Ga cma shoujo manga seh... Aku jga dunlut one shots yang rada dewasa jga. Maksudnya dewasa itu yah.... apa yah... Dari segi cerita termasuk berat, dah bener2 riil, it's no longer about being white or black as there's no such thing in reality. Yah begitulah, yang pasti lagi-lagi saia terobsesi buat baca hal2 yang jelas2 tidak ada hubungannya dengan kelangsungan skripsi saia. LOL
Topik hari ini adalah jealousy.... I'm sure most of you know and more familiar with the word, more than I do. I called this kind of emotion as one of our basic instincts... Gimana yah, sering kita tanpa sadar ngerasa jealous (come on, be honest!) sama orang laen... cuma kadarnya beda-beda. Kadang kita ngerasa bener2 jealous gila2an yang sampe 'cuih jadi pengen ngebantai tu orang aja....' gitu, kadang juga cuma sekedar 'weks, enak ya orang itu....' Yang pasti, pada saat kita membandingkan keadaan diri sendiri dan berkomentar tentang orang laen di atas kita, that's called jealousy. Unhindered emang, wajar aja lah klo ada jealousy itu.
Bahkan aku, yang notabene lebih banyak heartless admit truthfully that I do feel jealous at times. Ada masa2 dimana aku jealous ma banyak orang, ma Yang, ma Yin, with everyone I know. Sometimes I compared myself with them and got jealous over smallest thing and finally set higher aim for myself (hmm... let's call this a good effect ??). tapi itu kalo my logic got over my jealousy... Know what I mean? But when jealousy took over me... Gosh... I'd rather not say anything then....
Benernnya hari ini moodku cma buat diem, bundled up, and curled near with someone with whom I'll feel calmer. I don't need words... Kotoba wa iranai.....
Are you my shining light?
Too many hands that worked on....
It's Saturday, September 15th 2007
Song Mood: Depapepe - Shuppuru
Phew... finally finished Harry Potter and the Deathly hallows (previously it was a fanfic, damn, but it was really cool I think). With this track flowing in my head. Depapepe is quite cool I suppose, the way they (he or she? I've just stumbled upon them on Esnips, and decided to download them.) played the guitar and composed such tracks.. Lovely...
Apa lagi yah, aku pengen.............. have fun... as usual, masih kayak biasa. Aku masih pengen baca en baca en baca terus.... Kemaren abis dunlut buanyak..... Ehehehehehhee, dan diingetin ma Mr. Slamet (one of my lecturers), he said "remember, you're working and gaining money in order to survive, not for getting rich..." Teeheee.... XDD
Kenapa akhir2 ini banyak sekali yang sadar akan kecintaan luar biasaku ma duit. Gosh, I know I'm a money lover and yeah.... I'm so stingy when it comes about money. Tapi kenapa... kenapa baru sekarang orang2 pada sadar... kenapa ga dari dulu.... Leh... tambah kacau yah... >_<
I'm stucked in a point, ada hal2 yang pengen aku omongin, tapi jga ga, ada yang pengen aku lakuin, tapi jga ga.... Aneh.... so unusual... I know that sometimes (or maybe most of the times) I can be so undecided about a very small trivial matter. Even so, it's quite unusual for me to find myself in times like this. Apa yah.... hmmm.... yah gitu lah pokoknya... XDDD~~~
Gosh, I'm not that extrovert type at all... I talked much, but hardly about myself... And I can't bitching myself like others who could talk simply about themselves most of the times. I know that sometimes I seemed to talk about myself too much (well hey, I'm a self-centered person, what else can you expect?). Anyhow, most people never realized it well... Guess I'm a good pretender. ^_^
Apa lagi yah, aku pengen.............. have fun... as usual, masih kayak biasa. Aku masih pengen baca en baca en baca terus.... Kemaren abis dunlut buanyak..... Ehehehehehhee, dan diingetin ma Mr. Slamet (one of my lecturers), he said "remember, you're working and gaining money in order to survive, not for getting rich..." Teeheee.... XDD
Kenapa akhir2 ini banyak sekali yang sadar akan kecintaan luar biasaku ma duit. Gosh, I know I'm a money lover and yeah.... I'm so stingy when it comes about money. Tapi kenapa... kenapa baru sekarang orang2 pada sadar... kenapa ga dari dulu.... Leh... tambah kacau yah... >_<
I'm stucked in a point, ada hal2 yang pengen aku omongin, tapi jga ga, ada yang pengen aku lakuin, tapi jga ga.... Aneh.... so unusual... I know that sometimes (or maybe most of the times) I can be so undecided about a very small trivial matter. Even so, it's quite unusual for me to find myself in times like this. Apa yah.... hmmm.... yah gitu lah pokoknya... XDDD~~~
Gosh, I'm not that extrovert type at all... I talked much, but hardly about myself... And I can't bitching myself like others who could talk simply about themselves most of the times. I know that sometimes I seemed to talk about myself too much (well hey, I'm a self-centered person, what else can you expect?). Anyhow, most people never realized it well... Guess I'm a good pretender. ^_^
Are you my shining light?
