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Yeah..? You got a problem with that, H U H ? ? ?
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+ + May 30th, 2003 (Friday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---Seething with homocidal intent...--
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Forgot to add yesterday that one of the male classmates was challenging people to arm-wrestling during lunch break. After he got beaten by the guy who holds the title of runner-up in the school`s arm-wrestling competition, one of the girls challenged him just for the fun of it. She lost (quite predictably) badly. He gained a little bit of his confidence back and looked around for more people to challenge. After a while, the guys suggested me (what? Do I look like the easy prey kind just cos I`m studying during break-time?) so I had to accept the challenge.
The people who were present (Yumi-san included) were absolutely shocked when I beat him. I think he just didn`t have the stamina to fight against me anymore after a minute of both our arms were locked into an intense middle-stance. At least that made him stop challenging people. The amount of jeers he got at being beaten by a female was astonding.
But that was before I got pissed off. Had he challenged me today I would have beaten him flat down. I still need to KILL someone. Yes dear, I still have your skewer. But too bad it doesn`t do long-distance...
Heard from Mom (email) that she wouldn`t be calling for at least a month cos she`s too busy with orders, searching for a new house and packing up the current one. That moving house bit just got me blahed ad depressed. My family`s financial situation back home sounds like it`s getting from bad to worse. I know Mom will be stressed out from all the work (doesn`t seem as if my Lil Bro and Lil Sis are helping too much either), and it`s depressing that I can`t do anything to help her. And all this has just made me lose all hope in ever working in Singapore guh.
Depression (more of blah-ness), stress and extreme state of silent anger has all added up to make me dehydrate through my nose since this morning, headache and a developing fever.
Yumi-san got selected for the YASSA homestay (8-days). Not particularly upset that I didn`t get it; only 4 people outta the 30+ were chosen so the chances of getting in were slim from the start, and I am far too pissed off.
。。。鼻水が一杯だ。 畜生。 今早く帰らなきゃ； 休憩室で勉強したいけど、 最近たくさん人もそういう考える。 (... too much mucus. Duh. Gotta go back now. Want to study in the lobby but recently so many people have been thinking the same...)
お前の電話を待っててね。 (Be waiting for your call.)
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 04:39 p.m. (GMT +9) ~ ~ ~
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+ + May 29th, 2003 (Thursday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---Murderous.--
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Giving out so much "killing aura" (殺気) that the people around in the computer lab have left a nice 3 meter radius for me and me only (in other words the computers directly around me have been abandoned).
At the very least I am currently not cold & distant anymore. Oh yessss. Blood must be spilled...
殺したい奴がいる。
One more thing. I do not like the idea of people I hardly know asking me if I can get [insert item name here] for them just cos I am living in Japan. Fine if you`re a true friend (a title only 2 people hold).
Speaking of this, I`ve been meaning to ask you 2 this (but I kept forgetting to add it into the emails). Is there anything you want me to get here? Nothing that`ll rip a permanent wound in my wallet mind you.
Meimei, you too. Want anything from here? Anime merchandise? And do update your blog a little more. I want to know what`s going on back home.
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 04:04 p.m. (GMT +9) ~ ~ ~
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+ + May 28th, 2003 (Wednesday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---Queered.--
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On again. Some strong earthquake shook Japan on Monday night. I was watching Beyblade or Kuroke? Well, was just staring at the television set when the ground shook for ... half a minute? Could hear something before the ground began to shake. It`s well known among my friends that I have a different hearing range (poorly attuned to the sound of human speech) but certain other sounds like electrical applicances, items etc (and now, earthquakes?) I can sense (bzzzt. spider-sense tingling). I thought Joyce would`ve felt this. According to her roommate, she didn`t feel it till she was told there was an earthquake. Hm. Then again, one of my Senseis didn`t even know about it (though she was underground and walking...). Feeling that Japan is going to be hit soon by a big quake at the rate the minor earthquakes are coming at.
Family called after hearing about the earthquake (they heard it was 7, but that was the epicenter, which was pretty deep in the sea. Tokyo only got it 3 on the Richter Scale). Got pretty cheesed off with Dad for rushing Mom off the phone AS USUAL. Goddamn it. And I still am. -.-
Ah... I want so many anime songs. Odd thing is Yumi-san offered to burn songs to audio CDs even before I wanted to ask (during break-time just now). o___O; I haven`t spoken much for the day. Mostly because I suddenly felt compelled not to speak this morning, and somehow my voice box just ceased to function after that (be careful of what you wish for kids). I guess I`ll get her to burn me a collection of anime songs when I`ve compiled enough.
