woooo
17.06.02
mm... well... i just got done watching the road rules marathon and then the road rules 11 premiere... gah i have absoluteley no life. -___________-;;; i wish chunkachu wuz here. *points to the lonley chair next to her* T_________T;;; but if he was there he prolly wouldn't be in that chair... and i prolly wouldn't be in this chair. we would be there *points to couch* >_> sick-os. we would be... watching tv. >_>;; i DO have cable yuh know.... just not goooood cable. *prays that somehow she gets illegal digital cable MAJIK-ully* well... my back itches. and i wanna do my hair again. imma gunna go and do it permanent soon. i jus hafta wait for this stuff to wash out all the way. wow. theres this one guy i talk to online, well he talks toooooo much. woo and he was talking about some book about the government... so i was like "i brb" >_> i sign out of msn soon. no one intresting is on at this time of night. only freekin 30 people are online. geez thats alot. >_> i have 3 people on yahoo. gah imma loser. and no one talks to me on AIM. -____-;; i dun need friends! FIIIIINE lol. haha. whats a world without friends. ^-^; my back hurts. T____T my bed hates me. i think i should push that one wheel back up to normal. >_> i dun get ruff and rowdy in my bed anyway, how would it go down in the first place... O YEA! today... i was going through old e-mails. and i saw an e-mail sara gave me. shes one of shauns friends in which a while back he was quite infactuated with her >_> we had a few problems like that. but anyway. =O the pic wasn't of really her. >_>;;; it was a pic of a chick from A-teens. i saw it on a site. and i was like XD LMFAO. but then another pic shaun showed me a long time ago of her wasn't the chick from a-teens. >_>; *shrugs*... she was ugly though. *coughs* only the girlfriend would say that. woo i think all girls that shaun thinks pretty are ass ugly. ;D... thats muh job. o_o;;; and i dont really think boys are cute so shaun doesn't have a problem. >_>;;;; matt had a nice ring though... i want it... that iiiiiiiiiiidiot didn't give it to me... but i didn't ask for it. >_> but the girls seemed to like his belt. it was nice, i didn't really want to look in that 'region' >_>;;; 'twasn't the person i wanted to *cough* look at. T______T me has eyes fo' muh chunkachu. *crawls on chunkachus back* im his. o_o; some people think i am too... attached and like a leech. T_______T and they told me that i should back off of him because then he might leaaaaaaave me. >_> suu, thats why i act quite distant quite often with chu, shaun. that and i hate opening up. *sneezes* >_> i need a new layout for my other blog... well and this one too... but im too lazy. im working on one for this one though. i will just use one of the many other ones i have for my other one. i want to have a group blog though. T______T.... not a rpg, but... like, a group blog. i've seen alot of them. o_o;; such as... this one >_> ok, kinda bad example but... theres more.. well fuck it. i cant find that one i was looking for.. gah. well... i dun realy have much to say... but. o_o;;; TAYLOR FROM HANSON GOT MARRIED!!!!!!! ;-; nooo, he was MY husband. LMFAO. o_o when i listened to hanson i was in love with Zack, NOT taylor. so imma gunna marry zack, thank you. not. >_> i dun like him... he scares me... save me chunkachu.. *crawls on her chunkachus back* geebuz, why is everyone getting married.. wait.. its june.. woo.. >_>; imma gettin married in june.. o______o; and my Maid of Honor is Ash and then i will walk down the isle wif. o_o; a cardboard cut-out of papa. and my dress will be soooooo purdy. and i will be married under a sakura tree. o_o;;;; woo... i had a dream of that. so dont make fun of me. T_____T;; I DO HAVE A HEARD YUH KNOW!!!! gah. people think of me as someone that iz gunna just fek people my whole life. >_> nuuuu, imma gunna fek the d00d i marry, thank you. o_o;;; i might be too fat though. *pokes her flub* woo, i think i should lose that... ^-^;;;; well... i think one of these days i should write an entry aboot chu, shaun right? i told chu i would.. o_o; tell me what it should say. not now, im goin to bed, after i sneeze *sneezes* ok there. *walks slowly up the stairs with her gun, shoots stalker* WOO INFINITY POINTS FOR ME! ZEEEEEERO FOR YOU. XD
||nanji desu ka? 10:41pm||
::clenches teeth slightly::
16.06.02
................intresting coversation i just had... with shaun... i said something like "i...i dont know what to say" and he said something like "maybe because u dont know if u want to be with me or not" which is the complete oppisite from the god damn truth... he juuuuust signed in.... **pulls her chair up to the highest setting, cracks knuckles and takes a swig of pepsi** mm... well maybe i dont have to explain everything.... nyahaha... my neck hurts really really bad. that tells u something.. >_> my pillow is shit... i swear... those damn cats.. im closing the damn doors... i really hate this shirt... its black and it has a monkey on it that says "i fling poo"... i prolly would like it if it was my size. but it seems to be a dress... mm... kimi no tameni dekiru koto. ach i need a massage. T____T is there anyone that can massage really good, i need it.. T_____T im gunna go in my room and lay my neck back on our massager. it's shit but hey, its all we got... gah... i neeeed to waaaaaash muh faaaaaace... i am going to get my hair done like this permanently prolly. mm.. make me look paaaaalllllleeeeeeee...... but i get pretty tan. >_> people think my dad is a mix of cheech and chong.. my papa isn't mexican... i get almost as dark as he does usually. mm... well it seems like i am going to fall esleep at the desk... imma going to bed after i pee my brains out
||nanji desu ka!? 11:43pm||
-_______- having no hangover feels like chu have a hangover... and its just as baad...
