B l a c k F e a t h e r s , v 4 .1
Picturelesque

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February 28th, 2006 (Thursday) 03:19 a.m.
Feeling : Busy

I'm not going to attempt something so BAKA again. Watching an show on TV and snapping pictures of it at the same time while trying to catch the story is terrible. D:

PS: Once again, I experience the joys of a wonderful, unspoilt ending. Why can't more series end as nicely? : |

I am thirsty for MEAT.

Also, it's been more than 4 years since I started my online journal. The Archives feature goes back only 3, but I keep an offline backup copy of everything. :3 Wow. 4 years... I'd update more if I had more time these days... *goes back to work*

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February 24th, 2006 (Friday) 11:42 p.m.
Feeling : :D

I never thought a simple avatar of sorts could crack me up to the point I rotfl-ed. O_O Apparently a close pal knows what to do just for that.

And by some startling coincidence, I kept seeing Toyota Prado Land Cruisers when I went to town to settle some things. O_O 5, 6 in all? Quex-dono, this is getting scary!

It's Lil Sis's birthday today~ I've got something for ya, but I'll just pass it to you in person. As for Sassin-sis, o_o you'll have to wait for yours for a little while more. I don't want it to come back to this address (in case something goes wrong) when I'm no longer here.

今朝１０時に学校へ行って、 帰国日の種類や手続
をやった。 新宿にある旅行会社の予約は午後１時
だったんで、 とりあえずステーキハウスでランプステーキ
と小エビカクテルサラダ食った～ ♥

ちょっとブラブラしたら飛行機の切符を取りに、 病院に
向かい、 いつもの女性ホルモン剤 （デュファストとか何とか）
を買った。 又あの検査シンガポールでやらなきゃいけない
のは分かってるけど、 めちゃくちゃイヤだ。
最初の思わぬ結果、 ママ、 ジョイス、 サッシン達もうよく
知っているんだね。 ＊ため息＊
いいえ、痛みの問題じゃない。 プライドというか、品位かな？

Wow, this was a kickass picture: Let's All Go To DeviantART. I laughed so hard! XD Look at your favourite game/ movie/ anime/ TV series character react at seeing themselves on DeviantArt! XDXD The Kingdom Hearts one was the best, I swear. XDXD

When in doubt, sleep on it.
I knew it all this while! D:}

Just when will people learn not to talk on their cell phones while driving?

I don't know what's with the news lately: Either everyone is trying extra hard to piss off the Muslim world, or the latter's being too touche.

現実のツッコミは痛いほどつまらん。

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February 23rd, 2006 (Thursday) 11:35 p.m.
Feeling : —_—¿

Nothing much to say these days; far too busy. The good news is that I'm finally kicking myself into pace again though I'm still as lost as ever.

何か意気消沈状態から あまり治っていないままそうだ。
将来何をするべきか、 俺はさっぱり・・・
何をしたいかと聞かれても、 実践的な答えが出せない。

そうだ。課題の締切直後、 京都へ行くことをした。
もちろんジョイスと一緒。 四日間で、
自転車の借りで楽しむ 旅にしたいなーと思う。

あっ！ 最新のブリーチすごかったぞ～
ホロー一護は暴力的で格好ええや～

なぜ日記は日本語でって？
分からない。 多分、 大勢な人々にこんな
情けなさを見せたくないからだかなぁ。
「生きる」 の意味はちょっと忘れた。
現在つまらなく存在しているだけ。

最近、 宮本駿一の曲にはまった：

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「道標」 by 宮本駿一

Tomorrow never knows
だけど今迷いはないさ
晴れわたる 空に舞う
翼のように

さようなら･･･ ありがとう･･･
君がいたから
未来へと続く道
歩き出せる 必ず
My dreams come true
信じてる

Look into my eyes
悲しみの涙を越えて
優しさを見つけたよ
希望の丘に そして
Sun will shine
僕は僕になってゆく

めぐる時の中で
My wish come true
君に逢いにゆくから

･･･here there everywhere

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そして、暗い冬に落ちてゆく。

"Everything is a dangerous drug except reality, which is unendurable."
- Cyril [Vernon] Connolly (1903 - 1974)

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February 22nd, 2006 (Wednesday) 12:27 p.m.
Feeling : Busy

And WOW. Miyata Kouki-san can SING. O_O One of the very few male seiyuus who can manage to sing decently!!!

