B l a c k F e a t h e r s , v 4 .1
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November 29th, 2005 (Tuesday) 05:27 a.m.
Feeling : ...

落ち込んでいる・・・
まったく、なんでこんな情けない状態になってしまったんだろう
「ガッコウに行く」と考えるだけで泣きそうになっちまう
「ユメ」を諦めたからかな・・・
ここにいればいるほど失望がどんどん溜まっている・・・
すでにここには何も無いから、何でもしても無駄っと
そう思うばっかり日々っス。
これはまさにクェクス殿が言った「魂の死」か・・・
もうどうすれば良いのか・・・前知った道が見えなくなった

[Edit]
Feeling absolutely shitty. Depression. It never really went away, just upped a little.

So I took some standard depression test; The Beck Depression Inventory and scored 33. It says that's severe depression, but I feel it moderate. Whatever. Guess I feel horrid enough for it to count as severe.

And for some reason as I type this, the winds howl outside as if a typhoon's been sent down upon Japan. Things are clanging here and there, everywhere. But there aren't any this time of the year...

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November 28th, 2005 (Monday) 11:04 p.m.
Feeling : ...

Had another dream during yet another 2-hour nap. -_-; I really don't remember much of this, except a ton of fighting everywhere. Maybe I should stop watching Xena for a while... and fantasizing about ripping random internally-dead salarymen in Tokyo should also halt.

Wooo Singapore in international legal news again. On one hand, why not execute a drug trafficker? It'll spare the world a little bit more oxygen anyway, not that it isn't already overpopulated. We aren't short on drug dealers either. I think a quick execution (though I disagree with the method) is more humane than life imprisonment. On the other, .... *looks around* okay. I can't think of why I'd wanna spare someone like that if I run the country, so give me some ideas. You should bloody well know the price of your deed, so if you're dumb enough to start & get caught, face up to the music sonny. Before anyone rants to me on being humane, read through this paragraph again. Also note that my level of compassion is slashed by 3-quarters (well, actually a lot more) when it comes to humans.

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November 28th, 2005 (Monday) 04:12 a.m.
Feeling : o_______O

Okay, just woke up from a 2-hour nap. And that dream was kinda tensed. I started out in Singapore Changi airport with my parents seeing me off at the train station (apparently we could take a train to Japan?). Know it to be Changi airport because Mom pointed out the waterfall in Terminal 2 and I said something about its significance (not that I can recall what that was). Joyce was there too, and we checked in together. Then on the somewhat empty train, we hd to fight the rest of the commuters in a bloody battle (well it was either us or them thrown off). I know Joyce didn't want to fight, and I got rid of most of our adverseries by smashing them throw the windows into another passing train going the opposite direction. This went on for some time and we had finally reached Japan. Next the dream kinda fastforwarded to when we were about to leave. We were frantically packing only the bare essentials to head the hell outta Japan. Came back on the same train with even more violence (oddly Joyce didn't fight and got by fine?). I killed about 5 people with my bare hands. Mostly by smashing them out the windows so no one would magically revive to attack. It was a long, and tiresome journey, but we finally got back to Singapore (I'd been quite exhausted), and I remember the train station's interior exceptionally well. It was huge, futuristic-looking and clean. More importantly I remember the joy and elation of finally coming home, greeted by family (oddly enough, Dad wasn't there) after whatever shit happened (the forgotten part of my dream, mostly).

And in my dream, FF7 AC's Cloud seiyuu, Sakurai was deceased. o___O What the hell has that got to do with anything?

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November 27th, 2005 (Sunday) 10:56 p.m.
Feeling : Cheerful

Yesterday, was Zzzing and got a call from Joyce at 3:30pm. Surprised I even woke up at all from hte phone ringing, but she wanted to go for dinner at my place so I rushed out to meet her, and we went to the 居酒屋 nearby. Had a great time, were served iced water in beer glasses and cheered to a belated Thanksgiving., laughed a craplot, ate lots of meat (>_< I'm deprived of this recently), and had gigantic sundaes.

Went home to catch that local documentary and was thoroughly disgusted at the scientist in there taking a chopper then slicing up several jellyfish for their reproductive organs (meant for an experiment) from a small boat. -_- Look, I know they're making things difficult for human fishing industries, but that's too much. They wrapped the whole thing up with the jellyfish explosion being caused by global warming (supported by experiments, and scientific facts). Well, not surprise there.

-_-; Another pretty intense dream. Most of it I don't remember because it was so darn long, but what I can recall is it taking place in the Japanese language school I was in for my first year here. A few of the classmates of it were in there, namely Yumi (not Yumiko-chan) who was doing a pretty good job at annoying me (as usual), and a secondary school senior. We were having a a class then something disrupted it. A monster or an earthquake, I don't know. Then the next thing I know, all the students were forced to take part in some sort of courage ritual or the sort. It involved standing at the end of a long tunnel in waist-high water with a huge round boulder (cue Indiana Jones theme here) rolling towards at high speed. The courage thing was to see how long you could stay calm with the thing coming at you. Everyone went as individuals and in groups, directed around by some seniors and teachers. Then for some reason I was noticed dodging the boulders (water made it a lot harder) by some. I insisted I wasn't doing it any faster or different from the other students but they just decided to take me into the senior elite group (or something) immediately. Complete with some stupid looking hand-sign to signify their presence (I can still remember what it is!) and long beans (don't ask, I'm confounded too). Then after that was a big blank I can't remember at all, and what I can remember is having to defend some helpless princess (-_- those types are frigg'in annoying) from... something. Weird stuff.

Quex-dono... sometime soon, you've got to teach me horseriding, then we can go cross states!!!

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Men are self-confident because they grow up identifying with super-heroes.
Women have bad self-images because they grow up identifying with Barbie.

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November 26th, 2005 (Saturday) 10:00 a.m.
Feeling : Sleepy

Oh... o_o; Forgot.

Happy Thanksgiving! ^_^

There's gonna be a local documentary on jelyfish later this evening. More precisely, the largest jellyfish native to the Sea of Japan, the Stomolophus nomurai. Apparently they've been swarming the sea in consecutive years and fishermen have been having trouble with their harvest since the jellies clog nets up, and kill the fish in there with them. Screencapped the programme summary from the NHK channel webportal. The programme will explore what causes the jellyfish boom in recent years.