16.06.02
happy fathers day papa ^-^;
2 munths until muh birfday ;D
T______T i feeel like shiiiiiiiiiiiittttttttt....... i am really all stuffed up and my back is killing me. and i woke up and my hair is black? now when the fek did that happen? (lol jp about that) thats why i'm happy weddings dont happen that often. i usually have too much fun. in which... it was fun ^-^;. it was me, ash, katelin, katie, and some matt guy. ::shrugs:: matt sat and me and ash's table during the dinner sort of thing. we passed around the >_> fake champange in which we had 4/5 bottles of. o_o 4 or 5.... ::shrugs:: anyway... ::sneezes:: yep ash, i think i got sick from goin outside too. except for my bra unclipping and me having to turn around and figure out how to re-do it so virgin... mainly male eyes couldn't see was basically the only downside. -____- that WAS embarassing. it took me like... yea about a good 5 minutes to get it. because when i put my bra on i put it on over my head because i honestly didn't care. o_o;; my mom is calling me morticia. >_> d00d i don't look like morticia. T_____T i think it looks nice. ;D i get to see jon jon'z parents this week. they is sooooooo cooliez. my future step grandparents. -___- let aloooooone their filthy richness.... they seem to like to ask if i want drinks. when i was over at their house for a day in spring break Barb was like "u want some merlot with dinner" and i was like "oooki" and when i kept finishing. she kept filling it up. and then they had 'after dinner drinks' and jack was like "u want something megan? we have kahula ::and other drinks inserted here::" and i said "kahula is good" o_o; and i had a glass of kahula. after that i went to bed. and john said "she didn't go to sleep, she passed out =O" gah john... i pick on him, and he does the same with me. he calls me the angel of darkness T____T;;; i like it but i want to... uhhh. ::shrugs:: this song is distracting. ::magic toenail::.... me and ash were singing it in the car yesterday... o_o;; and i was really cold. >_> reaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllllllllly cold. ::sneezes again:: i think i might go back to bed. T____T i fink i am gettin siiiiick. and i seem to get depressed quite easily... ::sigh:: o-ya-su-mi
||nanji desu ka? (papa?) 11:12am||
XD MY HAIR IZ BLAAAAAAACK~
15.06.02
eat your heart out. ;D i dyed my hair black today. i was just thinking about doing that last night and i asked mumsy and she was like "we hafta go to the store anyway" yea yea yea, it washes out in 24 washes.. but. ;D it looks niiiiiice... mm... im leaving for the wedding in a few min. and i got a red long dress with wierd ass stuff on the bottom... and i got a black thing to go over it. i also got a black strapless bra that i said "IS A PARTY ITSELF!" yea i was acting wierd in Marshalls... i was saying "it takes what i have and pushes it upward!" and it does. ::coughs:: hopefully nothing falls out. -____- that would be a biiiiiit embarassing. well i need to apply lipgloss and frollic in bodyspray. ;D ja
||nanji desu ka? 3:45pm||
LONLEYNESSSSSSSS
14.06.02
i'm reeeeeeeelllllllllyy really really really hyper. o_o but i'm really lonley.... im in my house all alone.... no lights... only compy and me... and music of course... its quite scary... =O......... yuh know if i wasn't wearing sweatpants that are about down to my knees i'd be frollicing. o_o; no seriously, the crotch of these pants is down to my calves. XD they is too big. o_o meyyyyyyyybe i lost weight. XD WOO HOO GO ME!!!! ;D lets not eat anymore, okokok!? mmmmm... 'tis late... why am i on!? =O i was on yahoo chat and the people there are meeeeeeeeean. >> BITCHES I HATE CHU TOO!!!!! woo look at the tiiiiiiiiiiiimmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmeeeeeeeee......cursed sugar... u make me really loud and abnoxious.... and... annou..... bwaaaaaaahahaha i got another pita. ;D nyahahaha so now i can write suuuuuuper bad in it. nyahahahahaaaaa......... wow me and ash are acting wierd. she was like "megan will you go out with me tomarrow" and i was like "suuuuuuuuure sezzy ;D, anyfing... for ::winks:: you"
