Okay okay i over did the quizzes.........i swear some of those questions would be hard to answer if i wasnt *ahem*and its not gay just so u people know o_O.
i need to steer clear of quizzes.....
6-7-02 12:56 p.m.Well today is okay so far i spent most of the morning arguing with my sister about god only knows what all. Then i decided well hell u arent doing anything else so lets go up to the library. I always talk to myself in the plural sense. I dunno why, when im thinking ill be like "we have to do this, and we are going to do this."yeah im weird but me no care about what peoples think of me ^^' im an individualist. o_O...i think thats what u call it? Well when i got up to the library, me and my sister began designing her a pita Its nothing fancy, but she really likes it, doesnt take much to please a simple mind eh? Right now shes sitting the computer next to me typing away at a little entry about this morning and such i suppose. o_o...as long as she has fun with it, and it keeps her out of my hair i really dont care what she puts in it ne? o_O...She messed it up, then i fixed it and shes still not happy with it, it was just a little minuscule typo. Oh well...its fun arguing with her, cause i can always win...i guess whats what i get for living with my other sister all my life? o_o....the only one that can beat me in an argument is Meggers o_O okay imma gonna close this entry now and ill write one laters bai!
6-5-02 8:43 p.m.Well today has been great. Shaun(chunkachu as meggers calls him XD LMAO!!!)blocks me again, but now im to the point where i dont too much care. Megan actually talked without giving me a fuck off response. o_o...and and and rose is trying to make a pita using a very scary pic shes depressed right now, and i hate when shes like this. I MADE A NEW FRIEND! She's sooo cool. We have a ton in common, its almost scary. Im still waiting to meet her friend Leah, but if shes anything like sam, then we should get along great. Well alls well on my side of everything right now, and lets just hope it stays that way. I was reading 90% of the day...i found a great book. I dun feel like describing it right now, but i might later on in the week or somefin. BAI
6-5-02 12:57 p.m.I got a tagboard...its just waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay down at the bottom thingy there ::points::SEE! XP
6-5-02 12:24 p.m.o_O...im sick of using html for my dates and such...oh well...I am actually in a hella good mood today. I woke up at like 11:30 and finished watching The price is right. I got up and got dressed, now im up at the library.Yeah i think im over those last few entries now...but i still wish Meggers wouldnt like ignore me or gimme some kinda fuck off answers when i talk to her. I could tell her my grandpa died and she would just say ok. O_o...Gawd..nice to know im cared about? Everytime I tell her something shes like yeah or mmmhmmm, or maybe ocassionally ok. O_o....Things are going great between me and rose, I called her yesterday, but my phone card ran out of time like 10 minutes into the call (damn thing) so i had to quickly end the conversation which i hated to do cause i love talking to her. Ill have to buy a new card today or sometime soon so i can talk to her again. I dunno, when i talk to her its like theres a person out there who really cares about me, and when she tells me she loves me...o_o...i feel really strange, its like @___@ and ^___^ at the same time. i swear when i was searching through pitas yesterday i tripped upon the single coolest layout that i have ever seen in my life, it belongs to the Morons as they are so called. o_O....interesting name, kick ass layout. yeah i have written enough now bai!
6-4-02 12:51 p.m.I feel a little bit better about the entry from yesterday at like 4 something. O_o..im still a little depressed..i just cant get over the way i was feeling when i wrote that....i do love rose with all my heart...yet..at the same time...gah..i dunno no more -__-' Its like being stuck in a room, and not being able to find the exit...i am so confused and mixed up i dont know whether im coming or going no more...maybe i should go back to bed..but i cant! i have to go do some work here in a little bit...jeez...why cant life ever be simple no more...im bored and upset and comfused and stuff....yeah..............................................................................................gah.......bai....
6-3-02 10:38 p.m.Well im in a much better mood now despite a fight with shaun. ROSE I LOVE YOU!!! Shes such a great person...i dunno what i would do without her. She helped me get to feeling good again. Madison blocked me...yeah...well im not gonna get all upset..but i dun like it. Back to the subject of rose, Shes the greatest thing that ever happened to me...im so lucky to have her with me...id do absolutely anything for her. yeah bai! ^__^
6-3-02 9:58 p.m.Im completely pissed and upset...and a tad bit suicidal...I trusted someone...who i will keep nameless with some information that someone else gave me...and guess what...the said person above told the person i got the info from...and now hes pissed at me...and i see that now you cant trust anyone...i hate it! the only one i can trust now is rose...i refuse to trust anyone else...it pisses me off so bad! GAWD!! o_O!! i hate it i hate i hate it!!!!!!!!!!
6-3-02 4:22p.m.Yeah i know im writing too much...but something just hit me. I'm upset...or jealous...hell i dont know...Yeah shaun and megan are back together..and im happy for them..but for some reason...im upset about it...strange i havent ever felt like this before. megan just asked me what was wrong..normal response "nuffin"..yeah she doesnt need to know how i feel...im scared she will get mad at me for it... i dont understand it i should be happy for them...but im depressed...i just dont understand. shes so happy...and i love seeing her this way...but..for some reason im sad and depressed and feel really sick. i dont understand...is this normal...or is there something wrong with me...cause
i'm feeling nervous, trying to be perfect 'cause i know
you're worth it, your worth it °°my eyes... their
wet...°° says:
i hope all is going to end the same. him and ash are
best friends, he thinks of her p-l-a-t-o-n-i-c-a-l-l-y
cause i'm feeling nervous, trying to be perfect 'cause
i know you're worth it, your worth it °°my eyes...
their wet...°° says:
and we live, happily ever after
yeah...the way i feel now and ive noticed feeling lately...happilly ever after is severly over rated...i suddenly feel like...like i lost something important to me...hell i dont know...im so worried...and yet im happy for her...i hate myself...
6-3-02 3:46 p.m.Well it seems that all is well again. Megan got back with shaun, and i got back with rose. Meggers and i are still sick but at least we arent depressered. O_o..i hope i helped to make things a little easier on her while she was depressed...just cause it makes me sad to see her that way. She has to make things better with Asher but i think that shouldnt be too hard. maybe...I havent got to talk to shaun and see hows hes doing yet, but he should be good. O_o..I have been listening to music allllllll day...o_o...i love when i do that, music just kinda like helps me with anything, seems to make me happy, or depressed. yeah i know im weird. I swear life hates me...~___~ but oh well i have good friends like meggers and asher and shaun and a fantastic girlfriend like rose to help me through it all. Yeah alls well that ends well?
6-2-02 7:24 p.m. Today has been long and very scary. At first i thought i lost megan..i mean i was so scared that she was gonna do something to herself. She found out that shaun loves asher...and she went so completely depressed that it scared me. I tried to cut myself and finally succeeded but not too much, just a little cut. @__@ Megan said if i cut myself she would kill me, so i didnt tell her about it. It looks like she ended her friendship with asher..and she totally feels she lost shaun forever. Im so confused by the whole thing that i dont know what to do anymore. Ash was burning the piss out of herself...and shaun doesnt know what he wants anymore..i just want to curl up and die...but we cant all have what we want eh?
6-01-02 5:50 p.m.Well Megan amazed me with yet another fantastic layout. I think it looks great. o_O....me and rose are looking into gettin back together. i so hope we do. and i think meggers is feeling a little better. BAI
6-1-01 5:03 p.m.I archived...and it confused me o_o...