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sekolah.
my whole family (short of my sister in Beijing and my other sister) has been inflicted by some flu/fever virus. i'm down with a slight fever and congested nasal passages. bloody restless. i should be sleeping but i can't. just finished some SA work. i've decided to drop BGS next term. work on 4 credit modules (But 5 subjects). i can't argue that i don't have a say in my school anymore. haha. i've been given loads. hopefully my grades can still stay up next term even with all the SA stuff running around. there really is quite a spate of work as we're moving to the new campus and all. it would be a dream to achieve everything and still get the grades above 3.70. dean's list if ur grades are around above A- for two consecutive terms. i would have never believed it was possible if you asked me even 3 months ago. bloody hell.. this mat has a possibility of being in the dean's distinguished list rather than the usual black list. siak ah. m/
of course it has its price. i neglected quite abit of my family and friends for those hellish parts of term. i really can't commit to the bands in jan and feb. (u guys can work on songs.. hehe..) but i really hope i can find time to chill with you guys and catch up on whatever i missed. anyway can't wait to see sharizal's shots from sunday's photoshoot. heh. will post up when received. Tuesday, December 21, 2004 02:42 a.m. comment# gbook
Puteri Gunung Ledang
i watched Puteri Gunung Ledang last night with Fir, Dahlia and Putra. really good movie. I recommend everyone to watch it. There are English subtitles and its a wonderful insight to Malay culture, language and traditions. if you watch it, you're in my good books. haha.
my mac is still down. and i havent the time to get it repaired. for a minute after the gig, i thought it worked but it died again later. best part of it all is that all my designs for DYL are in that computer. i have 2 hours to redraw everything onto this pc. damns. Sunday, December 19, 2004 03:39 p.m. comment# gbook
revived!
my mac died on me two nights ago. i let it rest the whole day today and now it works fine. the whole thing led me to bukit timah apple centre for help where i met Gordon (from Surreal). He gave me lotsa tips and info.. on macs, bluetooth, locations for gigs, band updates. heh.
just finished the freedom gig at Planet Paradigm. Pale pretense performed well. It was a pretty good place. Thanks to everyone who came down, Ezdi, Nadia, Damai, Jid... yeah. good company. Fariz was supposed to come down..stealing some random network at the park mall bus stop to type this in. thanks whoever it is. KC and Ros are out of town. MTE's down to two. Friday, December 17, 2004 11:26 p.m. comment# gbook
happy birthday margaret chan
margaret chan's my school's director of the arts. it's her birthday today and she spent it mostly with us students. we went down to swee lee bras basah to help get an amp for her son (the guy has a Parker Fly guitar) and she helped pay for my drumsticks. damn cool. she's the coolest adult i've ever worked with. mentor, guide, fervent supporter for our rights. \m/ happy birthday margaret! Wednesday, December 15, 2004 01:30 a.m. comment# gbook
truly a philosophy to duplicate
simple pleasures of life. no matter what u did the whole day.. reach out for the simple pleasures to make the day worthwhile. mini vacations. every day.
quite a lot of pics on this page. probably takes quite a brutal time to load. gracia and syuhada took a lot of pics.. what could i do but upload them? haha. as you can probably tell.. syu takes the better pics.. cuz u don't see her often.. she's behind the lens. haha. it was fun traversing little india and orchard road with you guys on thurs. haha.
had a performance today with pale pretense at plaza singapura. pretty happening day really. next gig is with Pale Pretense on the 17th december at Planet Paradigm. yup. Monday, December 13, 2004 02:45 a.m. comment# gbook
pics from thursday
Sunday, December 12, 2004 03:20 a.m. comment# gbook
more pics from thursday
Sunday, December 12, 2004 03:14 a.m. comment# gbook
simple pleasures of life
today i got of the house to a raining journey to garage studios where i jammed on a most agreeable sounding drumset. pale pretense.. we're on the verge of a couple of good originals. i suggest putting in the effort to churn them out by year's end.
we went down to meet the crew. Leaven Trait played at paragon then bishan later at night. fun stuff. and then we had prata till 230am. it was an amazing day. simple pleasures \m/ haha Sunday, December 12, 2004 02:32 a.m. comment# gbook
smile. touch. kiss. call. fuck.
