be who you are

Monday, July 12, 2004 05:27 p.m.

there was this pretty little korean girl on the bus today. she's one of the prettiest kid i've seen. she kept turning around and i just kept smiling at her. haha.
we kinda played peekaboo and some hitting hand game. damn funny. rachel is gonna say that i'm a paedophile again. I AM NOT!!!
i think i want my future job to have sth too do with kids. and i really wonder if i will throw my kids away when they grow up. haha.

my english teacher is the funniest woman i've met. she's full of expressions and she's really dramatic. cant stop laughing every lesson. or maybe miss rani was just too boring.
she's really knowledgeable. she told us that in the past before they burned witches, they burned homosexuals first so that the fats in their body will become fuel. they then burn the witches when the fire is big enough.

she said so much funny stuff i cant even remember. i wish someone is here to laugh at all these with me. if only she was our GP teacher!!

Monday, July 12, 2004 01:01 a.m.

got my new monitor.
my older cousin brought my younger cousin, my brother and i to Sports Authority to get BB gun bullets and a target to shoot at.
we went to Barnes and Nobles too. i bought three books. the other day i did go to the library to borrow books too. haha. nice new hobby huh.

after that went to my cousin's house to play with his air rifle. we were shooting candles, cans and cardboard boxes. haha. shooting is fun! my cousin told me he killed pigoens before. gross.
my cousin has a bag of fireworks!! but it's the kind that produces loud sounds only. i want to play with it another day!
had KFC for dinner. it tastes better! at least to me. my cousin got a pot pie from there.

Saturday, July 10, 2004 02:05 p.m.

using my brother's computer now. he's FINALLY not using it. i'm only getting my new monitor tmr. i'm bored to death.
i wanta go to the library to get sth to read. but i dont know if i should because i'll hafta spend 6 bucks to and fro. and the library is just beside my tuition centre. but i'm bored NOW.

shall blog about monday. my cousin came to pick me up and we went driving. driving here is weird. you keep to the right instead of the left.
i just realised that driving is not that fun afterall. it'll only be fun when i'm driving on a deserted straight road.
i tried making a U-turn the other day and i drove up the pavement and almost drove into a fire hydrant. i think my cousin was stunned. i kept driving to the other lanes too. my cousin said he dont wanta take me driving anymore. haha.
there's a lot of pressure on the road. i dont see myself driving in the future. i see myself hiring a chauffeur. haha.

went shopping again yesterday. bought another pair of jeans and a pair of dunks. but i dont even go out anymore. dont know where to wear my clothes to.

Sunday, July 4, 2004 09:58 p.m.

just came home from tanger outlet. really tired from the shopping trip. shopped from 11am to 6pm. haha.
bought some stuff. 3 shirts and 2 handbags. because today is national day, stuff were cheap. bought this tommy hilfiger bag for only 7 bucks. haha. all the branded goods were on sale. omg claire. i could imagine us running about choosing our stuff.
gonna get 2 pairs of shoes. getting nike dunks tmr. and the other pair not sure what i should get.

there are people outside my place playing with fireworks. this is the first time i see fireworks close up. really beautiful. i wanta play too!

Saturday, July 3, 2004 10:26 p.m.

a spider bit me. my finger hurts like hell. hope it wont kill. i quarrelled with my mum. my computer is screwed up. cant see what i'm typing. great.

Saturday, July 3, 2004 02:36 p.m.

uploaded pictures taken at the airport in the 'friends' album and photos taken at manhattan in the 'america' album.

Saturday, July 3, 2004 12:39 p.m.

my computer fixed itself. good.
manhattan is beautiful. especially times square. we wanted to go to central park but we were too tired. saw this beggar holding a sign on the street that says, "TELL ME OFF, "
i was telling rachel that i wanted to take a photo of him but i was scared that he will come tell me off instead and dont have 2 bucks for me.

went shopping again. suddenly my mum's quite nice. bought some tops from GAP.
and we're going to tanger outlet either this week or the next. the place is huge. you cant finish shopping in a day. it's like a conglomeration of the more popular brands. hope my mum's gonna be nice again. i dont have a single cent.

Friday, July 2, 2004 10:39 p.m.

technology is frustrating me. i'm a computer illiterate.

Friday, July 2, 2004 10:15 p.m.

my stupid dumb computer is killing me. the screen keeps going blank like every 5 seconds! although it goes off, my computer is still on. but i hafta keep trying to get the screen back on. so annoying. what a lousy computer. my dad's friend is really nice huh. UGHHH!

Thursday, July 1, 2004 10:12 p.m.

i think i just heard gun shots outside. freaky.
my family and my relatives are going to manhattan for dinner tmr! gonna have some good western food. my cousin's treating us.

went grocery shopping just now. bought 4 more pints of ice cream. i finished 2 pints before this already.
the beef patties here are really good too!! i make hamburgers myself. ahaha. i'm getting FAT. i think i'll go running with my mum and aunt. how weird. haha.

i think my cousin's really nice. he's the same age as my brother but he's so different.
when he comes to my house for dinner, he actually washes his own dishes. i was shocked.

Wednesday, June 30, 2004 11:30 p.m.

dont know what's with my neighbourhood. saw a dead cat on my way home today. it's much worse than the dead bird because everything was still intact.
saw lots of flies over it. yuck. damn gross. at least the bird was dried.

my english teacher is a black woman. she is really funny. i think majority of the americans have a really good sense of humor.
she tried pronouncing my name but she couldnt. she said it was a sound she never heard before.
i dont really get the blacks' lingo. i figured out some of them somehow. like, half-assed means careless. or something like that. haha.

i'm BORED. i have no friends. no life. i wish you all were here with me.

