Sunday, April 13, 2003/05:32 p.m.

i saw dewi last night at the bus stop with saiful.. but i didnt go over and say hi cuz they dont know me. and i was too shy to intro myself anyway. yeah. i know this sounds weird but i just had to get it off my chest. anyway she looks different with the hair.. like ginette from astreal's hair or something.

anyway.. jammed with psychofaerietale.. erm i mean pale pretenses .. name change. haha. good session. one of the best i think. i think im improving. the previous recording of "so small a world" made me realize some of my drum rolls sound damn clownish. and ive been practising alot.. im building up to the debut gig :)

went to the army market before that with the family. sundae morning's always family time. had my uniform sewed with the new rank of 3rd sergeant.

going to leave reeaall soon. gotta be in jurong by 7. jam till 9. then chill out till i have to book in later at 11. thats pretty late. i think i shud book in a little earlier cuz tmr morning's pretty hectic in camp. hope the acoustic session with MTE later goes well.. cuz sometimes when i drum too much.. my drumming becomes dull.. oh well.. hope things go right. will be trying out my new acoustic wire brushes.

MOODS will be playing at esplanade library this thursdae. my cousin's the drummer.. and the bassist is the same bassist from force vomit. and is also the guy im going to borrow their drumset from. i should go down there.. :) gonna take off.

Sunday, April 13, 2003/01:32 a.m.

woke up to a "commanders' run" this morning. at least i wasnt shagged-out like some of the other commanders.. this CQ is pretty fit.. haha.. had to attend this after-action-review debriefing.. booked out at 1200..

relistening to MACHINA Machines of God Smashing Pumpkins.. damn this cd rocks!! superstupendouslyoverthelimit thekindathatmakesuEARGASM!! hahaha..

went out to jam with jarr at wee lee aljunied.. i was hyped up by machina so that explains why i rocked on the drums.. hahaha.. bought wire brushes from there.. can wait to try them out.. gotta call the bassist, wan, from force vomit on when i can rent their drumset.. gotta make time for that..
went down to city hall after jamming. ate BK.. oh yeah i bought this really cool pair of 2nd hand jeans at the penin 2nd hand levi's shop. the guys brought me there.. i think faz got the address from dewi's blog.. the jeans pretty cool and it only cost 5 bucks.. definitely a bargain.. hahaha..

walked around to s-11.. walked among the alleys behind capitol theatre.. climbed capitol theatre.. then went to the bus stop beside capitol building for a busride home.

u know how some people pronounce internet? like innttterrrrNet.. i dont know.. it just kinda cracks me up sometimes... just one of those things.

Friday, April 11, 2003/02:43 p.m.

the damn slight fever just doesnt wanna go away.. it goes up and down.. sigh

the mosquitoes in the jungles have an IQ higher than some of the people i know in camp.. i used a camo skarf/net to cover my face when i was sleeping.. so that they wouldnt bite my on my face. logical right? made sense until i woke up with a damn swollen nose. cuz the nose is the only thing in contact with the camo net.. the mosquitoes cant bite my face but they can sure bite my nose.. and DAMN my nose really swelled. it felt like 1.5 times bigger or something. i felt like a clown. haha. i could breath a lot better though.. haha.. it went down soon enough tho..

lotsa things went wrong. some of which i can be charged with but .. so far so good. damn. my storeman sux.. he does the work just enough to cover his ass.. he always barely covers his ass.. i mean he's the kinda guy who only thinks of himself. like if u see a fren's phone beside u left behind.. wudnt u at least keep it for him? he wudnt. he didnt. the driver kept my handphone that i left in the army truck.. and the driver i onli met two daes ago and isnt even from my own camp. damn. wtf.. he just doesnt care about other people. and here i was thinkin about his welfare.. i keep trying to be hard on him and shit.. but damn i think im too soft. i seriously cannot keep scolding and f**king him up every single day. he's sapping up my energy.. thats why he gets kicked around in camp till he became my storeman. imagine this guy with a pot-belly, always on the handphone or sleeping or smoking or gambling with a face that u cud smash in with a brick without a thought. damn. I WANT A NEW STOREMAN!! cant reason with him.. i have to get another storeman.. damn.

