About Myself
Name: Maria
Location: Dubuque, Iowa

email: autumnriver@yahoo.com

Kusanagi and Yuzuriha!  I've been wanting to do a layout with this lovely drawing that Satsuki-chan did  for Smiles of a Summer Night.  It is one of my favorite pictures.  You can see some of her other artwork at Queen of Cups



My Sites
Sedition My fanfiction--under construction
Riverwatch Dubuque SCA Contact Group

 

My Passions
Manga: X, Berserk, CCS, Basara, KKJ, Rurouni Kenshin, Sensei!, Naruto, Juline, Suki Dakara Suki


TV: Buffy, Enterprise, Firefly, Home & Garden Network, Iron Chef, International Channel


Sewing:  brown 10-gore tunic, two wool cloaks, purple Calontir tabards

Armoring: stainless steel helm, new brigandine


Biseinen: Kusanagi (X), Fuuma (X), Touya (CCS), Gatts (Berserk), Itou (Sensei!), Kakashi (Naruto), The Red King (Basara), Cho (RK), All the CCD cuties (Clamp Campus Detectives, X) and most especially Bob (Husband)

Hobbies: Learning Japanese, Calligraphy, drawing, writing, hiking, touring old houses, making medieval stuff, collecting foxes.


Cat of the moment: Nabiki


Where I go
Fortune's Fools

Dreams of Sakura
Sekai Seifuku
Elitist Bastards!
Kingdom of Calontir
Anime on DVD
TheOneRing.net
Cyber Shrine
Vulpes.org
Mystic Gardens: The Fox Den Cat-chi Cats (Japanese Bobtails)
The Queen of Cups
Green Man Press (Charles Vess)
Kaluta Studios (Mike Kaluta)
Berserk Homepage
Mi Piace Pack
Nightfall Berserk
SkullKnight.net
The Cat's Pajamas
Pitas.com

Who I know
Satsuki-chan +++ pointless +++
Lika Under Thlyali's Thrall
Ammie Castle of Briars
Alison Shinken
Kerianne The Space Between
Kristin Kudaranai
Rachel Return to Tokyo
Argustar Supervixen
Kris Angry Babble
Remalna Marguerite Babylon
Font of wisdom Subterfuge Archives
My Fanfiction Sedition





Subterfuge: Star-crossed Lovers

I wanna hold you 'til the fear in me subsides.


Quickly Quickly

Got back from Kansas on Sunday. The drive wasn't too bad. We had another guy travelling with us (hi, Gaston!) and he was a very good passenger. That should be it for the long trips until January, when I go down to Missouri for the Queen's Prize Tournament, which is about 6 hours south of here in central Missouri. I'm dithering between what to do: calligraphy (which I'm really good at) or early clothing (which I'm just learning).

I'm also fired up about finishing more of my armor. Got some nice plans last weekend and am eager to try some ideas out.

Good to see you blogging again! I've missed your opinions.

Satsuki-chan! Got your Halloween card today! I just love how you draw! And yes, the HP obsession continues. That reminds me, I do have something to send you, which I'll get in the mail this week. The SCA isn't so much an arts and crafts group as a historical reenactment group..kind of. It's hard to explain. They do have a branch in Europe (Drachenwald), which includes several branches in Germany. I end up doing a lot of artsy stuff because I like making things!

I've started a Harry Potter fanfic. I'll say no more until it's done. But it's fun getting mad about having to break writing to do housework!

Tuesday, November 12, 2002 02:02 p.m.

At last, some pictures

Okay, for some reason I was really wired last night, so I actually did put up the photo gallery on the Riverwatch page. You may now view us in our nerdy Medieval splendor. I'm the one wearing a wimple. And yes, that dress does make me look fat. Er...fatter than I usually look in modern-day clothes. But that's just how real people dressed in 11th century England!

Yes, the thumbnails aren't working right. The links to the pictures themselves are fine. My guess is that Geocities doesn't like Frontpage (neither do I, much, but I've never done a gallery before and needed the crutch). I'll try to pin down the bug and fix it next week.

