wheeeeee!

Tuesday, October 15, 2002
__listening to: Good Charlotte: footloose>>

I'm like, depressed... and sad... and depressed... and lonley for no damn reason. *shrugs* i get this every once and awhile. maybe i should seek help? yeah, im at school. i had studyhalls all day. and i am SICK... sarah told me to go home and so did andrew, but i have japanese club after school.. so... i will stay. its my job as a japanese club member to be there for my japanese club... friends? ok that was corny... saying it aloud is even worse. but hey.. im a corny person.. i am really starting to hate this song... (footloose) ok anyway.. now that the song is changed. i have about 15 more minutes left until class is over and then i can head for the... place where club is held.. either in the classroom or in the student center... i dunno... either one..oo my watch says different, more like.. 10 minutes til. *shrugs* the computer clocks are always wrong. i really hate wearing skirts sometimes. its not like im on my period or anything but being depressed it kinda seems like it... eek and nick is behind me so it makes things feel even more odd... i think he is impressed by my talent to type without even looking.. >D i was looking over on the other side of the library. bwahaha... do you desire my skills? lol desire... thats so passionate.. ._. ok im sick and i feel like shit, leave me the fuck alone... bye now

Tooi hoshi ni inotteta @ 01:58 p.m.

Tuesday, October 8, 2002
__listening to: >>

the mother fucker was arrested... my brother was arrested like 10 minutes ago. i didn't know until john came in and told me 'your brother was just arrested' i said 'you're shittin me...' he said 'no... he was just taken out in hand cuffs'.. the fucker did it. he really fucked up his life... conspiracy of distributing meth... ya know if hes a fucking traffiker he can get our whole family killed in some goddamn way. he messed up his damn life and he is going to expect us to fix it... and i am going to tell mom no. i am going to say we have gave him so many chances, he doesn't deserve any more.. she will hopefully agree with me... i hate him right now, about 45 minutes ago i was eating dinner with him at the table and i was talking about shaun. why the hell would he do that... what a fuck up... ugh.. daddy, this is the son you loved... he left you dead for 3 days and he didn't even check in to say hello... this is the son that ruined his damn life... dont forgive him for what he has done..

Tooi hoshi ni inotteta @ 07:17 p.m.

Monday, October 7, 2002
__listening to: --->>

ach. im freezing... i smell fruit loops. omg im hungry X/ and lunch is in 4th hour. damn it all... my pants are too short.. i cut the sides a little. well.. im going to do my homework or something.. but there is some skater guy who is sitting next to me.. fun. .___. i can die now, please... he is talking to alex and saying "the only person that thinks you aren't cool, is yourself" wow... now he is like, yelling "hey everyone, she is cool!!" ok, thats odd. never talk to guys that have their hair in many many many ponytails... odd child... he needs to be smacked... he likes to uhh, talk like a turkey... well, now.. talking about my sunday, i kinda slept all day. watched some tv, got on the computer. basically i was on the computer all day.. it was quite exelerating... school sucks monkey sack... this guy is crazy.. he needs therapy, he started singing to me all wierd, so i just look at him, smile sweetly like hes a psycho and go back to what im doing. i have an urge to like, pull his hair... im so mean at times. but its all good... right? ugh, im dying of the scent of blueberries, i think there is some girl around here that has drowned herself in blueberry limited too bodyspray or something of the sort. i want my chunkachu, i need a hug. T____T... matta ne

Tooi hoshi ni inotteta @ 09:35 a.m.

Sunday, October 6, 2002
__listening to: Shiina Ringo: Can't take my eyes off of you>>

i choose not to bring up friday night. it will be forgotten, and i will have scars that i will be forced to remember. :shrugs: i dont care. the pain i can live with. anyway, last night was crazy, group of 12 people. going crazy. ha ha ha ha..... chase and i are back to talking standards. we never really had a fight, its just that *sings* she was a punk, and he did ballet, what more can i say >D!!! LMFAO.. ok.. nuff said. i am too... punkish and hes too Abercrombie and Bitch for his own good. :shrugs: he will be my worthy adversary for the time being. lol... i bought flavored condoms last night and gave them out, leaving one vanilla flavored one to myself. (nothing like a vanilla flavored penis... >.o...) right.. that was wrong. ok, well.. to keep this entry CLEAN.. i woke up about... 20 minutes ago, flipped though the channels. *-*!!! we have Tech-tv... and... Mtv2.. i am in heaven.. if im not online much anymore, please understand i have a date with my tv!!! whee 8)!! omg i love shiina ringo, i can sing like her (rolling r's and all, damn im sexy) right, well.. lets see... my feet hurt really really bad. rawr.. well.. nothing really to be online for until tonight, so... im going to like... watch tv and sink into the bliss of it sucking away my sanity.. ._____. tvvvvvveeeeeeee..