Been checking out some more anime songs with the help of a radio programme hosted by seiyuus (Sakurai is one of them). This was a pretty good song. Didn't pay attention to the lyrics at first, but I'm glad that most anime songs aren't singing about trying to get people in bed, trying to fall in love, lamanting about love, being spiteful about it, or shit like that. Prefer something much simplier, more fundamental, something not overdone and woed over already. -_-

「紅の静寂」- 歌：石田曜子

目を閉じて 感じる鼓動
もがいてる霧の中 自分の場所 探している
闇雲に今日もずっと

痛みのない世界なんてないよ
ただ触れたい 守りたいだけ
紅く染まる夕暮れを 見つめる

Just look how beautiful's the world
いつか見てた 夢は遠く まぶしすぎて
ちょっと恥ずかしいけど
偶然じゃないこの出会いで 違う自分見つけたから
新しい明日を迎えよう

何気ない 言葉ひとつ それが運命（さだめ）になる
胸にそっと秘めたものは それを信じる強さ

一番星 願いをそっと 祈る
炎のように紅く紅く 色づく空
すべて包む やさしく

Don't shut light out of your life
夜がきたら 闇の中に飲みこまれそう
だから 顔をあげて
流れてる雲 月明かりに見える
そしてその横顔 温もり感じて
朝が来る

夜明けの音が聞こえてくる 長い冬はもう終わった
紅く静かな 時間（とき）
偶然じゃないこの出会いで 強い絆 見つけたから
新しい明日を迎えよう

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February 20th, 2006 (Monday) 09:47 p.m.
Feeling : Hmmmm-ed

Just saw T-Rex: Warrior or Wimp. It's pretty dumbed down. Apparently people forget that any predator in a healthy disposition will not pass up an easy meal of meat, and scavenge if they get the chance. Likewise, a scavenger will kill to survive if desperate.

Oh yeah, YET ANOTHER thing on the Onsen trip... we got to hear Bayu-chan's take on his religion; Islam, and the big woo-haa across the world on it. I wish people were as sensible as him on the subject, and I'm not just referring to followers of one religion alone.

I'm grateful to be able to live the way I am now; fortunately without the horrors of war upon me. No starvation, no strife, no lack of shelter, no violent conflicts... Most of us are just so... spoilt, that we expect these things to be just... there. Sometimes I yearn for some of this suffering so I can learn to treasure what I have now, even more. Same goes for other people who whine all day long. Does that make me a terrible masochist? It's just like how I wonder what I'd do if I had 24 hours left to live.

"Our life is frittered away by detail. . . .Simplify, simplify, simplify."
- Henry David Thoreau (1817 - 1862)

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February 16th, 2006 (Thursday) 05:54 p.m.
Feeling : ^_^

BitterAsianMen.com is hilarious.
Biologically-speaking, all females naturally seek out the best genes to pass on to their offspring. I mean, come on. Put a meek-looking sickly male beside a strong-built healthy one and it's obvious which any sane female will choose. So logically, larger, stronger-framed white males would be far more appealing to smaller, less powerful Asians. It's a natural instinct. People will claim I'm being sexist and prejuduce, but in physical-terms, Westerner males are superior. They're like branded goods to any seeking female. If Asian men should hate anything for this, it should be effective bridging between continents that's resulted in free travel, so Asian females can go out and seek out the best that the world's got to offer, whatever it may be. In any case, if the site claims that Asian women are materialistic, then I must present the argument that males naturally find women with larger breasts attractive (Asian females being generally flat-chested in contrast to their Western counterparts).

I never knew the fear of clowns could be this extreme. o____O I don't fear em, but meh. They're fake, hence I do not like them. =_= The laughter and entertainment they try to generate with their planned gags are just overflowing with falsity. The notion that they entertain children is one of those things I'm mystified over: what the the world makes adults think that a man with a ghostly-white face, a blood-red painted deformed smile, boldly black-outlined eyes and an outrageous attitude in going up to people and suddenly doing rude things to them, can actually make a child laugh? I have never had the experience, but yes, I can imagine the terror in kids subjected to that sort of mental intimidation. Just make a clown do what he does to people, to any unsuspecting animal and you will see what sort of extreme reaction a clown's antics will cause. Adults are flippin' weird with their assumptions.

