Wednesday, January 1, 2003/05:17 p.m.

to die would be a great adventure.

Wednesday, January 1, 2003/03:00 p.m.

new years rave.. and i just woke up

where did i go yesterday? at 9 i was still at home, my previous plans down the toilet after some people decided to change their plans.. so i was faced with the possibility of spending last night at home. alone. it was too scary a thought.. so i got out and just got a cab to the world trade center to meet up with winston

met up with winston and his friends.. and we walked in.. all the way i was thinking "i dont have a ticket.. i dont have a ticket" and i knew it was sold out, and the security was tight.. tried to get Ros who was doing duty inside to help me but i seemed near impossible. so we reached the entrace.. it was freakin crowded everywhere.. winston switched the three tix for three wristbands and i was like "hey tell the guy he gave you one short.." so winston went over and said, and in a very confident accent i might add, "excuse me, i believe i gave you four tickets but you only gave me three bands.." and the guy handed one over! hahaa it was so cool.. sadly that was the highest point of the night for me..

we moved in.. and explored the place.. and went in to the foam party.. the other three (wins and his frens) stayed at the side of the foam pool but i was deeper in.. and the crowd in there was moshing.. im ok with moshing but too many people in a confined area causes people to suffocate.. and some did. of course i had my fair share of tits in my face.. hahaha.. but it was more uncomfortable than fun.. so at the stroke of midnight, there was where i was.. in a foam pool in sentosa under the foam distributor. and down the foam came.. but damn.. when the foam kept coming down.. no one cud breathe. sure.. everybody got soaped up and slippery and everything but half the time, people were trying to breathe more than anything. heh. so that was the situation in that pool.. everything was white, slippery and crushing.. with the occasional tits.. no i didnt grope them. anyway it was at this point in time i lost my frens.. heh. yay. and it was impossible to find them. and the best thing was.. my phone got hit by water and my OK button became a CLEAR button. so i cudnt get pass my PIN Code. DUH!

so i got out of the pool, climbed the lightings tower.. made a few frens up there.. looked around.. cudnt see winston and the rest.. then just decided to go to the main stage, make frens and dance till i got sick of it. i found a hat.. heh.. yes.. if u were there.. i was the guy dancing next/on/beside the platform with the brown t-shirt and crimson hat.. hehe.. met my bmt srgt.. and a couple of other frens. i also realized how easy it is to attract chicks if you were white (ang-moh).. seriously.. u girls may say its not true.. but say that again when some white boy smiling his pearly whites at you through the crowd. haha.

main thing about last night was.. i felt numb. everything looked great and sounds great.. but it didnt feel great.. im still lookin for that high. i want that high back.

Saturday, December 28, 2002/04:15 p.m.

I am a Gauntlet Adventurer. I strive to improve my living conditions by hoarding gold, food, and sometimes keys and potions. I love adventure, fighting, and particularly winning - especially when there's a prize at stake. I occasionally get lost inside buildings and can't find the exit. I need food badly. What Video Game Character Are You?

Saturday, December 28, 2002/04:03 p.m.

fell sick yesterday.. got food poisoning. found out ridzwan got sick too.. sorry nazi but i think its ur traumatic laksa.. toooooo much chilli. seriously feel like shit now...

so i slept the entire day yesterday.. had ALL sorts of weird dreams.. like in one dream.. i dreamt that my elastic gutters (some elastic thing with hooks at the end of army pants) were posssesed by ghosts.. and it was secretly sucking my blood while i was asleep.. so i got up and went to burn it in the sink.. and wash it down with water and avogadoes.. imagine that.. weird huh? also i dreamt i was going out with this girl i knew last year.. we never went out.. but in the dream it was so damn real.. that i went i really woke up.. i actually reached for my handphone and was going to give her a call.. damn. there was also a dream where i saw a new human civilization living in a galactic, metallic christmas tree shape kinda thing. and it was so logical too. i get very weird when i sleep with a fever. still feeling under the weather.. shall try to sleep for awhile..

is that how u spell avogadoes? or izzit avocadoes? or something...

Wednesday, December 25, 2002/11:31 p.m.

today was nice. went out "jalan raya" with my malay schoolmates from sajc.. hadnt laughed and hadnt had so much fun in quite a while. wholesome fun. the rough sequence of houses is as follows. Malik's House ( Bukit Panjang), Ridzwan (Yishun), My House (Sin Ming Ave), Melati (Hougang), Adnan (Toa Payoh), Nazihah (Telok Kurau), Fazleen (Tampines) and Roslan (Clementi) Ate a lot. Joked a lot. Shared a lot. Fun :) the traumatic laksa, the roller-coaster LRT, the game of heart-attack, the unbeatables 3 show, the broken glass... hehehe...now im happy tired. need to sleep cuz ive got camp early tmr..

note to self: keep in mind the idea of calling all the sajc peeps to party at sentosa on new years eve. nitez all.