Want List (anime songs):
01)D.N.Angel OP: ~True Light~, By ?
02)E`S Otherwise OP: Tonight/ Midnight, by チチェア
03)Getbackers ED2: Mr Deja Vu, by Naja
04)Gundam Seed ED2: RIVER, by 石井たつや
05)犬夜叉 ED?: 真実の歌, by Do As Infinity
06)Last Exile OP: Cloud Age Symphony, by Shuntaro Okino
07)Last Exile ED: Over the Sky, by Hitomi
08)魔探偵ロキ RAGNAROK OP: 楽園の扉, by YAMATO (From White Bound)
09)魔探偵ロキ RAGNAROK ED: Believe in Heaven, by 三木眞一郎
10)名探偵コナン ED?: 明日を夢見て, by ZARD
11)NARUTO ED2: ハルモニア, by RYTHEM
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 04:36 p.m. (GMT +9) ~ ~ ~
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+ + May 26th, 2003 (Monday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---Ice cold.--
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My 2-month-old bag had to be a dolt and loosen its straps when I finished with the internet on Friday. Bought a discounted Adidas bag on Saturday at 3,245 yen. Ouch. More money going bye-bye.
Indeed the trip to Disneyland was a waste of my time.
Left with Lina-san and Joyce-chan. Initially Bayu (Indonesian schoolmate living in the same dorm) was supposed to come along, but at the eleventh hour he said he wanted to go find some cheap drinks (the food and beverage in Disneyland are at ridiculous prices). I hate people who can`t manage their time right. Got cheesed off and left without him anyway. The 3 of us somehow managed to find our way there amidst Tokyo`s wonderfully and unnecessarily complex metro network of train and subway lines. Met up with our respective classes to get the tickets at the entrance of Disneyland.
My class decided to take a few class-photographs for the heck of it. Got ushered into the middle of the group (with Yumi-san leaning over my left shoulder. I wish she`d stop that. I don`t like being touched). Joyce later relayed that I was looking very out-of-place among everyone else. Like I was wondering what the hell I was doing there. Indeed I was. The other classes followed suit and I observed how Joyce interacted with her classmates. She`s far less anti-social than I, even when she claimed she wasn`t.
Anyway, we (Lina, Joyce & I) regrouped to enter that over-flowing-fake-happiness place (aka Disneyland). Perhaps I was just feeling too annoyed that I had to go; because my head starting hurting bad. First ride we happened to take was some "boat ride" through a "dangerous, thrilling and mysterious" jungle. Right. Boats running on set lines, and fake animals. Queing up for the rides was a chore in itself. Too many damn people I really wished for a chaingun. All in all, we sat on the better rides. I was quite surprised there weren`t any roller-coasters at all. But the Jet-Mountain & Splash-Mountain rides were fair enough to make up for it I guess. Jet-Mountain? I felt highly threatened by the possibility of getting my head knocked off my the twirling levels of tracks being too close, so kept my head lowered. Got out of it feeling my brain swifted to my left, with a worse headache. Splash-Mountain was a little better. Joyce and I sat in the front, Lina behind. I was dotting during the 3 plunges, and clutching my pain-worsened head between them. The last plunge managed to get Lina screaming and Joyce shouting a little, both with their eyes shut while I looked on dotted. The photoshot revealed my dotted face with lethal-looking hair flying back dangerously close to Lina.
Went back at 6pm a little tired, more from the headache than walking.
Saturday, Matantei Loki Ragnarok was nice (as usual). Yamino`s cool when he gets angry. ^^
Time for the Nihongo Kou Ryo Kai. Got dotted almost the whole weekend at a particular someone. Learnt some Korean and I had to teach 2 other people Mandarin. >< It was tedious. Came back, and headed for the lobby. Met a China Senpai who used to stay at the dorm there. At first he spoke to a Taiwan Senpai in Mandarin assuming I didn`t understand:
China Senpai: *In Mandarin* So where is she from?
Taiwan Senpai: *In Mandarin* Who?
China Senpai: *In Mandarin* Duh. Who else is here other than us?
Sycia: *In Japanese* Singapore. I`m from Singapore.
