Saturday, March 29, 2003 12:28 a.m.
omg... i almost died waiting to use the com. arrghhh!! erm yea newae, i woke up damn early today considering i slept so late last nite just to wait to see if anyone calls me. n the sa teacher did. not good news i guess.. afta tt i came online fer a while then i left fer town. i was the latest lor.. weird. i'm not usually the latest. haha. when i saw xj i kept laughing!! she over dressed... ahahaha!! long sleeved top, skirt n damn a lot of make up!! tt was damn funny. newae i'm repeating wat wen n xj said so i shan't elaborate.
we went to watch just married. it's funny!! but the guy n the girl both quite ugly.. the other peter guy has damn nice eyes!! it's lyke so misty.. haha. wen thot he looked a little like lee i thot he looked like brad pitt! yea then after the show i called my mum cus she called me during the movie n she made me go home!! n so i did.. i dun tink she ever wanta let me go out again(i mean during this period). haix. damn sian. i came home n slept till abt 7 plus then watched tv.
survivor wasnt very very nice but i tink jenna n dave are a perfect match! hmmm... my bro used the com since 7pm to abt 11om. then my mum went to use the com!! so i cld only come so late. was so bored. n afta i come online i went to read blogs.. n stupid xj had to put my name as deadfish in joel's blog. thanks a lot ah. newae last nite i kept laughing at xj. haha. tink it's funny. cus she was having tummyache, then her nick became tummyache. i told wen abt it then she told me sth abt xj trying to act tough cus she dun wanta see doctor. i didnt get the link btw the tummyache n the act tough thing. so i asked is it cus xj changed her nick to 'tough'? ahaha. but xj didnt lah. so i still dun see any link.
Friday, March 28, 2003 11:09 a.m.
after reading the test results again i realised 6w7 is more accurate than 6w5!!! cus i'm not more prone to anger than fear! it's the other way round. n i dont haf low self-control n i'm not not not unfaithful!!!!! ahaha. newae i woke up damn early to wait fer the call. in the end the sa badminton teacher in charge called me. he said he discussed wif the pe hod n will try to get me tav n aloysius in. he think he cant get shuting n jeanette in. tt's damn sad!!! cus i tink shuting is quite nice. haix. newae he said he think we hafta wait till monday fer the appeal results n we must be patient. aahhhhhhhh!! cant wait lor... haix.
hmmm... going out real soon. gonna watch just married! newae i'm lyke damn broke. so i hope they dont do lotsa cash consuming stuff... but i tink it's impossible. arrghh! newae i still hope the sa pple call me today! newae i found out sth damn shocking online last nite. right seetoh? ahaha. lotsa conspiracies going on ah. i'm still kinda shocked. didnt expect her to be the first. newae benita seetoh rachel n em!!! u all were supposed to come my hse to play bishybashy n eat ikea hotdog!! come next week k! hope u all can come out! yay!! oh ya... the person tt i 'like' suddenly talked to me online last nite. weird... xj n wen u all shld noe hu rite? it's the the-other-way-round guy.. ahahaha. the one wif celestine.
Thursday, March 27, 2003 09:20 p.m.
erm... i tink my test result contradicts itself. in one i'm introverted n in the other i'm extroverted. ahaha. does this mean i haf split personality? newae both are accurate!! and i really need damn a lot of sleep. hahaha.
Thursday, March 27, 2003 05:12 p.m.
Conscious self | Overall self |
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Thursday, March 27, 2003 02:06 a.m.
ok so i guess chanting doesnt work cus they didnt call me today!! but i hafta call them on sat to find out abt the appeal. damn scared!!! haix. newae my back is aching!! cus i've been using the com since 8pm till! i must control myself n stop coming online cus i dun wanta wear specs!!! i use the com in almost total darkness cus my bro needa sleep. shall watch vcds frm now on.... haha.
