Wah... I am sooo sleepy lah... but I have to use the advantage of my brother not being around, and I can enjoy using the computer without having him breathing down my neck every 5 minutes... heheheh....
So anyway, I was at the Front-Of-House for No Exit just now, so I get to meet the people who will be watching the show. Tonight, was quite a good crowd, Joe Hasham and Faridah Merican, Ben Lee, and wah... for the first time ever I met James Lee. He's was Botak and Gorgeous!!! Trish and me were both going Ga-ga about him, not over him... hehehe wah.... the body *gasp*.. the motorbike helmet *gasp*... the botak head *gasp*...*continues to giggle mindlessly*
Ahem! *gets back grip* SO anyway... tonite's show was definitely a show of 'slips' for both the shows... a lot of lines were missed for both shows, some slips with the props, and technical stuff. When you think back on it... it is sooo funny... hehehe
Oy, you know, those so-called friends of mine? Well, okay, I guess it is my fault that I am so busy... but hello?!?! Can I help it that I am actually doing something that I am really into, and with no support from them whatsoever?? *Sheesh* Okay then, I called one of them up, because I really can't make it to a birthday celebration that we were supposed to do, on the 2nd of December, which is like one more week to go. I mean, at first, I was the one who put the date on it. SO I guess I am guilty, but then, I got myself to thinking, coz Chris was saying that he wants a full two-day rehearsal with the 16:21 ensamble before the show for "First Sunday Nite with...", which the only day people are free are on the weekends. So, just in case it is on that Saturday nite, I better cancel my plans. And then, on Monday, I have my first French class, which I have been waiting for for over 5 years, so no chance of my cancelling that either. Even, with a weeks notice, the person is grumbling on and on about how busy I am and how everybody is fitting their 'oh-so-busy' schedule to my schedule... Well hello, I didn't ask you to wait for me... you can go ahead with the party if you want to... I don't mind, if it is such a big fuss.. some ppl...*sheesh*
I am definitely looking forward to my French class. I can't wait to start! I can't wait to SM "First Sunday Nite with...". There's a girl I made friends with, Kirsty, she's from the UK, so she'll be our opening act. I'd like to see what her act is like... very nice girl.
Hehehe... I think Janey just made me realise what my favourite word is... it is... Hello?!?!?! with the question marx and exclamation marx! Innit true Janey? And erm hello?!?! To all my other darling farm residents! What happened to all the logs?! Why suddenly all dead one?! Ceh... Before I forget, anyone of you have an idea on what to right about for a script about anything? I feel like writing about something, but I have no idea on what to write about... heheh silly billy me! *_*
I NEED FOOD!
I'm thinking of putting my background with a black and white spot cow skin type background. Anybody has it?
I wanted to write something serious in this entry, but I can't seem to remember what it was, so nevermind... LoL... Absent-minded me! LoL...
Better go lah.. Search for food!! @.@
Object of Lust & Desire
[Day: Saturday, November 25, 2000]
[Time: 11:26 a.m.]
[Location: Home]
[Listening to: Samantha Mumba's Gotta Tell You]
[Emotion:Serene]
Hiya guys... I haven't much to say, but I just got to let this out, especially for the benefit of my best friends, Ayin & Marini. Hehehe.... you guys... I just saw MY object of lust and desire. I can't help it, okay, he's so utterly gorgeous, and I am sooo head over heels mad for him! ^_^ I have not seen him for over two weeks already! Okay, if two weeks makes me turn out like this, what will three months do?! WOE IS ME.. *sob sob* Ayin, you know what Meera said to me? Okay, Jasmine saw this to justify. It seems that he only has three fingers on his left hand. That's wht he always puts his hands in his pocket... but, hey, he's cute, just the same... And also, it seemed, that his girlfriend is a squash player for Negri 9... not fair!!! *sob sob*
Oh yeah, before I forget, the term "Object of Lust and Desire" was first used, in my presence by Marini
Also, Ayin Did I tell you that Racheal (yes, it's spelt like tht all u other people.) Sarah Kwok is in Lew's class of Musical Theatre... she's ooo chubby now... hehehe.. I'm bad! ^_^
Back to the rest of the world...there's this show/workshop, that is going on at the Actor's Studio Theatre... interestingly enough, it is sponsored by a the Pink Triangle, and it is about Transsexuals who are sex workers... it is very interesting, because if you were to see the show, you'd know that all about the risk they have of HIV/Aids, how to use precausions, their life as a person, bla bla bla... The best thing is, I get to meet these type of people, because they do the front-of-house for these shows. It's a surprise to see how very woman-like these people are. They are quite nice I suppose.