China Senpai: *Freaks out* !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Taiwan Senpai: *In Mandarin* She understands Mandarin. Most Singaporeans do.
China Senpai: *In Japanese, looking at Sycia disbelievingly* REALLY?!
Sycia: *In Japanese* Uh yeah...
Amusing. The topic eventually came down to how both of them envy Singaporeans for being able to understand and speak English and Mandarin. He is the 3rd person to say my spoken Mandarin sounds good. Also complimented my spoken Japanese (he went something along the lines of " for someone in class 4, you speak very well). I`m fine with the plain forms, but speaking politely? That takes time. >< Sunday. Studied from 12pm - 6pm straight till my head hurt. Pirum (Cambodian) did see me in the lounge, and advised that I should have some fun sometime, not just study study study and study. I appreciate his advice, but I simply don`t have anything I can do for leisure.
Yesterday Joyce and I walked past a bookstore to see 2 familiar manage characters on the cover of this week`s (or last week hmm) Shounen Manga. The eyes looked like that of Sakura and Shouran or Cardcaptor Sakura. Flipped it open to find they were them, though much more mature...? And in a Star Wars-like world with deserts, spaceships and magic (use the force dude)? There, Sakura is a princess (with big magic wings?), Touya a King (!!!), Shaoran a commoner (not too sure), Yukito a giant crescent-moon plus wings staff-wielding priest, and a now deceased Sakura`s father being Shaoran`s in this story... o_o The title is Tsubasa: Reservoir Chronicles if anyone wants to know. Hurray for cheesy English titles again. Thought we saw a BIT of the Clow magic circle when the now still-young-looking Yukito summoned his staff. Odd. Sakura and Shaoran now only look slightly younger than Yukito and Touya. Touya still dislikes Shaoran, Sakura still gets annoyed with Touya (though calling his nii-sama this time). Yukito and Touya still appear like great pals (gay or not, I have no idea yet), Sakura and Shaoran adore each other and appear on the way to marriage already... just what is going on? o__O Did the main cast Cardcaptor Sakura just get teleported, reincarnated to some different dimension...???? Shounen Manga came with Samurai Deeper Kyo, so I didn`t mind buying it at all. But this Tsubasa: Reservoir Chronicles thing leaves me stumped. Just what is CLAMP up to this time....
Kept trying to call my family last night to avail. -__-; Mom, if you`ve called before and I didn`t answer, it`s probably because you called before 10pm Singapore time. Call after that time (maybe at about 10:10pm) and I`ll be in. Studying in the common lounge to save money on them electricity bills.
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 04:42 p.m. (GMT +9) ~ ~ ~
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+ + May 22nd, 2003 (Thursday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---Distant and cold.--
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Again, my normal classmates find it absolutely shocking that I don`t need or want to get married, or a mate for that matter. Someone hand me the lead pipe please.
Going to Tokyo Disneyland tomorrow. I really don`t want to waste my time going there, but it`s a field trip so I guess it can`t be missed. There`s supposed to be fireworks at 9pm tomorrow too. Now if fireworks were as exciting as the ones Gandalf, I might actually want to go.
Flipped over 3 times when I watched Naruto yesterday. That ninja kid with the "ai" word on his forehead spoke less than 3 words to send me convulsing in shock. Ishida Akira (voiced Kaworu from Evangelion, Xellos in Slayers etc) can`t change his voice much really... Looking forward to Matantei LOKI RAGNAROK every Saturday too.
Love-sick females who keep whining about how their "other halves" and trying to console themselves that this blah-blah relationship is true love yaddaaa yaddaaa ought to be shot. For god`s sake, I don`t give a fuck about your lovelife or pathetic excuse for one that ended so spare me the agony or your unnecessarily loud nag-whiner voice.
Haven`t done one of these in a while... stolen from Arekusu-chan.
[ Name ]: I would like to be called Sycia on this medium.
[ Born in ]: Earth?
[ Resides in ]: Suginami, Tokyo, Japan.
[ Good student? ]: The normal kind although I never did study.
[ Hair ]: Dark reddish-brown, wavy and down to the mid-back with red-brown tips.
[ Shoe size ]: 8.5 - 9. I like sneakers.
Last time you..
[ Had a nightmare ]: Don`t remember honestly...
[ Said "I love you" and meant it ]: Never? Always said "lova ya Mom".
[ Ate at McDonald's ]: o___O Months. McDonald`s here is too expensive to eat at.
