Sunday, October 13, 2002/10:18 p.m.

i chose to die while in her gaze
to arise in another place
cuz later on its gonna be time to go
to perform at my own show
and when the piper plays, the people danced
they slept in trees and lived in tents
when the stars circled around the sun
this is the place where we have fun
and this is the place where music ruled the world
and there was no modesty between boys and girls
this was the age where there was no sinning
cuz in this era, sin has lost its meaning
so that is why i chose to die
come with me and say goodbye

Sunday, October 13, 2002/07:46 p.m.

Sunday, October 13, 2002/07:29 p.m.

Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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Sunday, October 13, 2002/06:44 p.m.

im so stoned..

yesterdae was my bdae and it was good good great. my ex treated me to lunch at Hotel Crown Prince and also made me this wonderful art piece with a wooden box and test-tubes.. im very touched.

later on, i went down to the esplanade cuz it was going to have its grand opening ceremony and there will be plenty of fireworks... what a great day to have the opening ceremony of one of the world's famous art centres eh? met Hafiz, his gf Muni and Ashraf.. and we watched the opening ceremony and the first set of fireworks.. after walking around aimlessly for awhile that is.. haha.. later on met Joanna, Erina, Lynn and Vidhu.. (lynn's erm.. love interest) :) hehe.. so my 3 godsisters and i set on the railing of the highway connecting esplanade and the merlion and had a front row view of the spectacular fireworks... for the first time, i was actually amazed at fireworks.. simply breathtaking.. called Eugene who was with his guys at Marina Square (which was nearby) to come join us on the highway.. i said that i had too many girls under my arms to handle so you gotta help me... hahaha.. but somehow he got lost in the crowd and never made it to meet the girls..

anyway, after all the fireworks are done, i met up with Eugene and "Ah Beng".. haha.. and went on down to Muhd Sultan Rd.. where we met up with 3 other guys and had one of the greatest club experiences ive ever had.. no...no homosexual experiences involved!.. haha... Orange is a great club.. the music after 12 is just *PHEW! SHIOK AH!* hehe..

didnt do much today.. was supposed to meet some guys at 1045.. but they didnt go clubbing.. and its insane to get me out by 10 when i slept at 5.. bummed with the internet and mtv.. with some notes from my military course... all in all.. all's good.. i didnt break any rules and i had a blast of a time..

Thanks to everyone for giving me such a great day yesterday! You guys ROCK MY WORLD!!!

Friday, October 11, 2002/11:21 p.m.

tired. tired. tired. sleep. meep. merku. muahahah *fuzzles* nitez all

Thursday, October 10, 2002/11:01 p.m.

was about to stand up and leave when i saw my pic below disappear... wtf... so.. its at www22.brinkster.com/kornifica/joe.jpg or redsunset.sinfree.net/photos/joe.jpg ... try if u can.. if u want.. sometimes u just dont know why u do the same thing for 8 photos and 1 just refuses to work... FAHK!!

Thursday, October 10, 2002/10:55 p.m.

going to sleep NOW. wanted to go on mirc to chat to some people but cant.. im too sleepy.. and theres master parade early tmr morning.. gotta be in tip top shape.. so to G who wanted to see a bald pic of me, i hope u got ur wish.. haha.. getting foozy woozy already... fuzzles! hehehehe....

suddenly the screen kinda swirls around abit.. cool.. everything;s jumping around like shaken jelly... nitez i really gotta go....

Thursday, October 10, 2002/10:38 p.m.

a pic of me, january this year.. when i just got enlisted in the SAF. yup.. this is me the recruit in Hawk Company. Posted this up cuz somebody wanted to see a pic of me botak and all.. haha.. botak means bald.. and bald means sexy... hahaha.. right.. realized ive got some old pics lying around in this laptop so i thought i mite as well uploaded it HERE. MY NEW PICTURES PAGE.

yes.. its all very impromptu so there could be some bad links. also, i gotta warn u... i didnt have the time to adjust all the pics to a nice quick download size.. so erm.. happy waiting.. and these pics are very nice pics of me.. but wtf.. they're still up there..

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Wednesday, October 9, 2002/10:54 p.m.

the place beyond the stars

why wont you
come with
me to
the realm of my dreams?
and couldnt you
let me
bring you
to the place beyond the stars?
cuz ive tried so long,
to get you in my arms
ive tried so long...

i met you at the coffee club that saturday morning
you were sitting there,
like a goddess out of a silent movie
but
the wafts of steam
from your cup of mocha latte
is warmer than your feelings for me
and your crusty sugar caramel
on your chocolate chip muffin
is sweeter than you'll ever be
to me
to me
to me

so did you
think that
ill be
just the way i was before
did you
think that
i wont
love you anymore?

the impromptu work above is fictious. any relations to any persons living or dead is pure stupidity

Wednesday, October 9, 2002/09:49 p.m.

