? Reffrain-na dah jelas banget buatku.
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your health, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
Hmm... at first, buatku ini lagu tentang seseorang yang punya macem2 sisi dari dirinya... hmm... later on (well, recently seh to be honest) aku sadar klo ini bisa juga diliat dari sudut pandang orang laen... So, whether she's an angel or a sinner it's not only depend on herself, but also on what people sees on her. One may sees her as an angel, but the other thought that she's a sinner. She's a saviour to one, but she's a condemned devil to the other.
No one can easily decide on their own selves. I mean, it's not an easy thing to reflect on yourself what's good and what's not on you....
Gosh... saia jadi sok wise hari ini... XDD~~ Unusual... very, very unusual of me... Guess what's wrong with me actually?
Anyway... again... Gomennasai ^^
Break me free on 11:30 p.m.
Ahem... so... hmm...
It's Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Song Mood: Nobuo Uematsu - Violator
Hmm... apah yah... I've decided to return to Kurenai Shi, after a long absence. I missed them so ternyata....
Umm apa yah, last sunday ibu-na SoB passed away, I feel sorry for him, aku sendiri nggak yakin bisa survive without my Mom.
Apa yah, actually I'm not in the proper mood to write. Bener" ndak deh... xixixixi. Bawaan males mulu, kemaren dah off seh, tapi ndak tau sekarang kok pengen bubu' di rumah lagi... T_T
Gosh, what's wrong with me.... >_<
Break me free on 09:54 a.m.
Hoahem... sleepy ne...
It's Monday, October 8, 2007
Song Mood: Shaka Labbits - Butter Scotch
Woke up at noon with the message stating that my ex's mother just passed away. And later on, my yang called me to tell the news. I said I already know and well... yeah.. some things went as what people expected to. Can't say about that much here...
Hoahem... *yawn* Yang jelas hari ni mood utamaku, ngantuk jaya!! ^_^
Serius, aku ngantuk ga kira2. Hmm... apah yah... masa' gara" aq sering ambil jaga pagi? I don't think so...
Another mood is 'full'. Yep, saia kenyang... gmana ndak, klo abis makan di hotplet 2 hari berturut2. ckckckckck... saia ganti mania hotplet yes. Missed something... lose something... just as gain something else....
Gosh, better get a break and finished my translation then... cya all!! ^_^
Break me free on 03:55 a.m.
Errr..... ano.... eto...
It's Saturday, October 6, 2007
Song Mood: Oasis - Don't Go Away
Hmm... just found out that some people considered me as childish just because I don't want to treat them. LOLThat's what I call as bizzare idea. I mean, how come... what's on their mind anyway... Lucu banget, ndak mungkin lah aq marah plus nolak nraktir klo bukan gara" sesuatu yg kecil macam ucapan selamat. Wakakakakak....
Anyway, ini 1 tahun without my grandma. I missed her, though I never, okay I NEVER went into her grave, not even once! Pathetic huh?
Apah yah... kayak omongane si Hishigi "nanti terlihat perasaannya..."
I still refuse to admit that I have a feeling. No way!! I don't want to have it, so I won't admit it. It's a hindrance, it's a disgrace!
Kyaa... yare yare... I miss someone... LOl.. not the usual me again... hmm... gotta go now.. cya!!
Break me free on 02:53 p.m.
Sshhtt........
It's Thursday, October 4, 2007
Song Mood: Depapepe - Summer Parade
Kemaren... buka bersama di rumahna Elka.. Apah yah, some things went as expected, some others didn't just as usual. We can't keep all things on our hands, nee?
Ada banyaaaaaakkkk banget yang pengen aq omongin sekarang. Tapi... yah... karena moody... yah gitu deh.. ^_^;;;
Here goes nothing (?)
First, I want to talk about two different things though deeply associated (or at least, that's what I heard).
Kojitsu ma channel #shibuya @Dalnet. #Shibuya itu channel bebas, bisa ngomongin apa aja, topiknya bisa apa aja, we can talk about anything that we like, ga harus berhubungan ma Jepang (jadi inget wktu aku ma Oom Lepu ganti nick setiap ganti lagu, dan semua nick itu lagu2 Britpop. Jadi mulai lagu2na Oasis, Blur, Radiohead, Suede, Manic Street Preachers, Ash, et cetera lah. Jujur, aku ga suka setiap kali orang mengira #shibuya itu punya anak Kojitsu. Gosh, what a horrible thought!
Ehehehehe.... no... it's not as if I had some grudge toward Kojitsu or whatsoever yah. Aku cuma ga suka aja pada saat kebanyakan orang ngira #shibuya equals with Kojitsu. No way, mereka adalah 2 hal yang berbeda. Kojitsu is Kojitsu, Komunitas Jepang tSurabaya. #shibuya ya #shibuya, tempat orang2 aneh plus rada gila ngumpul, ngobrolin banyak hal, mulai dari hal penting sampe hal paling ga penting, mulai dari Aoi Sora sampe Yaoi terbaru, yang pacaran, flirting, apalah, apalah, semua ada di situ. Dan mereka ga harus suka Jepang. Emang seh, anak2 Kojitsu banyak yang ngumpul di sana, online trus ngobrol2, dan emang kita rata2 kenal ma mereka, tapi itu bukan berarti kita bagian dari mereka kan (please note that I'm talking about the organization not the personal)?
Aku sadar wktu acara Kojitsu kapan hari (refer to my entry on Septembr 9th), yang bikin rame (dalam artian jumlah yah....) itu anak2 #shibuya. Kan ceritanya, ketua Kojitsu (Yazied ato klo online nick-na king_of_light) nitip topik di channel, dan anak2 pikir why not, toh sebagian jga suka Jepang2an gitu. Tapi satu hal yang aku ga suka, anak2 misah sendiri2. Jadi anak Kojitsu berkumpul sendiri dan anak #shibuya ngumpul sendiri. Itu dilema klasik, bahkan cenderung cliche klo aku bilang. We won't make a move since we're afraid that they considered us as a know-it-all person. Nggak lah, at a point, aku emang ga terlalu suka ma sebagian cewek2 Kojitsu yang cuma nurut mode dan ga bisa ambil sikap, di sisi lain, aku ga suka diikat dan di cap langsung sebagai anggota satu perkumpulan dan orang2 ngeliat aku aneh seandainya aku suka hal laen. Hell no! Well, itu alasan kenapa aku ga mau daftar jadi anggota Kojitsu sampe sekarang. Even now, most people thought that I'm a member of Kojitsu and I just gave them a laugh everytime I heard such question.
Apalagi abis buka puasa bersama itu... I'm... apah yah... I prefer to... hmm... *sigh* yah.. gitu deh.. xixixixi
Break me free on 08:53 a.m.
