some smart ass is hacking into my computer. i have half a mind who it is. real men respect each other's privacy dude. its like peeping at a friend's wedding night or something. sheesh. i think he got into my computer for a whole day before i suspected anything. whatever makes ya happy dude..

Wednesday, June 23, 2004 12:35 p.m.

for all to take note.. i'll be gone facilitating at a mendaki camp from tmr (23rd) till saturday (26th) morning. yes that does mean this blog will be on a hiatus till then. and yes that means i cant jam these few days nor go out nor "hang". but its okay.. its going to be fun.

went out with my little sis, amirah in the evening. we went down to wheelock place where my mum and dad are.. returned my due library books (i realized i left one at home when i came back) and walked around with my pri 4 sis. got some weird looks from some people.. *how come that guy going out with a girl so young*.. got some nice smiles from some girls..haha *aaww..so sweet..* but basicly we just wasted our time at orchard waiting for my parents to be done.. not that many places i can bring a 10 year old.. relented to performing "magic" tricks with coins. some of you may have the unfortunate privilege to experience that.

friendster's getting smart.. i only managed to reload 7 pics. damn.

watched Incubus - Are you in 's explicit music video. very nice. i have an inspiration to organize something like that. seriously. all i need is the right location. go download that music video.. you'll understand what i mean.

Wednesday, June 23, 2004 01:59 a.m.

i went for a relative's wedding yesterday. made me think of the unescapable cycle that i'm in. grow up.. go to school.. serve ns.. have malay wedding.. have kids.. send them to school.. have their malay weddings.. raise their kids.. die before grandkids malay wedding. it all revolves around this ceremony of serving nasi briyani and orange punch to relatives who you hardly see the other 364 days of the year. but u get to see them decked with gold and padded with make up so maybe once a year isnt that bad. food is good. people take turns on the karaoke machines.. the only fleeting grasp for limelight for all the housewives (who train their karaoke skills at home) and the husbands (who train their karaoke skills in batam). some are very very talented.. some i felt like throwing my tender piece of ayam masak merah (chicken cooked red) at. but somehow theres a comforting feeling to having the same old routine malay wedding. it seems that no matter what you do in life.. if you have a malay wedding.. you're part of the society.. and that you're okay. its that social proof thing. yes.

after that i went down to bukit panjang interchange (yes theres such a place) and went to leonard's house. jammed on his muted skins pearl rhythmn traveler and plastic cymbals for awhile then followed him test some bass amps. i have been influenced to play funk songs with him in smu. explains why i have been listening to earth, wind and fire, michael jackson, james brown and yes even justin timberlake. horrified? dont be. i have gone too far to come back. as ros aptly described me.. "so you're an underground sell-out drummer ah?" still cant stand rasmus though.

went to raffles hospital today at 4:45pm for my office hours only medical examination. nurses and doctors there are stressed but some light conversation with them and my charming smile made it all fun i guess.. ( you dont say i actually have .. *gasp*.. CHARM? ) i wonder if the guy who takes the chest x-rays asks women to take off their top. i would like to be that guy for some time. saw this couple at the hospital.. familiar. think the girl's having the same medical examination as i am. yeah i remember where i saw them.. cheeky monkey's. they were the couple making out at the corner beside the dj booth. wow. i remember that yet i'm forgetful enough to pour water on my plate and rice into my cup. sigh.

went to sultan mosque for awhile and then to jamie's house. i dropped at the 13th floor thinking that his house was on that floor. wrong. realized that lifts at this level only go down.. they dont go up if i pressed the button. and no way am i climbing 8 floors of stairs. so i went down and went up again. got to the place. kc has a very cute baby niece. i made her laugh with my "my brosnan?!" smile.. and then we went down to jam at wee lee. im refering to kc not the baby.

it was a good drum set. again the toms are not directly attached to the hardware but have an isolating plate.. makes good resonance. im fully convinced that toms need to be isolated from the hardware. good work out. good session. had prata after that. home.

listening to a whole bunch of songs now. i went from justin timberlake - like i love you to earth, wind and fire - boogie wonderland to incubus - southern girl to my precious - thy lord is she. heh. and ros intro-ed us to this nifty download called evillyrics that automatically searches and displays the lyrics to any song that happens to be playing on your player. works for a whole lot of songs.. even marchtwelve and the mars volta. moren tea estate dont have. nvmind.

