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I vow to finish Catch-22 before the end of this week. When I'm at Yellowstone, I'll be working on one of my gov books.

I'm booored because my scanner is offline. No layout-making for meee.

I got my new desk and dresser today~! They match with all the other wood stuff in my room since everything I have is oak.

I also finished Dogma. I [heart] that movie. It's so funnnny... is it wrong that my favorite scene in the movie is the Mooby slaughter? Matty being mean and vengeful is really hot...

After that, I watched the first quarter of Three Kings. Yummy Mark Wahlberg. But mom kept on complaining that it was too noisy, so I stopped.

Yellowstone in a few days. I'll misss everybody. Actually, that's not true since I'll be back in 6 days. But *eh*.

I'm bored. So this post will be full of Cynthia-angst, a rare brand of angst since Cynthia really doesn't angst much. She angsts sometimes before bedtime, but that can be considered moping rather than angsting.

<angst>

Yesterday really sucked. I mean sucked in ways I never knew it sucking could. My brother and I went out to lunch w/ Dad, and it was all good and normal until we went back to his house and he told us he was living with girlfriend and was likely to marry next year. DEAATH as the ensuing silence was the most uncomfortable ever. So, I kind of dealt with it and acted ex-tra cheerful the rest of the day as it is my way of angsting. Clever, eh.

After lunch w/ Dad [he gave me for my b-day though. yayy], I went home to do well, nothiing. Victoria came over so that I could scan stuff for her, but that wasn't really angsting [since I luvvvv Victoria].

Yeah, ok, so moving onwards... My mom then forced me to go to dinner party w/ old family friends that I don't really know [old for her, weiiird for me]. Dennis was forced to as well but drove in separate car and thus has the privelige and luck of leaving early. I was left there to suffer until 11 p.m. until I finally snapped and gave all the adults there the glare of death and stomped off towards the door with my purse. Ick. I faced the wrath of mother all the way back. And in my cranky and deliriously angry state, I still believed I was right in glaring at everybody and that I was suuure nobody had noticed.

</angst>

<rant>

Yeah, so that brings me to my rant. After the dinner party, my mom said that I should act more like the "polite" kids that her friends have in that I shouldn't have glared at them and had been that impatient. I, however, don't think that acting like those polite stuck-up gurls and boys is good at all. I mean, there's absolutely no way I can act like those people again. Cheerful and shit without a second doubt. Baaad things have happened to me, and I'm sorry if I'm a little bit too cynical or saracastic or bitter about it. At least I have my eyes open, and am not as shy I was before. At least I express my opinions and demand that I get attention instead of simply melting into the background like some average, schooled, polite kid.

I'm not saying that the divorce or any of the other crap that has come to pass gives me the right to be impolite though. I understand now that perhaps glaring at everybody waasn't the way to go... but I'm not going to just sit there, be quiet, and be unnaturally bored out of my mind for five hours straight without saying anything. That would be absurd.

</rant>

Oooh. That is all. And now I will proceed to clean my room, clean my desk, and mayy-be watch some Dogma. Shiii-et, Matty is cute in that movie. That plus I got the Special Edition DVD with the extra disc of special features. ^_______^.

This summer hasn't been very relaxing. Construction on my house is... probably around 3/4 done. The kitchen cabinets are almost all installed, the hardwood floors are laid down but not polished yet. My mom's room is done, and so is her bathroom. My [and Dennis'] bathroom is almost done. It still needs the marble countertop. But yeaah. Almost there.

I also managed to go out to buy clothes yesterday, spending a total of which I'm pretty proud of. I bought four articles of clothing ^____^. I bought a pair of boot-cut jeans, a caramel-colored cord skirt, a white t-shirt, and a green 3/4 sleeve polo shirt. Nummy. All of them were on SALE. This made me happy. What made me even more happy was that mom didn't murder me when she saw that I had bought stuff.

My X site's layout is basically done. I just need to have content. Which will take me forever to do.