[ Dyed your hair ]: Never. I only bleach.
[ Brushed your hair ]: UH.... about 4 years? I never comb or brush my hair. It just never seems messy or tangled enough to make me do that.
[ Washed your hair ]: Yesterday.
[ Cried ]: Few months back I think.
[ Called someone ]: About 2 weeks ago. Called my family. ^^;
[ Smiled ]: As part of this big act? Hmmm.... just an hour ago. Genuinely, I don`t remember.
[ Laughed ]: Last night I think.
[Do You...]
[ Sleep with stuffed animals? ] I`ve got 3 plushies beside meall the time when I sleep.
[ Have a dream that keeps coming back? ] Yeah, a nightmare, but that was some time back and took place in real life already.
[ Play an instrument? ]: A recorder?
[ Remember your first b/f? ]: b/f?????
[ Read the newspaper? ]: Just this morning. Durrrrh. Japanese newspapers... >__< Gimme English ones please.
[ Consider love a mistake? ]: No. Just an illusion that people are willing to fall for.
[ Like the taste of alcohol? ] Depends on whether it`s sweet or not. ^^
[ Believe in God? ]: Everyone`s their own God.
[ Pray? ]: No.
[ Go to church? ]: Just for the heck of babbling nonsense and making foolish Christians believe it to be that "tongue".
[ Have any secrets? ] Of course.
[ Have any pets ]: Yeah but they are... far far away.
[ Wear hats? ]: No.
[ Have any piercings? ]: Just one on my right ear lobe.
[ Have any tattoos? ]: No.
[ Hate yourself? ]: No. I don`t love myself either.
[ Have an obsession? ]: Not really.
[ Have a secret crush? ]: No.
[ Like your handwriting? ]: I`m happy that it`s neat.
[ Have any bad habits? ]: Acting full-time in front of everyone can`t be considered a habit can it?
[ Care about looks? ]: Not really. I have better things to waste my attention on.
[ Boy/girlfriend's looks? ]: Among friends, it does not matter.
[ Friends and other people? ]: Read above.
Current:
[ Dress ]: Black T-shirt, brown cargo pants.
[ Mood ]: Cold & distant.
[ Make-up ]: The hell would I put dead animal fat on my face for?
[ Hair ]: It`s mine. GRRR!
[ Annoyance ]: Nothing. Too cold to feel annoyed.
[ Thought ]: Red meat.
[ Refreshment ]: Nothing. Though I do want MILO
[ Worry ]: That I won`t be able to fulfill my ambition here.
Last Person:
[ You Touched ]: Mom, about 2 months back?
[ You Talked to ]: Joyce.
[ You Hugged ]: Mom, about 2 months back.
[ You Yelled At ]: I don`t remember.
[ Kissed ]: Uh.... don`t remember.
Who do you want to:
[ Kill ]: The entire human race.
[ Slap ]: All of my fantastically normal classmates. Lope their heads off with a lead pipe too.
[ Tickle ]: ET (my pet Chihuahua)
[ Have Sex with ]: No one.
[ Kiss ]: No one. Ew.
[ Be Like ]: That is a secret.
This or that...
Nice smiles or nice eyes?: Smile.
Jeans or skirts?: JEANS.
Natural or make-up?: Natural please. -.-;
Restaurants or fast food?: Doesn`t matter to me. As long as the food doesn`t taste synthetic.
Italian food or Chinese?: Depends on my mood.
Dark or light eyes?: Doesn`t matter.
Streaked or dyed hair?: Doesn`t matter.
Vampires or Gods?: Huh? I eat either.
Milk shakes or floats?: Floats. :d~~~
Cake or pie?: Depends on which kind.
How...
Do you brush your teeth?: Long, tedious, and rarely but my teeth are in good condition anyway.
Do you like your life?: Feeling distant and icy, so no comments on it. But overall I guess it is alright. Many people would want to be sponsered an education in Japan I guess.
How Often do you smile?: For the sake of being fakingly friendly? Plenty. But I have stopped smiling genuinely a long time ago.
Do you eat pizza?: Not now. Too expensive.
Do you..
Sing?: Yeah. A little.
Dance?: No.
Laugh a lot?: Yes. Mainly to myself these days though.
Like spicy food?: Hell YEAH.
Prefer bagels over yogurt?: Mmm.... depends.
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: I don`t know how to answer that question honestly.
Want one?: No.
