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Yeah..? You got a problem with that, H U H ? ? ?
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+ + January 30th, 2004 (Friday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---Hungover-ed slightly...--
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Weeeee Orochimaru~ ^^ Hakkai's gonna turn youkai too (at long last). At least anime makes me a little happier for 25 minutes.
Drank rice-wine with the dorm sensei last night and I am curently suffering from what might call a slight hangover. Not because I drank too much and got drunk (I didn't, unfortunately), but because I got too little sleep. Sensei was all happy and babbling... o_____O High? Drunk? I don't know. I still have 4/5 of a big-ass bottle of rice-wine left... Got to finish it before the moving...
Can't wait to get my own computer... -_____- Got to make a list of software I need from Singapore...
Influenza bug has been going around school real bad. 5 teachers were told to stay home, several others who show signs of the flu still striving to teach, and half of all the classes in the school got the day off because 3/4 of everyone was sneezing like crazy. My class? About 2 people who have it. I estimate the number to rise sharply. According to the sensei, this has never happened in the school's 80-year history... Hmmmm.... Birds, humans, what's next? Pigs too?
Spring's approaching. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 04:19 p.m. (GMT +9) - lj ~ ~ ~
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+ + January 28th, 2004 (Wednesday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---Fatigued. EXTREMELY.--
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*Takes a deep breath*
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!)(&'!()$&!%!'
Ah. So much better.
2 nights without sleep and I'm feeling thinned out. On the bright side I've gotten new inspiration to work on some anime ideas, and staying up for late-night animes isn't much of a chore any longer.
Bayu-chan answered to my sushi craving yesterday and showed Joyce and I to some sushi bar. My my. The first real sushi I've has in Japan. And it tastes wonderful. So so SO different from the "sushi" back home (YUCK), and uber fresh too. Each plate of 2 was just 130 yen. Xo~~~~ I want some more. Walking back with Bayu-chan, he doubled over upon seeing 2 guys about to kiss, then causually remarked "tanoshisou naaaa" I swear he's almost gay.
人は親友を裏切らない。
裏切ろうと考える瞬間からその相手はもう「親友」
でなく成るから、裏切っても相手は唯の知り合いだ。
Just a thought. People say that suicide is cowardly and selfish, etc etc. Yet still so many people think death pretty friendly when their most loved one/s go that way. It doesn't really matter to me. Everyone's going to die either way (for all you know your last grain of sand might emptied down to the bottom tonight), and death ISN'T the end of everthing. I will claim right now that I am afraid of NOT dying (dying in my dreams, it's always a calm feeling, never a nightmare). Not getting "renewed" doesn't sound too appealing to me. Religion is useful there. You can cry out to thin empty air and "pray" when you're depressed, to a possibly non-existent figure spun from tales and myths. You can go convince your yellow ass that the gods are going to put you in some nice cloudy place after you've led a normal life contributing absolutely nothing to society, dissing other people for not believe in your God, and maybe even condemning them to Hell. Religion is as fake as that shimmering "oasis" in a desert. But DEATH is real. If the person I love the most in the world died, if what I deem most valuable to my soul vanished (nature), I'd see no point of remaining.
From T-Rex:
"If a man goes on a seven-day trip, he'll pack five days worth of clothes and will wear some things twice; if a woman goes on a seven-day trip she'll pack 21 outfits because she doesn't know what she'll feel like wearing each day."
Bwahaha XD Yeah.
"Men have higher body temperatures than women. If your heating goes out in the winter, I recommend sleeping next to a man. Men are like portable heaters that snore."
Eh, alright, now the fact that I can walk around in short-sleeves despite it being winter bothers me.
"When a woman tries on clothing from her closet that feels tight, she will assume she has gained weight. When a man tries something from his closet that feels tight, he will assume his clothing has shrunk."
XD Another one that hits the bullseye.
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 05:12 p.m. (GMT +9) - lj ~ ~ ~
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+ + January 26th, 2004 (Monday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---Frustrated.--
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One thing's for sure; the people one used to consider in the highest regard abondoning one in a dark corner to rot isn't an everyday thing.
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 12:05 p.m. (GMT +9) - lj ~ ~ ~
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+ + January 23rd, 2004 (Friday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---... stressed out--
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And a Happy Chinese New Year to you too. I want Mom's steamboat... *looks at her once-a-day-meal and sighs*
I think my hair is right about to turn all silver (don't ask, it just doesn't go white) or just fall off my head at once now.