Teeth are lifesavers. *nod nod*

When Deja Vu Is More Than Just A Feeling
Yet another thing to add on for the onsen trip: Had 2 instances of deja vu. One at a certain flight of steps at the ryokan, and at the 露天風呂. I've seen those places in dreams several years ago. Don't know if others get it as much as me, but deja-vu comes like once a month commonly. While scientists can argue that it's a fault in the brain's memory functions, how does it explain me having reocurring dreams of a place, me describing it in detail to a couple of friends, then a few years later, going to a place that fits that description in a foreign country (though not having deja vu that instance), taking a photograph of it, bringing it back to show those friends, only to have them point out that it's the location the reoccuring dream was based in, then getting the shivers. Don't come telling me that's a coincidence; it's happened so many times, just that that was right about the only real place from a dream I described in detail to anyone else. These days, I just get that deja vu feeling, pause, get a shiver up my spine, then move on without telling anyone, since barely anyone would believe a word of this seemingly minor form of precognition.

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February 16th, 2006 (Thursday) 01:24 a.m.
Feeling : >_<

Feeling sickly. Or rather, extremely annoyed with my nose acting up for the first time in years. I suspect it's because the cold snap in the Western hemisphere has caused this side of the pacific ocean to suddenly heat up from a high of 7 degrees Celcius days, to 17 within just 48 hours. =_= Oh yeah, and humidity. LOTS of it. =_= Most normal people here would probably rejoice at the fact it's warmer (D:< It's HOT, goddamn!) and less dry, but heck, it changed too damn fast and my body isn't taking too it too well. It'll pass fast enough, but it's irritating. Can't concentrate on my work. D:< Whatever. I'm gonna go to bed. =_=

It's the birthday of someone dear to me. ^____^ *hugs*

Yet another interesting point of the onsen trip was that it seemed like we had this big gender reversal thing going on. The two guys were posing and snapping pictures of themselves while us two girls were either just watching, or the ones helping them take their pictures. ^O^ Well, I'll just say that the guys are vain and us girls are the kind who just don't give a damn.
バユちゃんの言葉で、
「お前は性別不明、 俺は両方。」

XD

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February 15th, 2006 (Wednesday) 03:18 p.m.
Feeling : o___O

Had a rather interesting dream:

俺と何とかの仲が良い連中 は今の現実や世界にいた。
で何だかの革命が起きられていて、 俺達は襲われたんだ、
軍人みたいな黒組織にな。 途中で俺達が吸血鬼で
ＩＲＣの友人バコちゃん （訳分かんないけど、なんであいつは
「今日からマ王」 の主人公渋谷ユーリの顔してたんだ？）
はリーダだと実感し、 何か良く分からない能力が使える
ようになって、 ここの学生会館から脱出成功！
っという変な夢を見ました。

っと言っても、バコちゃんの写真見た事あるけど、
ユーリに全然似てない！ なのになんで？

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February 14th, 2006 (Tuesday) 09:34 p.m.
Feeling : Confident

Happy Valentine's Day~ ♥

It doesn't mean a lot to me, but to those who think otherwise, well, have fun! Oh, and it's a cousin's 23rd birthday today~~~

Anyway, it's a good opportunity to think of how lucky I am to have people I wub. ♥ you guys~!

Oh yes, XD during the onsen trip, we saw a TV programme that featured: 変はチョコ(レート)

:P Which made Bayu-chan and I look at each other knowingly, and start to laugh. XD
マっ、 「今日からマ王」 の話だったから…

And O_O. I never knew Inoue Kazuhiko does voice directing. Just saw a little something on the making of Tactics. I'd say my love for cartoons is returning somewhat.

And really, reflecting back, I shouldn't be so nice to people who don't deserve it. Strangers? Fine, I'm good. Cross my path? No.