I've done my fair bit of research and have found out that the commonly accepted cause of this is warmer temperatures (aka global warming); jellyfish thrive in warmer waters. o_O Though I keep finding conflicting articles that say the this specie can grow to 3 feet, or 15 feet. Make up your minds people. Anyway, I figure the bells of these jellies grow to 3 feet across while the tenacles go up to 15 feet. -_-; That's huge, but not the largest of all. *shivers* Then some other articles go saying their stings aren't lethal to humans, and I see another that claims 8 people in Japan have died because of them. o_O I need straight facts.

And for those of you who don't already know, Sycia is terrified of jellyfish. Toss me a roach or gecko, snake or rat, I'm still good. But suddenly show me a picture of a jellyfish, and I'll freak out immediately (though only momentarily). They're beautiful creatures, and it continues to baffle me at how they, having evolved so much earlier than dinosaurs, have managed to survive virturally unchanged to this day without the need for eyes, brain, etc etc. But I still have a bleed'in phobia of them D:< It is annoying. Though still, I try not to shun away from them by learning more. Certainly I won't go out of my way to kill them (my old man used to take his little boat and back its propeller into any poor jellyfish and silce it up into pieces. Why, I could never understand. -_- Neither can I understand why some just jump at the opportunity to fish up a jelly, dump it on the beach, go poking it then leave it to die).

Welcome to IRC, where men are men, women are men,
and little girls are fbi agents.

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November 26th, 2005 (Saturday) 11:51 p.m.
Feeling : : )

Haha, Fullmetal Alchemist fans, watch this: Fullmetal Alchemist meets AOL. XD

I spoke to Liwen-chan and Quex-dono last night. Thank you both for helping me think things through. : ) Reached a decision on my Livejournal (Friends-Only), and goddammit I feel GOOD about it.

Also discussed a good lot with Quex-dono. Though I don't agree with most said, some I am beginning to see.

Need to open some serious discussions with Mom.

And eh. It was a little warmer today and I get a mosquito in my room. -_- Frigg'in thing. Imma hunt it down in a bit. ¬_¬

Learn from the mistakes of others you can't live
long enough to make them all yourself.

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November 25th, 2005 (Thursday) 11:04 p.m.
Feeling : hmm

:3 The great thing about being with the guys is that you're never short on people who can help you out with technical stuff. Not anything big like coming over to help reformat something or the like, but just a little one-sentence explanation is enough~ :D I'm now enjoying a skinned WindowsXP! ^_^ Visual Styles are pleasant~

I really need to get out and go somewhere. Been cooped up in here for almost a week.

-_-; So alcohol can do this much brain damage...

"When they discover the center of the universe, a lot
of people will be disappointed to discover they are not it."
- Bernard Bailey

Listening to: Vanessa Mae - Toccata & Fugue In D Minor [live]

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November 23rd, 2005 (Wednesday) 11:10 p.m.
Feeling : ...

:D A friend is someone you can stay up over the phone with till 5am, laughing with abnoxiously until your stomach aches. Thanks Joyce.

Thanks for talking to me Sis. I feel a lot better.

I'm fortunate to have these 2 close friends. ^_^ So far the choice to keep and lose has proven very very good. Gotta get back in contact with some more people soon.

I just realized I've not drunk water in 2 weeks. Before anyone freaks, I HAVE been taking at most 700ml of other drinks (like milk) everyday in place of that, but I guess the dry skin, eyes and nose finally got to me, and I reached for my bottles of water left undisturbed in my fridge for a fortnight. And I found them frozen solid. -____-; Left alone for too long I guess.

I've been rather busy for the last 24 hours, going through legal documents and issues.

And I really need to go to Monte Roraima. :D

"My country is the world and my religion is to do good."
- Thomas Paine

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November 21st, 2005 (Monday) 09:47 p.m.
Feeling : Glad

Haaaaai Sycia has fallen. She's finally succumbed to FireFox. It's nice, but for some reason loads stuff somewhat slower than Internet Explorer. I can't wait for FireFox 1.5, and from what I hear, I.E 7 is shaping up to be pretty good after such a huge blow to it (:3 info straight from a Beta tester~).

I added Yumiko-chan to my Messenger list and told her about my decision yesterday. Another one to receive a shock. Log of the conversation for personal reference. I'd be thrilled to have her over in Singapore, or even Shikibu-sensei~ Going to exchange paintings with Yumiko-chan next week since she drew me Komamura (Bleach character).

Also, at around 1:30pm some idiot kept calling and waking me up. And everytime I picked up all I heard was beeping sounds no matter what language I answered in. Eventually got so pissed off I disconnected the phone completely and continued to snooze till 6pm. =_=;

And you know something? It seems I no longer care for making animes o_O The dream of it has been taken over by something bigger. To travel. I don't mean this in the dreamy sense... I am quite serious. To travel the world and capture the splendor of its places on film (er, or on computer), to observe new environments and take in new sights. Well alright. I take that first bit back. The 'dream' of making animes has new shrunk to a desire, and my wanderlust has bloated straight out to a full-blown dream.

Time to really take control. I've been more or less just going with the flow all this time. My animation dream has been always with a tinge of self-doubt (no matter how determined I may seem) but this time, it's quite different. Time to truly spread my wings~

"Teachers open the door, but you must enter by yourself."
- Chinese Proverb

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November 20th, 2005 (Sunday) 11:13 p.m.
Feeling : Nothing much

Well it wasn't this bad today... slept 9 hours straight instead. �_�

I'm feeling rather at ease today, or should I say at peace. Been listening to some classic music, perhaps that is why.

Currently downloading a documentary on the Lost Gods of Easter Island. I've always had a fond attachment for those stone figures, Moais!!!!!!!!!. I don't even know why. Because they're um... cute? o_O Well they are!

It's also come to my attention I should try and figure out just how much (or little) the average mind knows about Nature and its wonders. -_- I get looks of disbelief when I mention that there's actually birds called boobies (relatives of the gannets and cormorantes; I see the latter every day on the way to school :D), and am met with silence when referring to the great migration of red crabs on Christmas Island. �� I am very out of place in the average crowd.

I have a certain amount of apprehension for my homeland Singapore, like how it feels more a communist country than the democratic state they kept trying to convince their citizens of. Or the usually ridiculous amount of restraints placed on its inhabitants at all times. One only really becomes aware of how extreme these can be after living in another culture. Still, I won't critisize the place mindlessly or excessively; it's not the best place to be, but neither is it the worst. Home is where the heart is. My heart is with my family, so they are home. Not the country.

Nowadays I really wonder if I can read people too well, or it's over-imagination guessed right.