Puasa penuh napsu..... >_<
It's Friday, September 14, 2007
Song Mood: Dashboard Confessional - Reason
Uhuhuhuhu.... baru hari kedua puasa dan saya sudah penuh napsu... >_<
Ini bukan napsu yang gimana yah.... bukan napsu makan juga.. walopun seperti biasanya, aq pengen makan terus dan terus dan bukan dalam porsi banyak, tapi cma sekedar ngemil. Wakakakakak
Gosh... I do... have more and more passion on reading... Jadi ceritanya... aku lagi napsu ma Shoujo Manga plus ebooks.. Well, it's not a new thing anymore for the ebook's part, but as for the Shoujo Manga, most of my friends will smirked and raised their brows. I mean, come on.. someone like me?? Reading shoujo manga?? What an idea....
Nope, but it's true... currently my favorite author for this genre is Usami Maki. I like her drawings since most of her character have round faces >_< Hehehehhee..... Gemuk bukan dosa!!! To weight slightly over most girls around your age is definitely not a sin. Even so, I still feel guilty and couldn't stop weighting myself every now and then just to grieve over small changes >_>
Humans aren't perfect and they won't ever be. Still.... most of us, humans... are seeking perfection in every way. I know it since I'm one of them....
Ini bukan napsu yang gimana yah.... bukan napsu makan juga.. walopun seperti biasanya, aq pengen makan terus dan terus dan bukan dalam porsi banyak, tapi cma sekedar ngemil. Wakakakakak
Gosh... I do... have more and more passion on reading... Jadi ceritanya... aku lagi napsu ma Shoujo Manga plus ebooks.. Well, it's not a new thing anymore for the ebook's part, but as for the Shoujo Manga, most of my friends will smirked and raised their brows. I mean, come on.. someone like me?? Reading shoujo manga?? What an idea....
Nope, but it's true... currently my favorite author for this genre is Usami Maki. I like her drawings since most of her character have round faces >_< Hehehehhee..... Gemuk bukan dosa!!! To weight slightly over most girls around your age is definitely not a sin. Even so, I still feel guilty and couldn't stop weighting myself every now and then just to grieve over small changes >_>
Humans aren't perfect and they won't ever be. Still.... most of us, humans... are seeking perfection in every way. I know it since I'm one of them....
Are you my shining light?
Unberably perfection....
It's Thursday, September 13, 2007
Song Mood: Smashing Pumpkins - Ava Adore
Hmmm..... apah yah, as usual, ada banyak banget yang pengen aku omongin. Ada banyak cerita, ada banyak pikiran, ada banyak ide yang bakalan bikin penuh otakku klo terus2an aku simpen.
Dan yang pasti bisa bikin gila jga.....