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February 14th, 2006 (Tuesday) 11:40 a.m.
Feeling : D:<

Hmm. Been checking out Tactics lately. It used to air too late at night for me to ever catch (I think), but Joyce was reading a bit of the manga if I recall correct. It's pretty much a shoujo manga, but I'm fascinated by the era it's based in. The early 1920s I think; when Japan opened up to the world and a wave of Western influence swept over the once closed country. Really interesting mix of opposite cultures. Anyway, another reason why I'm getting Tactics is because of the seiyuus. o_o; Miyata Kouki & Sakarai Takahiro. It's a big reverse from their roles in Kyo Kara Maou. o_o; So freakish and funny, but sexay nonetheless. May consider getting the drama CDs... heard one and it's funnier than the anime. Don't know why it's categorized under 'BL' in one instance though... o_O There's no such content to my knowledge (except for the manga. I don't read it) since everyone's pretty platonic...
っていうか 「ＢＬ」 にしても誰がウケか セメか非常に微妙だよ…

And GAH crap! Why the heck are my pants ripping all at once?! 3 pairs just went bye bye (mind you, I'm okay to an extent with hole at the knee area, but beyond a certain point... D:) then ANOTHER one that's been with me for more than 4 years, suddenly tears halfway from hem to hem.
D:< 何じゃこりゃ？！ いったい誰が呪ってしやがんだ！

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February 13th, 2006 (Monday) 08:50 a.m.
Feeling : Tired

Wow. That was some trip...

Set off at 9:45am with only an extra T-shirt and some powder, and exchanged plenty of Cmails and Emails with the other 3 before I arrived at Takao station. We had arranged to meet at the North exit, but I came out at the South. After 45 minutes of walking and searching, finally found the North exit, which was nice and quaint, but had no real facilities since we wanted to have lunch before setting off to the Onsen place. Picked up Otouto-chan from the North exit, sent notices to Joyce and Bayu-chan to meet at the South, then walked all the way back to join up. It was a 110-minute ride to Isawa-onsen station from there costing 1,280 yen. Not that I'm complaining though; we were traveling through valleys, mountain ranges, past rivers and hills... :o Such beauty right next to fugly Tokyo... The onsen area was far more urban than any of us expected, but no biggie. A van from the inn picked us up and drove about 5 minutes to it. Seems like we were given a suite of some sort (Western + Japanese styled room) , and Bayu-chan promptly jumped into a random bed going "Weee!", drawing strange stares from our guide and the rest of us. Walked around the facility for a bit before going into the hot springs~ <3 Apparently it was the first time for the 2 guys so they were asking all sorts of odd questions like, "Can we wrap ourselves in towels in there (onsens)?" and what not. o_O Mind you, they watch anime. Anyone who watches as much should jolly well know that if you want to experience the hot springs in Japan, you have to get stark naked. Anyway, left them to their devices over at the guy's side. ^_____^ Love onsens. Love onsens, love onsens, love onsens. It's mt 3rd onsen trip so far, and though I'm fairly certain I won't be going for any more before I leave, I know it won't be the last. Got out, talked some, went to buy snacks & dessert outside before dinner. Unlike the other ryokans Joyce and I have been to, this one had us dinning in a separate room (or rather, hall). There was a fairly large group in the hall next to us, and between us was a foldable wall-door sort of thing. They were noisy. Then they played games, noisily nonetheless. Then they began to play-wrestle, and then they all began to fight. Apparently it was a company-trip thing, where the pervertic old sick buggers 'rented' girls to entertain them while drinking. Tempers flared so it got rowdy. A few times we were expecting the wall to come crashing down on us. Drunkens. Bah. As usual, the ryokan served so much food we were pretty much rendered motionless. :D Oh, and we ordered horse sashimi. <3 Only Bayu-chan and I fancied it though... I will also never understand why ryokans serve rice last, but I won't complain since the dishes are much better. Who needs rice with the amount of stuff they shove at us? Anyway, it took the rowdy group almost a full hour to calm down and stop acting like autistic freaks. It was an interesting experience. I was hoping they would crash into our hall so we could beat them up for being such bloody idiots and ruining our dinner. Anyway, it was back to the onsen after that. ^___^ This time Joyce and I stayed for a full hour in the rotenburou (open-air onsen). :o Moonlit and cool to regulate body temperature... It was pretty easy to plonk to sleep after such a long soak. :D Love onsen. Next day I woke up one hour earlier than everyone else, lay in bed, walked around and stuff. Went for another soak before breakfast. Nice, full breakfast. <3 Checked out and walked around to some hologram exhibition (which some REALLLLLY cheesy 3-dimensional movie reel called "Sea Dragoon" was playing), then off to sample the wines of Yamanashi prefecture (the area we were in) for free. D:} I will never understand how peopel appreciate that stuff. UGH yuck. Bitter as heck -_-; I was telling the rest I wanted grapejuice, 10 minutes before we even got there, and well, grapejuice tasted the best of everything. :q Then we were off back to Tokyo. This time we were all mostly Zzzing on the train though. It was fun~ The company was hilarious, the onsen was heavenly, we were fed like kings, the scenery was nice (being in the shadow of mountains and looking at a lil bit of Mt. Fuji all the time... <3). Yeah, it was great. : ) I hope the Kyoto trip will be as fun.

