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Money
<%%Date%%>
<%%Time%%> [Date: Wednesday, 20 December 2000]
[Time: 01:45 am]
[Location: In My Room]
[Listening to: Hitz Top 20]

" In its famous paradox, the equation of money and excrement, psychoanalysis becomes the first science to state what common sense and the poets have long known -- that the essence of money is in its absolute worthlessness. "
-Norman O. Brown

Okay, I am really putting this on from what I have written in my room. ^_^ Here it is:

You know, going out with my dad could actually be quite fun, when he is not in the stingy mood. I dunno, I think my dad is actually quite a kewl type of guy. The only problem is that he is not around as often to be a proper dad to me and my siblings. But then again, I suppose everything goes down to money. Money in our world today is sucha an important commodity. If you have no money, you can't actually do anything. You cannot expect people out of courtesy, or even pity to actually provide you with food, drinks or shelter for free. Even the government in the effort of actually helping the poor, need the taxpayers money to fund it. This is not fair, as money has made almost all of mankind greedy. For those of you who have forgotten, Greed is part of the Sevenm Deadly Sins, which includes in the list,in no particular order:
1. Pride
2. Avarice/ Greed
3. Envy
4. Wrath/Anger
5. Lust
6. Gluttony
7. Sloth
Maybe God should take over the world, instead of leaving it to us humans who are fast becoming heartless and greedy.

Right now, I am wondering why did God actually gave the power of intelligence, the power of ruling the whole world and possibl the universe, to mankind and not to anyother beings in the world? Here's my concept of God, despite what it says in my religion...I think that although he is the one who actually made everything and all our surroundings, but he gave thehumans choices in their life. In my opinion, he is also learning about the human capabilities, just as well as anyother human beings. With the choices he gives, He doesn't really know which one would be chosen. But even with that, he would actually have a rough idea of what is going to happen. Occasionally he will throw in a few geniuses that would actually help shape, move or shake the world for the future and the way people think. Okay, I think this doesn't make sense. But then again, the concept of God is abstract, so nobody would actually have the exact idea of what He really is like.

I wonder what it is gonna be like for this year's New Years' celebration. The supposed 'Real' Millenium Year. It's funny how, I think for the sake of partying like mad, people can argue when the 'real' millenium is. *Sigh* I just hope it wouldn't be raining again this new year's. I was stuck in a wet place last new years, and I do not plan to do it again, thank you. ^_^

I'm going now... Ta!

PS: I wonder what my results are like! *Cringe*

Languages
<%%Date%%>
<%%Time%%> [Date: Tuesday, Decembre 19,2000]
[Time: 23:12 heurs]
[Location: Net@ccess Cyber Cafe] (becoming a fast favourite place of mine, ne?)
[Listening to: Noisy counterstrike players again...]

" Anthropology provides a scientific basis for dealing with the crucial dilemma of the world today: how can peoples of different appearance, mutually unintelligible languages, and dissimilar ways of life get along peaceably together? "
-Clyde Kluckhohn

Okay... I am here out of boredom... I am sooo bored out of my brains right now that I don't know what to do. SO here I am... ^_^

I have been practically stuck at home almost every day now, Thanks to my mother... Like yesterday for example, I was supposed to go out with Yusman, Chris, and the lot for a movie, The Virgin Suicides. I really wanted to go, but mummy dearest, as usual, had to spoil my plans. I dunno... I guess my relationship with her is not a very good one. I know people who have better relationship with their parents, or at least one of their parents, or people with worse. I guess I am okay... I can sometimes talk to my parents. It's just that my mum works too hard, so by the time she gets home, she's tired and cranky... and my dad, well, he works far away, and we only get to see him like once every 2 weeks. Like that is any help... I dunno, somehow I feel that I don't have a personal relationship with my parents, and I am already almost 20 years old. And by this time, most people already do have an adult relationship with their parents. Oh well... we can choose our friends, but we can't choose our family right?!

It is interesting how I always thought that English, as opposed to all the other languages in the world, is the most important one of all. I mean, half the world, in my opinion speaks English, (half the world as in mainly US, UK, Australia and New Zealand) and everywhere else educate their citizen to speak English, so why shouldn't it be the most important one of all, right? Well, I dunno... F.Y.I, in the UN confrences and meetings, they actually use French as the Lingua Franca. And as opposed to popular belief, in South America, they do not actually speak Spanish, but they do, instead, speak Potugues. Surprise isn't it? I dunno how true it is though, this is what my French teacher told me... as his Japanese collegue was going to go to Mexico to teach his native tongue, Japanese to the kids there. So, to prepare himself for what is to come, in the just in case cases that people do not understand English, he took classes to speak Spanish. But unfortunately for him, instead of making it more easy for him, it made it worse coz people there actually speaks Portugues. Here are the list of the most important language in the world (in no particular order):
1. English
2. French
3. Portugues
4. Chinese (in any dialects)
Surprising huh?

Anyways, I am quite thankful that I am actually living here in Malaysia, despite the usual rants some people who know me know I make about people here. You know, we are basically the only country in the world, prolly other than Singapore, that do not have a difference in languages. I am talking about Manglish. You know how it is, it is Malay, Chinese, Indian, and English combined. Well, in most other places, like for example, Switzerland, or Belgium or any other country that has more than one mothertongue, they talk proper language, like if u talk Dutch, then u talk proper Dutch, and not a mix of it. Unlike how we do it here. Some would come across it as weird I suppose, how we do things here, and we would think it as weird how a mixed country do not speak languages as mixed to. Well, I think it all shows how harmonious we all live here in this country and how happy and comfortable we all are, living together... kewl eh?