wow.. i am really bored... today i talked to katelin about.. ::coughs:: joey ::sweatdrop:: o wow... ::gets really nervous:: heh heh heh.... heh.... annou... yea.... katelin is joeys brother... I MEAN SISTER!!! uhh... o_o ::gets really really nervous:: heh heh hehe........ ::trails off in her nervous heh's::.... annou... ::turns bright red and faints:: pink elephants with wings take her off to cool her off... by dropping her into a pool of CRYSTIAL....... O_O THAT REMINDS ME!!!!! -____- they be cops at Ash's sisters wedding. that means me and ash can't get drunk off of our asses... because YOU KNOW if there was no cops we would get SOOOOOOO drunk... XD that'd be so damn funny. i can see it now... we be on the dance floor and singin some wierd ass songs and everyone is watching us and taking pictures... o_o a week later we see the pictures and we are like ">_> when the fek did this happen?" "i don't remember THAAAAAT" and "why is your hand on that guys ass =O!".... its amazing what sugar can do to a adolecent at midnight... o_o;;; i think i need a shower... well i hafta take one tomarrow... -_- meybe i can curl my hair all purdy... LMFAO... that'll stay for... 2 min. -______- wif my bone straight hair... eventhough i have damn spiral curls on the sides sometimes... wooo ::looks at homecoming pictures:: o_o wow.... silver montaaaaaaage? i listen to papa dont preach... makes me think. =O what if it was MEEEEEE singing this to my papa!? =O my papa would first take his gun and shoot the... o_o;;; guy that got me preggos... and then i'd be like "NUUUU! WE ARE IN LOVE!!" o_o;;; ::listens carefully to the lyrics:: papa dont preach, i'm in trouble deep but i made up my mind, i'm going to keep my baby >_> yuh think i'd keep a child at THIS age? .___. depends who the father is.... LMFAO... wow im gunna get in troubbllllllleeeeeeeeeee....... yea of course i've always wanted a kid... and a family... ::HAHAHA SHIT ON YOU! I DO HAVE A HEART!!!!:: but... Vera is pregnant. and Becky's sister Emily which i used to be friends with had a baby. And Renada is getting married and shes 16. wow i have lots of friends that are gunna end up... o_o;;; wow... >_>;;; i planned out my life in 7th grade... i planned i was gunna get married june 11th (LMFAO SHAUN) o_o; it was duo's birthday. lol ;D... and then nsync would be the singers. LMFAO.. obviously i was quite infactuated with lance... and i wanted to marry that blonde boy. ;D and now... i hate blonde boys... o_o;;;; but i still like june weddings... i like tradition... i designed my wedding dress in 7th grade too... and its quite ugly. =D... mmm... and from what it looks like in one of my notebooks it says the husband was some guy named brandon... LMFAO i know that guy. o_o;;; 'twas the guy that i used to flirt with at Blockbuster. ;D he flirted back because i sed he had nice hair. XD ONLY I COULD TOUCH IT. WOO!!!!!!... but now... o_o;; i could care less. o_o;;;;; and i think he got fired... he seemed to drop tapes quite often. ;D maybe i should've stopped bending over infront of him with too low cut shirts on (JK!!!) i have no clevage to show. o_o;;; my clevage is INVISIBLE. o_o unless i wear a bra of course... i want.... lets think.... i dont know any certain person... that i want their boobs at least. meybe in the next year my boobs will go ::makes FWOOOOM noise:: o_o and TA-DA!!!. wow... this is one of the most disturbing entries to ever step foot in this.... pita??? ya w/e... night night
||nanji desu ka? 12:15pm||
AIEE GOIN CRAZY XO!
14.06.02
im goin crazy. i'm so damn bored. >_> let alone dubbed. *coughs* and then i was watching something that was like... DUBBED IN FRENCH. o_o;; and it had some chick with a cock.. so i kinda backed away from that one.... but... o_o; was intresting hearing people moan in french... o_o;;; they were like "OUI OUI!!!" and im like ">_> i may have flunked french but i know that means yes" yeaaaaa i still look at my french book. =P meybe i should have my unkle teach me. he is fluent in... russian, spainish, french (he lived in france for awhile)... ummm... i think he knows arabic... @______#;; he knows italian too, but thats on my moms side of the family so.. yea.. >_> i dont even know much italain so dont make me say anything... and if i would say something it would be... "SONO IN MODO DA ALESATO" or...."T____T sono così solitario" hahaha.... =P like i did in my diaryland thingie... i then didn't really have another OD to write in so i just wrote in a language people dont know. =P fwahahaha.... well.. i'm off. i think i'm gunna watch the Utena Movie. XD WOO HOO YURI!!!