Finally, I wanna say a huge THANX to my dear JANEY for helping me out with the layout of the log!! Thanx sooooo much JANEY! I definitely can't do it without you!!
Okaylaaa... I wanna go and do some changes for the log... bubbye! see y alater alligators!
^_^
Passed One!
[Date: Saturday November 25, 2000]
[Time:01:33am]
[Location: home still, Subang Jaya]
[listening to: Pokèmon video my sister is watching]
[Emotion: Tired]
Well I dunno... today is the last day of the normal one day show, and starting tomorrow, it will be a double show all week, til Friday. I am so dead. I think I would be so tired, with exams and all, also going next week. I would definitely be even more exausted than ever, next week.
Today, when I went for class, I was the first to arrive. I thought to myself 'Oh no! I am so dead if the rest is not coming today!'... Y'see, I don't quite like the lecturer. She doesn't seem to like my class either. She always compares us to the batch before ours. I hate that. Although, I did like her class at first, she didn't give us enough chances to prove ourselves, so it is not fair. Before I forget, Jasmine thanx so much again for printing out the report for the trip to NTV7 at such short notice! I think I'll call her tomorrow to see whether she needs any help on writing a 'write-up' for the notice board about our trip.
Nadh, Thanx for letting me lend the notes, but I need my notes to study for the exams on Thursday, so I'll give you my notes, but I need it back on the same day ya?
Mum told me to start packing my stuff, as we might move anytime this weekend, or somewhere early next week. I DON'T WANNA MOVE! Oh well, it is only for a month and a half, just to let the renovation to the house to be done. Anyway, I don't really need to bring alot of stuff because things are only gonna be moved back, which will be a big hassle. So, I'll just bring my clothes, and some of my books I think. Not that I need books. Some other valuable stuff lah.
Anyway, she told me that I will have the house tomorrow because my mum is bringing my brother and sister to Genting Highlands tomorrow for some magic show and family day. I can't follow, although I do want to, because of my commitment to the theatre show. Dang! I haven't been to Genting in a loooooong time! ^_^
You know, I've noticed from observing some of my friends that they react very funnily to homosexuality. Well, considering a lot of my other friends or shall I say the people I hang out with, are as they say, gay, my friends tend to make a huge fuss about it, if they found out about it, although, thank goodness, not in front of them themselves. I don't know what the fuss is about, I mean, they are just like other people, only that they prefer different partners. So what? Does that fact change a person? I think not! I guess it is mainly because of the underexposure. But one does not have to make or treat them like Aliens! So please people... don't make it a big fuss, or treat them any different than how you'd treat another person.
I have the weirdest dream when I sleep in the afternoon. I don't know why, but this afternoon, when I napped, I dreamt of my ex-boyfriend, not that I want to! Don't worry Ayin, I haven't fallen in love with him all over again... and yes I am soooo totally over him, so no worries! But I don't know why, in that dream, I seemed like the jealous lover again, because I somehow called him up, only for another girl (I think some of yous might know who I am talking about specifically) and I was pissed because of that. Funny how when you dream that you are upset, you tend to be upset or mad or angry too, when you wake up?! I don't know whether it happens to you, but it happens to me. I was quite moody, but after a while, after I got through the traffic jam, I was fine, thankfully.
