The Mirror
(Mary Timony)
Friday, August 30, 2002
10:41 p.m.
...and when I look bad, look away, a crack in the mirror sheds a tear
It's almost the end of our 3rd week here and still no luck with the job. Walgreen's hasn't called me back and they were supposed to call back today at the latest. That leads me to believe that I failed their drug test. Unless for some other reason, I am unqualified to work at Walgreen's! Ugh. That'd suck. Rejected at Walgreen's for being too... boring or something. I hope Borders works out. Pray for me or whatever you do. I really want the Borders job.
We sing our songs to the fruitless moon, as I follow a map of my inner ruin
I still haven't gotten the new Sleater-Kinney album or the new Tegan and Sara. Jessica has the new Tegan and Sara, so I burned it, but it's not quite the same, you know? I'm excited about the new Tori in October as well. Mostly, I'm just stressed about not having a job. I have turned in 8 applications so far. There's, god forbid, a deli hiring down the road that I'm going to try as a last resort as well.
You Went Away
(Tegan and Sara)
Sunday, August 25, 2002
04:40 p.m.
You went away, cuz you said that you can’t stand me
I've been here for a while now, but I haven't been writing, mostly because it's hard to motivate myself to get out CD booklets for lyrics. Today I went to lunch with Jess, Kathy, and Zack at the Coffee News Cafe, which was cool. They put garlic on their fries. A lot of garlic. Back home now, Jess and I talking to our friends. I really miss Luke. I wish there was some way we could have made him come with us.
I went away, cuz I was sure that you can’t stand me
Our room is done. It's awesome. We painted the bedroom seafoam green and got a bluey green carpet. We put up our posters and stuff too. Reggie and Sue came over and gave us a squid lamp, a Bubbles pillow, and some star lamps. It's so cozy down here, we just need some friends to hang out in it with us.
I don’t think we have to be like this forever
Looking for jobs is nuts. I want to go down to Caribou Coffee and pick up an application there. Creative KidStuff is not hiring until October. I am waiting for Bound to be Read to call. I have a drug test for Walgreen's tomorrow. I am also waiting for Amore Cafe to call. Last night, Julie at Blair Box Office said her friend is hiring at her noodle restaurant. I may have to break down and work a food job. I want the Bound to be Read job cos you can just and drink coffee all day.
Is there more to life than love and being together
Raja has been acting kind of weird lately, walking with her legs all stiff and trying to get into a tiny ball in the corner of the couch. We thought it might be the fireworks at the State Fair. Kathy brushed her today and got a bunch of stickers out of her leg fur and she seems a lot better. Raja is getting a hair cut tomorrow, but with no head pouf, cos she looks dreadful like that. (Raja is a Standard Poodle.)
My Number
(Tegan and Sara)
Wednesday, August 14, 2002
01:32 p.m.
Showers pounding out a new beat, I trade my old shoes for new feet
Well, it's Wednesday and we got to St. Paul on Saturday night. We drove here in a 10 foot Budget moving van. There was a small problem in that there were only 2 seats, so we solved the problem by putting a cooler between the seats: I rode from Albuquerque to St. Paul on a cooler. Remember how much I hated riding the Greyhound to and from St. Paul?? That was luxurious.
I grab a new seat, I don't like the one I got
So, St. Paul is okay. Of course, our room is nowhere near done yet. Our TV corner is pretty much set-up, we even have the digital cable hooked up. However, the bedroom... Okay, we painted it, but we're not done painting it yet. We haven't put in the carpet yet, or the bed. Then, the big room is still full of boxes and David's weight bench. Also, we need to do the wretched bug fogger. It'll be ready soon, I hope.
The fabric's wearing through, And it's wearing me out, You're wearing me down
I need to work on my applications for work today and then go job hunting some more tomorrow. Jessica has an interview today at at coffee shop. Plus, Wednesday, Big Brother night. Whoo!
One Hundred Names
(The Nields)
Monday, August 5, 2002
05:48 p.m.