Wednesday, March 26, 2003 07:11 p.m.
i wanted to go bathe but i had to come online now to blog abt sth!!! it's the greatest joke ever!! xj called me just now then my mum picked up the phone. after we ended our conversation, my mum asked me who is it then i told her. then she asked me why did xj speak in chinese. i had no idea too. then my mum said xj's very polite, unlike my other friends!! xj polite??? haha. so funny.
newae school wont open till 6th april!!! i'm so happy!! but i wanta noe whether i can get into sa leh... haix.
Wednesday, March 26, 2003 06:37 p.m.
out of my head
Sometimes I feel
Like I am drunk behind the wheel
The wheel of prosperity
However it may roll
Give it a spin
See if you can somehow factor in
You know there's always more than one way
To say exactly what you mean to say
Was I out of my head? Was I out of my mind?
How could I have ever been so blind?
I was waiting for an indication
It was hard to find
Don't matter what I say only what I do
I never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet but I finally woke up
If you're sad then it's time you spoke up too
heard this song at cj today while we were playing bridge!! i think it's damn nice! go download. it's by fast ball....
Wednesday, March 26, 2003 06:04 p.m.
cj sucks can!!! i hate cj now... haix. cus the badminton suck. the pple are not very nice n the teacher is quite horrible. i suddenly miss sa badminton team. haix. i'm in 1T09. my class is ok lah. it seems quite nice but i'm thinking of dropping maths n take lit. cus they're doing othello!! it sounded interesting to me. haha. i really really hope i can get into sa now. cj is horrible. oh but i tried the air rifle thingy today!! tt was damn damn fun!! xj kept missing the target but i shot the paper!! in the end i asked them to let me keep the paper fer fun. maybe i'll join then quit badminton. haha. but the rifle is damn damn heavy!!
canoeing is lyke 4 times a week in cj!!! i wanted to join!! but now... orientation was kinda sucky. we didnt go newae. we've been hiding n running around. n we played bridge. heard they haf a bridge club or sth in cj!! maybe i shld join. haha. so overall, cj is sucky. haix. i miss st nicks already. i miss sa already. n i actually kinda miss oi too. if i dun get into sa i'll wanta kill myself. arrghh!!
newae xj asked me to crash sa tmr since cj is boring. i dun mind leh... seriously. but just nw someone told me tt there's no school tmr!! as in nation wide!! yay! hope tt's true. it's cus of the SARS thing. hmmz... my sleeping habits are weird. i tink i sleep damn a lot but i'm still tired! maybe i sleep too much. haha. but i cant help it. i'm tired. newae, i really tink ong lai head is quite cute afta he has gone to cj. xj tinks so too!! haha. or at least she said he is frm far. i always see him frm far only too.
call me today. call me today. call me today. call me today. call me today. call me today. call me today. i hope chanting works.
Tuesday, March 25, 2003 09:10 p.m.
in the end i appealed to sa. the arts stream. i gave up maths. haix. i was the 327th person to appeal leh. damn a lot!! i guess all i can do now is pray hard n hope i can get into a school i'll really enjoy. haix.
Monday, March 24, 2003 04:40 p.m.
dilemma!!!! damn. shld i appeal to sajc or acjc? seriously i dun mind acjc... n aloysius said we confirm can get in. how? but if i go to ac i hafta take english as an 'a' level subject. but sa dun haf the subject combi i want too!!!! i want maths econs geog. now xj is asking me to take computing maths econs at sa with her. i asked my dad abt it n he said he dont mind me doing computing. another problem is if i appeal to ac i HAVE TO go ac. i cant appeal to 2 jcs. wat if i regret all of a sudden?? aaaahhhhh!!!! damn it. i hate making decisions. i haf no idea how ac is like. except i heard tt the pple are fake n materialistic. i dun mind staying in cj actually.. but my dad dunwan me to!!! arrghhh!! how?? i must make a decision by tmr. any kind soul can pls tell me if i shld go ac or sa? haix. i cant decide!!!