I'll probably put up a page with my calligraphy/illumination examples next week. I haven't heard back from Suncoast, so it's looking like I didn't get the job. I'm not too upset--I was ridiculously overqualified for it and they probably want someone who is more desperate or something. But it would have been fun.


Thursday, November 7, 2002 07:39 a.m.

Figures


What's your inner fangirl? Take the test!

Yeah, I'm that dull. Yay.

Alison, you do know that I loved Fushigi Yugi and Ayashi no Ceres, right? Hehehe. No really, I enjoyed it, even the non-stop "Tamahome! Tamahome!" I can't really figure out WHY I enjoyed the stories so much, but I did.

When ficcing, I usually work with established characters. I like the challenge. But when I was writing Pern fanfic (none of which I can post due to McCaffrey's stance on webfiction), we had to use original characters. I did get accused of MarySueing once--not because the character was perfect (she wasn't), nor because she was like me (she most certainly wasn't), nor because all the characters loved her (they didn't). No, it was because the character got away with so many things without "appropriate retribution". The critic didn't like my happy endings. I basically put it down to bitterness and jealousy on the part of the critic. But the accusation still upset me a bit. Okay, a lot.

I, too, am grateful that Kusanagi is not considered Bishie enough for overuse. That leaves him free for Yuzuriha! (Yeah, who says I'm not a fangirl?!!! Kusanagi and Yuzuriha 4-evah!)

I want to start writing again. Now that the weather is getting colder, I seem to be gravitating more towards my homeoffice (which is the warmest room in the house during the day--southern exposure, you see). Losing my work last spring in the hard drive crash kind of took away any momentum I might have had. But the ideas are coming back--X, Rurouni Kenshin, Harry Potter, even some original stuff. For X, though, it's almost like I'm waiting to see Kusanagi in the manga again before I write more. It's like I need to make sure he's still there. Weird, huh?

The SCA is also to blame. This hobby really does suck up all your money and time! My latest endeavor is a woolen cloak for Bob. However, because my sewing machine is evil and is not feeding straight, I'm having to hand-finish the seams, which takes hours and hours. Luckily, I like hand-sewing (I find it relaxing), but it does take up a LOT of time.

Satsuki-chan! Blog more!! Same with you, Lika-chan! I miss hearing from ya'll. Hope all is going well!

Rachel, as ever, I am so jealous of you going to Japan! Hope you're having a great time over there!

I guess that's it for now. I get to travel many hours to SE Kansas for an SCA officer's meeting. I'm trying to remind myself that this is fun, but long drives are hard on me! However, it will be a chance to meet some folks and help establish our group here. But I'm not liking the drive time!

In other news, got the DVD of 1776. Restored director's cut. Brilliant, brilliant! It's actually aged somewhat better than Oliver! which somehow looks dated now. Dunno why, they're both period pieces. Maybe I'm older now and appreciate the adult humor of 1776 more than the cuteness of Oliver! Although I still enjoy Harry Potter so maybe I'm not completely jaded yet.

Wednesday, November 6, 2002 10:04 p.m.

The Unbearable Lightness of Being

Man, I thought things were getting a little too quiet after Technomancy shut down. But look! Debate in blogland! What fun!

I'll just comment on a few things said by Rachel and Kerianne, since I don't know the others as well. Rachel's got a nice list of links on her comments to the other comments.

There seems to be this misperception that angst, death and dooooom makes a plot interesting. It does not. The element that is essential in each and every plot is change. It really doesn't matter what kind of ending a story has. What matters is that in the course of the story, something changes. Yes, that something can be death, but it doesn't have to be. The change can be a positive one. The reader may not even know what the result of the change may be (good or bad), but only that a change has occurred.

I really loved Rachel's list of hints about improving your X stories. They were spot-on, especially the last one. I've said it before, readers, ain't nothing gonna make that stuff taste good. And domesticity, while quiet, is not necessarily a wasteland of story ideas. Relationships do evolve over time, just more slowly after the first sharp shock of looooove.