||nanji desu ka? 7:01pm||
HOLY SHIT!!! ITS FATHERS DAY ON SUNDAY!!!!! ?????? ::faints:: aiee papa i have decieved you T___T
::yawn:: i loff waking up at 12
13.06.02
woo... im in kinda in a bad mood. =... for no apparent reason. i had wunderful dreams and so on. o_o one of my dreams was reaaaaaally wierd. me, kenshin-kun, harry potter (o_O;;), Moses (nikki's moses), and some other people were on top of a bus, and it was like a bedroom, but no roof. and we seemed to keep hitting bumps and flying in the air. eventually we got on a really big bump and i fell off and here comes the falling dream T____T i hate those. because it really feels like i'm falling and when i hit the ground it really feels like i'm hitting the ground T___T... my brother is such a fucking sick-o. either that or my mom, or both. there was a big ass bowl of icecream left on the computer table, 4 pop cans, a fork, plyers and on top of that, the cd tower is knocked over. i live with slobs and my mom says that my room is a problem... i cleaned it and she said that its not good enough. i'll stop there, i wont say all what she says to me. i take verbal abuse pretty well. gah. graham refuses to do anything in this house. he doesn't help pay rent like he promised he would if he moved back in. he got fired... how long ago?? and today was when he was supposed to go to an interview. but i think he missed it because hes still sleeping. i do all the damn chores around this hell-hole. >_> and when friends are over here my mom acts like i don't do a damn thing and it gets really irritating. and when i ask her why graham doesn't do anything she says "thats different megan, hes older" mm... older.. alright.. wow she woke up and the first thing she says "pick up the cd tower and take in all the pop cans and dishes." and when i ask her what happened and why i have to pick up her mess she flips out and says "you don't do a god damn thing around here" and then she said "since its nice outside u can go finish your room" >_> its been clean for a few weeks... and i said "whats in my room thats so discusting?" and then she went on about "your sheets haven't been cleaned" >_> i replied "they were washed last week" she said "you fucking liar, it needs to be dusted" my reply "i did that a few days ago" "vacuum, u haven't vaccumed" i replied " i did that when melissa was over" her reply "bullshit, u fucking lie all the time megan, dont pull that shit on me" -____- yuh know, i bet that if papa was alive and if i was living with him i would have a little bit more respect that i need... >_>;; well i'm off. to clean after the damn fat slobs i live with. meybe ill shoot myself while i'm at it, i'm obviously not good enough to live here in the aura of my 'goddess like' mother and my 'god like' bother. haha sarcasam makes me laugh...
||nanji desu ka? 12:26pm||
every heart
uhh 13.06.02 'tis midnight
hmm. i'm bored as hell. i just wanted to get on and see if i had any e-mail. o_O i got one that was for free condoms so i trashed it. i would've been on sooner but my dear brother was making a cd full of David Allen Coe. -____- which is beyond disturbing in my opinion. hmm i need a new winamp skin. i have alot but they are all the same. most of them are anything Clamp and Angel Sanctuary. i have one WeiB Kreuz one. o_o its omi. *sneezes* my allergies have been acting up cuz mommy turned off the air and opened up the windows. -___- squeek fest anyone? hmm i feel that i am somewhat partial to this skin. o_o;; yeeeeaaaaa anyway... im not tired, even though i should be getting to bed for no apparent reason. maybe i should go pick up some hours at work. yuh know, i might as well as do something instead of playing on the computer all day. o_o; brynn has her surgery tomarrow. shes getting her tonsils out. i almost forgot.. i was thinking about it in the shower. i really think that we should move out. our house is trashy T___T;..... i live in a shack. mm... as soon as john and mom get married we will live in something somewhat normal. i can't imagine john as a step father though. i pick on him alot. and he picks on me since i'm so short compared to him. but then i am almost as tall as him if i have certain shoes on... woo i took a nap today and i had a really wierd dream. it was nice though. i hope it comes back ;-;... im thinking of getting a new msn name and starting over. -______- my raye name is gettin quite old. and i have too many people on my list, i can't add anyone anymore. and... wut if i get HAAAAAACKED again... last time i did... it was by tony. and i bawled to Mikey ::for some crazy reason i was going out with that italian:: woo **sweatdrop** i dont know enough italian to speak to him fluently. but he was a nice kid. anyway, i asked Mikey to help me and i was freaking out **meybe because i wouldn't be able to talk to shaun if i didn't get my pass back???? was it THAT long ago... jeepers ;D** anyway mikey got my pass back. i was really grateful and i went on. o_o;;;; i swear my hair is falling out or something.... annou... anyway... lets talk about my day.. i got up, got on compy, voiced