We have 2 extra pieces for the 'Sunday Nites' show, which is better than just having one extra piece for this Sunday. Which is excellent. Chris said that he'd be choosing which one would go on for the "First Sunday Nite with..." that will be held on the 3rd of December, as it is a pay-view show. So the two new pieces are written by Grace and Yusman which are also both monologues. Unfortunately Janey
you didn't get to view this two pieces because they are just finished this week. Soweeeeee ^_^
Yusman went to Indonesia this evening. He called me before he left. Reminded me to make sure everything goes in order, make the cast go for warm-ups before the show, and ask everybody to come early for Sunday. Very nice of him... ^_^
Okay... I can harly keep my eyes open now... I think I better log off... Byebye!!!
Being Traditional
[Date:Friday, November 24, 2000]
[Time:06:58am]
[Location: Still at home]
[Listening to: Birds chirping outside]
[Emotion:Blur (just woke up!!)]
I was watching Yusman's performance after I went for No Exit. The one that he and the rest of his people in his college will present at some dance school in Padang, Indonesia. You know, traditional dances are beautiful. It takes a lot of effort, coz you have to look very flexible, and gentle too, which is quite difficult, methinks. But when you see it all come together, it is so beautiful. I am thankful for one thing, living here, is lovely! You can see all the different races come together and live harmoniously and develope many different cultures and traditions which are wonderful!
No Exit was great, mind you. Although it is a short play, but it is quite deep. I guess one has to really pay attention to really get the essence of the whole story. It is quite a "tension" storyline, but interesting all together.
I hope my dad can get me a new computer soon. I can't wait not sharing the computer with my brother. He's always in the way of when I want to use the computer, even for work. He is so uncomprimisable. He only wants it his own way. Guess he got it from being an only male child in the family. Selfish.
We will be moving house, to a smaller one nearby, at the end of the week. We have to move in order for the renovation to take place. You see, ibu and babah wants to make the house bigger, add more rooms to the house, bla bla bla... as we are all getting older, and the house capacity is getting larger, with my aunt staying with us and all. I dunno, I don't like the idea of moving to a house with only 2 bludy rooms, when our house is already originally have 4 rooms! Just imagine that.
I am actually just killing time, coz I will only start to get ready for college (for one bludy one hour class!!!!!!) at about 8:15am. My eyes are killing me, they are still quite sleepy, but I will come back and continue to sleep! ^_^ The advantages of staying at home. Hmm... actually, considering the time I was staying in a dorm at college, the same thing actually happens! I sleep all the time! LoL, well, I am not that bad. Living in a dorm is definitely an experience everybody should have. I mean, you get to see what people are really like, and see their characters really deeply, not just the faÇade that people put on when you get to know them. So, understandably, one will find the level of which they could handle another person quite well. It's always either you fall out completely, or get really close to another person. It all depends I guess. Overall, I'd say that it takes a lot of patience and tolerance.
Hehehe.. I just read Dayang Quacky's log!! DAYANG!!! You quackhead!! How can u lose my number!!!! ^_^ Hehehe... it's just great seeing everybody getting back in touch with each other for so long! FYI, I am in KDU (wow, isn't that giving a lot up! I hope my stalkers won't find this page! LoL, hehehe.. Like, if I even have any stalkers!) Ey... so, how come u never write ah?? Who's the boyfriend?? Intro! Intro!!(trying to remember) Where are you studying? Hmmm.. silly billy me. And what mood thing?!?!
Jen dear, I love your 'ickle neopet.. It's soooo cute!! I love the layout of the log too... very kewl! *Standing ovation and a huge round of applause* I don't have to tell you that the log itself is great, coz Jane has already told you that and I don't want you to get big-headed! =oÞ
Nah, just kidding!!! ^_^
Janey, I think Dayang is right. You just gave all of us a new toy to play with and I, for one, is definitely going nuts with this log! Hello, if you haven't noticed, I've logged three times today! LoL! ^_^. No, honestly Jane I love you just the same... hehehe...
I wonder what's happening to our resident werewolf, Cammy. Guilty! I still have your book! *bad girl! bad girl!*
Yes, yes, I'll go now! But haven't heard the last of me yet! Muahahahahaha...
Zodiacs
[Date: Thursday, November 23,2000]
[Time: 0:55pm]
[Location: home, Subang Jaya] <-- this is getting to be boring innit?
