Monday, October 7, 2002
ohmygod ohmygod ohmygod. So yeah. I did no studying today. It's already 11:00, my usual sleeping-hour, and I've basically done nothing. My mom says one of my best attributes is that I hardly ever stress, which I guess is good in some cases. But it's gotten to the point that the no-stress thing has completely taken over and now I just feel apathetic toward all things. Like Lit AP literary terms, which are due on Wednesday. ::shrug::. My major concern right now = the Buffy episode on tomorrow. That better be full of Spike angst-ing and not-that-much Willow.
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Monday, October 7, 2002
I need a place to vent my feelings. OK, so they aren't really feelings. More like wishes for college and shit. I don't know, I feel really insecure. I don't want to leave Silicon Valley. Mostly because I know that it'll be leaving my mom and my cat alone in the house. Dennis comes back from Berkeley once every few weeks, but even he admits that as time goes on his visits will get farther and farther apart.
SCU might be a good option for me. But I'm not sure -- do I want to stay forever in the Silicon Valley? Or should I move on and try something new? Geh. I think the best decision for me at this time would be to just apply to SCU and to all the other schools I have on my list and then eventually narrow down my choices.
Anyways, my wrist hurts from typing. Damn my weak wrist. And I feel really really sleeeeeeepy. And I want to eat cookies. Cookies are delicious.
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Monday, October 7, 2002
So the first six-week grading period is over. My grades aren't as bad as I had thought they would be. Thankfully. Considering this entire six-weeks I've forgotten numerous things and been very sloppy.Physics: I have a low A in that class... like a 91%. I really need to get a higher A. Lit: What I have in that class is a mystery. I don't think that it'll be a pleasant surprise though. Econ: I have an A in econ. Because it's econ. And it's easy. Calc B/C: Low low A in that class. Like a 90.1%. That's pretty bad. I need to get higher. Or at least volunteer to go to the board or something. Epic: Once again, a mystery. Hopefully decent. Art: I actually have a high grade in art... like a 98% or something. Apparently Willson likes the graphite art project thingy I'm doing. Yeahhh but getting a B in art would have been... bad.
I feel like I should have taken more AP classes. Just because I love APs and feel that taking those 3-hour long tests are about as blissful as eating chocolate cookies and watching Matt Damon on TV. Fine. Although I may not enjoy those wonderful classes as much as Matt Damon on TV, I feel like I should have "challenged" myself more. Like taken Chem AP or something. Maybe even Comp Sci even though computers have a tedency to hate me.
And so far this day has only been mediocre and not swell because I wore my new pants today and they got graphite-y in art. Awww.... poor pants.
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Sunday, October 6, 2002
So today was so unproductive. I went out to look for Shakespeare in Love on DVD. I couldn't find it, so ended up buying pants. Yes. Because the DVD and the pants are just so similar.
I actually didn't procrasinate at all this weekend. So I don't have any last-minute homework that I need to cram. But I feel as if I should be cramming. I'm not used to being finished with hw way before my bedtime.
And I took a quiz:
Which Subaru are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
OK, so I don't really agree with that. I'm not depressive at all. I might be sleepy all the time, but that's not depression. That's just laaaaziness. ::yawn:: But Subaru looks yummy in that picture. I luv how he always has so much angst. And wow, I haven't really indulged in any X/1999 lately because CLAMP is on their two-month break or something. So no Christmas Asuka installment, I think.
SAT IIs in one week. Am I screwed? God, I hope not.
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Sunday, October 6, 2002
So the Matt Damon SNL wasn't that great. Mostly because Matty seemed to make a fool out of himself in some skits. But hey, he was so damn cute. I loved the stills between commercials. And he looked adorable in the skit where he played himself.
I guess what I really want isn't Matt Damon on SNL. What I want is Matt Damon in a show by himself where he has random celebrity guests like Affleck and he changes outfits often. He'd also say lots of witty things. And be cute. Definitely.
Tomorrow will be a long day. OK, so not really. I'm lying. I'll probably end up studying SATs sometime in the morning and watch my DVDs in the afternoon. DVDs include Dogma, The Talented Mr. Ripley, and other assorted Matt Damon movies. You know what DVD I wanted to buy but couldn't find -- Shakespeare in Love.
I have the $10 American Eagle money card which I can now spend. It's only valid through October. Anybody want to go shopping? If not, I'll just have to drag my mom.cynthia last posted @ --> 01:03 a.m.
Saturday, October 5, 2002
So the new layout is up. It looks plain and stuff. And I want to archive all these entries soon. And tonight there is Matt Damon SNL. 90 minutes of Matt Damon goodness. And wow, I can't wait [and no I'm not weird and obsessive].
I'm hungry. Lunch should come sooner.
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Thursday, October 3, 2002
I'm happy today because Mrs. Warmuth said she'll write my teacher rec. Wheeee. I'll have to give her the forms soooon though since she said the earlier the better. The downside is that now I feel like I've accomplished something when I really didn't do that much. Which will mean that most likely the day will be spent frivolously as I count down the hours until Matty is back on TV.