Well I better go now... Be careful of fake friends! ^_^

Oh yeah, and people who wants to travel... maybe u'd want to visit the wallpaper Site!

Pokèmon
<%%Date%%>
<%%Time%%> [Date: Saturday, December 16,2000]
[Time: 10:31pm]
[Location: Net@ccess Cyber Cafe]
[Listening to : SOme dodgy Chinese song... dodgy coz I dun understand it!^_^]
Finally, this week was the first time ever that I have ever watched Pokèmon: The First Movie. Okay... I have actually watched ecrpts of it before, but never in full... Now I understand, why one of Marini's guy friend actually cried when he watched it. You know, towards the end, there is this bad pokèmon, called MewTwo, which is the super clone of the ancient pokèmon, Mew (which is sooooo cute!!). MewTwo mission in his life, is to distroy all the pokèmon and humans in the world, so that he can rule it with all his other superclone. The magnificent thing about this superclone MewTwo is that it can talk, and control other pokèmon by pyschic powers... Well, the point of me going on and on about this is that people should actually learn from this pokèmon movie... coz No matter what difference we humans have with each other we should actually think of ways that we are alike. That way, we would appriciate the gift of life more. I mean, look at it this way, we all live under the same sky, on the same earth, breathe the same air. That really put a tear in my eyes! *_*

And I actually got to catch my first episode of Charmed this week. It was the episode of how there was this girl wanted to join the Haliwell sisters... I like the show! I think it is mainly because I like this Wicca stuff despite of my religion ^_^ I'm sooo bad..

GTGnow... all my friends are here already!!

Career Selector
<%%Date%%>
<%%Time%%> Here something amusing...
from Smart Selector here's the most suitable careers for me!
# 1 Artist
# 2 Chemist
# 3 FBI Agent
# 4 Park Ranger
# 5 Astronaut
# 6 Chef
# 7 Computer Game Programmer
# 8 Inventor
# 9 Mathemetician
# 10 Movie Star
# 11 Police Officer
# 12 Politician
# 13 Professional Sports Player
# 14 Reporter
# 15 Rock Star
# 16 Salesperson
# 17 Teacher
# 18 Author
# 19 Doctor
# 20 Engineer
# 21 Geneticist
# 22 Graphic Designer
# 23 Lawyer
# 24 Researcher
# 25 Web Designer

Confrontation
<%%Date%%>
<%%Time%%> [Date: Thursday, December 14, 2000]
[Time: 12:37 am]
[Location: NetAccess Cyber Cafe]
[Listening to: Counterstrike again....=oP]

" Read, every day, something no one else is reading. Think, every day, something no one else is thinking. Do, every day, something no one else would be silly enough to do. It is bad for the mind to continually be part of unanimity. "
-Christopher Morley

Okay, who here likes confrontations, now, hands up! I know... none of you did actually put your hands up right? No one really likes confrontation, and that is the worse case situation someone could be in. And nobody would want to be the one who is left to do the confronting.

You know, often when a problem arises... there are not many choices that you are left with on how you want to solve it. In many of the cases, some people prefer to just keep mum about it and not trouble others or in other words, just suffer in silence. Other people would actually talk about the problem to everyone but the person who actually is the problem. Some, would talk about it with flowery language while another person would actually directly confront it with another person.

I am definitely the first one I know... I totally hate confrontations, and I would keep it to myself, although sometimes I would actually tell loads of other people but the person who is the problem. I can't tell the person who is causing the problem to me without feeling like I am the Bitch with a capital B. I always have a feeling that people percieve me as a BITCH. I dunno... am I?

So anyway... I was reading this magazine called female last few weeks and in this magazine, (it was an october issue) and they had this article about spells and all that sort of thing. I don't think it was very wicca-ish, but then again who knows. Marini and I were thinking of trying it out tomorrow. It's a spell for finding a soulmate. I dunno... here we go again on the soulmate arena. I dunno..... I feel like I really want someone in my life to share, but the thing is, I don't really know who is it yet. I have not been seriously intersted with a guy in a long time, and I am seriously beginning to question on whether or not am I straight. (I am actually very straight, thanx, love men too much! LoL). I just need some male action in my life.... Sheesh.

Some people are just pushy with the an attitude... you know, they do not actually care about what you do or what you think, but when they want something from you, they'll be the sweetest most nicest person you don't want to know. Don't you just hate those kind of people?

ANd another thing... you know how just because of your sexual prefrences, some people would not work with you. It's funny how some people cannot accept the difference. I mean, hallo.... it does not make you any different, the way you work, or the way you think. I dunno...working in arts, definitely exposes me to many of this type of people, and I truly feel for them.

I love doing these quizzes online... the ones, that mostly reveals your personality, what type of person you are attracted to, bla bla bla... I guess it gives me an overview of what my life is like. I guess it is kinda ironic, coz sometimes, it hits, and sometimes, it is sooo wrong that you can just laugh it off. Sometimes, it is not true at the moment, but when you rereflect on it sometime later in your life, you'll see that it is actually true. Funny how things turn out!

I think I am off now... see ya soon... whenever I get to be online that is!

PS: The group of us, 16:21 people are gonna try to participate in the MVA. The outcome will definitely be pretty interesting. I'll keep all of you posted. ^_^