Sunday, April 6, 2003/02:05 a.m.

im feelin better though not fully recovered yet. i have the distinct feeling i shouldnt be going out and walking around but i know if i dont.. i wont really get well. gotta shake the sickness off... hehe..

family day todae.. pretty fun.. lunch at sakura.. went to orchard, sim lim, cuppage, thomson plaza.. haha.. been looking for wire brushes but yamaha doesnt sell them.. told me to try swee lee.. gotta get those wire brushes.. and start practising acoustic drums.

met up with the mte guys + lokman + leo + a girl who interviewed us.. hehe.. went down to bugis for the interview.. then chatted with the guys.. met geri.. nothin much special happened tho..

MTE might just finally have a female vox.. nothin's confirmed yet so we're just keeping our fingers crossed.

Thursday, April 3, 2003/11:12 p.m.

damn its thursday night already.. and i thought it was wednesdae.. was fulling expecting another day of freedom.. hahaha.. it feels so goooooddd to slack at home for daes.. damnnn...

going straight into the jungle exercise on mondae.. must remember to have a happy/crazy attitude when im there.. no use having a sober/miserable one... gotta have fun in the jungle! hahaa... siao!

damn.. ash rocks.. so does smashing pumpkins and foo fighters.. they're the most common songs in my playlist right now.. together with juliana theory and of course, moren tea estate.. haha.. all our songs.. even the erm B sides.. hehe..

what? you dont know who ASH is? shame on you! with songs like burn baby burn and girl from mars? you better turn on ur kazaa and get them! NOW!

Thursday, April 3, 2003/01:13 p.m.

PROBABLY NOT SARS DAY THREE:
at least my fever broke. so i think its not SARS. i figured out how i got infected though. my mom infected me cuz she has the flu too and she met up with her friend who had travelled extensively to Hong Kong, Jakarta and wherever like two weeks ago. but her friend's fine and so is she now.. so i guess it was a flu bug from HK but not the serious one. ive heard from the doctor about a huge increase in normal flu just before SARS came out. maybe the damn thing mated with a pneumonia-causing thing... i hope im down with the daddy-version of the flu and not the damn fatal offspring.. heh.

so its not SARS. but that doesnt mean i wont die at anytime right? heh.. who knows...

well.. my dad leaving for Kota Kinabalu in SABAH todae. big Business event. and he's the one keeping me confined in the house (i know its for my own good) but i guess now i can start thinking of when to jam with the guys. mebbe one of these daes. im finally starting to get stressed about the acoustic performance cuz i still havent settled the drum set-up. a draw-back for being self-taught.. u dont know what u dont know. might go and touch up on our recording at SAE this sat.. cuz jamie is going to touch up on his vox recordings so we might as well touch up on ours too.. i know my drummings isnt satisfactory.. to me at least.

smallville's clark kent can't shoot lasers from his eyes yet.. and how come when he sees through things.. sometimes he can see tru the bone and sometimes he can see the more pleasant flesh?

Wednesday, April 2, 2003/09:58 p.m.

Ash - Girl From Mars

Do you remember the time I knew a Girl From Mars?
I don't know if you knew that.
Oh we'd stay up late playing cards,
Henri Winterman Cigars.
Though she never told me her name,
I still love you, Girl From Mars.

Sitting in our dreamy days by the water's edge,
On a cool summer's night.
Fireflies and the stars in the sky,
Gentle glowing light,
From your cigarette.
The breeze blowing softly on my face,
Reminds me of something else.
Something that in my memory has been replaced,
Suddenly it all comes back.
And as I look to the stars.

I remember the time I knew a Girl From Mars,
I don't know if you knew that.
Oh we'd stay up late playing cards,
Henri Winterman Cigars.
Though she never told me her name,
I still love you, Girl From Mars.

Surging through the darkness over the moonlight strand,
Electricity in the air.
Twisting all through the night on the terrace,
Now that summer's here.
I know you are almost in love with me,
I can see it in your eyes.
Strange light shimmering over the sea tonight,
And it almost blows my mind
And as I look to the stars

I remember the time I knew a Girl From Mars,
I don't know if you knew that.
Oh we'd stay up late playing cards,
Henri Winterman Cigars.
Though she never told me her name,
I still love you, Girl From Mars.

Today I sleep in the chair by the window,
It felt as if you'd returned.
I thought that you were standing over me,
When I woke there was no-one there.
I still love you, Girl From..
MARS!