"In the first place, God made idiots. That was
for practice. Then he made school boards."
- Mark Twain (1835 - 1910)

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November 19th, 2005 (Saturday) 08:55 p.m.
Feeling : Fine I suppose

What the hell's wrong with me. I woke up at around 7pm. -_-; I'd gone to sleep 12 hours ago. Oh boy... Had many dreams within that span of time, one was a heart-to-heart talk with Death. Don't ask. Can't remember what our conversation was about, but I woke up wondering if I was still alive.

Your Eyes Should Be Green

Your eyes reflect: Striking attractiveness and danger What's hidden behind your eyes: A vivid inner world

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November 18th, 2005 (Friday) 11:23 p.m.
Feeling : Still annoyed

And am I the only one who thinks the latest Harry Potter movie is like a big-budget ripoff of Mortal Kombat for kids? No I'm not a fan of the show. No books for me either.

Talked to Mom more on Wednesday, that cheered me up some as we made arrangements. Living arrangements. I'm kind of shocked that Lil Sis offered up her room to me before I'd even thought about the technical stuff. I'll get her something before going back. o_O Going to have to get used to buses again.

It amuses me how some people say something on their blogs, then at a later date, erase it regretfully. It makes me laugh the most when they delete their angriest of entries like they're ashamed of themselves. What's been done cannot be undone. Yet this form of action proves just how much people wish they could take some things back. Nonetheless, they typed, it was seen. That much will never be deleted from the minds of readers. I do not try to cover up my tracks; every angry, angsty and ugly entry is on my journal loud and clear, in my online archives, hell even on my computer for me to read back, reflect, and enjoy a good laugh. The past will never go away. It just depends on how you want to look back on it.

Life ends when you stop dreaming. Hope is lost when
you stop believing. And love fails when you stop caring...
so dream, believe and care... life is beautiful.

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November 18th, 2005 (Friday) 07:10 p.m.
Feeling : !&@#$

Goddammit why can't some people gather even an ounce of dignity? Why can't they just GO to a frigg'in TOILET instead of PEEING by the roadside with their bloody johnsons hanging out in plain sight of UNSUSPECTING female passerbys?! Felt like grabbing a nice pair of scissors, snipping that useless thing OFF so the idiot has to go to toilets from now on. If you HAVE to go so bad DO it where people won't SEE.

*Goes destroy something non-organic*

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November 17th, 2005 (Thursday) 03:55 a.m.
Feeling : Good

Somber morning because I had to tell Shikibu-sensei my plans. Why I told her, and even asked for her email to keep in touch, I don't know. Maybe it's because I felt she was the only truly sincere teacher I could confide in. She seemed to have been expecting it, since I have from the beginning, discussed the issue heavily with her, but was nonetheless sympathetic. Especially after she told me she first worked on American animations like Anamaniacs and the like when she first entered, we both agreed I was more suited to the Western style (though the stories SUCK), so sensei was kinda of smiling when I told her I'll try America or Canada. Arigatou for your blessings, Shikibu-sensei. She also mentioned she could introduce me to some jobs in Japan if I ever returned seasoned.

After that my mood just started going heywired like frantic bird trapped in a room. I was beginning to think I might get a mental breakdown at the rate that was going. Then something rather extraordinary happened.

I was at my regular sushi-place having lotsa Ika-Natto makis when this tall dark (clothes) and handsome guy walked in. Thought he was a Japanese when he sat a seat away, then I heard the guy trying to order something from the pictureless menu, in some weird-accented English. The staff were... tensed to say the least. So I asked him if he needed any help in simple Japanese (dammit it took me 6 calls to get his attention). Asked him if he knew English. Yes? Ok, we were off. Apparently he wanted to try some new stuff but every other sushi store before had pictures with their menu items. So I recommended him a few varieties (shake, amaebi, maguro, etc mostly the safer varieties) and explained what each kind was (and from which part of the fish it's all from etc). I think I've got him addicted to chuu-toro (much to the delight of the staff because it costs a BOMB). Talked to him quite a bit. He thought I was Japanese all along till I told him the truth. He's from Italy (can't remember his name... very Italian name, so sue me) and has only been in Japan for a week. o_O Just a week and so adventurous on food. I like that in people. Flexibility is the key to survival. Kept harping on my spoken English being good. : | Not all Asians speak crappy English. Apparently he lives in a dorm just 5 minutes from the station. Lucky guy : / Behold the daily struggle that is a 30-minute walk from the dorm to the nearest trains station.

Anyway, the whole point of the above incident was that I genuinely felt good helping the guy out. When I headed out the store and he thanked me, it was like the sun shone on me for the first time in weeks through a cloud a gloom. It's a little alien, this feeling. But I like it.

Yes, this does sound like I was born yesterday, but sometimes I feel that people just aren't honest to themselves anymore about stuff like this. Some might perceive me as malicious and stuff, but those are the ones who only know me skin-deep.

"Never confuse movement with action."
- Ernest Hemingway

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November 16th, 2005 (Wednesday) 07:37 p.m.
Feeling : O_o

Okay, really REALLY freaked out.

"Love is a trick that Nature plays to get us to reproduce."
- Callisto, Return of Callisto, Xena the Warrior Princess.

Whoever's been following my blog ever since the beginning, or have known me from way before (in the KOF days) knows this is exactly what I say about the love issue. O_O No, I couldn't possibly have taken it from this show because I never saw this episode up till today, a few minutes ago. And anyway, this is what I feel on the issue. Love, a convincing illusion many indulge in, but not one I want to be a part of. Is it any wonder that I get Callisto in any and right about every Xena quiz?

Makes me wonder if the scriptwriters were anyone on my old ICQ list and peeked into my profile...

In case anyone's wondering, yes I am watching the show. Favorite character's been given away, and I like the funnier episodes. They do have to stop killing and reviving their main characters though. I find this a persistent habit in most series bold enough to deal with death issues lightly.

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November 16th, 2005 (Wednesday) 04:19 p.m.
Feeling : :o

Okay, weird dreams are back. This time I was Xena. : | In a Star Wars episode 3 setting (the city that goaddamn Anakin and his wife live). Those really don't mix, but whatever. Dreams are everything. Turns out I'd been poisoned or something and was still up and about kicking thug asses and generally making sure the city was on its best behavior wherever I went. Gabrielle was of course there too (in her Amazon Queen getup?!) benig pretty upset I wasn't trying to find an antidote for the poison. Think I mentioned that there wasn't any. o_O Who knows. I was having a great time taking it out on random criminals in any case and towards the end knew I was on my way when everything I saw seemed 'overlapped' by a golden light. Eventually it enveloped everything I saw and well... *forgot what was beyond that point*. I knew there was more to the dream but I don't remember.