with glen, i took a shower, got back on, watched gravitation, listened to music, watched some tellie, checked the mail nothing for me. ::fek u damn people with my dvds:: i read jerry's diary calling me shauns puppet. o wow, how mature thinking of me like that.. gee thanks... alot... i'm not his puppet. = i dont know where he got that. ::shrugs:: and honestly i don't have time to care... i need to have my mom buy me something to wear for Ash's sisters wedding. -___- i have nothing to wear. and the last thing i wore to a wedding was a white shirt and a black skirt. *coughs* shaun saw that pic. woo i was surrounded by alot of drunks. woooo.... gah. lets say my day wasn't exciting. i beat X-change... o_o;; it DID have a plot, somewhat, hmm and they mixed in lesbain sex with normal sex. wow... those people sure are smart. there are alot of different endings... and mine ended with that one guy (turned female) having earth shattering sex with 2 guys. =O and when she/he came it sed game over and it sed crap about him staying a female or something.. i got 40% of the CG's wow i suck. maybe i was just waiting to get to the 'good' parts ;D ne ne? lol well.. prolly not. i'm starting Love Potion. while still taking care of my sims. ::sweatdrop:: heh heh heh heh...... i have fun with THAT game... houseparty isnt really working.. that sucks monkey balls... mm.. well... lets see what other games i have... i have alot.. i will name them later. i dont really play them that much. only when i'm bored and i'm up for some corny RPG that i will beat the hell out of. ;D because i am the QUEEN OF GAAAAAAAMES. lol thats almost funny. i think i suck -___- i bet you could beat my ass anyday. i wanna play gta3... its funny making the car rock ;D.... woo it gets his energy up tho, ne ne ne?!! i wanna finish watching Kurumi... o shit... storms outside. u have no idea how pissed i'd be if the electricity went out. and i lost this entry. rawr!!!!! but i don't think it will before i finish this up... i should stop drawing i suck monkey balls. dont u think its odd that therapists and the rapists is like..... THE SAME WORD! =O..... u usually drink water from one of these... sean connery: a leather glove... trebeck: no minni driver: a toilet... trebeck:that is awful.... i listen to these celebrity jeporady things toooo much. its like the best thing from SNL ;D. ..... and the show has reached a new low... THEN I'M THE COCK OF THE WALK! wow its sad i remember all these lines... well i dont think i have any use on compy tonight... >_> glen has an obsession with dbz i fink. XO I'LL KAOKEN YOU, YOU PUBE HEAD-ed FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!! >3 he aint british... o_o;;; i dun think so.... mm... well... i'm off i'm going to listen to some... music.. i'll stay wif compy for 15 more minutes to finsh muh download...
||nanji desu ka? 12:33pm||
woo
WOO I THINK THESE ARE DUMB ;D
First name: Megan
Last Name: >_> goober?? (g-r-o-o-v-e-r) >_> try and sey it right...
Birth Date: August 16th, 1987
Location of birth: uh.. des moines? iowa?
Nickname(s): meg, fluffaluff, shizz... uhh. @_@ too many
Siblings: that one piece of fat-i mean brother >> gram-age 18..
Height: 5'6/5'5 1/2
Shoe Size: 9 or 10 ;D i gotz biggie feet
Eye Color: Greenish bluish brownish hazel. o_o;;
Hair Color: darkish brown with blonde shit which used to be dark red streaks T____T
Last CD you bought: o_o;;; uhh... mm... ur...
Do you actually like math? wtf!? nuuu >_> ebil piece of shit... only normal class i passed tho ;D
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*THE CRUSH SIDE*
Do you have a crush: o_O;;;
On a scale of one to ten: >_>; ::twitches::
Would you ever go out with the person that sent you this? o_o nuu... 'tis my cuzin u freek
When u first meet someone what do you notice first? in order: lips, eyes, hands ::sweatdrop:: uhh.. honestly i wouldn't knu >_>
Who was your first crush: o_o; ::cocks head to right:: ara? >_> boys make me siiiiick... o_o same wif gurls... sometimes... both of 'em are ok... >_> girls are bitchy...
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*HAVE YOU EVER*
Loved someone so much it made you cry? ...uh
Ever been on stage? ^-^ when i had a talent agent me and my 'niichan used to do commercails. ;D and i sang on tables alot... and and and o_o; i really liked to sing and dance ;D
eaten a box of Oreo's?: o_o i wish
Gotten in a Car Accident? @__@ plenty of times... and all of them aren't my damn fault >_>
Hiked up a mountain? nope
Stayed home on a Saturday night just because?: all the damn time and i like it too.. =
Seen the Eiffel tower? o_o when i play that cats' cradle thing i can make it o_o;;;
Hated yourself: that souldn't even be asked. OF COURSE I'VE HATED MUH PUDGY SELF XD
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*FAVORITES*
Movie(s): moulin rouge, interview with a vampire, romeo + juliet... uhhh...mm..
Songs: Every Heart by boA/inu yasha ending, Anti Nostalgic by Kotani kinya... @______@ too many songs. geebuz
Holiday: my birthday is a holiday ;D
Favorite Day of the week: uhh... friday or saturday...