Tuesday, June 29, 2004 04:33 p.m.

just came back from the stupid SATs course. it sucked. i think it's useless. and now i actually have homework to do.
dont see myself making friends with any of those people. have to go for it every week, monday to thursday!! aahhhhh. it's killing me.

Monday, June 28, 2004 10:52 p.m.

damn. SAT course is tmr not next week. no more relaxing and slacking at home.
finally found my jacket. it was behind the sofa at my aunt's place. dont ask how.
went to buy cereal today. on my way home, i kicked this really crispy thing on the ground. so i kicked it again, thinking it was dried leaves.
but when i looked down, i saw a dead bird instead. felt damn disgusted. ran all the way home.

to those who wanted my address, this is it:
224-04 59th Ave, 2F
Oakland Gardens, NY 11364

Monday, June 28, 2004 01:12 p.m.

my cousin stayed over. we were playing the games eva and ian bought for me to play on the plane. damn funny. haha. the biting shark game and the fishing game. those games i played when i was young.
SAT course starts next week. so boring. didnt catch a movie yesterday. was gonna play tennis but there were no courts too. aahhhh. boring. hope i find my jacket soon. i think i'm irritating the whole world because of it.

Monday, June 28, 2004 01:17 a.m.

i'm irritated. cant find my adidas jacket. it went missing mysteriously.

Sunday, June 27, 2004 10:16 a.m.

havent been sleeping well. my cousins stayed over for 2 days already. we sleep really late and some idiot who was mowing the lawn downstairs woke me up.
today, my mum and my aunt kept calling. so annoying! they keep calling to wake me up. then i'll be like, "ok." and i go back to sleep. but now i'm mentally awake and physically tired.

my other cousins from taiwan came to america yesterday. havent seen them since primary school? they dont seem friendly.

we went shopping yesterday. and the first thing i thought of when i stepped into the mall was, "if only claire was here!"
i can imagine her running around picking her clothes. there were so much stuff! but we reached the mall at 8pm, didnt have much time to shop. i bought jeans and a top.

having a bbq at my aunt's place in the afternoon. and we might catch a movie later. my first time watching a movie here!
i want to watch white chicks but my cousin refuse to. i needa find friends who will watch shows i like. haha.

Friday, June 25, 2004 12:55 a.m.

just moved over to my new house. no more sleeping early everyday. more freedom now!!

went to play basketball with my cousins again. there's nothing else to do here. i want to go swimming but there are no swimming pools!! how sad. i want to swim!
and i want to go to school. weird that it's coming from me.

Monday, June 21, 2004 12:41 p.m.

my aunt made my cousins, my bro and i clean the backyard yesterday. we swept all the dead leaves and had to pull out all the weeds on the ground.
we found lotsa earthworms. my cousin chopped it into half. at first i found it amusing. but afterward i thought it was really gross because she continued chopping and chopping till it became a mash. she mashed up a caterpillar and a snail too and also 3 more earthworms.

Thursday, June 17, 2004 04:08 p.m.

it's june 18, 4.08am in singapore right now.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEETOH!
hope you have fun today. without me :( i wanta be there!!!

Wednesday, June 16, 2004 09:33 p.m.

hais. i wish you could be here with me. we can go studying together and it will definitely be more fun!
you went clubbing again? that's not what SOMEONE told me. hope you're fine now. what wave thing are u talking about?

hmmm. i think you should take what you like? which i think is medical science and not arts. we both hate our combi remember? choose wisely!
actually i havent chosen mine yet too. haha. right now i'm either going to Baruch College, Queens College or Stony Brook University. still gonna take up the fashion designing course though.

my cousin's parents are SOOO strict. my aunt found a movie ticket in my cousin's pants. and she asked him why didnt he tell her he went to watch a movie.
and they have to sleep really early everyday. one reason i cant stay online for long. i'm glad i'm moving into my hse soon.

Wednesday, June 16, 2004 01:14 a.m.

I AM NOT MISS PIGGY.

hahaha i have decided to use your blog instead of mine because it is more fun. anyway suz. i just drank so much that i blacked out. for the first time in my life. it was friggin scary. i was on my hp talking to my MOM and then i just collapsed;banged my head on the table top all. apparently i did that wave thing that happens when you faint. and then my friends were like claire claire and i was wondering who the hell was trying to wake me up from my sleep. but damn weird i wasn't really high. terence says it was because i was drinking pure shots. and now my head hurts. i hit my forehead and it feels like a pimple is growing. ergh.

do you know, now i might not be able to go america cos my mom wants me to leave for australia in feb. i am in a dilemma because i don't know whether to take foundation so that i can do some medical shit or to stick with the arts. now im the one unsure of what to do with my life. but i suppose when you have to decide that it becomes scary. because you might make the wrong decision.

anyway i am going to tell you that i miss you. because i cannot call you and whine like the whiny shit that i am. and there is no one to aimlessly walk around town with me. and the times that i am sad i wish i could talk to you so that you can tell me your lame jokes and make me laugh. and now i am crying. IT IS ALL YOUR FAULT. but i really really miss you. ahhhhhhhh. i hope somehow i still get to go to america so that we can shop and go see broadway. and you will drive me around and we will go to california to see hansen and shop even more. you take care of yourself ok. i will talk to you online soon. and then you can give me your number because i want to call you. gnite.

Monday, June 14, 2004 05:25 p.m.

claire is miss piggy, miss piggy is claire.

my dad went back to taiwan and took his com along with him. now i can only use my cousin's com but he needs it. cant come online often.

i dyed my hair yesterday!! it's red. haha. not very obvious though.
we wanted to go play tennis yesterday but we couldnt find the rackets.

got my social security card changed today. can finally get my learner's permit! anyway in new york, u really have to expect the unexpected. the weather, the people. one day you might meet a nasty old lady who wont stop cursing at you and the next, you meet really friendly people who wont stop talking. haha.
and today, the bus driver just suddenly told us the bus ride is free. weird huh. a bus ride here is not cheap. it's 2 bucks.