Mmmkay, looking at how crappy the pictures of originally beautiful sunsets I took turned out with the cell phone's camera, I yearn for a digital camera. Not that I love snapping people or myself, I just keep finding beautiful things that just need to be recorded down. What the hell am I talking about, I can't even afford an apartment and computer yet. Wish not, want not.
Sis: Moshi mosh?
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 05:23 p.m. (GMT +9) - lj ~ ~ ~
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+ + January 21st, 2004 (January) + +
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--Feeling?---|---ENRAGED--
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Some singer on television wearing what looked like animal fur (mink) reminded me of something I saw a long time ago.
The sky was rumbling with soft thunder, ominously announcing rain to come. Strong winds had already turned the sea choppy, frothing with white foam. An colossal iceberg rocked slowly through the chaos, keeping to its own rythem faithfully as a tinyed icebreaker roared towards with sinister intent. Fur seals had been on that iceberg. Adults and young alike. I still wonder why they were there, for seals ordinarily head for solid land to give birth ,and that iceberg did not look like it broke off recently. As the roaring drew closer, some seals rolled over to look unconcerned, others kept on dozing, while the pups continued suckling. In all, I estimated 5 dozen animals. (Note: in typical packs, there is only 1 male and many females)
The ship collided carelessly into the ice giant. Being dwarfed by an ice body at least 6 times, it wasn't too surprising to me that the impact was hardly felt by the animals. Men leapt forth from the ship precariously syncronizing their movements to match the sea and iceberg's. For all their efforts, not one failed. No, they appeared experts to this. Armed with clubs and rifles, the small group of humans drew closer to the pack of seals, not even trying to hide their presence.
The first adult seal that noticed the two-legged creature let out a panicky growl. Her pup was asleep and oblivious as she began wobbling her way to the edge of the iceberg. All around, the adults began to flee as well. A few stayed, including the powerful scarred sire of all the abruptly abondoned pups. Almost all the offspring were still donned in thick white fluffy fur coats, a sign they had just been born less then a month ago. As the fleeing seals plunged despressly over the iceberg's edge, the men finally arrived upon the outermost pups. They knew nothing but confusion and a rain of blows as these strange tall creatures began their slaughter.
Blow after blow, the clubs were brought down, each man to one pup. Whines and pained grunting. Bones cracking. Skulls smashing. Seals are born with a thick layer of bubbler to keep them warm. In that situation, it only softened the blows slightly, and prolonged their torture. The half of the remaining adults looked in contemplation, then turned to the sea to join up with the rest. The 4 that stayed to try bringing down the monsters were lost to the quick spray of bullets while the intruders continued.
Blow after blow. They carried on. Deaf to the cries of innocent children never to see the wonders of the ocean, never to know freedom, only experiencing a short period of mother's warmth, mother's love, before dulled pain from above suddenly came for no reason at all. I watched through tears, unable to move.
The iceberg was left, no longer white, but with red liquid dripping down the sides, and 4 adult fur seal bodies left conveniently there, to be picked on by seabirds, all pups' bodies carried to that icebreaker to be skinned, and cared for preciously.
That day on, the word "humane" lost all meaning to me. I don't think I had ever cried for any other person before until then. THIS is how my HATE for HUMANS was sparked off.
If I had the power, I'd MAKE animal-fur buyers WATCH those animals from cradle to their violent grave. Only after one has watched it all have their the right to sit on their fat asses and pay for skins that come at the expense of so many lives. Fuck that. I would make them live through the lives of those animals. So many innocent lives. Be it animals out in the wild or those reared in farms, killing them just to make fashion statements is senseless. Oh yes. I want to DESTROY humans. This is only 1 example of the mercilessness animals take from them...
Pehaps this is the reason why one of my prized possessions is a small white seal push...
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 05:26 p.m. (GMT +9) - lj ~ ~ ~
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+ + January 21st, 2004 (January) + +
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--Feeling?---|---Stressed out, frustrated but trying to keep a straight face--
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I am tired. Really feel like some toy left in some dark corner.
I know I often claim to hate thinking, but somehow my mind just loves it.