Thing is though, I didn't have time to take any pictures. o_______o||| Not that there was much to take any of, that is... Also got a lil something for Sis and Lil Sis.

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February 10st, 2006 (Friday) 10:00 p.m.
Feeling : Hmmmmmmm....

=_=; Lately my system seems to insist on living 36 - 48 hour days. It sucks.

Anyway, going to be away on that Onsen trip with Bayu-chan, Otouto-chan and Joyce for the weekend. Hope I'll have time to take some pictures...

Haven't read Hagane no Renkinjutsushi (manga) for about 4 months (depression, sudden lack of interest in about everything), so I decided to do some catching up. O_O SW33T. Just SW33T. ^____^ I'm intriged, thrilled, and have a new favourite character! <3 Bad never looked THAT good. O_O

General observation I need to bring up as a discussion sometime soon: Why is it that Christianity and Islam (+ Jewism?) have been at war with each other, yet the Buddhism side's been so quiet? Food for thought. Rather filling food for thought.

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February 10th, 2006 (Friday) 01:41 a.m.
Feeling : :D

I love mountains. Such awe-inspiring gargantuans standing watch over their kingdom. It's almost as if they're the balcony of the Gods. No wonder people of long ago used to think of mountains as sacred~

Check out these bloody amazing panorama shots of some mountains. O_O *Wipes drool off keyboard*. Can't tell where they were taken, but I'm going to assume these are of the Swiss Alps. Mom! If you're reading, click on them and be amazed. ^^

Dents du Midi. Valais, Switzerland, Europe (46.1646°N, 6.9145°E).

I need to get me arse there sometime, somehow. I've got some equally beautiful landscapes in my mind while meditating or simply dreaming, but I can't exactly photograph them. XD

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February 9th, 2006 (Thursday) 08:42 a.m.
Feeling : やれやれ…

It is a sad, sad day. Tragic that such a tightly knit band pf people had to be torn apart by just one person. Very sad. And very annoying. *sigh*

Cartoon Protestors Direct Anger to U.S.

Hahaha. Great, just what the world needs after Bush's assault on an unsuspecting country. A chockful tanker of raw oil lavishly spilt over an already destructive forest fire. Yeah! More anger! Make innocent parties more angry at ya! Make em all yer enemies! Then BOOM! Drop a few atomic bombs on random places, here there everywhere and wait for the consequences, then get dubbed complete childish assholes by your descendents. Way to go! Bring on World War 3, 4, 5, 6,7, 1899876553, and what have you!

If only we had the technology to blast the extremists (Muslim, Christians, Texan, and whatever) to Mars and let them maul one another to the death. Then perhaps others will learn that taking such actions is utterly useless.

"In the long term we can hope that religion will change the nature
of man and reduce conflict. But history is not encouraging in this
respect. The bloodiest wars in history have been religious wars."
- Richard [Milhous] Nixon (1913 - 1994)

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February 8th, 2006 (Wednesday) 06:08 a.m.
Feeling : : \

I'm a idiot. XD I completely thought yesterday was Wednesday. Oh boy. XD

Hmm. Another item to my wishlist... Best animated film in my book because I have so much I can relate to it. Not to mention the background and character animation of one of the toughest animals to draw made my jaw slam to the ground.

When it comes down to the basics, I wonder just why the Christian / non-Islam community is NOT behaving the same way these people are now, at Holocaust cartoons, silly images of Jesus (like Raptor-Jesus stuff) and Hilter. I really wonder.

Well done, world. Well done. *Applauses* Well done at being good examples for future generations to watch and learn from your actions. Very well done. *nod nod*

*Retires to quiet corner with stick of potato*

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February 7th, 2006 (Tuesday) 01:58 a.m.
Feeling : Exasperated

So in accordance to the actions of the people pictured in this link, even I have the right to send death threats or even gun down anyone who insults what _I_ believe in. For example, Nature. Or Buddha. Or Krishna. Or a stick of potato.