[Listening to: Crazy for this Girl : Evan & Jaron]
[Emotion: Satisfied]
I have no life... hehehe I just came on this morning to fill in an entry, and here I am again.. I'll prolly be on again later, but then again, what the heck.. ^_^
You know, I was reading this email that I was sent from my friend Sue which was saying stuff about Personality according to month. Here's what they say about people born in July:
Ø JULY Ø
Ø Fun to be with *
Ø Secretive *
Ø Difficult to fathom and to be understood *
Ø Quiet unless excited or tensed *
Ø Takes pride in oneself *
Ø Has reputation
Ø Easily consoled *
Ø Honest *
Ø Concern about people's feelings *
Ø Tactful
Ø Friendly *
Ø Approachable *
Ø Very emotional *
Ø Temperamental and unpredictable *
Ø Moody and easily hurt *
Ø Witty and sarky
Ø Sentimental *
Ø Not revengeful *
Ø Forgiving but never forgets *
Ø Dislike nonsensical and unnecessary things *
Ø Guides others physically and mentally
Ø Sensitive and forms impressions carefully *
Ø Caring and loving *
Ø Treats others equally *
Ø Strong sense of sympathy *
Ø Wary and sharp * (more wary than sharp though! ^_^)
Ø Judge people through observations *
Ø Hardworking *
Ø No difficulties in studying
Ø Loves to be alone *
Ø Always broods about the past and the old friends *
Ø Likes to be quiet *
Ø Homely person *
Ø Waits for friends *
Ø Never looks for friends
Ø Not aggressive unless provoked *
Ø Prone to having stomach and dieting problems *****
Ø Loves to be loved *
Ø Easily hurt but takes long to recover ****
Ø Overly concerned *
Ø Puts in effort in work *
Okay, the ones that I agree with are the ones with the astrix (*) marks. That's what I think anyway, other people who know me can make their own judgements.
You know, I miss having kisses and cuddles from people that I love and love me back. Well spesifically, of the male species. I was driving to Sunway Pyramid today, and there was this couple behind my car, boyfriend was driving. As the traffic light is red, the car stopped, right behind of mine. So the girlfriend started to look at the rear-view mirror, reapplying make-up, and boyfriend started to give girlfriend little kisses on her neck. *cringe cringe* They were so sweet, they made me wanna puke. I know... jealousy is terrible... There's also another couple in my college which I think is sweet. They make the cutest couple. They guy, is sooo cute, looks a bit japanesey, while the girl, is no-doubt gorgeous. They both look alike, dyed shoulder length hair (both of them used to have long dyed hair, they cut it recently) and are almost always colour co-ordinated. She in a skirt and he in trousers, off course. Oh yes, jealousy is terrible...
It just brinked on me, that now, most of the time I go out alone. See my point? Even there, in that personality thingy says that I like to be alone. But come to think of it, being alone is always better than being with a lot of people and end up being dissapointed and crushed, right? At least, being alone, you only have yourself to deal with.
I went to college today, and *surprise surprise* there were no class today. There were only Jasmine, Kosila, Chee Seng and myself in class today. Later, we found out from Ms. Zachariah, our Academic English Lecturer that there was supposed to be no class today. She told 2 people (Shobana & Jahudhan) to pass the message on. Obviously the four of us didn't get the message. *Sheesh*
I am pleased for one thing though. The pants I bought in MNG for Raya fit me sooo well!! So I like it very much! ^_^ It's wierd though, coz it looks like the tartan pants that old men wear when they go golfing! But hey, who cares!
Okay... I'm gonna start doing my post mortem report on the visit to NTV 7!
Oh yeah, no question of the day for this entry!
Defining the Rules
[Date: Thursday, November 23, 2000]
[Time: 06:24am]
[Location:home, Subang Jaya]
[Listening to: my brain thinking]
[Emotion:half asleep]
What's the deal with censorship anyway?!
Okay, okay... maybe I am getting a little intense with the whole thing. Hey, it's the research assignment I am doing. Yeah, we have to do stuff tht defines censorship, who makes the rules, is it good, bla, bla, bla...
