Well, I made the new layout for this weblog, and it isn't even the Tony one I was babbling about, haha. We'll see when I have time to upload the frigging thing.

Glad you feel better, Jo.

Tuesday, July 24, 2001 @ 10:19 p.m.

Jo's not feeling the greatest... Sometimes I feel like that, too... Like I shouldn't be wasting my time online or getting pressed over asian stuff.

What is wrong with me lately? Check the livejournal for what has been bothering me...

Monday, July 23, 2001 @ 07:04 p.m.

Take Me There? Ghetto Superstar? The Britney Spears Pepsi commercial? I hope he's kidding when he wants us to do one of those for Magnet Arts Night...

Here comes the asian guy rant:

Now I don't hate asian guys. I'm asian, so I'm free to rant about my own kind, haha. Whatever. Allie even has a web clique for those infatuated with asian guys. Sure I'm infatuated with some asian guys. All of them are asian pop stars and rock stars. None of them I will ever meet or get to know. The guys I know are quite... Interesting. I'll take what a certain asian guy said in my yearbook: No asians are manly. Hmm. That's usually true. I don't want to comment on the asian guys in my school, but most of them are obsessed with their clothes and hair, a little fake at times, and bad flirts. They have the weird gelled hair thing going, the Armani clothes [at least the ones that can afford it], the minidisc players, the wannabe ghetto or wannabe gentleman act... [I think I'm pointing two particular guys too much here.] But in all seriousness, I find asian guys often very hard to deal with. They travel in their pack, they do everything in their pack. If the head guy in their pack says no, they all say no. They all want girls [the same girls], but they're not brave enough to do anything but flirt voraciously.

The funny thing is, they used to all be pressed over asian music, but now they're all like, asian music sucks. I don't care, but it's not as if the music they listen to now is any better or any newer. One of the main reasons why I more or less stopped listening to American music is because the quality has fallen low. I've always been a music freak, ever since I was in third grade. I listen to many different types of music, and I do know quite a lot about music. I kind of reached my limits with American music [everytime I turn on the radio, I hear All or Nothing, Ride Wit Me, and Hanging By a Moment... Those are probably the best songs out right now, but they're months old already.], and although it bothers some people when they can't understand the singing, it doesn't bother me. Many times you can't even understand American songs. I like asian songs because of the way they sound, the melodies and such. Yes, they can be totally ripped off American songs, but I think it's amusing.

But back to asian guys... They're fun, but not always easygoing. They can be very hard to work with [note Can't Wait when we couldn't get a single asian guy from our grade to do it] and are often stubborn. They all have a tendency to just go along with whatever their clique says. The entire "azn pryde" thing seems to be gone a bit, but freshman year it was unbearably annoying when asian people when proclaim their sudden "azn pryde" after a lifetime of just being "asian."

Which all leads to why I've never liked an asian guy but once, and I doubt he'd be categorized under even half of what I've just rambled about.

The thing with H.O.T.'s music is there are songs for every mood. With F2TS, you don't get much variety... Not as much with Shinhwa either. That is why H.O.T. is unique even if they are scary at times.

Finally got that DivX plugin for Lisa's computer... So we're trying to watch the Hope video, except Lisa's comp sucks so I just forwarded through the entire thing myself.

Lisa: Ew, Kang Ta, die! No, Woo Hyuk, don't die!
Jenny: Look, little Kang Ta's trying to beat up the piano!
Lisa: Kang Ta's an idiot.
Jenny: Look, little Kang Ta's mad! Mad, mad, mad!
Lisa: Tony and Woo Hyuk are the only ones worth looking at twice.
Jenny: Aww, Tony's so cute! Look, the little Buddha kid is cute, too!
Lisa: Aww, Tony and Jae Won are bonding... Ew, Jae Won looks so ugly.
Jenny: Tony! Too bad poor Jae Won's not cute...
Lisa: Who's that?
Jenny: Who?
Lisa: That girl looking...
Jenny: Hold up... *rewinds*
Both: It's HEE JUN...

Haha, we're a cruel bunch. Shinhwa's Just 2 Be With You is really growing on me. Mmm, I like that first guy singer's voice [not the rapping, even though I like that, too]. And I really like Bit by J. J's songs are very soothing... Andy from Shinhwa reminds me of some guy... Not sure who, but someone. His looks, anyway.