sometimes when u build up a chemistry with someone.. you never know how far it will go. smiles. jokes. contact.. suddenly you're alone and wishing you're with that person. i call this chemistry. something u can only have with some people.. and then theres those with which u have an instant connection with. strangers. electricity. sparks. the french have a phrase for this. i can't remember what it is. a passion that commands utter devotion from man to woman and vice versa.
and then theres the "lets go out because our houses are nearby and we have two same modules next term". poppycrap.
if we start to settle for halfway.. we can't complain that we're not getting the full deal out of life. Saturday, December 11, 2004 02:24 a.m. comment# gbook
rock n roll
today in school, i met Mr Henry Chua, guitarist from legendary band The Quests, and family. i got to jam with him too. and i got free pizza sponsored by the magnanimous, gracious, amazing Margaret Chan. (i ate 5 slices) i met Margaret's son too. it was fun free jamming and watchin some bands do some rock n roll. school rocks. i like.
busy day tmr. probably shud get an early nite's rest. oh yeah... i have to mention my appreciation again to the friends that have helped me with my econs. you know who you are. thanks for the help guys. i aced it. i seriously owe it to you guys.. for the books, and the simplification of concepts and the cramming of all the "u must remember this...." those last few days before the exam. prata on me lah. Wednesday, December 8, 2004 12:24 a.m. comment# gbook
another day lost in thought. but not wasted i hope.
there's a story about this guy on an island. he was taught by his dad to break coconuts everyday and offer them up to God. so he did that, day in and day out till the day he died. so when he died, he was brought to heaven and there the angels were consulting their books. they couldn't be sure whether he was supposed to be admitted to Heaven so they checked with St. Peter and he asked the guy. "how many coconuts did u offer to God?" and the guy said.. "74 million coconuts." then St. Peter said.. "okay let him in.." then when he was just about to enter heaven.. St. Peter asked him another question..."oh btw.. do you know why you broke those coconuts?" the guy said "i dont know. i just followed what my dad did"... suffice to say he didn't get to heaven. Monday, December 6, 2004 06:45 p.m. comment# gbook
you know sometimes when you look at the gravity of life, death and God.. you realize that all this.. all these grades, BGRs, unsurmountable obstacles, money, everything.... becomes so small that they don't matter. in the end, the only things that matter are the "small things". all the small things. haha. Monday, December 6, 2004 06:36 p.m. comment# gbook
today i found myself without anything to do.
for a minute, i felt a slight bit of panic. i'm wasting time. and then i questioned myself.. what exactly am I hiding from that I have to bury myself in "work"? then i kinda figured it out.
i'm just trying to face away from God. do all these other stuff. it reminded of me of the story of the little girl that got a ring of beautiful fake pearls for her birthday. and then her daddy came and asked for them. she cried, refused, wailed. when she finally gave them away.. her daddy came back and gave her a ring of beautiful genuinue pearls. such is God. we give up all this and submit to him.. the returns are infinite. but its never that simple is it? how do you know that there will be returns? Faith. my only fear now is the fact that if i ever do give away the fake pearls now.. i cannot hold on to my faith long enough for the returns to come. do i make sense?
of course some can argue. we can balance between worldly wants and God. give away half of the fake pearls and hold on to half? perhaps it might work. but there are stories abound, old testament, new testament, quran that speaks of true faith from total submission to God. but men being men.. can we truly speak of total submission to God? the story of Samson. a man who dedicated his life to Nazerite vows.. and blessed with incredible strength by God. even when it was so obvious that he walked in the path of God, he fell from it. sinned. wronged. and then caught, shamed. only to redeem himself in his final moments.. sacrificing himself to topple the temple of the Philistines. "It took all my life to learn that God is the God of forgiveness, of redemption"
is it then the nature of man to know the meaning and measure of his life only at its end? how many people really do know the meaning and measure of their lives?
this is not to say that our lives are meaningless. far from it. no one on this earth would be here if there was not an once of good that would come from him/her every day that he/she is alive. again, faith. in God's providence.
sometimes i enter my lucid moments and i ponder. and rarely do i mention them to anyone. and even rarely do i blog about them. i think its time to archive. Monday, December 6, 2004 06:01 p.m. comment# gbook
errata
hey, thanks to everyone who came to the shows or wanted to come down to the shows but couldn't or who came AFTER the shows.. couldn't do it without you.