Saturday, March 22, 2003 06:59 p.m.
depressed. this is damn depressing. haix. xj u are an idiot lor.. u dun wanta do arts u put sa arts fer wat? aaahhhhhhhhh!!! haix. n u are one of the lucky 11 pointers tt get in sa can!! damn it. hafta go down to appeal on monday. i dun wanta go cj... sobz. my mum is very disappointed too. so is my dad!!! haix. why do so many pple wanta go sa?? arrghh!!
Friday, March 21, 2003 11:09 p.m.
xj said i shld haf gone with them today to marine parade cus it's damn fun. but i didnt regret going to the bbq at all!!! haha. it was quite fun but i was damn damn tired. was half asleep most of the time. me, tav, kaiyun, shuting, janice, teng siang n marcus met at the fareast bus stop n had to try to figure how to get to aloysius' hse. the only person hu knew how to go which is janice went to fetch darrell cus he refused to meet in town! we played bridge on the bus. damn xin ku! haha. newae his hse damn nice lor.. 4 stories i tink!! den we played bridge again! played fer quite long. my cards were damn good. i still cant get rid of the 'peeping-at-cards' bad habit! all xj's fault! she taught me tt n she taught me so well. haha.
tav left at abt 7 den i was kinda extra... cus the guys were all frm sji, girls were all frm cresent n i was the only stnicks girl!! we played bridge again den finally went to bbq!! it was damn hot lor. the cresent girls haf a habit of feeding pple food so kaiyun kept feeding me half the time! she dropped some chicken on the ledge just nw n i asked her to just feed teng siang. n she did. haha. we told him n i tink he spat it out. haha. darrell went to bbq marshmallows.. he gave me one n yuck it's orange flavoured!! i hate orange!
then we started to play bridge again!! this time hafta do forfeit. the forfeit was to eat chicken wings!! kaiyun had to eat 4. i had to eat 2. but we didnt lah. at the other table the forfeits are sick! like licking pple's ears!! kaiyun's dad fetched me home in the end! left at 10. newae there were quite a few firsts again today. first time i go a guy's hse, first time i feed pple food with my disgusting fingers. haha. n i made new friends!! ok not exactly new frens. just tt last time we dont talk now we do a little. so it was a happy outing :) but before tt i sorta quarrelled wif my mum n she made me promise not to fail anymore tests! arrghh! damn.
Thursday, March 20, 2003 10:29 p.m.
nobody believed me abt the joel liking yanrong thing lor. NOBODY!!! but i just found one soul tt thought so too. haha. n now everybody believes me!! it's true newae. i've got 6th sense. i can tell...
Thursday, March 20, 2003 09:36 p.m.
i'm damn pissed now!!! arrgh! n damn sad too...haix. i wanta cry lor. my mum is so irritating. if my bro didnt do well fer his common test why cant i go out? arrghh!!! idiot. it's not my fault!!!1 i didnt do tt tt badly fer os lor.. my mum kept saying if i studied harder i cld haf done better. os is over!! it's too late!!! i wanta run away frm home but i nv tried!! n i dun dare. haix. i miss my dad!!!! hope he comes back soon. he's gone fer more than a week already. haix. i hate my mum.
Thursday, March 20, 2003 08:13 p.m.
was supposed to meet zhang at 2.30 but i left my hse at 2.10!!! zhang reached at 2.45 n told me tt their matches all over already. felt damn dumb! i reached at 3.10 den we went to buy milo freeze!! went to the hall n there were two little kids frm marist stella playing!! they are twins!! so damn cute!! their names are derek n daryl. haha. i was thinkin why not derek n drew. i wish i haf a twin sister lor. i'll be damn happy! den we can play doubles together!! haha. newae i must agree wif virn tt snbt is horrible now. really falling apart. haix. damn sad.
