B l a c k F e a t h e r s , v 4 .1
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October 31st, 2005 (Monday) 11:06 p.m.
Feeling : Sleepy

Wow. WOW. Amazing how the internet archives your past. I searched up my own nickname in AlltheWeb.com and came across many posts I've made so many places in the past ever since I assumed this alias. Here's one exmaple:

Posted 7th January, 2002 (Monday) - Original post. A certain 'sound' coming from some electronic stuff. I apologize if this has been asked or mentioned before. All my life, I've been able to hear a sort of high-pitched 'screeching' sound from most large electronic things like televisions (a lot of people claim to hear it from TVs too) or computers. But what I found out is, those devices placed at the entrances / exits of ordinary stores to detect if you've taken anything of theirs out without paying also gives off the same kind of 'screeching' sound as televisions do. Not exactly the same though. I've not been able to find any other person around my area who can hear the sound coming from those detection devices (I have always thought everyone could hear it). The sound is not 'loud' like some bad pop song, more of high, slight, sharp and rather annoying. My question is: Is that sound real? Or is it my mind playing tricks on me. And if the sound is real, what causes it and why don't most people hear it? -------------------------- Reply by Dr. Charles I. Berlin This is NOT your imagination at all. It is your excellent ultra-high frequency hearing. You don't tell us your age or gender but it is likely you are young (under 45) and/or female with very normal middle and inner ears. TV sets and alarm systems in Department Stores produce an ultra-audiometric sound at around 12-17 kHz. In the TV set it is called Raster Noise and represents the flying electron moving back and forth across the screen 15000 or more times per second. In the alarms it is an ultrasonic generator which is used to control shoplifting, etc. Some years ago our laboratory discovered that there are actually some people who appear to be deaf in the normal hearing ranges who can hear the ultra-high frequency sounds that you do. If it bothers you, just wear ear plugs and the sound will be blocked out...or put your fingers in your ear. Once you get past 50 you should no longer be bothered by it.

HAH! So this is why I am so hard of hearing when conversing with humans! This does not explain the sudden blast of high-frequency sounds (Ultrasound; frequencies above the human hearing range) that just come and go out of the blue. Bats' sonar drives me nuts. Doesn't cover that fact I can hear infrasound (low-frequency sounds below normal human hearing range) of earthquakes too.

Just talked to family last night. :3 A much more cheerful chat than what I've been having for weeks. Apparently my old man, being bad tempered as he is, got frustrated with his laptop once and smashed the screen. How smart. Lil Bro is now addicted to Bleach too. Which is weird because he's not the kind into anime much.

"Men come and go, cities rise and fall, whole civilizations appear and
disappear- the earth remains, slightly modified. The earth remains,
and the heartbreaking beauty where there are no hearts to break."
- Edward Abbey

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October 30th, 2005 (Sunday) 08:36 p.m.
Feeling : Weirded by self

I just saw Batman Begins. *Goes flip over twice*

Now, THAT was a GOOD movie. O_O The mini-temple city overlooking glacial terrain was one SW33T, SW33T concept (ignore Sycia, she's got a thing for dynamic geographic terrains that match the power, strength and majesty of glaciers). Black is cool, bats are cute (except for vampire bats o_O those are a tad weird), the tank is something I want, the cast was simply excellent... It did feel weird that Neeson played the supposed villain here, but I find it hard to consider him 'bad'. After all he was trying to do the right thing. Charming man. Then again Sycia finds older actors much more charming than anyone within 15 years her senior. Main actor guy (pardon me I'm not bothered to look his name up now), though pretty ordinary-looking, displayed such a wonderful performance. Weakness, strength, power, it reflected on every bit of him. It's not just the face, but the intricate body language. Of course the screenplay and unique character development was so profound, yet believable... >_< This definitely makes it to my top movies list.

Makes me wonder if the reason behind prequels; success is that they have a last starting point to leave your story at.

Sycia loves Photobucket intensely. Been a faithful user since 2004, May.

Someone asked me what my sexual orientation is and I took a while to answer. Even when I did my voice was sprinkled with some self-doubt. Consciously and most of the time, I like to consider myself nonsexual, or just mildly straight. But I can pretty much put myself into people's shoes (or mindset) so well, that I could probably turn lesbian pretty quick if I wanted (I have tried, believe me o_O). *Watches people scatter in fear* Of course, I can also put myself completely in the mindset of a guy (complete with the ... undesirable effects) just as easy. Which is pretty odd when I think about it now properly. Uh... I don't suppose anyone else gets this? No, I'm not being bisexual (screw you, read carefully). Though then again I could probably achieve that too if I put my mind to it (um, not keen).

... maybe I really did come from a crashing meteor... *looks at everyone putting a 10-meter distance between her and them* Umm... it's a good thing I don't even seek a partner? lol

"The more things a man is ashamed of, the more respectable he is."
- George Bernard Shaw

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October 29th, 2005 (Saturday) 07:41 p.m.
Feeling : Blue

Forgot to mention yesterday that Miyo said Iijama-sensei actually DRAWS out the storyboard to Yakitate Japan! in storyboard class as the students go about doing their own work. Apparently he looks at the manga while drawing it out and complains that the way the mange presents ideas can't be done in anime.