What a revelation!

It's snowing like crazy out there now. :D Pity I can't take photographs at night. Point-n-shoot camera. Don't ask :

Upon silverfire's recommendation, I checked out Ergo Proxy. I'm not terribly impressed with the storyline because it looks like a sci-fi version of Blood+ with a kick-ass Saya. My first thought upon seeing the main character girl was, "Wooo... Sis?" Backgrounds and setting are nice and all, but I really don't fancy this genre. I'll watch a little more to see if it's any good. PS: I pity whoever translates it.

Look at this. This is art. This is talent. This is so frggin' amazing.

"In the long term we can hope that religion will change the
nature of man and reduce conflict. But history is not
encouraging in this respect. The bloodiest wars in history
have been religious wars."
- Richard [Milhous] Nixon (1913 - 1994)

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February 6th, 2006 (Monday) 08:37 a.m.
Feeling : Blahed

Forgot to mention the other day that I had gotten a 2nd-hand copy of Independence Day for 780 yen on the day I bought my iPod. :D Love the film~ <3 Now if only I could get the DVD of True Lies...

o_o; Is it just me or does Fate/stay Night begin to look like a super-grand and special verion of Pokemon? Shirou's constant, "Girls don't do this, girls shouldn't do that." pisses me off though. What are girls supposed to do then? Don on a freakin' apron and serve your every whim and want? Be an obedient servant, waiting to smile and take your clothes, dishing out dinner when you come home? *stabs*

My mother did the above. And what did she get from the man she served? Money-aside, nothing much. In fact I think he's been downright spoilt by her treatment to the point he expects to be bought food, made a drink or supper at the whim like say, at midnight. Still, I see him treat her like sh*t. It's been going on for so long, hell I don't even recall a time they were remotely romantic with each other. Their children have grown to resent their father's unresonable outbursts and insults whenever he's in a bad mood, and want to move out (or indeed, get him out) of the household. Since we can't do that, he gets his own room. So he can rot, wank, live and whatever on his own without any of us lesser inferior beings getting in his majesty's way. I've always had a lot of anger towards him, I'll bet my siblings do as well, because of his unreasonable course of actions and choice of words when he feels like it. Each of us have been insulted straight in the face with the most unbelievable things, but that is nothing compared to what my mother has had to live with. What the hell made her marry him? The household is always on its toes when he's around, and relaxed when he's away. I used to cry a lot whenever they argued, but now, whatever. Whatever. WHATEVER. Guess it was partly her fault for having such poor judgement in her younger days. I am determined not to make the same mistake.

自分の身を神に差し上げ、 時を戻し、
ママとパパの結婚を止められるならそうする。

Hence it should be clear now why I frown at the thought of 'settling down' proposed. I've yet to discover why I should need a mate in any case...

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February 4th, 2006 (Saturday) 04:21 a.m.
Feeling : Smug

With all the riots and displeasure at a mere ink drawing - cartoon - going on lately, I would just like to say this:

"If a small thing has the power to make you angry,
does that not indicate something about your size?"
- Sydney J. Harris

PS: I finally found out the problem (money over at Paypal). Namely, I'm an idiot at monetary issues. >_< Had to call up Paypal to sort out the problem, and for that someone bought me a calling card just because I'm BAKAAAAAA. Gomen (!

Anyway, just had a strange dream... I was two people, myself in this setting (Japan, my dormitory) and another person / entity far away in some alternate dimension. First bit, I was myself, and had been woken up by a something. I went out to common corridor's large window to take a look, and the sun (or what looked like the sun) appeared a lot larger and whiter than usual though it didn't feel any hotter. It was creepy; just hanging over silently. The other people in the dorm were still asleep. I had my camera with me for some odd reason, but there was nothing unusual going on until the sun suddenly emitted this widddddde pinlight-kind glare onto the patch of green near the dorm. Then it shrank to a thread-like ray and the vegetation burst into flames. o_o; I was shocked. The sun-like thing then moved over to another spot of green and destroyed it the same way. I wanted to grab some photographs of it in case anyone thought I was going nuts, but had no batteries. By the time I found some and took the photographs, the sun-like thing was too far away. The trail of destrction left behind was quite amazing; people was screaming and running out, the fires were spreading, and it was getting VERY hot... later I found out the sun-light thing had destroyed every green patch of life around and was heading towards to oceans. Already it had obliterated marine life in the lesser seas by boilin and evaporating the water in them. I was following in its wake because the thing never retraced its steps, wondering what would become of earth.

