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Yeah..? You got a problem with that, H U H ? ? ?
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+ + September 26, 2003 (Friday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---Blahed.--
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Temperature rising, Sycia getting annoyed. ><
Big earthquakes measuring 8 on the Richter scale rocked Hokkaidou this morning. A sleeping person whom the phone can`t wake would not have felt it. I guess I should call my host family with some added concern for formality's sake. Though isn't that big quake supposed to happen over in Tokyo? Hokkaidou's way too far up.
Quite dotted at the moment. I did have more to say originally, but it all got knocked out of my head a while ago.
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 04:53 p.m. (GMT +9) ~ ~ ~
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+ + September 24, 2003 (Wednesday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---Trying to hide detachness with craziness...--
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Gwaaaahahahahhahaaaa! AND THE WIND BLOWS WHITE!!!!
*Ahem* Tokyo is still being blessed with a cold spell, I mean. Stay this way! ^^ I like it.
If...
[x] women don't look in the mirror every 5 minutes
[x] men don't think about sex every 7 seconds
[x] humans could live in harmony with Nature
[x] the Earth wasn't slowly being strangled
[x] there were more truly good people in the world
*Looks at the above* I dream far too much.
Which Pirates of the Caribbean character are you?
Thought I`d get bone-y...
Certainly be a tad drunk after I get the booze from me classmate. I feel so lurrrrved to be endowed with so much alcohol of late. :D Wonder what rum really tastes like; have tasted rum & raisins ice-cream, but that doesn't come close to the real thing.
Mei: Why don't you help Mr Dictator lighten up? Here's some rum and a bib; be creative.
"baam-di-di-doo-de-pa-purapaaaa.... tTE NANI?!"
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 04:20 p.m. (GMT +9) ~ ~ ~
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+ + September 22nd, 2003 (Monday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---Headache-d--
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What the heck is up with the weather here geeeez. 2 days ago it was a sauna at 33 degrees Celcius, then after that dropped to 16 degrees just because of a passing typhoon. I seriously don't mind the cold (love it in fact), but the sudden extreme can put your health on a low (thankfully, I`m still fine). Wish the chill would stay. That and I got stirred by an earthquake (not a big one like the rumors predicted but it shook long), 12:54pm on Saturday while taking a nap. People, can't you hear the sound of one? oO The rumbling's so loud and widespread it woke me rather than the shaking of the earth. The typhoon brought rain, lots of it, and once more the place stinks like fart. -.-; And Sycia is the only one who smells it. I`m beginning to think my senses are more in sync with Nature than people.
Thank god tomorrow's a holiday. My head is killing me.
The world wishes Singapore' senior Minister Happy 80th Birthday. Would you like a pretzel? He did make a the only developed country in South-east Asia within 40 something years, from nothing. Singapore has no natural resources, but smaller than Tokyo, yet it is a well-known country with one of the most thriving economies in the world. I`ve gotta take my hat off him for making something outta nothing. But he is getting old and senile. Hence, would you like a pretzel?
Mom called on Saturday to ask about the earthquake (which was pretty small in my opinion). Dad surprisingly gave me better advice than Mom on my current problem (see below). I`m happy that their shop has finally opened, now give them some customers!
Mei: You just take care of stuff at home okay? :) I honestly found William Turner quite annoying. Elizabeth too. They`re fishfood! ^^ Pirates pirates pirates! XD I don't mind that zombie crew either. They're interesting. Though, the monkey has to go.
Took this test and got Jack. Weird, I thought that zombie Captain would turn up for me... Hm.
"The freezer bag at home - to my wife's disgust - is
actually full of giant squid gonad samples. We're
going to grind all of this up, and we're going to
have this puree coming out from the camera, squirting
into the water."
"Hopefully the male giant squid, absolutely driven
into a frenzy, is going to come up and try to mate
with the camera."
"This is the dream - we're going to get this
sensational footage of the giant squid trying to do
obscene things with the camera."
- Source...