Monday, June 14, 2004 01:51 a.m.

suz birdy. claire is not a piggy. neither is she intimidating. so YOU should be doing some reflecting about your wrongful accusations.

Monday, June 14, 2004 01:09 a.m.

omg. i just found out something REALLY sad. my cousin, helen, is 14 years old. she used to be a gymnast. she won damn a lot of medals!
my dad told me she was chosen to represent USA in the olympic games but she fell(i'm not sure when) and hurt her back. since then, she couldnt compete.
which means she was talent spotted at a very young age!
if only she didnt fall!! i'll be soo jealous too! i've always wanted to be a sportswoman.
i feel so sad for her. i might kill myself if i were her.

Saturday, June 12, 2004 10:18 p.m.

i still feel like i'm on a holiday, and that i'll be back one day.

Saturday, June 12, 2004 10:08 p.m.

claire piggy, i left rachel's vcds in your bag! forgot to pass it back to her. rachel needs her vcds back. i asked her to msg you but she still finds you intimidating. please go reflect on yourself. ahaha. so will you please msg rachel first? thank you.

Friday, June 11, 2004 07:12 a.m.

computers in america are EXTREMELY expensive. the one i got is 1400 USD. that's not even the market price. my dad's friend charged him at a lower price because he's a wholesaler.

spent the whole morning replying emails and the afternoon at the Department of Motor Vehicles(DMV). went to apply for my learner's permit and ID but there are still some stuff to settle. sooo tiring! my cousin's gonna take my driving every saturday i think.

the weather is really strange. although it's summer, sometimes it can get really cold, like 20 degrees celsius maybe? then the next day it goes back to 30 degrees celsius.

claire, you should study hard but not THAT hard. i've been staying at home a lot it's killing me. it's so boring. i hope i can drive soon then i can go out! really hope you all can come visit me.

Thursday, June 10, 2004 06:57 a.m.

can only move into my house on 16th june. really really bored here. i'm only starting school in january!! omg. will be bored to death. but i think i'll be taking summer courses on fashion and psychology to know what i really want to major in.

tv here is real good though. there are 400 over channels, they show recent films, and their advertisements are really funny. haha. that's about the only thing i'm enjoying. after hansen told me that the NBA finals are on, i've been watching it. basketball is MUCH more interesting than soccer.
my cousin went to six flags with her friends. i'm jealous!! i wanta go! six flags is a HUGE amusement park. claire and ian you all wanta come right? let's go six flags!

Monday, June 7, 2004 04:31 p.m.

found a house. it's pretty small. parents dont have much money to get a bigger one till next year.
gonna paint my room pink. haha. cant wait. getting a new com too. can imagine myself lying on my cosy bed already!

some people here are really friendly. but some are really rude. i miss singapore. everything's so inconvenient here. it would be much better if i can drive. weather's unpredictable too. yesterday i was freezing even though i was wearing a jacket and long pants. but today i feel like i'm back in singapore. hmmm. weird.

Saturday, May 29, 2004 01.35 a.m.

just reached a while ago. really tired. claire, you're not alone. you have me!! gonna go look for a house tmr.

at the airport
saw jeremy and jia liang first. then people started filling in. thank you all for the letters and gifts.
ian toh is really out to make me cry. wrote me a song, recorded it down and bought me a discman so i can listen to it. when i read the lyrics and his letter at the airport in taiwan, i couldnt stop crying.
eva burned me a cd too. she included all the songs we sang at the ktv. and everytime i hear,'i want it that way' i keep thinking of you. hais. miss you all already.

claire, thank you for really really sweet letter. I LOVE YOU! come visit me at the end of the year ok? not hansen! remember!

rachel, beni, seetoh, peiyi, em, thank you for the eclairs and muffins! it got a bit messy. rachel ang, i cant believe u remembered what i liked. thank you all :)I MISS YOU TOO RACHEL!

thank you shiping, kai, tav, kristy and jess. didnt know u all were coming till ian told me. thank you qian, terence, jeremy, hil and chow wee too! THANK YOU!!!

thank you pat, sab, wen and xiujuan. was shocked to see you all. thank you chunsi and thank you kangwei. someone help me thank her because i dont think she reads my blog.

i miss you all already. claire, ian, eva, rachel, beni, seetoh, shiping, em and terence please give me your house add. mail me or sth? thank you. hope i can come online again soon.

Saturday, June 5, 2004 03:26 p.m.

i am the official loser now. my pet bird flew frome the nest. i can't believe you are gone. :(

Saturday, June 5, 2004 12:46 a.m.

hahaha i am invading suzy's blog!! she won't be able to come online till she gets a computer in america so i am going to be blogging for her.

anyway, we had dinner with alex, nicholas. yew teng, kitty and peter. sorta a farewell for suz. well, actually me and suz ate at ikea first, then after that they came and everywhere was closed except for queensway macs so that's where they ate. was standing around tallking for awhile and dunno what somebody said so suz said "i am shocked" and clifford said "i am clifford". and stupid suzy said "i am still shocked" and clifford said "i am still clifford" damn funny. har har har. maybe u have to be there to comprehend exactly how funny it was.

ok. so suzy is leaving tomorrow morning. 6am at bk at dunnow what terminal. be there or be square.

-CLAIRE-

Saturday, June 5, 2004 12:46 a.m.

hahaha i am invading suzy's blog!! she won't be able to come online till she gets a computer in america so i am going to be blogging for her.

ok. so suzy is leaving tomorrow morning. 6am at bk at dunnow what terminal. be there or be square.

