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Name Sycia. Likes drawing, food, lurking, celtic music, adventure, animals, red meat, snow, sushi, sleep, natural sciences, geology, photography & punctuality. Dislikes humans & unreliability.. Disregards religion & modern medicine. Loves Nature. Adores mother. Admires Charles Darwin, David Attenborough & Albert Einstein. Thinks random.

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(1st April, 2005) Black Feathers v4.1. Still mostly imageless. Only a change in colors and font from v4.0. Why pink? Because even though I love red, it's too blinding. Do not steal or Thanksgiving turkeys will be fed your fried genitals.


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My journal. M I N E. I write what I want. Don't like it? Begone. (...full)


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B l a c k F e a t h e r s , v 4 .1
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April 27th, 2006 (Thursday) 01:24 a.m.
Feeling : Queered

I think I finally reached a compromise with my father. I finish only one part of the work he gave to me (a sort of corperate manual) and after that I will no longer do it, and concentrate on redoing my portfolio, and finding a job.

I was so depressed the other day, I nearly pulled out of fansubbing altogether, but going back and being with the gang was so good. Although the new translator who took my place had questionable skills and had me doing 3-hour TCs for 2 episodes... ><; Not to mention we're so far behind and I have to check karaokes... o_o; Ganbarimashou.

Also, the Blood+ Original Soundtrack is out. It's a top-notch soundtrack that has a standard equal to Hollywood productions. D:< BEAT THAT! :D It's so good I actually cried. T^T Then again, I don't expect anything less from Mark Macina and Hans Zimmer (I still wonder what 2 FANTASTIC movie music score composer and producer are doing in a Japanese animated series). The score reminds me of a grand mix of the LotR, PotC and Mummy music for some odd reason, but it doesn't sound like any. Definitely doesn't feel like an 'anime' soundtrack. Then again, I haven't found a reason why Blood+ can't be made into a live-action film... Flipping' hell, grandest anime soundtrack I've ever come across. GO GET IT. I cannot wait for the next one already!

Also, the new opening and ending of Blood+ rocks serious ass. I love how the ending's lyrics are so aproppriate for the series. It was such a pleasure transliterating and translating both songs. : ) Way to go Uverworld, Angela Aki.

PS: Shiruba-san, I wub you. >_<

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April 24th, 2006 (Monday) 09:22 p.m.
Feeling : D:<

Another thing pissing me off. While I bloody hell understand that self-preservation is top priority in any specie, the fact that humans go about making a fucking hoohaa about animals preying on them is plain STUPID.

Homo spaiens are not APEX PREDATORS. In other words, they NEVER were on the top of the food chain. They are omnivours that were preyed on for thousands and thousands of years by top predators like big cats. GET IT? You all are not fuckin' invincible, and hell, you ain't any godly exception to Nature's rule of kill and be killed. It's NATURAL for tigers, crocs, bears, lions, hyenas, etc to prey on you. Tell me, what is to stop them from taking down a simple upright-walking primemate with NO NATURAL defenses? Can you really discriminate them for being smart? Can you? WOULD YOU? That's just LIFE so SHUT the fuck up about man-eating beasts, and GET OVER IT. They are commiting no crime. If you stray into their territory, expect it. If they stray onto yours, get out of the damn way if you can't defend yourself. If someone gets killed, it just happened. Whatever. That person was no match for a force more powerful than himself. That's how the natural world works. -_- Even with all tools and technology, we're just another animal in the continuous cycle of life and death.

Stupid people think they should be left alone by predators just because they're humans. Talk about narcissism at its max.

And another thing. Anything people can't control, they seek to. Like water, aging, death. I don't know why it does, but this disgusts me to the extreme. Have humans become so caught up with controlling their surroundings that they forget their place in nature? Yeah. Thankfully, they get gentle reminders from time to time that they are NOTHING against nature.

I wish an entire generation had to be kicked out into the wild to survive on their own (yes, myself included); let the wimpy spoilt weak ones die off and leave the stronger ones with the lesson that they are NOT invincible. Where is the respect for nature that evolved along with the ancient civilizations? Why are the traditions of treating animals as equals dying with the Inuit, the Native Americans, the ancient tribes of the Africas? Why? Do people see these traditions as all but 'savage'?

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April 24th, 2006 (Monday) 09:00 p.m.
Feeling : Blahed

Not much going on of late. Or rather, nothing of enough significance to mention. Went to watch Mirror Mask just now without a clue what it was about. Erm... it was... like Neverending Story. With a LOT of arty-fartsy effects. I enjoyed the " I DON'T WANNA BE A WAITER." bit though.

Had a darn heavy lunch after that at 3.

キー次に、 アラビア語習いたい!

On the other hand, subbing (or rather, being around the sub-guys) lifts my spirits a little. I was so depressed a few days ago, I nearly sent SK an email, saying I wanted to quit, but it seems this is helping a little in 2 ways; keeping my Japanese keen, and keeping me happy around the gang.

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April 22nd, 2006 (Saturday) 02:25 p.m.
Feeling : Infuriated

You Are Midnight
You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits.
Whether you're a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle.
Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it.
You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.