i used to be able to blog about my dreams. but now my dreams are too weird to put to words. really. maybe i'll share some with you guys over a nice sugar-high cup of milo dinosaur. Monday, December 6, 2004 03:28 p.m. comment# gbook
friends
you know what i call friends? they're people that come down and support you even when you didn't tell them to. they turn up anyway. all of them. i really really appreciate everyone for coming down just now. from those that stumble in not knowing we were performing that day at that time.. to people who knew and made the effort to come. everyone of you rock my world.
anyway we're playing again tmr at the youth park 8pm. if you guys missed us and/or wanna catch us (again).. come on down to the youth park. we're playing a slightly modified set list tmr. its all in the name of good fun. Sunday, December 5, 2004 01:18 a.m. comment# gbook
england powderful
my english has fallen to such an appaling state. i gotta get myself reading again. can you spot the grammatical mistakes below? Friday, December 3, 2004 06:52 p.m. comment# gbook
new drumset
i spent the evening yesterday unwrapping a new Midnight Blue Tama Rockstar. the parts came wrapped with brown paper, tagged with a safety message and stuffed into labelled cardboard boxes. i set everything up, adjusting every minor details. and then i left school.
wished i had my own drumset at home. at least i have free access to the school's set now.
did you know that i'm great with kids? couldn't tell right.. i know enough tricks to keep them entertained for hours okay.. i'm even trained to facilitate basic reading sessions to pre-schoolers. i am the man! hahaha. Daddy training starts here. Friday, December 3, 2004 12:17 p.m. comment# gbook
zafri and me
some kids are just too adorable. i'm not talking about me this time. Friday, December 3, 2004 01:08 a.m. comment# gbook
Raya with the SMU Peeps
uploaded the smaller-sized non-blurry ones. theres more but they'll take a brutal amount of time to load.
<3 Friday, December 3, 2004 01:05 a.m. comment# gbook
YEAH!
crashed school, met up with my peeps.. got chips, played pool, watched singapore idol.. and TAUFIK WON! hah! there's hope for a mainstream local music scene that has an international appeal rather than a chinese one. Yea.. hope my votes counted. Thursday, December 2, 2004 12:41 a.m. comment# gbook
i'm lovin it
would that be regular, large or supersize? Wednesday, December 1, 2004 02:34 a.m. comment# gbook
and all that was left was a piece of chicken
the electrico bassist and keyboardist are on the KFC advertisement... the shake the popcorn chicken thing in the freezer.. cool. and Eugene (www.xanga.com/tragicurlyhip) is wearing the doubleyellowline t-shirt during one of the short films showcased from the CANON short film competition. PROPS TO OUR LOCAL PEEPS. You guys rock. Let us all slowly begin to pervade,invade,reverbrate,calibrate,immolate the media and filter in to the public consciousness.. "Local Music...... Lives." Tuesday, November 30, 2004 08:10 p.m. comment# gbook
boon lay - boons - home
went to Isk's open house yesterday which was at boon lay. Sorry i could only stay for a short while dude, but it was fun. I think u have really cool parents. I know most parents just avoid contact with their kid's friends so yours are cool.
then went off to Boons for jamming with MTE. preps for this sat's show. now im leaving for Alvron to jam with Pale Pretense for a show on the 17th. my mum just got back from Indonesia. and oh yeah, brought my sisters out to watch Shark Tale yesterday. quite a nice movie lah. but i rather watch a show that has people with super powers rather than fish that can talk. its just me. Sunday, November 28, 2004 01:37 p.m. comment# gbook
updates
the exams are finally over. Econs today was an exercise in speed-writing. I'm hoping for at least a B there. one can still hope.
anyway the band's performing in front of Paragon next week instead of Taka. 4th December 7pm. catch us then Saturday, November 27, 2004 02:13 a.m. comment# gbook
I rather be a rockstar than an economist
i got my dad and my mum to agree to my decision of throwing tmr's Econs paper to the drains. try as i might, i just can't get into the Econs mindset. thanks for all the efforts to teach me though, guys. i really appreciate it but for me, i gotta like it to score it. its not that i dont get it. i do. i just dont find it my cup of tea. anyway, i got some results back. quite good stuff. Rather disappointed about LTB though but the prof explained how she graded me. Understandable lah. Waiting for the rest of the results. Positive about Java and IS101. Gotta need them to pull up my Econs. heh.
my life the last few days can be pretty much summed up into two words. "SMU Library". Many reasons why everyone should study in the library
1. You can learn quite abit if you have someone to ask whenever you're stuck.
2. You can be introduced to really cool ways to destress e.g. a graphics game where you beat up old people, improv Bingo, etc
3. You can catch up on the latest gossips thanks to random conversations at the next table
4. You can catch all the good-lookers model up and down the library like its a run-way
5. and oh yeah, you can borrow books too. damn cool. heh.