-CLAIRE-

Friday, June 4, 2004 12:27 p.m.

departure time: 8.15am
Flight number: CI662 to taipei
Terminal 1
i'll be at the airport at 6am.

Thursday, June 3, 2004 08:17 a.m.

went for lunch at orchard hotel with my dad's friend yesterday. was late to meet eva, denyse and ian. ian drove us to east coast park and we went skating. haha. east coast was damn crowded! eva kept playing 'i want it that way' by backstreet boys. we were singing in the car.
went to kbox after that. it was my first time and i'm addicted. ahaha.

i was one and a half hours late to meet rachel, beni, peiyi, seetoh, emily, poh ling and ru xuan. havent seen some of them in quite a while! i still kept singing when i met them. em thought i was high. haha.

need to go to school later for maths lesson. hope i'm not alone. claire is STILL sick. i feel like killing you. all our plans are cancelled huh.

Wednesday, June 2, 2004 02:25 a.m.

just got home from eva's place. my mum's really pissed because i forgot to bring my house key. kept pressing the bell and woke her up. feel quite bad :(

went shopping with my mum early today. i was too tired so i came home to sleep for a while.
rushed down to eva's house because ian toh shouted at me over the phone. but i reached there only to find that they were all still in town. eva's sister entertained me while we waited for them.

denyse, eva, alan and ian reached first. ian pushed me into the fish pond. what an idiot!!! tried to pull him in too but the floor was too slippery.
the rest of the cross country people came shortly after and hil came too. ian's mum bought satay and otah and his maid fried rice and cooked spaghetti. they ordered 4 more pizzas. there was damn a lot of food.

played mahjong, nintendo 64 and pool. haha. the pokemon game is fun :)
aveline called me and told me they wanted to pass me sth. i couldnt leave so they went to my hse and passed the stuff to my security guard.
collected the photo album they left for me. omg. it's damn sweet. the photos our class took together, the memories, all compiled into an album. i love it :)

thank you aveline, sophie, michelle, sebast, eva and ian. thanks for all that you all have done. will miss you all :( but maybe not ian. haha.

Tuesday, June 1, 2004 10:05 a.m.

was supposed to go shopping with claire yesterday but she's still sick. ended up going to rachel's house. her auntie taught me how to make eclairs. and i went with her family for dinner at bonito. the western food was not bad. i felt so paiseh.

going shopping with my mum in a while. and gonna close down my POSB account. then meeting the cross country people. ian organised a farewell party for me. thanks! and thank you eva :)

Monday, May 31, 2004 12:15 p.m.

forgot to blog about some stuff.
on friday after their GP paper, i went out with my classmates for a farewell lunch at waffletown. food was not bad. it was the last time i saw some of my classmates.
and emily, i was supposed to treat you to a drink right? forgot all about it too. so sorry!

claire thought she had chicken pox. i thought she spread it to me. but it turned out to be heat rashes. she's running a fever too.
get well soon claire. dont forget our plans!

uploaded the photos we took at rachel's house.

Saturday, May 29, 2004 08:59 p.m.

i'll start with friday.
happy belated birthday shiping!
met claire in town at about 8pm. went shopping. wasnt fruitful because the shops were closed already!
claire was whining non stop!! i think because i was late. haha. bought her famous amos cookies to make her stop.

went to meet hil, jeremy, ian, joseph, jonathan, timothy and their friends. went rouge together. it was alright. better than newsroom bar because i didnt get drunk. haha. eva, denyse and peiwen were there too!
the best part of the day was that my eyecandy talked to me. ahahaha. cant believe i'm saying this. but yea, i was really happy.

clubbing was a mess. didnt know what i was doing half the time. claire and i would really like to thank ian for being there for us most of the time. THANK YOU! thank you for always watching out for us :)

left the place at 3 plus. headed to claire's house. i woke up damn early. think she was irritated with me because i woke her up. haha. we met ian in the afternoon for prata.

came over to rachel's place in the evening. her auntie taught us how to make eclairs. rachel is so nice :) peiyi and benita are here now too. we are all staying over.

i love rachel!!!!!!

Friday, May 28, 2004 12:39 a.m.

woke up really early today, considering there was no school. met claire, ben and terence at school. ate noodle king for the last time then we went to ben's house.
his house smells like my grandma's. i liked that smell. haha. we played tennis, badminton style. and played basketball too. was really tired.
saw a photo of ben, hansen and alex when they were younger. they looked really different. so funny. haha.

Wednesday, May 26, 2004 09:21 p.m.

last day of school:
school was fine. except that i had to sing a song during geog lesson because i was the last to enter class. sang twinkle twinkle little star. i forgot the lyrics. haha.

went to talk to miss lee and the pe teachers after school. it was ms lee's last day in school too. she wrote me a really sweet note. so nice of her. they kept asking me to take care of myself. hais. wanted to cry. they are all too nice.
ms lee was telling me what i can do with a sports major. i was really attracted to it. hais. dilemma again. i have a passion for sports. but i dont think i can get really far with it.

told claire that i wanta take photo with my eyecandy on my last day of school but i felt too paiseh. saw emily in the canteen. told her about it. she disappeared for a while, then came back with my eyecandy. i was shocked. she was too fast. haha. anyway took a photo with my eyecandy. was really embarrassing. i kept laughing non stop. hope i dont look ugly in the photo.

went town with claire for a while then i went to meet rachel to watch win a date with tad hamilton. i thought it was not bad. i like love stories!