Sunday, December 22, 2002/01:19 a.m.

havent been blogging..so i thought id leave a msg

nothing much happened except that the band and i are all kinda hyped up and excited to make music. i knocked off early from work.. was it thursday? and i msged KC and roslan about jamming.. turns out they're knocking off early too and merf was just thinking about jamming too.. so we all booked boons at 7 to 9. went down to meet eugene and gaya at bishan coffee bean.. gaya's treat.. cheesecake for eugene.. happy 20 bro... anyway.. met up with the guys and we went on to work on our songs on top of our two covers of ash-burn baby burn and weezer-keep fishin. we saw Marchtwelve jamming in the first room of boons.. damn i was kinda shocked cuz from the outside i cud onli hear the drum beat and i said to the guys "hey its a real cool emo beat.. im going to learn how to play it.." so i went to the door and looked in and the first thing i saw was Joseph, followed by Ronny on the drums then Dewi's back.. so i went "Hey guys! Its Marchtwelve!!" haha.. i think thats a new level of fan-dom.. for someone to get real excited about you as a band. anyway.. went back to bishan to eat KFC and talked..

yesterday was pretty slack in camp.. we had to put up a performance.. some merry christmas hari raya thingy.. so i borrowed sgt devan's bongo to simulate drumming.. he said i was a natural on em.. haha its just like playing air drums except ur fingers hurt. anyway alls good.. played about 4-5 songs.. with a couple of guys on acoustics..

today.. went down to pasir ris for some camp exercise.. its been a long time since i ran 5km or more.. so its a good revision for my body.. hehe...met up with roslan and lokman in the afternoon.. ate, messed about, jammed, messed about, ate... then at about 1030pm i met up with jeevan and headed down to chinablack for awhile.. lotsa people pulled out from coming down so it was pretty much me and jeevan's friends.. they're nice but u noe.. i got along with the guys fine.. its the girls im a little cautious with.. i mean.. u dont know whether this girl belongs to any guy so i pretty much just kinda danced most of the time. yeah.. so now im back.. quite early.. compared to 4am returns on some occasions.. haiz..

tmr ive got another session with moren tea estate and may join JARR in the afternoon for their session.. heard their original drummer is free so i wont be playing.. aight.. ok then.. getting some shut eye.. nitez all.. if i rambled too much or if im incoherent in this msg.. forgive me... im not drunk.l

Tuesday, December 17, 2002/11:31 p.m.

wanted to make a tag-board for moren tea estate but didnt work out. haiz.. going to sleep soon.. was up doing lyrics.. should have got my hair cut.. ferget it. running out of dough.

For Crying Out Loud

i knew it wasnt meant to be but
i shut my eyes, choosing
to fall head over heels for you
i really hated every moment, you left me hanging here
really hated every moment

now you're thinking of
thinking back to what you said
and now you're freaking up and being unkind
but thats ok

cuz see-through, me and you
you're the one who set me free
but u say, me and you, wont come true
blame it on our destiny

so why?
dont make me cry

-second part of For Crying Out Loud, the teaser track on mp3.com only lets you hear the first part. heh. you got it exclusive on sponge.pitas.com

Tuesday, December 17, 2002/08:53 p.m.

just made a blog for moren tea estate. click on music link above.. everything's still in the works.. website, mp3.com site and recordings.. but at least moren tea estate is set for next year. tho we have some things to work out but i know.. moren tea estate, our dream and passion, will succeed.. teaser track on mp3.com/moren_tea_estate is awaiting approval.. for more news about the band, check out the blog

im feeling a little on the moody side today. no no im not feeling emo.. thats so cliche.. im just a little moody.. e rain mebbe... wish i had someone special to call now

Monday, December 16, 2002/11:42 p.m.

met up with jamie.. we talked about music..the band.. and how we tire of religion. not going to say much here.. just wanna say that all the people that shaped religion and made the greatest contact with god.. none of them got to know God from the mouth of someone else.. they went straight to the source.. and all of them were alone when they were with God. none of this religious organisation shite. we tire of doing what others have told us to in order to find God.. we're gonna try doing something that feels right to us now.. and we're not deluded, crazy or immature.. and the last thing u shud say is "you just dont understand" the thing is i do understand. i understand more than you do. which is why im choosing to step off this so called designated set path to God. see no one said that the path to God was SIN-FREE. they just said it was a repentant path.

