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Just a Short 1!
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<%%Time%%> [Date: Wednesday, 13 Decembre 2000]
[Time: 02:23am]
[Location: Marini's House] [Listening to: Got Til It's Gone]

Ahahaha... I'm in Marini's house, and no, I am not sleeping over... just wanted to see the new layout that Janey Darling did for me! Lovely, right?! I love it Janey Darling! Thanks!

I can't be here long! I talked to my best friend, Ayin just now... I think I haven't talked to her for over a month! Just one thing to say, Ayin, keep that thing protected okay! Seems like too many fingers has been there! ^_~ Kidding dear!!

I just noticed this, well, not just, but it reappeared in my mind again... Notice how everybody is born a hypocrite... I mean, one minute, somebody would say that they dislike this this this or they don't think that this way of doing things are not good, but when you look again, they are doing the same thing too... I dunno... Maybe it's just me... but I bet that if you notice things around you, most people are like this! Tell me what you think!

I didn't know that a finace company could have so many cute workers working there! I went to one of the local financing companies today, with my darling Sister today.. and I did notice that!hehe or is it just me being me again! LOL! ^_~

Really got to go now... Marini is gonna belanja me... !! WoOoHoOo!!!

anything
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<%%Time%%> [Date: Friday, December 8, 2000]
[Time: 12:26 am]
[Location : NetAccess cyber cafe]
[Listening to: noisy people playing CS]

I am again at a CC... courtesy of my brother. I dunno... without him, my life would be sooo internetless I suppose.. ^_^
Anyways.. this is what I was upto today:
1. Woke up
2. Gave sister a bath
3. Gave myself a bath
4. Went out and paid car-repairman bill
5. Paid bill for mum's patrol card.
6. Went back old home to check for mail... none waiting
7. Went back new home
8. Slept summore
9. Woke up, took another bath
10. Went to French Class (2nd one!)
11. Came back from French class, went and eat in Mamak
12. Went to old house to pick up some studd with mum and bro
13. Went to CC
and here I am! ^_^... honestly, I don't really know what to write about.. i am completely dry of ponderings, since all I do now is eat, sleep, and watch video with my sister. LoL... pretty brainless activities, for a very brainless holiday.

I am sooo excited... Janey Darling is gonna do a new layout for strblitz.pitas.com I know she'll do a good job on it. ^_^ YOU GO GIRL!

I dunno... all this noise with people playing CS makes me not able to think. I do have a few things I wanna say but all this noise makes me not able to think straight... NOTE TO SELF: try to think with maximum level of noise.

Puasa month is definitely good for me.. I met my friends (so-called) on friday last week i think.. no it was Saturday. They told me I have put on weight... They said my cheeks got chubbier, etc... I have been in a good happy condition, etc...I need to definitely loose weight before the new semester starts. I am a girl after all, which girl does not go thru all those things. Hmm... come to think of it, maybe it was because I was having my periods. People say and I have heard that you tend to look like you have put on weight during your periods... I dunno... I hope so.

I think I wanna go for an international movie tomorrow or something... Maybe I'll ask Ibu for some dosh... ^_^

BrB me thinks!

Another One While I Still Can
<%%Date%%>
<%%Time%%> [Date: Wednesday, December 6, 2000]
[Time:01:02am...Freaky!!! 1:2 am!!! ^_^]
[Location:NetAccess cyber cafe]
[Listening to: Some Dance Music cd the CC is playing... this cc definitely has class!!^_^ ]

Hi Again, people... I am in another cyber cafe now... also courtesy of my brother... I am in the MTV asia website, checking out the grafitti Wall... when I find a topic which caught my attention: One liners from movies... anyone lucky enough to get a personal email from me will also get to see some of my more favourite ones... But here, I include a verse from "10 Things I Hate About You
"

I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick --
It even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh --
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it that you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you --
Not even close, not even a little bit, not any at all.
--Kat Startford

I just love tht whole verse, and how she cried when she was reciting it... it was nice... and this movie gave me some fond memories of that time.