On Saturday, Bayu-chan asked about if getting an ear pierce was painful. I had insisted it wasn't since no one else in the group had the experience. D: Bayu-chan didn't believe me. It really wasn't! The only thing that was, if you wanna count, painful, was the loud sound of that thingofajig making the hole. That thing created a sound so loud, so near my ear it actually hear my eardrums (I seem to be less tolerant of loud sounds than the average Joe though). Then he mentioned that he wouldn't trust _my_ opinion on 'pain' since I'm masochistic. I met him with a confused expression so Joyce and him 'reminded' me of an incident in the old dorm just after we reached Japan, when I created a large cut at the back of my left hand just because I was 'bored' and wanted to compete with Joyce, who had about the same wound but hers was like 2 weeks older, to she who's would heal faster. The odd thing is that I don't remember the incident. I remember Joyce having a cut, and it taking a abnormally long time to heal but that still left a scar, but my hand doesn't show any sign of this foreign memory I've supposedly 'forgotten'. D: What? The modern human is too bleed'in soft I tell ya!

Anyone wanna come hiking with me through the Himalayas? Cycling through New Zealand's good too.

PS. I HATE feeling all drowsy after a meal. -_- It only happens in the day for me. Why not at night?! It's (among a lot of things) like everything in my body is against the being non-nocturnal.

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November 15th, 2005 (Tuesday) 06:46 p.m.
Feeling : Hmmm

D: Damn. 6:30am - 5:30pm. 11 hours in bed. Woke up feeling like I got bedsore. I completely missed the light of day. I did feel a very slight earthquake shortly before sleeping though. Turns out to have been a 2 in Tokyo.

Feeling slightly better than yesterday.

I want scones. Dammit I'll MAKE scones one of these days. CHEESE scones. And have good tea at the same time.

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November 14th, 2005 (Monday) 11:15 p.m.
Feeling : ¦ |

zerG was right, the Tsubasa, Reservoir Chronicles OST is great.

After a rather emotionally taxing morning, the Animation 1 class's teacher had this little test for us, and at the end was a question asking us our opinion on 'animation'. I wrote in brief, my current situation (because I'm feeling too crappy to fake it). Something along the lines of:

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... ¯~¯; It's not really working. Guess I should take some time off alone or something. I'll skip school tomorrow. No point going in this state.

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obtain too cheap, we esteem too lightly; it is dearness only that
gives everything its value. I love the man that can smile in trouble,
that can gather strength from distress and grow brave by reflection."
- Thomas Paine

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November 12th, 2005 (Saturday) 11:43 p.m.
Feeling : Headached

Today's yakiniku trip was a success (and surprise, Bayu-chan wasn't late :o). Not so much of the food than the company. The four of us (Bayu-chan, Otouto-chan, Joyce and I) had such a good chat we completely forgot about the time. It's a sort of all-you-can-eat buffet thing but we only had an hour. To which of course we spent most of the time talking. I didn't exactly have my fill of meat, nonetheless had a good time.

I'm also a tad surprise that I wasn't exactly taken seriously by Joyce when I mentioned not wanting to be in Japan any longer. o_O Seems she only realized I was being dead honest about it when I explained my feelings to the 2 guys. Though then again, I usually say random things. All of them were surprised shocked at my '180 degrees change of heart'. I guess it was true that a short time ago, I was determined to stay in Japan and carve a niche out for myself. There wasn't any real incident that snapped me, just the culture makes me want to murder every Japanese salaryman in sight and bitchslap their wives (Mary Sues) to Neptune. Actually, that was mild. I want to do a whole lot more than just that. But since it's late and the bed's beckoning me, I will refrain. Bayu-chan's going to Singapore soon (December). I wish I could show him and his family around : |

We had intended to part ways after the lunch, Otouto-chan left, and when the remain 3 of us reached Shinjuku, I decided I craved ice-cream (didn't have time to have my fill at the buffet), Joyce agreed and so we headed to some family restaurant and spent 2 hours talking in there. From a part of the conversation, I am SO glad I never got to play D&D with Bayu-chan. O_O; I'm pretty damn sure all my male NPCs were flee, screaming for their lives and masculity if they met any of his characters D:

Headed back home with a grandma of headaches, watched Blood+ 06, then went for a nap in an attempt to kill the throbbing ache in me noggin. Woke up to prepare translation by downloading the raw, and rest at the table with my head still pounding a little before a nice call from Mom.

She greeted me saying she was lonely (apparently Lil is had a BBQ to attend, Lil Bro was at work, and Dad was away somewhere). I told her my depressive mood thing (though she should've read it on this blog...) and my intention to leave this undesirable society. Her voice took in a rather sunny tone almost immediately. o_O Said I wouldn't mind going back to Singapore to work for a while, save money, then head to America or Canada to tough it out. I guess I've discovered Singapore's home. Not to say I'm homesick (haven't been since I got here), but it's just a place I can go back to even if the world turns away. Still, I have wanderlust. Living in Japan has been great and eye-opening. I don't like a good lot of the culture (will touch on that at a later date) but there are plenty of things I love about the place too. I'd like to live in a different country for a few years at a go, experiencing the place as a local. Now that's something to color my soul a little more. Mom seemed a little hurt that I suggest I might try to rent my own place in Singapore, but the truth is I don't want to grow dependent on the family after being independent 3 years. o_O Though on the other hand, I didn't really have much problem adapting when I first arrived, but still... I'd love to be with them, don't get me wrong. Oh whatever. I'll work that out later.

Translating Blood+ 06 was hell. The headache rendered my language ability for Japanese to like... half it's original level. The big happening in this episode would've made much more impact if it wasn't so predictable. D: The character in question hadn't had time to grow on the audience so evidently, we wouldn't feel compelled to sympathize. Saya on the other had, was slightly underplayed. She needed a more dramatic performance. Honestly, no sane person would've stayed that calm in her shoes then. -_-; Ah well.

Looks like I'm getting better, though the realization that nothing really matters in the end is still lingering.

In other news I just checked my mail just now and was shocked to find my LiveJournal account paid for (12months) by Quex-dono. :o With extra 100 user pictures for the same amount of time to boot. O_O I wonder what I've done to deserve such?!