Tooi hoshi ni inotteta @ 01:45 p.m.

Friday, October 4, 2002
__listening to: >>

Have you ever...

{x} Fallen for your best friend? yes
{x} Made out with JUST a friend? No
{x} Been rejected? yes
{x} Been in love? yes
{x} Been in lust? yes
{x} Used someone? no
{x} Been used? yes
{x} Cheated on someone? no.......uhh... >_>
{x} Been cheated on? yes
{x} Done something you regret? YES!

Who was the last person...
{x} You touched? sarah
{x} You talked to? john
{x} You hugged? sarah
{x} You instant messaged? den
{x} You kissed? in a friendly way... noone
{x} You yelled at? my mum
{x} You laughed with? uhh everyone?

Have you/are you/do you....
{x} Considered a life of crime? yes
{x} Considered being a hooker? how about... NO
{x} Considered being a pimp? YES LMFAO >D
{x} Are you psycho? yes
{x} Split personalities? mhmm
{x} Schizophrenic? maybe
{x} Obsessive? yes
{x} Obsessive compulsive? no
{x} Panic? sometimes
{x} Anxiety? yes, a lot
{x} Depressed? yes T_T im bipolar
{x} Suicidal? yes
{x} Obsessed with hate? it depends...
{x} Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? yes!
{x} Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? yes yes yes
{x} Understanding: yes
{x} Open-minded: yes
{x} Arrogant: no
{x} Insecure: yes, a lot, but most people don't notice that
{x} Interesting: i don´t know
{x} Hungry: im eaaating!
{x} Friendly: yes
{x} Smart: don't know
{x} Moody: yes
{x} Childish: sometimes
{x} Independent: for some things yes, for others no
{x} Hard working: sometimes
{x} Organized: no
{x} Healthy: not at all 8)
{x} Emotionally Stable: no
{x} Shy: yes, he he but people dont believe me!
{x} Difficult: YES
{x} Attractive: hell no
{x} Bored Easily: yes
{x} Thirsty: yes
{x} Responsible: yes
{x} Sad: yes
{x} Happy: yes
{x} Trusting: yes
{x} Talkative: yes
{x} Original: yes!
{x} Different: mhmm
{x} Unique: yes
{x} Lonely: yes
{x} Color your hair? yes
{x} Have tattoos? no
{x} piercings? no
{x} Have a boyfriend? yes
{x} Floss daily? yes
{x} Own a webcam? no
{x} Ever get off the damn computer? o_o mhmm..

Tooi hoshi ni inotteta @ 03:21 p.m.

Thursday, October 3, 2002
__listening to: you and me song>>

i love this song. i just got out of the shower, im going to bed at 9 so i have to make this quick. ;D im goin to bed with my chunkachuuuuu.......!!! i missed the parade today T______T!!! theres always next year! ach i keep itching myself. do i itch when im horny? no im not horny, my thighs are just wet from me just getting out of the shower, you can dream though.. no wait, please dont, thats gross... *shudders* i love you chunkachu ;D dream of me!

Tooi hoshi ni inotteta @ 08:53 p.m.