I have known you all my life; In fact, I knew you long before
We are leaving in four days. I'm really nervous, mainly because Jessica only started packing yesterday and still hasn't packed a complete box. Still, life is good. Last night Dina and Hadar came over and surprised us with a gift certificate to the queer bookstore (whoo!!!) and lent us their truck so we could go visit Jessica's ex' baby today. The baby is absolutely darling. Hadar should be over in an hour or so to burn CDs with us. Then, Emily is supposed to come over.
A hundred years or so of you And all I want from you is more
So, my cousin James' wedding. It was crazy!! Window Rocks is absolutely beautiful. Mama and I went up to the Window Rock and drove around the different rock formations. I feel so at home here, in New Mexico and that part of Arizona. I get this amazing feeling on the soles of my feet, like I am growing from the ground and I can feel the Earth, alive, beneath my feet. I don't how I can so willingly leave. Anyway, the wedding. Everyone looked beautiful and I ate way too much. Catherine, the bride, looked lovely and she had an amazing ring. It made me want to get married! (I do NOT want to be married at all.)
Sometimes I don't know who you are Sometimes I don't know why you stay
I am rereading The Lord of the Rings. I like to read it every year or so, it's so incredible. I love Lothlórien, I love Galadriel. If I were in LoTR, I'd be an elf. I wonder if they have any elves with brown skin, like me? Anyway, I am also excited for The Two Towers film to be coming this winter. I really want to see how they do the Ents and Éowyn. I wish Maria were around, so we could see it together.
All I know is when I called, you came I have known you by one hundred names
I don't think I believe in heaven. Jessica and I were talking about it the other day, and she does. She asked me what I thought the purpose of living is if there isn't a heaven... I don't think of my life as a journey toward heaven at all. I think of my life is an experience that I need to make wonderful for myself. I am not depressed that there isn't, in my world, a heaven. I have God, the Creator Spirit, my life and those that I love. I am happy with that.
Fly With Me
(Pale 3, feat. Franka Potente)
Friday, August 2, 2002
03:03 a.m.
let me convince you, our lives are not lost
Whoa, so, obviously I haven't been writing in here that often at all, not for about two months. Not much has happened, we came home from St. Paul on July 3rd and we're leaving to move there on August 8th. Hans is coming down here and we're taking the U-Haul up to St. Paul. I'm really excited because I'll be in the same city as Mel and we can hang out all the time. Plus, I'll be close to Madtown and I can hang out with the crew there. I'm so happy that Jess and I are going to have time to be with her family, because they rock socks, seriously.
our souls are not corpses, just biting the dust
Dina still hasn't called us about giving me my toothbrush and Jessica her CDs. We housesat for them for 2 weeks while they were on vacation on the East Coast and Canada. It was really sweet of them, because they let us stay in their house (which is gorgeous) and they let Jess drive Hadar's car. We read their books, ate at their table, played the piano. It was so fun, pretending we had our own house. Dina and Hadar are just about the nicest people ever. They've down so much for me and Jessica and I'm really sorry to be leaving them behind.
i walk in the sunlight, your shadow resists
Volunteering at NARAL this week was nuts. It was cool because Nisan was there and she always makes me laugh. We ordered 2 big veggie pizzas and devoured them all. Jessica came along for the first time as well. We were doing phone banking, informing people about Emergency Contraception policy in New Mexico. I talked to this lady who was super anti-choice and she told me I had "Jesus' Heavenly Children" living in my body and I shouldn't kill them. She was a little out of control. I need to get in touch with NARAL in St. Paul, so I can keep up with my volunteer work.
my shape wants to follow, and tries to kiss
Jess is up in Santa Fe tonight staying with Marian. She went up with Tracie and her friend Jenny, whom I know from school back in Madison. Small world. Luka and I have been hanging out all day. We went to Target, the bank, and Lotaburger. We also watched Before Night Falls, which was a really boring movie about a Cuban dissident writer. The movie was awful, but the parts where they showed his writing were really good. I feel bad about not liking the movie, but Luka didn't seem to really like it either. Okay, Luka's going to bed, so I'm getting offline. Bedtime at the Swank Pad...