we just seek a simple, undeniable and tangible truth to align our hearts, minds and souls to. you can say we seek enlightenment

Sunday, December 15, 2002/10:49 p.m.

what did i do yesterday?

went jamming with joseph and the red nosed rangers (jarr).. alls good. met up with cheng hong.. the original drummer of jarr.. hes busy with youth flying club and his office admin job. anyway i would rate my drumming yesterday as a 8/10... i like :)

after jamming we hopped onto 97.. thinking it would drop in front of funan and we can go to our usual eating place.. taco bells. instead we dropped at cbd and ate at burger king till it closed. we walked to china square.. the place is COOL! its like full of nice places to bring gals to.. haha.. and its empty! we went to cross street "pasar malam" .. faz bought a vintage spawn figurine at 8 dollars.. when the thing came out in 1998 i think.. it was $20 right after the movie.. so wow.. faz got a good deal.. lokman bought a clay spiderman hang-on-a-wall thingy.. cool.. i bought a small tigger (from winnie the pooh) to hang on my hp.. to remind me of "what tiggers do best..woohoohoohoo!" haha.. we walked somemore and cheng hong bought five stones from this lady who could sculpt flour figurines.. we first played the five stones like chapteh.. haha then we sat down and played five stones the way we used to do it in primary school.. we took turns and if anyone of us cudnt pass the stage we had to jump through this foutain that was spurting water from the ground.. haha all of us got wet.. faz and cheng hong got drenched.. faz was shot from an unseen jet of water and cheng hong just kinda jumped through a 1.5m high wall of water.. haha... fun fun fun.. its better than clubbing. we walked a lot.. round and round. walked tru boat quay.. till mad monks.. set down and was promptly surrounded by lesbians.. left. walked to city hall.. by then only me and roslan were left. the rest left for home. we sat down and talked about chromozones.. our first gig in sajc.. how we rocked for at least 45 minutes. damn.. :) and where and when we plan to rock your socks off next year.. WE WANNA BE IN BAYBEATS 2003!! You'll be hearing our demo soon Mr Awakening Productions and Mr Rockstar Collective, sir! hahaha.. dreams and goals are good.. hahaha

today...spent most of the day at roti prata house with eugene.. talked and ate and talked and ate.. came home and watched star wars - the empire strikes back.. i was just RELAXING~ the whole day. hehe

i wanna add more to my pitas page soon.butimlazy. lazylazylazy

Saturday, December 14, 2002/01:58 p.m.

its been a week since i blogged. lots have happened in between. i cant remember most of em.

the military exercise was good. there were a couple of very frustrating moments but its all natural. every military exercise has it cock-ups. i was in charge of 80 SAR Charlie Company. The guys under me were all fun and outgoing. Only had some trouble with my superiors.. i cant believe some officers dont even know how to set up modular tents and camo netting. damn. some officers were real fun.. but some are nothing but hot air and arrogance. its funny how people are arrogant when they dont know anything. anyway.. finally being in the jungle was a welcome break. its fun when u're used to the outdoors. its hell if u're not. me and the other SISPEC guys were upbeat almost the entire exercise.. joking around.. cooking food, making coffee, enjoying the experience of the field latrine.. hahaha.. while the rest who are not really used to the outfield were like.. moaning alot and sleeping.. i guess its a culture shock kinda thing. and at the end of the exercise.. there was this AAR.. after action review.. all the trainees, officers, instructors, and big shots.. sat in an auditorium and a couple of chosen participants in the exercise gave a debrief or an after action review. i was one of the chosen. it was cool. i shared a funny story about how one of my officers climbed into my 3-tonner (army truck allocated to my company) at 1 am in the morning while i was asleep. i was like "who the __ are you?" and he went " i'm your MTO" and i said "what do you want, sir?" and he replied "i want to sleep" and i went "okay.. carry on ah sir" ... hehe.. shared a couple of suggestions, added some insights and my speech was done. didnt realize i spoke in front of an impressive crowd till i got home last nite. i guess my public speaking has improved till i dont realize i spoke publicly till ive spoken publicly. ok lame.

my family went to johor today, for some visiting and a business thingy.. my right foot is slightly swollen so i didnt have to go.. but i think im going for the hang loose thingy at big splash today. marchtwelve is playing and i emailed dewi about getting an m12 t-shirt and she told me to get it at hang loose. also syaheed's debut gig is on today. gotta at least support a friend. maybe going chiong tonight.. but if i do, it might irritate my parents when they come home. i mean i cudnt follow them but i cud go clubbing? yeah.. ah well.. see how it goes.. roslan hasnt replied to my msgs and hes supposed to go with me to hang loose. the guy's asleep. i just know it.

moren tea estate is progressing.. we've got 3 songs uploaded on the net but you guys cant get to it yet.. cuz its not finalized. we're going for a mellow indie rock kinda sound. like incubus's i miss you.. before having some roller-coaster emo songs like marchtwelve. and if you dont know who marchtwelve is... (shame on you) .. click here!! www.mp3.com/marchtwelve yeah.. listen out for moren tea estate next year.

my smaller cat is trying to eat my mom's fake yellow roses.. i better go do something. outz!

