Friday, February 20, 2004 09:20 p.m.

drained from all energy. i think this is the first time ever jason liu didnt scold me for being lazy. he actually asked me to take care. was damn shocked.

exhausted from:
1) waking up at 5.30am, rushed to school to run 11 rounds, which is about 3.7km
2) claire and i happily jogged 2 rounds for double period pe and we thought we could play volleyball.
BUT. issac lim approached me and asked me to run 12 rounds. there goes my fun pe lessons :(
3) after school we had cross country training at turf city. ran 3.6km. my timing was quite bad. hais.
it's depressing to join a cca where u know u are kinda like a beginner. yupp. if you know what i mean.
4) after that, he asked us to run another 3.6km. i was like, wth?! in the end we slow jogged and walked.

thursday
left school early cus i was feeling damn depressed. wanted to cry. cus i had so much uncompleted homework and i know nuts abt econs and maths. and ms lim threatened to write a discipline report against me cus i dont hand in homework?! nuts. think i was pmsing anyway.

today
had bad gastric, then had cramps. but i still had to run. there's an econs test tmr but i dont really care lar. will try to study a little so i wont fail that badly.
school was alright today. was damn depressed at first cus of the cross country stuff. cus i'm like miss anti-social. felt so odd with them. and i dont deserve to be in the cross country team. but i knew them better cus of training at turf city. eva was nice enough to talk to me. haha. they are funny people.

went for lunch with aloy and tav after school. i finally ate solid food. claire hannah and some other people thinks i'm anorexic. crazy. i swear i do eat. dont really know why i'm losing quite a bit of weight though.

needa run again tmr. then i think claire's coming my hse to stayover. and sunday there's vertically challenged. it's some competition where i hafta climb 45 flights of stairs. i dont have time to study!!

felt quite accomplished today. but hafta persevere for 2 more weeks. i've somehow lost the determination i had in secondary school. i will wanta win something for stnicks, but not cj. dont feel the attachment yet. but like hannah and claire said, i shld prove to them that they chose the right person. thanks for the encouragement :)

Wednesday, February 18, 2004 07:04 p.m.

happy birthday rachel :)
didnt get to come online yesterday to type this!!!

Wednesday, February 18, 2004 06:44 p.m.

sometimes i feel that the whole world is out to kill me. they think i'm a superwoman. but no, i'm not!!
the other time i told ms smith i was sick and i cant do pe she didnt believe me. when i told jason liu and kai i had damn bad muscle aches they didnt believe me. either that or they just dont care and want me to train.

mr lim asked me if i wanta try out for cross country yesterday. i said i dont mind. so after pe, he made me run 9 rounds. had training after that. my muscles felt sooo sore. thought swimming would help relieve muscle aches, so i went. but i guess it didnt. hais.

reached sch at 6.50 today to run. he wanted to see if i can keep up with the rest cus i dont train like them. ran 11 rounds. never ever thought running is that torturous. omg. not sure if i'm in but i still hafta run every morning for now i think.

i feel so tired. really really exhausted. so sick of everything. feel like giving up sometimes. but i know i cant. she will be damn disappointed. hais.
i really need time to myself. never ever felt like that before.
i think i'm gonna fail my CTs. i need help desperately but i dont even have time for help.

went seoul garden with beni and rachel today. i didnt really eat a lot. some spastic SA guys were shouting, "cj girl, cj girl" then rachel said one of them wanted to throw a fishball at me. that's lame.

Monday, February 16, 2004 08:37 p.m.

oh i just remembered. my disgusting face appeared on the school year book. omg. when my classmates saw it they kept laughing at me. haha. thanks a lot!!!!!

hannah and i have a date. when we're 25, we'll meet up no matter what we're doing and wherever we are. we will go to hawaii!! and claire might be joining us too.
i have a date with beni when i'm 25 too. but we're going to new zealand!!!!!
claire and i and maybe hansen are going japan at the end of this year! hope i can go. ahahaha. i really wanta go japan! i wanta go skiing!!!!

Monday, February 16, 2004 07:58 p.m.

mr ang is really funny!! i was busy trying to unwrap my chocolate discreetly under my table, then i heard mr ang say, "the chocolate has melted already." i looked up and saw him staring at me. couldnt stop laughing. haha. thought it was DAMN funny.

went town with claire and terence after sch. we bought the 3.30 ticket and rushed to isetan at 3.20 cus i wanted to show claire the earrings i wanted.
i was contemplating which to buy. in the end claire bought them for me. it's my birthday present :) thank you!!!!!

cus we were kinda late. so we brisk walked all the way the lido. bet all the people think we're idiots. ahaha. it was damn funny. it's like we were having some competition.
the show's not bad. i think ben stiller is cute! and the show's really sweet :)

Sunday, February 15, 2004 05:16 p.m.

oh my. i've been online ever since 11 plus in the morning. i needa do my work soon.

suddenly so many pple comment on my looks today. hansen said i dress a little like a bimbo, aloy said i look damn taiwanese and jeremy said i look cartoon. haha.