Mid-check for our major projects was held today. Well... I heard a lot of surprised sounds when my horse-animation run-cycles played. Good or bad, who can say? A girl fainted (stress? tension?) and the entire bunch of teachers proved their mindlessness when they crowded all around her looking until the paramedics came. HELLO? You do not gather around a faint person, starving them of air. God people are stupid.

Okuyama-sensei came over to speak to me during the break, she seemed impressed and gave some very touching encouragement; of everyone she's the only person who's telling me to work on my animals so I can be different.

Blood+ 4, Hagi finally gets some new lines, and Saya finally gets a backbone for a wee-while.

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October 29th, 2005 (Saturday) 02:34 a.m.
Feeling : Listless

The below results are mostly very very accurate at this present point in time. -_-

Colorgenics

You appreciate the better things of life and you don't particularly want to strive in order to achieve them. What a pity you were not born into the Gentry with servants, etc. Unfortunately - life is not like that. You have the ability to be whatever it is that you would like to be but you must make the effort.

You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.

You need a friend - a close friend - and you are willing to become emotionally involved with the right person, but you are very demanding and particular in your choice of partners. You are constantly looking for reassurance and it is perhaps because of this that you tend to be somewhat argumentative, but you try to hold back - careful to avoid open conflict - since this might reduce your prospects of realizing your hopes of establishing a warm caring relationship.

It would seem that an existing situation or relationship is unsatisfactory and you feel that there is little that you can do about it without 'some help from your friends', but you have no desire to show the world how vulnerable you really are and therefore you consider it inadvisable to display affection or be over demonstrative. You regard this particular relationship as a depressing tie and although you would like to be independent and unhampered, you don't want to run the risk of losing anything. All this leads you to react 'touchily' and with impatience, while the urge to 'get away from it all' results in considerable restlessness and stress. Your ability to concentrate may suffer.

You need to be needed and would like a situation where you will no longer be subjected to pressures and demands from those about you. There is no harm in 'dreaming' but it is you - and only you - that can be able to realize those dreams and to turn them into reality."

Indeed I do want to 'get away from it all'. The feeling has been mounting ever since that serene dream and it's basically turned into the kind of situation where, "We're all gonna die anyway, so why bother?"-train of thought keeps surfacing every 8 or 9 times a day. Rather than some help from friends, I would rather be whisked away, very far away from everyone. I swear I'm not suicidal (not consciously, at least), but it feels dreadful to be tied down to even the most minute thing like a light assignment now.

And why are the results so contradictory... -_-; Confusing.

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October 28th, 2005 (Friday) 08:30 p.m.
Feeling : Amused

If given only a day left to live, the average person wouldn't care for work and all since it wouldn't matter anyway. Now what if you have that feeling all the time? - -; 'cause Sycia does. It's getting considerably challenging to keep to deadlines when you really don't give a damn though you know you should.

Was doing some background painting this morning but I didn't get very far. Why? -_-;;; The paper I got was of shitty quality and began to disintegrate as I tried to work my cloud-rendering techniques. Lucky I'd only done a little so not much lost. Going to redo the stuff with my usual paper (got 50 pieces from Lemon artshop this afternoon).

Talked an awful lot to Miyo-san. I notice she started calling me with a '-chan' today. I don't mind; she's a rare one among Japanese. Got whacky cute ideas. And someone tell me why Yumiko-chan likes Mayuri (Bleach) o_O Also let her listen to the FF: AC OST to which she slipped into pure ecstacy. I'm surprised at how open the girls are on BL. o_O Then again they must be wondering why I'm so weirded out by it.

The UN secretary general voices "dismay" over the Iranian leader's call for Israel to be "wiped off the map".
^ Guess it was only a matter of time before other countries followed America's lead. Let us usher in the era of warlords.

Sleep beyond 6h is against the fansubber code...
- zerG

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October 27th, 2005 (Thursday) 08:33 p.m.
Feeling : Resigned

School was fine, animation 2 class with Shikibu-sensei had me staring down at the storyboard for Blood+ #16, titled Siberia(n) Express. She had brought it to school to go over and kill some time since most of the time she's just sitting around doing nothing. Of course, I couldn't have asked her to flip it open. I'm just a somewhat surprised she didn't stuff it away in her bag when I came up to ask stuff. I only politely inquired about the series after she kept the storyboard.

After that went to get my stuff together on VHS tape. o_O It feels so odd to be handling one after about 8 years of never owning any more. Okay, it isn't me rusty at Avid, the school's interface is seriously f**ked up. Let's just say I couldn't do anything but create empty sequences. -_- Without any other choice, I opted for Premiere. Takura-sensei was having class and I kinda barged in, not realizing it was a lesson (whoops). He tolerated me though, like yesterday. I guess he doesn't mind individuals (group-people talk too damned much). Also found the way to seperate a cell into 2 in PaintMan.

Hahaha, this is one amusing toilet. Watch where you place your weight.

"Listen, three eyes, don't you try to outweird me. I get
stranger things than you free with my breakfast cereal."
- Zaphod Beeblebrox

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October 26th, 2005 (Wednesday) 09:47 p.m.
Feeling : Drowsy

Uh, why does Blood+ have 3 official mangas from separate artists? I was downloading them to check out the differences, and found that uh... they are really different. -_-; One I could tell was yaoi the moment I saw the art style (it's a pity, some of the stuff was actually well-drawn), storyline and characters quite different from the anime ('cept for the apparent uke, Hagi =_=;). Another's style plain SUCKED so I hadn't bothered with the storyline (Hagi was in there though). The only bearable one for me doesn't have such great drawings (sheesh, the charactersare giraffes), but its storyline is the one closest to the anime, though still very different.