Tuesday, May 25, 2004 11:19 p.m.

pe was alright. eva, emily, peiwen and i played volleyball. haha. i still cant play volleyball.

claire, hannah, ben, terence and i went to town. terence treated me to waffles! thanks :) we sat there for quite a while then walked around. melvin called terence and told him he saw the black eye peas.
we walked around trying to look for them! haha. i wanted to see fergie! she's sooo hot. but we only saw two guys who i dont know their names. haha. they were quite cool. claire and i both agreed that one of them has this certain attraction. not cute, but attractive. we took photos with them. haha.

claire and i went to lido. met amanda, alex, nicholas and yew teng. we were gonna watch troy and yew teng decided to join us. troy was good :) brad pitt's damn hot. was really sad when he died. haha.

no school on thursday and friday. yay!
but tmr will be my last day. hmm. both pros and cons. will miss everyone :(
still thinking of a christian name.

Monday, May 24, 2004 10:44 p.m.

aveline told me that mrs loke still wants me to attend her extra remedial lessons during the first week of holidays. she's so funny. she knows i'm leaving but still wants me to go? haha. i'll try to attend then.
cant wait for pe tmr :) i love pe lessons!!!!! actually, i just love playing games. haha.

went to see the doctor. he stuck something up my ass. damn disgusting. he told me i needa change my diet. i gotta start eating fruits and vegetables. i guess he was amazed that i survived still now. haha.

Monday, May 24, 2004 01:17 p.m.

my mum thinks my stomach is bleeding. not sure when we're gonna see a doctor. maybe i dont even needa go america anymore. i think i might be dying soon.

Monday, May 24, 2004 12:16 p.m.

benita and i went to rachel's house yesterday. we were so scared of her dad! he's really fierce. so when he came out of his room, beni and i ran to the toilet.
rachel found us squatting in the toilet and thought we looked like refugees. haha.
i had 2 chocolate muffins and 7 eclairs(i think). so much for wanting to go on diet.

didnt go school today. sorry claire :(
will make cheese sandwich and bring crackers for you tmr instead.

Sunday, May 23, 2004 10:13 a.m.

two weeks left in singapore. so little time, so much to do. but i rather stay at home recently. supposed to go to rachel's house later and maybe go driving with ian and eva at night.

drew a timetable for the next 2 weeks. haha.
time is running out. getting kinda scared.

Sunday, May 23, 2004 01:24 a.m.

uploaded more photos. check the 'friends' album.

bought a packet of marshmallows. yummy :) all i wanta do is stay at home and eat marshmallows and drink chocolate milk. getting really lazy.

my leg muscles are really huge. i'm just gonna try to use them as little as possible. this means i'll be sleeping quite a lot. haha.

Saturday, May 22, 2004 11:32 p.m.

my msn is still screwed up. hais.

slept for about 14 hours. rachel forced me to meet her in town early.
we met up with benita. walked around and did some shopping.
we were too tired so we sat at starbucks. chatted for quite a while, then headed home.

my dad's friends were at our house again. one of them knew palmistry. she read my palm.
she said that i shouldnt get married at a young age. i was really sad when i heard that!! she said if i get married at a young age i'll get a divorce for sure.

she also said i lack concentration and confidence and that i'm fickle minded. which is soooo true.
she said that during my pursuit of education, i'll change my courses quite a few times because i cant make up my mind. haha. that is exactly the problem i'm facing now!! cant decide what course to take in america.

she solved my problem a little. she said i'm good at business because i think a lot and i have my own views on stuff.
and she said i'm an arts inclined person. i like to look at beautiful stuff :)
so i narrowed down my choices to either fashion designing or graphic designing or psychology. or maybe i'll design adverts. haha.

they are really scary people. they seemed like they could read my mind.
was quite interesting though.

Saturday, May 22, 2004 1:29 a.m.

came home early today. slept at 8pm. rachel's call woke me up. took my flu medicine so i can go back to sleep soon.

on thursday, my class stayed back to practice for cheerleading. i ended up running around and playing a bit of soccer.
guess what ian made me do! he was the goalie and the other guys were shooting, so he asked me to run about in front of him to be a moving target!!
how nice. but quite funny lar. haha.

attended mass with claire at her church. going to church is fun! i like the singing part, when everyone sings in unison :)
we rushed to my house to swim! the water was lukewarm. damn nice to swim in.
had dinner at ikea. claire stayed over at my place.
although i own a queen-sized bed, that stupid women kept trying to push me off! didnt sleep well.

had games carnival on friday. and it's ian's birthday too.
happy birthday ian :)
for goodness sake, please grow up.

it was a long and tiring day. it started off with the 800m race. it was quite embarrassing because the whole school was watching us.
hil ran her 100m then we all had to run our 4 by 400m race. emily said she was betting on our race. luckily she wasnt betting against us, or i'll kill her!

hil and i were also in the swimming event. almost died during the 4 by 50m race.
eva said that i was swimming fast at the first half but the second, i looked as though i punctured. ahahaha. damn funny.

they have this super high diving board by the pool. we all wanted to try but we made alex go first.
he went up. and he jumped. he jumped too far out. he fell onto the string of flags that was hanging across the pool. AHAHAHA.
it went quite far down into the pool, along with alex, then it bounced back. couldnt stop laughing!
he's really a drunken prawn.

changed out. went to support our class for the floorball semi-finals. it was the first time i've seen ben and sebast so irritated. i was shocked.
but yes, we were treated unfairly. the ball split when ben was shooting the penalty but they didnt allow him to shoot again!
then it was the cheerleading competition. eva's class was good!

it was an eventful day. we didnt do well overall but we celebrated at sake sushi anyway.
we had the buffet. i only ate 10 plates of stuff. wasnt hungry despite having an empty stomach the whole day.

going back to sleep.