"If every teacher and student considering dissection were to first witness
the capture, handling, and death of each animal they were about to dissect,
dissection would fast become an endangered classroom exercise."
- Jonathan P. Balcombe, Ph.D., ethologist

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November 11th, 2005 (Friday) 11:29 p.m.
Feeling : Hmm.

Haven't much to say, except that the dream last night was about riding places on my trusty bicycle. Yes, Sycia loves cycling. It's cost effective, environmentally friendly, healthy, and easy! My family was following behind in a taxi of sorts and we stayed at hotels along the way. I wasn't really going anywhere in particular, and hadn't a clue why they were tagging along. Eventually I headed for my old Primary school's church grounds (why in the world..?) Family didn't follow into there. Can't remember what I did in the church... o_O

:D omg The supermarket that I used to get em 200ml Baileys from has FINALLY brought in the 700ml bottles! I'd been searching about 8 locations for em and never saw any till now. :D~~~~ *is now having some* Bailey's milk 1:1 is a litle too strong for me (what am I saying... I can even take rice wine o_O), or rather I'd prefer it 1:2 :D~~

Have a yakiniku appointment with Bayu-chan, Otouto-chan and Joyce tomorrow.

And I just revisited the days I watched Xena. o_O Talk about old-school. Callisto was, and still is my idol. }: )

"I don't suffer from insanity; I enjoy every minute of it."

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November 11th, 2005 (Friday) 07:37 a.m.
Feeling : Promising

Much better today. It seems Sis and I made a mistake of prematurally realizing what gurus and monks, Buddha and blah blah knew all along. Not very healthy to realize such so early in life.

Train of thoughts are now very random, open and highly unstable. I think the culture of this shithole has been eating into me much more than I was previously aware of. It's finally gotten through and now the US seems like a much better place than here. Well actually, any place but here seems all good now. Soulsearching would be good somewhere faaaar away.

Quex's offer is kind and very very very tempting... Thanks for talking to me...

Hell, in fact thank you to all who've responded to my depression. Love y'all!

"Discipline without freedom is tyranny;
freedom without discipline is chaos."
- Cullen Hightower

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November 9th, 2005 (Wednesday) 10:45 p.m.
Feeling : Tired.

Anyway, woke for school late, AGAIN. That's the 3rd time this week, and like the 15th time this year alone. Whatever... went for background class and had to sit beside I-san since Yanou-san thought I wouldn't be coming and took over my place. No biggie, it was a niec change of company (XD sitting because someone as good as Yanou-san gets depressing sometimes, haha). Got some great advice from the Sensei (ack, I never got his name...) and he spiced up one cut of my FYP so good that I don't think I can add it into the animation no more (too beautiful, will cause inconsistency with the rest of the backgrounds) unless I really spend a lot of effort on it (cutting down the already little time I have for animation). I'll scan what the Sensei did later. One good thing emerged from everyone looking at what backgrounds I've already done though... everyone loves the way I did the sky & clouds. :D What can I say, I love the heavens.

Also, while stocking up on food at the convenience store, Ryan jumped out from nowhere and stopped me. Thought something was up with his extra-friendly tone... Wanted to ask if I was interested in setting a store up for some festival. Eh... well... if he asked last year maybe... Also wonder if his Canadian accent's any different from American.

The politics of fat. Before anyone dismisses it as some lame attempt of fat people in denial, read it first. It was certainly interesting to me.

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November 9th, 2005 (Wednesday) 08:41 p.m.
Feeling : -_-

Humans never learn from their mistakes. Introduced species cause radical changes. Bring in a rat or two to an island? Watch all the birds vanish. Oops! A snake or three stowed away on the ship to another island and POOF! All birds gone again! Bring in rabbits just to hunt for leisure and WHAM, they become a serious pest to local vegetation. Oh my! We found a couple of islands that don't have land mammals! Come people, bring in your pets & let's colonize the place! And there you have it, a land that's stayed unchanged from prehistoric times suddenly has its unique wildlife fighting a loosing battle! Just for your information, the 4 examples I just stated have actually happened many MANY TIMES. It is STILL happening at this very moment. Go and find out where yourselves. You'll probably be shocked that some of these are places well known to people. Feh. It's not usual for alien species to travel places, but this is happening so fast now because of humans. Too fast for the forces of evolution to work its magic on the island natives and buff defences for them against the invaders. Of course, how could we forget the biggest plague of all that's oppressing right about every land animal specie on Earth? Yes... how can we forget humans?

Batsu-kun, thanks for the PM; I really appreciate it. I'll reply or talk to you sometime, but not now... I'll try to give myself a break as suggested.

"Intelligence barred.. quarrelling, sulking, anger, silences of withdrawal,
accusations and tears. Above all, intelligence forbids tears."
- Doris Lessing

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November 8th, 2005 (Tuesday) 08:22 p.m.
Feeling : -_-

Another dream that came up with an uncomfortable 30-minute nap from around 9:30 - 10:00pm yesterday.

My younger sister and I were skilled swordspeople in the dream this time. She owned a black sword and I, a white one. We were fighting over something trivial that had grown hugely out of proportion. We had a master, and he seeemed content to let us fight, as if it was vital for something. We did fight, in Singapore, but we never finished the battle (the discomfort of sleeping at a desk woke me).

Had a long talk with Sis and Quex. Did make me a little more calm ("Into the West" really did the trick) but I was still dead depressed today. -_-;

Meditated last night, kept me sane for a while. Anyway, had another dream this morning during a 2-hour sleep-span (the alarms rang at 6am, I turned them off and Zzz-ed till 8am, panicked and raced to school)

This time I could change into a wolf (not a werewolf, a true wolf). Apparently there were 2 others who could as well, both males. We had been hired for some documentary re-shoot because the film team couldn't get enough footage of the original wolf pack to make their show. o_____O Best of all we were shooting in the bicycle parking lot near my train station. O_o As we got ready (er, changing into wolf-form), I saw one of the guys as a jet black wolf, and the other as an ivory one white as snow. I didn't know what color I was, but for some reason I knew I could change that to whatever I wanted (changed from white to black in an instant... wtf chameleon wolf?!). Then the white one ran off o_O. The end of that dream ended up with the whole crew and us grumbling about looking for the white guy. o_O

Yeah, I knew that everyone dreams everytime they sleep, but at the rate I'm able to remember them of late is REALLY scary. o_O Must be a sign I prefer that over the waking world.