Color: red, black n' white
Magazine: Newtype n' Asuka. o_O;;
Name for a girl: o_o;;;
Favorite Name for a boy: dryden -___-
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*FRIENDS*
Do you have a best friend? yeeeeeeeees
Who do you email the most? no one, i don't e-mail anyone unless theres a reason or they e-mail me and i seem to reply
Who do you go to talk about guys/girls: no one really but i guess ash
Friend who knows all of your secrets? hahaha no one. im really independent.. i don't open up to people unless i choose to. o_o or they want me to
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*IN THE LAST 24 HOURS HAVE YOU....*
Cried: YES!!!!!!
Made someone laugh: god i hope not... o_o;; prolly by how i look -____- i dont have to look presentable in the summer
Helped someone: o_o;; thats a good question... nuu..
Bought something: no
Kissed someone: nani? >_> eat shit
Written a letter: to who would it be to?
Talked to someone you Love? maybe i did. wut would u say if i sed yes. >_> yeh thats wut i thought
Had a serious talk: o_o;;; i'm not sure
Missed someone: that shouldn't even be asked. foo
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*RANDOM QUESTIONS*
Where do you want to go to college: o_o chicago, or san fran.
Favorite Board Game: T____T no one will play wif me
Favorite Computer Game: ;D MY COLLECTION OF HENTAI RPG GAMES!!! and sims..
Remember where you were when you heard Princess Di Died: i was sleeping. XD IT WAS MY BROTHERS BIRTHDAY.
Do you ever take walks in the rain? i do all the time... i don't really walk.. o_o more like.. frollic
Do you ever have that falling dream? eek and they feel reeeeeeel and my tummy feels wierd when i wake up and it feels like i hit the ground. AAAAA ITS SCARY
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*WHEN YOU HEAR THIS, WHAT DO YOU THINK OF?
Summer: ah beeeesssssssstttttttt season
Erin: =O i loff bu!
Russel: ebil child. GOD FORSAKEN CHILD!!!!
Poo: Stinks.
Majik: Toenail
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*MORE RANDOM QUESTIONS*
Did you dress up on Halloween: mhmm. i froze my ass off in the damn skirt too...
Do you have a job: yea -____-
Do you have any stuffed animals: of course =3
Do you go to summer camp? nuu i wish T__T
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*Either/Or*
Denny's or Steak and Shake: i went to steak and shake once. o_o;;;
Pepsi or Coke: o_O;;; uhhh... dunno
David Letterman or Jay Leno: neither they both suck balls
Backstreet Boys or *NSync: LMFAO thats a funny question =P ur silly
Matt Damon or Ben Affleck: AFFLECK XD
Beverly Hills 90210 or Dawson Creek: =O teen sex!!!!!!!
7th Heaven or Party of Five: =O family problems!!!!!!!!!
Apples or oranges: o_o oranges are softer...
Chocolates or flowers: imma sucker for flowers. -___- and chocolates make me get fat and make me blush just as much as flowers
Chocolate milk or plain? Plain
Cat or dog: cat
Vanilla or chocolate: Chocolate
Black or white: Black
Nike or Adidas: Adidas
Saved by the Bell or USA High: =P i used to want to marry Zack ;D
What You Did Last Summer or Scream? u dont know what i did last summer u damn stalker
Sugar or salt: Sugar
Silver or gold: Silver... or white gold...
Oprah Winfrey or Rosie O'Donnell: scary T___T
Person most likely to respond: no one.
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*KICK ASS!!!!! More Questions*
Who do you like? my bf you bafoon
Why do you like them? *-* hes so sweet and and hes my chunkachu and and and i loff him soooooooo much
What is your lucky number? -none-
Why? i sed i didn't have one u fookin foo
What is your favorite year? 05... o_o;
Why? no school and... ROAD TRIP ;D
Who sent this to you? Erin-chaaaaaaaan
What is your URL? http://spiffyshizz.pitas.com
If you were dying and you could only say one sentence what would it be? T_________________T i have no idea
Are you female or male? Female.
What do you say a lot to people that people know you for? shmoooo and nya and.... uhh... i say fuck quite often...
Do you like to dance? o_O wut kind of dancing may that be?
Are u in Girl scouts? nope.. i wanted to though
What is your Email? rayehino@msn.com
Why did you fill this out? erin sent it to me u cock ring
What is your favorite quote?
Guess what? (answer that) - > Chicken Butt.
Do you like pool? the game?
What colors would your pool table be? Red...black
Have you ever had sex? o_o nuu...