Wednesday, May 19, 2004 09:49 p.m.

tiring day at school! didnt do my econs DRQ again.
had cheerleading tryouts after school. then photo taking session with the badminton people for the school yearbook.
hope i dont look as bad this year.

they all tried to push me into the pond after that. i screamed and ran away.
made claire walk with me out of school by the back gate. walked all the way to novena.
took bus to town to satisfy our cravings for subway sandwiches!

we saw this new shop in taka which is now where miss selfridge used to be.
there was a reception outside. wanted to kope some food but we decided to shop inside first! saw nice clothes.

i asked claire, "so you want to try it on?" some woman heard and came up to us saying, "sorry we're not open to the public yet. it only opens at 8pm."
i looked around and realised that most people were dressed quite formally. except us. we were in tshirt and shorts. haha.
damn embarrassing. walked out quickly and laughed so hard.

these 2 incidents happened quite long ago.
one fine morning, emily and gen brought my eyecandy to me. they wanted to introduce her to me! i cant remember what they said exactly. all i remember is that i ran away! sooo embarrassing!! she's really pretty though.

on another fine day, ben was nodding off during econs lecture(as usual). so jeremy, claire and i decided to play a trick on him. they rolled small paper balls and i placed them on his head. for a moment it looked like a bird's nest.
econs lect ended, but he didnt realise. he walked around school with it for quite a while. haha.

my msn is weird. keeps logging out and logging in by itself. claire thinks it's posessed by evil spirits. poor child.

Tuesday, May 18, 2004 06:11 p.m.

OMG. i just remembered that i havent completed my econs DRQ.
mr ang is so gonna kill me!! hais.
i'm the only one in class who hasnt completed it.
stayed back in sch for econs make-up test. school was alright overall.
this is gonna be a damn busy week.

Sunday, May 16, 2004 02:48 p.m.

kinda ran away from home. haha.
my mum didnt let me stayover at rachel's house but i insisted. till now, she doesnt know where i am. shall call home soon.

went to church for the first time. it was alright. then went for lunch with her family. felt quite weird. haha.

Sunday, May 16, 2004 12:25 a.m.

down with a cold. didnt go for econs test today.
met rachel and seetoh in town.
had lunch at pasta mania. almost puked after that. cus it was too cheesy.

went to kallang theater to watch the aj concert. the dance was so abstract. didnt understand. got to see peiyi though.
i'm at rachel's house now! going church with her tmr.
didnt get to play tennis on friday because andre wasnt free. hais. i want to play!!

terence is treating me to waffles at gelare's because i ran 10.24 for my 2.4km challenge on friday. yay! will grow really fat in the next few weeks.

my bro's computer is not working AGAIN. so if anything, email me or leave a note on my guestbook.
i have to apply to colleges in school! so mah fan.
managed to upload some photos. check under 'friends'.

Thursday, May 13, 2004 08:36 p.m.

ohh. i'm getting a new computer and phone soon :) not getting a line here though.
oh hansen! which is cheaper? getting a phone here or in america? too lazy to email you again. reply me!

Thursday, May 13, 2004 08:14 p.m.

interesting day.
happy birthday claire!!!
someone's finally on the same frequency as me. haha.

shall blog about yesterday. ran 2.4km in the morning. ran 10.38!! gonna run again tmr for the 2.4 challenge. damn tiring. hope i wont disappoint my classmates.
had heats after school. my class came in first for the 4 by 400m relay. all thanks to hil :)

got a cake and flowers for claire! took damn ugly photos today. haha.
we got back our econs essay. i got zero!!!! ahahaha. first time in my life.

played basketball during pe. was quite fun. then we went to work on our cheerleading stuff. suddenly i got myself involved.

i kept staring at the tennis people after our cheerleading stuff. i soooo desperately wanted to play! i just kept staring non stop. FINALLY the coach asked me if i wanta join!!
played a while with claire. i love tennis :)
we're going to andre's house tmr to play tennis! YAY!!!!!!

Monday, May 10, 2004 11:41 p.m.

no fights in the end.
i lost my doubles today. after my match kai went out of the hall with me. i just started crying.
and so did she. guess she was really disappointed too. felt damn bad. hais.

that's the end of the badminton season. and games carnival is starting.
think i should become a full-time sports person. detention and study session tmr. boring.

Monday, May 10, 2004 10:30 p.m.

my brother's a fucking bastard. first he fixed the com and didnt tell me. secondly, he hid the mouse and didnt wanta let me use the com?! like wth.

we lost to ac today. sucks man. shall blog about it another time. my bro's home. time to fight.

Sunday, May 9, 2004 06:04 p.m.

finally got the com fixed.
my dad went down to the american educational centre yesterday and came home with a list of colleges.
doing research on them now.
took my SATs yesterday. i cant speed read for nuts. english was tough. maths was damn easy though.

the whole of this week was about badminton. had a match on monday against NY. we won 3-2!! the NY people were irritated with us cus we were screaming like crazy.

had training on tues, wed and thurs. match on friday against vj. sadly, we lost 5-0. we're playing against ac tmr. sure hope we can win. we need a good line up.
if we do, we'll be in the next round!!!

anyway rachel was really nice to come support me. THANK YOU!!!! thanks for your chocolates and flower too :)
and we needa thank the aj people for supporting us too. haha.

Monday, May 3, 2004 09:08 a.m.

my computer's bugged i think. hope my bro fixes it soon. i get to leave class at 9.30am today! got a match later on.
went town with ian and eva yesterday. caught the beautiful boxer. it's good :)
i wanta watch win a date with tad hamilton!!

took photos these few days. cant upload till my bro fixes the com.
leaving in 4 weeks. hais.