What Time Of Day Are You?



Mostly correct.

Jedi Elections Special Podcast.
XD Cripes, WTF. Star Wars parody of a particular talk with Minister Mentor.

Don't know if today is Earth Day, but I got annoyed nonetheless by another National Geographic documentary. Point. Humans are obviously not smart enough to see into the depth of their own actions: They cull populations of animals that get 'out of 'hand' and 'destroy the environment', yet they fail to see which is the single specie responsible for forever decimating pristine forest, hunting whole species to utter extinction, claiming land that is no one's as their own and converting everything to concrete, polluting until unique ecosystems die off. Tell me people, which is this phenomenal race? TELL ME. I BET YOU WOULD NEVER GUESS!

Yet what form of action is being taken to control the population of this disease? Nothing. Zilch. Except maybe for somewhere in the East with the One-Child policy (which incidentally isn't really working ANYWAY). 6 freakin' billion of the species ain't enough already? Strangling the little pockets of Nature, driving flora and fauna to non-existence, making the air itself filthier, all this ain't ENOUGH, is it? The Earth itself has to die beneath this race's rule before anyone will actually snap out of their denial, or let them die off (good ridance to bad rubbish, but the rest of all existing species have to go too).

Another thing. In the CM of "China's Mega Dam", there was the tagline "the dragon (Yangtze river) is raging across China". Oh, they want to build a mega dam across the world's 3rd mightiest river because they claim the river is being destructive. My fucking FOOT. I'd say, "China is raging across the dragon". Stupid people don't want to accept the fact that rivers have ebbs and flows. Flooding is a bloody NATURAL cycle you IDIOTIC DOPES. It's what makes your bloody fields FERTILE. Smart up and move out of the area during the flooding season like what the ancient cultures used to practice, then come back to richer fields, stop being such stubborn ASSES. Block up a river? Sure! Screw up the river system! Stop animals from migrating! Stop the flow of aluvium to the fields and watch your lands get sucked DRY. I swear it. The dam will not last against the fury of nature when she lashes out, and you WILL be sorry.

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April 20th, 2006 (Thursday) 04:39 p.m.
Feeling : Resigned

Not exactly had much to say of late, because I've been just that dotted. This is not healthy. I wish I could take that leap of faith as easily as some people. Then again, nothing's ever easy when the one you love so dear feels like he/she's just there to use you. Confidence shattered? Oh yeah. Trust betrayed? You bet. Willpower? Strung and hung.

Sorry to the readers. I myself HATE being so goddamn whiney, but since I have no where else to rant, this will have to do. Excuse yourself from this blog if you can't take it, because it looks like I'll be at it for a while.

完璧に利用されています!

どうですか、父上母上?
嬉しいですか?
このクソ娘の名前か銀行口座か何とか何と
かがこんなに便利となるって。嬉しいですか?
当然知ってたんですね、というより計画でも立てましたね!

すごいです。
スゴーイです!

クソ娘が断れないともご存知ですよね~
マァ素晴らしい計画でございますよ!

Also. I've been twitching a good lot whenever people ask me, "So, are you back for good?". Leave me alone. Just go away please. No, I am not back for good. I don't have any clue what the hell the future will hold, but I do not like this place and will probably be leaving it in the future. Thank you.

PS: What's with the Windows Live Mail Beta? Darn thing's been bugging me to try it out for about a week, but I mean... the classic Hotmail isn't bad... Not to mention the new stuff isn't FireFox compatible...

A little furball who helps me cope with my stress:



What a beauty. She was adopted as a wobbly blind kitten that nearly got run over.

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April 20th, 2006 (Thursday) 05:37 a.m.
Feeling : D:<

I realize why I was so content in Japan. I was away from all family problems (they seem to be in great amount, increasing day by day). I don't know about the Western side, but the folks over here seem to think they've got the right to use their legal child's name/ I.C/ account/ etc for anything they see fit just because they raised us god-damned vermin. They do not ASK if it's alright to use my name and such for blahblah, they just TELL me to SIGN some flippin' document. Nice. If I told them I get annoyed with getting used this way, they go wailing and telling other people what an ungrateful vermin of vermin I am. And I'm sure the rest of the Asian population would agree. Well. That's just peachy.

Another angry entry. Wow. I've not exactly had a happy one ever since I got back.

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April 18th, 2006 (Tuesday) 04:21 p.m.
Feeling : Relaxed

I should probably fill people up on what's been going on...

Basically, I've returned to the place I was born. The first 2 weeks I was without my computer, so busied myself with developing ideas and characters for a personal project, at the same time dragged around by my father to entertain some rather unrealistic propositions. Hence my extremely angry posts of late.

The Ipod has saved me from brain-degrading levels of boredom too.

Our (Joyce and my) stuff finally arrived and my Lil Bro helped moved the boxes. Handed him my Creative Zen, and tested my computer to see if it was still working. =_= It went up in smoke. That's all I'll say about it for now. I flipped, and got slightly depressed for about 2 days until my uncle came over to take a look-see (I wasn't expecting him to come though... had to wait till the weekend for my dad to be free, since I can't drive yet), but he did anyway, which Sycia is eternally grateful for. He even bought the replacement parts. T^T Came over the next day to fix it. Now, it works just fine. T^T Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU! Also a big thank you to everyone who heard me out during that short little blue period. I was all ready to go out and get an apple laptop if this computer was doomed.