What is your Christmas List? uhhh...i am just starting on my birfday list
well this just wasted a TON of space... gah that sucks monkey balls... o_o imma gunna listen to some DDR music and......wish i had a monkey to hold
||nanji desu ka? 5:17pm||
hehe boob
12.06.02
woo fun morning. i am voice chatting wif this Glenn/Glen (?) guy. nice guy. he told me, when he thought i was ash well he said "your friend sounded like she was a cheerleader" and i said "ash?" and he was like "oops.......wrong person..." i was like ">_> gee thaaaaanks" and stuff. but overall hes pretty nice. eventhough he sounds like hes.... 20? nah... well anyway... he sed he was british. but i guess u can lose accents. NO DON'T SNEEZE WHILE VOICING. AAAAAA i didn't. woo i can hold in a sneeze now. ;D go me... i have the most annoying sneeze. i remember in the library wif ash i sneezed and she was writing in her notebook and she wrote "megan just sneezed, there goes my train of thought" because i squeek at the end. and i'm all like =_____= nuu its not cute leeb me alone. **ash's way of talkin' is wearin off on me** i dun know what to sey next. we are listening to music and shtuf. before we were listening to "make me bad" by korn and then i had him listen to "wait and bleed" by slipknot... then i made him listen to "ash" by dir en grey. woo. and he told me to play "closer" by NIN so i did. o_o; he got offline so now i'm playing "bother". woo. fun morning... wow its still morning to me. my mom left with john to go to lunch. T____T they no want me to EAAAAAAAT!? haaaaaaahahaha imma eating disorder victim??? and i'll start to eat again when i weigh 90 pounds? eek with my height and... 90 pounds? that'd be scary... *shudders* wow... my mom has a stuffed bunny puppet thing shes obsessed with... and its incredibly creepy... but its ontop of the computer monitor and its scaring the hell out of me... ::pushes it down the back of the monitor along with the bugs bunny beanie:: last night it took me like an hour to get to sleep. i was sooo awake and i was like *-* no go to sleeeeeeeep i go prance around the house like a freeeeek.... o_o;;; NUUUUUUU >< BITCH ASS PLUS! IT DIDNT SAVE THE CONVO I WANTED!!!!!!! ::dies:: woo mommy is back... meybe she brought me something back. for some odd reason i want some mashed potatoes. o_o;;;; ;P imma dork i know... but they sound good.. gah she didnt shes a poo head. imma gunna die of huuunger. meybe we have some pizza rolls.
||nanji desu ka? 12:46pm||
LMFAO HAHAHAH ::rolls on floor::
11.06.02
o_o still shauns birfday
LMFAO i was going through my pictures on my second hard drive. o_o and i saw some of my old drawings that i scanned. ;D they are soooooo bad.... for example... click here i'm a total dumbass for acutally putting it on here...but... XD ITS SO BAD ITS HALARIOUS. o_o;;; oww it hurts so bad to laugh.. but i also found pictures of scanned poetry.. o_o; u can't really read it because my handwriting is all smooshed together. -_- my d's dont look like a's... u were WRONG! and and and my t's dont look like 7's T_______T stop making fun of meee..... annou.. well... yea... bye.. i need to take some asprin i am in some pain. -____________-;;;;........::shoots self:: *POOF*
||nanji desu ka? 6:15pm||
woo was i supposed to update??
11.06.02
SHAUN'S BIRFDAY!!!
woo... i keep thinking. about dreams i've been having. o_o; its kinda odd because all of them have... him ::sweatdrop:: in them. and i'm either running... hiding... looking for something... or crying... -____- or all of the above.. running looking for something and crying because i can't find it. but it was a couple days ago where i had a dream where i was wif my papa again. and it was like how they usually are when hes in my dreams. i fall to my knees and i scream and cry saying "why did u leave me alone? i was alone papa why did u leave me" and he holds me and i say "never leave me... i never want to be alone like that ever again... its too dark..." woo... but last night i was looking for "him" (not papa) and i found him and we were talking about something. but... yea.. i felt safe. i didn't say i felt secure though. mm... i'd like to talk 'bout my wierd dreams all damn day but... nuu... too wierd and i might get yelled at. i got steel angel kurumi, at best buy. i was lookin at the cover and i was like "mm... naked chick with pink hair o ya, hasta be good" hahha jp i was gunna buy the whole series on e-bay.. i still have yet to finish watchin it. -_____- it doesn't work on compy. but miyuki works on compy. geebuz compy, u are really really picky. jeesh... last night ash stayed the night. and we walked up to block buster. **which was a weeeeee bit further than i thought-gah it was too hot** but anyway. we got Moulin Rouge, Interview with a Vampire and the Crow. woo we were up for a night of tears and total depression. -_-; anyway. when we were in line i heard the lady askin people for id's and i was like O_O! SHIT I GOT NO ID! so i was like. EEK ASH LETS GET OUTTA LINE and we started to look at the dvds......eventually we were like. >_> this is bullshit and we went up and bought the movies. she didn't ask for an id... prolly because i was wearing an osbournes shirt and maybe she thought i'd beat the fuck out of her with my blunt stick of i can fake pms-ish-ness ;D. but anyway we got a couple of cokes and walked home. we wuz talking and shaun, shawn, sean o_O however u spell his name almost ran us over with his damn bike and i was