Do you remember the time I knew a Girl From Mars?
I don't know if you knew that.
Oh we'd stay up late playing cards,
Henri Winterman Cigars.
Though she never told me her name.

Do you remember the time I knew a Girl From Mars?
I don't know if you knew that.
Oh we'd stay up late playing cards.
Henri Winterman Cigars.
And I still dream of you,
I still love you, Girl From Mars.

Wednesday, April 2, 2003/02:21 p.m.

PROBABLE SARS DAY TWO:
so i went back to camp this morning even with my MC for todae. told the OC about my condition and he told me to go see the MO immediately. the medical officer gave me four days MC.. heh. my condition's worsening abit. body's aching.. fever. sore throat doesnt hurt so much anymore tho. tried to stay in camp to settle the logistic needs for next week's exercise but i couldnt take it. my body was like throbbing. damn. had to go home. i hope my erm subordinate handles things ok. anyway im getting my long due 3SG (3rd Sergeant) rank soon. supposed to be last month but saf administration only works when they get f**ked. so yeah.. back pay coming soon... hehe.. ill store the money first.. i hope i dont go on a spending spree or something.

im confined to the house.. how am i gonna go to the magazine interview later? mebbe MTE can come to my house or something. heh.

Tuesday, April 1, 2003/10:08 p.m.

POSSIBLE SARS DAY ONE:
Guess who's down with flu symptoms? yup.. me. its day one for me. went for a check up just now instead of a planned jamming session with MTE. the doc assured me its probably not SARS. probably not. gave me an MC for tmr but im still going back to camp. they say the incubation period is ten days. ill just see if i get high fevers and stuff.

this aint an april fool's joke

i recommended to my OC to conduct a health screening for my entire company considering we've spent the entire last month at the changi airport. ah well.. just gotta wait and see.

you know how some people of greatness only achieve greatness after a momentous (my spelling is really down the drain) event in their lives? like they've lost everything in their lives and have nothing else to lose or they nearly died or something like that. i've always wondered what my milestone life-changing event will be like.. or if im never gonna leave an impact during my stay on this earth and just lead a hum-drum life out. i dont believe that.. something in me speaks of something better. but i donno.. i feel like im waiting for a trigger. maybe u need to lose something to appreciate life more.. or maybe u never do and just die and burn in hell or something.

i love the scene where billy elliot broke out of his toilet and danced all the way down the street. dont u ever feel that? something in you that just burns itself out? you literally become a medium for something greater. you're the puppet for the feelings inside to pull on. i recognize that feeling. when the music inside becomes so powerful, you dance. :) dancing becomes necessary. its becomes sinful NOT to dance. THATS PASSION

he broke out of his toilet!


speak to me people.

Monday, March 31, 2003/10:21 p.m.

messed around with web design todae.. got this song idea.. abit british alternative.. worked on it abit.. then i went down to meet up with my braders Hafiz and Eugene. My army braders.. they've already gotten their 3SG rank.. while im still waiting for mine. damn manpower.. i think its time for me to get pissed in camp. ive been MR Nice Guy for pretty long. things have better fall in nicely or i'll start pushing the power that i actually have. second only to officers.. yes i may sound arrogant but damn it my patience is at end.

fear factor. what would you do for 100 000 USD?

Monday, March 31, 2003/01:30 p.m.

last days doing airport duty. got off todae. still i get phonecalls from camp to settle this and settle that. sigh. and this is my only off dae in a long long while. gonna have an exercise next week. damn long one too.. irritating.. wateva..

sometimes i think im being too proactive... im gonna concentrate on my own stuff more..

wanna watch city sharks and the core.. and ive a craving to club again.. must call my brader eugene.. hehe..

Friday, March 28, 2003/11:12 p.m.

