*Lush*
Saturday, May 12, 2001
06:09 a.m.

Okay from today I will only use one word adjectives for my titles! LoL...
I am super duper bored. I haven't been doing much things lately. Basically I have been lying around the room doing nothing. I am such a sloth. I have been reading this book though, called "The Fortune-Teller Told Me". I borrowed it from Suzie.I am half way through. It's about this guy who decided to believe what his fortune teller told him about him dying in 1993 (i think) in a plane crash so he decided to not fly for a whole year. I think it is a good thing, coz it made him realize the wonders that make the world, and appriciate things more. I think it is also quite a spritual thing for him too... You should go read it.
Another book I have been wanting to read is "Conversations with God: Volume 2 & 3". I read the first part and I immediately fell in love with it. I have been wanting to read the sequel for ages now. I never had the chance to though. I hope I get some money to splash on it.

I have been on a search to find a good webhost that could help me out with HTML stuff, because I am so daft with it! I haven't found a good one, although, I have membered myself into this web community which is quite interesting! It even gives you your own house and live in a communities which has community leaders and stuff. You can even have a job and also a pet! It's like playing the sims online! ^_^

I went to one utama again with marini today, we went to Miss Selfridges which just opened their pilot store a week back (i think). I thought it was sooo kewl, and off course, I thought it was already high time that I had a wardrobe make over... I think I have overworn the things in my closet for a long time already. *Sigh* if only I had the money.

Considering I went to Tower twice in this past 2 days, I was delighted to see that Melvin *Lush*. He's sooo nice. I will stop. LoL

For good. Bye!!!

Thursday, May 10, 2001
01:49 a.m.

I went to check out the sales of the tickets to the westlife concert today and to my dissapointment, the numbered seating has already reached to the lane X. I guess now my only option is to take the standing one in front, where I know I am able to squeeze no matter what to the front. And I know I will have to work on that day, but I am already planning to take the day off. I mean, if Dushyan says that they're only flying in for the concert and then flying off, it would be well worth the day off. Anyway, the laydee has yet to call me.

Hahhaa... I found out who my secret admirer was... JANEY!! She told me that she had one sent to her and she used my email add to try out. LoL...

Anybody wants to go Westlife hunting with me, please email me A.S.A.P!!!!

I got the job!!!
Wednesday, May 9, 2001
12:24 p.m.

[Location: Home]
[Listening to: silence! (again)]

I just came back from the job interview at illusions ska (a tv production company) and I am sooo happy. So I guess you know what that means. I GOT THE BLINKIN' JOB! Or so I think. Lemme tell you the play by play to it all...

I got to Desa Sri Hartamas quite early, like 10:45 am and the interview was at 11.30 am. So I went for breakfast and got myself a glass of teh tarik and also banana leaf nasi lemak *yum!* Then I started to get worried on whether I had a chilli stuck in between my teeth, so I started to use my tongue to check... *not a wonderful sight* so anyways, I went around that area to check out the nice lickle shops they had there where it is never open when I do occasionally go there, because I usually go there at night. *DOH* So anyway, yeah, I went to the party shop, where they had all kindsa things related to parties for kids. And then I went to this kids bookshop called Trisha & Sasha, a place where Naziah, another one of them theatre bunch used to work. Funnily enough, for a kids bookstore, I was surprised to find a book titled "Bliss: A Smart Girls Guide to Sex", but anyway....

So then, it was already 11am and I was seriously bored. SO I decided to then walk towards the office and go for the interview. On my way up, I was then greeted by two guys. One of them asked, "Are you here for an interview?" and I said yes. SO then he told me that he was the one who was going to interview me so I said, oh okay. He seemed like an okay guy... Then I waited for about half an hour, 11.3oam then the guy who I saw in the lift took me for the interview in one of the many rooms in the office. The office looks very nice though. Bright colours, and small cubicles.

SO anyways, then in the room, he looked at my CV, and I think he had already made up his mind about hiring me. So yeah.. he said "okay, I think we'll put you as a production assistant, and you'll be working under a guy called CK. I'll get my secretary to call you up later this evening and she'll tell you everything you need to know..." bla bla bla... so then I went off... Lalalala I am so happy I'm not bumming around! LoL!

He's giving me a 3 month contract thingy so I'm employed for 3 months! Hehehe...

Spookily enough, I just got an invitation by "my secret crush" to join crushlink. So...

L8rs!

Tuesday, May 8, 2001
10:49 a.m.

I just had to log this in because it was just too wierd! I had this dream when I went to sleep last night. As anyother people, this dream had different segments to it, some of which I don't remember.

So here's what I remember of it anyway: The first segment consists of a phone call of me and my ex. I dunno why but then he was saying stuff like, "I need to get married by this weekend, so if I don't find anybody else, would you marry me?".

Okay, then the dream morphed into another dream about me and this guy from the theatre group that I have a crush on. So he and me and somebody else, I can't remember who though, we were in the car, him driving, and I think the situation was like we were possibly chasing something. Westlife prolly. So anyway, it was like we were a couple type thing or something. But something ( I dunno what) also tell me that that wasn't the whole story. But then again, the thought of my ex asking me to marry him was still in my mind in the dream.