I'm jealous of Hye Sung's voice. Theory: You must pass up a good body for a good voice. [I like the background singing by Hye Sung in Hey, Come On! after he does his little singing part!] Ever notice that Hye Sung has no abs? T_T

Haha, anyways, enough about Korean music. I'm starting to get sick of listening to it over and over again.

Tina has the strangest dreams. Treehouse dormitory? Wow. I have dreams about arms, Darth Vader, and other crap.

Lisa and I were being nasty about imagining certain guys wearing certain costumes performing certain stunts. Actually, it was one particular guy wearing Britney Spears' Pepsi commerical outfit breaking.

Jenny: So **** is willing to 'Cause I'm Your Girl?
Lisa: He says he doesn't care.
Jenny: Good. I was about to ask who was going to wear Britney Spears' outfit. And it sure wasn't going to be the girls.
Lisa: Hahaha.
Jenny: I'd like to see him try and windmill in tight pants.
Lisa: Hahahaha.

Hehe, I'm not really that cruel, but I was a little annoyed at him being so unreasonable.

Monday, July 23, 2001 @ 06:37 p.m.

MY PHOTOSHOP'S NOT WORKING!!! AH, I'M GONNA DIE... THE STUPID TYPE THING WON'T LET ME GO BIGGER THAN 18.00 ANYTHING!!! WHAT THE HECK?!! I'm seriously going to die.

Sunday, July 22, 2001 @ 07:35 p.m.

Oh, how I detest memorizing vocabulary. But actually, my vocabulary wasn't as bad as I thought it was.

Yea, I made a new layout for fww! Not up yet, though...

Sunday, July 22, 2001 @ 02:38 p.m.

At least, as soon as I get them all ftped and stuff... I feel tired after doing all that HTML! Haha. Well, it was mostly because I'm just used to doing blog layouts now, and that doesn't take too much thinking in terms of putting content in... Haha.

Saturday, July 21, 2001 @ 03:48 p.m.

I just can't make any satisfactory layouts... Blah.

Saturday, July 21, 2001 @ 11:24 a.m.

I have a hankering to make an Eve 6 layout. Ooh.

Friday, July 20, 2001 @ 05:25 p.m.

I remember Stephen Lin going "1TYM 2000!" in the middle of Spanish class. How random.

Anyways... Lisa and I were just talking about back when we visited Korea and China, respectively. Seriously it was the best experience of my life. I wanted to go back this year, but of course, I have work, and besides, my grandma just came to visit from China. The thing with my family is that we're the only ones outside of China. All of my relatives live in Anhui. Most live in Fuyang where I was born [in a hospital that is now in demolition], but my eldest uncle on my mom's side [Da Jiu Jiu] lives in Bengbu. The last time I visited China was between eighth grade and freshman year. We stayed at my Xiao Jiu Jiu's house [youngest uncle on mom's side] with Xiao Jiu Ma [his wife], Lao Lao [maternal grandmother], and Qing Qing and Ming Ming [my twin cousins]. My mom, my younger sister, and I all had to share one room, but it wasn't too bad. In the morning we'd usually go out to the street vendors and bring back food, or my aunt and grandmother would cook in the kitchen. The kitchen was that kind of Chinese kitchen that you think of from long ago... Kind of like the one in Totoro.

Both of my parents were the third child of five with two sisters and two brothers each. I was closest to my cousins Wei Wei and Meng Meng because they were the closest to me in age. Wei Wei is the daughter of my Da Jiu Jiu, and I went to stay them for about a week in Bengbu. At first, it was rather strange because we didn't have that many things to talk about. But then, we started talking about boy bands... Wei Wei's best friend only listened to English music [BSB, Boyzone], and we had fun talking about it. Both Wei Wei and Meng Meng were Huan Zhu Ge Ge fans, and they got me into it. My oldest male cousin was Lei Lei, who was about twenty then. He and I didn't have that much in common, but my mom always joked about how he got all the girls [He was kind of cute, I guess. Manly looking.]. I didn't see him too much, except when he bought me a Huan Zhu Ge Ge tape. He also wanted to buy me Zhao Wei's album, but I felt bad about getting too much from him so he didn't. Actually, I was supposed to go with him to visit some city in Anhui, but my mom didn't let me because she didn't want me to go with no adults responsible. Haha.