Anyway, I'll leave that to one side for a bit.
Thrusday afternoon was spent at Tokyo Design Gakuin. After clearing some doubts, filling up some documents and barely managing a cruelly suggested impromptu interview, I only have to go there again to hand in a copy of my passport and I'm all set for the new school term. language school just gets duller by the lesson seriously. I spent most of the day drawing horses.
I'm now eating chocolate in the morning to last me till dinner. Lame attempt to save, but chocolate just wakes me up and keeps me warm through the day. A whole bar of dark, bitter chocolate resulted in Sycia overheating (body), turning super-genki and feeling a little sick to the stomach, so I reduced it to half a bar :d. I've also become quite a figure around school for walking about in 5 degrees Celcius weather with only cargo pants and short-sleeved T-shirts.
Been having a very healthy week so far. Greens, but not vegetables. Tomatoes (it's got seeds, hence it is a fruit), broccoli (flower), green peppers (again, seeds so it's a fruit) in large amounts. Apparently greens have all their supposedly 'good' effects in reverse on Sycia. I never recalled greens giving anyone constipation before, nor have I ever read about greens making one nosebleed in buckets. I've got such a weird body. XD But healthy nonetheless.
Dry and itchy (possibly cracked) skin is normal in winter, as I was told of late. I've never had that problem (which beats Koreans and Japanese themselves who live all they lives with winter months and still haven't gotten used to it), hence I thought it a rare problem. But Joyce pointed out, almost, no. Make that every foreign student suffers from that condition when the weather turns for the colder; most reigon students are from warmer, more humid reigions so that's expected. Main reason, I figure, is because most people being unable to handle a little physical hardship, use creams pills lotions etc to fix their skin problem without allowing their body to adapt to the climate. Result? Reliance on chemicals to keep your body intact in a different environment and eventually a very weak body. I don't use medicine, lip-balm, hell not even moisturizing lotions. I had cracked lips and cracked skin on me nose when I arrived (spring), but that didn't last more than a week. All it took was just some endurance. If you just allow your body to adapt naturally, it'll find a way to counter the problem eventually. I don't think humans are so physically handicapped yet. Although... I may be so wrong.
It snowed finally... ^^ Tokyo hardly gets any percipitation during winter. I woke up on Saturday morning upon getting a mystery call at 11pm with no one on the other end. The flakes were so tiny and few you could almost dismiss it as someone's dandruff from the top floor floating down, but when it turned night, :D Lots of snow... Wasn't cold enough for the snow to gather on the ground, but hey, now I can say I've seen snow. ^^
It had rained on Monday as well. Watching how a group of women try to stay dry amused me so with their complaints of how wet and cold they were . How the hell do you expect the rain to stay out if you keep that umbrella straight up (perpendicular to the ground) no matter where the wind blows the rain (note: almost everyone in Japan does that for some reason)? I don't know about you, but when the rain is being blown from e.g the right of me, I'd face my umbrella that way until it changes direction. That keeps me dry (save a few drops of water down near the feet), and my bag without a single raindrop. Yes, I think the good majority of people these days have no common sense. All their braincells have been wasted on algebra or mathematical formulas studied in elementary school. Don't tell me they just watch everyone else around them and just follow suit? Babies do that. Babies are stupid. Eventually you grow up doing but hardly thinking about what's considered normal. Monkey see, monkey do. Monkey doesn't know what's good for you.
Adventure-type animes appeal to me a lot (Slayers, One Piece etc). Probably because I yearn for excitement. Escape from a monotonous reality with even more boring people around. Maybe because I want a group of people, who'll go through the worst of hell and prove themselves true friends. Fantasy. Just a sweet fantasy. Reality isn't that kind and we all know it.
The Moon
What's Your Celestial Personality Type?
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Fuck. This is so true, 'specially that last sentence.