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 05:16 p.m. (GMT +9) ~ ~ ~
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+ + September 19th, 2003 (Friday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---.....--
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So where's that mega-earthquake that was forecasted? I`m seriously getting bored of waiting.
Conversing in 3 languages to another is fun when everyone else just stares in amazement. English, Chinese and Japanese. I'm glad to have someone who can manage all 3 find sitting right beside me.
Noisy females in class. Fine if they want to apply dead animal / plant substances on their o-so-dear faces or talk shallow about their opinons on other people, but keep those voices down to a NORMAL level. -_____-+++
Appetite ceasing randomly too.
"No, that ain't walking. Here be tap-dancing."
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 05:07 p.m. (GMT +9) ~ ~ ~
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+ + September 18th, 2003 (Thursday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---Frustrated with myself--
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*Hic!* *Sob...* *Dead*
It`s been a hellish few days. My mood just went all directions really.
First it was mounted frustration that wrecked through me the whole of Tuesday. Stress from studies (or me feeling I`m just STUPID when it comes to academic stuff), home etc etc). I tried so hard to keep myself together the entire day, though more than 10 times I shed quiet tears out of the blue and forced them down again. Apparently, I should get an Oscar for it because no one noticed anything wrong with me. That`s nice. Thank you for caring. Yay. Got back to the dorm almost breaking and finally cried to my heart`s content. Didn`t feel a lot better, just don`t feel like breaking down any longer. Joyce was mightily concerned for me that night after she got to know about it.
Before I go on to Wednesday, here`s a basic summary on why I was so upset. Not that many, or any care, but it`s just for me to reflect on in a few month`s time.
After studying my ass off for the whole summer holiday, I came back to school prepared to take a test to judge how much the students have improved or fallen back after the summer vacation (some of us did study with all we had). People from the lower classes were advancing, jumping onto higher classes, yet from my class, no one went any higher (just... back down). And since I`m one of those that puts in the most hours studying in my dorm (well known fact around there), I found it odd that others from there could advance up to MY class, yet I could go nowhere (of course, there are people better than me in my class, and they didn`t get anywhere either duh). It simply felt unfair. Plain and simple. Everyday of the homestay programme in Hokkaidou, I would go back to the host-family`s, exhausted like the other 3 students posted to that town, and I`d force myself to study. Study for 3 hours, at least, like I always do in the dorm. I have never been one for studying, or anything to do with books even, so all the willpower I`ve been burning for Japanese studies is really, everything I've bleed'in hell got. The fact that the results of the test wasn`t even released, and the apparent fact that I was (no, AM) getting nothing much out of spilling blood, sweat and tears over studies, while other people study so much less and do better just makes me want to walk off a random pier with a cut wrist. Frustration and annoyance at its peak.
Wednesday, had a chat with my homeroom teacher over the issue. Since I bore the true face of my current disposition at the time, she was rather worried, telling me to take a break. Right. Everyone tells me that but just think people; if I study so damned desperately just to get marks normal people can easily get, what`ll happen when I "take a break"?! *Lets out a scream that sends Imhotep (The Mummy) running for his mom*. Basically Sensei said I can advance to higher classes if I want to, but she just felt the chapters I`d skip are too important. Yeah right, then what about the chapters those people from the lower classes skipped. And she said what I expected her to say; that I`m good at Japanese. Then again, like said before many times, you cannot tell when a Japanese is complimenting you for formality`s sake, or really meaning it. Jumping up classes? I`m fine not doing that, but not knowing how far I`ve gotten after losing 4 hours on average each day to studying, for the entire vacation? That's idiotic. Basically I didn`t get an answer, but fuck it. I am going put in all I can for studying either way. I told myself I'd do well, and that`s what I am going to do. Feh. Now if this persistent headache would just go away... *Looks at bottle of rice-wine* ... .... ... ... ... .. . .. .