my mum like dun wanta let me go fer the bbq tmr.haix. now i dun mind going leh... nw i shall write abt the sentosa trip. haha. like finally! ok in the morning i met yr n esta at harbour front centre n waited damn long fer wen sab chun n neo! we went to the bus terminal to meet up n boarded the bus to sentosa. we went to sijori resort first to leave our stuff there then went to palawan beach!! we went sun tanning!! yay! i'm darker now! n we went swimming in the sea! i went to try the slide thingy n lotsa salt water went into my mouth n my nose. i was lyke choking. haha. but quite fun lah. den me chun sab esta n neo swam across to the other platform!!
wen esta sab n neo went back to the hotel first to bathe while the rest of us continued tanning. wen wanted to go to siloso beach to play ball but all of us were kinda reluctant. haha. but afta some pple bathed we finally went to siloso beach to find joel n friends.. the sand there is a 1000 times nicer lor!! arrgh! we played monkey n vball fer a while! monkey was fun! we went back to the hotel then sab yr n i went to bathe. then afta tt a few of us went down to the coffee hse fer dinner. i ate steak! yay!
i was damn tired so me n sab stayed in the hotel while the rest went to the playground. we played speed!! sab is damn slow lor.. haha. den afta tt we decided to sleep. we shared a bed cus we thot the others will come back n sleep. afta abt an hr i tink i still cldnt sleep! n i was almost falling off the bed! suddenly wen n jinx came back so i decided to go wif them to play. plyed uno, bridge n mahjong! i suck at mahjong. haha. then yr n i decided to go back to the hotel but we sat at the beach in the end. yr said joel said he saw a shooting star!! so i wanted to see if i cld see one but i didnt!! so sad lor.. always wanted to see one. sobz. n i wanted to wish fer sth at tt time too!
in the end me n yr went back to sleep. we shared a bed while sab took up the whole of the other bed! the rest almost didnt sleep at all. so they slept in the morning! in the afternoon xj FINALLY came wif fountain n frens. tues was much more boring than monday! we played vball n captain's ball. nobody wanted to go swim wif me. nobody wanted to go cycle wif me too!!! sobz. we only played bridge. saw a few primary sch classmates though. nobody changed much. haha.
Thursday, March 20, 2003 01:13 p.m.
war has begun.. kinda scary. haix. charmian told me last nite to not take mrt. haha. in case there's another bomb attack. in the end i decided to go see the match cus i'm really rotting at home. damn sian! zhang asked me to go teach her maths. haha. asking the wrong person! newae the skin on my face is peeling lor... :( so sad!! hope the tan will stay!!!!!!
Wednesday, March 19, 2003 10:20 p.m.
haf damn damn damn a lot to type!!! but i'm so sleepy i shall just write some stuff first. continue another day.. i had the weirdest dreams ever. it's damn weird. actually u can say it's a nightmare. the main characters in both my dreams are me wen n him. i dunno why. weird rite. last nite i dreamt tt wen went to get his number n msged him to tell him tt i like him. i almost killed her. i only memba tt i was damn upset abt it. haha. the 2nd dream was even weirder. i was talking to wen den she suddenly told me abt her n him.. sth abt him taking advantage of her. haha. den wen kept on crying!! i dunno what those dreams mean lah. n i dunno why i remembered them! i dun usually remember my dreams.
yah newae my whole body hurts!! n it's itching too. i'm like damn red lor.. really really hope my tan will stay! tmr zhang asked me to go support them at asc(i). i dun mind going but hope my mum will allow! friday the sa badminton j1s are gonna haf a bbq thingy at some guy's hse. i dun really mind going but i tink i'll be damn extra! then somemore they are like going to stayover... weird. i shall blog abt the sentosa trip when i'm free!!!
oh yah! seetoh asked me n rach to join star-vivor the other day. i didnt noe wat it's abt den she told me we join to impersonate stars. den i thought we shld be blue! haha. but she told me we can only choose between busted n sugababes... like whatever. n seetoh wants to be busted. mad!!!!!! but it was kinda funny. hahaha.
Wednesday, March 19, 2003 09:57 p.m.