Time to get down to business though... still have my father's stuff to do, and reorganize my portfolio, not to mention do an English resume of sorts.

クェクス殿に言った通り、 今いる場所では確かに困りがあり、
辛い時もたっぷり。 だけど嬉しい事もたくさん。 家族の暖か
さが本当に久しぶりで、 ちょっとちょっとうきうきっス。 皆は私
が必要だと同時に、 俺の皆が必要だ。 でも、 自分の人生
がどうにするを決めるにが俺。 いかにも、 時々母ちゃんが俺
の金釣る能力だけ欲しい と思っちゃうけどなんだか思いたく
はないなぁ・・・ それが事実だと確実に知る時、 クェクス殿の
提案により動く、 かな?

時々、もうちょっとアメリカ人の大胆さが欲しくなったんだ・・・
アジア人の俺は家族と居たい気持ちがどうしても離れないの。


In other news, I'm really interested in taking up Arabic now. It's got some pretty fantasic calligraphy. I also think it's necessary to learn more about a religion with so much controversy going about now before making any stupid judgements. I'll probably do a lot better at it than Chinese since it's got an alphabetical system.

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April 16th, 2006 (Sunday) 04:31 p.m.
Feeling : Fuckin' annoyed

I can understand why my mother hates my old man's guts. I've always said that my father treated her as a lesser being than us, and just a few minutes ago, he gave me that sort of verbal abuse. I do not get why should this annoying old fart flare up at me for not being able to find a fucking number he never even jotted it down in the first bloody place. It should be no coincidence that a violent thunderstorm started, shortly after I left his room angered. Senile fucktard.

Women should never be dependent on men. Look at my dear mother. Hates his guts, but has no money, so can't support the family if she left him. Stupid. The whole bloody act of putting all your eggs in a single basket (relying on a singe breadwinner) is stupid. Stupid women. Stupid men. Stupid. Love and marriage? 2 separate things altogether.

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April 9th, 2006 (Sunday) 06:07 p.m.
Feeling : D:<<<

At the moment, what I want to do badly is GET A FUCKING JOB SO I DON'T HAVE TO ENTERTAIN SOMEONE'S RIDICULOUS REQUESTS. I'm being driven up the wall.

I wouldn't be as pissed if some people made it seem like making a few kiddy characters into a cartoon was child's play. Hire 10-year old kids to do animation work?! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Hahahahahahahahahahahaha

Fuck you. Fuck you all. kthxbai

In other, less angry news, I decided to redo the room my sister and mom are sharing. Bought them a double-decker bed and a large computer table so my sis has a place to study after giving up her own room to me. Knew I should've gone elsewhere. But whatever. Whatever. Whatever.

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April 9th, 2006 (Sunday) 12:54 a.m.
Feeling : Resigned

Feeling... trapped, under constant pressure, with no possible escape.

Someone SHOOT me.

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April 6th, 2006 (Thursday) 12:00 a.m.
Feeling : D:<

Woo, finally got my other ear pierced. The promise has been fulfilled~

Got that annoying meeting with Dad's company staff later. Feh.

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April 4th, 2006 (Tuesday) 03:20 p.m.
Feeling : Resigned

Same old family problems emerging once again. No, it's never really been the money to me, contrary to what my mother thinks. Rather, the lack of mutual repect between the parents. I find myself increasingly intolerant of these ugly issues, wishing I was in my own apartment. This, of course, fails to please people's idea of asthetic 'morals' and such should be conveniently dismissed and forgotten 2 seconds from now.

The house is mostly peaceful, with a nice warm atmosphere most of the time--that is, most of the time when my old man is away. When he is around, There's this sort of... electricity in the air. It's this little mysterious thing that lashes out a jolt at one when you make even the slightest blunder, or something that fails to please his Majesty--old man--and follows with multiple jabs and stabs of relentless insults, badly-toned commands or simply this murderous stare that I've inherited. Of course, the worst of this treatment gets showered down on dear old Mom, whom he treats as a lesser fellow organism--even less than us kids since we are his biological products. Somehow the concept of 'different' does not exist to His Majesty. Everything foreign equals inferior to His Majesty.

Recently he asked me to help redesign some intrustion manual of his products. Do I have a choice? No. No. No. As much as I _hate_ to work with someone with zero patience and zero tolerance, I have to: because I am currently without a job (portfolio's with everything else, in transit) and because I am supposed to since I am his biological product. I DREAD working with His Majesty.

There has to be some way of isolating my mother and father from each other. Divorce is imminent and in fact, anticipated. Though that can only happen once the family grows independent enough to stop living off the man since that's the only reason we tolerate his forboding pressence.

I should really go get a farm in New Zealand. Then the only thing people would hear from me ranting is the sheep pooing at the wrong corner or the dogs bickering.

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