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Yeah..? You got a problem with that, H U H ? ? ?
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+ + October 30th, 2003 (Thursday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---Plastic. I feel fake.--
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Had that conversation practice session with Mitta-sensei just now. We rambled on for trice as long as expected. But it was nice to finally use Japanese for 1 and a half hours on end with a native speaker.
Ignore the whining that carries on from here.
The phone rang at 2am last night. I expected my family, but it was my father that was over it. At first it had me wondering if he had seen my rant and wanted to mention something about it. When he said he tried to call me at 11pm and couldn't get through (I was in Joyce's room), I felt warm and fuzzy that he waited 3 hours to call me again (because it never happened before).
A minute later he went, "I called to ask you this: why doesn't my company's website work?"
Dots assumed and my room has been locked in ice ever since that.
I had designed his company website. His cilents can't seem to get in. He wanted me to find out the problem. I usually get a call from my family once in 8 days, but this one fell short of formal business. Promised I'd find out the problem for him, and I have. I suppose I will have to give him a call later and report the status of the website (which isn't a problem, just that know-it-alls add in the "www" when I keep stressing that there isn't). Of course I got to talk to Mom for a bit. Maybe 5 minutes? Yeah. My father did make a mention of sending me money so I can come back whenever I want, but that's not looking very appealing for now.
... smiling and seeming like nothing happened seems alright for the moment. I am a fool for my expectations of people.
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 05:20 p.m. (GMT +9) - lj ~ ~ ~
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+ + October 29th, 2003 (Wednesday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---Bleah--
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Just made a backup of this via Livejournal. It sucks to have an entire entry about how someone reminds me of God erased just like that. (Hey, maybe that person really is God and didn't want me writing about it...)
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 04:36 p.m. (GMT +9) - lj ~ ~ ~
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+ + October 29th, 2003 (Wednesday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---.... fine.--
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Just had my JLPT Level 1 mock Examination. I seriously doubt I'll pass (yeah, despite studying the whole night away and developing a headache as a result, it's THAT difficult).
The past few days have been slightly rocky (mentally and emotionally).
The weather is also taking on a yoyo-like stance once more. 10 degrees Celcius yesterday, 26 degrees Celcius today... *melts...* Body seems to be adapting well though; went through the whole day yesterday in short-sleeves, not freezing, and drew plenty of stares (everyone looked geared up to scale Mount Everest). It was raining all day with some pretty nasty winds, but all good. Walking in mushy, damp sneakers is nasty. >_- TODAY.... -____- It is too hot.... ><
Mei: What's the matter?
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 04:13 p.m. (GMT +9) - lj ~ ~ ~
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+ + October 27th, 2003 (Monday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---......tired--
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Insomnia has hit home once more. While I considered last night cool (11 degrees Celcius at most), my body decided to BURN 5 minutes after laying down in bed. And burn it did. -___- Who the hell uses the fan during an unusually cold autumn bleah. Either way, it helped me cool off slightly and got me sleep'in 1 hour later. -____- Still burned when I got out of bed at 7, but at least I wasn't shivering like other days.
Condent was born and raised in Plymouth, Massachussetts, and went into privateering when he was still a teenager. He was eventually elected as the captain of his sloop, at which time his crew turned pirate. They were infamous throughout the Spanish Main for managing to take a fleet of twenty salt ships, and because Condent cut out and ate the heart of a captured Brazilian sailor to spread fear among his enemies. After his pirating days were through, Condent settled in the French colony of Mascarenes, where he married the governor's daughter
Which Pirate are you?
Seemingly the only male pirate that didn't die for his crimes... And I just wonder how the heck he managed to eat a whole human heart. It's large, it's tough, you can barely chew into it, and it tastes well... not that great.
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 04:00 p.m. (GMT +9) - lj ~ ~ ~
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+ + October 24th, 2003 (Friday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---................--
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Sorry, I just don't feel like typing in English at the moment...