Friday, December 6, 2002/12:49 a.m.

its hari raya. and im feeling under the weather a little. i donno.. i think i need sleep.. maybe that will make me a little more motivated to enjoy myself later. but i dont feel like sleeping.

Wednesday, December 4, 2002/10:32 p.m.

Alls good.

Im tired. Im going to sleep real soon. Outfield exercise tmr.. and hari raya the day after, visiting the following weekend, sleep the next monday.. and 4 day long outfield exercise on tuesday.. till friday. AARRGGHHH!!!! im going to sleep. cuz i know im not going to sleep much the next few days.

Wednesday, December 4, 2002/10:32 p.m.

Alls good.

Im tired. Im going to sleep real soon. Outfield exercise tmr.. and hari raya the day after, visiting the following weekend, sleep the next monday.. and 4 day long outfield exercise on tuesday.. till friday. AARRGGHHH!!!! im going to sleep. cuz i know im not going to sleep much the next few days.

Tuesday, December 3, 2002/10:47 p.m.

i got the number to the 23 yr old girl i met last saturday.. and we're having dinner tmr. heh. alls good.

preparing for some outfield stuff next week. cant splurge on any details.. they're confidential. tho i the instructors and WSM Stanley told me im going to be tested ("im going to tekan you ah") during the exercise cuz they wanna know if i meet their expectations. see.. they've said im one of the prime candidates for instructorship at the end of the course. hope i dont disappoint myself.

bay beats this weekend. check out all the band action at the esplanade. itll be a three day affair. if you aint celebrating hari raya, get yer butt there!

DATE~~!

Sunday, December 01, 2002/09:23 p.m.

went to subra's 21st bdae party last night, was good. all the camp guys and our instructors came down. it was pretty wild. man.. even donita simon was there.. hehe.. her bf is this tall, good-looking indian guy. food, music, bangra. (what? dont look down on bangra man.. some of those guys can dance! foowhee!) met a girl.. had fun but didnt get her number or anything.. heh.. shes 22.. anyway.. me and the guys went on down to muhd sultan.. and spent some time in two rooms. damn that place rocks. groovy decor and atmosphere.. damn i wish my room cud look like that.. two rooms man. ill go there everytime i wanna chill out.

whats up todae.. sent my maid off to the airport.. she's going back to her "kampung" .. coming back this 20th dec. there were some mixed indonesian chicks. man.. hot hot hot. haha.. but cudnt do a thing.. me with my family and all.. ah well..

today is world aids day. so what does that mean? dont be a fuck..wear a condom!

Tuesday, November 19, 2002/01:56 p.m.

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Friday, November 29, 2002/11:33 p.m.

backed-up all the impt stuff on this laptop.. gonna reformat the hard disk soon.. the thing's going bonkers.. good thing i have my cpu to fall back on.. tho the thing's almost to its end already.. haha..

went to jb yesterday, was a family thing.. we went to kenny rogers and had one helluva meal.. the kinda meal most muslim families miss out when they're in singapore.. malaysia rules when it comes to food.. but one thing about malaysia.. the road tolls and the toilets.. freakin' ex!

busy day tmr so i best be off.. camp in da morning till about 12 plus.. rush down to boons for two-hour revival jamming da punk band.. off to best denki or something to get a hi-fi gift before heading down to a good friend's bdae dinner.. no plans after that.. but when i find myself with my camp mates, in a rather smashing attire, in town and at night.. its just a hop and skip to... someplace exciting. but im sooo sooo broke.. unless SAF delivers that early salary for muslims by tmr. then woo hoo! haha.. okok. i need sleep.

Friday, November 29, 2002/07:32 p.m.

alls good. my sis got her psle results. her prelims were disasterous but her psle was good. tho 17 pts short of her first choice but i think an appeal tru dance can get her tru...

the guys and i had a debriefing on chinablack events today.. haha.. laughing over everything.. tho i still cant get over the fact that that girl cud be so bitchy.. she looked so decent.. ah well..

jamming tmr.. roslan is making the arrangements.. he always does :) thanks ros! anyway.. gotta go out.. family outing now.. be back later..

Thursday, November 28, 2002/02:17 a.m.

Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the centre of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

Thursday, November 28, 2002/12:39 a.m.

I dont know if i should say all this cuz some of u may frown at me... may disapprove.. especially during the fasting month but

last night, i went to chinablack again.

im having an off day today, my frens were all going last night, my god-sisters too , and i cant imagine myself sitting at home thinking of what cud have been. so i went.it didnt turn out so well

it started off pretty ok. all was good till one of my god-sisters got super drunk. irresponsibly over-drinking. of cuz i had to take the responsibility of taking care of her. she was puking every other minute. so i had to stay with her ..... therefore i cudnt get to know some people that i wanted to know. yes... and so i withdrew my last 20 bucks from the atm machine.. and planned how to get myself home, and my god-sister home. thank god winston was willing enough to send her home.. since they both lived at serangoon. ok so that was pretty bad.. but it gets worst.. i let my god-sister sleep or at least lie down on this sofa.. cuz the dj started r&b and i just had to go.. so all was good from 2 plus to 3.. well.. during that time this girl (quite pretty - eurasian) got kicked in the leg by this drunk guy who was like dancing all crazy-like ( he had to be drunk...i mean its r & b .. ur supposed to be smooth ).. so she was like really in pain.. and her fren (who i realized was my god-sister's fren too) cudnt do much to help.. so i went over.. kinda picked the injured girl up abit and escorted her to the side of the dance floor.. i didnt wanna be too busybody so i kinda signaled to her fren to take care of her then i went back to the floor.. so all was cool.. when it was time to leave... i saw the two girls leaving so i kinda just went over and asked "hows your leg?" the injured girl just went "of cuz, it f**kin hurts lah" and her fren went "dont worry im sending her home..you dont need to" so i said "er.. no i didnt mean to say i wanted to send her home or anything..." at which the injured girl replied "eh! i dont need to depend on you ok". wtf... i just turned and walked off.. damn.. wasnt my night at all.. oh wait.. the best part is when we were leaving.. my god-sister wasnt capable of walking on her own.. and so i carried her in my arms all the way out of the club, into the lift, IN the lift, out the building and into the taxi. of cuz, everyone was looking.. haha.. she wasnt light. "dont worry.. she's not dead. and shes not my girlfriend shes my god-sister"

ok so moral of the story is.. i honestly didnt know how i ended up IN chinablack.. i was actually still debating whether to go or not until i realized i was already inside. but the thign is if i hadnt had gone.. i dont know.. im going to tell my other god-sister who is frens with the two girls about what happened.. i'll just let the story pass around.

best thing i said yesterday? when carrying my drunk god-sister up the stairs out of china black i said "joanna, in the morning.. you're going to wake up and forget all of this.. but i, i wont forget"

considering everyone in the vicinity laughed, i guess that was a winner.

Saturday, November 23, 2002/10:29 p.m.

the previous post almost sounds like a contradiction but isnt.

Saturday, November 23, 2002/10:22 p.m.

Didnt jam today. didnt do much today at all.. sigh.. its just one of those daes where i found myself not having anything to do.. well there are stuff to do but not stuff i felt like doing.. damn hate the feeling.. i like to keep active active active at something i love doing.. thats the kinda person i am.. thats why im dabbling in so many things..

i have this sudden urge to write a fantasy book.. this storyline ive been cooking up for years.. but i just KNOW that ill probably never finish the book.. haiz.. ah well.. i donno. if the urge gets too strong.....


i want lotsa moolah. lotsa moolah. ya dig?

Thursday, November 21, 2002/10:30 p.m.

Junction 8. Novena Square. United Square. Black Tea Box. Novena MRT Station Lift. Bishan MRT Babe. Bishan Interchange McDonalds. Bus Stop. Bus Home.

Just got back from hanging out with Jamie and Mervyn. The standard talked, sat, walked, repeat. Its all good. Im happy sleepy now.

Dont know what to say. Guess ive used up my allocated energy for the day. Oh.. yeah.. Just wanna shout out to all the peeps whose exams are over.. You're Free Now Guys!! and to those whose exams are still on.. read this again in a few days time ok... haha..

Theres a really sad show on tv behind me.. im losing my happy streak.. the show's about this old guy and his son.. they finally kinda get along after 25 years or something and suddenly the son has cancer. Now, the dad's telling the son to be patient and stuff... and saying that he's the lucky one to go first.. sad huh?

okok..nitez all :)

Tuesday, November 19, 2002/10:43 p.m.

a familiar tune rips apart the bastions of my slumber
the ring tone alarm trespassing into my other reality
out of the heavenly folds of my bed, i reach
and like an executioner, i silence the alarm with a swift stroke to the OFF button
with commendable will and determination, i willed legs of stone
and came before the dining table
food is magically laid out at this time
for the feast all muslims have before first light, before fasting begins
anything goes at this point, going down with gulps of milo or coffee.
after an impossible dinner at 5am in the morning
slumber is doled out as a reward..slumber that is till 6am
where upon i rise again. to answer the call of duty to my nation
ive got to go to camp.