My mum bought me this multivitamin thing called DHA. I don't know how much it has helped me with my studies but my pool game has improved and i think my drumming's improving too. (yay) I still suck at Bingo though and no, I really didn't mean to cheat :P
anyway, how can anyone expect me to score my Econs tmr when I have to learn 3 songs for next week's performance. Sigh. (hehe.. excuses excuses)
oh yeah, next week performance, Moren Tea Estate at Takashimaya. Saturday 4th December I think. Will be in the evening i think. gotta confirm with Ros again. Drop by if you guys are around the area. :) Thursday, November 25, 2004 10:00 p.m. comment# gbook
exams and the smu library
i am here to stay. with His permission.
my library plays a rousing "Closing Time" on the speakers when its 850pm. does yours? :) Tuesday, November 23, 2004 00:46 a.m. comment# gbook
MUGGING MAT MADNESS
i will not lose this war against Econs. i have a few days to translate all this greek back into English and build up the ability to write fluently on all this stuff. if i can do this, i can do anything.
but there's so many distractions. :P ....argh. study!
studied overnight in school yesterday w/ putra, khairul, fir, khai, fadz. dahlia joined us for abit and then left. red door at 3am and its full of friends.. "studying". haha. SMU pple rock. study lah dammit!
well at least the grades are moderated.
and for the record, i've been to Adam Road five times in the last four days. and McDonalds Serene Centre twice. and.. my World of Warcraft download is at erm.. 1.83gb out of 2.42gb
i'm bloody craving to drum. we just bought a new Tama Rockstar for the school studio. yet to test it. and there's so many auditions and gig slots around this time. dammit. there's supposed to be a slot for us to perform at Taka on the 27th.. don't think i can make it. damnations. ah well.. back to mugging. Saturday, November 20, 2004 07:18 p.m. comment# gbook
buggerme.
yesterday was another day lost in the war against the exams. i think i learnt something yesterday. i know i didn't learn anything today. i just lost the mood today. something was off. i couldn't read more than a paragraph before i would go get something to munch on.. or play some music.. or something. i have seen so many people waste entire days doing nothing and here i am.. incapable of focus. actually no, its not a lazy feeling. its an uneasy feeling. somethings just not right. granted that a lot of things aren't right, but I just can't bloody read a decent page of economics essays today. so i did what any guy would do when he can't study. i slept. heh. either its psychological or i'm getting a freakin fever. damn. anyone with advice? Thursday, November 18, 2004 09:56 p.m. comment# gbook
tenacious tuesdays
i set my iBook to wake up from its sleep at 6am to play a roaring wake-up song..however, I got up at 645 with no such song. I went to nudge her awake.. her screen came on.. and after a brief moment of disorientation and hesitation, screamed out Coheed and Cambria's Devil in Jersey City on my speakers. tsk tsk. heh. she overslept. dear old Dot.
Econs presentation in the morning. the most underprepared presentation i ever had.. pizzaz it up a bit to cover the lack of content. then worked on java in the library before heading down to the studio in front of food haven for a little celebration the studio comm had for LN and Gayle. heh. at 5, headed back up to MM for the EOGM where the motion for fresh elections next term did not pass. so that pretty much makes me an official council member as soon as we have the First General Meeting. for the record, i voted for the fresh elections. it was a decision arrived after examining all the points for and against. i was being totally neutral about it too. anyway, the whole thing was bloody interesting from the start. to me at least. working with the constitution, all the debates and stuff.. but now its time to get to work. uhhuh. yea.
met up with KC at Adam Road. food. tea. and erm guy talk. haha. yea. good stuff.
preparation for java exam is on track at 65 %
Econs exam is at 25%.. damn.