疲労かなぁ... 毎晩遅くまで勉強しても... 昨夜は三時までだった。 クロノ君に連絡された； ノットさんはいきなロビーに来てあたしを呼んだ。 電話だよ、あなたのって言ってた。 戻る時ノットさんとあたしの電話がずっと鳴っていた： 一体どうしてクロノ君だけあたしを連絡しようとした時、 こんな事に成るだろう... まっ、とにかく良かった。 今親父に、母親まで、連絡されたくない。 彼らの電話がかかる度に、 只悪い事を言うのみだ。
Mei: At the moment I don't want to see anyone... really. -__- That's how blahed I am.
What in the world is up with my sweater. Put it on fine, when I try taking it off, it just shocks me with static jolts. Happened about 3 times today already.
Did a little survey.
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 04:08 p.m. (GMT +9) - lj ~ ~ ~
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+ + October 22nd, 2003 (Wednesday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---Fuck'in pissed off--
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That's nice. Entire long entry gone.
Mitta-sensei has her own way of doing things, but distributing test papers according to score can really embarrass people, especially when they haven't scored well (it was an especially difficult one this time). Then again, I finally got an idea of where who stands in our class. I curretly stand at the very very top with a Korean girl. I hope it stays that way.
Had nice South-East Asian food on Saturday. It wasn't that great, but definitely good to taste familiar things once more. Though I will probably never understand why Japanese dish out Chin Chow in tiny desert bowls. I didn't abide and made full use of the drink glasses provided at the other end of the restaurant.
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Dear Fate:
You really did a fine job in disappointing me. Really. Having my Dad call me on the eve of my birthday to wish me well, when he never remembered it once in the 21 years of my life. That had me going ecstatic for the whole weekend. I'll give that to you. That got me through that miserable stupid birthday-day fine, I'll give that to you. Then you had Mom call me on Monday, and finally tell me why Dad actually remembered to top it all off and flush my hopes down a stained toiletbowl. Very nice.
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Dad had asked mentioned on Friday night, that he would be using my name for some legal things now that I turned 21; namely government housing and to extend loans, and that if there were any problems with what he put my name in in future, I'd be "big enough to handle it". Initially I hadn't thought much of it either until Mom called me on Monday night and said he had been anticipating my 21st birthday because he needed my name for that. So NOW I know how he remembered! Hahaha. It's so good to know I've been put to the fullest use! THANK YOU. Fucking shit. Pardon my French. You might argue that I could have protested. No, even if I wanted to, he wasn't ASKING for permission to use my name, but TELLING. Besides, he has all the details to my legal statistics. What more could I have done? So does this mean if I get some unknown random legal letter demanding $137,275 in the future, I will just have to "handle it"?
Just when I had to be pissed off with SOMEONE intending to use my name for some insurance policy as a benefactor without my permission (which pissed me off big time, but it was straightened out peacefully), ANOTHER one comes by and just uses it. Worse this time because it is my dad (1), who has all my details (2), who also cannot be argued with (3). My trust hasn't been betrayed this time because he called to inform me, but that does not make the situation any less annoying, knowing I'm still being controlled, and invisibly chackled to Singapore with legal things I never agreed to in the first place. Maybe I shouldn't have left the phone dead over the weekend. If Mom had called sooner, I wouldn't be spending my weekend in short-lived, useless bliss.
Fuck my birthdays, I don't even want to go back now.
Didn't make it much better that some stupid man at the supermarket walking in my direction looked at me (face), then stared down at my chest ogling. Was within mini-seconds away from ripping his fucking throat out and throwing his useless dick out where the sun DOES shine. Fucking male.
"The government? They can't even pave roads."
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 04:09 p.m. (GMT +9) - lj ~ ~ ~
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+ + October 6th, 2003 (Monday) + +
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--Feeling?---|---Annoyed.--
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This is getting really really stupid. The US is trying to find grass on Pluto. And when they finally find out there really isn't any, they are just going to plant some to cover up their stupidity, and to justify all the wrong they've done to people.
... I hate politicians.
