Wednesday, March 19, 2003/11:58 p.m.

was working on a new layout for this blog.. but got lazy after i finished all the designing and reached technical parts.. heh..

anyway.. went jamming with psychofaerietale.. pretty good. i was itching to drum since we finished the recording. heh. should get haz to upload some of the nicer recordings onto mp3.com or something..

gotta go to camp early tmr morn.. and i do mean EARLY morn.. so going to get some 5 hrs of sleep now..

i pray a miracle prevent the war from happening...could this be signs of the end? war for greed and power.. a new illness becoming a global epidemic... what ever happened to the right of being innocent till proven guilty? liberate the dictated people of iraq? the ones that were on the streets standing behind their "dictator", willing to give their lives? giving an ultimatum that almost every senator agrees that he will not agree to? isnt the very fundamental of american democracy is that the people's voice must be heard by the nation's leaders? i truly respect the americans who are going out in the streets, publicly protesting the war. are singaporeans capable of such action when in a similar situation? or would we just follow meekly like sheep?

Sunday, March 16, 2003/10:50 p.m.

listening to: duncan sheik's barely breathing

went to catch a movie with my godsis, erina. watched the emperor's club at lido. pretty good movie. i cant watch movies with guys.. like go out with a guy to watch a movie. feels too gay. heh. have to go with a girl. which pretty much means i dont watch movies very often..

listened to some local bands on mp3.com then listened to moren tea estate. i feel pretty good with our music. i like our sounds.. we're sounding how we wanna sound like.. does that make sense? :) we're hitting the notes that we want.. and hopefully it resonates with you guys.

going off to the airport tmr morn at 5am.. gonna go get some sleep. ciaoz.

Sunday, March 16, 2003/12:07 p.m.

home after the overnight recording stint. realized the guys have already blogged about it. heh. im home last. we had fun.. laughed.. we always enjoyed each other's company.. nice digital pics with merf's cam.. though the thing is all of us knew we screwed up somewhere with our own stuff. the drums.. sigh.. i already simplified some parts of the drums and yet i still screw up. it just sucks to play everything well then suddenly screw up abit, affecting the drumming for the rest of the song.. im not a consistent drummer. im self-taught.. and i drum according to the mood of the vox, guits and bass.. and its difficult to drum if i can only hear the rythmn guitar.. ah well.. i just have to get better.. i know im not good enough yet to be able to call myself a GOod drummer. one other thing that sux is that on the way home, at the mrt, i realized my army ezlink card is missing. it took me 3 months for the damn card to get tru army administration and now its gone. went back to the place to search for the card.. not there.. and while i was there.. the drummer that was recording there was like.. .... ... aaahhh freakin good! all the tricks with the snare and hi-hat.. i lost my confidence right there.. its sucks to ask urself.. am i good enough and not knowing for SURE whether u are or not... wateva man...

anyway.. we did two songs.. though not totally complete.. clarence will mix the songs up and let us listen to it.. i guess we'll spend a little of the next session just touching up on wateva part in the songs.. also i think we'll work on a new song next session. though i speak for the guys when i say we're a little tired of working on songs right now.. maybe a week of rest and other music before we work on moren tea estate again. in the mean time.. just chill lah... though the new fast songs we have in the works is pretty good shite.. anyway merf.. can u send me those pics please.. wanna work on the cd-cover for the demo cd.. or upload it to a new streamload account or something.. heh.

chillin at home till evening.. then maybe catching a movie in the evening.. tired. though dont feel like sleepin.

Friday, March 14, 2003/11:21 p.m.

i blabber all sorts of nonsense in my entries that im sometimes embarrased at what i wrote. damn i forgot how to spell embarrased.. is this right? im blaming my dip in my grasp of the english language on the army. knn...

hehe.. ok tonight's the recording night. i hope everything goes as smooth as some people's bottoms.. muahaha.. wth.. im a little high. woke up this morning and a song idea hit me.. was all excited about it but now im thinkin its a little chessy. haha.. thats me~ i realize a lot of people i know go through my site to go to the sites of other people i know. thats what LINKING is all about. so does that mean im a LINKING PARK? ok.. i know.. lame... haha...

not been listening to my dicsman nor the radio todae so that i can get my own creative juices outta my head. we're getting it done TONIGHT guys! woo hhoooo! tonight tonight~~ demo cd demo cd.. im gonna start designing the demo cd cover or something... yeah.. mebbe go with the clean fresh white concept of the site.. *reminds me of the colgate cleaner whiter teeth commercial* ok gtg..~ bang!

