O.o''' I hate storms....and flaming toasters....
6-16-02 3:32 p.m.o.o'' hella huge wind storm last night...gusts of 92 miles an hour! o.o''' it was sooooo coool>>....It cracked power lines and poles...tore apart trees...o.o' i didnt get to go to sunday breakfast cause my grandpa's garage door wouldnt open cause he still doesnt have electricity...o.o' We were out on the highway and the wind eve split a highway sign in half...it was hella cool. o.o...then there was this beautiful red trans am...and it had a tree fall on it.. << lil trans am looks like a pancake. Den earlier today...i was making eggo waffles...i made some for my step mom then i put mine in the toaster...and i went to play my ps one while they cooked o.o....next thing you know my step mom is yelling "JERRY THE KITCHENS ON FIRE!!!" o.o''' ohhh shit i forgot about my eggos...o.O;; i ran in the kitchen and sure as hell the toaster was flaming....my stepmom unplugged it and i ran outside wif it...then my little sister put baking soda on it while it was flaming to put the fire out..o.O'' nuffing like running outside with a flaming toaster in hand ne? o.o''' the damn thing was flaming for like 10 minutes. now we get to buy a new toaster which we needed one any way... so the way i see it i did us all a favor ^^
LMAO!!!! THAT IS THE FUNNIEST THING I HAVE EVER HEARD!!! XD Tim didnt know what wingdings was....ill paste the convo XD!!!!!!!
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I was laughing so hard i couldnt breathe! then mel beat him at pool cause he didnt call his shot on the 8 ball for he shot XD LMAO!!!!!!!! 8)!!
i hate life....
6-14-02 9:16I signed onto my t_kid_thunder account...and guess whos online...megan. she had me blocked...but it turns out its of her own accord. I apologize to shaun for thinking hes more manical than he actually is....i tried to apologize to megan...she acted like she could really care less.....i just miss talking to her. -___- man i am such a total fuck up...shaun trusted me...and i betrayed him...he doesnt need to forgive me for that one...i know i fucked that up...megan liked hving me around(or so i think)and i said something that i shouldnt have and blew that friendship to hell...i dont deserve anyone...-__- i should just...go...end everything...
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6-14-02 12:27 p.m.Wellllll.....yeah....have u ever had something you just couldnt live without right out of reach?I swear its the simple most annoying and painful things u can ever have done to you...I hate it...-___- Today i kinda woke up late(i was up kinda late last night playing my new PSone)o.o'' that spider man demo is hella fun. Well i read megan's pita...and she didnt like my referal to her as shaun's puppet. O_o..she has me blocked so why should i try to be nice to her if its not going to mean shyt to her anyway ne? o.O i mean seriously...she let him get to her...she let him corrupt our friendship >< i hate chu shaun! you took my best friend from me... -.- i want to talk to meggers again... i miss her...she was kinda like the only one that was always there for me...till now i suppose....i just dont understand...i thought i was her friend..i didnt think she would ever block me like this cause of some guy... i thought our friendship was stronger than that. guess i was wrong. Jeez...this is driving me crazy! I was there for her when she left shaun...and yet it seems like none of that matters anymore. She prolly wont read this..but if she does...-___- i just wanna talk to her again....Yeah...onto another subject...things are going great with me and rose. She is like the best person i know and i cant wait for >>....not gonna say nuffin on that subject riiight rose XD! This new cologne i am wearing seems to attract mosquitos...o.o' i have like 200 bites all over my arms and legs I HATE MOSQUITOS!!!...o.o''' i had one the size of a cricket land on me earlier and guess what SQUISH! mosquito pancake XD..o.o i love being strange...i just wouldnt be me any other way...
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6-12-02 12:00 p.m.Well im worried now...for no apparent reason. Im almost positive megan has me blocked, and yet im almost positive again that its because of shaun. o_o...sometimes i totally feel like shaun has megan pinned(at least now that they are back together). o_O Yeah...Suddenly it seems meggers has become shauns lil puppet...but oh well. i guess theres nothing i can do to change that ne? Things are going great between me and rose again i havent felt this close to her in...in along time. I have 61 bucks right now.. i think ill go blow it all on anime XD(or an mp3 player whichever i see first)...o_o...jerry dont feel good right now. I drank milk...thats part of the problem(lactose intolerant). x_x. Im really bored right now...im just sitting in the library watching the books people check out as they bring them to the front desk thingy. HEH! Im teasing the library assistant...shes dropping books right and left..Shes about my age...maybe a year older. o_o...i want her job! about all she does is put books on the shelves and sit around on a computer all day. heh...i just flipped through rose's archives...she really cares a lot about me...i havent ever felt the same about ANYONE i have ever been with before...it makes me feel kinda strange o_o. @____@ im gonna go buy a phone card but i cant call her for like uhh 3 hours cause shes prolly still sleeping after all its 10 am her time so if shes like me shes prolly still sleeping away. o_o...i realized, i spend over half of my life sleeping...and the other part is spent on the computer or eating...im lazy...but i wouldnt have it any other way ^^. o_O...im weird ne?