Somebody needs to go and update ohayo since I've already done it. Maybe I'll do it again and it'll be like a second blog to me.

I want to buy clothes, I want to buy clothes. Mayyybe I will. But that means I need to hurry up and finish my SAT II class essay and then rush off to the mall and get home before 4:00. Or, go directly to the SAT II class of evil young'uns where I am the oldest one there.

Tomorrow will be fun-filled. Dad is coming tomorrow, and supposedly we are going to do something fun since he won't get to see Dennis much after he goes to Berkeley. Nummy. Dad promised to take us to China next summer. X-tra nummy.

However, next summer I also want to go to Taiwan. Plus, some sort of senior trip. Or something like that. So that would make 3 trips in total. However, Dennis disagrees with me and says that we should go to Taiwan during winter break since he hates hot humid weather, which is the staple in Taiwan. Death to hot humid weather.

I am "finished" for now on the layout of my X shrine. However, I have yet to add content to it. So I'll have to start scanning like mad. Scans, scans, scans. I have X 1-16. I want X17. I want sexie Subaru.

Gehhh. I am losing precious clothes-buying time by blogging. Must hurry and finish essay. Must... hurrrry.

So sleepy. I need/want to make a new layout for this blog. But it'll be in b/w and Weiss-centric. Awww. Aya [the guy] is sexie.

Today was more appliance shopping. I just got back from an hour of it. In a few moments I will depart to go shop for stuff Dennis needs for Berkeley at Bed, Bath & Beyond. Lots of funn shopping. I'm lying. It's going to be painful and very very boring.

That is all. Not much to update this page about. Maybe I'll update Ohayo [not a chance].

Today was the day for appliance-shopping. I shopped with my mom for around 5 hours. Lots of freeway driving where I had many brushes with death. I like how the two stores my mom chose to go to was in Downtown SJ and Almaden. Gehh.

Here's a random quiz [of luvvv].

Take the What Kind of Chinese Food Are You? test!

This makes me surprisingly hungry. I had dim sum today for lunch. Somehow those two sentences are supposed to make sense together in a magickal sort of way.

So yeah. I cancelled piano lessons today since my piano is in the garage. I couldn't practice... ::whine whine::. However, I need to practice next week or else mom will murder me in my sleep and frame the cat. Thaat's right.

Yeah, so 5 hours of looking at ovens really did fry my brain. Sooo whaat?

I feel asleep reading Catch-22. I am so screwed. I mean, I was reading the first few pages and found it hilarious, but for some reason.... *ZZzzZzZzzzzz*.

And now it's 4:00 p.m. and I feel disoriented and shit. You know, I have 0 in cash at home. I dunno what I'm going to do with that. I mean, I feel obligated to use it in my money-spending way. Like... clothes/DVDs. But then I'd feel guilty right afterwards since, well, I've been using lots of money the past few months.

So in the spirit of Cynthia wasting money, I'll probably go shopping later this week. But I ph33r my mom finding out and giving me a lectuuure.

Time to play Golden Sun. Else Dennis will say he wasted money to buy it for me.

I want to make a ver3! This time I'll use those JavaScript window open dealies againnn. YEaHHh. And no more confined div tables. Instead, I'll just let people scrolll the body. Like normal.

I'm tiiiired. I'll do layout tomorrow. Or never. Mayybe never.

This was interesting.

what movie symbolism are you? find out!

OK... that is enuff blogging for today. Or for many days.

I was feeling bitchy today. But now I feel better. It didn't help that contractors turned off our water so that they could re-pipe our entire house. I had to go to he bathroom and was forced to drive to Macy's to utilize their restrooms. This eventually led me to fight with my mother as both of us were PMS-ing. Yes. It was catty. But yeahhh. Now I am normal and getting more and more mellloooow as drugz are kicking in. Drugz = tylenol.