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 04:50 p.m. (GMT +9) - lj ~ ~ ~
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--Feeling?---|---... INSOMN-ATIC ...--
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DARGH!!! INSOMNIA!!! WHY?!?!?!?!?!?! WHY CAN'T I SLEEP!??!?!?! TIRED IN THE DAY, WIDE AWAKE AND ALERT AT NIGHT!!! WHY?!?!?!?! ><
Got a neat idea for an online game out of the blue while watching Joyce run about battling treasure boxes in some game. Now Sycia will be distracted... :/
18th October, Lina wants to go celebrate her birthday. Joyce of course, is going, and even though I don't really want to, I don't want to be a wet-blanket either. -___-;
Got a whoop-ass heavy dictionary on Friday after spending 2 hours hovering over the dictionary section of Kinokuniya. Finally decided to get a Japanese-Japanese one with 140,200 enteries, which ripped 5,040 yen outta me pocket. >< I`m happy with my decision though; understanding a dictionary meant for native Japanese speakers is conforting. ^^
Hmm. Lastest impression I make on a classmate: "What do you mean you didn't talk or laugh much as a kid? You're still like this." o.O
One odd thing... I maybe be an optimist, but I only think the best of situations, and the worst of people. That happens when you get disappointed by people far too many a time.
Why Sycia would not want to be a model even if she could:
+ b she doesn't want to be sterotyped as a all-body, no-brainer.
+ she doesn't want males to think of how great sex would be with her everytime their eyes lay on her.
+ she wants to be taken seriously.
+ she doesn't want to act pissed off 80% of the time
+ she appreciates REAL friends, not idiots who hang around to share the spotlight.
+ she wants to be known for her personality, not her looks.
+ she doesn't want to be ignored once her face changes for the worse
etc etc, the list goes on. Which is why I will look down on people who preach to me about how they want to be known for their pretty little faces and sex-hormones-inducing sexy body or what not.
Sis: EYE CANDY?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? :DDDDDDD *Smacks herself to stop grinning like a moron* Ahem. Well, now I'm the insomniac. -___- It's quite frustrating. Mentally wide awake at night, but in the day I've got trouble sticking to reality. -_____- I want sleeeeeeep. :( Maybe that's why I feel sickly now... -_-
Mei: Hey, tell Mom to call? I`ll be up till 1:00am (JP time) today
Another random thought... Children have big dreams for the world. All for the greater good of the world. Peace, end to suffering, happiness for everyone (etc etc), but where does all that go when they grow up into dull adults? *Looks at the people walking past* Selfish beings only caring for their own existence and well-being, or the people close to them. I suppose the innocence and general good-heartedness of children adds on to their appeal to the boring creatures they will become, but looking at it from this angle, it only adds to the irony of adults and how they think they think
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 04:41 p.m. (GMT +9) - lj ~ ~ ~
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--Feeling?---|---Fatigued. Exhausted. About to faint. Blah blah.--
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Currently I am overcome by fatigue. Last night after finally packing my bag for school, the urge to draw just came over me. And till 5:30am in the morning, I was drawing chibi humans (which look so much better than my non-chibi ones). ^^ Happy, but very very very tired since I've only have 1 and a half hour's worth of sleep. But that's alright. After the Polytechnic days, this is nothing; 3 days without a wink of sleep. Right now I'm just in a state of heightening senses and a dull grasp on reality.
Riiiight. My hair has gone completely nuts. Woke up 2 days ago shocked to find it resembling Kikumaru Eiji's. The next day, Yuna's once more. Mmm.
People should just get over the fact that Singapore's the only Asian country with English as it's official language. I'm quite sick of explaining this when Japanese ask "shingopo-ru go wo shabetteimasu ka?" (Do you use Singaporean language?).
Something else that the people in my class can't seem to comprehend too well either: We were all asked what sort of 'clubs' (or activities, if you like) are popular in schools. Singapore? I answered Sepak Tarkua (sp) for the guys, Chinese dance for the girls. Since the former is a Malaysia/ Indonesia sport and the latter comes from China, them classmates were all confused at how Singapore (that little dot on the world map) could have such an array of activities from other countries all there. -____- Had to explain that different races make up the nationals all over AGAIN.
Oh yes, and yesterday the first episode of Gensoumaden Saiyuuki RELOADED aired. The pace hasn't changed much, just that their clothes have been changed slightly; Goku now looks like a semi-beggar with those torn 3/4 pants. Kogaiji's goon squad apparently has changed their outfits, from what I've seen in the preview for next week's episode; they've gone really white. There was a little omake section at the end where it answered a reader's question: "Why doesn't Sanzo and gang go to the West via plane?" The specially animated sequence then showed Sanzo on the plane (the other 3 were sleeping) attempting to light a cigeratte, but is stopped by the stewardess who reminds him that it is a no-smoking plane. ^^ Cute. Oh, and the opening song (if it can be counted a song at all) really sucks. More of noise.