Went to school early this morning to get whatever cuts were done, scanned. Got my more detailed layouts and keyframes onto a DV tape and all, and fiddled a little with Avid (haha, Satou-sensei managed to change it to English). The problem is I've been away from the interface for more than 3 years, and don't remember a bloody thing on how to insert stuff into a sequence. -_-; This is pathetic. And to think 4 years ago I was one of the best persons in the class at handling the software. I might have to stay back at school now to try figuring it out. Helps that the manuals are all in English :D

Reached background class JUST in time (DV/VHS recorder was being idiotic, delaying me 15 minutes) and managed to render out an image board (background) of my major project's setting after a pathetic FAILED 1st-time try. T_T Thank you Sensei (Damn, I can't remember, his name), for the great advice. Showed it to Ishiwata-sensei and she said I've gotten good. -_-' Œy‚­Œ¾‚í‚È‚¢‚ʼnº‚³‚¢. You can see them at my LJ.

I can feel my body affected by dehydration. Yet I'm not thirsty. -_-; I have to remind myself to drink water, or get annoyed at the strange texture of my palms, lips and dryness of eyes before I take the initiative to consume fluids. o_O Going camel. Maybe I should try soaking myself to see if osmosis is a more effective way of hydrating.

Also, lately I've been hearing random exclaimations as I walk around, abut me wearing short sleeves. I don't get the logic of the people here. Schoolgirls can wear miniskirts with NOTHING protecting their legs from the cold ('cept socks) as a norm, and they question my sanity?

"He who fights with monsters might take care lest he thereby
become a monster. And if you gaze for long into an abyss,
the abyss gazes also into you."
- Friedrich Nietzsche

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October 24th, 2005 (Monday) 09:35 p.m.
Feeling : Dreamy

Eh, slept at 5:30am and woke an hour later, all ready to go to school (my things were all nicely packed and stuff), but I was feeling absolutely shitty. >_< Felt like puking on my alarm clocks both times they rang. So, for the first time in about 8 years, Sycia skipped school. o_O Carried on sleeping till noon and woke up just fine.

Ran through Shakugan no Shana. Eh. What is this, another taming-of-the-shrew series? I'll give it a few more episodes, but if it continues where I think it'll go (the direction Tsukihime went *yawn*), it'll be off my harddrive.

No, really. What the *bleep*! Raptor-Jesus?

Also, I'm dying to see an FMP 1337 parody. *looks at her fellow fansubbers with gleeming eyes*

[%kodachrome]: 1337 FMP would be like, Sousuke: I h4x0r th15 sk00l 5y5t3/\/\. Chidori: WTFUX!! S0U5U-64`/!11

Lately my fridge has been emitting this high-pitched frequency that's been gradually driving me insane. I don't know why it does it, but I was finally able to get to the root of the damn problem grah.

"Isn't it interesting that the same people who laugh at
science fiction listen to weather forecasts and economists?"
- Kelvin Throop III

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October 22nd, 2005 (Saturday) 08:01 p.m.
Feeling : Weirded

Uhhhhh had another odd dream while having a nap on my lightbox.... it was set in Okinawa (uh oh, I see a trend). Family was living there on one of the small tiny islands where Dad was handling the distribution of goods and supplies to other parts of the island-y territory. We had a house there though I don't remember what it looked like, but for some reason I barely ever got to see Mom or Dad. Lil Bro and Lil Sis were around somewhere. Then one day, I had this bad feeling an earthquake would strike. Everyone believed me and we headed out to sea on some kayak-like boats. I was on one with Mom and Aunt Helen (why the heck was our ex-neighbor in my dream...), Dad Lil Sis & Lil Bro on the other. We reached a settlement ON the water (it was built on stilts or something) though I recall it was very shabby... like slums hanging just above the sea surface. Though it was still open sea it was a lot shallower there, and the inhabitants didn't seem to mind lending us on somewhere. Hell, the outer 'walls' were made of discarded doors! o_O There was a thin walkway around the whole thing that was nothing more than overlapping thin wooden planks and we walked around. At some point the walkway gave way beneath someone not of our little group. But since every inhabitant knew how to swim, no one really panicked. The sea-slums weren't our destination, merely a stopover. I walked around a little with Mom, marvelling how an entire town could be built on such flimsy material. There was a town center, even a council hall of some kind, and though residential areas did exist, I couldn't seem to find them. We left the settlement after a while wisely (I think it suicide to be THERE when an earthquake hits; the whole place falls apart or gets overcome by tsunamis, either way it's not pleasant) and approached a lush green island where we rowed up a narrow river. Somewhere along the way our kayak overturned. Since Mom and Aunt Helen can't swim, I was the one trying to save them from drowning (I just happen to have a gold for swimming :D). Thank goodness the water was crystal clear and I could see them sinking to the bottom o_O but I'd been extremely tired (either from kayaking or trying to haul Mom to the surface). Then the ring on a chain (.... >< Rob, this is the effect that GIF you sent has on me now haha) around my neck floated down, Mom grabbed, and suddenly was swimming like the most graceful athelete, picked Aunt Helen and me up to the surface. o_O Then when we got air the ring was suddenly back with me and I had to fight to keep mom and aunt Helen there. Uhhhhh the rest I don't remember. But the slums had been interesting to explore o_O Why is it all the strangest dreams come in my naps...