Tuesday, June 22, 2004 02:26 a.m.

current music ida - turn me on

jammed with pale pretense this afternoon. i woke up at ten in the morning. closed my eyes for five minutes and my handphone said 14:12 jamming was at three.

it was good set.. good drumset too.. im convinced that the RIMS system really makes toms sound good. maybe some other drummer spent some time to tune all the skins.. even though they look all battered and worn.. they really do sound good. i did some wicked drum solos but i dont think they were recorded.

had another prata dialogue after that at al-ameen. heh. and then me, isk and lin went down to town.. where isk (happy birthday bro) went to opposite hilton and me and lin spent sometime at zara. went down to popular and kino. where lin went home and i met up with joel and hambril.. if the details are boring you yet.. skip to later.. we chilled at spinellis.. oh i saw jackson at the traffic junction and we shouted ORD-LOH! haha.. one of those rare times i felt a little embarrased after a really public outburst. rare. hah. then ros came down from metal gig from planet paradigm and we had an hour of pool. 11 games. then i bought an ice cream and went home. oh i bumped into my cuzin Hid in the underpass..

and at the point forward i became an utter "Slenger" or lameass.. she gave me her number as starting with 8.. so later i checked it out at the bus stop.. and thought "silly girl.. she gave me the wrong first number.." so i changed it to 9 and msged.. didnt get an answer.. msged her on friendster later.. and found out that numbers do start with 8 now. i am such a lameass. and then i went to get some food.. took out a plate and a cup.. and proceeded to pour water on the plate and was about to put rice in the cup. my gawd. the rice in the cup woke me up. *i didnt put the rice.. i was about to though..* damn. put the rite food on the rite place and had "dinner" at 2am. im getting old.

in other news, i found out how to upload more than 5 pics in friendster. thats the only smart thing i've done so far tonite i think.

p.s. i have new shoes.

Sunday, June 20, 2004 04:12 a.m.

okay i should go to sleep now. but after this entry

doubleyellowline. august 15. substation. organizing something on this scale with no budget is a little hairy.. but this would get us the credibility we need. after that, i think we can organize the easier ones.. no problem. we'll keep on going.

tmr.. supposed to go to sentosa in the afternoon. omg. then stay over at erina's with the rest.. and send her off at 4 am. omg.

Thursday, June 17, 2004 03:48 a.m.

Wednesday, June 16, 2004 05:51 p.m.

hello excuse me.. no parking here.. got doubleyellowline. fined 6 bucks. and undergo correctional behavioural order at the substation with 6 experienced local bands that will rock you back into the arms of the law. thank you for complying with the ministry of local music. your stint begins and ends on august 15. 630pm to late.

i went around doing university stuff in the morning only to find out we've been kancheong spiders. had lunch at banquet. good food after so many days of ice cream. then played pool with ros and hafiz. they were sharing old times.. i was busy chick-watching. then we went home.

been doing some doubleyellowline work since i got home. damn i havent even showered. oi oi oi i shud get fined.

Wednesday, June 16, 2004 03:12 a.m.

my stomach's not been up to scratch lately. i dont get it.. oh well.. cant wait for the daily diet of 25cents macdonalds ice cream.

oh what cca shall i take in smu. sailing again? drama club? muahaha.. are there fraternities in singapore? shall i start one? frat party! lambda lambda lambda. all lambda members must be equipped with one Linux Self-Bootable CD-Rom.. one USB Thumb Drive.. and.. one philips head screwdriver.. if u cant hack the bugger.. steal his hard disk.. muahahaha... :X can i get arrested for inciting youths to computer crimes? i am kidding of cuz. of cuz.

hello. my name is mudz. i am going to be an undergraduate. do you need secondary level tuition? sure u do. please email me at stagedivingrockstar@hotmail.com no i dont bite. help me out guys.. i can have an excellent command of english when i choose to (which is hardly but.. yea its there) and i can teach anything except chemistry. and biology. and literature. damn.

ur brother/sister/cousin/son/daughter/friend/neighbour will never have a spunkier tuiton teacher. i mean that in all the good, clean sense of the word.