Your wings are DRAGON wings. Massive and covered in scales, they shimmer with strength and magic. They are the most obvious display of your power - though it runs equally throughout your heart and mind. You are uncompromising and grave, with a profound sense of justice. You have firm ideas about what is right and what is wrong and set out to fix what problems you can. You realize that you are more capable of dealing with life and evil than most, and as such you see it as your responsibility to protect those who cannot defend themselves. You have existed since antiquity and as such you are wise far beyond your years in this lifetime. While you strive for fairness and peace, if someone should steal from your cave of treasure (though not all that glitters is gold) or compromise the happiness of you or one who is close to you - they have signed their death warrant. You have a mighty vengeance and will unleash it upon such people immediately and mercilessly. Arguing with you is useless...you rarely back down and are known for holding firm in your beliefs. Sometimes you feel intensely burdened with the troubles of others...acting as a Guardian can get so wearisome. But you never give up...you see it as your life's mission. Often very introverted, you can be so smart...it's scary. Such a combination of intelligence, creativity, power, beauty, and magic is often intimidating to those around you - who are also unlikely to understand you. Arrogant, proud, overserious, and sometimes a bit greedy or obsessed with whatever treasure you choose to pursue...you have enchanted people for centuries, and will continue to do so.
*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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Very very true, again. Arguing with me useless? Guess that's something I got from my father, though whether he has strong beliefs I don't know. Arguing is a waste of time and I avoid it mostly, unless one has mustered enough guts to touch on the subject of Nature and bring it up to me (which in most cases has me rambling off till the other party has nothing more to say).
In the words of the mystical Magic 8 Ball, I can not predict now.....
What's your Karmic Zodiac Sign?
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Okaaaaaay...
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 04:30 p.m. (GMT +9) - lj ~ ~ ~
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+ + January 16th, 2004 (Friday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---Grateful it's Friday--
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Busy busy busy busy... people chasing me out internet cafe... ><
Juke Four: Sorry, can't write to you right away. Too busy at the moment.
Your spirit lies in a rainbow! The lovers the dreamers and you! Rainbows are more than just rainbows and you know this very well. Rainbows are a promise, faith, a miracle and a reminder to all of what is important in life. Rainbows are a sign that dreams really can come true. You are an idealist. You have a deep love for people and the world. You are spiritual and a peace lover. You see a connection in everything and try to bring harmony where ever you go. You believe in miracles and are a true dreamer. You believe in the honest and true things in life. The things in life that are so honest and pure that when they touch your soul you feel as if to cry. You believe that the things in life that seem the most like dreams are the most real. You aspire to be a reminder in whatever it is that you wish to do in your life. Whether you desire to be an artist, musician, writer, actor, cook, politician humanitarian, fireman, police officer, teacher, lawyer, doctor, librarian, engineer, scientist, beautician etc... You are a reminder to people of what is important in life, that there is much more to life that what we often think and than dreams really can come true. Many great people were rainbows and what a beautiful thing it is to be. Your work will shine like a rainbow.
Where In Nature Does Your Spirit Lie?
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The honest and pure things in life? Nature. Deep love for people? Non-humans, sure. Humanitarian? No. Rainbows are colorful things you can't eat. This quiz only gives you the good qualities... where the bad to balance it out?
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 04:18 p.m. (GMT +9) - lj ~ ~ ~
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--Feeling?---|---Shocked and frankly, disappointed.--
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I've been feeling my heart growing more distant from people as days go by. The main reason still eludes me (though I know a good lot of the side factors). I know how Sis feels now.
Had indigestion throughout the whole of Monday night (think I ate too much). Didn't sleep (very very very very tired from tossing and turning in bed for 6 damn hours) but stayed awake in class nonetheless (somehow). @.@
Big bad villains in most shows who go "I'll destroy the world!!!", you shouldn't deem them stupid or psycho. They have their own reasons. Just like some religions' God has his/ her/ its own reasons (or none?) for wanting to rain armageddon down as well. I see no difference between these 2 subjects.
Never has it been so clear to me how money corrupts. Or should I say how people allow themselves to get corrupted all for money. Mom, please stop saying Dad doesn't give you enough because there are so many things that you can get without it. The reality of it all just slapped me trice over the nose. Livejournal friends may read it here.
Haha, thanks to Alan for the link to a really cool gif (XD he says it reminds him of my verbal anger). Click here to see it.
Hey, is Mom busy?
RED: Denotes prosperity, and fame; Defined as Summer, and represents the element of Fire. Signifies illumination, clarity, intelligence. Maximum state of energy.
Your Lucky Colour (based on Asian colour symbolism)
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I love the cold... Summer just kills me.
Oh, and 2 new photographs.