Went to watch Pirates of the Carribean; The Curse of the Black Pearl. First movie watched in Japan that cost 1000 yen ouch. It`s that price for females on Wednesdays, 1800 yen for every other day and for males all the time. Like I said, Japan loves women. -.- The movie did cheer me up some (hey, it`s better than the already good "The Mummy"). For too long I've been deprived of English, but I was slightly unprepared for 2 types of it from different ends of the spectrum. Nice movie. Orlando Bloom was playing a much weaker character than I anticipated, but nevermind. Jack Sparrow shines above anyway. Almost anyone who isn`t Orlando-nuts would agree that Jack Sparrow stole the show. Never have I liked a movie character so much. Probably Johnny Depp's best role ever. I need to get a copy of the script some time. Yeah, good script. Fun show. Very fun show. ^^ I`d watch it over Lord of the Rings anytime.
One more thing... -_- Sitting through the commercials for upcoming and currently showing movies, I`ve discovered how cut off from the rest of the world I am, here in Japan guh. Underworld appears based off that RPG game.... *Shrug* No wonder White Wolf is suing.
Mei: You don`t have to pit yourself against them (uh, you`re facing 3/4 of the world or more), just believe in yourself. I don`t see why people need to worship the sky when they live fine without praying.
"Funny, I re'ken ye're a 6-foot`r t'morrow."
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 05:21 p.m. (GMT +9) ~ ~ ~
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+ + September 12th, 2003 (Friday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---ARgH--
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Many people assume that since I`m from a country that`s sitting only 1 degree North of the Equator, Tokyo`s summer shouldn`t be anything too hard to take. NO NO NO. In Singapore, the daily temperature may hover at 33 degrees Celcius all year round, but heck, we have wind to cope with the humidity, not to mention plenty of vegetation for shade. Not here in Tokyo. The air is still, the humidity`s practically at 100% (you can SEE it sheesh), there are hardly ANY trees at the heart of the city. The ground itself emits heat day or night so at any point, you go out into a sauna. Bleah. Summer blues? Hell yes.
Oh yesterday.... yeah Mars was bright. Would prefer watching it to planes crashing into buildings, or people talking about it.
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 06:02 p.m. (GMT +9) ~ ~ ~
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--Feeling?---|---ROTTING FROM MY BRAINS!--
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Getting rather frustrated with myself. I studied almost everyday of the damned summer vacation, yet I can`t even improve as much as I`d like and get offered a chance to move on to a higher class. Bleah. People from the lower classes I see, work less dilligently (no offense, but yeah) and THEY can move to higher classes (from 2 levels below mine, to 1 level below). Grah. I have to study to the point of having no life, and I can only maintain this level. Imagine what would happen if I studied as much as my classmates on average (1 hour). -___________- Detachness ruling over once more. I`m still wondering why I`m not homesick when everyone else is.
And what an odd twist of fate. Mr Laos guy has become my little brother; blame it on a host-family from Hokkaidou thinking us siblings, because we were wearing crimson T-shirts on the same day.
The skit was a success. People thought I was angry for real after I began yelling rudely, using more guyish gestures and what not. That's probably the first and last time I`m using guy-language (Japanese) unless I get to become a seiyuu. ^^ Working towards that...
Shall go looking for some 2nd-hand Jewel CDs... Saiyuuki Reload`s airing soon. Hmm.
Big BOO-BOO by an Indonesia friend:
Friend: The Korean guy is going to be roommating with a Chinese.
Sycia: .... WHAT?????????????????????
Friend: Huh? What`s wrong?
Sycia: ... "roommating"??!?!?!?!
Friend: !!!!!!! OH! I didn`t mean... I mean!!!
Sycia: It`s "...going to be roommates" you 'foo... o____O;
And WTF. I`m at the internet cafe, with the guy beside me in a suit is browsing through a site featuring nothing but bra-ed boobs. GIVE ME A GUN. NOW............. On the bright side, at least he isn`t looking at me or I would be using his eyeballs as billard-balls.