The thing is I think was because I actually quite like my relationship with the theatre friend and we are quite comfy with each other, that kinda thing. But still, the thought of marriage appealed.

Then I woke up. LoL... so, can somebody analyse this dream for me?

Ta... will blog in soon.

O-town
Tuesday, May 8, 2001
02:16 a.m.

[Location: Home, in front of the compu]
[Listening to: myself think]

I am sooo hungry and tired. I wasn't home yesterday, coz I slept over at Suzie's place with the rest of the girls from the theatre group: Trisha, Rachel, Vanessa and Bernie. We had soo much fun. We went out clubbing, and went to this place called El Niño and then we moved on to another club called Barbarrans. That was quite fun... I haven't been clubbing in a while already! But there wasn't any guys interesting enough to pull... yuck! >.<

We came back at about 6 am in the morning, and then we cooked ourselves breakfast and then we talked and talked til about 9 am! We only started to sleep then. Was that late or was that late?!

I was supposed to wake up early and send a few people to other places but we all ended up really waking up at 3pm. Then, I got a call from Poh Leen, saying that she didn't go and take the passes for the O'town showcase later today. So I sms-ed Dushyan, and told him that we're not coming. Then he told me that the passes were still available and we could just come by and pick them up from him. So we did. And I didn't regret going. O-town are quite good live. They were so-so who are cute, but yeah, they're good performers. I think I like Dan... he looked like Freddie Prinze Jr. today. Ashley is okay, Jacob really is the skater type guy (maybe tht's why a lot of girls went ga-ga over him!) Trevor and Erik: I think they're flabby! But they've all got great voices!

Okay, okay, I'm trying to convince myself that I like them... not like it is working though!

I honestly cannot believe that the show is finally over. I miss all of them already and at the cast party, we all cried, or almost, at one point or the other. We were all sad I mean, the show itself has taken over two months of our time, and we see each other at least 3 times a week, but usually more. And the hardship that all of us have been through is a totally different story. I just hope that we would all keep in touch with each other!

I saw the Bridget Jones diary a couple of weeks ago, on VCD, and I thought it was just brilliant! I think, eventhough Reneè Zellweger is American, she did pull off the Britishness of Bridget. She's a wonderful actress.I want to get the second part of the book, and I want to see what happens to Bridget and Darcy. I thought it was funny that Colin Frith played Darcy in both Bridget Jones and also in Pride and Prejudice. Maybe he's destined to play characters with the name of Darcy! LoL!

I'm off! Bye bye!

Icons!
Saturday, May 5, 2001
03:19 a.m.

Because I have been so bored, I found a new hobby! It's a total no-brainer activity, but hey, at least I am, as they say, unleashing my talents! LoL, in logo building! Here is some of my creations:



So whaddya think... if you want to use it to your site, i think the best way is to go to view source and copy the one that you like. The webgurus wesbite does not help much. I'm just curious if anybody would want to have anything of mine in any of their pages! LoL! I'll just have to wait and see I guess.

There is only 2 shows left, and I dunno wht I'll be doing after this. Life would definitely be soo boring, and I would definitely miss the people from the show. From last year, not all people would actually keep in touch with each other, other than a small number. Oh well, That's life I guess =o/

I am thinking about Kamdar or Globe, coz Yusman said that would be the best place to find good but cheap Baju Melayu. I can just imagine it now, seeing Nicky wearing a baju Melayu! LoL... I know, I am getting delirious with images of Nicky in a baju Melayu! Now you all know how bad this can get! *embarassed* Hehehe... I'll try to calm down now! *Bounce clap bounce clap*

I'm going now! Be good d'y'hear!

Getting Married
Friday, May 4, 2001
03:41 a.m.

Hiya...

I am bored. Yesterday, I got this call from this lady from illusions. illusions is a local production company that has produced one of the more famous local sitcoms. I dunno whether I should be glad or be sad. I know for one thing I am quite overwhelmed by it. I just hope that they would get me to work with them. I am quite interested to see what tv production is like, it has been a dream of mine to work in either TV or radio. If I do get it, then I would be already fulfilling another one of my dreams. I am happy. I mean, I am only gonna be 20, but still, I have done quite a lot in my time. ^_^

LoL... I have not done this in a while, so to satisfy my fetish for Nicky Byrne, I did actually cyber married him! LoL! You can view the marriage certificate here .Interesting huh...? The things people do when they're bored.

I have also started writing a fan fic with Westlife. i have gone through chapter 1, halfway. I don't think I am quite ready to let people read it, unless I say so. LoL... very limited people. Try asking me, maybe I'll let you read it.

Okay, okay, so maybe I am going a tad bit over the roof with all this westlife stuff. The thing is, they're coming over for a concert at the end of the month, and I've already started on the westlife fever! I can't help it! I hope I'll get to save enough money; coz I am thinking of getting my darling Nicky a 'baju Melayu'. That would be so kewl. It's not like he's not gorgeous enough, but i know he'd look even more gorgeous in tht!