I feel crappy. I think it's the lack of sleep. I only got around 5 hours last night. I'm used to 7... actually, I prefer 8 hours. Or more. Yes, I require lots of sleep in order to function properly. Otherwise I tend to babble a lot and act really out of character. Yeah, if I tend to talk about nothing for several minutes to you, that means I'm sleep deprived.
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Wednesday, October 2, 2002
I failed the calc test today. But that's OK because afterwards I went to Victoria's house and we watched Smallville during lunchtime. It was funny. But I can understand why people watch it...
Yeah, so if anybody actually reads this blog, here's something that cheered up my day [even though I was actually pretty happy before]: MATT DAMON on t.v. Thursday on Conan and Saturday on SNL. I'll be watching. and recording. Hey, he's going to be sexy, cute and WITTY. He better be witty on Conan. But then again since I'm accustomed to sleeping at 11, I think anything would be witty. He could say "hello" and I think I'd end up on the floor giggling.
Yes. I sleep at 11:00 most of the time now. Because by 10:30 I'm just really sleepy. I guess I don't have the energy such as other people do who stay up all night.
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Monday, September 30, 2002
And just like the guy whose feet are too big for his bed
Nothin' seems to fit
Those raindrops are falling on my head, they keep falling
So I just did me some talkin' to the sun
And I said I didn't like the way he' got things done
Sleepin' on the job
Those raindrops are falling on my, head they keep falling
But there's one thing I know
The blues he sends to meet me won't defeat me
It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me
Raindrops keep falling on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red
Crying's not for me
Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'
Because I'm free
Nothing's worrying me.
Aww. I [heart] that song. Everybody should go download it off of kazaa or something. Sure, it's OLD and not hip, but heyyy I think it's cooool. That plus is extra happy.
I need a new layout. Matty is cute, but a new Matty layout could come out in the future. Probably much later since I'm lazy and just the thought of layout-ing gives me a headache.
Hey, everybody should go try that V8 splash stuff. They aren't kidding when they say it's "refreshingly fruity." It's both refreshing and fruity, and although I was skeptical of the carrot juice in it at first, I got over it. It tastes nummy. I'm thirsty right now. But I just drank a glass of V8 splash. It'd be weird to drink two in a row. I'd drink orange juice, but my mom bought high pulp/homesqueeze orange juice, which I don't like. You know, instead of fighting over what kind of juice to drink, I could just drink water. So I'm going to go do that now. Bye-bye.
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Wednesday, September 25, 2002
This week has been a hell-ish week. OK, so not really. And it's more than half-over now, so yay. Anyways, this post will just be about Cynthia and her college decisions. I think I'm just going to apply to Claremont McKenna, Scripps, and the UCs. None other. No Stanford. Just becuase... But yeah. Scripps seems like a nice choice, they have a 64% acceptance rate, you can take courses at the other Claremont colleges, and it's a small school. However, you have to attach a graded analytical writing assignment from your junior or senior year to the app. This frightens me.
In other news, calc is like a slow poison that is eating me from the inside. I'd have half as much homework if I didn't take calc. But oh well, it was my own choice, albeit a stupid one, to take it. I'm not a math-y person by nature. So I suck. OK, time to go back to not-calcing.
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Friday, September 20, 2002
Today's plan for productiveness died when I decided to go to blockbuster and get The Count of Monte Cristo. The movie itself was pretty good mostly due to the cast of hot boys. I liked Guy Pearce. Even though he looked weird in Time Machine [that movie, btw, sucked and nobody should go watch that].
Dennis is back from Berkeley, and will be eating lots of food this weekend to compensate for the inedible meals he's been getting at the cafeteria. Now I'm afraid of dorm food. But apparently Berkeley has the worst out of all the UCs -- so anywhere's better than Berkeley. LA has the best food, I think. I want to go to LA. For the food.
I've been feeling really down lately. It's like nothing I do cheers me up at ALL. Good god, I'm depressive/suicidal. OK, fine, so I'm really not. But that would add a soap-opera feel to my blog. After all, my blog is so full of fluffy things [since most of my day is fluffy].
I'm so sleepy. I'll clean my room now, and after that I'm going to go watch The Count of Monte Cristo again just for the hot-ness. I miss Matty. He should be in a movie right now so I could spend lots of money watching it multiple times.
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Thursday, September 19, 2002
So I was looking up Claremont McKenna online, and I looked at their requirements or whatever you call them. I have ALL of them~! I think. The requirements were 4 years of English, 3/4 years of math, 2 years of science, and something like 3 years of foreign language. But I don't have any leadership qualities. What can I say? Uh... I'm the CFO [a.k.a. business section head] of the school newspaper, and I, uh, make ads? Wow, that sounds lame. Plus, I lead like 1 person. Usually myself. Oh well.