"Man talks of a battle with Nature, forgetting that if he
won the battle, he would find himself on the losing side."
- Fritz Schumacher

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November 7th, 2005 (Monday) 09:15 p.m.
Feeling : Miserably suppressed.

I think I'm having my 2nd real bout of depression now.

Appears the dreams of dying have finally gotten to me. You could say I long to die at present. Rather than being long lived, I almost wish I had say, a month left. And during that month, I'd go wild. But at the moment, the prospect of many years on ahead is truly depressing me. Why is it? Isn't it natural that everyone should want to preserve his or her life? Yes it is. But with all the dreams about dying all these years, I'm getting more and more bogged down by... 'life'. Could you say... bored? Every little action like going to school, seeking out money, eating, sleeping... all of it now seems so uselessly redundant. Why bother with it? Why should anything matter now? Why should anything 'be worth it'? I just don't see meaning in most things I do now. I've even lost my love for a lot now. Every day just drones by like grey as I exist in an alien world. That feeling that haunted me long ago arises now. I do not belong here. I am lost.

Just to anyone who might think I'm going to jump off a building within the next 24 hours, chill. I'm not. Though I might get killed crossing a road in this dreamy state.

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November 7th, 2005 (Monday) 05:26 p.m.
Feeling : Annoyed at self

Okay, Mondays are screwed. Every damn Monday I can't bloody wake up for school. -_- It's either I get up late, or get up feeling sickly, or just don't get up at all ¯~¯; Today just wrapped it all up. For the first time I overslept school too late to rush for it. How late? Too late for the only class for the day, morning. -_- All my alarm clocks went off, but I vaguely remember switching them off then waking at 9:20am (heck I even thought my mp3 was making the noise and got puzzled that it wouldn't stop ringing. -_-; Sleepiness is bad). >_< God dammit I hate this. From perfect attendence to this. -_-

Though then again I had a pretty action-packed dream again. This time it was DnD style. o_O I think I was the sorceress of the team and Bayu-chan was the bard. The rest of the party was away getting ready to fend off a wave of oncoming... creatures? Bayu-chan was taking a awfully long time preparing in his room. He appeared to be living in the same dorm, and while pacing up and down waiting for him, I saw from the 8th storey (the dorm only has 5 floors) a swarm of red sweeping towards from horizon to horizon. Rushed Bayu-chan out (he made a pretty handsome bard) and we were off to face the monsters! Kinda stopped there. D:

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"Music, the greatest good that mortals know,
and all heaven we have below."
- Joseph Addison (1672 - 1719)

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November 5th, 2005 (Saturday) 08:25 p.m.
Feeling : o___O

Okay dammit. God must be trigger-happy on Sycia's 'initiate dream' button.

This time it started pretty normal. I was with a bunch of Japanese and we went to one of Tokyo's off-shore islands (from maps, I'd say it was �ɓ�����) to investigate a strange yellow mist that had set upon the island. The islanders had mysteriously vanished and we'd gotten there by ship. We went in 2 cars. I was in the second. Half of the island was shroud in the yellow mist and it never strayed from it. We drove into it a couple of times while inspecting the coastlines and while in it, visibility was so bad you wouldn't be able to see more than half a foot away from you. Anyway we all decided to inspect one of those caves just in case the locals had fled into it. The moment we stepped into one of the caves, everyone just assumed LotR character roles. o_O There was a Gandulf and Legolas. Vaguely remember a, Aragon and a Glimey somewhere. The cave we entered was red and there were two guides. We didn't have any torches so instead of a pathetically small light spell one of the guys tried doing, I whipped out a lighter (wtf was I doing with one). There was a colossal door / gate before us. At that point we knew we were gonna fight a huge red dragon. The guides opened the gate and we stepped in (I was pretty edgy) to be immediately snapped at by the dragon. It was whoa about the height of a 75-storey building. With a head the size of a house we barely dodged it. We scattered into the enormous carven behind and the Gandult guy started the offensive with the rest while I found the local people in a small corner (God knows what they were doing there). The rest were um... battling furiously. I did jump in a couple of time (the cavern we were fighting in was so so HUGE that I spent a lot of time / energy running from one end to the next) but well we weren't making much of any damage to it considering the staggering size difference. I have a feeling the dragon didn't see us as threats anyway. It simply flicked and yawned as if being bothered by mosquitoes. Then it all changed. The Gandulf guy suddenly got hold of a special sword (from a store outside o_____O). One that emit white flames, and that seemed to hurt our opponent. Not enough though. Someone (could've been me but I don't remember) summoned sakura trees from the earth taller than the dragon itself. For some reason the dragon couldn't stand anything beautiful and began to fire-breath them, giving the others time to attack its more sensitive areas. No matter how many it desroyed though, the summoner continued making new ones sprout. Then the islanders came out and started cheerleading with this ghey song that was stuck in my head for only 10 minutes after I woke. Basically it drove the dragon nuts. o_O Now that was gay. Really really gay.

Random wildlife fact of the moment: (Source, Sycia's noggin)
Less than 5% of the deep sea has been explored. More people have been out into space than down in the abyss.

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November 4th, 2005 (Friday) 11:43 p.m.
Feeling : D:<

8:30pm: Okay, FUCK. That was one hell of an intense dream.

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This time it was in that Upper Neram House when the family still had money and were less divided.. We had a freeloader staying over for some reason (or 2?) and thhe dream started with Mom putting walky-talkies in Lil Sis and Lil Bros baths to find out their erm secrets (people sing weird stuff when they're bathing?) I was telling Mom it's a privacy violation and she kinda pouted about it for a while, but after Dad came along and talked to her, she stopped it. (What the eff. Mom wouldn't do that) After that some little bird flew into the master bedroom. I caught and released the finch, seeing a parade of other finches and... chickens on the roof (lol).

2nd part took place mainly in the master bedroom of the Upper Neram home. I was washing my face then noticed the bathtub had the water running. Turned it off a little then one of the freeloaders was suddenly behind me telling me to not turn it off. I recall at that point, my distrust and disdain for him flared, but Mom and Dad told me to relent so I turned it back on. Then the guy went in with a lighter and a small whiskey bottle (or some spirit). I was freaking out, and Mom + Dad didn't were uncertain. My gut was telling me he was off his crack. For some reason Mom and Dad didn't want to move from their bed (too nice and comfortable?) but I wasn't going to take chances. He was going to set the frigging place. I raced down to the kitchen where the maid was washing dishes. Grabbed a small bowl (to scoup water) and a small red-hilt knife then ran back upstairs.