Just saw Blood+ 3... o_O I've got a question. Who in the world collaspes the way George did!? That's just plain weird.

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October 21st, 2005 (Friday) 11:51 p.m.
Feeling : Amused

Okay, today was just strange...

Woke up early to do some work, then set off to school at about 11:30pm. While riding my bicycle to the train station, my cell phone went off... Because I hardly receive any calls on it, this came as a small shock and I almost veered into a wall. Now I know how my Lil Bro felt when my Mom called him while he cycled, causing him to crash into a cactus (lol, of all possible things to crash into...). Turned out to be a woman from Sunrise, calling to ask a couple of questions on if I was intending to return to Singapore for a while upon graduation, or if I intended to return permanently after working in Japan for several years. Both to which I said no to rather quickly. No interview news yet though, since the submission deadline's the end of October.

Onto the train bit... Shinjuku is the last stop for my line where I change trains to head down to school. The train just goes back the way it came. The trip there usually takes 20 minutes and it's not uncommon for me to sleep on the way. This time though, I slept and woke almost an hour later, finding myself heading right back home, just a station away from where I started out from. o_O And I was obviously going to be late for class. I suppose the normal reaction of people would be to swear, get angry with oneself, but I was amused, too amused at myself. Between choosing to go home and arrive at class late, I was feeling good so decided to head on to school anyway, smiling at myself for this rather unusually boo-boo.

[EDIT]

Oops, forgot... obeyed Mom's command to treat myself to something for my birthday. ^-^ Lots of GOOD sushi :D~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Then had a good Bailey's Irish cream liqueur (whiskey with ceam) mixed with thick good milk, and dumped on the rocks last night. :D Oh god that was GOOD. This is not going to be the first time I'm getting this stuff.

Some people are alive only because it's illegal to kill them.

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October 20th, 2005 (Thursday) 11:21 p.m.
Feeling : Hmmm~

You know... there are a lot of better things to do out there other than troll people's tagboards. The next person who attempts to insult me, please remember I live by this phrase:

"Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me."

Anyway, on with it~ Another session of giving Shikibu-sensei a headache. XD It seems that all teachers / lecturers I respect, I keep bothering with questions, opinion requests and more. So far, Shikibu-sensei is the only lecturer to have seen all of my layout for the final project and has so far, given such good advice to spice up the whole thing (though we have done a fair bit of arguing back and forth...). Sometimes she just gives weird ideas XD Being a lower than her in level (Japanese society rank issue) doesn't mean I'll agree to all. Anyhow, I seemed to be the only student who managed to finish today's assignment fully. Although... now I recall something I failed to add into it >_< ('end'). Also asked her about the horse tail flapping in the wind while running issue. She couldn't quite explain, and what she recommended, I tried out with it looking worse than ever, so now I'm really going to go random with this XD

Helped out in the final episode of Fullmetal Panic! The Second Raid. I never liked this particular season because it was so dark, but it ALL changed with the this last episode. Finally Sousuke's character's going somewhere. Also, Gates has effectively freaked me out / made me wanna stuff durians up or down both his ends for all the season, but in this episode, "Opps! I think I broke it!" Just got a loud laugh outta me while I checked Luminare's stuff. I really like how this episode ended. :3 All the gore and dark crack almost just vanishes because of it. Oh, that and the fact that the last scene with Sousuke and Chidori in the train I take everyday did feel odd.

Why the heck are the Lymph Nodes near muh throat swollen? o_O Oh well... always have had one swollen occasionally, but today it's a double whammy. Nothing serious though, compared to the other day when I brushed my gums to hard and had them aching and swollen for half a week, unable to consume much. Came outta that fine, almost panicked at the possibility it might've been a bad tooth, but just turned out I wasn't keeping my strength under control during brushing... =o=;

"A good laugh and a long sleep are the two best cures."
- Irish Proverb

^ It is no coincidence Sycia follows this sacred rule.

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October 19th, 2005 (Wednesday) 11:15 p.m.
Feeling : Pondering~~

Feeling much better today now that I've finished my animation layouts this morning. Also went to school and finished my background assignment, completely losing track of time till I was done.

Shikibu-sensei's lesson tomorrow. I wonder if she'll come up with anything for me after that "Do you want to animate Blood+?"... :X

There was another earthquake at around 8:45pm. This one was very mild, maybe around 2, but it was far more intimidating than the 4 that hit the other day. This one lasted a very long time, hence the more omnious atmosphere. I was grabbed my HP, jacket and bottle of water, all ready for action if it turned out any worse. Odd, before that serene dream, I would've done nothing to preserve my life (kinda like "harhar, come n get me"). Despite waking up from it so disappointed I wasn't dead, I must have been shown/ taught/ reminded something to treasure the gift of life once more (that at the moment, fails to come to mind). Or the thought of being crushed by debris and still remaining alive for some time turns me off. A lot.