And they killed Alex. -.- Dang, why is it that most of the anime characters that grow on me just keep getting killed. Nevermind that most of them are villains, Alex isn't. >< But Last Exile's ending was really well done. In a way, though Alex died, he did get his revenge. I would like to get the DVDs sometime.
Hehehe Mei, I just freaked the Indonesians in my class out when I sang Bengawan solo. It's Indonesian, but they can't even get the tune right. o.O
Ozumi-sensei (everyone's favorite teacher) popped into my class to have his bento. Rare one since he's never done it before. Bayu-san, Ototo-chan and I spoke to him for about an hour and he told us a very amusing experience his former student had:
The Korean, who had only just completed the basics of Japanese at the time was walking along a crowded street when a Japanese man's shoulder bonked against his. The man then challenged the Korean to a hands-on fight. The Korean put up a boxing stance, and proceeded to taunt the man into attacking. Except he only learnt the basics of Japanese (with Kei-go), and instead of saying the normal 'ko-i' （来い）for a fight, he ended up saying 'irasshaimase'（いらっしゃいませ）. The 2 words do mean the same thing ('come'), but... XD Japanese or advanced learners will know what I am talking about. XD All 3 of us could NOT stop laughing. XD I'm still feeling high from it.
The new batch of students have arrived. I would be a Senpai, if there were any Singaporeans among them... o.O
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 04:18 p.m. (GMT +9) - lj ~ ~ ~
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--Feeling?---|---Fatigued...--
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Just feeling great for Sis. ^^ I don't know how else to say it.
Bleah, get so little sleep, stay like a zombie all day, but night just brings the energy out in me. I can study for 4 hours straight at night till my mind tells me I should go sleep, but then again I take a hour to snooze. My body hates the day. And I feel like a reptile. Get up freezing, walk about and soak up the sun for 30 minutes before I get enough warmth to last me the day. Night? My body just releases it's own form of miracle drug and I go all high. Mom, I'm trying not to be a night-bird, but my system doesn't want to cooperate. -____- Dis'h sookshu.
Feel my body's resistence going down the gutter. Should sleep or rest more. Tomorrow's a day off. JOY!
Thinking about it, yeah. Make-up is for those who don't have the confidence to bear their real faces to people. ... *Looks at the amount of people who turn to religion* .... nevermind... There aren't many who have self-confidence, and too many who are lack of it, or egoistic.
Sycia's bad habit #858: switching from one subject to the other without notice
The following happened on the plane from Hokkaidou to Tokyo:
Sycia: God I am hungry...
Joyce: ... you think I ain't
Sycia: They don't even give us snacks on this damn flight...
Joyce: Well what do you expect....
Sycia: *Suddenly notices the guy sitting a row in front*
Joyce: ...this flight's only an hour anyway. They wouldn't give us more than drinks.
Sycia: Hey, that's darn healthy-looking hair...
Joyce: WhAt?????????????
Sycia: *Points to the guy in front of her* Nice healthy-looking hair!
Joyce: *Flips*
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Wonder what happened to the fucker who ripped my blog design off completely. Today his blog is just... well see for yourself. Is he moving somewhere I can't find just to rip me off once more?
Woohoo! Finally an anime fair! It's next year, but I'll not going back anytime soon. :) Won't just be Japanese animations; International animation fair. Good for me research. Get some merchandise too (possibly). Wonder if I should send my animation work in for the contest... ^^ 鷲森さん、リンクを教えてくれてありがとうございます！
Hehehe, Confusion. ^^ Tried my real name and got wahaha; "God of Evil", worshippers = mental patients that show devotion by LARPing. This is cute. XD
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~ ~ ~ Sycia soared the skies at 04:12 p.m. (GMT +9) - lj ~ ~ ~
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(integrated MPD), tormented in the soul & schizophrenic in the heart. Languages understood: English, Japanese, Chinese, Hokkien, Teochew & Malay.