Think babies are cute?: No. Stupid noisy parasites that are only good for eat`in.
Believe in fortune cookies?: I believe they taste good.
Believe that anything is possible?: Sure.
Believe that everyone has a purpose in life?: Only those who decide the purpose for themselves.
Are...
You a girl?: Uh... I guess I can be considered one.
You a comedian?: No.
You bored?: No. How can someone distant feel bored?
Describe...
You usual outfit: T-shirt & cargo pants.
Your hair: I thought I answered this already.
What you'd like to change about yourself: That is a secret.
Your perfect mate (physical features): I ain`t a fortune teller...
What...
Is your weakness?: You gotta pay to know that. ^^
Are your fears?: Mom dying would be my greatest fear.
Is one thing you would like to achieve?: ^^ The destruction of the entire human race and the restoration of Nature on Earth.
Who...
Do you love the most?: Mom.
Is the one person who makes you laugh the most?: Yeah.
Makes you cry the most?: Not really.
Could you can not live without?: Uh.... air, food (water not included here).
Doesn't like you though you like him/her?: Huh...
Likes you though you hate him/her?: Uh....?
Is...
Hate too much of a strong word?: Not at all.
Food from other cultures good?: Sure. I love food.
Your mood calm at the moment?: Calm as the dead sea.
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 04:28 p.m. (GMT +9) ~ ~ ~
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--Feeling?---|---Tired--
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Hah. The computer lab isn`t that crowded today.
Sunday. Mom called in the morning to tell me one of my grandmothers passed away. Didn`t affect me much. And still isn`t because to me, she was dead a long time ago. What kinda life is it when you`re confined to a bed, doing nothing all day long except sleeping, eating, drinking, peeing, shitting and simply existing without a train of logical comprehensible thought?
Walked about Shinjuku yesterday again and finally got a new umbrella at a reasonable price. Sycia has a tendancy to lose umbrellas. -.-; Good thing I got it yesterday cos on my way back, a huge storm broke out. I might have turned into a flailing version of Mary Poppins if the wind was a little stronger.
Muaha. People have been saying I drink far too little way for so long, but this article just confirms what I have known and lived by all this while. Now if people would just stop telling me to drink more. I don`t even suffer from dry skin or lips (even when the people around me are cos their bodies aren`t adapting well to the new environment).
Ahhhh... love this song. Only found the romanji lyrics but I suppose it will have to do....
akaku nijimu taiyou wa subete o
terashite kita ima mo mukashi mo
kono yuuyami ni egaiteru souzou wa
hatashite kono te ni oenai mono na no ka?
motto ima ijou ni hadaka ni natte
ikite yuku jutsu oshiete yo
honno sukoshi dake watashi o yogoshite
sou yatte hitori kizutsuitari
mawari o nakushita to shite mo
shinjitsu no uta wa kono mune ni nagare
arasoi wa mada tsuzukun darou
dono michi ima ga taisetsu na no sa
gamushara ni natte miotoshite kita mono
tatoeba dare ka no yasashii hohoemi mo
eien o shireba donna kurayami mo
itami mo itsuka kiete
sou yatte ima wa watashi o yogoshite
zutto mukashi mita tenkuu no shiro ni
itsuka wa tadoritsukeru
shinjitsu no uta o michishirube ni shite
eien o shireba donna kurayami mo
itami mo itsuka kiete
shinjitsu no uta wa kono mune ni nagare
motto ima ijou ni watashi o yogoshite
hon no sukoshi dake watashi o yogoshite
shinjitsu no uta o michishirube ni shite
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 04:36 p.m. (GMT +9) ~ ~ ~
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--Feeling?---|---Forgetful--
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Gotta go pay a visit to my Senmon-gakkou (site here) one of these days. Wonder why Yumi-san said I should get off at Ochanomizu station when the Suidoubashi one is closer to the school... A lot closer at that. o__O
Sis: I`m feeling quite honored by what you said in the mail. ^^ Thank you for making me feel wanted.
Joyce wants to go to Harajuku during the weekend. Seems like lots of cosplayers gather there, and there are plenty of anime merchandise shops there. Cool. Need to get a nice pencil board so my pencil marks`ll stop smudging.