I had taken too long in the kitchen, or the guy was lightning fast because by the time I got there, everything was just RED. I looked into the master bedroom first and saw a mess of red all over the floor. I didn't not see my parents (thank God or I would have received permanent trauma), but the 2nd freeloader was sprawled across and choking in his own blood. I immediately knew the fate of my parents, but quickly turned to my sibling's room. The sun was out in full so I only saw the silhouette of that psycho knifing my Lil Sis (I think Lil Bro was already down) against a crimson backing and he started approaching. I made a wild yet half-hearted rush at him with my knife and he deflected it successfully with his larger one. I wasn't even sure I wanted to live after what happened. Fortunately or not, before he could get me my pounding heartbeat woke me.

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That happened within 30 minutes of a nap. Woke up just... stunned and with cold fingers (they are STILL cold, 2 hours after). The odd thing is that I wasn't afraid, so it doesn't make much for a nightmare. Just really really really shocked.

And an hour after the dream, Mom called to say Uncle Francis passed away from liver failure. I'm kinda... not affected by it because I only ever saw him a few times when younger. Though the effect it has on a divided family is amazing. For the first time in years, decades, everyone comes together peacefully. Pretty pathetic that only the passing of a loved one can make people put aside their differences... : |

Anyway, later on the family was at Godma's place and since he has a webcam, everyone was crowding around it saying hi (though he had no mic : /).

"sycia, your pleasant dreams are like nightmares to me, and your
nightmare would be 'omfgfdsjkjfd i want my mommy ;o;' kind of dreams"
- Osiris

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November 4th, 2005 (November) 07:13 p.m.
Feeling : Happy, yet my heart breaks

I just spent the whole of last night dorking off on research. What kind? Raptors, geology & seismology, the origins of domestic cats & dogs, candirus (I swear you do NOT want to fall victim to these 1-inch fish), feline hybrids, superpredators, living fossils (both plant & animal) and much more (forgotten most of it through sleep). :D What was the point of it? <-- *was asked* What's wrong with looking up on stuff you're passionate about? I mean it's a lot more productive that wanking over porn and such.

Ah yes, also confirmed the bird species local in Singapore (the average Joe just uses genertic terms like 'crow' or 'mynah') with the research I did several years ago. Could never really confirm them because all I had was a book (good one, but it only had drawings) until now. :D I'm proud that I identified ALL of them correctly ^_^ Came up with a list of them that I've ever recalled seeing flying around free. Listed by population size (well, in my own judgement).


House Crow (corvus splendus)
Rock Pigeon (columba livia) <-- ARGH this is too cute
Javanese White-vented Mynah (acridotheres javanicus) <-- feral
Eurasian Tree Sparrow (passer montanus)
Common Mynah (acridotheres tristis)
Black-Naped Oriole (oriolus chinensis)
Yellow-Vented Bulbul (pycnonotus goiavier)
Spotted Dove (streptopelia chinensis)
Little Egret (egretta garzetta)
Philippine/ Asian Glossy Starling (aplonis panayensis)
Olive-Backed Sunbird (cinnyris jugularis)
Common Kingfisher (alcedo atthis)
White-Bellied Fish Eagle (haliaeetus leucogaster)
Brahminy Kite (haliastur indus)

Reference: Birds usually seen at Sungei Buloh
Looking through the site I came across an article that lists Smooth Otters as native animals, but I've sure never seen em anywhere... o_O Plantain Squirrels I've come across before (nearly squashed one when it ran across my path somewhere near Bugis). It's pretty sad that there are only 2 species of mammals listed on the site. Really really sad.

Also nerded off on more wildlife documentaries. It makes me feel so good seeing the Sumatran Tiger (once native to Singapore, but exterminated) being filmed clearly for the first time in its natural habitat, but seeing a Madagascan moth with a 12 inch-long feeding tongue was whoa O_O And watching a tiny little bird perform the moonwalk was just amazing :D Then it went downhill with the next documentary on primates and humans going, "OH WOW WE AREN'T THE SMARTEST!" Makes me want to bitchslap this idiotic specie 6 times over. Anyway, nowadays documentaries I see, and marvel the beauties of Nature, but at the same time can't help but think of all the shit happening to it now because of human activity. If anyone ever catches me really into a documentary, they'd think I was watching some tear-jerking love-story or drama instead. =_=

It seems a common rule that all REAL wildlife documentary producers don't mind their works being distributed through the internet because documentaries are mostly made with the intention of educating people, and sharing these over the internet achieves this important purpose. I've so far not come across any producers bitching about the distribution since most do want to reach out to people all corners of the world, educate them and help in conservation . Should any one of them mind, they immediately lose their title of 'wildlife conservationist' in my eyes because they would be placing this trivial thing called CASH over the content of their work.

And my blood pressure instanenously shot sky high when someone went "Bear = BIg and stupid". Fought down the urge to argue with scientific proof of their intellect, simply because there is no point in trying to convince people that animals have ANY intellect at all. It's like how some people say humans aren't animals. My foot. Then what are they, plants? Go check up the damn dictionary for a change. Amazing how ignorant people in this age can still be.

I don't know which causes more damage to Nature, ignorance, or the unwillingness to compromise despite knowledge and understanding.

Random wildlife fact: The Brazilian wandering spider is the most deadly spider in the world. Contrary to what the public regards the black widow as, this little baby has venom 40 times more venomous. And it is known to be have an aggressive temperament. Rather ironic that in most cases people get bitten by such a powerful creature when dealing with bunches of bananas imported from Brazil (the spiders have a tendency to hide in them, apparently).

"There are today about 10,000 species of birds, and 1186 of them
are considered to be under threat of extinction. Except for 11
species, the threat is man-made."
- Wikipedia, Extinct Birds

^ Well done humankind, well done.