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 05:19 p.m. (GMT +9) - lj ~ ~ ~
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--Feeling?---|---Thoughtful--
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No time to update for the moment. Monday's a holiday. More sleep. ...zzzz
My calling in life is catching up with me. Hmm.
... Sassin: write to me whenever 'kay?
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 04:11 p.m. (GMT +9) - lj ~ ~ ~
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--Feeling?---|---Blah--
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Powerful winds blowing through Tokyo today...
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Don't feel like doing the blog thing today. Just want to post pictures. "SNAPSHOTS" link to your right...
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 05:18 p.m. (GMT +9) - lj ~ ~ ~
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Mindless rant #2. Ignore:
Annoying thing. You think too highly of some. Like said before, people are disappointing. Everyone lives to make use of others in the world. Be it for companionship, sex, money, dependency or what not, so it's not surprising at all that no one cares when you're down. No one owes you comforting, and it's out of the way. Don't want to get all down? Then don't expect anything of anyone. You're on your own in life after all.
Survived half a week on practically no cash. Hmm. Let's see if I can keep it up. Still rotting from boredom but at least I save.
Receiving a muffler from Grandma (huh?).
Bayu-san saved me; invited me to play Dynasty Warriors with him. Thank the heavens. Some entertainment.
EM has done it again; made me feel so loved just by being in the same lobby. Heh. You people must think I'm nuts to consider a normal person 'god'. Other than that the whole week has been nothing but dots.
Survey.
.... as you can read, Sycia has become as blahed and dotted as Sesshoumaru.
What .hack//SIGN Character Are You?
*Shrug* Thought I'd get Bear.
What Anime Stereotype Are You?
Girl... sap? Maple.
What Inuyasha Villain Are You?
.... true, unfortunately.
From "Final Fantasy 7"
What Video Game Villain Are You?
Never played the game. The new rendered version of him looks uber weird.
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 12:13 p.m. (GMT +9) - lj ~ ~ ~
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--Feeling?---|---..... annoyed--
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Happy New Year.
鷲森さん：あけましておめでとうございます！
カードを頂きました。どうもありがとうございました！
Finally got that mobile... Those who know me well enough, check your email for number details.
The Sensei took a few of us to the nearby shrines and temples for the new year. Chatted with him about astronomy. Joyce was shocked at how I could understand most of it in Japanese. Well, I was flipping through encyclopedias about astronomy, animals and plants since I was 3 so... Anyway. It was supposed to be a countdown but we arrived a minute late. I never knew we had a 900 year-old temple so close to the drorm (well, amidst the winding narrow network of roads & lanes). After lining up for about an hour just to 'pray' or 'make a wish', and sipping a wee-bit of Japanese rice wine made by the people at the shrine (which most of our group didn't like, complaint: "too strong"), we headed to one of the many stalls lining the entrance of the place to have oden (picture). Yes. Winter is the best time for oden. :q I had been wearing 2 line layers of clothing (wasn't cold at all, or at least for me), but sipping the hot soup did the trick. The sensei (who thinks I can hold my drink real well) shoved me a big cup of Japanese rice wine. Downed it all at once (didn't want to keep everyone waiting), then went onto amazake (sweet rice drink with a dash of alcohol). Yeah, I've been trashed. Thank goodness I lasted long enough to walk home and take a bath (head was spinning). But I didn't get drunk. darn.
Other than that I have been bored stiff. People around have been wondering why I'm studying during the winter holidays, but hell I am BORED. There isn't anything else to do. I have not complained of boredom since my primary school days. Without a computer, or a game console of any kind, yeah I've been rotting in my room. Bored to tears? Hell yeah. I've been considering asking my family to find me a modified Playstation 2 from Singapore and send it over, but thinking about it no. Too expensive and I can't be sure that it'll work until it's all bought and shipped. Until I get my own computer, it'll be just studying. .... .... .... until May *insert muffled scream here*
.... could just take up the "I shall destroy the world!!!!" role just for some entertainment right now.
Hehehe, today's daily photo of hers is so cute.
Kyowa-chan: Thanks for the info! Hail to the Sailormoon drama *runs to a corner to puke*.
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 12:51 p.m. (GMT +9) - lj ~ ~ ~
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(integrated MPD), tormented in the soul & schizophrenic in the heart. Languages understood: English, Japanese, Chinese, Hokkien, Teochew & Malay.