Has anyone watched "Charlie's Angels"? Is it just me, or am I the only one who thinks that it just shows that Asian are the one who always does the hard work. To me, the movie potrays Drew Barrymore as the sweet talker, all Cameron Diaz does is flashing off her almost non-existant boobs... while the asian, Lucy Liu, does all the repairing, fighting, and also thinking and basically everything else in the movie. Although it also potrays that Asians are smart and very capable, it also shows that they are the one that are lower than Caucasians... which is not fair. What do you think?

We went out to celebrate Chris's birthday today. It was Grace, Qahar, Trisha, Yusman and myself. We met up in Yusman's college and went to Chris's house from there. We went to 7-eleven first though, to stop and buy somemore condoms and sweets to put it on, and from Yusman's idea, we decided to put in a Pregnancy Test in there as well, which is, in a bit, irony. When we got to his house, with a jarful 60 bux worth of condoms, we found that his whole family and himself is not around. We got Grace to call him and to check where he was. Well, turned out that he and his whole family went out for dinner, but were gonna arrive home in about 10 minutes! So when he came back, we sort of hid behind the emergency exit door, to make it a surprise. But he actually found out coz he smelt Yusman's smell and he saw the emergency exit door opening slightly, coutesy of Grace. So it wasn't much of a surprise after all...Oh yeah... for those of you who don't know, we gave him a jar filled with condoms, and also a pair of 'Lebanese' fish.

I still have not changed my mind about getting married in ITALY! ^_^ I pity my future husband!

I'm going now... bye!

House Moved
<%%Date%%>
<%%Time%%> [Date: December 5, 2000, Tuesday]
[Time:11:52pm]
[Location: Netview Cyber Cafe]
[Listening to: Some chinese lady music the cc is playing]

Hi guys! Finally, some salvation into cyberspace... I am in a cyber cafe, courtesy of my brother.. We have no internet access whatsoever for the next two months definitely...or until the house renovation is finally finished. They haven't done anything to the house yet, I went there just now. It still looks like home. I still didn't ask Babah about the stuff yet though, because I figured that it was still a long time more, and I could ask him over Raya or summat.

Janey Darling I am sorry I am not here for your birthday on the 4th... Hope you had a good one!

The new house is okay I guess... At least I got a new room... all to myself, with a single bed, which me and my sister snuggle in to together when she can't sleep, or when Ibu is not around. I think I am definitely getting closer to my sister throughout my holidays... which is good... I Love My Sister!

I went for my first French Class yesterday... it was sooo goood!!!Hehehe and my french teacher, Patrick was his name... called me the translator in class, which was cool! Guess I was a bit excited in class though...heheheh ^_^

Erks... gtg... the CC is closing... BYE!!!

Thankful
<%%Date%%>
<%%Time%%> [Date: Sunday, December 3, 2000]
[Time: 4:10 am]
[Location:Home<-- in the verge of moving though]
[Listening to: Man Utd game review]

"This above all; to thine own self be true."
-William Shakespeare

I haven't written for so long, and I have so much to write! But I have to tell all of yous out there that bothers to come and read occasionally, that I will be moving out of the house, to a new house for a month or so, and over there, it seems, as my brother told me, that we won't be having a telephone line... Arghh!!! A month, or possibly more, without the phone?! I'll be soooo dead! Okay, the point is, that there will be no updates on this site, obviously, unless I get my friends to help me out and let me use their comps and phone lines! ^_^

Okay, so anyway... you know, the final show for 'The Dumb Waiter' was on Friday. It is always the case... when the show is on, you're bloody sick of everything and anything that has to do with it. But then, when the show does actually end, you don't want it to end and you'll start missing every bloody body. Well, working with Gracie, Kennedy, Radhi, Pek Fui and Lim has been quite and experience, both in a good and bad way. Well, with everything we have been through, and me being in the middle of everything, it wasn't a wonderful thing. I hate being caught in the middle of things.