On the brighter side of things, my car got one of those parking violation stickers stuck on it today. It was large, neon green, and unattractive. I drove home in shame. The sad thing is that I actually do have a parking permit. It's just that it falls off all the time so I take it off and store it safely into my glove compartment until I get to school. Then I usually hang it. But I was lame today and forgot.
So I've refined my college list a little bit more. But really, who's going to accept me? Ehhh...
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Wednesday, September 18, 2002
Yesterday I decided that I needed to be a lot more productive. So what did I do? I created a schedule of sorts for today. I had 3:30-7:30 for ad-making, 7:30-8:30 for dinner, 8:30-10:00 calc hw-ing, and from 10:00-12:00 SAT studying. That's sick, isn't it.
But anyway, I'm just going to blog about Cynthia's near encounter with fame. Actually, more like my mom almost got to meet somebody famous. Sort of. You see, during my mom's grad school years, she was friends with Ang Lee's [the guy who directed Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon and Sense and Sensibility] wife. Apparently when Dennis was born, my mom even took him to see Ang Lee and his family. But anyways, my mom said that this year's college reuinion for her was at Ang Lee's house. If she had gone, she could have rekindled the friendship and it would have been COOL. But no, my mom didn't go because we were remodeling the house. Deaath to that.
Well, that was completely pointless. But in GOOD news -- Matt Damon on TV tonight. Tune in to Fox @ 8:00 p.m.! He'll be cute.
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Monday, September 16, 2002
I don't really have any interests. That's kind of frightening if you think about it -- and when I say interests I mean interests that could later develop into productive careers. I certainly enjoy doing lots of things [sleeping for example] but it's not like I enjoy science or math, which could develop into careers. I like English, but I'm not sure if I love it enough to major in it. I could certainly try, but I'm not sure if my writing is top-calibur. Actually, I'm fairly sure it's not. As evidenced by the writing in this blog. Ick. How many grammatical errors were in that paragraph? I'm afraid to check...
Sure, I'd like to be idealistic and say that I want to major in something that I love and that money doesn't factor into my choice. That would be a lie because I think no matter what I choose later on I'll always be thinking the same question over and over again which is "is there a career for me to go into afterwards?" I used to consider biology as an option, but once again, I don't really like biology that much. Unfortunately, my mom still thinks I should do something in the science field since it might be a more secure choice later on.
I also feel obligated to apply to some private colleges even though I doubt I'll attend one. I can't really think of a good private college I'd like to go to in California. I'm limiting myself to California because no matter how many times I say I can't stand my house and my family I don't think I could live too far away from it. I was thinking about the Claremont colleges, but it is a lot more expensive. I know my dad will be the one to carry the burden of tuition [my mom is for the room&board] but I still don't know of private colleges are really all that much better than public schools. Education-wise, I think you can get a lot out of public schools. Private schools also tend to coddle you since you're shelling out $25,000 a year to them, while in public schools you're expected to be taking care of yourself. Of course, I'm no expert in this subject so half of what I say is probably wrong.
Maybe I'll just apply to the UCs. Maybe I'll just declare myself as an English major. Or be undeclared. I seriously don't know. Why does senior year have to come with so many damn choices? I seriously just want to sit on my lazy ass and pretend it's junior year.
OK, so now I feel like I've relieved most of my stress. Back to online apathetic-ness and laziness.
Oh yeah, and as my PSA for the week, MATT DAMON ON BERNIE MAC THIS WEDNESDAY @ 8:00 on FOX. Matty-on-tv. That sounds like a good day.
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Sunday, September 15, 2002
OK, so I'm blogging just to put up the results from the quiz I just took. I had to put it up here since the color MATCHED my blog now.
I doubt I'll be a scientist. And I'm not very logical. OK, I'll stop blogging now and go back to calc-ing.
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Sunday, September 15, 2002
So version 6 is up. Version 5 is down, obviously. I don't know how long I had the fluffy pink Kotori layout, but seriously, it was getting on my nerves. Not like this layout will last long either, but I actually liiike this layout because of Matt Damon. Fine, I only like the picture. The rest of the layout is boring and bland. I think it's because it's grayscale. Oh well.
Eventually, I'll stick to a layout for a few months. Until then, I'll continue to churn out these crap layouts until I'm sick and tired of them. I already don't like my "glow"-y links. They bother me. I wish I could change it. I could change it now, but that would require tiiime. Besides the fact that it took me half an hour to figure out how exactly to make them work.
I spent the better half of yesterday doing nothing, just like how I'm spending most of today doing nothing as well. Either way, I'm wasting time. But yesterday I watched around half of Gosford Park. Ryan Phillippe is cute. Is that how you spell his name? Ehh.
OK, the rest of today needs to be full of me trying to get calc hw done. Even though I'm really sleepy and feel like taking a nap. OK, screw calc. It's time for sleeeep.
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