"The bird of paradise alights only upon the hand that does not grasp."
- John Berry

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October 18th, 2005 (Tuesday) 11:06 p.m.
Feeling : Unwell

Also, was so distracted the other day I nearly put my mp3 player into the fridge XD

Idachi-senpai's birthday was yesterday too, and so we wished each other this morning, and Takeda-sensei did too (seems I'm fine with not-so-close people wishing me). Takanou-san surprised me with little pack of sweets as a birthday gift; apparently she found out about the birthday thing yesterday when Takeda-sensei was trying to find me to wish it at around 5pm. Arigato, Takanou-san. Let Sato-sensei see what layout scenes I finished (90%) and got pretty good feedback and pointers.

Asked to test out the Avid unit, and since Sato-sensei, who'd left already, was the only one who knew how to use it, the other teachers were stumped and baffled for an hour and a half when I asked if everything in the menu could be switched back to English.

Also ate a very wrong combination of food today and now I am feeling terribly unwell in the stomach. -_-; Sleep will cure it, so here I go~!

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October 17th, 2005 (Monday) 11:25 p.m.
Feeling : =_______=

(click for full resolution & clear view of boo-boos XD)

Feeling extremely blahed today so decided to post this up. Little skeleton horse run cycle I whipped up this morning in about like uh... 10 minutes. Didn't have any reference or anything, and the main purpose of it was NOT the main galloping itself. Instead I was trying to animate the tail right (final-year animation's an project featuring horsess). =_= However, as you can see, Sycia failed. The tail is moving nicely, but too damn slow for the body. Horsey is running but the tail looks like it's flowing at its own pace grrrrr. These are but the keyframes, by the way, hence the timing looks somewhat weeeeird. Yet the lecturer kept harping about it being 'good'. My foot. =_= Just because the average Joe don't pay much attention to animating horses doesn't mean something average equals good.

Can't make the tail flick too much since the horse is running at high speed and the air's all rushing pass the tail. ARGH I'll have to ask Shikibu-sensei for it, but I have a feeling going random for this is probably the best idea.

It's raining outside now, been at it the entire day and I'm feeling slighly blue. I think I'll make it a habit to cut myself off from the rest of the world on this day every year. ¦ | Wondering why I feel so GRRR about my own birthday, but I'd prefer to sleep it off. Goodnight. Hopefully I'll have a nice dream today.

[EDIT]: Actually, I know why I'm GRRR about it. It's because I can't spend it with the people I hold dear to me. Parties mean sh*t; would just like to give each and every one of them a hug for being such great company all these years.

Eh. Should go meditate to clear my mind.

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October 17th, 2005 12:47 a.m.
Feeling : Slightly disgruntled

Blood+ #02 was okay. Not as much action as I would've liked, and the failed English attempt at the very start of it left me sniggering the rest of the episode. I did like the fact that the whole 'family bond' thing is stressed on, and though by now I'm quite detached from the concept, somewhere in the back of my mind I do long to 'go home' as Saya does after a long trying day to the comfort of a warm supportive household.

I don't feel homesick, but I would love to go back to the 'safety' of my family once in a while to experience the fuzzy warmth. Eh... then again, the problems of home and all... hmmmm

Also, I was chatting on IRC and point 4 earthquake struck. at 4:05pm. Sycia's reaction:

[Sycia] Earthquake
[Luminare] :o
[Sycia] ..............
[Luminare] strong?
[Sycia] Just rumbling~
[Luminare] shindo 3 gurai?
[Sycia] Yeah, problaby
[Sycia] o_O It's only a 3. Why are they telling us to evacute.
[Luminare] lol
[Sycia] Bah. Be right back =_=
[Luminare] k :p

It's kinda surreal experiencing an earthquake after that vivid dream last month. I expected the world to start turning and turning and the entire building to collasp, but am not necessarily scared or sucidal. Any psychology student willing to study my case here?

Also, Mom suddenly called and told me to get me arse on MSN for a voice-chat. Turns out the whole family was around to wish me my 23rd birthday. - -; I would've liked the chat, but the wishing part I really don't fancy. It's just another day. Was nice to have be able to talk to everyone at once though. Sent more pictures on and made Dad hungry with them pictures of that hanazakigani crab roe, chuutoro and ikura.

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October 15th, 2005 (Saturday) 09:07 p.m.
Feeling : Slightly drowsy

Oh boy what a horrible way to spend the night... I fell asleep with my upper body on the bed and the lower on my chair at about 1am, thinking I'd wake up from the discomfort a little while later. o_O By the time I woke it was bright and shiny... 8:30am. Not that I got up with a bad neck or anything though...

Finally sent in my applications to Sunrise, Gainax and ARMs this morning at a post office in the area previously unknown to me. That's one load off my mind...

I just remembered, while talking tp Shikibu-sensei on Thursday, she asked me a very strange question.

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"Do you want to do Blood+?"

^ I didn't, and still don't know how to interpret or read into that question. Though after a quick "?" I enthusiastically replied somewhere along the lines of "hell YES".

Had a talk with Okuyama-sensei yesterday evening and had her take a quick at my layouts. I've never spoken to her before, and she certainly shouldn't have known me other than from that little presentation 2 months ago. But when I mentioned my name, she suddenly burst into a surprised laugh and exclaimed, "Oh! It's you! You're the one doing that animal animation!" O_O; Nanu...? Gave me some nice tips on how to refine some of my cuts, and remarked that I animated horses well (baring joints, bone structure and muscle mass in mind). After so many months of practice, anyone would be able to draw them if they had the passion.

Black Cat #2. Kondou Takeshi's voice is really cool XD. The more I listen, the more a fangirl I want to become.

