Humm.... new layout yes... yah... sesuai harapan dan perkiraan seh pokoknya, new theme at new year ^^ and some layout fixes around here and there.....
Ada lebih dari sekedar kata "banyak" (superlative mode) yang pengen aku ceritain.... Tapi konsenku sekarang pada masalah choices... Semua pasti dah pada tahu, hidup itu masalah pilihan, pilihan yang satu bakal ke arah pilihan yang laen... pilihan yang laen akan punya ending ato result yang berbeda, and yeah... it's affected our life in general... Kita bisa aja mourning over a mistake sambil bilang "damn.. why didn't I... bla bla bla" ato yang semacamnya, ato kita bisa juga super positif dan bilang "OK, artinya klo ngadepin gini.... aku harus gini..." ato kita bisa aja cuek2 aja dan komentar "humm ga jatuh ga belajar...." XDDD~~~
Recently, my Yang said to me that I'm easily diverted. She said that I simply can show my gratitude over a mistake... I watch the glass as half full though it's actually almost empty, and yeah... I express it quickly... I said, I choose to do so since I'm a negative and pessimistic person... Humm... I'm not implying that I'm thinking to change my behavior yah... but I'm just trying to please many people around me... begitulah... yah, for short-nya...
My Yang has made her choice about her faith, and it's affected her other choices... She has to broke up (aside the fact that I dislike her boyfriend since he's over-possesive toward my Yang while I think that she's not a "thing"....), and many more... When many people asked me on her reasons "why she converted her faith". I simply said, "Uhmm... because she wants to..." (OK, again I'm not implying that I encourage someone to do whatever he or she likes despite another fact that I'm a libertarian -go check wiki if you're wondering what a libertarian is-, tapi yang pasti... I won't talk much to other about it) Well, alasan laen adalah emang aku ga pernah tanya masalah agama... As for me, there are some things that I considered as private, and yeah... faith and religion is include in that part, I never asked someone else "What is your religion?" or "Why are you converted?" or something similar... I'm fine... dengan agama apapun yang dianut orang itu... Kecuali klo orang itu berusaha mempengaruhi diriku buat converted then I'd say a big NO to that person!
Humm... sama kayak salah satu hal laen dari diriku, that I'm bored with the current life now since it almost all of my predictions came true (Jadi bosen kan, dah bisa nebak akhirnya). That's why I'm pretty ignorant with many things (Yah, sama kayak sekarang, although I know banyak temenku bakal ngelewatin entry ini karena bahasa dewa (read: English) yang aku pake, but I'm still using it somehow... I decided to pay less attention... Empatiku bagus, dalam artian aku cepat bisa memposisikan diri dalam keadaan orang laen, terlepas aku suka ato ga, aku bisa langsung step on one's shoes. Sides, my intuition is pretty sharp... I knew when one is about to cancel the promise or something similar, I also able to -partially- predict the future... That's why I think life is boring...
Nah, when I talked about this with Yang, she asked me about my prediction about her. She asked me like this, "Fuu, are those prediction of yours, also happened to me?" and I said, "No... I have no intention to do so..." and she asked me again, "dare to or dare not to?", my last reply was "care not to..." and forcing a slice of chicken katsu to my mouth. She was dumbfounded at first, but then she laughed heartily...
I never (or haven't) tell her that I prefer NOT to know or barge in with someone close to me... I mean in their personal life. I never asked her something like "who's your boyfriend now?" or anything similar... Nope... nope... it's private and I respect that. To tell you the truth, I also never asked her "why you decided to convert?" I don't care about the reason... I feel proud of her though since she can make up her mind.
Back ke masalah choices tadi yah... I choose not to use my intuition with my closest people... I also choose not to know about many things that others considered as "important". I choose not to know much about the future since I want to have some surprises... I choose to believe in the words "even if you know the future, you can do nothing..." since that what most likely to happen. And lastly, I choose to see things differently... based on my own like ^_^