Amateur movie! You might not be too experienced in the way of sex...but chances are, you do enjoy it (or the thought of it). We'll probably see you in some home video that surfaces on the internet one day.


What kind of porno would you star in?
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Wednesday, October 9, 2002/09:15 p.m.

the course is starting to give out some stressful loads... its 8 am to 6pm of non-stop lectures, presentations and note-taking.. presentations was fun.. practised my public speaking. i'm starting to get really comfortable with the crowd as i speak.. good sign.. i hope.. no i guess..no.. i KNOW im improving.. hahaha.

im feeling good about myself.. im not sure if its arrogance or pride or just good self-esteem.. cuz im really comfortable in this class.. and i feel the support for me to take leadership roles. i guess i am happy for myself that i was able to carry out everything that i wanted myself to do.. and this is no mean feat.. i guess if we could do what we really wanted to do.. and do it everyday... we would be the kinda person we really wanted to be.. cuz my dad always said "You are who you are today because of the choices you have made before and all the steps along the way." yeah... im proud of myself.. but i know im no better than they are.. tho i admit sometimes the thought comes into my head.. im better than them.. but when i really open my eyes i can see the abilities and potentials of others far exceeding my own.. and its good to work in a team.. cuz i cud depend on them for help when i needed it.. i guess what im trying to say is.. im happy with the braders in this course, i feel that i can excel and im really thankful and happy about it.

its funny how with certain people, u feel u cant connect and u cant meet ur potential.. some people stifle each other i guess... or maybe its more in group dynamics.. cuz two alphas in a group would generate conflict and stuff... while an alpha with betas and deltas work fine... u know what.. i dont know what i just said... muahahahahah

im going to sleep early tonight cuz i didnt last night.. and i think im actually gonna revise abit of UNIT SUPPLY MANAGEMENT. damn. its a supply supervisor course.. quite a high post on the service side of the SAF.. the course IS interesting in some parts.. as my fren Hong En said in class "its like being in a lecture in SIM" haiz...

yub yub commander

Monday, October 7, 2002/10:45 p.m.

what a day! re-adjusting to the trainee mindset took me awhile... but everything went perfect today. on top of that srgt benjamin appointed me as the class ic (similar to the platoon ic) for today, tmr and so on till the class ic roster was done.. sheesh.. hehe.. but it was pretty fun giving commands for marching off and stuff.. "class.. seeedddiiiiii..AA!" tmr is the course opening ceremony and they wanted me there early for something.. i hope it isnt some big thing they want me to do tmr.. its been quite a big rush.. but at least this is a good step towards my goal to become an instructor.. ive set another goal too.. to become best trainee.. yes.. i will be :) tho there is so much competition.. but if it has to be, its up to me!

met jamie at bishan just now... good old fun jamie.. hehe.. discussed some songs.. at starbucks.. id rather meet up with frens and chat and stuff rather than stare at da tv every nite.. feels more productive.. okay.. gotta sleep real soon.. cuz i gotta be IN camp by 710..

12 oct is a good day.

Monday, October 7, 2002/05:53 a.m.

leaving for camp in about 15-20 mins... going to be real early on the first day of my course.

anyway... ive had a bang of a weekend. i met up with the october babies... lynn, erina, joanna, gregory.. we booked a room at city bayview. shared some presents, went down to china jump.. i had a salmon pasta.. it was the best tasting salmon ive ever tried.. heh.. hmm.. wat else.. we walked down to muhd sultan road.. lynn got us free entries into ORANGE.. it was cool.. they had some drinks.. and it was time for the dance floor. and surprise surprise i met my bmt section mate Leon rite there! haha.. we talked and stuff.. introed him to the girls and the guy.. haha.. yeah.. it's funny how bmt section mates or platoon mates have a real soft spot in guy's hearts.. no gay shite orite?anyway.. later on in the partying... my phone got lost! i seemed to have dropped it on the dance floor and i guess it got kicked around.. however... we tried calling it and it still rang so it means that nobody has picked it up yet.. few minutes later, my phone called joanna.. haha.. an ORANGE staff got hold of my phone somewhere on the floor. met her at the entrance.. Tracy, her name was, gave me a mild lecture before returning the phone.. *RELIEF!!* haha.. and she said if i didnt come back to the club this weekend, ill turn into a tortoise. hahaha...

that was the climax of my weekend.. sundae wasnt so wild.. just met up with tat and cori.. and walking around and snapping photos of the merlion.. we were tourists on our heartland..haha.. yeah well.. at least i had a bang of a weekend before my course started.. no worries..no regrets..im just hanging on for the ride...

ok... SEEYA!