I went shopping a lot. I watched quite a lot of Chinese dramas, especially Huan Zhu Ge Ge and a bit of Lao Fang You Xi. I watched some old episodes of Xi You Ji, and Chinese talk shows. I remember seeing a group of four or five Korean guys wearing silver sweats performing on some show... I didn't know who they were though. The first week, we went out to eat for nearly every meal. I hadn't been back for eleven or twelve years since I had left for America when I was one. The malls were incredible. I didn't live in a really urban place [not in comparison to Shanghai], but it was pretty well developed. There were three eight to ten story malls all in the same area, and it took me awhile to tell the difference between all of them... There were the strip mall/flea market sort of places that were full of black market stuff. Vercase clothes, haha. There was a mini amusement park that Wei Wei and I visited with a tiny rollercoaster. It was great. Where else can you find fried cicadas on a stick? I remember going shopping with Wei Wei and her friends. They told me to keep my mouth shut so they couldn't tell I was a foreigner. I didn't have the right dialect. Or when I went shopping with my mother who doesn't use the Fuyang dialect [she was a teacher and had a sort of Beijing accent], and she had to try and fake it. She only knew one phrase!

Mmm. It truly was a great experience. Language and cultural barriers and all. I probably won't be able to go back until after senior year, though. I could get all my friends together, and we could visit Korea, Japan, and China all together. That would be awesome. Can't make it too long otherwise we'd get sick of each other though.

The thing is, I loved the family and everything. In China, yes you want to keep face with your family, but there's lots of things that a family can share as a whole. In that way, it's vastly different from American customs.

Anyways, enough about that for now. Wah, I love J's Just Like Yesterday [Uhn Jae Chuh Ruhm]! It's one of those songs that makes you feel all good inside. Mmm. Most of J's ballads are, though. 831 8 is good, too.

How come the girls on my buddy list never go online? I swear I always end up talking to the same guys over and over again.

Lisa is stupid. She left her backup disc at home. Not like I've ever forgotten anything at home, right?

Plans, plans. Okay, finish HTMLizing Tokiya site layout. Finish Magnet Survey content. Get some content for Tokiya site. Make an Elva Hsiao blog layout [Tony will have to wait because I'm getting a little sick of fixing that layout]. Upload/FTP everything. Work on fww layout. I'm really too unmotivated these days to make any complicated layouts [Tony exhausted me.], so we're going for simplicity. I finished the layout for the Magnet Survey site, and it's purplish. The guys are going to hate it, but screw them. I'm not very inspired. Just tired.

Dopeman, dopeman, smoke till you try will let you so high
Dopeman, dopeman, what you want is what you're never gonna get

So we called Ryan who gave us Daniel Ku's phone number. Then Daniel Tsui called us from work at NIST. Then we called Daniel Ku. Haha, so I'm trying to talk to Daniel about doing MAN, and Lisa's drawing pictures of Cyclops. Oh, well, he thinks we're all looney anyways. Anyways, he said to put him down as doing it if we couldn't find anyone else. I think he's worried about junior year stress and too much work and all. Honestly, I don't think it'll be as bad as this year, but I understand what he's worried about. But the thing is, we're probably going to end up asking him to do it. He sounds very small on the phone, but he was pretty reasonable about it considering how immature Lisa and I were acting.

Lisa: Look, I finished him!
Jenny: What?! Oh gosh, Cyclops...
Lisa: Hahaha... He's so cool!
Jenny: Shut up! [To Daniel:] Sorry...
Lisa: *laughs hysterically in background*
Jenny: *tries to explain* Yea, Lisa's just drawing pictures of Cyclops... [nothing weird going on here]

Online people won't know this, but I have a low voice for a girl. The people who know me will laugh at this though...

Jenny: *blahblahblah*
Lisa: *twiddles thumbs*
Jenny: *hands phone to Lisa*
Lisa: Huh? Oh, hello? Hello?
Jenny: It's Lisa now, if you couldn't tell. Her voice is a bit higher.
Lisa: Yea, Jenny just went through puberty real quick...
Jenny: *furious*

You see, the guy I liked in freshman year I never did anything with. Well, we never saw each other outside of school, and he didn't do any of the activities I did. As for sophomore "crush"... Honestly, first semester of sophomore year, I basically forgot about Daniel, because I had no classes with him nor lunch. Apart from some short conversations online and in school a few times, I rarely saw him. But come second semester, he was in my double period Bio class and Analysis [Calculus] class, and he was also the student aide for my English class. He did DI with us since I had asked him because we needed a guy in our group. Of course, we both did volleyball. So I had to interact with him a lot more. Even during the summer, it was harder to totally forget about him, because he kept popping up here and there, in conversations, online, at parties, etc. I think that if he did do MAN with us, I could totally get over him. I'll probably always like him in some way as a friend, because he is a nice guy. We can't escape from that fact certainly. I never liked him as a boyfriend or anything like that. For me, I find that good friendships are better and more worthwhile than a boyfriend in name or a boyfriend for a week. I kind of wanted to understand him, but right now I think that's impossible since he's probably trying to just get along in life with himself.