like "EEK IMMA GUNNA FALL DOWN THE HILL!" and its a big hill. and i was like "-______- gimme a ride i'll crawl on your back" i was tired, my pants were too big and i was dehyyyyydrated... but he was goin home and o_o i dun think me and ash could fit on the back of his bike. >_> shit on you shaun, shawn, sean dude. gah what way does he spell it? it gets irritating. -__- right ash, we r the CURS-ED ones... but anyway. me and ash diiiiiid talk alot. "talk" o_o;;;;;;;;; and i sed alot of things that were on my chest and i wanted to get out really really bad. because i HATE holding things in. >_> i still wont tell them to certain people... i love scary mubies.... mm.. i feel like watching silence of the lambs. >> meybe hannibal. *coughs* yea.... i haven't seen that in awhile. the entire time i was watching that movie i was like in awe and i was wishing i had someone that i could jump into their lap-yuh know? but usually i just sit in the chair on couch and curl up and grip the arms. >> ok, we know u are cold... shattup already... >_> this song is irritating after awhiiiillllleeeeeee.... ah 'bother'... mm... meybe i should play the sims. i downloaded it on kazaa, right when graham was like "yuh know megan, the disk is at tommies, i sold nate the laptop, but not the game" and i was like ::kicks:: EEK!... so..... yea... but now i have all the expansion packs illegally. woo. ;D i have the bed that makes 'em get it on. XD... thats the best part... well im going to play the sims... 'cuz i'm so damn bored. -_____- i rather be at work... LMFAO NOT! ah... yea... john is working *shudders* rapist manager. XO...... i'd like the-rapists for 100! >_> thats therapists mr connery...THE RAPISTS FOR 100! ITS THERAPISTS! ah i see now... u think your COCK OF THE WALK... well i'm not sure THAT line is in that episode. o_o; but yeah. imma gunna download that now. woo chobits ep. 10 is almost done. uhh.. YES... the sims. -_- i wish my pain would go away. it hurts to breathe. ::shoots self::
||nanji desu ka? 5:03pm||
wow...
09.06.02
wow... i'm listening to "bother" by Corey Taylor singer of Slipknot. **woo i know the guy** but... the lyrics to this song are really deep and they make me think... **we don't want that do we** about a week ago i'd live and breathe for this song... but, one reason why i like this song, hahaha i didn't know Corey (from what i knew him as: blonde guy that likes to scream-nice guy though) could sing... when i listen to it, it does remind me of Shaun. no not because of the lyrics, because of the singing. i dun remember if it sounds like him or not but...yea... all i can say.. is this song is so damn deep. kudos to you mister corey. (-_____- i haven't talked/seen to him since papa died) gah this song is so good...
Wish I was too dead to cry
A self affliction face
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochist to which I cater
You don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won't let go 'till it bleeds
Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason
My flaws are open season
For this I gave up trying
One good time deserves my dying
You don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won't let go 'till it bleeds
Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shelf forgotten with it's memories
Diaries left with cryptic entries
And you don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won't let go 'till it bleeds
You don't need to bother
I don't need to be, yeah
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on, once I hold on
I'll never live down my disease
..mm.... well...its a really good song... i like it alot. >> imma gunna make shaun sing it to me. lol thats likley. ha ha ha.... **sarcastic laugh** ow my stomach hurts... ja
||nanji desu ka? 11:16am||
mm....
08.06.02
mm... new layout... just finished. i told shaun alot today... he knows most about me now. -__-; i don't really like opening up to people because i'm scared of being judged... i wish all my insecurities of shaun loving ash more than me would go away.. hmm... to explain what i said to shaun... umm... how to i say this... well... when i was little... i was alone alot... because i always thought my dad hated me because he was an alchaholic and so on... and... eversince me and my mom left, i was alone. and it was so dark... i always acted happy, thinking maybe i'd find someone to take me out of the darkness... but i never really did... when he died a year ago... it was pitch black... it hurt so bad. i hurt all the time. i wished i was dead... i sat at home all the time. ash made things slightly better... but i was still... it was so dark.. and when i met shaun i felt so loved... he showed me so much love and it felt good. i never felt like i did about any guy... i never liked any guy... and when i was told he loved ash... i was so scared that i'd be taken back into the darkness... being alone all over again... never being able to find someone like him again... thinking i'd be alone forever... thats why i get so jealous whenever i see how much he loves ash... ::cries irl:: i don't want to be alone ever again... it was so dark... and i think...know that shaun is the one to take me out of it... i said to him "this is really corny... but... i should call you Hikari... it means light" it was really corny... i swear it was... but it was how i felt.. and i hope he knows how i used to be... anyway... i don't really have much to say.. hmm..
||nanji desu ka? 10:30pm||