I am shleeepy tired and still kind of angry at everything. Like this Pepsi can. What is up with thaaat. It is annoying me. I wish to crush it. GRRR.

Ohhh well. I got an application to Scripps in the mail. I have ph33r of attending all women's college. However, I will go to the Claremont colleges orientation thingy. I dunno why, but since it's so close, I might as well. Everybody I know should tell me if they are going.

The fuck... OK, there is pounding in my house. But it seems like it is coming from BENEATH my feet. This is creepy. At first I thought it was just Dennis being a bastard again, but it wasn't. But nooo... it's coming from unnnder me. That's freaky x 10.

So yesterday was my birthday. Luv and hugz go out to all that gave me bday wishes and gifts. ^____^ Thankkk you Victoria for the wunderful Clover manga -- in ENGLISH. Thank GOD. The Chinese version is all right... if you can read weird azz Chiense characters, which I can't. So now I can actually GET what they are doing, instead of guessing.

I will reciprocate Tracy's luv for oneee day. LUVVV and hugz for The Rainmaker DVD. After watching it, I will have watched... most of Matty's movies. Awww. He is hot.

My mom gave me a stuffed cow that goes "moo" very very loudly. It frightened me the first time. She is also letting me buy some anime artbooks online. Give me a goood suggestion. I already have X-zero backordered. Dennis gave me Golden Sun for GBA. I played some of it. It seems funnnn.

I went out for a birthday dinner yetserday at Chevy's. I told my mom and my brother that if they told them it was my birthday I'd impale them with a knife since I don't want the waiters to gather at my table and sing a song while they give me a free Chevy's hat. Would YOU? Ehh...

Today was spent doing nooothing. OK, fine, I actually did things. I woke up at 9, but took a nap and woke up again at 12. I went out to Home Depot to look at mailboxes. None of them were purrrty. I had lunch, which was leftovers from Chevy's, and then took another nap. I woke up around 4:30 p.m. and then proceeded to go to Expo Design Center to look at ovens, counter-top ranges, dishwashers... yeah. Home essentials.

My mom wants stainless steel everythings. Stainless steel dishwasher, range, and oven. Oooh.. but I drove back from Expo, which was in Almaden. MORE freeway driving for meee. It was fun except it was during rush hour so there were many people. I was frightened.

Next week my mom is having her car taken to the shop once again. Crappy van... No, I'm noooot bitter. This just means that my car will become HER car once again. That will suck azz all of next week.

That is all. I must go eat ice cream now since the house is unbearably hot.

Here's a [slightly] interesting conversation:

mom: I've decided to make the dining room/piano area level. We'll have to get rid of the banister.
me: But that's where Dennis broke his arm! The memories!
mom: Is that really a good memory though?
me: I dunno... you should ask Dennis.
mom: If you don't want to get rid of stuff because of memories, you wouldn't get rid of anything. It's like saying not to remodel the kitchen because of the memories that you have of cooking in there.
me: But the banister is different. If you injured yourself in the kitchen, I'd like to keep that memory.
mom: You're weird.

EhHhh. It seemed interesting at the time. Now it just seems queeer and out of place. Oh well.

Today was fun sorta. Eh. The day is only half over. But there is a slight prospect that I will be able to hook up the television tonight so I can watch. I like how we disconnected the television from the speakers, the DVD player, and the VCR without first making sure we knew how to hook the damn thing up. We fucked all the wiring up. Daaaaamn. And I guess it's up to Cynthia to fix it, because, you know, I'm an expert in wiring [no I'm not that is a blatant lie].

Todayy we had HTML class which we covered tables. For an hour. That was icky. Then we changed classrooms to go over how to scan things, which was really very simple, as you just load the software for the scanner and press "scan," and our teacher did a quick intro to the wonderful world of Photoshop fun.