Tuesday, June 15, 2004 12:30 p.m.

the wretched ricocheting ratchets retched.

im contemplating letting my hair grow. problem is the sides grow out real thick.. i'll end up looking like wolverine. problem is i dont have three claws the can stick out. i know some of u are probably thinking of what i CAN stick out.. notti notti...tsk tsk

when i typed tsk.. my fingers naturally typed task task.. i had to go delete the "a".. omg.. am i workaholic.. NOPE...task..task..

there are no chicks in SIS. such is my fate. once a nerd, always a nerd. surrounded by nerds. you guys watched the movie, NERDS strike back: lambda,lambda,lambda? dont. it had a profound impact on a youthful impressionable mind, mine. hahaha. i am kidding of cuz. come smu, the classes will be a nice mixture of chicks and nerds. a bevy of skin-tight wearing girls flocking all over the buttoned-up, thick-glasses, pants-too-high males. i am kidding once again of cuz.

an ant crawled up my arm... to the tender insides of my elbow.. and in the most brazen and stupid act of its life.. chomped down. ants are jackasses. its dead now by the way.

Tuesday, June 15, 2004 11:50 a.m.

was settling the tuiton fees subsidies and loans this morning. rushed down to substation to meet ave and joel. met up with anand and isky.. the sound guys from substations. the old hands. kinda previewed the guiness theatre abit. then went to fat frog cafe.. ave has the name card. nyc and i got pissed at the receptionist.. ida wasnt there. then went to boons.. and ah boon isnt there. met up with lin and joel in lattitude.. went down to hmv.. kino then home. more admin stuff at home. and im up till now. i need sleep. ive moved the mendaki camp to 23rd june to 26th june cuz theres so many things to settle this week.. and so many things to do this weekend. gotta take my application photographs tmr.. but gotta go for a hair cut first. yea. heh.

call me late but i just watched "sharifah di atas sofa".. hahaha. reminded me of a waitress from al majlis.

Tuesday, June 15, 2004 02:59 a.m.

venus crossed the sun 6 days ago and i didnt know. happens every 122 years.. two crossings eight years apart. next one will be 2012. and after that.. 2134. where will we be then?

Monday, June 14, 2004 01:47 a.m.

today is sunday. went to ben's place for the doubleyellowline meeting. nice potato chips that randomly taste like shark's fin. hehe.. we're ripping out our kidneys there.

went down to garage for jamming with pale p. then went to mac's. then went home. the whole day whizzed by just like that.

i have no income watsover. and im going to volunteer for this camp this coming weekend. i need to give tuition. anybody interested? secondary school level though. maybe english at junior college level..

Sunday, June 13, 2004 10:48 p.m.

this week has been a kind of a whirl. i know there was hanging out at parkway parade and town with hanz.. where we bumped into hafiz, ashraf and raqeeb. there was people-watching in front of orchard point with naj. there was getting the tuition subsidy form from mendaki only to get another form mailed to me two days later. there was going around town sourcing for sponsors for doubleyellowline. was meeting up for rob's return this week? monday was it? or did i get my pink ic on monday.. there was finally jamming with mte today. meeting up with erina, joanna, greg and jialin for dinner and chinablack following that where edmund joined us. thank god for free entry and free ride home. muahaha. i wonder if offering to volunteer as a facilitator at the mendaki kids camp would help with the subsidy appeal. heh. nah i wanna do that cuz it'll be fun. i have no clue what happened when.. but this week went past like a cat on fire. speaking of cats.. i have none left.

i so have to shower now.

Saturday, June 12, 2004 02:37 a.m.

current music the mars volta - inertiatic ESP

thanks to a bunch of prawns yesterday.. my stomach has been on a loaded revolt. is that a nice band name? the load revolt? i am so mashed up by this unpredicted bout of food poisoning. argh. ergh. ow.

i spent the wee hours of the morning yesterday learning about SMU from a fellow sa schoolmate who's in smu now tho shes doing BBM.

argh.. its another revolt coming up.. but before i go.. check out this site i've been reading up.. www.hawking.org.uk

Wednesday, June 9, 2004 08:58 p.m.