More proof that love and committment are for the mature and adult.

I feel like making a list right now... Or condensing my favorite song list.

1TYM: One Love
Alanis Morissette: Head Over Feet
Bijou: I Love You More Than Anyone Else
Creed: Higher, Torn
Everclear: I Will Buy You a New Life
Elva Hsiao: Cappuccino, Chuang Wai Fe Tian Qi
Fly to the Sky: Day By Day, Fly to the Sky, Shy Love, Yak-Sok
Fuel: Shimmer
H.O.T.: A Song for Lady, The Promise of H.O.T., Time Will Tell
J: Just Like Yesterday
Kaiya Naomi: Tooi Kono Machide
Lifehouse: Hanging By a Moment
Live: I Alone
Li Yi Jun: Yu Die
Neon Genesis Evangelion: The Cruel Angels' Thesis
Sakamoto Maaya: Yakusoku wa Iranai
Sarah McLachlan: I Will Remember You
Sasaki Yuko: Pure Snow
Savage Garden: Crash and Burn
S.E.S.: 'Cause I'm Your Girl
Shinhwa: Hae Gyul Sah, Yo!
Siam Shade: 1/3 no Junjou na Kanjou
TM Revolution: Heart of Sword
Utada Hikaru: First Love, Wait and See
Zhao Wei: Zhen Xin Bu Jia

I tried...! Didn't really work. I like DJ DOC's Run to You... Bounce with me, bounce with me, bounce bounce bounce... I need you, I want you, run to you!

Friday, July 20, 2001 @ 05:13 p.m.

Jeanne dear. I can't say I understand what you're going through. When I went back to China two years ago, I never wanted to go back. Well, eventually I wanted to, but it was the best experience of my life. Even I was taller than most of the people [but I liked it], and Fuyang is definitely not smoggy. True, relatives can be rather annoying sometimes, but I love mine for all their problems. So homesickness is normal, but you have to let yourself have more fun.

Tina, what's up with this Falun Gong stuff? Don't get me started. Falun Gong has already torn apart my entire family. Normally Chinese families are really close, but because of Falun Gong...

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Thursday, July 19, 2001 @ 09:48 p.m.

Well, it sure seems like our Magnet Arts Night act is working out rather well... We have three guys for sure now. Well, we got Winston the yes, Alex the I wanna get into Magnet Arts Night again, and Mike the I don't care. Good enough. We also have Daniel the I guess and Robert the Okay. Still have yet to hear from Stephen and yet to contact Kevin and Sang. We only need six guys, so we should be okay... Boo yea.

This is much different in comparison to the situation last year. We were scrambling to get guys. None of the asian guys in our grade would do it [none had valid excuses besides possibly Sei-Wook who was doing Candy and Daniel with Bye Bye Bye, and maybe the guys doing the Chinese Club act], except for Jieren. So we ended up with one senior, three juniors, one sophomore, one freshman, and one TEACHER! Haha. Well, Mr. Wei's only like 25, and he's all of 5'6". Everyone thought we wouldn't make it, but surprisingly enough, we made it over Chinese Club and Korean Club.

So this year, far more people are willing to do it. But we're starting early so we can get as much done before the school year starts. I made Lisa talk to all the guys ^^ except for Robert who we both talked to at work and Daniel who I talked to online.

We're going to let everyone vote on which song they want [most guys don't care], but I'm really going for 'Cause I'm Your Girl by S.E.S. I made this huge list of possibilities, including:

• Baby V.O.X.: Game Over
• BoA: I.D. Peace B
• Elva Hsiao: Cappuccino, Qing Ni Xian Wen Ni Zi Ji
• S.E.S.: Dreams Come True, Love, Oh My Love, Show Me Your Love, Twilight Zone
• Utada Hikaru: Wait and See

Amongst others I've forgotten. Anyways, we've already basically figured out the stuff for 'Cause I'm Your Girl, so that's probably what's going to happen. We'll have breakdancing again [courtesy of Alex] and rapping, of course.