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 03:46 p.m. (GMT +9) ~ ~ ~
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+ + September 10th, 2003 (Wednesday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---Dotted--
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It was an unusually clear and windy evening yesterday. The moon was shining right into my room. Did notice this odd bright star real close beside it, and did think I saw it move about like a UFO for a bit. Found out that little starry thing was Mars (again?)
So Mei, what`s the decision about the religion thingie? Wait, become, or stay free-(thinker)?
Time to check if my magazines and manga have arrived. Long weekend. Weee. Also found out the best student in my class has his birthday the same day as mine. Hmm.
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 03:36 p.m. (GMT +9) ~ ~ ~
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--Feeling?---|---Worried--
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Yesterday was ... Mom`s orders to take some people around that I do NOT like, in return for them passing me some stuff from home. -_____- Such greedy people went to the 100 yen shop and bought almost every type of item available. They did give me a nice dinner: shabushabu that was very very very VERY nearly substituted by MacDonald`s being the misers they are (lunch was at a fast-food outlet). Would`ve screamed at them for wasting my time if they really went for MacDonald`s. o_O Was so tired from studying till 4am on Saturday cos my Sunday was going to be taken up by THEM, I was a walking zombie on the way back home. Guh. Thank goodness someone up there was doing a favor for me (again for the 109782987592nd time); it was cool and dry yesterday with the temperature at about 26 degrees.
This week, my class is supposed to do some skit thing. Woohoo, I get to used guy-language and get away with it! Not the worst of guy language as I`d prefer to use, but it`s enough since I got casted as an unreasonable guy (reminds me of my dad). XD Sycia is happy to finally use crude language openly and hell at people.
Someone send me the Dungeons & Dragons Players Handbook. I`d love that person forever. Joyce and I have gotten so bored of studying that the above option has opened it`s door to us. I just don`t have that book. Hmmm.
No reply-fanmail yet. Thank god.
"It’s no secret that autism affects boys more than girls. Males account for more than 80 percent of the million-plus Americans with autistic disorders." from Girls, Boys and Autism <-- It probably isn`t just restricted to America alone, but the color-blindness and a lot of other disorders seem to affect males more than females. Or is it just that PMS makes up for all of that. XD
Mei: I`d be amused to get such a question because it only proves how shallow and transparent people can be. And about the person who`s trying to convert you to Christianity, what did that person say? O_o Did he/ she use that old threat thing on you too? While you have free will on what you want to believe in, I would advise to wait a while before you decide. Once you`ve seen more of the world and people around you, then make your choice. But in general, I will say that many people who do not have self-confidence turn to religion for support. Make sure you don`t go that way. Worshipping some invisible God who banishes, burns and tortures all non-believers to hell is fine, but believe in yourself first.
T-Rex has enlightened me by referring this link.
Random quote:
"Trust God, but lock your car."
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 03:55 p.m. (GMT +9) ~ ~ ~
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--Feeling?---|---Surprised!--
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Whoa. Logged on after 5 days to find my email account flooded with fan-mail from those kids in Hokkaidou. I like that they bothered to email, but the sheer amount is... o___O *Returns to replying 20+ emails in Japanese...*
Guess I`ll be updating less, since kicked myself into my own personal hell by signing up to take the Japanese Language Proficiency Test`s highest level. Oh well.
Mom`s friend is coming over, and it happens to be the one that I don`t really like. Apparently Mom`s sending me stuff through her, and wants me to take that friend sightseeing for a day. It came at such short notice it got me quite flustered. I`ve got a test on Monday and Sunday`s going to be taken up by Mom`s friend. ARGH... Everyday it`s 15+ new forms of grammer to understand and learn, 10 new nouns to memorize, worksheets, revision, 2 tests on average each week,. I don`t think it gets any peachier than this.
*Faints*
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 04:01 p.m. (GMT +9) ~ ~ ~
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(integrated MPD), tormented in the soul & schizophrenic in the heart. Languages understood: English, Japanese, Chinese, Hokkien, Teochew & Malay.