on the doubleyellowline side, we're emailing out and contacting the bands for the DYL auditions. confirming the 6 established bands. reliable ol' Ros is settling the planning part. DYL new webbie should be up soon. its a full frontal attack on your senses. you have been warned, local music lives. Tuesday, November 16, 2004 00:58 a.m. comment# gbook
led zeppelin
in my time of dying, all i ask is a nice patch of grass somewhere up high. with a view i would never get sick of. and friendly neigbours.
everything you experience is biological. what seems so ethereal are all really little biological tweaks.
my blue baju-kurung strewn on the chair. untouched today. we didn't go out. i slept in the whole day. there goes the cash, the meeting up with relatives, the whole shit. when adults can't even get over petty squabbles... u wonder what the fuck they learnt the twenty years before you were born and the twenty years after. anyway its okay. i take it all in. i eat all this for breakfast. haha
if u're bored like i am. google "moren tea estate" for everything else, theres mastercard. Monday, November 15, 2004 00:48 a.m. comment# gbook
workin on a public holiday night
just sent out my final edited version of my group's econs report. all thats left to do is the presentation slides. and practise my part. all by tmr. amidst all the hari raya stuff. looks like another late nite tmr. eargh. anyway, im sleepier than a cow. so im off to drool land. uhuh.. u like it... Monday, November 15, 2004 02:49 a.m. comment# gbook
i'm in a spot
paul frank is good. and some brand called Hollisters will make it big here so says retail fashion expert. reite.
argh. i need to get a freakin grip. have u ever had ur subconscious mind decide on something, act on it, and only decides to let your conscious mind know about it days later through constant running flashing of images and FRIENDS telling you what seems so obvious to them. or maybe im just in denial. sheesh. stop thinkin damn you. Monday, November 15, 2004 12:50 a.m. comment# gbook
downloads r us
one day we will be able to download stuff directly into our brains. the first three things i would download would be a British accent, the ability to read and write the French language and how to whistle. heh. Sunday, November 14, 2004 09:53 p.m. comment# gbook
Celebrating Eid'l Fitr
Here's wishing a Selamat Hari Raya to every single one of you! Please do forgive me for all the wrong-doings and other shit that I put you guys through the last one year. Enjoy the holidays! Saturday, November 13, 2004 04:52 p.m. comment# gbook
stone.
enter the last day of ramadhan. the final day of fasting. i woke up, hung the curtains, swept and mopped the floor. then the rest of the day includes finalizing the econs project and presentation, finish the transcribing and then the IS101 presentation. its a sign, i think, when you start to see holidays as blips on your schedules instead of momentous occasions. i'll probably be doing work late into the night tmr.
on a higher note, i got my results for my Java Exam. 44/50. finally an A+ module. i'm an official nerd now, i'm starting to love Java.
you start to question your sexuality when the only thing that perks up your attention (and pheremone glands) are inanimate objects (read: iBook) and near motionless activities (read: games and programming). i think i need a haircut and a good fuck. dont everyone..
naturally, to all of you who might take offense, i'm kidding of course. of course.
hmm the only thing im looking forward to tmr is.. strangely enough... meeting up with my cousins. Talking to Hid about stuff and Fez Bar, Mahathir about the pinholes and the fact that he knows Nad.. Kak Ayu.. about getting her band, Moods, to play for DYL's series of gigs early next year. yea. tmr's probably not going to be so bad. Saturday, November 13, 2004 11:29 a.m. comment# gbook
long day.
so it began in the morning, 8am. worked on my econs project, headed out to school at 10. Econs Project meeting, quite productive.. then to the mosque.. it was raining so stayed back and chatted with Hassan a bit. after that, went down to Evans Block to prepare for my IS200 presentation and lab session. finished with that around 630, met up with Nadiah, Firdaus and Khai and we went down to Far East Plaza for buka. Dahlia met us in the carpark and Hamidah met us at Cahaya. Food, proceeded by a 2-hour shopping spree hopping from Lido to Espirit to Zara to Wisma Atria and back to Far East. Fir went off home first. Dropped off Nad and Hamidah.. then crashed Dahlia's apartment and met her room-mates. Thereupon, i set eyes on the messiest room ever. heh. shan't go into details but something drove me to fold up all her clothes. (i think its that NS thing.. damn stand by bed standards)
we went off to meet Fir again at Bishan J8 for a midnight sneak preview of The Incredibles. room mates came along, wacky bunch o people. The Incredibles was good. probably wanna get the game or something.