Tuesday, November 19, 2002/10:27 p.m.

Today has been a typical day in camp. Sleep as much as possible, copy down notes while awake, try to digest what was being taught, stone but dont get caught.. same ol same ol. at least i got one hour of sleep in class while the non-muslims went off for lunch.

was just thinking of my days in BMT.. :) so many fond memories... the BMT is worth the two years of boredom that follows. heh...

i realize that in my dreams, i will things to happen. i was effectively controlling everything in my dreams.. it was weird.. when my handphone's alarm rang off.. i spent about 1/2 a minute willing it to shut off. then i realized i was awake.. and i went to physically turn it off.. it was as if when i wake, i lose my super powers.. haha i know it sounds childish but i sometimes feel stripped of something intangible while awake.. and only getting it back when i dream. and my dreams are so vivid. so real. when i wake up, the first 5 minutes i have ABSOLUTELY no recollection of where i am, who i am and what ive been doing. then i kinda deduce it from my surroundings. weird... of cuz reality feels more real. but my dreams... sometimes blur the line.

im craving for a chocolate waffle... a thick chocolate waffle...

Monday, November 18, 2002/10:49 p.m.

Erm.. i still have the cat problem. Anyway....

Ginie's sssoooooo cccuuuttteeee!! hahahahaha.... I'll post a pic as soon as possible. Gimme a week or two...

Monday, November 18, 2002/10:42 p.m.

Added a little Bio page. Just a little something about me. Im still a little lazy to do up the pics and music page. My CPU's a little bonkers too.. i think the fan is caught or something.. it sounds like those old-school big 60's fans...

I realize that when i blog.. i prefer to use phrases instead of whole sentences. i guess thats why my entries seems so disjointed and sometimes confusing. haiz. thats the way i am :P

my laptop's giving me electric shocks. this is not good. im against electro-therapy

wrote some new lyrics down today.. felt very emo.. listened to silverchair-diorama today.. DAMN THEY'RE GOOD.

You're so beautiful
More than one should ever be
You're so beautiful
Among the stars you've set me free
You're so beautiful

Sunday, November 17, 2002/06:12 p.m.

my sis brought home a small little kitten yesterday. its so cuuttee.. hehe.. but now ive got a problem. how do i make our other cat (Ginger - 2 years old next feb 14) get used to our new cat (Ginie - 1 month old)? anybody with cat experience or anybody with any ideas .. please email me.. at sponge@swirve.com thanks!!

Sunday, November 17, 2002/12:39 a.m.

Yup. finally got the blog updated. its a very simple design. the idea conceptualise a few hours ago.. and i spent about 30 mins re-adjusting some code.. and this is the result. :) knew i had to get a new layout but been bumming on my lazy ass for the longest time.. well actually ive been busy.. its been quite hectic the last few days...

anyway.. hmm.. dont really know what to blog about.. today .. we had a good jamming session. we're real tight now. its just a matter of improving on our own song structures.. yeah. will set up a webbie on our band real soon (rriigghhtt...soonn..) anyway i need some sleep.. so blog some other time.. nitez

Monday, November 4, 2002/02:17 p.m.

currently pumping into ears: Foo Fighters - All My Life

im going for a new layout.. i hope i dont get lazy halfway..

how did my weekend go? hmm.. pretty cool.. saturdae was chinablack nite again..went on to chevrons before that.. chevrons is this army mess club thingy which is pretty cool.. sundae's pretty much family day.. and so is mondae morning and early afternoon... see im such a good boy. haha..

jamming later.. cant wait.. good shit coming out todae.. we really need to get some proper recording done and get some exposure.. i wanna rock on stage!!

Done Done Im on to the next one.

Friday, November 1, 2002/10:46 p.m.

good night everyone good night
its now time to cease
the day is at end for me
with feelings of grey and uncomfort
and the need to explode or combust
my limbs are borrowed and due
my solitude is at hand
liberate me
and liberate yourself
and not with those small forms of escapism
those few minutes of "high"
free yourself forever
the chained will not miss he whose chains have been undoned.

Thursday, October 31, 2002/07:58 p.m.