One example of change within domesticity that makes a good story: a mother takes her first child to its first day of kindergarten. It's a small thing, but when that mother lets go the child's hand and pushes it towards the teacher, she changes not only her life, but that of the child and the teacher as well. A good author crafts the moment with such prose that we care about such a mundane occurance. That is the magic of storytelling. If fanfiction writers could concentrate on the simple things, we'd end up with better fanfiction. IMHO.

I also liked Kerianne's point about not wasting random deaths. If you're going to kill someone in a story, do it for a reason, not just because you can. And make it count. For example, perhaps Nokoru suddenly dies, an innocent bystander to the war of the dragons. What is the result? His company would have to find other leadership, his advice and help would suddenly be gone, the DOH might lose their headquarters? Who knows? But SOMETHING would happen. Death is a strong change element in a story. To overuse it is a tricky thing, and often it does end up desensitizing the reader into not caring about the characters in the way the writer might have intended. I think I have only used random death once (in Cujo), and that was only to underline the point I was trying to make in the story--Inuki was in fact a monster and Yuzuriha no less so.

Anyway, that's all I have to say on the matter. In other news, I interviewed for a holiday job (at Suncoast Video). Not sure if I got it (it's been a very long time since I've worked retail). I mainly wanted a job that would be fun (and part-time), even if it pays very little. It would be enough to cover our Anime addiction (plus employee discount wouldn't hurt either!) We'll see what happens. I should find out next week sometime if I got it.

Riverwatch marched in the Halloween Parade on Monday. That was a lot of fun. So many entries! It was so cool to see all the costumes and everyone enjoying themselves thoroughly. Dubuque is nice in that it still has that small-town feel, even though it is city-sized now.

Oh, and a couple of fun links! Feeling frustrated with the world? Want to do something about it? Go here and smite away. Talk about random death! ;-D

Still bored? Why not write a novel? November is National Novel Writing Month! I'm still debating on whether to try it--might be just the thing to kick my writing back into gear. I've been dreadfully remiss.

Wednesday, October 30, 2002 08:26 a.m.

Deo Gratias Anglia Rede pro Victoria!

It's that time again!

Today is the 587th anniversary of the Battle of Agincourt (Oct 25,1415), which provides a convenient excuse to revisit one of the most stirring pieces ever written in the English language - the St. Crispin's Day speech from Shakespeare's Henry V (1599):

WESTMORELAND:
"O that we now had here
But one ten thousand of those men in England
That do no work to-day!"
KING:
"What's he that wishes so?
My cousin Westmoreland? No, my fair cousin;
If we are mark'd to die, we are enough
To do our country loss; and if to live,
The fewer men, the greater share of honour.
God's will! I pray thee, wish not one man more.
By Jove, I am not covetous for gold,
Nor care I who doth feed upon my cost;
It yearns me not if men my garments wear;
Such outward things dwell not in my desires.
But if it be a sin to covet honour,
I am the most offending soul alive.
No, faith, my coz, wish not a man from England.
God's peace! I would not lose so great an honour
As one man more methinks would share from me
For the best hope I have. O, do not wish one more!
Rather proclaim it, Westmoreland, through my host,
That he which hath no stomach to this fight,
Let him depart; his passport shall be made,
And crowns for convoy put into his purse;
We would not die in that man's company
That fears his fellowship to die with us.
This day is call'd the feast of Crispian.
He that outlives this day, and comes safe home,
Will stand a tip-toe when this day is nam'd,
And rouse him at the name of Crispian.
He that shall live this day, and see old age,
Will yearly on the vigil feast his neighbours,
And say 'To-morrow is Saint Crispian.'
Then will he strip his sleeve and show his scars,
And say 'These wounds I had on Crispian's day.'
Old men forget; yet all shall be forgot,
But he'll remember, with advantages,
What feats he did that day. Then shall our names,
Familiar in his mouth as household words -
Harry the King, Bedford and Exeter,
Warwick and Talbot, Salisbury and Gloucester -
Be in their flowing cups freshly rememb'red.
This story shall the good man teach his son;
And Crispin Crispian shall ne'er go by,
From this day to the ending of the world,
But we in it shall be remembered -
We few, we happy few, we band of brothers;
For he to-day that sheds his blood with me
Shall be my brother; be he ne'er so vile,
This day shall gentle his condition;
And gentlemen in England now-a-bed
Shall think themselves accurs'd they were not here,
And hold their manhoods cheap whiles any speaks
That fought with us upon Saint Crispin's day."

