Song Mood: The Beatles - I Me Mine
Uhmm... it's not my confession yah... bukan aku... tapi si manusia laknat... Uhuhuhu... aku langsung heppi... ^^
I mean it, for sure... aku seneng, buat dia, at least, akhirna dia ngaku apa adanya (well, not literally confess yah.. but he's admitting some things), dan itu yang bikin hepi. At least, ada bukti tambahan kalo aku bakalan tenang2 dan aman2 sajah kalo deket2 dia... Begitu... ^^
I may sound irrational by saying this, but yeah... I feel relieved... and contended... ya sud lah begitu sajah...
Again, I've made mistakes (as usual), gotta catch up with many things ASAP!!!! T_T
You said hello,
But I said good bye
It's all happen at 02:45 p.m.
But I said good bye
It's all happen at 02:45 p.m.
I thank thee for being there for me....
It's Thursday, January 31, 2008
Song Mood : Ellegarden - Lately
Humm... orang2 pada bilang "Tuhan pasti punya cara sendiri..." and yeah... I do believe that. Aku sendiri, emang sampai saat ini masih termasuk orang yang ga jelas amal ibadanya.. Huwakakaka... Aku cuma ga suka disuruh, ga suka dipaksa. Let me know by myself. And yeah... my Lord has a great way to show how much the love for me.
Ada satu waktu dimana aku bener2 apatis, dan aku ngeliat semua kegiatan agama cuma yah begitu2 sajah. Nothing but a bunch of airheads whispering and muttering something while they're not really into what they're doing at that moment. But well... my Lord shown me many things... How much a person will do, for short... I felt renewed. Dan bener2 berpikir ulang buat bersikap skeptis macam begitu. Dan banyak lagi seh...
kayak misalnya, aku lagi ga ada kerjaan... pasti tiba2 ada aja... Gi ga berduit... tiba2 ada kerjaan nguntungin. Dan ada kejadian jayus yang masih keinget... A few days a go. I'm broke (well skarang jga masih broke), dan sempet kepikir buat cari pinjeman. 20k aja deh... yang penting hari itu survive. Not much toh? Nah, tiba2 di wnet dateng satu cewek, yang kayakna buru2 banget... Aku sendiri dengan selfishnya yah semi cuek2 gitu juga seh. Dan yah, yang pasti karena orang itu minta tolong langsung, dan jelas2 ga bakal masuk ke billing wnet. Itu kan jadi fee saia jga. Waktu selesai, and I said, it's 2.5k, she gave me 20k and left. I was stunned... dumbfounded... And I said 'Alhamdulillah...' >_<
Yah, yah... saia bersyukur, sangat... Dan ga cuma akhir2 ini aja seh. Dua kata yang paling sering aku bilang selaen 'No way!' ya... "Alhamdulillah" or "Thanks God." ^^
Dan yah, akhir2 ini ada banyak hal yang bikin aku lebih banyak bersyukur. No matter what... and almost no matter when. Aku sebisa mungkin bersyukur. Bersyukur atas semua keadaan yang ada. Keadaan bokek, ga punya pacar (money is super important, but lovers can go easily waaaaayyy later after that), ga jelas, emotionless, dan apapun itu. First thing first for me, and in this case. It's being thankful.
I'm really thankful when Yang decided to convert her faith. I'm really thankful when I decided not to go to #shibuya's new year's eve party. And I'm also thankful when so many people are taking my time to listen to their problems... Wis yang penting bersyukur dulu dah... Bersyukur dah hidup, dah bisa sampe sejauh ini, dah bisa ini, dah bisa itu. ^^
Yah, cukup... Sampai di situ saja penjelasan saia!!! ^^
You said hello,
But I said good bye
It's all happen at 01:59 p.m.
But I said good bye
It's all happen at 01:59 p.m.
Glompsticklessnuggleschuus ^^
It's Wednesday, January 30th 2008
Song Mood : Monkey Majik - Car Crash
Humm, abis denger lagu ini, aku jadi kepikir kalimatnya... "If I hold your hand just a little more, could you smile for me, oh baby? If I sang a love song for eternal, you could be my melody..." Apa yah... tiba2 aja kepikir. Yah, emang seh, aku termasuk orang baka klo masalah perasaan dan emosi yang berkaitan langsung sama diri sendiri. Muhup2 ajah, perasaan itu ga penting buatku.
