3:11 p.m., Friday, April 27, 2001
I've had some emails now. Thank God. Not talking to me seems just a little childish somehow.
I've had a stressful, horrible week and I haven't been doing things as I should. I haven't got the heart to update my livejournal. Come back Monday and I'll let you know what I'm up to. In the meantime noone took the hint about my guestbook being lonely (other than a random suggestion about colours that I would be more inclined to try out if he'd said *any*thing about my site) so LEAVE ME A MESSAGE OR I WILL CRY!!!!! I'm going to need moral support to get through this month's notice period :)
1:10 p.m., Friday, April 27, 2001
Just to keep you all up to date, due to the severe lack of communication from my boss, I have been working on pieces of me this morning and finally, finally, I'm beginning to get it to look how I want it to.
The only thing is, if it's taken me this long to get my index page to look how I want it, how long will it take me to get the rest of the site to match? *sigh*
10:12 a.m., Friday, April 27, 2001
So he's been on the phone this morning to the head of biology, asking why he wasn't told that I was applying for another job, asking who my referee was. None of his fucking business, that's who. But still no emails and still no phone calls. He seems not to be speaking to me. And I have work to do, but nothing important, and I think I might just cut and paste all my bookmarks from Netscape so I don't lose them all when I leave and post all the news stories I've been bookmarking at FMW and HRN.
I went onto campus last night to do some washing and the washing machine decided twice to not wash my clothes. I was so upset and mad and frustrated by the time I got in that I could have cried. There is a journal entry to be brought in sometime that lists just some of the things I'm sick of in my life.
Anyway. In response to the questions, I am going back to the Biology department at York Uni to do a job that is half secretary, half clerical assistant. Slightly more pay (they're putting me to the top of my grade) and not having to work for my boss. I can't wait.
4:22 p.m., Thursday, April 26, 2001
I can't deal with this. Why hasn't he emailed me? God, I'd rather he called and shouted at me than put me through the silent treatment like this.
It's going to be a very peaceful month's notice if he doesn't talk to me, I suppose.
2:54 p.m., Thursday, April 26, 2001
I don't think I told you about my parking ticket. So here you go.
When I got back from my parent's on Easter Monday I parked on my road, a little way down from my flat. I was there maybe two or three hours (on a Bank Holiday, mind) before leaving to take Paul to the station.
When we went out I had a parking ticket.
My resident's parking permit had expired at the end of March and they hadn't sent a letter out to remind me - because they had my permit down on their computers as finishing at the end of June.
I went in today (yes, I should have got there before now) to renew my permit and sort it out, and I did. I've contested my ticket and won't have to pay it, and now I've got the new one. And again I say 'yay me!'.
12:04 pm, Thursday, April 26, 2001
Well I updated my livejournal, but it seems to have gone down again so I can't check I didn't write anything silly. Grrr.
Meade quoted my quote, and my suggestions, and she said it's almost a poem. Wow. Wow. All go have a look.
11:50 a.m., Thursday, April 26, 2001
I'm going to the pub tomorrow night, with Keith from work and Kerri who used to work here. And I can't wait, it's going to be fun.
One of Tricia's hostees is getting insulted in her guestbook. I think everyone should go visit Nathalie and sign her guestbook so that the coward who wrote numerous times that her writing sucks is knocked off.
10:14 a.m., Thursday, April 26, 2001
Oh and my guestbook is feeling neglected (hint hint)
10:08 a.m., Thursday, April 26, 2001
New journal entry.
I watched Twister last night (as I mention in said journal entry). And I have a question.
In films, why is it that women are never scientists for the love of the science, it's always because of a childhood trauma? Men get to be scientists because they love it. Women it's always got to be because something happened in their past to mean they are driven like that.
It'd be nice if someone, somewhere, made a film in which the woman was in it for the love of science and the man because of the childhood trauma.
If you've got any theories on why, email me.
4:52 p.m., Wednesday, April 25, 2001
OK. I am going to put my things away, sort everything out. Then I am going to email my boss. Then I am going to run before he can possibly get it and reply.
Will let you know how it all goes tomorrow. Wish me luck.
3:49 p.m., Wednesday, April 25, 2001
I just typed and printed my resignation letter.
The printer is in another office so I had to make sure noone else was near the printer and run from my office to that office because one person was in the office and I didn't want to risk him getting curious.
I got there just before it started to print.
I feel ill. I know it's all going to be worth it in the end. But right now, I feel ill.
3:49 p.m., Wednesday, April 25, 2001
I just typed and printed my resignation letter.
The printer is in another office so I had to make sure noone else was near the printer and run from my office to that office because one person was in the office and I didn't want to risk him getting curious.
I got there just before it started to print.
I feel ill. I know it's all going to be worth it in the end. But right now, I feel ill.
11:57 a.m., Wednesday, April 25, 2001
Oh my God.
I just got the letter to say that I'm being offered the job.