Tuesday, October 1, 2002
__listening to: Third Eye Blind: deep inside of you>>

before i go and either draw or do my math homework, i am going to... uh.. vent? im terribly depressed and sick (yes physically sick ._.) and yet im happy... because i have my baby back. so if i dont have someone... i have my kitty to hug.. im so happy hes back. i missed him so so so bad. today im going to be walking around west des moines in a skirt and flip flops. *shudders*... we are walking down to courtneys house and meeting her boyfriend. (one she has never met before herself. >_>.... yeah whatever) and then we are planning on going up to my house. hopefully my mom can pick us up, because im not really up for walking all the way back up to my house... ah... sebastian.. i haven't seen him today thank god... that boy urks me to the point to where i want to punch him. and then theres trix/nick. x_x he doesn't urk me. its just that he looks like gackt (yes seriously... japanese and all.....) and that makes me have to take a double shot whenever i see him because im like "EH!?" and then "whew... its nick" he seems quite normal. hes everything i want to be. hes like... me but... with a penis. *shrugs and sudders* no i dont think of him sexually thats wrong... that reminds me. yesterday at football practice, megan, brynn and myself were measuring our hands to see how...large our penises would be... and... DAMN... mine would be 7 inches and 4 inches around... o_o.... yes i do have very small hands but i guess i have big palms. but brynns... omg.... hers would be 81/2 inches and 5 inches around... i doubt that its acurate but it was fun seeing us rolling in the grass screaming "I WANT YOUR LOVE STICK BRYNN!!!" and me and megan had an obsession with saying "you want his nuts..." and she kept on saying "i want mikes nuts" i dont think sexually anymore. it doesn't appeal to me. i haven't even had my first kiss why the fuck would i think of sex. yes i do think of perverted shit but no me with someone... hah megan and i are planning on going to expo and buying a vibrator to see the salesman's face. lol i told her about the hello kitty vibrator and she got a kick out of that one. whee... well... i am totally and utterly bored, so im going to go and get a table to do my drawlings... matta ne.. i might be thinking of getting online tonight if im not holding my kitty for dear life... 8( hes back

Tooi hoshi ni inotteta @ 12:55 p.m.

Tuesday, October 1, 2002
__listening to: dirty vegas: without you>>

my cat came home. yes it is 5 in the morning and my cat came home. omg im so happy... my mom woke me up and i have had a bad experience with people waking me up early like that. and i said 'what.....' she said 'tigger's home'... i like... tackled him.. he lost about... 9 pounds which means hes like... 1-2 pounds now because he hasn't aten... ive never had a skinny cat. its quite creepy. >_>!! so, maybe the reuinion of me and my baby (yes tiggah is mah baby) is a sign that today will be a good day... well, im going to surf fer about an hour and 1/2 x_x.. i cant sleep now...

Tooi hoshi ni inotteta @ 05:17 a.m.

Monday, September 30, 2002
__listening to: lenny kravitz: stillness of heart>>

my soul... is crying when he sings that line.. it feels like... he means it. kinda scary ive been singing all day today. i went to football practice today, i had my headphones on the entire time, with my cd player tucked into the back of my pants. i was singing not caring if anyone heard me... it felt good. like.. i dont know. just better. we painted windows today, it was really cool. i drew a red cat with black tiger stripes. lol, and i wrote my name and whatnot. it was pretty fun.. only thing is, my hands were blood red when i got home. but how im squeeky clean.. damn i wish i had my fan... maybe i will go and steal it from 'niisans room... yes... my plan of action.. im a fountain of blood, in the shape of a girl, you are the bird on the brim, hypnotized by the whirl, drink me make me feel real, wet your beak in the stream, game we are playing is life, love is a 2 way dream... leave me now... return tonight.. the tide will show you to me... if you forget my name...you will go astray, like a killer whale, trapped in a bay... im a path of cinders, burning under your feet, your the one who walks me... im your one way street... bjork is so... deep. i recieved an e-mail from shaun. he said he was only saying those things because he was angry. and the things i said were wrong... well... if what you say when you are angry isn't wrong... what is??? i dont feel like e-mailing him back... its something i have to tell him. *shrugs* its already 10 his time so i doubt i will talk to him tonight. i HIGHLY doubt that i will talk to him tonight. wierd thing... i screamed "stop raping my mind"... for no reason today. it was creepy... i think i need to be in a straight jacket or something. *shrugs* maybe im NARF, chibi, you never know. i could be nagi and farfs love child. wow... its amazing what fridays do... last friday anne, chibi and i were going around west des moines looking for stores that sold flavored colored condoms... do they have them?......no... bitches... i should've gotten the vibrator at expo... well. if i had the money i would've gotten my eyebrow pierced... x_x god i feel so ugly.. i need to bathe myself in beauty which is impossible... i dont think my mom likes me showering with other people. and i highly doubt i will get it in the shower with me. *shudders* my naked body. makes me feel vunerable... and ugly.. *cries* my face needs to be ripped off of my bones.... i look at the cross, and i look away, give you the gun... blow.. me.. away.. i will write this day down in my book of shadows... september 30th... the day that lonliness and sorrow became extremley beautiful and gentle... breathe with me... why do i have the urge to say... "i shot your pigs"?

Tooi hoshi ni inotteta @ 08:47 p.m.