"Letters To God" - Box Car Racer

caught off guard
all worked up
the air is as dark and cold as night
let me go
i'm not done
i swear i'll take just one lifetime and i

i won't lie
i won't sin
maybe i don't wanna go
can't you wait
maybe i don't wanna go

i should've asked
i could've helped
at least a fucking thousand times before
will this offer get me in
or does it prove that they gave more and i

i won't lie
i won't sin
maybe i don't wanna go
can't you wait
maybe i don't wanna go

and i
i won't lie
i won't sin
maybe i don't wanna go
can't you wait
maybe i don't wanna go

and i
i won't lie
i won't sin
maybe i don't wanna go
can't you wait
maybe i don't wanna go

Wednesday, June 9, 2004 08:33 p.m.

reading KC's chink entries reminded me of the joys of developing countries' television. though my experience with that is only limited to indonesian television. the girls are all mixed and HOT~~ but the guys are like... the uglier the better i think. damn. you'd have closeups of this 40 something guy with a bush for hair and cigarette-stained teeth, mouth agape in a weak semblance of a grin, prancing around with that hot 20-year old babe. damn the unfairness of it all.

i dreamt i was a samurai. haha. and because i couldnt save this child from this evil alien-samurai guy.. i chopped off my left arm. heroic eh?

i have not drummed for over a week. i am going to keel over and die. my fingers and feet are aching from all the stupid air-drumming *read: poser~!* bring me back some red dragon ointment, kc..

Wednesday, June 9, 2004 04:12 p.m.

note to self: no more SOLO ESPRESSOS from Starbucks at 7pm when u've only been sleeping at 3am everynight.. it'll push ur sleepy hour to GOD KNOWS WHEN!

Wednesday, June 9, 2004 04:18 a.m.

so im slacking these few days.. but come end of this month, i'll be embroiled into a chain of events that once triggered cannot be stopped. only one man can handle the pressure amidst all the insanity. only one man can save himself from going under.. and that man is.. ME! the skies will fall.. the buildings will crumble.. save everybody you can.. coming this summer.. the hit blockbuster....

THE MATRICULATION DAY

wahahahha.. and in july following that.. whole bunch of orientation stuff.. while juggling preparing for all the gigs in july and august.. not to mention the actual orientation package in august. and then school starts. its an avalanche i tell ya.. but its a good avalanche.. =) best thing to top it all off is maybe meet a really hot girl or something and fall heads over heels. that or finding $50,000 dollars in some random forgotten matures-only-if-he-goes-to-university bond that someone left me.. yea. yeehaa.

Wednesday, June 9, 2004 12:55 a.m.

and there came a flurry of gigs.

24th July Tapestry
Pale Pretense 430pm Somerset
Moren Tea Estate 730pm Somerset

25th July Tapestry
Pale Pretense 600pm Far East Plaza
Moren Tea Estate 730pm Far East Plaza

15th August DoubleYellowLine
Moren Tea Estate 7pm Substation

21st August HeartrockSingapore
Moren Tea Estate Maplewood Park

Wednesday, June 9, 2004 12:45 a.m.

im having nutella and bread now. reminds me of camp actually. kooky.. oh yeah.. mte.. we've got a gig with heartrocksingapore9.. this 21st August.. at erm.. Maplewood Park Lorong Ah Soo. i wonder why our gigs are always crammed together..

Tuesday, June 8, 2004 02:24 a.m.

i finally got my pink ic today. cant believe i havent held it for over 2 years. i havent had a proper meal the whole day. i am wasting away. i wish i found 89 dollars stashed somewhere so that i can get that zara sweater.

Monday, June 7, 2004 06:42 p.m.

listening to old mte live recordings, i have to say my drumming kinda sucked. hopefully my drumming's a whole bunch better this time round.. still got a lot to improve on anyway. but i cant wait to work on the originals again and revamp all the drumming.. and i think i almost got the drumming to smashing pumpkins - stand inside your love.. the constant hi-hat is more difficult than i thought. i think the mte webbie needs refreshing. i think mte needs refreshing. soon soon..