Hmmm.... akhirna ganti layout lagi.... YEAH!!!! Saia lega, saia bahagia, walopun saia tau skripsi saia masih di situh-situh sajah.... Wakakakakakakaka
Badanku masih aja ga mengurus. Damn! Semoga aja puasa taon ini bikin berat berkurang dan bukannya nambah. Ini bener2 anger management, gimana ga, soalna yang ada di kepala cuma makaaaannnnnnnn mulu. Akhir2 ini gitu, sampe dapat julukan OB (otak Badogan!!) dari bang Kampred. -.-a
Aku cuma pengen nyemil, makan sesuap-sesuap ae, bukan yang langsung buanyak blek gitu.... Heheheheheh..... iyah iyah... saia kacau seperti biasanya.... Aku, tambah lama, klo foto, kok tambah mirip cowok yah? Ini aneh, ga biasanya, dan sama sekali ga sewajarnya... Aku bener2 ga ngerti gimana caranya biar keliatan cewek dikiiiittt ajah di foto2ku. T________T
Ah iya, anyway busway.... apah yah, aku barusan inget mo nulis apa, tapi terus langsung lupa lagi.... XDD~~~
Gosh, that's so me...!!! Ah iya, mumpung inget. For you who suddenly confused on my decision to go fasting this year. Well, simple reason, I think this is the perfect moment for me to realize (or at least to make up my mind completely) on my own faith. ^_^b
Dakara, wish me luck minna~~!!! <3 <3 <3
Dan yang pasti bisa bikin gila jga.....
Hmmm.... akhirna ganti layout lagi.... YEAH!!!! Saia lega, saia bahagia, walopun saia tau skripsi saia masih di situh-situh sajah.... Wakakakakakakaka
Badanku masih aja ga mengurus. Damn! Semoga aja puasa taon ini bikin berat berkurang dan bukannya nambah. Ini bener2 anger management, gimana ga, soalna yang ada di kepala cuma makaaaannnnnnnn mulu. Akhir2 ini gitu, sampe dapat julukan OB (otak Badogan!!) dari bang Kampred. -.-a
Aku cuma pengen nyemil, makan sesuap-sesuap ae, bukan yang langsung buanyak blek gitu.... Heheheheheh..... iyah iyah... saia kacau seperti biasanya.... Aku, tambah lama, klo foto, kok tambah mirip cowok yah? Ini aneh, ga biasanya, dan sama sekali ga sewajarnya... Aku bener2 ga ngerti gimana caranya biar keliatan cewek dikiiiittt ajah di foto2ku. T________T
Ah iya, anyway busway.... apah yah, aku barusan inget mo nulis apa, tapi terus langsung lupa lagi.... XDD~~~
Gosh, that's so me...!!! Ah iya, mumpung inget. For you who suddenly confused on my decision to go fasting this year. Well, simple reason, I think this is the perfect moment for me to realize (or at least to make up my mind completely) on my own faith. ^_^b
Dakara, wish me luck minna~~!!! <3 <3 <3
Are you my shining light?
Am I have to be Perfect?
It's Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Song Mood: Ash - Lost in You
Alying wide awake under strange skies
Wanting to call you, but it is late at night
And youre far away, but you are always on my mind
I feel like Im on fire, nothing I can do
Im troubled with doubt, though I know it is not true
And its times like these when I am dying to speak to you
Dying to get through, Im dying to speak to you
Staring at the wall, I sink inside
I think about it all, I get caught up in my life
I cant think straight, because its tearing up my mind
I feel like Im on fire, nothing I can do
Im troubled with doubt, though I know it is not true
And its times like these when I am dying to speak to you
Dying to get through
The more that I think how I need you
The more that I think, the more it seems true
And now it means more that I ever meant it to
Ever meant it to
Lying wide awake under strange skies
Wanting to call you, but it is late at night
And youre far away, but you are always on my mind
You are always on my mind
Hmm... not as usual yes? Bener2 ga seperti biasanya, aq nulis lirik lagu komplit di blog. Wakakakaka... lagi pusing neh.... capek... suntuk... bosen... bawaan pengen.... XDDD
hush hush... bukan pengen yang aneh2... bawaan pengen mbojo ma kompi di rumah.... gitu mksdku....