Monday, September 30, 2002
__listening to: utada hikaru: hikari (kingdom hearts)>>

i got about 2 hours of sleep last night. it was incredibly hot in my house, so i stripped. x_x... and then i opened a window... i rolled around for hours.. thinking pondering. about everything, shaun, the note... unfortunatley today joe didn't bring it up. but in a way it is a good thing. i took a very cold shower, and i layed on the bottom of my shower and dammit i was pissed... i didn't get to sleep until about 2:30. then i woke up at 3.. then i got back to sleep around 4:30. i finished watching chobits. i cried. and... i kept trying to imagine someones face and all i got was... haha yes, shinbo and hideki. but the day was pretty good. i hugged the walls so i could keep minimal contact with 'sebastian'.. my plan for hooking her up with sean was a great sucess. since me and shaun got in a MAJOR fight last night, i was kinda quiet today. more quiet than needed. but when i got to 3rd hour i was okay. only bad thing was i had to run around the school in my stupid gym shorts because i skipped p.e last week. i should've just said i was on my period (eventhough i wasn't) p.e teacher is a guy, he doesn't wanna deal with it so he will just say something like 'sit out'. ::shrugs:: good on both sides. hmm... in english i said i found out sebastians last name which is SO damn hard to say. ah. well. good for christina, not for me. the royal rumble last night between me and shaun wasn't that much different from our usual sunday fight... but it was different. he said things... like i ruined his life. and that i have problems. *shrugs* my friends were REALLY suprised. ok... friend. they were somewhat shocked. and i wasn't i was just hurt. but ive been hurt many times, i always survived after slashing my wrists. i didn't do that though, no glass. knives were too far away and my exact-o knife is in a box somewhere... unknown... blarg... but i do have some sort of feeling things might not go back to normal this time... maybe its over... im not sure... my 'friend' (only one? hah.. no) told me that i should go to homecoming with her. in which i might as well do. so wedsnday since its a early out (1:30) we are going to the mall to look at a dress for me to wear. 'be gentle' says john. ($160 is gentle) hence, last years dress. *-* ah hoshi. today is window painting. i want to go... but... its hot. and i am not feeling that artistic. only i look the part. hah black t-shirt with black pants and a lay (those hula things...) i only got one because i wanted to exclaim "I HAVE BEEN LAID!" for my own enjoyment. i didn't do it though. i have too much guilt. too much... feeling? suprisingly enough i do... i made a few layouts over the weekend. im getting another pita. but its going to be... for me myself and i. *shrugs* it will be like my livejournal, but with a better layout. it is a pretty sweet layout though. and i made one that would be a possiblity for the group blog that would've been me and shauns. but its not happening. too much tension between us. i have a feeling thats the bad part of pairing up a gemini and a leo. i dont know things anymore. but.. i do know that.. ah... if i go to homecoming im planning on getting my hair done professionally (so i dont have to have the 2 hours of PAIN like last year). momma might be in the hospital. she has her biopsy consultation today. she will be home around 8 or 9. she said the surgery might be thursday or friday. something like that. i hope not. because i want her to be there with me. hah ive been laid... thats a good one.. so cliche or however you spell it. argh. i want some damn e-mail... new e-mail btw... here my other e-mail is full of shauns e-mails. i plan on keeping all... 300 something of them. well... i might as well just find some way to put them on disk... and then put it somewhere. *shrugs* hmm.. there are... *checks* 374 e-mails from him. oooh. i just deleted a huge e-mail... now i have like... more space. >> i dont care... new e-mail... *drools* i got some japanese pen pals. hehe! one of them is named yusuke or something >8) be quiet yusuke is trying to meditate (or something).........!!!

Tooi hoshi ni inotteta @ 01:25 p.m.

Sunday, September 29, 2002
__listening to: ddr: do it all night>>

i was planning on doing something with my mom today.. in the day. since that i haven't really had time to really talk to her or anything. but no. i have been too busy to really even talk to her, but i made sure she was alright. and shes the one ditching me now, not her. its like... if i was constantly always busy and if i was never home or whatever, she would be a hell of alot happier... because it seems that whenever i come home i disturb her peace. im never in her way anyway... i am either watching tv or on the computer. she doesn't want one of those mother-daughter relationships. ::shrugs:: i rather have a daddy-daughter relationship but i dont see it happening any time soon. i guess im just whining because i wanted to spend my sunday with my mom and i was asking if we could make some plans. but she just ditches me. ::shrugs:: i'll live. i was just planning on getting some pants and going shopping, making dinner. she says i need to do the thing shes been asking for me to do for 2 weeks. she didn't notice... but i did it a week and 1/2 ago... then it was a hellhole... so i cleaned it again out of smite... ah... i could get into this deeper but that would take effort i dont have.