Friday, October 4, 2002/11:00 p.m.

a lot of things are happening at the same time.. lotsa changes at this point.. staying oriented and on the top of things..

i feel like having a nice long shower...

Thursday, October 3, 2002/12:12 a.m.

bummed at home for most of the day... strenously practising my coach potato skills. hehe... i love MTV!

i surfed alot too. anyway went out later in the evening.. sent my library books, browsed tru sandman comics at kinokunikya, listened to juliana theory and mxpx at borders and later went on to meet my parents and some family friends near borders...

meeting jamie tmr...and celebrating my bdae with a group of October babies (they're 18 year old babies) this saturdae... can predict it to be a major burn in the pockets.. haha.. not sure if theres time to jam this weekend.. maybe sundae afternoon or something... hey damn i just remembered there are good gigs this sat... lasalle and substation gigs.. and ive been asked to go to both.. die..

seriously planning for a gig by end of year. we really got to get off our butts and do something to get some exposure...

Tuesday, October 1, 2002/09:50 p.m.

In the end, we didnt go for the outfield exercise. and i bought two cans of "ayam brand" tuna mayonaise..

I just did up the poems page.. its very simple.. and there arent many poems.. its either very old poems or very new ones.. i cudnt be bothered to go hunting for my poem books in my room.. my dad calls my room "the black hole of calcutta"... dont think like that, you sick pervert!

so yeah.. its up. finally.. will add more poems..if i have the time... tho i have more lyrics then poems.. but i guess those lyrics that never made it to a song will probably end up on the poems page...

off tmr.. i donno wat to do.

Monday, September 30, 2002/08:09 p.m.

i think jarr (joseph and the red nosed rangers) should stick to punk rock.. cuz good old punk rock and powerful emo dont mix. planning to set up another band name as an emo front.. for our emo songs.. going to test this idea with the guys later...

i MITE be gone for the next 3 days... another outfield exercise... its 50 50 at this point whether we're gonna go.. SAF organisational skills... they dont even know whether we're going or not... sigh.

i realized its a really small world in singapore... every other guy has met every other guy and ive met every other guy. damn. i think all of us noe people who we think have no links to each other but in fact do... and we find out like one monday afternoon... and go "shit.. you mean that guy? the TJC guy rite? with the funny nose? i know the bitch!" yeah... haha..

i wanna at least join one band or song competition or perform in a gig before the year ends.. damn.. we've got everything except time, cash and organisation! (dont all bands..)

Monday, September 30, 2002/07:46 p.m.

You are THE INTERNATIONAL NOISE CONSPIRACY!
It wouldn't surprise people if your father was a great leader of environmental and politically correct humanitarian groups in Europe and your mother designed mod clothing for French supermodels in the '60s. You read by day and go dancing by night. You also pretend to actually know what you are talking about most the time. And you have a funny accent.

What fashionable underground band/style are you?
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Sunday, September 29, 2002/01:25 a.m.

tonight i learnt

family and friends are always ready to hear, accept and listen to pent up frustrations and stress.

focus on what i have and not on what i lack.

morning. morning comes.

Saturday, September 28, 2002/09:99 p.m.

a minute before ten

went down to marina south for some camp activities in the morning. soccer was the camp activity. and eating donuts.

went out with the guys to erm "pah billiard" and "go lan". for the uneducated, it means "to go have a session of billiard" and "play LAN games". haha... the mutilations to the english language in an army camp can make my gp teachers puke blood.

went down to the studio at 4 while the jamming session was at 5. somehow i occupied myself till it was time. it was a good session... tho not one of the best. we have a killer song out today. and i cudn't stop doing emo drumbeats... must be all the emo music i have been listening to the entire month. like 24 hours emo.. so my hands always wanted to drag the drum beat abit... emo style. was having a hard time doing simple, fast punk beats. ok not so hard but my hands kept itching to emo beats.. haha...

we went down to the sungei road flea markets... lotsa cool stuff like old school gramaphone records, cool cheap shoes, remote controls, EVERYTHING was there. i was looking for a bong... there wasnt one. there wasnt even weed. i dont know.. i hate cigs but i dont mind smoking a little weed... hahaha...

im broke again. i really have to manage my cash flow...

oh shit! my library books!!