Listening to: 真実の詩 (Inuyasha ED)
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 05:05 p.m. (GMT +9) ~ ~ ~
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--Feeling?---|---Icy.--
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I never thought I`d be this glad to see Sis cussing and swearing again. XD
Now I know all those tremors I keep feeling aren`t part of my imagination. Sunday night I was watching Musashi (don`t ask, we were bored) with Joyce and I felt some tremors again. Asked her if she felt it and she said no. Dismissed it as me mind just trying to be funny. 10 minutes later there was an earthquake news-flash over the telly. 3 on the Richter scale (small, but large enough to be felt in the area ordinarily). The bst part of it was that the earthquake happened in Nagano. o__O I`m in Tokyo. Yamanashi & Saitama seperates Tokyo & Nagano but I could still feel and hear (though I don`t think it was through normal hearing) the tremors. No one else in the dorm had an inkling of it. Riiiight. That means almost every night, an earthquake happens somewhere in Japan (I feel those damned tremors almost everynight). Wonder if a big one`s going to hit soon.
Bought the Matantei Loki RAGNAROK comic #1. Thank goodness for the artiste`s new drawings. A nice little fun comic that spews absolute nonsense. Want the anime... want the anime... want the anime...
The foreign student exchange on Saturday was fun. I finally get to use Japanese with people at long last. -.-; Talked to a Korean girl (who can`t seem to manage English at all) in Japanese at a rate I never imagined I could chatter at. Apparently, since most of the participants are from the same dormitory, and my group has the least number of them (only 3 of us are from the dorm among the 9), everyone wants to join my group. I don`t suppose this has anything to do with me laughing especially loud does it?
Also, Sensei was asking each one of us what we wanted to be in the future (何を成りたいですか？). The girl beside me (married one) answered a "mother" and I nearly leapt out at her neck. Gr. Losing... self... control... But on the other hand, getting better at acting.
Finally got the package from my Mom (that she sent via Mr Kato, who sent it via delievery company to me... I feel so bad about imposing on him). o____O Me Mom bought me a PINK T-SHIRT??? Joyce was laughing head over heels while I just got stumped for 2 minutes upon seeing it. That, and a few of the T-Shirts has slightly feminine designs (little frills) on them?! o___O Mom... I am not getting any girlier! Please! o__o;;;;;; Oh yeah Mom... uh... the rice-cooker thing is a little big don`t you think? O__o No one here believes rice can be cooked in it, so when you call me next, I need the instructions on how long to put it in the microwave oven `kay? ^^
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 03:55 p.m. (GMT +9) ~ ~ ~
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--Feeling?---|---^^;;;; Headached but not annoyed for some reason--
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Went to the doctor`s on Tuesday evening to get that ingrowing nail removed, so I wasn`t exactly in the state to make my way to the internet cafe, or run to the school`s computer lab till today. Again, I was laughing throughout the surgery because hands on my foot was too ticklish. Though the anesthetic injections did hurt. Big needle half the size of the blood donation ones to jab into the flesh and pump liquids in. Couldn`t walk much the next day (took me an hour to get to school instead of the usual 30 minutes), but it healed pretty much quickly and now it doesn`t hurt. Class ended early so I could walk to the school`s computer lab (I was the first one!). Lina-san (roommate) came in a little later and exclaimed, "For someone who`s limping you sure run fast." <-- We usually have to race against each other to get a computer here.
That aside, I`ve been going down to the dorm lobby to study these few nights. For one thing, the table in that tiny cell (my room) is positioned such that the light`s behind it. Not too good for the eyes huh. The lobby is brightly lit and I don`t spend that much of lighting electricity.
Yesterday, I was conversing with a Taiwan girl in Mandarin (didn`t have much of a choice since she can`t manage English) and she exclaimed my Mandarin was very accurately spoken. o_____O Okaaay. In Singapore, I was always ALWAYS told that my Mandarin sounded like a white (American, English, pick one) speaking it. Told Joyce about it and she looked at me strange cos even she (who can speak Mandarin much better than I) was not told that. o_O Today, came to school earliest and a China guy who came in soon after spoke to me (in Mandarin again cos he can`t do English either duh). After I spoke 2 lines he also mentioned I spoke Mandarin very accurately (biao zhun or something), and that it sounded very nice. o___O?! I got an ungraded grade for my spoken Mandarin in Singapore but people tell me this here?! And those were Taiwan and Main Chinese! o___O Joyce is weirded out too. Hey Mei, if you see this, go tell Mom. She`ll be so happy to know. o___O
Also, my classmates just found out that I can understand most and speak some of the Taiwan dialect (Hokkien). 4 Taiwan girls were trying to pronounce 00 in Hokkien but ended up pronouncing it to mean "he/she is putting pants on". And they didn`t notice it until I pointed it out (Mom: you should know what I mean.... ^^ "i-cheng-ko-h"). Everyone here finds it hard to swallow that Singaporeans (mostly) can speak/ understand about 3 languages. But I told them about Mom being able to speak and understand English, Malaysian Malay, Indonesian Malay, Mandarin, Hokkien (Chinese dialect used in Taiwan), Teochew & Cantonese (Chinese dialect used in Hong Kong). My classmates flipped. ^^ But really, I take my hat off Mom. She`s really multilingual. And good at it.
