6-28-02 12:22 p.m.
O_o;;; i didnt sleep long last night actually i didnt sleep at all last night. LIQUID2K IS PISSING ME OFF!!!!! >< none of my pictures on any of the layouts that i have made are working. Megan's isnt even working right anymore. o_o' something muuust be wrong with the server? Well back to me not sleeping. I just stayed up thinking...o_o i thought about rose, megan, my mom, my dad...the possible loss of my grandfather in the near future and the possible loss of my hearing in the near future. All sooorts of shyt. I was listening to music all the while of course. I did manage to rediscover who i was though which is making things a whole lot easier for me now. Well i was still awake when my dad woke up to go to work which kinda made him a little mad. He was like "what the hell are you doing up??" I said that i had been up all night thinking. He asked if something was wrong. I can't talk to my dad about my problems its really hard because, even when i know something is wrong he still says that theres no problem in the slightest! It pisses me off really bad. Its like he thinks im completely blind to the obvious!>< AND SHAUN IS REALLY PISSING ME OFF! >> JUUUST cause he doesnt like me he thinks megan shouldnt either. I didnt do anything to megan..i can understand why he hates me but dont try to take one of my friends from me. hmmmm i did finally get to sleep at around 6:30...o_o i slept till like 10. DAMN IT i used all my batteries...i need to buy some more. MY HIKARU CD SHOULD BE IN SOON! YAY! o_o' i get easily excited ne? hmmm well im thinking of archiving and creating a new layout for this fecker pretty soon. It really needs it...BUT FIRST LIQUID2K HAS TO STOP BEING AN ASSHOLE! o_o;;; nya this girl sitting beside me(failed to mention im at the library)shes chattttting and thats against the library policy. I hope she gets caught XD. Im just mean o_o'' oh well. Im gonnnnnna shut up now. This is Juriri signing off XD

6-27-02 9:35 p.m.
IM SO FUCKING HAPPY! O_o god dont ask me why. im just in a great mood. I did what mist told me to...sleep as looong as possible. well after i woke up me and dad went to work..then we went to the city and got some stuff at da store. We ate at Chili's that place is soooooo goood...o_O' THEEEN when i get home from alll that running around i got on the comp ^^. Then me and megan have been talking like crazy...o_o its great to get to talk to her like that again. We have a lot in common in the way of music and crazy stunts to pull in public LMFAO XD. o_o''' asher's kinda depressing to talk to anymore...juriri...o_O i'm gonna start going by that XD its my name in japanese...o_o its kinda cute...O_o keep in mind i said kinda. well thats about all that happened today...i love this cd Avril Lavigne EVERYONE GO BY IT U FOO'S!! XD!!

6-26-02 8:47 p.m. I hate life....
Im so depressed.........ive got that feeling of like...knowing exactly what u want..and not being able to obtain it. I broke a very sacred promise to myself...i promised that i would never forget who i really am...and i went off and did exactly that. I HATE IT! I've been so busy trying to please everyone else and keep everyone else happy i forgot about myself. I really dont like this feeling...its like being in a deep dark room and trying to escape and never being able to. >< im so upset.. confused..worried...nervous...depressed and everything else i can think of! And all i get from some people is hey can u do this for me or HEY i need this from you. It makes me just wanna say FUCK OFF! i dont care what u need or what u want. I need to take a break from everything for a while..but i cant ever do that. i cant get the time to do that...im always busy doing something else or trying to plan something...i wanna go stay at my grandma's for a day or two...that will get my mind off of things...for a while..it would give me a while to myself to figure out who i am again and what i need again. Do you have any clue how painful it is...to leave in the middle of a conversation with someone you love soooo much...and i apologize to her for that...i just couldnt take it anymore! I need some time to myself...bad...but thats impossible to get around this house we are always doing something or trying to do something for someone it gets flat out sickening after a while! i know im starting to sound a bit conceited but maybe conceit is what im needing right now...well im gonna go do some more thinking...bye

6-26-02 2:06 p.m.
^^ i am in a good mood right now. I went to wal mart...the curse took action again...o_o i bought a new cd... Avril Lavigne. o_o it's awesome ><....nothing much has happened lately...o_o nothing much at all. Ill have the house to myself for a little while tonight i think...well this is gonna be a short entry byyyye