But still, recently, aku kebugging sama beberapa fakta ga penting tapi cukup jelas kejadian di depan mata. orang yang biasanya cukup berlogika dan ga terlalu rushed out tiba2 berubah jadi cewek kebanyakan... (Yang... get real!!! Get a hold of yourself, K!!) Uhm... aku bukannya shock, terhina, kecewa, ato gimana... Just being... like O_o. Not as WTF kayak waktu dia iseng2 bilang 'let's kiss under the mistletoe' yg kapan hari.
Ah iya, nyaris lupa... Turut Berduka Cita buat keluarga Alm. Bpk. Jend. Purn. H. M. Soeharto, yang wafat tgl 27 kemaren. Jujur, ini sudah aku perkirakan waktu beliau (scara ngehormatin 32 tahun ada di atas, bukan karena apa2nya yah) sakit. Well, the story was like this. My sister, Fifi said something like "I bet he's about to die soon." waktu liat berita di tv. I just glanced at the TV and commented. "Nope, nope. He'll recover but it'll just over a few days, not more than five days then he'll passed away."
So, I wasn't surprise when I heard the news of his passing, not more than a week after the news of his recovers.
So... it happened... again.... T______T semua omongan asal njeplakku kenyataan... Gosh, I hate that! Aku... pengen surprises... Tapi... shock awal tahunku dah ada seh... Damn... I dun want to talk about that now... Next time maybe... Kalo inget... ato... lebih tepatna, kalo sempet...
You said hello,
But I said good bye
It's all happen at 03:36 a.m.
But I said good bye
It's all happen at 03:36 a.m.
I'm paying for a free ride
It's Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Song Mood : Monkey Majik + Yoshida Brothers - Change
Kayakna lagu ini emang cocok banget, I'm not in my good mood recently. Bikin kue salah bahan, diajakin ngomong ma Yang banyak ga nyambungnya, bikin layout buru2 banyak salahnya, my mind lost, somewhere and I have no idea how to retrieve it back....
Bukan sekedar ga jelas mode on kayak biasanya.... This time I know exactly, what, why, when, who, where, and how... Klo dianalogikan ma berita, yah komplit lah semuanya.
Apah yah, ada banyak hal yang pengen aku ceirtain, sekaligus banyak pula yang buatku better stop it and let it be that way. Serasa campuran lagu2 lama, Que Sera Sera, Let It Be, sampe Better that we break... Humm... currently, still missing that person. Sial! Napa juga harus ketemu... >_<
Anyway, beginilah contoh kalo gengsi+emosi mulai menunjukkan jati diri pada satu sosok yang terlalu mengandalkan logika. Yang ada semuanya pada dipikirin mulu... XD
Humm, anyway... Ayanami lagi neh... ^^ Diitung ini dah layout ke-2 yang pake Ayanami. Uhuhuhu... sebelomna biasa2 aja, malah karena pake transparent layer, klo di cross browser rada error. T_T Dan sekarang yang ini, aku banyak bikin kesalahan pas ngedit... T________T
Hueee... Ayanami-san... kau ja'at!!! Padahal aku kan kembaranmu...!!! Sama2 Angel-na, kmu Lilith, aku Tabris... XP Maksa mode on... Yah, yah, saia memang semi-terobsesi sama Nagisa Kaoru a.k.a Tabris dari seri NG Evangelion, dan langsung moe moe waktu liat trailerna Rebuild of Evangelion, dan langsung mutusin buat hunting videona Eva sekali lagi, no matter how hard it will be!!! Uhm, ada cerita dikit masalah si Kao-chan ini.. tapi ntar aja deh, klo sempet lagi, mungkin aku bakal double post buat hari ini ^^
See ya all later...
You said hello,
But I said good bye
It's all happen at 09:25 a.m.
But I said good bye
It's all happen at 09:25 a.m.