Monday, June 7, 2004 03:15 a.m.

had a nice lunch with family at Mackenzie. one of the best foods there.. definitely need to check it out you guys.

met up with the starwars channel gang cuz rob just got back from norway. corny fun. heh.

i so dont know what i've been doing on this laptop the last four hours. damn. sleep.

oh wait.. my kittens are ready for adoption guys.. they can eat solid food and they're quite independant. so contact me if you're interested in taking a kitten. thanks.

Monday, June 7, 2004 03:06 a.m.

current music saosin - i can tell

i went to ben's house today. was late. taxi fare that was supposed to be 3.70 became 4.40. wahahaha. on how the meeting went.. take a look at this.



haha. no lah. we had a good productive meeting. i just realize ave is the aveline chan i read in the newspapers. heh. oops. met melvin and kenny. hilarious mats born as chinese. oh wait wait.. earlier before that.. i asked joel to get Robitussin. and he went to get Swiss bon bons on the pretext that the tag said robitussin. wahahahaha. sigh.

met up with jacq later. firdaus mullen, faiz's bro, popped out from borders toilet. met lester, shan and erm kenny? shan has a very nice top. hah.

i think the mrt stopped service at newton mrt. everybody got on the buses. packed like sardines. and inching slowly. in the crowd, squeezed to the front door.. i was helping this young filipino girl with directions. ah well.

Sunday, June 6, 2004 02:19 a.m.

i've been immersed in this book the whole day. "The smartest guys in the room: the rise and fall of Enron" dry? absolutely not.. i love it. made me feel like i need to get a GPA of 4.0 and go to Harvard Business School for my MBA just to feel adequately educated. dont know if im SMUt enough. of cuz i am dont be silly.. everyone is.

i was writing this sms and i found i couldnt spell courtesy. is this spelt right? i was trying to shift the u and the e.. and i was thinking there has to be an o somewhere too.. damn. i settled for thank you for the thanks which sounded weird but whatever. hah. some people need to just chill. chill it, skillit.

what would a tiger that got its hair permed look like?

i went to camp today. realized SAF owes me 100 bucks. heh. and i got all the signatures except the freakin pay clerk.. who is on medical appointment. i got to go back on monday to get my pink ic. roar. i swear theres a conspiracy against ORD personnel going on.. we're talking high level surveillance on ord personnel.. and when they're going back to get their ics.. send just ONE necessary personnel for the processing of the NRICs on leave/medical appointment/extended lunch/meeting. nobody has yet to resort to temporary loss of control in their arms to get away from signing clearance forms.. thanks god. no wait.. i did.. back then. this must be bad karma..

Friday, June 4, 2004 02:06 a.m.

rachel weisz is hot. did i mention this before?

i need to drum.

Wednesday, June 2, 2004 02:08 a.m.

im bored.

Wednesday, June 2, 2004 01:43 a.m.

jammed yesterday with pale pretense at alvron. got there on time. and spent the next fifteen minutes tuning all the toms back to some semblance of what it should sound like and another ten adjusting the cymbals. just a note to all fellow drummers.. please dont crack the cymbals and please dont steal the condensors.. bad karma, pple.

jacq joined us AFTER the session. had prata at al-ameen. then headed down to orchard to support leaven trait's performance at Faber House Park. sound system's better this year but the lighting kinda sucks. buts its goods. Leaven Trait was good.. better than a lot of other punk bands i know around. the last song's a little fast though.. and Lokman likes to wink when he sings "ruby..." good start guys.. it only gets better.

i want a drumset at home. im getting the hang of all those ghost-notes. im dying to drum.

been reading all the stuff on the SMU website which got me freaking out abit. i fear for my calculus/statistics. i fear for my rusted programming skills (last i programmed was 3 years ago). but fear is a good thing. it helps focus and refine. anyway who said it was going to be easy. it better not be easy.. im paying good money here. (Actually im not.. but what the hey.. you get the idea)

going to work on a thursdays with the band comic. hehe.