Thursday, March 13, 2003/06:21 p.m.

gotta be in camp by about 8 so ive gotta leave soon

the performance at jjc tmr was cancelled by the principal or the vp. simply said, jjc sux. even sajc administration rulz better than jjc. i remember all the tricks we did back in sajc to make sure our chromozones went tru.. and how i evaded all contact with the "authorities(teachers)" cuz the principal decided just before the show that I (me and me alone) cudnt perform cuz of some bad grades. its not my fault the national sailing competition a week after the mid-years... ahh those were the times..

hopin to get some sleep todae so that ill have the energy tmr for the overnight recording stint. should be fun. finally we'll get a demo cd out so that all u music organization pple can get a professional listen to what moren tea estate sounds like

ok i gtg.. see ya soon.

Saturday, March 8, 2003/01:55 p.m.

spent the last 3 hours on moren tea estate's website. im spent now. damn. if u must know its at
www.boomspeed.com/mteonline/mtefront.htm

gonna go sleep now. tired. morning.

Saturday, March 8, 2003/12:29 a.m.

feeling good :) hehehe

i feel good cuz i got to know someone actually took my advice and it worked wonders for them. i have to keep in mind my own advices. its all psychology man.. its my passion to know how our minds work.. all the behavioural patterns, habits, perspective bubbles, "logic", why people act a certain way even when its negative and illogical. it would be a great career to be able to help people clear all the garbage in their heads and help them think and succeed. george w bush has some garbage in his head. and all the terrorists have loads of garbage in their heads too. we should all continually get rid of our own mental garbage.

Pictures of Psycho.Faerie.Tale
just some pics of my other band jamming. :)

i got to know this guy in my camp who's a guitarist and learnt how to record music. he has a damn sharp ear.. thinking of getting him to maybe help arrange the music of Moren Tea Estate's debut album or something. hehe..

going down to jamie's (kc's) house later. gotta catch up with all the ongoings that has happened since ive been in the jungle (four straight days)

and to those who believed they didnt score well enough in the A Levels. You're right. You didnt score as well as you could. You know you are capable of much more. You dont need a piece of paper to tell you that. You know how good you are and so do we. Right now, you need to put aside that piece of paper and chase something more worthwhile. Remember, everything's part of the masterplan. There are better things ahead for you. You just gotta pick yourself up and be the kind of person you wanna be. As long as you hold on, your dreams will come true. I can testify to that. I'm LIVING one of my dreams.

Sunday, March 2, 2003/09:08 p.m.

erm yeah i know.. i took the pics last november and im only uploading it now? and arent the pics a little HUGE? yes well.. direct any comments to the guestbook.. some other pics on the way..

Sunday, March 2, 2003/08:59 p.m.

just some pics before i go..


Malay friends from SAJC. We met up to break fast late last year. From Left: Me, Nazi, Melati, Ridzwan, Salim and Adnan.


Three pyschotic killer-type personalities. The one in the middle is the scariest. Left: KC, Ronald, Merf


Ginie. My cat.. the younger one. i spent a long time on the floor waiting for this shot.

Sunday, March 2, 2003/07:52 p.m.

totally fucked up.. i wrote an entire long entry.. and my internet explorer chewed it all up.. and damn i wrote so much stuff in it...

check my time.. i spent 20 mins on the last entry..!! arghh damn computer..

anyway.. i hope this works.. watched Legend of Bagger Vance in the morning.. inspires me to play golf.. and reminds me of the mindset when one aspires to achieve...

went to jam with PsychoFaerieTale.. tight set.. i think we're ready for March 15's Battle of The Bands. hope moren tea estate can get a guestband slot in it.. wanna perform burn baby burn to a crowd..went to west mall after that to buy cable ties for the men of bravo coy (in army camp).. met farah and sofian they were supporting jia hui in the dance works 03 competition happening there..

this sux.. i wrote so much and now i cant remember what i wrote.. ill just write what i can remember... hmm.. yeah i think i wrote about being dejected about booking in and having a 4 day hectic exercise.. sigh.. jungle warfare sux. i cant wait for saturdae to come and i can continue the band's recording at the School Of Audio Engineering Singapore.. overnight recording.. yay! heh.

this girl called me in the cab in the morning but it just turned out her keypad wasnt locked.. and it was a mis-call.. haha.. i remember being infatuated with her.. but now.. i cant be bothered to go chasing after girls.. i just dont have the time and energy.. every other energy and time goes out to music. thats my focus.. got no time for a relationship.. it wouldnt be fair.. anyway booking in soon.. will find out what will happen to me since that RP booked me.. fuck that guy man.. kelvin keak.. really fuck that guy.....

oh yeah.. moren tea estate got a open mic session slot in esplanade in may. it'll be an acoustic set. we plan to do an acoustic set at borders too. this will be the year we're hitting out. slowly but steadily we're progressing into the band that we wanna be.

i hope when i press the submit button.. things dont foul up again. if u see this.. means alls good..

Sunday, March 2, 2003/01:15 a.m.

i still like lamenting
dont wanna be positive
dont know about you but ill take my own time
im lookin at you love me
the joy is but fleeting
oh how i would give to feel a little bit more
but theres nothing but
numbness
to the core
nothin but numbness
to the core

Sunday, March 2, 2003/01:09 a.m.