Let's see... With Can't Wait [the Yuki Hsu and Yoo Seung Jun version], we had two guy rappers, Jieren and David. We had five girl solos, and mad breaking at the end. [That was probably everyone's favorite part... The slacker boys get all the glory in the end, =P] But the funniest thing was when we left the guys alone once during practice at Jeanne's house. Tina and I went to check downstairs after we heard some loud thumping. And we find the guys running around in their boxers with pants scattered around. Gruesome.

I think the reason why Can't Wait made it over the Chinese and Korean Clubs [and Bye Bye Bye, too] was because we really did try something completely new that no one had ever seen before. We sang, we rapped, we danced [choreographed it all, too], we did the live music, we breakdanced... We even had matching outfits! Haha. Chinese Club was good but sloppy, Korean Club only danced, Bye Bye Bye only danced... That's why for this year, we have to overdo it all and make it good. That's the key. And have fun.

And I realize that I forgot to bring a disk today, so I won't be able to update till tomorrow. Oh, well. I should try and make my dad happy by not going online today. He threatened to put the computer back into the box. O.o

Ew, ew. All the channels work except for channel 0, the very first one! Blah.

Anyways, I'm getting extremely lethargic. More because I've totally ran out of music to listen to. I might even listen to 'N Sync... Haha, right. But I did finally get all the channeled microphones to work... I hope. After having to solder 64 more little resistors on. T_T

Last night I started working on another new layout for the Magnet Survey site. It's very simple, but I like it. I'm going with this one no matter what. I don't really want to make a new layout for the third time.

You know, the thing with Korean music is that it is very... Unique. I love Fly to the Sky and all, but their style is basically the R&B ballad type stuff. That's why I have to hand it to [the former] H.O.T. for having so many different successful styles. That's probably why they were so popular. I have to give them that much credit. Tony's rapping is most amusing. I like the songs Hope, the Promise of H.O.T., and You and I. [I like their older ballads better than the new ones, except A Song For Lady is good, too.] It's too bad that they broke up, but good things must come to an end, right? Haha.

Blah, I was reading my old journal entries from during sophomore year... I said Kang Ta was my favorite member of H.O.T.! Haha, right. I don't really have a favorite... Kang Ta's a great singer and songwriter [Hope, I Want and Shy Love by F2TS, Bi by NRG], Hee Jun's a great songwriter [A Song For Lady, Outside Castle], Woo Hyuk's a great dancer, Tony's a great fob rapper, and Jae Won's a great rapper, too [and he's exceptionally tall].

Did Jae Won write Time Will Tell and Abandoned Children?

Bah, Stephen said no. Oh, well. Maybe I should call Daniel for confirmation. Or make Lisa do it. Either one works.

Thursday, July 19, 2001 @ 05:13 p.m.

Anyways, I forgot to bring a disk to work [again!], and so, I haven't really updated anything decent. Anyways, let's see... I added Cat's link, because she's a cool girl who loves Huan Zhu Ge Ge! Yahoo! Working on that new layout, and trying to get inspired for another site also... Love the new layout, Jo.

Wednesday, July 18, 2001 @ 05:50 p.m.

Remind me that I need to have an asian guy rant. I can talk for hours about that one [those mumbling, Armani wearing, gelled hair bums!].

Monday, July 16, 2001 @ 05:36 p.m.

So... I've suddenly decided that if anything, I'll "blog" at work. Anyways, about that dream with the arms... I woke up feeling weird about it. The dream was probably only about thirty minutes long, but it seemed forever. It was black and white, and I was just sort of floating... It was kind of misty, too. Weird. Wonder what that means...

I was at the library on Saturday [getting SAT prep books T_T], and I happened to see an Entertainment Weekly magazine with an article about Jet Li. So I read it, and I can't believe Ang Lee wanted Jet Li initially to play the part of Li Mubai [is that his name?] in Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon. Frankly, even though I didn't like the movie too much, Chow Yun Fat definitely fit his part. I can't imagine Jet Li being a really dramatic actor... After reading the article, I have to say that my opinion of Jet Li changed. He's just like any old Chinese guy. Just richer. Quite a few of his beliefs and habits I see in the Chinese guys at my school. T_T

I have the urge to create a web clique for Chinese people. I've seen some Korean web cliques, and there's plenty of Japanese related web cliques. Why not a Chinese web clique? I'll call it "KaChink." Haha. So what if the sound is really "kaching"? I might not even restrict it to just Chinese people [and I do already include Taiwanese and Cantonese people as Chinese people], maybe some "honorary" Chinese people or speakers of Chinese or something. Hmm.