But you know what, being caught in the middle of this situation makes you know yourself better, and also the people around you better... Fuad and I were having a talk abt how I like to observe people and how frustrating it is that it is easier to detect the bad side of a person, compared to the person's good side? What do you think?

Misinterpretation can be another terrible thing... you know, when you hear somebody, you think you perfectly understand and when they come back to you on the same question, you find out that what you did was wrong, because you misinterpreted the instructions wrongly?! Things like this do happen. Well, the thing is, most of us take things for granted too much. You know, sometimes one tend to forget that not everybody thinks the way they do. Which reminds me one exercise that Ms. Vinitha gave us. We had to write a set of instruction on how to tell people how to tie their shoes. With the instruction, another person would have to carry it out, without having any prejudiced assumptions. It was difficult! You should try it... everyday life is easy for us, because that is how we live our everyday life. Try living somebody else's everyday life...

You know, it is difficult to forget the person you loved, even when you don't love that person anymore. I dunno why, but when I saw the person that I loved whole-heartedly, and who broke my heart, even though I have no feelings towards him anymore (trust me on this, Ayin), I did feel a tinge of hurt and my heart ripping more and more, everytime he interacts with (certain people should know) you-know-who. I dunno why... I would give anything to not feel like that anymore... Feelings can be a very weakening thing and I don't like it. =~o| But I am getting along fine with my life, without him in it.

Before I forget: Ayin Thanx sooo much for all the times that you've been there for me, even during that not-so-brilliant part of my life, even then you stood by my every need. I know, I am not the best of friend you could ask for, but you are to me! I definitely do not want to lose you as my friend.. ever! You've done so much for me, more than I can ever imagine a friend would do for anyother friend. THANK YOU!

Erm... today, went for rehearsals, then Sunway Pyramid to celebrate Amin's birthday! Best be going now... got notes for some people...

Marini Thanks for finding me tht four-poster bed... I'm gonna ask mum and dad in the morning yah!

Ayin, u know wht? Your 'Boy-Boy' has never stopped asking me how you are, whether you sent any news, etc... I kesian him... so innocent! *sinister smile*

16:21-ers GOOD LUCK for tomorrow's show!

To everybody else come to watch 1st Sunday Nites! Fun! Fun! Fun!

Tomorrow nite: PARTY!!!

BYE!

Name Meaning!
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Just a short note...I found this at Kabalarians. It's the meaning of my name!! ^_^

Nurul
The name of Nurul creates a restless, creative nature that takes you into many ventures, but does not allow you to see things through to a satisfactory completion. Yours is a versatile, musical, artistic, but independent nature and you must have the freedom to express your creative ideas and abilities to be happy. An urge for independence causes dissatisfaction and frustration in close relationships and you find the "ties that bind" restricting. The qualities of this name would find a more constructive outlet in work that involves high-pressure selling or promotional activities, possibly in community affairs, for it contains a positive, driving power. It is difficult for you to merge with others; although you have quickness of mind, you lack tolerance and can give way to impatience at another's slowness or shortcomings. If you cannot complete your plans when you wish to do so, you could suffer intense moods of depression and extreme sensitivity in the region of the solar plexus, resulting possibly in ulcers or nervous disorders. This name could take you into bitter experiences through impulsive action. You need more stability to find peace of mind, relaxation and happiness in life.

I couldn't find "Syatirah" though! But then again, something of the similar sound,

Shatierra
Your first name of Shatierra has given you inspirational, idealistic, and dramatic qualities. You have a clever, deep mind and the talent to excel in highly inspirational lines of endeavour as a dramatist, musician, writer, or artist. You can be lifted by beauty in all forms and are at your most creative when inspired. Your expressive, affectionate nature responds quickly through your feelings, but you must guard against being possessive and jealous. Your delight in mystery and your sensitivity to things you do not understand could draw you into occult studies or religions. Unfortunately, it is difficult for you to retain emotional stability, for you can easily swing into moods of depression and self-pity. Your quick temper can flare up suddenly and be over as suddenly, leaving you very sorry for any suffering you have caused. Inner turbulence can deplete your vitality and cause heart, lung, or bronchial trouble, as well as nervous disabilities.