Foo Fighters - Everlong

Hello, I've waited here for you... Everlong. Tonight, I throw myself into, And out of the red, out of her head she sang. Come down and waste away with me, down with me... Slow how, you wanted it to be, I'm over my head, out of her head she sang. And I wonder when I sing along with you, If everything could ever feel this real forever. If anything could ever be this good again, The only thing I'll ever ask of you. You gotta promise not to stop when I say when. She sang: Breathe out, so I can breathe you in, Hold you in, and now, I know you've always been Out of your head, out of my head I sang. And I wonder when I sing along with you, If everything could ever feel this real forever, If anything could ever be this good again. The only thing I'll ever ask of you, You gotta promise not to stop when I say when. She sang: And I wonder, If everything could ever feel this real forever, If anything could ever be this good again. The only thing I'll ever ask of you, You gotta promise not to stop when I say when.

Sunday, March 2, 2003/12:47 a.m.

got booked by the RP (regimental police who guard army gates) while booking out last fridae. hes an asshole and he sucks. i dont wanna talk about it.

was supposed to go to illusion bar that night but lost my mood (stupid rp..) instead went to jamie's house to settle Unamed.. cuz we were gonna record it the next dae. like proper recording session and all.. so we tinkered with the structure and all.. its cool. so ...

saturdae.. my parents came home. from kota kinabalu. had a chat with em.. at shenton way.. talked about all sorts of stuff. then went down to boons for an hour's jamming before going down to School Of Audio Engineering Singapore for a two-hour recording session. sad.. jamie lost his MD. anyway.. recording...

recording is harder than i thought it would be. i messed it up the first few times.. but after a few tries.. i made one decent drum track.. following jamie's guitar on the headphones and me humming the vox to myself. that track itself took 45 minutes to complete.. and it wasnt perfect. then we tried to do guitar.. a couple of complications and all we ended up with is a guitar guide track. but it was a good introduction to recording. i think we'll be pretty good next time.. hopefully spending overnight next saturdae at the place to do recordings for unamed and at the edge. maybe we can record another song.. so that we can have a 3 song demo cd. mebbe 4 songs. we'll see.

it felt good to be in that recording studio. its like a high.. listening and recording and stuff.. i would love to be "working" as a recording artiste :) and performing at gigs. aahh.. one of the best jobs in the world. its not a job. its a passion. with it comes fulfilment, joy, cash, chicks and a great big crib. hahaha.. dreams of californication!

i seem to be having lotsa short paragraphs. mebbe im sleepy. or mebbe im just cool and this is a new blog fashion. or mebbe saying mebbe like this "mebbe" is a new way of coolness.. or mebbe its just irritating. ha.

edward de bono talks a lot of sense. if u have a sense of humour, you have the potential to be wise. i think ill end the entry right here -> .

Thursday, February 27, 2003/09:45 a.m.

went back home todae to drop off some dirty clothes, pick up my swimming trunks, read on a couple of blogs and blog one entry of my own. rushing back about now. busy at work.. been running alot.. keeping myself occupied. i always try to find something to do.. cuz i cant stand not having something to occupy my mind with. its the ultimate torture for me. i like to keep busy.. rushing from one thing to another. right now, all i have is work and music. no girls, no movies, no clubbing, no business, no meeting up with people, not really learning anything new. at least im reading some edward de bono. i cant stand not having anything to do or not having anyone to meet up with. makes me feel left out.. like a loser or something.

a lot of people always assume im the vocalist when i mention i have a band. heh. sometimes i still dream of maybe one day my voice sounds better or my throat doesnt feel so rough.. i wish i could sing well. but since i cant do that.. i will satisfy the other passion for music in me.. drumming. though i rather be singing... i cant imagine a better feeling in the world.. then standing on stage.. before a quater million crowd.. feeling so high.. and resonating that high with a clear voice straight to the crowd.. finish singing a song... feeling that high die down... then opening ur eyes to see a sea of people cheering for you.. and the high comes back again. heh.

listening to coldplay, the strokes and stereophonics. british alternative indie stuff. i like coldplay.

ive got an exercise coming next week. another few daes in the jungle. hope ill be out early this sat.

why do i blog for all to see, you ask? it is a natural human urge to be heard. no man wants TOTAL isolation. our nature is a dependent one. and it is healthy to release certain thoughts in one's head in a medium where people may choose to read it. no man says a word without wishing it to be heard.

Sunday, February 23, 2003/08:25 a.m.

ringing in head:zwan's honestly and juliana theory's seven fourty seven
reading:edward de bono's textbook on wisdom
feeling:sick in the stomach and heart at having to book in
wants:more freedom, gigs, things to start going right
wonders:why sometimes i feel so lonely