Afterwards, I ate lunch with Tracy at Subway. We were trying to redeem ourselves after eating a fatty lunch at Wendy's the other day. I went back hooome at around 1:40 where apparently my mom had waited for me to come eat lunch with her. That was weiiird as I distinctly remember her saying that she would eat leftovers at home and that I should get my own food. So yeah.

My plan to eat healthy Subway meal died right there because I took my mom to Pho where I ended up eating half a spring roll and drinking the iced milk coffee, which was gooood. I luv you, coffee.

Aaaand that takes you up to where I am now. 3:00 with nothing to do. Actually, I have tons of stuff to do, but I really don't want to do it. The stuff I need to do is depressing and hard. So I will be apathetic and pretend that there is nothing to do.

Oh yeah, so my piano is in my garage. Now I really have an excuse not to play piano. Eh.

Victoria should go online. And post on Ohayo. So it won't just be Cynthia's ramblings about nothing-ness.

Hrm... I turn 17 tomorrow. I will celebrate by buying a rated-R DVD at Target. When I get carded, as they did to me last time I tried to do as such, I will have suitable ID and those prudes have no choice but to let me purchase my DVD. Any suggestions on choice? I'm thinking about Three Kings. I am man enough to admit that the only reason for getting the DVD is to see Mark Wahlberg because he is hot in his army getup. ^____^

I want to play PlayStation. I want to beat FFX. But I have ph33r of Sin. Yeah, thaaat's right. I'm right at the end of FFX, but I have no will to beat it. That's what hapened on FF8. So far, I've only beaten FF7, Chrono Trigger, and Chrono Cross as Square RPGs.

This is one looong post about nothing. Wow, I write great fluff.

So I have changed the layout. However, this layout will bug me for weeks as I try to find out why the color in my image doesn't match with the background color. The hex codes are the same. But they don't match... which is why I put the dotted border around the main image.

So about this layout. As you can see in the "About Ver3" thingy to your right, it's Aya-chan from Weiss Kreuz. Yayy for her.

The house is in a mess. They demolished the old floorz. Goodbye, old house. I will missss youu. But having a new-looking house will be nice. And now we have gotten rid of most of the junk in the house so cleaning will be easier.

Hrm... go check Ohayo. From the post, Tracy has apparently pimped me in her blog. Thaat's wonderful.

Yeah, and if I didn't lose weight, I will be disappointed and cranky [actually, I am usually disappointed and cranky].

I gave the cat a bath. When she's wet, she looks like a gigantic rat. Plus, she has amazing strength for her 8 lbs. It's really hard to restrain her while washing her. The first time we did it we ended up with a wet cat running around the house while we frantically tried to catch her.

Whee. Family life isn't exactly peachy right now. But I will pretend it is. No use angsting in public. I will angst in the privacy of my room in front of the best angst-machine ever [Subaru].

Victoria needs to go online so I can chattt with her. I think I'll call her one of these days. It'll be fun... [come online Victoria I feeearr human contact].

The economy is pretty crappy right now. Dad's going to... China? Taiwan? Yeah. One of those. For a business trip of some sort. He says engineers in Taiwan get paid around 1/3 of what engineers in SV get. In China, it's around 1/4. In Sweden they get paid around 1/2 or something. But either way, cost of living are significantly lower in those countries compared to SV.

Remodeling suckz. NEVER do it unless you don't have lots of stuff. Or you'll end up like Cynthia. A month of cleaning. My mom wants to stop the remodeling but apparently she's already paid the K deposit or something. So there is no backing out. EHHhhh. Well it'll look pretty when it's finished. I hope. IF IT EVER GETS FINISHEEED...

I will work on Ohayo layout tomorrow. I promise. Yeah, by "working" I mean putting in the <html>, <head>, and <title> tags.

Any-wayyyz. Dennis got wisdom teeth extracted. Apparently, there was painnn.. Now I have ph33r because he only had 2 teeth pulled/yanked/smashed out while for mine, I need to extract all of them. There will be much pain, Cynthia whining, and Cynthia eating ice cream when that happens... next year. Yeah, I get worked up over things in advance. It's not that queer.