2nd part of the dream, I was awakened gently by something again and was in a dark, traditional, grand, Japanese room, with a LOT of blankets, cushions, and pillows around me. I had laid there awake for some time, not really wanting to get out. There was a LOT of commotion outside with people running back and forth (I could see their shadows). One man stopped at my door and wanted to open, but got chased away by another with a Russian accent (o_O). He opened the door slowly and greeted me (wonder how he knew I was awake). The guy was with an eyepiece, suit and a tophat (uhhh). I did not know him, and was rather intimidated by his pressence. In fact, throughout the first section of this dream, I felt much like a wild animal (namely, a deer) in the sense that any human contact was extremely terrifying. I bolted out through the door behind him and ran into some communal bath area to hide. On my way there, I saw thje surrounding area to be a large Japanese traditional mansion/ villa. Kinda like those of the Edo period. Anyway, Gavin, of all people had been in the bath around soaking. Wtf, why him? He didn't recognize me for me, since I had been someone completely different. In any case he had been surprised, but whatever. The Russian guy came in and tried to talk to me again, and I ran out once more. This time though, after I got past the door, I suddenly transformed into a large ethereal bird of swirling hues, and rocketed out of there at a rather insane speed, high into the azure sky. Finally I could see the world around me. And finally the story came together. o_o; There was the mansion I had just escaped from, situated at the far end of a large farming village (o_o; think ancient Japan) on some chain of terraced hills. The hills were actually the sides of an enormous crater-plateau thing with was filled by oddly glowing but otherwise crystal-clear water with taints of emerald. I knew that water was essential to the people and wildlife in the area, because I (or at least who I was) was the one who made/ maintained the life-giving water. It was quite a pretty sight, like a large gen set into the earth. I circled it for a while as the large bird, celebrating its brilliance, then turned to look beyond the area, only to see a barren, hot dry and terribly scarred wasteland, with the sun-like thing hovering over nearby. It did not dare approach the crater and the rich green hills and lands around it, nor did I dare to explore the strange alien. I returned to the village I'd run away from in the smaller, less-intimidating form of a human, greeted by worried villagers gathered there. Representitives from other villages around the crater-lake were there too. It appeared this place was the only area spared by the sun-like thing. The people knew that it hadn't descended upon them because it feared me. We didn't know where it came from, but it wouldn't go away until we destroyed too. I hadn't been sad or upset as I would be normally, just worried. After all the information gathering had been done, I resumed the form of the bird and went over the crater, facing the sun-thing. Don't really remember what I did or said, but it went away after some time and I sent rain on its way around the world to heal its injuries. Pretty much all I did before retreating back to the room to Zzz.

o_O Yeah, that was an intense dream. I had a lot of fun romping about in the sky at breakneck speed though!

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have low extroversion. You are quiet and reserved in most social situations. A low key, laid back lifestyle is important to you. You tend to bond slowly, over time, with one or two people. Conscientiousness: You have low conscientiousness. Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously. Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions. Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it's difficult for you to get important things done. Agreeableness: You have low agreeableness. Your self interest comes first, and others come later, if at all. In general, you feel that people are not to be trusted. And you're skeptical that anyone else really feels differently. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism. You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic. Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy. Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is medium. You are generally broad minded when it come to new things. But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it. You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

The Five Factor Personality Test

Well~ ^^;

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February 3rd, 2006 (Friday) 08:32 a.m.
Feeling : HUNGRY

Okay, I collasped under the relentless attack of Apple and got myself the iPod.

Before anyone screams at me for suddenly splurging 34,800 yen on an type of item I already have, I give them excuse/ reason/ justification that I've not gotten myself anything, nor received any for my birthday or Christmas in 3 (or was it 2?) years, so there. ^^ Plus the fact Singapore sells it at about 5,000 yen (about US$50) higher. : ) The Creative Zen Micro will probably go to my Lil Bro / Sis if they want it... otherwise I could always sell.