I still owe my Aunt her transcribes. damn. only did the first 5 minutes when i still have 1 hr 25 more minutes to go. and tmr im hitting school to finalize the econs project. i shud sleep. Saturday, November 13, 2004 02:41 a.m. comment# gbook
furniture farewells
did quite abit of spring cleaning today, shifted the stuff in my room around. now there's a special place for Dot on my table.
had to say goodbye to a red chair that i've had since i was 5 years old. my dad threw it away today. its an office chair, black skeleton with red upholstery. i went from having to climb to get on it till im too big to be sitting on it. i was sitting on that chair when i started meddling with my old 486. sat on that chair for PSLE, O Levels, A Levels. poor chair wont see me beyond my first Uni exams. heh. sometimes we get overly sentimental with the weirdest things. and my weird sentimental thing is my old red chair. reincarnate, dear old furniture friend. come back as a lamp or something. Thursday, November 11, 2004 06:36 p.m. comment# gbook
exams schedule
IS Design Foundations Exam
24th Nov 2004 Wed 9am - 12noon
Introduction Economics Exam
26th Nov 2004 Fri 9am - 12noon
no other examinable subjects. just have to clear the presentations and stuff.
Thursday, November 11, 2004 06:00 p.m. comment# gbook
3 mins from midnight
had my LTB final presentation today. final LTB class too. kinda sad that its finally over, after all the stuff we went through together. not to worry, we'll still see each other in the same classes next term. LTB may be done but the Villagers will still live on. :) I have learnt so much from this group simply because it hasn't been an easy journey and I look forward to more growth and meaningful experiences.
i still have Econs Project Presentation to prepare, presentation's next tuesday. An IS101 case study presentation on SIA's Outsourcing Issues. A Java Programming presentation this Friday. Exams a week after that and holidays in the middle of everything. Quite disorienting. Of course theres doubleyellowline work. can't call it work, its more like really cool play. heh. okay.. im going to go concuss, catch up on sleep and start work first thing tmr. probably. Wednesday, November 10, 2004 11:57 p.m. comment# gbook
the kinison - you'll never guess who died
get this off punkrockvids.com simple, psyched-up, crunchy stuff. today is dyl meeting day. finish up my LTB presentation prep and off i go.. my double life as underground music revolutionary. Tuesday, November 9, 2004 03:40 p.m. comment# gbook
i'm an orange plastic sticker
*note to self - buy CDRs to burn MTE songs for Danny*
if i was an orange plastic sticker, i would stick myself onto an iBook and tell people to hold the EJECT button to eject their discs. I would be round and probably have an adhesive attitude. i wouldn't move around much.. but don't worry.. even when things get tough, u can count on me to stick around.
i uploaded three MTE songs. click here for a listen, purevolume.com/morenteaestate
the ballad (at the edge) and the light distortion song (unnamed) probably need re-recordings so that comes up later. give local music a go. u mite like. Tuesday, November 9, 2004 01:01 a.m. comment# gbook
groove is good.
ros just sent over the mastered recordings that we have been doing at the Soundmix Studios. sounds pretty good. should upload it up so that everyone can get a listen :)
listening to Micheal Jackson's Wanna Be Startin Somethin. groovy groovy groovy. on top of groovy drum and bass is a whole bunch of samples.. amazing stuff.. classic.. some stuff are always good ten years ago, now and ten years from now.
today i had my last comms lesson. quite sad really.. Glenda Singh's class was the first one i had in SMU.. quite an impression on me. i guess one of the things that you lack in Uni is the continuity. having like a form teacher for two years to confide in and turn to like in JC or something. i had a good form teacher in JC. Mrs Tan. She's nice.
almost reaching the end of my first term in SMU. plugging in the effort for the final leg.. can't wait to hit december. gigs, shows, holiday maybe.. definitely gonna hit the clubs again.. itching itching. argh need some serious serious fun. lotsa plans up.. gotta remember to check out Hideout.. and some other places i forgot.. and Fatin was talking getting everyone for a sesha party at her place.. gotta hold that thought first though.. work for the next three? weeks. and then its time to let loose. yowza. Tuesday, November 9, 2004 12:19 a.m. comment# gbook
monday morning.