WHAT DO YOU THINK?
You should see all the findings... The internet definitely makes life easier! I mean, it is not easy browsing through magazines, or newspapers, to find a spesific topic that you want and actually finding it. Okay... I am starting to ramble. I'll stop.
You know, I had the wierdest dream today... Okay, in short, it involves Chris & Lew . I think in the dream, it all unfolds that they were actually just acting to be nice to me all this while, and so towards the end of the dream, Lew offered me a cheque worth more than 5000 bux, to compensate all the work I have done for them. I dunno whether to be pleased with this (I mean, hullo! It's 5000 bux!) or not. I dunno, for me, I think this dream is a definite sign that I am afriad of being betrayed. Anybody know what how to interpret a dream? Then mail me!
Okay, honestly, the answer to yesterday's question, is NO, I didn't go to Mass Comm class today. ^_^
And yes, I did go to Mid Valley with my so-called friends, and as expected, by me, they were about an hour late. AND thank you very much, blamed it mostly on me, coz I told them I had class, and will only arrive at about 2:30pm. I reached there at 2:15pm, and they reached there at about 3:30. Well, excuse me for being punctual! And this is not the first time that they are late either. These people are known for their lateness... I mean, one should respect others time, and not be late right? People might have other important things to attend to, and run on a tight schedule, so one should respect that.
Let's just drop the topic... makes me depressed just thinking of them. I don't know... I prefer not to call them friends anymore. They are not like the friends I usually keep, and friends are supposed to make you happy most of the time, not the other way around! Right? But then again, you just don't drop friends just like that. Ah! I don't know.
Okay... I'm strating to steer off from looking for articles, so I better keep in focus! I think I have a problem focusing, like just now, during dumb waiter. There's this part, where I have to pull the chain, and blow the whistle at the same time, but somehow or another, the whistle was in my mouth, but I just didn't blow it, until a bit at the end. Talk about losing focus... That was silly wasn't it?
Marini called me today, left a message rather. I'm worried about her. She has been having all this aches all over her body, I mean, it come and goes. So, she left a message for me and asked me to follow her to the hosiptal tomorrow, to do some x-rays... it seems that she has not gotten out of bed for a day or so. I am worried.
Ayin as I said in the email, I did receive your letter yesterday. I know, I haven't been a good friend.. I have not the time, as you should understand how my brother is, and I can't really stay up and wait for him to finish, at about 3am?! I promise to write more during the holidays okay?! I'll try to write write, and not just emails! ^_^ Soweeeee!!!
Thanx Janeyfor teaching me some HTML... very useful notes!Thanxxx sooooo muchhh!!!! And Yil, the popex ppl just mailed me to ask me to tell you to start trading! LoL ...
Okay people... I'm gonna continue with my sleeping now. I think I have more than enough articles for Fuad to print out and enough for Christina to decipher!
Bye bye people! My sister is waking up!
Question of the Day: Is censorship really necessary?
Stratagem of a Persona Grata
[Date: Tuesday, November 21, 2000]
[Time: 08:46]
[Location: home, Subang Jaya]
[Music:Cold Play - Trouble]
[Emotion: Smug]
IMPORTANT NOTE BEFORE WE START: come and watch SUNDAY NITES with Rep16:21 for free this Sunday! Give your comments! Starts at: 8:30pm
Okay...
Since we are gonna do a reunion for the BZ farm, the rooster-piggy is trying to keep up with the advancement of the internet (and the other farm animals & owner*wink wink*) with trying to keep a log online. Let's see how long this will last.
Okay, currently... I am not doing anything, other than logging in this log... LoL... nah, just kidding. I'll be having my bludy exam - mid-term finals. Honestly, I have nothing on my head that could help me pass any of the papers (except English maybe) but then again... heheh we'll just wait and see.
Damn, we need to move house in order for the renovation to take place, and we need to get out by the end of this week! Damn!
Interestingly enough, I should be doing something for the theatre show (For those of you who don't know, I'm ASM doubling also as the Dumb Waiter for the Dumb Waiter). I have to paint the newspaper white... can u believe it? Stupid thing, I know, but somebody has to do it.