I went tru the song a couple of times to make sure the lyrics are right. they're right.

just wanna to say to you that no im not about to throw my past away like an old rag. dont think so little of me.. im just empowering myself to make a past that i would love to think back to... when im 40.

halloween and im at home working on music... and i love it :)

Years too late.../

Nirvana - You Know Your Right

I would never bother you
I would never promise to
I would never follow you
I would never bother you
Never speak that word again
I will go away for good
I won't move away from here
You won't be afraid of fear
The four walls put into this
Always knew it would come to this
Things have never been so swell
And I have never felt so well
Pain... Pain... Pain...
You know you're right
You know you're right
You know you're right

Whistle and I'll come inside
I no longer have to hide
Let's talk about someone else
Staining silver against her mouth
Nothing really bothers her
She just wants to love herself
I won't move away here
You won't be afraid of fear
The four walls put into this
Always knew it would come to this
Things have never been so swell
And I have never felt this well
Pain...Pain...Pain...Pain...Pain...
You know you're right
You know you're right
You know you're right
Maybe you're right..

Tuesday, October 29, 2002/10:36 p.m.

what did i do today? cant recap for the moment

nirvana's you know you're right.. the latest song out. good. real good. damn.

me and my drum sticks.. we'll be familiar and comfortable to the spotlighted drumset, stage and mosh pit by the time i turn 20. from this point on.. nothing will stop me from what i wanna do. no holds barred. no more chains. i am free. im achieving it all with 19 as my age. its already been too long. ive got little time left... ....whatever it takes.

Sunday, October 27, 2002/11:32 p.m.

went on down to sunset bay, sentosa. fun fun fun. it just rained so it was cool and shady. not too cold, not too warm.. played volleyball.. i kinda sucked at first.. just diving alot but doing nothing much.. but later on i kinda caught on with the game and i was on fire! haha.. it took active effort to keep focused on the game and not on the bikini babes walking around.. there were babes around, good music blasting from the sunset bay pub, great weather and a cool ball game with friends. ah well.. another nice weekend.. left sentosa and met lynn and joanna in town.. had dinner at lucky plaza.. talked, sat, talked, walked, talked, sat, talked, walked.. repeated until we got on the mrt and headed home. all in all.. im satisfied with this weekend.

another week of discipline and responsibilities.. im ready as ill ever be.. boy i cant wait for the next weekend to come. if all goes well, the guys and i will be renting a chalet for 2 nites and 3 daes.. maybe go clubbing at nite and retreat to chalet for erm.. rest.. haha.. bbq on sundae afternoon.. and mondae's a holidae cuz of Depavali! so thanks to the indian culture, we get to have a long weekend this weekend. yay. haha.. getting real sleepy. gotta be early in camp tmr. so see ya all.. peace out. (that sounded so cheesy.. like some wanna-be hip-hop kid.. no offense to hiphop peeps..)

Sunday, October 27, 2002/12:43 p.m.

its raining.. volleyball in sentosa is erm delayed.. yeah..

wondering wat to do now..

Thursday, October 24, 2002/10:02 p.m.

donated blood and got to get off early from camp today.. planned to do something but ended up sleeping the rest of the afternoon off.. i needed the sleep.. i should be sleeping soon.. maybe after i call a friend..

so broke.. ive got 30 bucks to last till next payday.. and thats on the 10th of next month.. like a fren of mine always says.. *aahh!! puke blood!!* note to self..-> clubbing 4 weekends in a row is not proper financial planning..

damn..smallville is such a cool show. its like its made for the teen audience or something. the soundtrack is mindblowing.. and wow.. i dont know, it just rocks. superman rules!! also.... i just wanna state for the record. aaron and arienne will win the amazing race. yup you heard it first from me..how do i know? ive got a sixth sense for these kinda things

box full of stars
you gave me a
box full of stars
box full of stars
map back to mars
and now i can find my way home.

Thursday, October 24, 2002/09:41 p.m.

the boos. the trees. the reds. the greens. the peaks. the these. the us. the lights. the grounds. the hands. the stars. the suns. the pump. the bliss. the fishes. the beans. the red train station. the box full of stars. the manic corporation. the dhoby ghauts. the somersets. heh.

Wednesdae, Oktober 23, 2002/10:60 p.m.

im stoked on music.

smallville is coming on tv soon... would you like to have super powers?

Wednesday, October 23, 2002/09:33 p.m.

please check out the following bands:

something corporate
finch
red line medic
phantom planet
satellites(local)
sheila on 7(indonesian)

i could go on and on.. but check out these not-so-well-known bands please.. you wont be disappointed.

Wednesday, October 23, 2002/09:00 p.m.