I dunno... I guess some of it is correct! ^_^ Get yours and tell me what your name means!

Excited
<%%Date%%>
<%%Time%%> [Date: Friday, December 1, 2000]
[Time: 09:30am]
[Location: Home, Subang Jaya]
[Listening to: Samantha Mumba's Gotta Tell You]
I am soooo into this song now!!!

"Any activity becomes creative when the doer cares about doing it right, or doing it better."
-John Updike

I am so excited because last night, before I went on to bed, I was thinking of what I was gonna put in my new bedroom, after the house was renovated... I love what I did! Now only if I can get my dad to fund it... I incorporated a lot of tier using, a really kewl bed-cum-sofa (and it is not a sofabed!)... and I wanna get some beanbags... bla bla bla... But then again, I might have to change some things as I don't kow the actual length of my new bedroom...

I have to drag Babah to Ikea! My parents have this thing about not going in to Ikea because they think it is expensive... Okay, honesyly, it is quite expensive, but only with the big stuff like cupboards, beds, bla bla bla... The smaller stuff like lights and shelves are quite reasonable methinks! ^_^

Note:
Albums I wanna get
1. Westlife - Coast to Coast
2. Blur - Greatest Hits
3. The Beatles - 1
4. Paula Abdul - Greatest Hits

Honestly, I dunno what else to write, so I'm just leaving notes for everyone...

Janey I can't see the farm! Not fair!!! ^_^

Dayang I thought u looked good... and you met me with Kohini and Fiona, thanks for remembering... *sheesh*

Dush I was wondering whether you are coming to Actor's Studio box for a 16:21 show this Sunday?

Marini... call me!

SHAMEless Self-Promotion: Hey people who are living in and around KL. Do come for 1st Sunday with the Rep16:21 ensamble!

Okay i think I'll go now coz I am totally lost for ideas!

Bubbly Bubbye!

Italy
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<%%Time%%> [Date: Thursday, November 30, 2000]
[Time: 06:33pm]
[Location: Home]
[Listening to: Channel [V] downstairs]

" Traveling is the ruin of all happiness! There's no looking at a building after seeing Italy. "
-Fanny Burney

I was just watching Bon Jovi's "Thank You for Loving Me" video! I am soooo falling in love with Italy again... I have had this affair with it ever since I watched 'Only You' (with Marisa Tomei and Robert Downey Junior) and I fell in love! I vowed that I'll go there for my hunnymoon with my future hubby... I thought that that place was sooo romantic! In Rome, and even in the inner less explored parts! Watching it in the Bon Jovi video makes me want to have my wedding there! ^_^ I'm going nuts with Italy now...

Hey... maybe I can go and take a year off in Italy before I go to Australia for my tertiery education! But then again, I'm only going in the second year, that is, even if my dad lets me. I doubt that they'd let me go for a year off... maybe I can go after I finish, before I start work. Hmmm... maybe...

Hehehe... I'm off to get a bath and go to Actor's Studio box! One more show to go... then I am home free!! ^_^

Bye bye people... and Fuad I'll try to get the shows for you okay, no promises though!

<%%Date%%>
<%%Time%%> [Date: Thursday, 30 November 2000]
[Time 10:45am]
[Location:Home]
[Listening to: Accompanying music to my FLASH BOYFRIEND
*MAX is sooo gorge! Why must he be virtual!?!?*

I've been trying to 'Adopt-A' Faery for my site... but I dunno why, I am not able to see the picture on my log... Janey can you help me out here?