Xixixxi... ya sud lah... klo mood nulis, aq bakal nulis lagi...
Wanting to call you, but it is late at night
And youre far away, but you are always on my mind
I feel like Im on fire, nothing I can do
Im troubled with doubt, though I know it is not true
And its times like these when I am dying to speak to you
Dying to get through, Im dying to speak to you
Staring at the wall, I sink inside
I think about it all, I get caught up in my life
I cant think straight, because its tearing up my mind
I feel like Im on fire, nothing I can do
Im troubled with doubt, though I know it is not true
And its times like these when I am dying to speak to you
Dying to get through
The more that I think how I need you
The more that I think, the more it seems true
And now it means more that I ever meant it to
Ever meant it to
Lying wide awake under strange skies
Wanting to call you, but it is late at night
And youre far away, but you are always on my mind
You are always on my mind
Hmm... not as usual yes? Bener2 ga seperti biasanya, aq nulis lirik lagu komplit di blog. Wakakakaka... lagi pusing neh.... capek... suntuk... bosen... bawaan pengen.... XDDD
hush hush... bukan pengen yang aneh2... bawaan pengen mbojo ma kompi di rumah.... gitu mksdku....
Xixixxi... ya sud lah... klo mood nulis, aq bakal nulis lagi...
Are you my shining light?
Gosh.... *sigh*
It's Sunday, September 9, 2007
Song Mood: Smashing Pumpkins - 1979
Hmm... semalem ke JJO... and as expected... Swuepina... T______T
Okay, okay I won't blame someone or say anything to disrespect their hard works...
Apa yah... bnernya ada baaaaanyyyyyaaaaaaaakkkkkkkkk banget yang ada di kepala buat diomongin... ada banyak hal yang pengen banget aku ceritain. Mulai dari A sampe Z....
Anyway, ternyata... saia memang kelihatan beda klo ma yang di foto... Itu kata beberapa orang. Well, I'm not a photogenic person and I do really hate that damn thing called camera. LOL.... that's another story though...
Hari ini.... walopun ada banyak hal buat diceritain.... tapi tetep aja... Bawaan bad mood dari kemaren masih blon berubah. Hmm.... lagi2 berteman ma Nikotin ma Kafein... I know, I know, it's not a good thing though but still.... *shrugs* I prefer them since I can't speak well... I CAN think well, but I just can't speak it well... That simple... or not? O_o
Too little time too much to do, and I do really want to spend my time with FUU!!!!
He didn't say much though last night.... and I was fine... I mean... not that kind of 'fine' but at least... he knew -as always- how to treat me whenever I'm facing such condition.... I just can't stop love him so....
Okay, okay I won't blame someone or say anything to disrespect their hard works...
Apa yah... bnernya ada baaaaanyyyyyaaaaaaaakkkkkkkkk banget yang ada di kepala buat diomongin... ada banyak hal yang pengen banget aku ceritain. Mulai dari A sampe Z....
Anyway, ternyata... saia memang kelihatan beda klo ma yang di foto... Itu kata beberapa orang. Well, I'm not a photogenic person and I do really hate that damn thing called camera. LOL.... that's another story though...
Hari ini.... walopun ada banyak hal buat diceritain.... tapi tetep aja... Bawaan bad mood dari kemaren masih blon berubah. Hmm.... lagi2 berteman ma Nikotin ma Kafein... I know, I know, it's not a good thing though but still.... *shrugs* I prefer them since I can't speak well... I CAN think well, but I just can't speak it well... That simple... or not? O_o
Too little time too much to do, and I do really want to spend my time with FUU!!!!
He didn't say much though last night.... and I was fine... I mean... not that kind of 'fine' but at least... he knew -as always- how to treat me whenever I'm facing such condition.... I just can't stop love him so....
Are you my shining light?