Tooi hoshi ni inotteta @ 11:45 a.m.

Thursday, September 26, 2002
__listening to: boA: every heart (minna no kimochi)>>

this is a gooood ass song. today was was quite intresting accounting... uhh... yeah. first hour we had a debate in current issues about gays in the military. and there are some really ignorant guys in that class. counting 2 really bitchy ass homophobe girls. which i want to punch... NOT slap... (a-ha shannon) then in math i had NO fun. ::shrugs:: it was really boring as it usually is. hmmm... studyhall was intresting we talked about the usual stupid ass stuff.. english... art... japanese >_> ::kicks joe out of the class:: you are a distraction. you urk me, boy. 8D! whee... well lets see.. after school im supposed to talk to that one sean guy for christina. and im supposed to say that like, she likes him or whatever. hmm yeeaaahh... not alot to talk about. im kinda... feeling wierd because the thing they saw or found in my moms breast was a lump and i think shes going in for her biopsy today instead of going to conferences. (relief) well im gunna see if this computer will let me into the forums. >>

Tooi hoshi ni inotteta @ 01:28 p.m.

Wednesday, September 25, 2002
__listening to: -->>

8D whee... today is a good day but there is one thing thats in the back of my mind that is disturbing the hell out of me. ::shrugs:: last night my mom told me that her doctor or whatever called her and said that they found something in her breast that might be cancerous. so we are quite worried and whatnot. and ya know what. if my mama dies im going to be an orphan and i will have to live with some evil person. like... i dont know. just some phsyco. i doubt that she is going to die. people cure these kinds of things everyday. lets see... my day is pretty basic. last night i had dreams about the movie Dirty Dancing. accounting that i watched it before i went to bed. god how i love that movie. *-* shaun, we shall dance like THAT >8D NYAHAHAAHA!!!.. ok ^-^ lets see... hmm... not alot to talk about today im quite mellowed out and whatnot. so... ja ne

Tooi hoshi ni inotteta @ 01:39 p.m.

Tuesday, September 24, 2002
__listening to: good charlotte: footloose>>

>D yes... good charlotte rocks my world *-*!!!!... im in 3rd hour studyhall, skipping p.e like the bad girl that i am >8D!! nothing really special.... i will make it up like, friday or something. ::shrugs:: i will make it up eventually. mr. thornton loves me so he will understand that i had a 'shrink' appointment. that i didn't have. but i have enough issues for me to. after this i have lunch. and im supposed to talk to some guy named shawn/shaun fer christina because she is quite infactuated with him. accounting that ive known the kid for about... 8 years i can talk to him comfortablly and whatnot. ::shrugs:: im supposed to tell him that i know a girl that likes him and that it says in a note *presents note* hm. the outake of this will be the most intresting. i just hope this time i dont have to make any contact with joe/musashi. >_> that boy urks me...

Tooi hoshi ni inotteta @ 09:55 a.m.

Monday, September 23, 2002
__listening to: eiffel 65: clown>>

same song as last night. yes, i have a thing for eiffel 65. minus the stupid ass blue song. they do have a few good songs. the library at 9:30 in the morning is quite exotic in its own way. eventhough i have to enjoy it with the largest headache ever to hit me. i know its going to be a bad day. but im more awake than i am when i get more than only 5 hours of sleep. the sensation of the day is that i am wearing a skirt and maryjanes. yes daddy, i look like a girl for once. a little change from my usual baggy pants, t-shirt and my usual etnies. ::shrugs:: last night was wierd, after about 12 or something i got on the computer and talked to shaun. i left my messenger on and asked shaun to leave me some messages that i read this morning. i enjoy messages for some odd reason. ach theres like something on my nose that hurts. (not a zit, mind you) its probably just from me blowing my nose about a million times yesterday. blah. well im going to get into the game boards and post some shit for my own pleasure. w/e... much love and such

Tooi hoshi ni inotteta @ 09:29 a.m.