Right now I'm just a bit tired of making anime sites. I still love anime, but I think I'll just put up Shiawase and two shrines [Tokiya and Yue!], and take a bit of a break from it. I really want to make a Siam Shade site, but there is too little information out about them.

I downloaded the title track from S.E.S. 4.5 called Just in Love, I believe. Actually, it's really just Yume wo Kasanete redone in Korean. It sounded different [the Japanese one was better], because their voices sounded lower than in the original. I think 4.5 is basically just their Japanese songs redone in Korean.

I was looking at some pictures of Tony Ahn [to find one for my next layout] yesterday, and I think this was one of the pictures for Outside Castle... He had all this weird Chinese on his arm... Couldn't read it because his arm was all bent.

Oh... I forgot. Did I say I saw Atlantis? Well, that Milo Thatch guy is so Evan Karlik. I'm serious. They both have the blondish hair, bangs, glasses, kind of skinny, super intelligent, and hard working. How else did we manage to get the highest grade in the Magnet for Mission: Possible?

I had a Magnet rant that I accidentally deleted T_T. Anyways, my sister attends a summer camp program at Tilden Middle School [which was my middle school, *shudder*], and after work, I went to pick her up. She was like, yea, my counselor's name is Matt. I was like, oh yea, I know Matt. He went to my middle school, and we had a couple of classes together. I never really got to know him though [because he was kind of dorky in middle school T_T]. My sister was like, really? [I think she has a crush on him.] Then she told me her other counselor also went to Tilden and is now at Walter Johnson High School [my home school], and she had asked my sister where her older sister went to school. Of course my sister said Blair, and her counselor said: Oh. I'm sorry, but isn't Blair full of... Dorks?

Yes, I'm a dork. A Magnet dork. I laughed at what she said, but that's just another one of those assumptions about Blair. Like too many people believe that Blair is just the Magnet program [there's also the CAP program and thousands of other kids], that there's a McDonald's at Blair [there's one across the street], that Blair is so ghetto that kids are afraid to walk in the halls [everyone walks in the halls... Believe me, the halls are crowded enough.]... It does irk me when people have all sorts of assumptions about Blair people.

It's kind of like when Tina was going to visit Janne's Korean church, and the people at Janne's church assumed that Tina was a snob because she used to go to CBC [Chinese Bible Church, I think]. I have my own biases: I really don't like CBC people too much either, and I do have a slight grudge against the asian people who attend Churchill or Wootton. Sure, they're okay people, but they're also cliquey and sometimes fake. But usually, I try to give everyone a chance.

As for attending Blair... There's quite a few reasons why I chose to go to Blair over Walter Johnson and Richard Montgomery. I was popular enough at Tilden, considering I only moved to Maryland in seventh grade and I'm Chinese [That can make a difference]. But I really didn't enjoy my middle school experience. Also, one of my closest middle school friends Liza was basically doing everything she could to ensure she wouldn't go to WJ. Of course, Liza is a genius, so in the end, all these private schools wanted her, but she decided to go to Sidwell. In a way, I was kind of affected by her, so my plans of simply going to WJ as part of their APEX Honors program died. I was determined not to go to WJ. The funny thing is, I didn't even make it into APEX. I didn't even make the waiting list. [But then, Jenny dear, you spent all of thirty minutes on your crappy portfolio. T_T]

I was pretty devastated about that. I figured, if APEX wouldn't take me, how the heck do I expect to get into the Magnet or IB [International Baccalaureate] programs? I was kind of depressed about it, but as it turned out, I made both programs right off the bat. Phew.

Why didn't I choose to go to RM and the IB program? I don't know... Blair just sounded more exciting... At RM, it seemed like your entire four years were preplanned for you. You had next to no options it seemed. That's the good reason. The other reason [the worse one]? I didn't like the people from my school who were going to RM. I also didn't want to go RM, because the school was pretty shabby in comparison to the newly built Blair T_T. I was the only girl from my school to go to Blair, but I think I settled in just fine.

I think life and school has improved a lot for me since I started high school. I actually feel like I have some worthwhile friendships. Even though my overall social life is nearly nonexistent [during the school year, it's basically school, volleyball, piano, Chinese school, church, and onto the next week...], I think it's worth it. Even if there are still no hot asian guys at Blair... *sigh*

I like Jinusean's JS Anthem, even if it's really just a ripoff of DMX and Jay-Z.