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November 5th, 2005 (Thursday) 11:21 p.m.
Feeling : Glad

:D Went for the homecoming party this afternoon. Well... before that Joyce and I had some Singapore food. I'm pretty glad I went for the party at the Japanese school I studied at for a whole year. Missed the party last year because of a depression bout, and nearly did it again this year (what IS it with autumn and depression?). It was fun~ Saw Gamba again (bumped into him earlier this week) and it seems he's dating one of the Vietnam girls. Other people met, Otouto-chan, Bayu, Adian, Abdul, Mai, Romeo, Pirum, Midori-sensei, Takahashi-sensei, Kunitou-sensei... and so many more. Reminds me of the days of my most social period of life (staying at the old dorm with tiny rooms). Fun (not taxing simply because I was dead bored for that 1 year without a computer). Talked to Bayu-chan and Otouto-chan quite a bit. It's a pity both of them are moving away from Tokyo to their individual universities... I'll really miss them. Then again, if I ever want to tour the Kansai area, I'll know just who to look for >:D Seems B-chan is going to Singapore soon. To my shock, he's started fansubbing. :o Aaaanyway, we've made plans for a yakiniku trip soon ^____^

o_O Why is it people find it so amazing I only got a cell phone 2 years ago? In Singapore I was mostly at home and never needed one though my parents kept telling me to get one (heck they even offered to buy it and all). I never liked being bothered when I went out, and sometimes my exasperated Mom would even call though my friends' to get to me (Joyce and Sis haha). One very very rare occasions (like 2 times?) I just brought my Mom's out with me for her to call later. That was it. The only reason I got a cell phone here is because I was moving and for some time I'd be without a home phone. : | Frankly I don't use the cell phone much at all, but it IS essential because I can ONLY call home with it (damn home phone is pulse, won't go through the international calling card operators).

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November 3rd, 2005 (Thursday) 06:07 a.m.
Feeling : ...... (*&!%(*&

I despise the way this article uses 'attacks' to refer to vampire bats feeding.

Health authorities in northern Brazil are trying to cope with a wave of attacks on humans by vampire bats infected with the deadly rabies virus. Rabies caused by bat bites has killed 23 people in the last two months. It is not the first wave of attacks by vampire bats in the Amazon, but Brazilian authorities say this latest outbreak is unusually serious. Some experts are blaming deforestation in the Amazon region for this latest wave of attacks. Sixteen people died of rabies after being bitten by bats in an area of marshlands in the northern state of Maranhao. Seven more died in another part of the state. Health authorities say they have treated more than 1,300 people for rabies after being attacked by vampire bats, almost always at night in their houses. In the affected areas, people have been trying to fill gaps in the walls of their huts with banana leaves to stop the bats getting in. Some experts have blamed the attacks on destruction of the rainforest, denying the bats of their natural habitat. But others have suggested the vampire bat population may have grown rapidly, with the spread of cattle farming in the region providing an ample food supply. Mass attacks on humans have occurred in other cattle regions in Latin America when the cattle are suddenly removed, denying the bats their normal food. The bats drink the blood of other mammals while they are asleep. They are the main carriers of rabies in Brazil.

Oh SUUUUUURE they make it sound like vampire bats actually HUNT down their victims like vicious monsters of sorts. How about some less gory, more realistic facts for the less informed huh?

Vampire bats, are small flying mammals with the body size smaller than a human palm. They seek out sleeping prey and when they find an appropriate one (say a cattle for example), go up to the animal and nibble on (for example) the area behind the hoof with their 2 front sharp incissors till they draw blood. For your bloody information, their prey don't feel the pain because the bats' saliva contain a numbing substance that also contains anti-clotting fluids to help them get the blood they need for survival. They lick the wound until they get enough and return to their roost. Vampire bats live in colonies. And they are surprisingly social. If any bat can't find food, other members of the roost will FEED it some blood they got so it can survive another day.

Now here's a nice little thought for you. Ordinary omnivores or carnivores KILL to consume the food they need for survival. Vampire bats do not. If you want to damn well argue with me how they spread rabies, then I'll spit at you and shove the figures of dengue fever (spread by mosquitoes) to compare. FEH.

The last thing Nature needs is a mass genocide on birdkind or bats by humankind. However, looking back at history and the ignorance of people on animals they do not understand, this is sadly looking more and more like the tradegy that is to befall Mother Earth in the very near future.

Tasmanian Tiger, South China Tiger (as good as extinct now feh), Japanese Wolf, Barbary Lion, hell go to Wikipedia and search up any major specie of large predator and you'll see that at LEAST 1 species of them is EXTINCT. You will find notice that these are all predatory animals that are powerful enough to take down humans. Oh yes mankind, EXTERMINATE all life that ever poses a natural danger to you and screw up the balance, YES, DO THAT.

............. Zest and spark has been refuelled.

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November 2nd, 2005 (Wednesday) 11:21 p.m.
Feeling : : |

Sycia is such a dork. o(�^�)o Stuff like this keeps her fascinated for much longer than the news, sports or television programmes (most non-documentary ones anyway).

Val's Bleach Musical crack. XD Oh god I died laughing at this. Aizen's the only good-looking one in there. Uh I think it's something to do with him having a normal hairdo. Rukia was done pretty good too. Hahaha, I love Val's crack XD

Also, this is plain stupid. Dispute over the name of a sea? Goddamnit GROW UP people. -_- Moronic meaningless fight of inflated, sickly egos. Firstly, no one owns the oceans/ seas. It's just THERE. Hell they've been around way longer than you stupid humans so why bother arguing which country's name should be before/ behind the word? Second, how old are you governments? Because you sound like you're run by frigg'in 6-year olds. I can swallow conflict over import rates or taxes, but this is just ridiculous.

Talked to Kyoji-niichan in such a long time XD Funny guy. I really respect him; taught me a lot on stuff. : ) Like a real niichan.

Kyoji (22:31) : motto hanashi wa ATO DA!
Sycia (22:31) : Haihai misetai shashin takusan aru : P
Kyoji (22:31) : shashin?
Kyoji (22:32) : ero na shashin?
Sycia (22:32) : 'n WAKE NAI JAN ERO KAPPA!!! XD
Sycia (22:32) : Nihon no ryokou shashin :3 Tokyo janai
Kyoji (22:33) : che! ero ja nai nara kyoumi nai! ;P
Kyoji (22:33) : j/k ;P
Sycia (22:33) : : P
Kyoji (22:33) : SHIN NO OTOKO NARA, KORE DAKE SHIKA NAI NO SA!
Kyoji (22:33) : OPPAI WA PURUPURU SHITARI!
Sycia (22:33) : *ROTFLMAO*
Sycia (22:34) : *rolls over laughing non-stop*
Kyoji (22:34) : SORE GA DENSETSU DA!!
Kyoji (22:34) : SOU! HITO SORE O UNMEI TO IU!
Sycia (22:34) : XD sore ijou iu to ore, warai de shinjau yo
Kyoji (22:34) : [/soapbox]
Sycia (22:34) : Go eat lol Or I will die of laughter

~ ~ ~ ~ painting the skies with each wingbeat ~ ~ ~ ~