And for those wanting music: look here under Deo Gracias Anglia (Agincourt Carol) !

And now, it's time to pull out Kenneth Brannagh's masterpiece! See ya'll later!

Friday, October 25, 2002 09:50 p.m.

Of Course


What Kind of Harry Potter Are You?



Yeah, that fits. Yay me. Dull as dishwater. Bleh.

The in-laws were here this week. They left yesterday. Nice folk, but it's a strain having people over for so long and feeling like you have to entertain them. I frankly told Bob there would be times I would retreat to my office or the bedroom for some quiet time because I couldn't take all this togetherness. I'm not a very good hostess. I like seeing folk, but not for very long, and especially not if they're wanting me to cook.

Once again, I got the feeling his mother was annoyed with me. Mainly about the children issue. Now, what makes people think that by having children, your personality will suddenly change and you'll just adore the creatures? No, people who don't like children and have kids just end up gritting their teeth and being stressed for 18-20 years while the kid grows up. The life of a childless person can be just as rich as some supermom.

I'm not spoiled. I'm just being realistic. And I'm freaking tired of having to defend my choice! Bob, bless him, is supportive, although disappointed.

That's it for today. I'll blog later when I'm feeling a little more my cheery self.

Friday, October 25, 2002 08:48 a.m.

Pippi and Such

Bob found this link today, which tells the awful truth! about Pippi Longstocking. ;-D I am shocked, I tell you, shocked. No wonder I've turned out so naughty!

I'm feeling better--allergy medicine kicked in. Weather has turned cold and will remain so for the rest of the week. Supposedly the in-laws are coming soon (tomorrow? Next day?), but they haven't actually bothered to tell us which day and when, which drives me up a wall.

Finishing up another scroll, this one as a thank you to the Busted Lift, which sponsered the Irish Fest and also lets Riverwatch meet above their pub every now and then. Celtic style, even did some knotwork (elementary knotwork--I really need to keep working on it). The colors aren't quite right (aka what was used in period), but my yellow finally dried up, so I stuck with red, white and green primarily. And yes, I will get it scanned in with a link. Hopefully this week, depending on what else we're doing.

Bob's taking the week off, for the first whole-week vacation he's taken in two years. Of course, we can't afford to go anywhere, but that's okay, we have plenty to do around here this time of year.

Would social blog, but no one seems to be talking about anything that I can comment on right now! Lately, I'm falling back into my Harry Potter obsession again--just in time for the movie! I finally got Bob to start reading the books! He's in the middle of Chamber of Secrets right now. I think he's wanting to run a Harry Potter GURPS game at an upcoming convention, provided he has time to design one. He's currently obsessed with yurts and has grand plans to build one before next summer!

We've got, what, another month before our next X fix?!

Saturday, October 19, 2002 08:27 p.m.

Peace and Quiet

Well, the folks are leaving first thing tomorrow morning. It's actually been a good visit. We went boating on the Mississippi today, which was more fun than I thought it would be. Bob really loved it. He's such a Viking at heart!

Now things slow down again for awhile, until next week when the in-laws come to visit and we re-wire the house. Arrrgh! Stress! But at least there will be a few days of quiet so I can get my equilibrium back.

Still feeling blue, not sure why. I want to sleep for at least a week, but life doesn't let you do that. Maybe the quiet will help, though. But part of me wishes the in-laws would cancel their visit. Bad of me, I know, but this pace is hard on me!

Okay, enough whining. Of course, I'd feel better if someone was to write some sickeningly sweet Kusanagi/Yuzuriha romantic fic. I need some WAFF in a big way!