The Juliana Theory - Pictures, Stars and Dreams

i picture you
sighing soft
only in my dreams
whisper kisses only in my dreams
and they're always here to remind me...
pictures stars and dreams
and they're always here to remind me...
pictures stars and dreams
calling me when i look up
you're the brightest star
in a pocketful of skies
my colored picture in
a world of black and white
my only dream come true
on a restless winter night
my only dream come true
when i look back on a picture of the past
i close my eyes and make believe i was still there
cause all i have left are pictures and stars
and dreams to hold on to
i'll never wish on another star again
i'll never wish on another star again
and they're always here to remind me...
pictures stars and dreams
and they're always here to remind me...
pictures stars and dreams
calling me
calling me
calling me
cuz when i look up
you're the brightest star

Tuesday, October 22, 2002/09:10 p.m.

i seem to be feeling stoned once in awhile. like now, my head feels light.. and high.. theres that MIND MATTER show on tv.. about singaporeans and schezoprenia? is that how u spell it? i dont wanna watch it.. i hate watching, reading, hearing about abnormal psychology.. i feel drawn.. as if its mite just tip me over some mental edge.. im not making this up.. haiz..

re-evaluating myself since childhood.. i guess ive been obsessive compulsive and a degree of paranoia.. im still obsessive compulsive.. i dont know.. when im walking over tiles or pavement with cracks and lines, its become subconscious for me not to step on the lines.. i just HAVE to step in the middle of the tile or something like that.. and also when i place a handphone on a table for example... if it suddenly struck me as wrong, ill pick it up and put it back down again.. until im satisfied.. and this is even if ive walked away from the table.. damn neuro-transmitters.. but i was worst when i was young.. ive conditioned myself to accept mistakes or doing wrong things.. its difficult but its slowly coming.. im not crazy.. but im not very sane..

no.. dont be ignorant.. im a normal guy with weird habits thats all... am i?

Monday, October 21, 2002/10:14 p.m.

been STONING all day im camp.. cudnt concentrate on the lessons at all.. i guess thats another downside when u enjoyed ur weekend too much.. u kinda indulge in abit of escapism and dream off back to what u did.. i mean it was a really cool nite spent at Chinablack.. its was a free entry for all of us.. cuz the manager or something was Jeevan's friend so we marched straight in.. on top of that the bartender (who was eugene and jordan's BMT company-mate or something) got a large table just for us.. we were first on the dance floor and i know i was one of the last to leave.. haha.. and we took the service elevator down when it was all over too.. VIP treatment at a great club with friends and girls.. what else can a guy ask for? hahaha..

ah well.. its over and the only i can do is to plan for this weekend and the next.. next weekend the one before depavali, me and the guys are planning to get a chalet in Sentosa.. and of course it wont be just us guys.. haha.. not too sure about this weekend tho.. oh wait.. beach volleyball.. yes... not too interesting but its a way to spend a sunday afternoon..

maybe i shud sleep soon.. i havent been getting more than 6 hours sleep a nite since 5 weeks ago... been surviving on coffee everyday.. hehz.. but there are so many things to do... damn being 19 rocks..

Sunday, October 20, 2002/11:25 p.m.

Last night was great! Chinablack.. with about 12 guys and 4 girls.. i noe.. the ratio isnt rite but hey i cud onli get 4 girls down.. anyway.. last nite rocked. later went for supper at newton.. that was abt 3 plus.. 4 am.. slept at about 5.. woke up at 1 pm this morning.. watched princess diaries with my sisters before heading out to meet hong en at amk.. played lan abit before heading down to penin.. i brought hong en to Davis and he bought a acoustic.. its very nice.. nice shade of brown and red..and later on when i got home.. i met up with my family.. and we went to eat.. at NEWTON :) ate a LOT.. heh.. then went on down to esplanade for a walk and to view all the art and music.. its so cool.. im inspired to express myself tru a major local play.. no training but hey.. i think ive got wat it takes..yeah.. so its been a great weekend.. only downside was im broke.. and SHES ATTACHED.. argh... hehe.. ah well.. camp tmr.. hope i dont lose this high on life feeling.. wait. i WILL ALWAYS have this high on life feeling.. YEAH!!

Saturday, October 19, 2002/08:53 p.m.

got back from jamming.. it was good shite.. we have a new wicked song for all you wicked children out there.. haha.. no its not satanic.

leaving really soon for pacific plaza.. yesh.. im going chinablack.. gonna intro a grp of my army frens to my godsister's female frens... hehz.. not going to stay long there tonight.. got plans tmr morning.. ok.. so to you guys staying at home reading this and if ur not mugging for the exams.....
Go Enjoy Your Life Already

Friday, October 18, 2002/10:35 p.m.

i wanna be on MTV. my dream is to be on MTV. i am an MTV kid. Da EmTeeVee Generation.