Saturday, May 1, 2004 01:27 a.m.

went to claire's house after school today.
we walked her dog! it stinks.
we met andre at serangoon gardens for dinner.
didnt eat much cus i ate too much junk food at claire's house. haha.

Thursday, April 29, 2004 10:07 p.m.

told claire to tell ms lim that i had constipation and that i'll go see a doctor, dont needa call my house.
she told ms lim exactly what i said and ms lim was like, "so this time she got herself covered huh?" haha.

went to school in the evening to watch a video with the badminton people. the teachers filmed our matches during training.
for the first time, after 8 years of badminton, i realised that i dont look like a badminton player at all. i looked damn spastic while playing. kept laughing at myself!! haha.

the guys went out of the lecture theater first and they locked us in! we were like shouting and screaming.
i did a short run and kicked the door. the door didnt budge. instead i fell backwards and tripped over someone. ahaha. damn funny.

i've been playing too much hide-and-seek. saw ms lim in school so i hid behind the pillar. jess thinks she saw me(or heard me) cus i was laughing damn loudly. opps.

Thursday, April 29, 2004 01:42 a.m.

decided not to go school tmr. so much for wanting to top our maths lecture group for tmr's test. right claire?
ahahaha. that's our unrealistic dream, for now.

after morning run on tues, eva and i hid in the toilet. we rushed out after assembly and saw the malay teacher standing at the quadrangle.

we ran back to the toilet and decided to take another route. went down to the canteen and ms lee saw us! we were like, "oh shit!" we ran away from her!
peeped from behind the wall and i saw brother paul!! we ran all the way up again.
managed to get back to class safely. felt as though we were playing time crisis. haha.

Monday, April 26, 2004 10:46 p.m.

i love 50 first dates :) it's a not-to-be-missed show!! made me really happy. i need a boyfriend like henry roth. haha.

we did a bit of maths only then walked around town. trying to upload photos now. look under 'friends' when it's done.

Monday, April 26, 2004 12:59 p.m.

skipped GP lect. i've got geog remedial to go then i can go home!
claire and i are gonna go watch 50 first dates then study maths. so hardworking :)

i think my email account is bugged. received weird emails. just created a new account! mail me at:
szuyu_lin@hotmail.com

Sunday, April 25, 2004 08:18 a.m.

i've been waking up early because i try to sleep earlier nowadays. still kinda tired though.

went down to toa payoh stadium with kai and rachel on friday. the juniors did really well! 'b' div got first and 'c' div got 2nd.
was screaming will i almost lost my voice! was nice seeing my coaches and the teachers again :)

rachel and i rushed down to town to catch dawn of the dead. i thought it was really scary!!
at least there was comic relief.

went for dinner at pasta mania. the new baked rice they have is not bad. and we ordered carbonara too. carbonara was bland. we added lotsa salt and pepper and damn a lot of cheese.
too much cheese in fact. the pasta became so dry, it rolled into a ball of dough. ahahaha.

met peiyi while we were leaving. took photos with her!! i developed the photos already :) yay!

rushed home after training yesterday cus i was supposed to meet claire at night but she pangsehed me. she had family dinner. was sooo bored at home.
hopefully i'll do something constructive today.

Thursday, April 22, 2004 10:29 p.m.

whoa tired. pe was damn slack but no fun cus we didnt play games!
eva told me she had abs. so i lifted up her shirt cus i wanted to see. didnt lift it very high though.
she pushed me to the ground and tried to lift my shirt too. claire said eva really looked like a rapist for a moment. ahaha.

did mantainance with claire then went queensway for dinner and to do maths.
i forced claire to go running with me! running on the treadmill gives me a headache. but i'm so proud of myself cus i took the initiative to go running.

dont know what to do tmr. watch dawn of the dead then go rj dance night? or support stnicks badminton then go watch movie? dilemma.

Wednesday, April 21, 2004 10:24 p.m.

my mum booked a flight to america on 5 june. shit. this time it's for real.
that's in about less than 2 months. i'm not prepared. not at all.
i'm scared!!! i NEED to see a shooting star.

Wednesday, April 21, 2004 07:29 p.m.

i want to see a shooting star. i wanta wish upon a star! claire said she saw one the other day. i'm jealous! i have no luck. guess i should just stick to my wishing pond.

i've been rushing home almost everyday to sleep. still tired ever since the camp. and i needa start doing maths homework again!

Tuesday, April 20, 2004 09:37 p.m.

school was alright. went subway with claire then rushed back to school to find out that training was cancelled! damn.

gen had to do mantainence alone in LT1. she got so freaked out cus she kept hearing funny noises and the lights were flickering on and off.
she ran out of the LT and came to look for us. so i went with her. helped her sweep the floor. haha. and we found 5 erasers in the LT. we concluded tt people always drop their erasers. why erasers?

we did weights and played netball for training. but i'm still tired! gonna go sleep.

Monday, April 19, 2004 04:14 p.m.

played a prank on alex and ian today. cus one keeps calling me drunk bird and the other is a big bully.

i covered paper balls with snickers spread, then roll it over icing sugar.
i used my dirty hands to shape the snicker balls!! ahaha. put it in the freezer to make it look real. i was like smiling to myself while making it. ahahahahaha.

told eva about my plan last night. asked her to make ian go to the grand stand in the morning. saw them after my morning run but i couldnt find my bag cus ben brought it back to class for me.
i shouted for jeremy. made him bring my bag down. hil came along and denyse came down too. they all wanted to watch. haha.

i told ian my mum made chocolates and asked him if he wanted it. he ate it! even though it looked damn sick. haha. guess eva was right. she said ian's damn greedy. will eat it for sure. i thought ian will suspect something but he's not too smart i guess. haha.
he kept kicking me! eva scolded ian for me. thank you :) i shall not laugh at you anymore. promise!