I swear, I never imagined I`d be improving on 2 languages at the same time while in Japan. Mom, you`ll be glad to know that I ain`t learning the horrid Singaporean version, but am actually getting the real Mandarin. ^^;
Been so sleepy too. Weekend. Sleep. Matantei LOKI Ragnarok. Good. Sleeeeeeeeeep...
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 12:18 p.m. (GMT +9) ~ ~ ~
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--Feeling?---|---Bothered.--
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In school again.
Too sleepy. Need sleep.
Idiotic classmate sat on my seat when I was talking to the teacher somewhere else. My bag happened to be there and so was CD-player. Stupid Korean girl. No brains? Who knows. God just forgot to give her common sense to have some consideration to other people`s things. Someone give me my katana now please. I am extremely pissed off now.
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 12:25 p.m. (GMT +9) ~ ~ ~
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--Feeling?---|---Cynical--
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Ah, at the internet cafe now. Much better. Fast computers with everything in them workinig right.
Couldn`t sleep last night (even when I slept at 4am the night before). Had a bit of a nosebleed and decorated the room a little red. Lay in bed till earthquake tremors shook for about 1 hour starting at 1am. People around me say they only felt 2 strong tremors. I felt the mild ones for all through that one hour. Weird.
Getting more annoyed at frustration being misdirected upon me....
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+ + May 12th, 2003 (Monday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---Worried.--
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Okay, I just found out from him about Sis and I am worried.
Finally got a pot on Friday. Expensive lil bugger... But oh well. Ever since, I`ve made spagetti my new staple food. NO MORE RICE waaaahaaa!
^^ Like Mythical Detective LOKI Ragnarok. Yay to the cheesily translated English title though. Bought the comic but gee I hate it. Must get the opening and ending songs.... T__T
Currently using the school`s computer. Crappy and slow. Bleeeaaah.
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+ + May 9th, 2003 (Friday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---....--
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Annoying browser has to crash on me after I finished the whole entry.
Getting increasingly drained for some reason even with Joyce claiming I`m using those |33+ psychological vampire skills on her (I don`t know, it just happens). Seems like I`m getting another ingrowing nail on my other big toe too. Curious. I`ve heard the medical fees here are cut-throat.
My outsider days are also returning. Feeling extremely alone especially in class now. I`ll get used to it soon.
Lil Sis: Help me tell Mom "Happy Anniversary" for me...
Here`s something to try out. A quiz to find out what you hold highest in regard:
You are about to go on a tour around the world. You have with you:
A monkey, a horse, a tiger, a goat & a cow.
Which would you get rid of (or eat), in what sequence? I`ll post the answer in the forum as to what each animal represents the next time I come on (Monday probably).
普通な人間。。。殺しなきゃ。。。
Found a headless bone-clean pigeon on the roof last night. Wonder if that`s some kinda omen. One thing to look forward to is the sleep I`ll be recovering on during the weekend and Loki the Mythical Detective tomorrow morning... *yawns*
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--Feeling?---|---Ah,,,,--
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I feel so much better.
Another thing I have to say is that the "adult" section in video rental stores (I accidentally walked into it) looks more like a freak'in porn gallery.
Not to mention the manga section has that sexual ones here and there. People don`t even separate em here and kids can go flipping through them? Even their covers (mostly what would be considered RA in other countries) are not censored. How interesting.
Japan seems liberal when it comes to sexual context, but still conservative as hell everywhere else aside from the bedroom.
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+ + May 7th, 2003 (Wednesday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---RAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!--
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Sycia has been brain-fried.