What month should you have been born in?
this quiz was made by Erin
hmmz... quite true leh. haha. but i'm born in feb!!! the feb one is true too.
Sunday, March 16, 2003 05:53 p.m.
i'm damn excited abt tmr!!! i've planned all the stuff i wanta do already...
1)blade!!! me n wen are gonna bring blades.
2)go sun tanning! i haf a crossback tan line on my back nw so i tink i shld get back the same one if not i'll haf damn a lot of lines on my back!
3)prawn fishing
4)play volleyball
5)swim. they haf this new platform thingy in the sea at sentosa!! it has a slide den u can slide down into the waters. yay!!! cant wait.
6)eat at seoul garden! can we go?
hope tmr wont be very packed!! if not we wont be able to get a court to play vball! i haf training on tues!!! arrgh! i dun tink i will be able to wake up. i'm still deciding whether to go... haix.
Saturday, March 15, 2003 08:31 p.m.
today was kinda boring.. went back stnicks fer the fun fair. i had to go sch at 8.30 cus pamela asked me to buy candles fer her!! walked around fer a while den shiping had to go tend her hc stall. we were rotting. had to tend the stall fer almost an hr. when we were finally released, we went to walk around again! shiping met her seniors n was supposed to show them around but they strayed. we went to look fer virn afta tt to get a henna AGAIN!! the henna on my hand is not very dark n it looks as if i got some skin disease! aaahhhhh!!! newae afta tt me n shiping went to town fer lunch den we went home cus we were too tired.
friday was kinda fun. as in the lunch part. sch was damn boring cus sab didnt bring her volleyball!! we were rotting throughout!!! but wen got to play bball! afta i tink 25 of us(or more) went to seoul garden!!! xj wen sab rach yr chun n i went out wif xj's fountain n gang. haha. i love the sliced beef!! i'm addicted to seoul garden! can we pls go back again someday? yah newae it was quite fun. we were mixing stuff n daring pple to drink it. wen wanted to drink but the guys didnt wanta pay her the money. we took photos at our table!! n chun insisted tt everbody at the table take a photo! hahaha. why ah? newae i tink the way fountain talk is funny! it's like half beng n half gay. hahaha!! xj will kill me.
on thursday, i went to watch the performance put up by the hc pple. it was ok only.. there was this cute guy acting in the play. he's funny. haha. n he has a twin brother! whoa!! like derek n drew... but shiping said he's not nice. haha. it ended kinda late. i reached home at 11+, almost midnight. n my mum was kinda pissed. haix. she keep saying i've been going out a lot recently. i dont lor.. n tt day at seoul garden when i called home the guys had to laugh SO loudly all of a sudden(dunno cus of wat). i dunno if my mum mind me goin out wif guys. arrgh! the other day she said she dunwan me to go fer the chalet but i really hope she allow! i wanta get a tan again!! n swim in the sea! haix.
Thursday, March 13, 2003 01:07 p.m.
my guestbook is finally fixed!! yay! i'm going to meet shiping ltr at raffles place then we're going to victoria theater to watch some cldds thing put up by the hc pple i think. haha. next week is march hols but i dont feel any excitement... except tt wen xj n i are going to fish fer prawns!! yay!! n we're gonna bbq them fer dinner. haha. n we're supposed to take up sailing memba? but i dont think i haf the money. let's go blading again! haha. friday's the last day of school. i'm going back to bid pple farewell. i'm not really sad abt it now but maybe i will be on friday. hope everybody's going sch on friday!! i wanta say bye to my classmates although maybe they dont even noe i existed. hahaha. n wanta thank ms tay too!! she's so nice. i feel kinda bad fer ponning her lessons.
Thursday, March 13, 2003 12:58 p.m.
wonderful
I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them
I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again
Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
Say bad words that make me wanna cry
Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream adventures that will make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday
Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world's so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now
I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all okay
I like to laugh so my friends won't know
When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home
Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday
this is part of the song. it's such a nice song!!! it's by everclear.