6-25-02 8:59 p.m. The usual feeling is back.
well hell... the second i think things are looking up they crash down. Mist...she made me feel that maybe i had another chance but nope. i wish i had saved some of the convo but i exited it. o_o' She said she does love me but just as a very close friend..i guess i can live with that i mean she is a great person so it should be fun. Looks like i will be playing single for a while now. i'm kinda confused but at least now i have some closure of some sort. It feels a lot better than being left in the dark on things. I opened up to her about my mother and some of the things she did to me. There was a lot of apologizing and stuff involved...im just glad that she finally gave me some kinda response to everything i was wondering and wanting to know. Its great now...im glad shes still willing to be friends with me. Rose...she's really helped me feel better and helped me by trying to make me talk to her. I love having friends as close as her...but im still kinda upset and stuff. Oh boy catfish for dinner ^^ i looooove cat fish. o_o' i looooove to eat and such. My big brother is coming to eat dinner with us...him and his fiance` Holly. I have been told im like a miniature model of my big bro. I guess thats a good thing cause i look up to him. I miss Tyler(younger cousin from amarillo) >< i loooove that little kid! its straaaange almost. o_o...well i wrote enough now JA NE~

6-24-02 1:47 P.M.
O-o''' welllllll...nother boring day thus far. o_O' Well last night Mist broke up wif me...u prolly guessed that by lookin over at the bio panel? o_o' I swear i cant keep a g/f for shiiiiiit. Oh well...this time i stay single for a while...and i mean it megan. O_o' we'll see how long it lasts this time XP. im bored....very bored. Well im gonna shuuuut up now cause i dont have anything decent to write about. o_o'

6-23-02 6:35 p.m.
o.o' New layout...i swear Lime is so cute. @_@''' Well today was awesome! >< I found a new love for some family members. They came down from Amarillo and we went and ate breakfast this morning. After that...we went to my grandmother's house. Me and my little cousin Tyler...he is soooo cool. we played on my grandma's computer...some old game...i controlled the little ship thingy and he attcked. Hes like a great kid. I associate a lot better with little kids than i do adults. They are so much easier to get along with...and a lot of fun too ^^. My other cousin Tiffany...shes 17 and expecting a kid...her fiance` is pretty cool but he is waaaay to quiet. I dunno maybe i just enjoy being around family now compared to what i used to?

6-22-02 12:16 p.m.
I dont write much anymore do i? o_o' Well everythings been going pretty good. Very good actually. I got a new PS One game o_o''' it is so cool. Chrono Cross. Its really awesome. I keep getting stuck though. O_o right now im on this fight and i keep dying but i have the game saved riiiight where the fight starts XD so i dont have to go back through alllll dat shyt before the fight, when i die. Well my parents are going to Dallas tonight which means i have the whooooooole house to myself. Im watching Independence Day this movie is hella cool. o_o Well on the down side of stuff me and rose spliiiiit up. o_O buuuut...o_o'' buuuut o_O'''*pokes mist* XD...I have mosquito bites alllll over my ankles...*swats at random mosquitos* grrr...LMAO! "I have got to get me one of these" Quote from that movie. @___@ I ordered my Hikaru CD. O_o i gotta get that money order out so i can get the feking thing BUT FIRST DAD HAS TO PAY ME!!!*throws a corn chip at his dad* lazy butt head. @___@im thinking im gonna put a new layout on here cause it kinda sucks ne? The other one is a bit better than this one o.o'' quite a bit. its not as plain? right see ya ^^

6-19-02 2:15 p.m.
o_o'' ive been playing final fantasy like theres no tommorow. that game is so cool...o.o''' i hate those fekking chocobos...damn chicken wanna be's. Nothing has fucking happened i mean its been so dull lately..o.o' about all i have done since that last entry is play video games...and listen to music...o.o i have no life....i went to my grandma's house...and talked to my future step cousin(i dunno if there is a such thing?)hes only 10 but hes hella cool. Hes like the coolest little kid i know. o_O'''then my uncle(who is living with the kids momma and plans on marrying her) had me call in a pizza for them so they can get my step mom's discount(my step mom works there) a little cheap of them but it didnt bother me. Im glad i finally get to see my family a little more now. o_o''i might see about going over there later.

6-17-02 5:44 p.m.
wow...new layout ne? a little blue but i think it'll go over quite well^^ maybe >>....the rpg is going fantastic ^^ and today has been soo boring...o.o'''we havent done anything! x_x juuuust sit around right now the parentals are gone so im home alone...the sister is down the road. so its just me all by my loansome...o.o''''*watches for flying flaming toasters....* they are out there...and after me X_X.............