Today is the day of my Mass Comm paper... I'm sooo dead meat! I can't remember anything that I have read for the past three days!!! Argh!! don't you just hate that when it happens! I have to read my notebook... but I'll finish writing this entry first ya!

I am so worried about my mass comm paper... I don't know why... I am much more worried about this paper, more than any other papers! I wasn't worried about English on Monday, and I haven't even touched my book for Computing tomorrow! It is sooo wierd... Well, I didn't do quite as well for Mass Comm in the midterms, which explains one of the reasons why I am worried!Oh well... an exam is an exam right?!

Yesterday, Marini and I went to Concorde in Shah Alam to claim her lunch buffet. Went there, and then the waitress told us that it was for Tunch, and tunch was only available on weekends... I thought it was kinda funny, coz firstly, I have never heard of the word tunch until before I started working on a production there.. I mean, why can't they just use the word "Hi-Tea" like every other hotel?? Just trying to be unique I guess... *sheesh*

The day before yesterday, Marini and I went to One Utama, and checked out Tower Records... ARGH!!!!! How I dreaded! I saw, like, loads of CDs that I wanted to get my hands on... like the "Blur: the Greatest Hits" album or the The Beatles 1. I've loved Blur since like forever, and Hullo?!?! who doesn't like The Beatles?!?!

Sorry Nadh I know you want the note book... sorry I couldn't meet you. I only got my car at 7:45pm yesterday! ^_^

Okay... better vamoozzz now... Wanna make some changes to the layout, and study!!! Good luck to everyone else who are also having their exams!!

Soulmates
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<%%Time%%> [Date: Wednesday, November 29,2000]
[Time: 09:50am]
[Location: Home, Subang Jaya]
[Listening to: Shackles (Praise you) - Mary Mary

" A soulmate is someone who has a lock that fit our keys, and keys to fit our locks. When we feel safe enough to open the locks, our truest selves step out, and we can be completely and honestly who we are; we can be loved for who we are and not who we're pretending to be. Each unveils the best part of the other. No matter what else goes wrong around us, with that one person, we're safe in our own paradise. Our soulmate is someone who shares our deepest longings, our sense of direction. Our soulmate is the one who makes life come to life."
- Richard Bach "The Bridge Across Forever"

I think I have totally freaked out. You know, a few weeks back, I was thinking to myself, 'What if my soulmate is GAY?!?!'I guess I always have that fear.. I mean, in the day and age where homosexualism is nothing new, I have instilled that fear in me, that my soulmate might just turn out to be not straight, before even meeting me... ARGH!! So, what if this is true...?

You know, some people do not percieve soulmates as the person they are destined to love, and spend the rest of their life with. I don't know, that my perception of soulmate. Arnaz, was there when I asked him the stupid question on "What if my soulmate is Gay?!?!", said, "So what if your soulmate is gay? Why not?". You see, his perception of a soulmate is, a person who shares your idea and thoughts, think the same way you do, all that sort of thing. It doesn't necessarily have to be of the opposite sex. A soulmate to him, is a friend, a very good friend at that matter.

I found this website that discusses the best soulmates on screen... which I though was funny. But even then, I think the definition they gave on what soulmates are are quite accurate to what I thought.

I honestly have never thought of that kind of soulmate... so that opened up a new way of thinking. What about you?? What do you think soulmates are?

Anyway, you know, the transsexuals that were having a show/workshop in the Actor's Studio theatre? They are very nice people. It is sad though, how they are discriminated in the working world. Lew told me that these people are mostly hired to be receptionists or secretaries at a NGO company. Government offices won't acknowledge them, and NGOs only hire them because they are polite and hardworking. Poor them...

Some people have no sense of respecting other's things... you know... like you lend them something of yours, and they just take advantage of not taking care of it properly, and you end up having trash when they return it to you... *sheesh*

Okaylaaa... I better go and get me a shower now... I need to send the car for servicing... ^_^

Bye!!