Sunday, September 22, 2002
__listening to: eiffel 65: clown>>

ah.. good.. tomarrow is honestly going to be a good hair day. i couldn't sleep. its either because of the events or because i had about 1/4 of a can of mountain dew about an hour before i went to bed. ah... this conditioner rocks... i think that this time shaun is gunna leave me instead of me leaving him. i think hes fed up with me. and i dont blame him. ::shrugs:: im a very hard person to get along with... hah.. i can barley get along with myself well i think hes done talking to me fer the night. i honestly think he doesn't want to talk so im going to try and get back to bed.

Tooi hoshi ni inotteta @ 11:55 p.m.

Sunday, September 22, 2002
__listening to: utada hikaru: time will tell>>

im so mad right now. im seriously shaking. why does he think that he has to know every single little detail about me. and when i dont tell him he gives me a temper tantrum and then we get in a huge fight. such as today... he got on the first thing he said was 'only talk to me' and then he went on saying 'who got you into wicca, what spell did you do, why were you crying in school' and whatnot. and ya know what. this is my diary, i can write whatever i want in it... and i dont write in this to please anyone... not a damn person. i do it so i can get my thoughts down. and i have no freedom with it because i know if i do write certain things in this i will hurt people. and most likley i would piss alot of people off. and the things i do write in here... if i dont tell shaun everything he gets pissed off at me and here we go and start these damn fights. alot of people said that i should've never forgaven him after the whole Melissa thing. but i did... and then he says that he should've left me a long time ago. but he didn't because he forgave me. i dont care anymore. because i know that i am right this time. for once in my life i am right and he wont let me be right because hes supposedly always right. everything he does is right. i should fall to my knees when he is around. im nothing compared to him, right??? im just a weak female that doesn't know anything compared to the male, right???

Tooi hoshi ni inotteta @ 07:12 p.m.

Sunday, September 22, 2002
__listening to: boA: every heart>>

ah. i sincerley hate waking up early in the morning... now that school has started and whatnot. fer about a month now... yeah... well anyway... now that school has started, i cant sleep in. i am so used to waking up in the morning. well i think another reason is because im FUCKING FREEZING!!! and whenever i wake up i cant breathe out of my nose. i might be allergic to this house or i have a MAJOR cold. but it gets annoying. i have about 3 comforters on me and my head under the blankets. might i add i AM wearing a sweater, a t-shirt and a pair of my favorite sweatpants that usually keep me warm.. even the socks dont keep my feet warm. its because i live with fat people. ._. yes i am fat as well but im not always bitching that it is freaking hot and that im sweating *coughs* mama! *coughs* and john is just... x_x an odd fella... im always cold so me and tommie are always cowering with about a billion blankets on eachother. i dare not even sit on that damn leather couch. its probably frozen. why are the windows in the living room open? thats what i want to know. *shrugs* its one of those mysteries we will never know... im kinda creeped out to go to school tomarrow. whenever i go to school i find something to get me totally down. and i seriously think joe saw me cry. i will smack him one of these days and tell him it was a pigment of his imagination. ah and the spell i did last night. i hope it works. wheee wicca is fun. my mom is like 'you are still catholic, right?' my reply 'no mom, i am a WITCH O_O!' ::sarcasm sarcasm:: i think that wicca is a totally kick ass reglion that i one day might want to convert to but i do believe in god. and converting will be too much for me and on top of that. it will be so hard finding a blood witch in iowa to teach me everything. so right now, im just going to read books and whatnot until i am quite satisfied with myself. gah theres this one guy thats not on my list but im on his and hes really annoying. hes all foreign and hes so retarded. ugh i want to beat him with a blunt stick. same with my mother because she has an obsession with saying my room is messy when i clean it every day. >_> just because the carpet is brown and my poster is laying against the wall in a frame doesn't mean my room is a pit. omg she just STRIVES to make john think that we are a fucking family. only family i have is me and my dad. not my mom not john. ::shrugs:: its just how i see it. i may be rude about it but its what i see. hm well im going to warm up some left over s'ketti fer breakfast and sit in front of the tv and watch invader zim!

Tooi hoshi ni inotteta @ 09:57 a.m.

Saturday, September 21, 2002
__listening to: dir en grey: yokan>>

you know you are kinda pathetic when you find great joy in some animated gif that your slightly insane friend, steven gives you. lol... right. well i guess im that person. im much better, thank you for asking. accounting my breakdown friday. i have fully recovered... shaun is my saavior *clings to him* now, i must go. i have a spell that i am going to... do. and shaun awaits 8D!

Tooi hoshi ni inotteta @ 11:50 p.m.