Went to NTV7, a telly station, today to be on the set of the so-called popular TV show "Who Wants To Be A Millionaire". It was fun I guess... we got to see the newsroom, the editing room, et. al, and had to sit through the set for almost 2 hours. The even had an 'entertainer' to come and entertain us before the show and during the interval. Unfortunately, it was a guy dressed up in a nurse's outfit with huge balloon fake boobs. Otherswise, I'd have to say it was a really good experience. Nadh, it's a pity that you couldn't be there... it would've been more fun with you around!
Note for self: Remember to go and try for internship at NTV7 during 3 months holiday.
I am so happy coz finally I am confirmed to start beginners French in December. Hopefully, I can string proper sentences by the end of the 6 weeks.
Assignments assignments assignments. Thanx Fuad for making my life easier. You know where to call when you need the help! ^_^
Jasmine Thanx for following me around doing the errands, and helping me print out the bludy proposals.
Oh yeah, had a reunion some of the other farmies (Jane, Jen, Mabby & Yil). Where are you Shar?? And the others?!?!
Hence the decision of making anew with the old webbie, but this time with new ideas, and also our logs! ^_^
My so-called friends, called today, or should I say, I called them back. not my most favourite people, but for old times sake. We're going to get one of them presents. I guess I don't really mind them, if they didn't 'use' me ever so often. You understand. You know the feeling.
'Nuff said.
I'll end here, and get me a shower... I'll try to write more soon.
Question of the Day: Should I or Should I Not Go For Mass Comm Class Tomorrow?
Hipocrits
Date: Monday November 27,2000]
[Time:5:10pm]
[Location: Home, Subang Jaya]
[Listening to: nothing inparticular...]
Hello people... I dunno what happened in the last page.. sad laahhh.... nvm...
Anyway, you know what...? I just finished one paper... I got two more to go. Ms. Vinitha said that we all (in the class) has passed her subject. Well lucky for us all... coz Jas and Nadh is under condition, so they have to pass all the subjects in order to get throught the next semester. Thank goodness, I just have to pass the two core subjects, Academic English and Communication Studies (considering all the three of us are in FUS Communication)
Janey, I so totally understand abt that type of people that are so nice in front of you when they want something out of you, and behind you, they go and say all kinds of bad stuff. I hate that! And don't you just hate the type of people who seems like they're giving you so many options to one solution, but when you think again, all the options that they give will only benefit them. So in the end, they are actually trapping them to what they want in the end and not really a good solution for all parties.... That is sooo sad innit?? *sheesh*
anyways... yesterday was the final show for "Sunday Nites with Rep16:21". It was a good show! Audience were more than there were from last Sunday... And they were more responsive I guess, although that wasn't the case for all the audience. Only about 1/4 of the whole number of audience took part in the forum.. better than nothing I guess...
Ey ey... Jack just called me up just now! She invited me to her school's form 6 prom thingy... Jack you made my day! Ey, you know I'm so broke now... I'll try to ask my dad! I'd really like to go considering I missed our school prom! ^_^
Who wants to go to Samad's Prom, pls email Jack : deathsplurge@hotmail.com!
26th was my mum's birthday... so : HaPpY BiRtHDaY IbU!!
also, Happy Birthday to Pat, and Sarah! on the 27th! wah... so many people's birthday... no wonder I'm broke! ^_^
I need to save up to buy the new Westlife album... I heard a bit of it, and I thought it was not bad! Any sponsors would be better, so, anyone...?
Erm, to contradict what Jen and Janey said on their website, I am not as much into manga and anime as the rest of them are. But have to admit that the Japanese influence is catching on quite a bit everywhere! I don't mind dressing up like the more outrageous but still quite decent Japanese girls I see in the Japanese Mags! They're quite kewl! Sorry guys! ^_^
Just proves that I do read your logs too!! hehehe...
Okay... gtg and get ready to break fast now... although I din't fast coz I'm surfing the crimson tide at the mo' and u can't fast! Hey, I didn't eat the whole day okay... which is even worsestill! ^_^
Bubbye... might log in later!