Monday, October 14, 2002 10:45 p.m.

My heart is blue

We did the demo at Irishfest yesterday. It went fairly well. We were kinda afraid that the weather would turn against us, but it wasn't as bad as predicted (although it did get a little cold!). I mainly tried to do calligraphy/illumination, but they didn't get us the extra table and every time someone bumped the table (which was often), my pen would slip a little. Hence, the stuff I was working on is now useless for anything further except doing demos or practice. Ah, well, no biggie. Practice can be a good thing.

We have the one fellow who has and who continues to be extremely irritating. I can ignore the sarcastic comments about my age, but when he's sitting at our booth making out with some girlfriend of his, or waving around a real sword when a cop is standing just a little ways away, dammit, it makes the rest of us look bad. And somehow, I'm the one who ends up saying something. I'm not his goddam mother. Heck, I'm not anybody's goddam mother. I guess I resent having to be the heavy simply because no one else wants to speak up.

A couple of people said a couple of things yesterday that really hurt my feelings. Someone said I was "sucking up", which is so totally untrue. I was shocked because it was the first time I'd even met that person, and I can't believe she would say something like that. Bob, of course, says blow it off, that some people today mistake politeness and courtesy for something other than it is. I suppose. But it still hurt my feelings.

I guess I get my expectations too high. I enjoy SCA and I wanted to have a group here so others could enjoy SCA too. But what I didn't take into account is that SCA can be enjoyed in many ways. I'm quiet. I like to make things and talk to other people about making things. I really love history. Some folks prefer SCA because of the party culture (which does exist). Some use it as a power game. I guess I was naive to expect to find a lot of people around here who were in it for the same reason I am.

But I'm being gloomy. There are a few, and these are the few people I can really relax and be myself around. Otherwise, I'm afraid I come over quite badly. And that makes me sad, especially to think others might think badly of me. It shouldn't bother me. But it does.

Don't mind me, I'll feel better soon I'm sure. Going with the folks over to Galena today. It's a pretty drive and the town is darling. Hopefully, that'll cheer me back up.

Sunday, October 13, 2002 07:05 a.m.

Stop! I wanna get off!

What a zoo this week has been. My folks are in town (fortunately camping in their RV--I'd be completed fried if they were staying here). Riverwatch has a major demo on Saturday at the Irishfest. Yesterday was our anniversary. So I'm rushing here and there, touring with the folks, helping get things ready for the demo, doing a quicky webpage for Riverwatch so folks can find us, etc. Bleh.

The Riverwatch page looks amazingly like this one. Mainly because I just used this one as a template. I'll work on a more original one after things slow down (probably in November). Due to the strange rules of the SCA, I can't say the page belongs to Riverwatch. It's MY page ABOUT our contact group in Dubuque. We're not yet recognized by the SCA as we have not yet jumped enough hoops or something. I guess I remember a time when you DIDN'T have to jump through so many hoops, so I'm more than a little impatient with the bureaucracy. SCA is due for a major overhaul in the rules department.

But when you get past that, it's a lot of fun.

Ammie-chan, regarding your musical ability, only one song comes to mind:

She plays the viooliiiiin,
She tucks it right under her chin,
And she bows,
Yes she bows,
For she knows
Oh, she knows
That it's hey, hey, hey-diddle-diddle
God bless the girl who can fiddle
My strings are unstrung
I am undone!


A slight adjustment from 1776,, the best musical ever written about the making of the Declaration of Independence!

Sorry, couldn't resist! ;-D

Sats-chan! Got your letter! Thanks so much, I needed a smile. Went to a couple of shops yesterday with my mom, down in Cable Car Square. There's a shop called the Yorkshire Rose that sells English imports, including tea things. I immediately thought of you! I did buy a mix for Lemon Poppyseed Scones, so we'll see how it turns out.

Dang, must dash. Taking Mom to a couple of parks today. Dad's going to stay in and watch TV as he's exausted still from the drive up here.