i think its true.. the short hours of sleep. the constant self-imposed pressure. the necessary required school work. the quick hi-bye culture. a huge need to over-achieve. its all taking its toll. i think i'm officially an unappreciative, insensitive, tactless, arrogant jerk.
there are two measures in team performance. task accomplishment and member satisfaction. and yea, im a jerk when i work because i demand high standards and i'm serious about it. but step outside and i'm your care-free guy. maybe i shouldn't work so much. or at least lighten up. besides, none of this matters anyway.. death is going to take away everything.
was that overly morbid? or are YOU just insecure?
see what i said about tactless? sigh.
i think sometimes u cant fully analyze yourself because u're going to colour it one way or the other. depressed or narcissitic. this house believes that impartial self-analysis cannot be achieved. ahh fish.. this isn't a fun entry to read is it..
anyway, was telling dahlia and fir that my number 1 criteria for me to like a girl was interesting conversations. maybe i can make a list. ha.
1. interesting conversations
2. meaningful silences basicly means not having to talk and talk.. and not feeling awkward when we not in conversation.
3. a smile that banishes all the monday morning blues
4. some semblance of self-esteem(not an emotional wreck)
5. not taller than me
i dont think im asking for too much am i... hah...so can i pay by mastercard? what? must take loan?
naturally, i am kidding. of course i am. Monday, November 8, 2004 12:52 a.m. comment# gbook
love + wanton noodles
you see, my child.. love is like a wanton. you'll never know how it would taste like till you've tried it. you hope for the sweetest fillings and hope that it won't turn sour in your mouth. and even when you have enjoyed the initial crunch and chew, you may find that it tastes ordinary... a lot of things may make you decide not to try the wanton, but you don't eat wantons everyday and eating one is a necessary part of life. heh heh... dont worry, after a few wantons, you'll learn how to handle them so that they won't break apart before you put them in your mouth.. and how much sauce you're going to dip it in to get your preferred flavour...mmm... you know, at the end of the day, you will find that it all fits together.... in this big, delicious bowl of noodles that we call life.
eat up ah.. eat up. Sunday, November 7, 2004 00:27 a.m. comment# gbook
old stuff.
i'm happily dredging up all archives of this blog and i found this. old photo page haha. Sunday, November 7, 2004 04:12 p.m. comment# gbook
art?
 Sunday, November 7, 2004 03:57 p.m. comment# gbook
world of warcraft and random "good neighbour day" cards
i havent done anything productive the last three hours except download quicksilver, read up on world of warcraft, customize my guestbook and blog-hopping. even blog-archive-hopping. my Dot barely makes the minimum requirement for World Of Warcraft.. should I plunge in? i really shouldn't... have to study... but it looks so good. argh.
one of the many reasons why i'm on a mac now is the fact that there aren't many games available on the Mac OS.. so that i won't end up spending hours addicted to a game when i should be reading up my notes. but Blizzard, that bloody company that creates games that i have been addicted to since Warcraft 1, cleverly develops PC and Mac Versions simultaneously. and WoW is going to be THE game. damn..... okay maybe i'll only play during the holidays..
there are some nice postcards out for the good neighbour day campaign thing. funny cartoons. hah.
i was so sapped last night that the minute i got home i crashed into bed. still clothed. even my keys and wallets were still in my pants.. i shud sleep more. 4 hours a night and then concussing 10 hours on the weekends doesnt seem to work. joel said i should get a sport or a girlfriend. im just too tired .. can i just get a sporty girlfriend delivered to my home? can i pay by Mastercard?
i need an inspiration. can someone just kick me over a cliff or something. Sunday, November 7, 2004 03:08 p.m. comment# gbook
the geylang trip pics
shoe uni me putra khai fadzli fir dahlia & wheres yasin? Saturday, November 6, 2004 03:06 a.m. comment# gbook
are we the waiting?
fun stuff at Geylang with the SMU peeps. spent quite abit.. once a year lah.. splurge on the calories, cholesterol, cash and crappy jokes. had chicken kebab (3.50) + burger ramly beef special (2.50) + cheese pizza (8.00 split away) + murtabak + cheese prata + drinks + a tad bit of putu piring + deng deng + char quay. yup. hehehe. oh and i let Shoe draw henna on my left hand. so theres a flower, a piece of salad-looking leaf, half a butterfly-cocoon thingy and lotsa squiggles on my left hand. so if i talk to you guys with my left hand in my pocket.. please understand ah =) haha..