I need to also wash my car. It's disgusting right now. However, the wonderful government of San Jose has decided that now is the time to re-pave our road. So they dumped a whole shitload of gravel onto our street. That was 5 days ago. They better come over and actually REPAVE soon. I fear washing the car because somehow in my mind when that water touches the gravel all hell will break loose, the gravel will disentegrate, and the city will sue my azz. I dunno. I think this fantasy is well-founded.

Nothing else to say about today. Actually, it's the middle of today. Eh. I'm sure more interesting things will happen [like my four hour death of an SAT II class where most people there are young'uns who want to 'get ahead' (damn those overachieving bums...)]. I played an hour of tennis in the HOT HOT sun. I melted and tanned even furhter. Now my feet are even MORE freakishly white compared to the rest of me.

AP scores came. There was pain and humiliation x 1001. Wheee.

Traciee called from Honda dealership right before dreaded AP scores came. She informed me of the hidden world that is RPS and fake livejournals. I must seek these out to be amuuuuused.

Oh... and somebody needs to organize an event where divinenetwork people can discuss matters. Since we have no content and stuff. I want a CLAMP site. But now I also want a Yami site. Pretty boys. I must join the clique that says "I love girly boys!" because I DO. Except, they can't be tooooo girly. Like I said, I think Legolas is too girly. Yeah, you'd think that since I like Subaru no guy could be too girly. But elf-man with flowing hair kind of takes the cake.

I'm bored at home. There aren't really any good movies coming out anymore. Come on-- Disney's The Country Bears? That would have probably seemed stupid even to me when I was six. And I was pretty easily amused when I was six.

There's also NOTHING to do at home. I'm bored. Somebody should randomly pop over and entertaiiin me. There's remodeling and construction. They're re-making the bathroom that is right next to my room. I hear drilling and loud pounding. It's kind of scary in an un-scary way. Pretty soon, they'll start in on the kitchen and then I won't be able to play PS2 or watch DVDs.

Oh, but I did try to do a Pilates workout. The first exercise was hard enuff. So I quit. I'll do the first AND second one 2morrow. It'll be one helluva workout. If anybody wants to JOIN me [also aid me] tell me. It's supposed to be effective and elongate the body instead of making it bulky and muscle-y as most exercises do. So you'll have a streamlined body. And it's also not supposed to be painful.

I tried to learn more JavaScript and dHTML yesterday. That was also painful. With Javascript, I understand how to use variables, how to open windows, how to swap images [sorta] and how to change the status bar [kinda]. But I don't really get loops and arrays. Rather, I got the simple loop. But then it got all complex and shiiit and then it lost me. Arrays are confusing. I need a JavaScript tutor. Or at least another resource besides the one tutorial that I use for everything.

I need more CLOTHES. And MONEY. Therefore... perhaps a JOB? I don't know where though. I kind of want to try this job finding dealy at Youth at Work but I lack initiative. Plus, I have a feeling all those jobs listed under the position "team member" is probably at Target. I want to work at like a clothing store. Even Mervyn's even though everybody says it's bad. Screwww that. I'll do menial labor.

Hee. So sue me... I'm materialistic. Anybody who says they're not is LYING. LYING LYING LYING. Those liars. I mean seriously, who doesn't want more clothes? A better computer? A nice car?

I need some more money to go to Kinokinuya or however you spell it. I wannnt to buy more pretty boys. Maybe even some Yami manga for pretty Tsuzuki. Or the second half of "An Assassin and White Shaman" for Weiss.

I'll stop this post now. I think I can rant on for several more paragraphs... but right now I feel the need to go and do something productive like read some required reading novel [probably Catch-22]. VICTORIA needs to go online. I will WILL her to do with my awesome magickal powers.