told alex i got a present for him since last week. ever since then he kept asking me for it. didnt wanta play the trick on him already but he asked me for it after sch again.
he thought the snicker balls looked damn sick but he ate it. ahaha. he kept cursing me. after tt he came to ask me when i'm leaving and said he will give me a treat before i leave. haha. dont know if he was for real. if he was, i'll feel really bad!

i actually took photos of the snicker balls. thought it was really funny and looked damn sick. you all better appreciate it. i stayed up late just to make them.

ms lim scolded me for going out on friday. think she wants me to quit school. mrs loke told me she'll be sad if i leave. didnt know i mattered to her. haha. and she's the only teacher in cj who thinks i'm smart :)

Sunday, April 18, 2004 06:08 p.m.

back from camp! we are all tired out but i guess it's not too bad overall.

ian joined claire and i for the movie on friday. i think starsky and hutch is really funny!!
rushed back to school to attend the camp. had training straight away. from 6.30 all the way to 10 plus!!

bathed then we went to sleep. or at least i did. gen shared her sleeping bag with me. we were all tossing and turning cus it was so freaking hot!
i slept only for about an hour. found myself sleeping on the floor when i woke up. i bet gen pushed me off! haha. evil.

had morning run the next day. jogged and sprinted a lot. the guys continued to train while we studied. after lunch we joined them for training. it was physical training.
had a small break then continued with court training. i have 2 blisters on my foot! gen burst one of them. think i got an infection maybe? cus i kept walking around barefooted.

had morning run again this morning. i couldnt run properly cus of my blisters. did pull ups after that then we watched remember the titans. i fell asleep. haha.

ms lee made us write down our favourite things and things that motivate us. i wrote a long list and i wrote down mrs loke's name. she's the reason why i'm still doing maths homework! so ms lee went to tell mrs loke and mrs loke wrote a note for me. almost cried when i read it. it's damn sweet.

ms lee went to get us our fav things too :) i got a big cream puff! she's so nice. but ms lee and mr liu still keep saying tt i'm very lazy. i wasnt slacking during the camp!!!! i swear!

Friday, April 16, 2004 11:32 a.m.

wednesday
hannah toasted bread for me again. thank you :) brought my old camera to school. took photos with quite a few people. took photo with denyse too. denyse is my eyecandy! haha.

went to meet rachel and seetoh after school. we watched the prince and me. it's a sweet movie worth watching. we took photos too! cant wait to get them developed.

thursday
school was quite boring. i guess cus i was really tired. but pe was fun!!! yesterday was the first time i played volleyball with so many pro people. we could rally for soo long.

eva and i cant serve for nuts. and i hit this guy with the ball twice. so when i was getting ready to serve, ms smith shouted, "take cover! take cover!!" then you see all of them suddenly squat down and put their hands over their heads! it was a really funny sight. ahaha. they are damn mean lar.
emily and i kept laughing at the way eva run for the ball too! i still love pe :) but i think ms smith was quite irritated with me. haha.

didnt go to school today cus i was really tired. gonna meet claire in a while to eat subway sandwich and watch starsky and hutch! then i'll have to go back to school for badminton camp. it's intensive training for 3 days 2 nights. there goes my weekend. hais.

Tuesday, April 13, 2004 10:19 p.m.

didnt go school today! woke up this morning feeling really tired so i decided to skip school.
this is becoming a habit. bad habit.

went sun tanning :) i'm sooo dark now. yay!
hannah called me after school. she toasted bread for me but i didnt go to school. sorry! but i really appreciate it :)
we have a money-saving plan! i'm bringing a whole loaf of bread to school and she's bringing peanut butter.

Monday, April 12, 2004 12:28 a.m.

stand by me

Made a meal and threw it up on sunday,
I've, got a lot of things to learn,
Said I would and I believe in one day,
Before my heart starts to burn.

So what's the matter with you,
Sing me something new,
Don't you know the cold and wind and rain don't know,
They only seem to come and go, away.

Times are hard when things have got no meaning,
I've found a key upon the floor,
Maybe you and I will not believe in,
The things we find behind the door.

So what's the matter with you,
Sing me something new,
Don't you know the cold and wind and rain don't know,
They only seem to come and go away.

Stand by me, nobody knows the way it's gonna be,
Stand by me, nobody knows the way it's gonna be,
Stand by me, nobody knows the way it's gonna be,
Stand by me, nobody knows,
Yeah nobody knows, the way it's gonna be.

If you're leaving will you take me with you,
I'm tired of talking on my phone,
There is one thing I can never give you,
My heart will never be your home.

So what's the matter with you,
Sing me something new,
Don't you know the cold and wind and rain don't know,
They only seem to come and go, away.

Saturday, April 10, 2004 10:15 p.m.

went to town with shiping yesterday. we went shopping! she had to leave so i went to meet ian, who was with jeremy and friends.
had to watch soccer with them. but i am no soccer fan.

after the match ended, ian and i went to eva's house. we went driving around her area. i can drive! haha. but not too good.
eva tried this time too. she expected ian to steer but i think he thought she was gonna steer it herself. so we kinda went onto the pavement and drove into a garbage bin. no damage was done though. it was quite funny.
played nintendo 64 again! then we went home.

yesterday was jessica's birthday. happy belated birthday :)
got a cake for her. kristy smashed a slice of cake on her face! haha. then we went to pick our badminton jersey. there wasnt much choice. we got one that looks like a soccer jersey. i think.

benita and i planned an eclair eating competition and a chiku plucking competition at rachel's house. haha. damn lame. but i cant wait :)

i made my mum freeze fresh strawberries for me. hmmm. can imagine myself dipping them into honey and eating them already.

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