Monday, May 31, 2004 04:41 p.m.

i wrote an entry last night but someone ate it.

my dad turned 46 yesterday. we had a birthday dinner in bugis.. Eatz 19. very nice place.. good food, value and service. funny name. good for dinner-dates.. check it out pple..

the singapore street festival started today.. Caught Always Marcia and Tin Pan Alley. good stuff. tin pan alley musicians were technical.. i've noticed that really really experienced bands or bands with members who study music, know how to get the best sounds out of horrid sound systems. newbie to average bands just plug in, set to the volume they always do and the sounds dont mix. and when it all sounds jangly and discord-ly (new word).. it sounds amateurish even though the band is playing together. i think.. and im far from an expert.. that facing all the amps and speakers to the crowd makes it all sound messy especially when the volumes dont mix. maybe face certain speakers to the walls so that the crowd get rebounded sound? ah well.. will learn to get this right.

my friends, leaven trait, performing tonite. be there. faber house. 8pm.

Sunday, May 30, 2004 12:44 p.m.

ergh. im still lagging from china bar last night. good stuff. john molina and krueger. good band. good stuff. good music. i said good stuff twice. the smoke (which was this thick ->|-1 metre-|) left me with a sore throat this morning to remember it by. so sweet of it.

havent been updating cuz my internet's been down the last few days. got pissed at the starhub shop at three different points last night.. long story. i dont get pissed often but.. suffice to say, customer service is THE factor if you want to have a company thats built to last.

anyway. I got into SMU. yay. haha. one in 9 they say. all's good.

oh and kc.. jeez.. how the fish does a hotel get broken into? very suspicious. heh. and have u been bitten by the business bug yet? sure u have. email us or something and maybe we can schedule sometime to all meet on mirc or msn or something. talky talk.

i've got jamming in little over an hour's time.. and my foot is still all bandanged up from last week. but i could dance willy-nilly last night so drumming should hopefully not be a problem.

Saturday, May 29, 2004 01:16 p.m.

how do u find rest and solace when time doesnt wanna stop ploughing forward? is there no peace for men? i'm trying to have some weeks doing nothing but collect all the thoughts and trying to take a break from the rat race and all that and i just cant. everybody expects everybody to be doing somthing all the time. and that expectation cant be tuned out. cant i sleep the whole day away cuz i CHOOSE to? how many of you attach negative conotations to that? #$^&@

how often do you see me bitch about something, eh? mark this entry down pple.

Thursday, May 20, 2004 01:05 a.m.

went down to smu this morning. bumped into dechao in the auditorium. of all pple, $#% heheehe. we've got almost identical results.. and we both clocked about the same number of hours skipping lessons to go down to funan taco bells back then. damn. hope we get in. it'd be fun. he lives 3 bus stops away anyway.

came back and slept. and now im going to sleep again. yay. sleep. zz.

Thursday, May 20, 2004 12:54 a.m.

i have an smu talk tmr morning. 1030 in the ungodly morning. evil when u're possessed by sleeping spirits that only leave after noon has passed.

met up with kc and ros. take care kc.. seriously.. one month in that (insert favourite description of THAT COUNTRY) is a long time. hopefully you update ur blog so that we can keep track on the amount of money you're going to make. you know, for tax reasons. good luck with the funky monks and the pagoda of truth.

i am so drained the whole day.. my right foot was swollen and i have this funny bruise in my inner thigh and all this must have happened during my sleep. and my joints are aching. whats ur diagnosis?

get a grip and go through life with ur mind unhinged. open the doors while its driving.. and toss the loss of all things that were important yesterday into the robot that sweeps everything up. beep.

Wednesday, May 19, 2004 12:34 a.m.

compare the patriot and troy. both movies had a lot of their cast die. both movies had duels between "heroes" amidst battles. both movies were driven by vengeance. both movies had hero commanders who didnt like to listen to their "kings". both had soldiers who carved wooden toys for their sons. troy had more sex. and troy also had legolas, boromir and a guy who looked like gimli. no hobbits though.

Tuesday, May 18, 2004 03:19 a.m.

what?

watched troy today. good movie. this blog is not going to repeat what u probably already know. heh. watched the show with naj, who is so corny sometimes.. I am sometimes moved.. not to tears but to bang my head against the wall.

Tuesday, May 18, 2004 02:54 a.m.

archived. that means a new layout. but im lazy. go watch paint dry or something first.

Saturday, May 15, 2004 02:39 a.m.