Sunday, February 15, 2004 12:55 a.m.

my mum is paranoid!! when i brought home the bouquet of flowers hannah sarah and terence got for me for my birthday, she kept asking me who gave them to me.
and when i go swimming at night, she thinks i'm having a rendezvous with some guy.

friday
had lotsa fun during pe!! we played captain's ball. no more mass pe!!! yay :) i sprained my finger while fighting for the ball with jason liu though. haha.

my classmates are all so thoughtful. thank you everyone for the flowers, chocolates and notes. terence and bridgette got us a rose each. how sweet is that :)

saturday
had training in the morning.
met beni in town at 2 plus. wanted to watch along came polly but the queue at lido was freaking long!! so we decided to eat. ate at mos burger and we talked for damnnnnn long. had so much to tell each other.

we met rachel. we were all supposed to go eat at seoul garden but something happened. so beni and i went off on our own. met chevy, xiu, chrystle, yew teng and nicholas in town. whoa. and chrystle's my eyecandy. haha.

i bought 2 tops. beni said i'm a spendthrift. yes i know! haha. we walked around so much but i didnt even feel tired. oh and beni got me a flower. thank you!!!!! you're so sweet :)

wanted to have dinner at olio dome but they said there's no ala carte. weird. edo was damn crowded. so we went to pasta fresca in the end. only ate dinner at 9 plus!!

they were giving out roses at the restaurant. the couple beside us got one but they didnt give beni and i. so i was like saying that it's damn unfair and i want a flower too.
the woman beside us heard me and gave me her flower!!! she's so nice. i realised that i act like a spoilt brat somtimes. haha. gave the rose to beni. happy valentine's day :)

uploaded the photos. hwei ching, view them here.

Thursday, February 12, 2004 09:52 p.m.

thanks to wen, my blog is fixed. thank you!!!!!! you are damn good at this.

was gonna come online to type this:
"sometimes i really wonder if hansen is still alive."
and now he's online! how coincidental.
oh. and yingjie's my only friend. cus he said i always make friends with ugly people. haha.

tuesday
i would really like to thank my classmates. i love you all!!! they were like singing me my birthday song when i was playing basketball with hil terence ben sebast and jason liu. haha. they made me miss the ball.

aloysius came back for training! he's still the same. we went to eat haagen dazs after training. i love ice cream!!

wednesday
rachel came to cj to fetch me. i was supposed to rush to the bus stop right after school but i took my own sweet time. bought her a brownie to make up for it.
we watched gothika. rachel was sooo scared. i dont feel like a coward when i'm with her. she like almost cried?! ridiculous. ahaha.
we met seetoh and walked around a bit. did some real stupid stuff. hmmm. i wonder why we did it. but we had loads of fun :)

today
i think when my period is coming i kinda go crazy. had a stupid fight with ben. he kept throwing paper balls at me! so i hid his spray in his shoe. he still doesnt know. ahaha.
wanted to donate blood but they didnt let me cus i took med for sorethroat. didnt know it mattered.
training was fun today!! louise is DAMN gay. ahahaha. i rhyme! funny gay boy.br> havent studied for geog test. i guess ms lim will make me sweep the class for a week. hannah, pls volunteer ur services :)

dont feel like going for training on sat!! aahhhh. guess i can only meet u all later. or are u all gonna pangseh me? idiots. all idiots.

Monday, February 9, 2004 08:27 p.m.

cant fix my blog!!! maybe i shall just get a new template :(

had cjc cross country today. our efforts paid off :) we got 2nd for inter-class and 4th for inter-cca and i got 6th for individual. wow. all of the above were unexpected.
i drank like dont know how many thousand cups of milo. haha.

ate prata at thomson after that. almost our whole class went. i was sooo full from all the drinks.
hannah and sarah bought me a slice of cake to celebrate an early birthday. thanks a lot :) i'm really touched. ahaha.
didnt bring my bag home today. feels kinda weird. haha. gonna go swim!!!!!

Saturday, February 7, 2004 04:43 p.m.

i like this template :) but anyone knows how to get a scrollbar for my entries? if not the table will extend each time i add an entry.

had maths test this morning, then went shopping with hannah.
i asked my dad to get me the dolly girl perfume by anna sui, but he left the airport already!!
he'll be going overseas at the end of this month again. he said he'll get me the perfume then, and nailpolish too. haha. yay!!
damn. i sound bimbotic.

i am finally staying home for the weekend. shall take some time off to do other unfinished stuff.

i'm really amazed at how indifferent i am towards this matter. or should i say, i'm proud of myself :)