listening to Green Day's American Idiot album and i'm intrigued by the songwriting.. simple yet effective stuff. this album was written not as a collection of planned hit singles but to tell a story.. which should be what making an album is supposed to be about, really. of course having the hooks and great songs make it all listenable and singable and therefore a hit.. but there has to be a message too i think. its not supposed to be just nice sounding melodies and grooves. any musician can do that. its the ones that have something to say that we call artistes.
lets see if i can get some photos uploaded.
listening to my paris lounge cd now.. my head is clubbing, my hands are blogging, my eyes are tiring and somehow im thinkin.. i have an early and long day tmr. Saturday, November 6, 2004 01:16 a.m. comment# gbook
food.
are my entries being eaten? maybe my blog is as hungry as i am. going off to geylang to buka with the smu malay peeps. \m/ makan! Friday, November 5, 2004 04:10 p.m. comment# gbook
school.
posted last nite but didnt get tru:
i just got back jamming with Pale Pretense. Lin's voice has improved (quite abit after she drank whatever it was that she drank..) but i'm afraid that we might not be as tight as we should be. and Viv's misbehaving guitar or gadgets... it's not your playing dude.. its your sound. volume and tuning goes up down left right. get your les paul :)
went down to Soundmix studios twice to record Moren Tea Estates songs.. Overdue, Quitter, Come with Me and At the Edge. Should be time to post the better recordings up online, somewhere with fast speeds. maybe can put them up on doubleyellowline.org..put up and make all the recordings of the bands available there.
title is school and i've been talking about music. hmm.. recent stuff in school, Council Re-elections Motion, Being assigned a course that clashes with my Friday prayers, just had my Community Service Project Event, TAMA ROCKSTAR drumset incoming for the SMU studio, thinking of LAW as double major, java test today, econs project soon.. pretty much cleared most of my presentations and projects actually. just exams to prepare for and LTB and Econs presentations. oh yea and IS200 presentation. but no worries.. presentations are easy. hehe.. ego again.. tsk.
i'm interested to try and get involved with idea factory this december. hope that Ben gets me in for some projects. might even get an internship or something there. the whole company is designed for innovation and creativity. its too good to be true. :)
life's pretty hecticly good.. im just lacking out on family time, time for exercise and for my spiritual health. gotta balance.. gotta balance.. Friday, November 5, 2004 03:37 p.m. comment# gbook
mac is good
i've set my Dot to follow my voice commands and now im too lazy to use the keyboard. damn. mac is too good.
oh looking at my previous entry.. theeming with ego arent i? well we have our up and down moments. but its hard not to feel all warm and nice inside when all you have to do is say "Get My Mail.." and I just found out the application that can record stuff through the Ibook. its pretty clear. maybe can try it for recordings or mebbe lectures. hmm. Friday, November 5, 2004 12:49 a.m. comment# gbook
for the first time in my scholastic history, i am putting in effort into my daily studies and reaping results. i dont know by what manner of logic this goes by .. but if i put in 70% effort into this test or assignment, i really do get 70%. wow. term ends in a few weeks. dare I hope for straight As? hard to believe im enjoying school, working my ass off on stuff and getting good grades out of it. this isn't the "school" i know the last 12 years.. the school i knew back then was boring shite, get sent out of class (everyday) for being noisy and asking too many questions and mugging the last one month to get through exams. so what does all this prove? i am right and all those asshole teachers were wrong. creativity IS the way to go. questions should be asked. we SHOULD challenge everything. i AM intelligent. and no, there is no point in teaching 4 years of differentiation and integration to everyone. we should be allowed to learn whatever we like from sec 3. i'm not referring to combi, i'm talking about variety.
we do have wonderful schools implementing amazing changes into the education system. with some coming with ideas of making different schools specialize in different areas. but the people at the top (cluster superintendant and above) are not receptive to these changes because they have their own plans.
like many other things, change will come. sooner or later, they will get tired. and we will step up and stamp them out and implement our way until WE get stamped out. but until then... its only a matter of time, my friend.. muahaha.....
in other news, Bush won. all the red-neck states drowned out the forward states. *p Thursday, November 4, 2004 05:40 p.m. comment# gbook
reset. Thursday, November 4, 2004 04:58 p.m. comment# gbook
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