Smashing Pumpkins - 1979

shakedown 1979, cool kids never have the time
on a live wire right up off the street
you and i should meet

junebug skipping like a stone
with the headlights pointed at the dawn
we were sure we'd never see an end to it all

and i don't even care to shake these zipper blues
and we don't know
just where our bones will rest
to dust i guess
forgotten and absorbed to the earth below

double cross the vacant and the bored
they're not sure just what we have in store
morphine city slippin dues, down to see

that we don't even care as restless as we are
we feel the pull in the land of a thousand guilts
and poured cement, lamented and assured
to the lights, and towns below
faster than, the speed of sound
faster than, 
we thought we'd go, beneath the sound of hope

justine never knew the rules,
hung down with the freaks and the ghouls
no apologies ever need be made, i know you better than you fake it, to see 

that we don't even care to shake these zipper blues
and we don't know just where our bones will rest
to dust i guess
forgotten and absorbed to the earth below

the street heats the urgency of sound
as you can see there's no one else around 

Friday, March 28, 2003/06:45 p.m.

been intensively practising my drumming these few daes.. i dont know why.. perhaps i know i dont have much time before the performances to really practise. army's not helping. ive got an exercise next week, unit evaluation exercise next month, overseas exercise the following month, NDP preparation after that. arghh... the following months will be agonizingly slow yet will zoom past me.. u know that kinda feeling? sure hope nothing impt in camp happens on performance day.. may 17 esplanade and june 26 orchard.

nothin to do todae. so im just stayin home. heh.

Tuesday, March 25, 2003/11:57 p.m.

went jamming with psychofaerietale. good session. fun was the word. then went down with ros to the esplanade to meet up with the guy there whose handling the performance we're gonna do in may. also.. the people at the library seem to like us cuz they're asking us to perform at the library@orchard in june too. :) yay! pretty cool stuff... walked around, met up with jamie.. talked about the gig and stuff.. then went home.. i got tired. fatigue caught up with me... going back to camp tmr. sux. need to sleep. nitez.

Tuesday, March 25, 2003/11:27 a.m.

got back from airport duty. pretty much the same stuff... got to walk in the restricted area.. the airport's so much better on the other side.. with DFS stores, coffee bean, bookshops, everything! damn.. it rocks just to be walking there in uniform, with the beret.. looking like you actually have a big purpose for being there.. (sgt imran and me were just checking on the patrol teams.. hehe..) ah well.. it was fun.

resting abit todae. jamming later.. with which band i dont know.. jamie seems not to be able to make it while psychofaerietale keeps rescheduling.. (is that how u spell it?).. i wanna go esplanade. and later eat something that oozes mayonaise. (no sick thoughts please..)

Sunday, March 23, 2003/12:39 a.m.

Had to rush to get a hair cut in the morning. Cut and Shampoo. Its nice to get someone to wash ur hair for ya. Its like getting ur hair clean and a head massage at the same time. haha.. anyway...

Went to the Eurasian Association Gig today with Ros, Faz and Tuah. the sound system wasnt good. first few bands were pretty much the average local punk bands. then came this band which proceeded to play some of my fav songs "foo fighters-everlong" "smashing pumpkins-zero" "jimmy eat world-sweetness" even "iron maiden-the trooper" and "deep purple-highway star".. damn. ok their originals werent great but love their covers. the chicks that cheered for them were damn fine but they're most probably their girlfriends.. haha.. anyway met is and viv (psychofaerietale bassist and guitarist) there. i wrestled is and tore his shirt. haha.. sorry man! ill get ya a MTE shirt. :)

note to self: if MTE goes to gigs without at least one female entourage.. we might look like we're gay... anybody wanna be moren tea estate female entourage aka groupie? haha..

went to geylang to makan nasi ayam. hehe.. the cik gave us some free food too. :) after that went down to orchard to meet up with lokman who's ending his Basic Military Training in about a week. good for you! hehe.. had cafe latte (big cup) at spinellis (which is why im still awake) before we headed home

tmr is another two day duty at the airport. at least i got to enjoy myself abit todae as a civillian! sigh.. theres so much weight on the shoulders once i put on that uniform.

Saturday, March 21, 2003/03:08 a.m.

a refresh button was pressed somewhere and this blog changed

got tired of the frames look so i re-did the layout. not fully complete yet but the gist of the idea is here.

slept alot in camp todae.. wow.. i felt so slack to wake up pretty late in camp this morning. with nothing to do.. i woke up at around 930.. this versus 530am.. hehe.. good.. good.. had a bunch of weird dreams.. cant remember most of em.. ah well..

guess im going down to the eurasian house gig later in the afternoon with ros and faz. then off to esplanade to discuss with the guy there about our may acoustic gig.. may 17 i think. :) all's good.

todae im reminded of a good lesson.. you wont get something unless you ask for it.