Which is good, but... it means I have to tell my boss I'm leaving. And I feel sick at the mere idea.
But I have to remember that I've faced bad situations before and kept in control, and this one I get to do by email (I won't see my boss for a while) which can be more controlled and I can be more distant from.
But oh my God I feel sick. This is meant to be good. But I'm sick with nerves, and until I've emailed my boss and got his reply I will feel awful.
Anyway. There's a new entry at my livejournal as well from earlier this morning. Feel free to comment it (hint hint).
5:33 p.m., Tuesday, April 24, 2001
I meant to say before....
I win prize for stupidist person of the day. I was trying to move most of the personal stuff off my computer as once I resign (sooooooon!) it might be a good idea not to have the journal entry backups saying quite how little work I do here sitting on my computer. Which is fair enough. So I was trying to sort out what I was moving onto my zip disk and what I wasn't so I could delete the rest.
I managed to delete the folder containing all my site's back up files on both my zip disk and my hard disk.
If envy loses them I will cry.
Just makes redesigning and all that all the more urgent!
4:29 p.m., Tuesday, April 24, 2001
I feel sick.
I just went to the hunger site to make my donation. And just under the donation button is a button. www.ediets.com (I refuse to link it) is sponsoring the hunger site.
Does anyone else think that's sick or is it just me?
4:23 p.m., Tuesday, April 24, 2001
6 May is International No Diet Day. RAAR.
Thanks Katilinne.
12:50pm, Tuesday, April 24, 2001
Well, again, that was bad, but not nearly as bad as last time. I dealt a lot better. Or something :)
Anyway. Johanna has let me know that my envy.nu account has been bouncing email back and around. I just got a load this morning that seems to have been waiting round forever, so if you need to email me and can't get through try this one.
5:30 p.m., Monday, April 23, 2001
OK, the real, coded-all-by-myself-in-html journal entry is there now (Kate ;). Enjoy.
2:51 p.m., Monday, April 23, 2001
I just couldn't believe this when I heard about it this morning.
2:35 p.m., Monday, April 23, 2001
I just had a huge, gorgeous veggie burger and chips for lunch. Not the healthiest option in the world, but hey, it was good :)
There were no tables free when I arrived so I asked a girl at one table if she minded if I sat with her. She said no, and she seemed open to the idea of striking up a conversation. But I find it immensely hard to do that... I'm scared of rejection, that my attempts to talk will be unwelcome and whoever will sit there waiting to finish eating so they can get away from me.
I have to get over that.
On the plus side, I have a cool little plan as to how my website is going to look when I get it all integrated and actually have time to redesign. This pita is OK, but I'm still not completely happy with it, and I am officially totally sick of pieces of me. I want something cheerier, and I'm sick of that shade of purple. But I don't want to do something else plain and I just don't have time to redesign the whole thing from work. We'll just have to see.
2:35 p.m., Monday, April 23, 2001
I just had a huge, gorgeous veggie burger and chips for lunch. Not the healthiest option in the world, but hey, it was good :)
There were no tables free when I arrived so I asked a girl at one table if she minded if I sat with her. She said no, and she seemed open to the idea of striking up a conversation. But I find it immensely hard to do that... I'm scared of rejection, that my attempts to talk will be unwelcome and whoever will sit there waiting to finish eating so they can get away from me.
I have to get over that.
On the plus side, I have a cool little plan as to how my website is going to look when I get it all integrated and actually have time to redesign. This pita is OK, but I'm still not completely happy with it, and I am officially totally sick of pieces of me. I want something cheerier, and I'm sick of that shade of purple. But I don't want to do something else plain and I just don't have time to redesign the whole thing from work. We'll just have to see.
1:35 p.m., Monday, April 23, 2001
I really am going for lunch now.
1:24 p.m., Monday, April 23, 2001
I don't normally post when people make new layouts (mainly because Tricia does it so often that I think I'd never post anything else!) but I wanted to mention Steffy's new layout because Steffy's layouts are always always beautiful and yet this time, she's added a lil' link to ME.
Loads of other people have done it too this weekend and they're all beautiful (and now I'm paranoid that I've missed someone out!) Ah well - if I did, I'm sorry and I still love you :) Feel free to shout at me ;)
12:55 pm, Monday, April 23, 2001
OK, the livejournal link is there.
I'm going to go for lunch in a minute. I didn't bring any writing to do, so I think I might be lonely. But I might enjoy my own company, being able to just sit. I'm not sure. I've not had the best of mornings.
Journal entry later. I'll let you know when it's up.
12:50 pm, Monday, April 23, 2001
There's a new entry at my livejournal. (I'll have to add the link on the left now... give me a mo'.) I want to have a bit of a moan but I think I'll save it for my real journal later.
The X Files last night was marvellous. 'I am the Walrus, coo coo catchu!' and '42 times? Doesn't that make you sad? It makes me sad'
I wish I had Sky One. But I'll just have to develop patience *sigh*