The funny thing is, before I came to Blair, you could have barely called me an "azn" person. I was asian, yes, but I hadn't really been exposed [if you want to call it that] to the asian scene and everything. The closest I might have gotten was wearing an Armani shirt. Haha. Blair is really quite diverse. There's quite a lot of the stuff that's considered azn going on... Everyday during both lunches, there's people [asian, white, hispanic, black, etc.] breakdancing or learning. There's countless people on my buddy list with the screen name azn-something or bboy-something. It makes me laugh.

And I started listening to asian music. My closest friends and I are now known as the "sophomore asian girl clique." Actually, I never liked an asian guy until this year. But Daniel wasn't really azn [thank goodness], and if he were, I doubt I would have liked him. Well, enough thinking about that.

Bwah, I love H.O.T.'s Time Will Tell! I'm addicted to funny rapping, guys. I think Jae Won wrote this song... Poor Jae Won. He seems like the overlooked former H.O.T. member. The guy's pretty cool when he doesn't have that scary makeup on. I'm tempted to make the kid a shrine.

I really want to know who sings that one part!!! Wah. I'm in love with that guy... His voice, anyways.

If H.O.T. ever reunites, they have to choose a different name, right? Lisa's idea: H.O.G.: High-Five of Geezers.

As much as I like Hee Jun's Persia Black Hole, it really sounds like he's singing Crash Black Ho. T_T

Tralalala. Yo, it's about time to put your tears away. Don't despair, because there will always be someone there. I think Jae Won wrote Abandoned Children, too... Bwah, I like that song, too! Especially the speaking part with the "jwo ya hae". For the happy people, all of the happy people.

Monday, July 16, 2001 @ 05:28 p.m.

Oh, dude. I made another blog layout T_T, but this one I actually sort of almost like! AHHH!!! Man, I love Tony Ahn now! XDDD Teehee. Now you all are expecting something decent, but I still wouldn't get your expectations up for this one... Okay, guys I'm looking for a fob asian with nice arms and nice skin. Define nice? T_T

Sunday, July 15, 2001 @ 06:42 p.m.

Well, for Magnet Arts Night this year, the Korean club [which I'm technically part of, since Sei-Wook and Sei-Gyung dragged me to the table to sign up] did the dance for Candy by H.O.T. Cute. I mean, I didn't like H.O.T. much before, because the only song I had heard by them was Operation Takeover, and that one really isn't too good. [Sorry Hee Jun. Your other songs were much better. Except Wish of a Bluebird. Sorry, but what kind of ghetto name is that?] But then we watched some performance of Candy, and the first thing I said was: XDD Ahh, his ears are humongous! [Debby hits Jenny over the head] But they were! He had some humongous ears! But it was cute! I called him a monkey, T_T.

A cute monkey, ne?

But seriously, they were all so cute in the Candy times! And I love those red silky looking suits for We Are the Future... I have to say that Kang Ta looked pretty good. O.o Actually, they all looked pretty good except for Jae Won [poor guy]. But ho boy, his Iyah! hair looked scary. They all looked scary. Onto Outside Castle. All I remember was that he was the only one who looked like he had a nose because you could see his nostrils!

I got a few words for you: Always my love, always my love. Aww. The love mumblings of a fob. Hehe, I keep calling him a fob, T_T.

Sunday, July 15, 2001 @ 04:42 p.m.

I did say I didn't want to make any more blog layouts until I got some content sites up, right? Except I'm really dying to make the ultra fob Tony Ahn and the other fob Eric Moon layouts... Dang it, I love fobs. But yes, Jo, you get used to the rapping after awhile. Of course, I had to get the lyrics to Illusion before I realized he was saying dopeman, dopeman... And then I finally understood why that song was banned in Korea. T_T

Yin is a butt.

Sunday, July 15, 2001 @ 04:34 p.m.

I'm love with this D-player thing. I didn't download the newest driver, so it's kinda slow if I watch it with the stage, but dang, the Fly to the Sky dance is sure interesting...

Sunday, July 15, 2001 @ 04:24 p.m.

Yo, I still feel blah, but...

I am absolutely in love with Hye Sung's voice. I love that little part in the extended version of T.O.P., where he just sings so beautifully...!

Oh, yea. I had the strangest dream last night. Nothing really happened, but there I was floating in these humonogous arms. There were really nice arms. Nice and buff with excellent skin! I woke up, and I was like, the hell... The first time I dream in months, and it's a pair of arms and shoulders. I don't remember seeing a head. Hmm.

The scary thing is they reminded me of David's arms with Daniel's skin. *shudder*

Sunday, July 15, 2001 @ 04:10 p.m.