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October 14th, 2005 (Friday) 10:28 a.m.
Feeling : Calm

Tired. That is all.

Shikibu-sensei inspires me. Even more so after seeing her name like... twice in the credits of Blood+, and the Hagaren movie. Talked to her yesterday on her experience working on Blood+ in Production IG and got a few juicy details including why the cahracter design was changed though both movie and TV series had the same top guy in charge: ) Also turns out she's making XXXHolic (the movie). 13 years in the industry, yet still so humble.

Also, it seems that I have this problem in talking about any problem I'm having. Somehow words just don't form, or I don't see a point in dumping it on anyone. Is that a good or bad thing...

*Looks at the date* ........................... argh

Man invented language to satisfy his deep need to complain."
- Lily Tomlin

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October 12th, 2005 (Wednesday) 11:01 p.m.
Feeling : Calm

Yesterday was fruitful... In a somewhat contradictory way... I animated them horse characters proper for the first time today, though they were still roughs, and it all came out pretty good. :o

Uh no my persuation methods have worked :o But the end result, I don't know if I want.

Background painting lesson was more productive than usual. Yanou-san wasn't there, as the main reason.

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October 10th, 2005 (Monday) 10:42 p.m.
Feeling : Amused

So it seems that without school to regulate my schedule, my body automatically yields to a nocturnal life. ¦ 0 Not that I mind it a great deal, but grr most humans have to be non-nightbirds.

Just saw a very interesting documentary on the power of suggestion & hypnotism and realized that in fact, I execute such things a lot on other people and on myself unconsciously, or subconsciously. If I'd been more actively malicious I would probably be able to start some crazy cult, but I'm too un-bothered with people. ¬_¬ As individuals, they don't bother me so much, but the upkeep is so troublesome. Also, how governments suggest & cultivate patriotism has become crystal clear.

Human Instinct was interesting. Most of what I figured out already was in there, though I don't know why they bothered explaining some stuff that's common sense (to me at least). Like why people are afraid to fail/ lose at things, or why males are far more causal about sex. Nonetheless, the documentary is informative and presented in an easy-to-absorb way for idiots. Not a good documentary for those f**king elitists who love to think of humans as too 'superior' to be in the group of 'animals' though (<-- then what the hell are they, plants?)

[@Sycia] The Blood+ manga is so shoujo-ishly drawn. Gives me the hibby-gibbies.
[@|Osiris|] you using 'hibby-gibbies' gives me the hibby-gibbies
[@Sycia] o_O
[@Sycia] Is it an excessively feminine term?
[@|Osiris|] yeah
[@Sycia] ........................
* @Sycia phailed
[@|Osiris|] for a sec there, i almost mistook you for a girl
[@Sycia] >_< That's bad.
[@|Osiris|] lol

"Humor is everywhere, in that there's irony
in just about anything a human does."
- Bill Nye

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October 9th, 2005 (Sunday) 10:44 p.m.
Feeling : Glad

Whoa. 4 karaokes and 1 full episode in 2 days. :o Even after listening to the Blood+ opening and ending themes like 987598685971 times, I still like em ^o^ Yay for Okinawa-styled ending songs.

Slept at 8:30am this morning after a hard night's translating (sh*t Sycia is turning into a Hagi fan).

Also received some rather pleasant news. ^_^
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The community of fansubbers is very tightly knit together by mutual respect. Freelancers work in several groups, fulltime staff aren't restricted to one, and basically, everyone regular knows everyone else. It's quite a fun place to be. Though some groups do compete, we respect each others' work greatly. And since almost everyone's a guy, I can behave in a way no other place would accept.

These two are amusing. XD

* @Sycia goes register {:D
[@|Osiris|] lol..your new haircut sux
[@Sycia] I know. lol
[@bako-chan] o.o
[@bako-chan] how does osi know sycia's haircut?
[@Sycia] XDXD XD
[@bako-chan] you sent him your pic?!!!
[@Sycia] Oh, I mentioned it to him in passing yesterday
[@Sycia] lol no
* @Sycia calms Bako down
[@Sycia] oo
[@bako-chan] lol
[@|Osiris|] what?
[@|Osiris|] [15:51] * @Sycia goes register {:D <--i meant this
[@Sycia] LOL
[@|Osiris|] bako, stay away from sycia <.<
[@|Osiris|] get your own abusive friend >.>

"To be without some of the things you want
is an indispensable part of happiness."
- Bertrand Russell (1872 - 1970)

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October 8th, 2005 (Saturday) 06:44 p.m.
Feeling : ‚í‚­‚í‚­

Just saw Blood+. VERY sweet. O_O VERY VERY VERY sweet. The setting is beautiful. Backgrounds really reflect the beauty and brilliance of Okinawa. Thank goodness there's no Okinawa-accented character in there yet (Sycia will be screaming when one does pop up). O_O Opening and ending songs are rather nice too (the later is a little Okinawa-styled). Lots of blood spilt, but very tastefully done so. I like the way they introduced Hagi. Gentlemanly, subtle, yet insistent sort of knight in shining armor. Uh... except he's all dark and stuff. Konishi Katsuyuki, though he spoke very little in this first episode, fit the character surprisingly well. The way Saya's classmate (or schoolmate?) treats her is going to trigger off yuri pairings (then again Yumiko-chan kinda does the same thing with me). o_O And it is very strange to see the same seiyuu playing a crackpot villain in Fullmetal Panic! do a warm loving father in here (also does Ero-sennin of Naruto). XD

I absolutely LOVE it. :D

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October 8th, 2005 (Saurday) 05:48 p.m.
Feeling : Worried

Had some pretty serious stuff going on in that previous post. Been feeling emotionaly fragile of late. I need distractions.