The system's very different from what I'm used to. o_O A little bothersome when you want things done your way, but I guess you can't have it all.

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February 2nd, 2006 (Thursday) 04:46 a.m.
Feeling : >_<

APPLE IS EVIL. Why must they make such deliciously pretty that I want to buy a 30gb Black Ipod so BADLY I'm acting like I'm having cold turkey. Even though I already have a 5gb Creative Zen Micro.

APPLE IS EVIL
APPLE IS EVIL
APPLE IS EVIL
APPLE IS EVIL
APPLE IS EVIL
APPLE IS EVIL
APPLE IS EVIL
APPLE IS EVIL
APPLE IS EVIL

No, it's nothing to do with my incapacity to resist.

*Scurries back to work*

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February 2nd, 2006 (Thursday) 12:15 a.m.
Feeling : Weirded

Had a queer little dream. Its details are now lost, but I do remember it being based around the nearest station to my place. Mom and Lil Sis were overon vacation or something (everyone seemed in a festive mood). We deciding on a place to dine for the night. I think we were choosing between a yakiniku / yakitori and a steakhouse. o_O The station area looked same yet different. I mean, it's a normal Japanese alley-styled row of stores, then suddenly there's this huge 6-storey hotel, brightly lit and looking like it's right out of a Western. There were a few stores that were somewhat inconspicuous, but don't exist in the real place. Kinda weird because there were so many things to see, yet the mental impression is still quite clear, almost 5 hours after waking up.

Took a nap and had another dream of two dwarf hamsters, fighting with a rabbit over who should own a rather nice little movable house that looked like it was made out of woode and plaster. o_O The dream ended with the dwarf hamster appearing to get the upper hand over the rabbit, then suddenly 2 different kinds of spiders, specializing in dwarf hamster and rabbit prey, suddenly lept up from behind some rocks, chased the rodents for a bit, sank their fangs into them, then lept back waiting for the venom to dissolve the internal organs. D:} The moment the spiders came in there was this narration-like commentary mentioning how the spiders used various methods to hunt their furry food. -_-; I think I'd better stop watching doumentaries for a while. Oh yes, I woke up because of an earthquake.

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February 1st, 2006 (Wednesday) 10:53 a.m.
Feeling : Tired

Hmm... So I've been thinking a lot in the last half an hour. Thoughts range from toasters, fansubs, the guys, rain and other forms of precipitation, proper English grammer, and punctuations-- I think I should stop with mental wandering.

Why can't English punctuation be as simple as the Asian languages'? I'm sure in this post alone, I would have violated several dozen punctuation rules. -_-; I was told by an English teacher - new staff member <3 - that I have American vocabulary. : I blame the internet for this influence. My vocabulary is an effed up mix of both American and British. I really need to go back to the basics again. I'm not going to suddenly be typing in perfect Queen's English in my blog (XD okay, that's silly), but I want to know how to manage my skills in it so if I happen to be in America or Britian, people won't bitch about me using a weird way of typing.

それを置いといて、 関西弁喋れるようになりてぇな～
大阪か奈良か京都か、 どれでもいいさ！
京和ちゃん！ 教えてくれぇぇぇ　XD
標準語ってなんかつまんない：
やはり方言の特徴が習いたいな～

Just saw the the Hellsing I OVA: DIGEST FOR FLEAKS (D: I believe they meant 'Freaks'). o_O I thought it was going to be a continuation of the original TV series, but hmm, I'm completely wrong. The OVA has been given a complete makeover. Character design is much closer to the manga's (which I don't really fancy), and much more bloody. The first episode went through a few scenes from the television series, but it didn't really have a story-flow to it. Felt like I was watching a mish-mash montage of clips. Maybe it's to just get people who've watched the television series introduced to Hellsing all over again, because anyone who knows nothing of it / the manga would be completely lost. On a happier note, I hope they show Victoria kicking ass as she did in the manga...

Okay. Seem to have gotten my sleeping patterns back on track. -_- Hope it stays that way. And eh, on the 29th (Sunday), I was supposed to go to school for the animation screening, but completely forgot about it till I woke up. I was completely wasted on Saturday night, and had slept right till Sunday afternoon, so even if I recalled the school event, I don't think I would have been able to summon the willpower or energy to clamber out from bed. Ah well. Sleep is good.

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