Am going through X withdrawal...when's the next segment due out anyway? Not that Kusanagi is likely to show up, but I can enjoy seeing the others for a brief time...

Friday, October 11, 2002 08:13 a.m.

Red Dragon and other stuff

Went and saw Red Dragon yesterday. I hit the early matinee while Bob was at work so he wouldn't have to go with me. I like psychological thrillers, Bob's not real keen on them! Dang, what an excellent movie! Not as good as Silence of the Lambs, but that has more to do with the story than the quality of the actors, script or direction. (Silence was a better book imho than Red Dragon).

Anyway, it was really well acted, with extra snaps to Ralph Fiennes as the troubled Francis Dolarhyde. Edward Norton does well with Graham, but Graham is a cypher and difficult to like. Anyone else would have butchered the character. Emily Watson is fantastic as Dolarhyde's blind love interest, a feisty woman who doesn't want anyone's pity. And of course, Anthony Hopkins continues to scare the bejebbers out of everyone with his portrayal of Hannibal Lector. The script was very faithful to the book, and the direction was excellent...especially when I jumped in my seat! And that's knowing the story going in!

Saw the strangest music video the other day. There's this show called Revolution that is on the International Channel. It's mainly Asian music videos, hosted by this rather ditzy gal who looks to be wandering around Canada or something. I don't usually watch the show, but I was finishing up the scroll was I working on and needed something on. Anyway, there was this video, in one of the Chinese languages (I can't tell them apart, only that they are Chinese as opposed to Korean or Vietnamese or Japanese). Anyway, it starts off with this wedding and a guy looking rather uncomfortable at the alter, then there's this gal who's out on the street looking unhappy, and she just starts running. And I'm thinking "Jeez, how cliched!"

But wait! There's more!

So this gal is running, and she passes some doofy-looking guy doing boxing exercises, then steals his shoes! At this point, the video caught my interest. Anyway, more running, some guy at a fish place starts running also, more smaltzy music, then the groom at the wedding chokes during the vows and turns and runs out of the church. More running. Little dot lines crossing a map of China. Finally, the running gal and the groom spot each other and run towards each other and...

Wait for it...

The gal runs past the groom and behind her, the fish guy approaches. He and the groom hug each other and share a kiss in the setting sun while the running gal just keeps running.

Brilliant! Why can't we get videos like that in America?! Too bad the music was mediocre...

Finished the scroll. Gave it to a friend to deliver, hopefully on time. It turned out okay, although I messed up by adding a tree in the background. It needed something, but I can't draw cherry trees (at least Japanese styled ones) worth a hoot. It looks like a flowering oak. The warrior figure (based off an 18th century benizuri-e) came out pretty well. The hiragana looks like a kid wrote it, no "style" to it whatsoever, but I'm used to working with a pen, not a brush. However, I don't think the kid getting the scroll will care. It was an experiment, some parts of which worked and others not. That's the joys of doing AOAs (Award of Arms)--they don't have to be perfect. People are just thrilled to be getting a scroll. Anyway, Bob scanned it, so I just need to adjust the image and post it, which I'll do later this weekend. Please, Sats-chan, don't laugh too much! I'm not very good at painting! Oh, and I'll get this image readjusted so it doesn't blur as much. I'm doing web-stuff this weekend, so it shouldn't be a problem!

Saturday, October 5, 2002 06:18 a.m.

Inspiration or Procrastination?

So, did a new layout, this time using a lovely pic that Satsuki-chan did for me. (Used with permission, of course!). I feel all artistic lately. Actually wrote a bit this morning, too!

I think this is due to the fact that I volunteered to do another Award of Arms scroll for Northshield. (Despite the fact that I actually live in Calontir. Go figure.) This one is a Japanese design. I've transcribed the English text into hiragana--I'm now working on the actual calligraphy. I promised to have it done by Saturday, so of course I'm working on web-stuff instead. @@

Anyway, I'd better get back to it. More later, when I feel like goofing off again...hahaha!

Tuesday, October 1, 2002 07:25 p.m.