Black Cat was okay. I did like their introduction of the main character to the manga's version (Jesus... been there, done that for the manga). Not to mention he has a rather cool voice. I thought Miki Shinichirou would play that guy in a white suit with a hat (since he does remind me of Urahara Kisuke from Bleach) but that turned out to be Fujiwara Keiji (Maes Huges from Fullmetal Alchemist) and Miki-san ended up with some laughing cuckoo with his marbles shooting out from nostrils (kidding about the marbles). Like the opening song. Listening to it 9876879569322 times didn't change that, I only felt myself despising the singer for accenting or breaking up words at the wrong sections. The ED is just random o_O

Woke up and found a request to check 2 karaokes :o Sycia busy translator. That don't beat poor Sho-kun though... ;_; I really hate transliterating new anime karaokes. ¬_¬ When you've gotta listen out for some singer who can't even form words clearly, having another checker's just great.

... the whole fansubbing community need to be exempted from this whole 'life' thing. It's not without its perks though.

Blood+ is up next x_x G... ganbarimasu! Please, oh god PLEASE don't let the Okinawa accent be TOO thick... >_< Truly, that's the only part that really frightens me.

Also, why in the blazers does WinAMP refuse to play my .wav files?

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October 7th, 2005 (Friday) 11:48 p.m.
Feeling : : |

o_O Whoa some guy had the time to study FF7 AC's Cloud's sword/s.

Also, Tardzilly posts some seriously funny shit sometimes. XD

Getting the Hellsing series again, since my collection's back home. o_O Heeeeey episode 2's random villain guy is Ganju (Bleach)'s seiyuu! Needless to say Celes Victoria's Rukia. ^o^ Arucard's Peacemaker's Hijikata too! :o

Life in a Freezer had an episode where chinstrap penguins were featured in a short segment. Their nexts built on high mountains and their feeding trips began and ending with the tedious trek up and down it. At one point leopard seals were shown preying on these penguins. By god I've seen so many times, this predation and though I do frown a little seeing the way leopard seals kill penguins (grab leg, thrash thrash thrash thrash thrash thrash thrash thrash until it is dead and skinned), I'm mostly a-OK with it. But what this documentary showed AFTER the normal predation scenes just made me cry. A single bird miraculously escaped the leopard seal's attack and made it back to land. But it had a large (and I mean F***ing HUGE) puncture wound (actually, make that gaping hole) on the back of its head/ neck. Its lifeblood just... painted its entire white belly this sickening red-orange slick. And in spite ALL that, the bird was still trying to scale the mountain to reach its nest and chick. It only made it up a little... amidst the bustle of other parenting penguins doing the same, the wounded one slowed, and finally lay down exhausted, dying. That is one of the many scenes that will stay in my head forever. Upset can't even cover what I felt; wretchedness, complete utter helplessness... wanted to just reach out, take it into my arms and whisk all its suffering away. Bleah or let me take its place. There hadn't been any music to upset me this time (music's usually what makes me tear for shows), but anyone, even an animal hater will feel horrid just seeing this. Could take a screenshot, but no. I'd probably get mails requesting to take it down. Yes, I very well know this is life and stuff (DUH I, of all people would know), but that doesn't mean I can't bawl. Talk about clash between compassion and instinct. It was far more painful to watch than the seal-hunting orcas bashing and thrasting, slowly toying and killing their prize.

Also going to get Human Instinct. Now let's see if all my observations on this pathetic specie coincide with what this programme will present.

"Man invented language to satisfy his deep need to complain."
- Lily Tomlin

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October 6th, 2005 (Thursday) 10:09 p.m.
Feeling : x_x

Sis once told me I'm the most cheerful (or was it bubbly?) of my inner circle. Not that I don't have my inner angst and all, but outwardly I can be optimisstic simply because there are so much worse things happening to other people for me to appreciate what life's been dishing out. So what if you've had a bad day after getting hit on by perverts, or made fun of by classmates, or slipped and fell down in public and stuff. That's nothing, absolute PEANUTS to the predicament of others who say, have terminal illnesses or something. Life's too short to be spent on wallowing in the dark, which is why I don't understand what makes some people tick if they spend their time brooding, mopping etc. To me, they're nothing but a waste of oxygen and natural resources. Take a look at some of the much less fortunate and feel ashamed at yourselves. I'm saving my sympathy for those who truly deserve it.

Ah! Had to let that out.

And it's confirmed. Sycia gets X-ray vision when she's extremely fatigued. I was falling asleep in the shower recently, lifted a hand up to turn the water off and saw the network of veins and capillaries. And they were blue. o_O Why blue? At the time my palms were a eriee white too.

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Also going to see Black Cat in a bit. With the guys getting all hyped up I'm going to make them squirm with envy by seeing it on TV first. *evil*

Hellsing Ultimate's commercials look ****ing sw33t. That is all.