I feel like looking at random blogs right now. *twiddles thumbs*

Sunday, July 15, 2001 @ 12:11 p.m.

I'm so tired. So I went to see Atlantis yesterday with Lisa dear [I love animated movies! Bwah!!!], and then I got hauled off to a little gathering of my parents' best friends. Geez, it was boring. I watched about ten episodes of Xi You Ji animated... [The original Journey to the West Chinese style... Saiyuki is nothing the same, dears.] Then I watched this Chinese black market version of M:I2. Hehe. Then I fell asleep with my contacts in. Boo.

I fixed this layout just a tad, because it kept expanding... So I realized I could've simplified the code, and I did it! I'm glad Jo likes it! *dance*

I'm having the same problem with kpop music. I'm getting really sick of it, but that's probably because I've been listening to the same CDs over and over again at work. So I seem to be getting totally sick of Fly to the Sky...

But wait... I really want to learn the dance to Fly to the Sky first! Whee!

I am in love with Tony Ahn's fobbishness. Debby dear can have him, but I want the fobbishness. Imagine this: Lisa and I are at work, and we got in trouble for the extreme "gaiety" we exhibited in the morning. [Don't get the wrong idea! Haha. The lady next door is a big butt.] Actually, we were just singing the rap from 'Cause I'm Your Girl [the english one, hehe] really loud. Do you realize that when they say "To the left, to the left," it sounds like "To the reft, to the reft"? Well, we were going crazy over the dopeman and rock yo dock.

Sunday, July 15, 2001 @ 11:13 a.m.

Whoa, sudden outburst of Kpop sites! Gee whiz. Man, I really should get my butt going making Fly to the Sky computer goodies and such for my site that has been a project since... Since a long, long time ago. As much as I love H.O.T. or Shinhwa, there's already lots of sites for them... Well, enough. There's like three Fly to the Sky sites out there... Anyways, I wanted to make a Fly to the Sky computer goodies site [wallpaper, skins, the works], because working with pictures of hot guys has got to be a good idea.

You know what is amazing though... I kidded to Lisa that she had terrible taste in music, and she said: You listen to the same stuff I did in middle school... T_T True. She used to listen to H.O.T., S.E.S., Shinhwa, all those groups, in seventh grade, and now the rest of us are finally catching up. Is it just me, or is kpop really starting to catch on now? It's always been there, but now people are getting into it. Makes me feel kinda fake.

Friday, July 13, 2001 @ 06:28 p.m.

Oh, dear, I've been slacking on my Fly to the Sky obsession [can it be? Is Jenny getting un-obsessed? I actually listened to the BSB Black and Blue CD for the fifth time since I bought it last year...] lately... So they've released the video for I Want You, I Need You with Kim Jo Han... Hmm. Well, it's not my favorite song, but it's all good.

You know how frigging jealous I am of everyone going to the L.A. concert tomorrow? Don't get me started.

Friday, July 13, 2001 @ 06:18 p.m.

The one thing I can't stand is girls who think they're all that [or guys, for that matter], but they... Really... Aren't. I'm not talking about anyone online [T_T]; this has more to do with my real life. There's nothing more annoying than a person who talks big about him/herself, but there's nothing to back it up. Some people can be funny about it, but when they're not kidding... That's when I can't stand it anymore.

I realize that ever since sophomore year, there are so many more people that I have grudges against. I don't get along with them, and I don't even want to try sometimes. I get nasty and really blunt.

The bottom line is, don't tangle with Jenny when she's not in a good mood. *evil* But really, I can't deal with fake people when I'm in a terrible mood.

Friday, July 13, 2001 @ 05:43 p.m.

Oh, yea, new layout! For Jo, because she loves Bijou so much. This is a really screwy layout. The pictures are kinda weird, but it's impossible to find any really good pictures of Bijou! I swear! And it's pink and blue... And white! When was the last time I made a white layout? T_T

Yum, yum, I love veggie pizza.

Anyways, I'm oh so tired and sore. I was hunched over the entire day working with wires. I do not plan to be an engineer when I grow up. Yesterday I burned myself with the 700 degree soldering iron, and today I wired 64 little wire things about three times. I'm about to die. I can't stand manual labor. Yes, I'm lazy.

I love Lisa [Kim], even if she calls that one H.O.T. We Are the Future move the "dicky" move. It is, I guess... T_T

Friday, July 13, 2001 @ 05:36 p.m.