Geh. Sick of layout already. I believe I'll be working on a new one soon. It'll be Weiss Kreuz oriented since I bought the first part of it's "special" manga which has full color illustrations in the front. Oh yeah, and somebody needs to work on Ohayo. I've made a silent vow to myself [yes I do this and it's definitely not a sign of insanity] that after I finish Frankenstein and The O'Reilly Factor I will start to work on layouts. I need to learn more javascripting and some DHTML.

I want to make a CLAMP website. However, I need enough of CLAMP's wonderful images to be able to start a CLAMP site that is respectable. So far, all I have are X 1-16, Clover 1-4 [all], Tokyo Babylon 'Photographs', and Tokyo Babylon 3-4. X zero should be on it's way. I don't know what I should order for my birthday, right now I am wavering between:

1. Card Captor Sakura Artbook #2
2. Yami no Matsuei Sketchbook
3. Yami no Matsuei Character Book
4. Weiss Kreuz Illustrations

GeHh. I don't think I should exceed over when purchasing. Money is preciouuuus.

On a completely different note, the construction workers working at our house left a pile of white-ish dust in our backyard. I have the feeling that it's asbestos and that it's wafting into our ventilation system as I type. If I die of cancer, I'll know who to blame.

Victoria should go online more. So I can chat with her. It seems that after relying on AIM for so long to communicate with people, it seems weird to actually pick up a phone and dial her number.

We need to set up a date where we can discuss that simply-divine.net thing. Preferably over delicious food so I can stuff my fat stomach. Yum.

* spend the rest of your life with in perfect bliss: Nokoru since he's rich, nice-looking... and charming. Not Subaru considering his preferences, plus as a fangirl I can only dream of s/s. But I still luv Subby to death.

* have an emotionally void but wicked hot one-night stand with: Hrm... Fuuuuma. He's my age for one. Plus, he's really hot as evil Fuuma.

* watch having an emotionally void but wicked hot one-night stand: Can't think of anybody I'd like to watch.

* set up with your best friend: Keiichi because he's the only normal character out of the bunch. Everybody else is just insane.

* have as your best friend: SUBARU~! Though he might angst all over the floor, it'll be good angst. Plus, he's extra nice all the time.

* get wasted with: *thinks* Sorata? Don't know why. It was the first name that popped into my head.

* employ as a live-in masseur: Fuuma... he's still shexie.

* use as a human pillow: Chibi Kamui. Not normal stick-like Kamui. Chibi Kamui. With huge eyes. *awww*

* bring home to meet the 'rents: Nokoruuu.

* have as your sibling: Kamui. He's so skinny I could kick his azz if it weren't for his magickal powers.

* tie up in your basement and kick when you're feeling frustrated: Kanoe the ho.

* tie up in your bed and lick when you're feeling frustrated: Well, I always said that Subaru was delicious...

Well, this has satisfied my blogging needs for a loong time. People who aren't frightened of me after this... well, goood. ^__________^ I'm normal. Really.

But until then, I'm going to whittle away my time by looking at frivolous sites and watching random programs on T.V. I like how my house isn't even 1/2 remodeled yet. The kitchen is still to go.

I need a new blog quiz. Something to break up the lovely lines of text on the page so it won't look horrendously block-like. Actually, I think I'm going to go ahead and do that weird azz X/TB chara quiz just for FUN. Damn straight it'll be fun. And if I don't post it, it means somehow in the duration of my fun the fun got sucked out or I got wussed out and decided not to post my insane chatterings about how luvly Subaru is on blog.

I need to work on my grammar.

Yeah, to anybody else, it would have been obvious who that was. But it wasn't obvious to Cynthia, so I didn't let them in. Eh.

But on the up side, I saw Road to Perdition today. It was pretty good, the acting was really good. And they really did succeed in turning Jude Law into a scraggly looking man with thinning hair and freakish teeth.

That's ALL for now. I will work on Ohayo layout next week. It'll be done.. NEVERRR. I'm lazy, what can I say. I make no excuses for myself.

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