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October 6th, 2005 (Thursday) 06:58 p.m.
Feeling : Emotional, sympathetic, wrecked

I missed Bleach's 1-hour special last night so saw it just now. Cool opening animation. Though, why in the world is everyone angsty, and why is the last part seemingly pairing Ichigo and Rukia up... Ending's song is something I like, the theme for it was great too. ^^ As for the animation itself uhhh I can tell which parts are done by different animation studios... Rukia looks so weird.

Wednesday was unproductive. -_-;

Thursday, well I showed Shikibu-sensei all of my animation layout. In particular I had wanted some comments and stuff for a complicated scene with a foal shying, jumping away, turning 180 degrees and stopping. Unfortunately, ALL my lecturers just looked at what keyframes I made, and kept very quiet like they hadn't anything to comment. What's with that? Not even a professional animator like Shikibu-sensei could say anything. �uŒ¾‚¢‚悤‚ª‚È‚¢�v <-- oO Though she did mention that almost no one else in my level would be able to draw such stuff. Bah. Have to animate it first before I can get any comments. Was intending to stay till 7pm, but at 3:30pm realized I hadn't practised drawing cougars enough to manipulate it into my layouts (been focusing on horses so long and hard that now I draw them with such ease and freedom no matter what angle o:).

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Another new season sets upon this familiar town.
As flower petals dance with the breeze into the sky, just for you,
it's as almost like your voice longfully whispers in passing.
So I turn back alone, into time, blow'in in the wind.

Can you feel me? Still remember?
Even far apart, our hearts stay together.
Until we can see each other again,
keep watching over me...

We used to walk alongside, exchanging words.
All that has not vanished, just sleep my dear...
I searched for meaning in our separation that painful day,
but now only the joy of our meeting remains in my heart, a precious thing for me

Can you hear me? Remain forever?
This I ask you everytime I stop.
If these tears make me ever stronger,
then I will walk forth.

Forever regretting what's been lost is like giving up on life,
light is pouring down from breaks through the clouds.

Can you feel me? Still remember?
Even far apart, our hearts stay together.
Until we can see each other again,
keep watching over me...

Can you hear me? Remain forever?
This I ask you everytime I stop.
If these tears make me ever stronger,
then I will walk forth.

Can you feel me? Still remember?

Stay in my heart eternally...

Can you hear me? Remain forever?

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"Feel no the pain of parting; it is they who stay behind that suffer."
- Henry Wadsworth Longfellow (1807 - 1882)

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October 4th 2005 (Tuesday) 11:57 p.m.
Feeling :

Tuesdays are nice... I can actually settle down in school and do my work (apparently, all my attempts to work at home have failed pathetically). Stayed till 7pm in celebration (not) of my first Tuesday in half a year that I didn't have to rush home to prepare for Bleach episode translations. Needless to say I missed the 1-hour special, but no biggie. I'll get it later. I did manage to finish 50% of my animation layout. Did them rather detailed too... Had this sequence with a foal shying away in fear, jumping, and doing a quick-flip 180-degree turn. No way in hell will you find any printout anywhere that teaches you how to animate such performance. -_-; Had to draw them keyframes out from pure imagination (and uh, a little live acting on my part). Showed it to Takura & Takeda sensei and they only pointed out a slight error in footwork sequencing. :o That's it? Tadeda sensei also looked through what layout I'd completed and didn't say anything much. hmmmmm.

I need to blog more faithfully... my real reason for keeping this blog is to reflect my past, and laugh. It's a good way to keep track of things since my memory hilariously selective about things. Even now I read archives from 4 years ago just for the sake of some entertainment and thought. Wish I could do that for more than just 4 years back since everything's so faded in my head.

"What's past is prologue."
- William Shakespeare (1564 - 1616) [The Tempest]

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October 3rd, 2005 (Monday) 09:22 p.m.
Feeling : Hmmmm

Went around doing chores, got a little down because of the low pay of animation companies, but rah. Also go my hair cut by a less than experienced hairstylist... ¬¬ She nearly rendered my fringe a horrid straight row (bowl-cut?!) before I freaked and told her (for the 15th time) what I really wanted. Unfortunately I was a little late and now I'm stuck with rather short fringe. And have eartails to boot (I didn't ask for em). Ah well... it'll grow back.

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October 2nd, 2005 (Sunday) 11:30 p.m.
Feeling : Hyped

Hmm, been just relaxing a lot at home, talking to the guys and stuff.

Can't wait to see Blood+. Saw 3 trailers and mmmmm :D

Also have the FF7: AC OST, and it rocks pretty hard. :O It's really good. Perhaps during the show itself there was too much going on for me to appreciate it, but now on its own, it really shines... :D I like it a lot.

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October 1st, 2005 (Saturday) 11:16 p.m.
Feeling : Zzz

The invasion of privacy had Mom pondering if we were 'drifting apart'. I might have been furious at the time, but what my dream showed me was that she's still very much a very dear person to me. In fact, though the dream was of death and destruction, it has left my soul a lot calmer and clearer on what / who's precious to me.

Anyway, went out with Joyce to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Honestly, I don't know if I should love or hate the film. It was just.... strange. Like the novels.

After that oddball film, we went hunting for a place to eat. Stopped along the way for some crepe before continuing and settled at a Shabushabu place (it's the same one a particular pal of Mom and her family brought me to some time ago). Had our fill of beef and vegs o(^--^)o Walked off the energy a little at Biccamera where I was tempted to get Shin Angyo Onshi, but Joyce bought that instead.

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