Yesterday, we were put into random groups to form a sort of script for a short skit. I got put with a Chinese national (female) and 2 Korean girls. And I was rendered quite helpless (cue sound of brain sizzling) during the whole discussion because those FEMALES only talked to make the script wholely about "looking at cute guys", "finding cute guys", "dressing up in sexy clothes to attract cute guys" etc etc. RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!! No violent images could even be FORMED in my mind. Just felt like my IQ level was brought down lower than a fuck'in tomato.
The best part of it all was that all other groups had scripts revolving around the unchanging, boring subject of finding mates!!! YES! How interesting and unpredictable the people of my class ARE! ....
I NEED TO KILL SOMEONE.
Stupid normal females. It`s as though they have no fucking life outside make-up, fashion, trying to get laid or talking about other females. NEED TO KILL. NEED TO KILLL!!!!!!!! MUST!!!!!!!!!!!!
.... Right now I just need to scream somewhere. Killing will come a little later. Brain fried. Sizzled. Gone.
Oh yes and another thing, we`re learning the way to speak according to gender (Japanese language) but the teachers find me speaking the more masculine way odd. The first time I said it out loud (masculine version of a given sentence to us) the teacher remarked that I sounded "kowaii". No one in the class realizes how insanely happy I would be to knock their idiotic useless heads off their necks with a lead pipe. ESPECIALLY the females! RAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!)(#&('!
YES I AM DISSING MY OWN GENDER. I DISS MALES TOO. GOTTA PROBLEM!?!? I ain`t even lame even to blame it on "that time of the month" like most other females. I will blantly admit that I am under a LOT of mentally stress being around people who display no variety or distinctiveness in their behavior at all. Like sheep? YEAH! I`LL EAT 7EM TOO!
...... LEAD PIPE. Shotgun. CHAINSAW.
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--Feeling?---|---Tired.--
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Just went down to Akihabara with Joyce to try finding that larger Gamerz store. Instead, found a huge Animate store come building where I just went happy, soaking in the sights of rows upon rows of cheap anime merchandise. Saiyuuki keychains, DN Angel stationery, One Piece everything... ;___; so so many.... so little money.
My Megami-sama (aka a girl from the Philipines who makes such great chocolate fudge cakes who earned my loyalty from it :p) blessed me with some fudge-coated banana cake yesterday night. Can`t believe she specially came down to my room to deliver it to me. Going to get her some cheese-cake later. Have to make offerings to Megami-sama. Yes. Must.
Wish Mom would call more. Guess she thinks I`m doing well so she doesn`t need to, but it bites. Chrono`s calling way more than my family.
Got Joyce to bleach the ends of my hair again 2 nights ago. Yay. Now I am complete.
Ah yes, and I was sitting on my bed this morning with my bag behind me. Felt something (or someone) stroke my hair and that nearly sent me jumping throught the ceiling.
Want to keep a dwarf hamster. It`ll ease the impending loneliness in that dreary room, but I can`t keep pets in the dorm. Maybe internet access with a laptop would do fine. No $$ though harhar.
Sycia wants to fly into the sky and touch the clouds~
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+ + May 2nd, 2003 (Friday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---Highly amused.--
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Yesterday, I was grouped up with 2 Taiwans who were as usually chatting with each other in Mandarin. My reaction to this sort of thing up until yesterday was to just ignore and not say anything. So almost everyone in class assumed I could only understand English and Chinese. But they were trying to translation a Mandarin word into Japanese / English so hard (and took about 5 minutes) that I finally gave up and said in Mandarin, "I understand Chinese..."
Boy oh boy was that a big reaction I got. Half the class stood up gasping or freaking out. Almost immediately the Taiwans and China folks started yammering to me in Mandarin a million times more friendly than any other time before. Now I`ve been accepted as one of them? Uh well. You can`t say I lied about the Mandarin thing though; I simply hid the truth. ^^ It is fun, watching them all freak. Now let`s just see if the Taiwans will start speaking to one another in Hokkien (or Taiwan`s local dialect) and assume I don`t understand too. >:)
Other than that, it has been boring. Staying up late, either talking to him or studying like hell. Really it really is boring.
Also, I just signed up for a homestay programme (for about 2 weeks) in Hokaidou. Wonder if I`ll be lucky enough to get it... ^^;
Also wishing I had my own personal internet access for boring weekends when I`ve studied all that I`ve could. Oh well.
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(integrated MPD), tormented in the soul & schizophrenic in the heart. Languages understood: English, Japanese, Chinese, Hokkien, Teochew & Malay.