Oh yeah, results. Got it the day before yesterday I think. All A's... parts of me are not surprised, but some parts of me are thankful. Considering I came late for the English paper and missed the entire listening part of the listening test. It can only happen to me I guess... LoL.

I wonder whether the youth2 article with our pictures are still on the purple sofa website. Haha!!! It is, it is! Check it out here But nothing big really, since there are no quotes that come from yours truly unlike the one that came out in March. *sheesh*

I need sleep. Ta ta.

Wednesday, May 2, 2001
05:32 a.m.

I dunno why do I even bother to, but still, I love doing quizzes!! I'm doing one at the moment, it's short, and lacks in choices, but nonetheless, funny! Here's where you can find it, and this is my results:

Profile for Nurul Syatirah Abu Safran
Personality type: Slimy, uncommunicative, stupid, indecisive, egomaniac, fuckwit.

Slimy You think of yourself as a Ladies' Man (or equivalent for your Gender/Preference). However, in reality the best you manage is meaningless sex with depressed people who feel sorry for someone even more pathetic than they are.

Uncommunicative You find it impossible to express your true feelings or emotions. Your friends (if you have any) think you are a liar, an unfeeling bitch/bastard or retarded. Probably all three.

Stupid You are basically thick. If you think back, you will realise this is true. Most people you meet are smarter than you. This is because you are stupid. Ask a friend to explain this to you if some of the words are too long.

Indecisive You are unable to do anything without whining about it for hours first. The biggest achievement of your day is probably managing to fill in all the questions in this test.

Egomaniac You have a bloated self image. Somehow you think you are more than the web surfing loser the rest of the world sees you as.

Your rating as a human being:
5%

The person/character whom you most resemble is:
Marylin Manson (a goth)

The Guilty One Writes
Wednesday, May 2, 2001
03:34 a.m.

[Location: Home, in front of compu]
[Listening to: MTV Most Wanted]

You know, I've always wanted to be featured in MTV's show called It's My Life. The last season, they had this Malaysian twins who were sooo boring, and they can't speak English for shit. I was thinking to myself, hey, I know I can do better than them, and of course, I think my life would be more exciting compared to theirs! Why didn't I find out about this before?!?!?! Anybody has any ideas on how to get on the show please do tell me!

Anyway, the show has been going on, and tonight was the fourth out of nine shows. It has been well I suppose, with most of the nites being at least 75% filled with audience. That's a very good sign. I wish the rest of the nites would do as well. Performance wise, I think they can still do better, not that they're not doing good already. They're fabulous, I have to tell you that, and all of us have grown to be soo close that it is a wonder to me about all of us after the show ends at the end of this week. I know I, for one would be dead bored coz this has been the heart and soul of me for over 2 months already...I just hope I do get that job.

Anyway, I still have over 2 months worth of holiday, I don't think I would have much to do. Not like I have the money to anyway. Found out that Westlife is coming to town for a concert. Me and Y'ng Lyn have decided to go together to the concert, and Rachel agreed to follow us become groupies... we're planning to haunt them by following them all over KL! ^_^ I CAN'T WAIT!!!

I have started on reading Fan Fics again. I found one in FanFic.net about Nicky and I am so hooked. I think I will start on one of my own soon. I have to start writing again. I have to channel all this energy somewhere and not just waste it by sleeping on it. Doesn't help either that I have just seen the Young Writer's Workshop, which some of the people from the new Rep16:21 did, which went quite well, and boy can they write! I am soo envious!

I'm on this site and I found out that in the new system, my name is a number 9. Here's wht they say abt people who are number 9s:


9 (nine)
You are a born leader and full of energy. For you to avoid unnecessary mistakes that easily occur in the heat of the moment you aught to see over your planning more than once before beginning things. You take care of everyone and see to it that all is well. You often put so much into your engagement for others that you forget to look after yourself. You must heed your own needs of love and help to keep your own kindle going.

You easily fall into the trap of not feeling loved. Having been abandoned by someone very close could be the reason for this. Another reason could be that the people you help do not reciprocate your love and caring.

In relationships you tend to put in too much energy in the beginning. Sadly this can frighten precious love away. It takes time to get to know another person.

Nines are governed by Mars; your most suited colours are tones of red.

Then, according to The Kabbalist system, I am a:

1 (one):

As a one you are self sufficient and even self-critical because of your desire to be number one. You are a very responsible person that is good at your job, which in turn will lead to your success and you achieving your goals. The prospects for you to become a top manager are good because you have strong leadership qualities. You will find success in everything you focus on, even if the road is sometimes long.

Try to be a little humble and not climb over other people. If you notice that you are being whispered about you should reflect carefully about the way you act and maybe show a little more consideration.

Because you demand a lot of yourself you have demands upon the one you love. Most of all he or she should be equally ambitious and be conscious of dress and appearance. In a relationship you often find fun things to do together, helping to stave of the tristess of daily routines.

Your life is governed by the Sun and your best colours are yellow and brown.

Well, honestly I think the new system is more accurate. If some of u do plan to do it, please do tell me the results that you get. Quite kewl huh?!!?

I am tired, and I think I shall move on to rest my eyes. Will try to blog again soon!