6-10-02 9:46 p.m.Well today was good...i made 20 bucks...x_x im saving up for an MP3 player since the one built into my new cd player doesnt work properly...well while i was gone my little sister threw a little birthday party..one of her little friends has a HUUUUGE crush on me...she went through the closet sniffing all my clothes...i feel sooo violated its not even funny. Well last night for the first time ever...i saw the kid in both of my parents...it was so strange...i dont know if the spirits showed it to me to prove a point to me, or if i just kinda noticed it for the first time. Well...hmm not too much happened today. so this entries gonna end now JA!!
6-9-02 5:28 p.m.Well i just lied to rose, i told her i was feeling great and such, im really not.Im so upset, and depressed...that i just hate to even look at myself. I hate being like this, it makes me feel like vulnerable...even though i know a lot better than that. I guess what got me this way was looking back at my past, living with my mom and such. I raised myself pretty much from the age of 7. Then i had to set myself apart from the other kids, from my little sister(not chelsea, but jeanna). I had to be totally independent. Then as i grew up, i guess i got used to being abused to my meth addict mother, and i kinda developed a barrier. I wouldnt talk to anyone about how i was feeling, i wouldnt tell anyone about what was going on at home, i didnt want anything to do with anyone. I became the quiet kid that noone liked or wanted to try to get to know. I grew up alone, completely alone. All through junior high i never had any friends, and even know the only friends i have are the few trusted online ones, and i rarely tell anyone of them how im feeling(except megan and rose), but ill sit back and listen to their problems for hours...i guess i like trying to help people feel better about themselves and their situations in life. I hate not being able to talk openly. At times I just want to sit and tell someone EVERYTHING that is going on in my life, i just want to let everything go, but i cant trust anyone i know well enought to do that anyway. Sometimes i think i would be better off dead than having to deal with all my problems alone. I mean the world's a very hard place to live, even if you have someone you love with you, and its 100 times more difficult alone..i dunno how much longer i can live with all this shyt....i hate it...
6-8-02 7:56 p.m.Well everythings been going okay today...O_o i made my sister yet another layout i dont like the way it turned out one little bitch- i mean bit. O_o me and megan had a small talk to day...then i started sharing the picture of a chick with big knockers LMAO XD!! I think rose is getting a little paranoid about our relationship. Its almost to the point where (rose if u read this ur gonna cry) i kinda dont like to talk with her cause she makes me feel like i have to watch everything i say. I do think at times that i have to watch what i say, cause if i say something wrong then she gets really upset and offended by it. It makes me kinda mad because im a very opinionated person, and if someone doesnt like what im saying i usually tell em to blow off, but if i did that to her, shed like go off and kill herself. I really dont need that, cause i love her, and it would kill me if i lost her. its so confusing and such well bai.
6-8-02 12:01 p.m. Well yesterday was a great day, me and rose really didnt get into many arguments. We enjoyed each others company so it was really great just to talk with her for a while. Shes truly a great person, I really love her, i hate to see her upset and stuff, makes me feel like i failed. If you know me i really dont like to fail. Me and Meggers talked for a little while, i mean like maybe one or two messages.o_o...told ya it was for a little while. I designed some new layouts, they turned out pretty good. They are rather simple and i have to get a picture to work on one of them so its really not all that good yet, but i managed to get a really good picture for one of them. Kari's was the one with the excellent picture(that i have yet to get to work), and Chelseas which turned out okay if you have the proper font on your computer.......x_x but i wont ever be anything like the pitas meggers designs. I like making them though, they are relatively easy, and its fun to see the end results and such. ^^ Im in a really good mood today, its chelsea's 12th birthday, and her dad is coming to pick her up so that she can get a B-Day present from him. She doesnt get to see him much, and my dad's the only father shes known 90% of her life. It makes me wonder, since he just kinda showed up one year, if hes trying to make for lost time with the money he has. If thats the scenario then i or my step mom would be the first to tell him, money cant make up for lost time, not now or ever. yeah ive written enough for now more later BAI! ^^