nyaness
11.05.02
last night i bought the first FLCL manga, the first Alice 19th (yuu watase manga-thought that i'd try it) and Chobits. ^-^ and i am going to go to mayhem after awhile because i'm goin to go to my nana's house. Ash just left, we watched Jay and Silent bob strike back, for the 2nd time. XD "boo boo kitty fuck" i swear, i quote Jay ALOT. i call people "lunch-box" and so on. ya hafta see this movie to understand. "HEY HAVE U EVER HAD UR ASS LICKED BY A FAT GUY IN A OVER-COAT!?" XD nyaaaaaaaa. well not much. i miss chunkachu. o_O i hope u like the busride to virgina. **coughs** ^-^ have fun. well anyway. theres something wrong with my back and theres something in my throat. and it hurts to breathe, talk and eat, so. o_o don't breathe? don't talk or eat. o_o; well i have to get goin on my cleanin buisness. and i need to finish a layout megan is workin on! matta
..::forgotten shadows @ 5:02pm::..
**coughs** i feel better nya
08.05.02
nya well.... JERRY ASKED MELISSA OUT. o_O and ya i'll talk about it more later, but it seems that jerry got mad at me after i gave him a short lecture, haha he didn't respond. >< NO ONE CAN ASK OUT MY MELISSY SHES MINE DAMMIT >< haha i treat her like a little sister *-* shes mine. ^-^ well anyway, my paycheck is going to be a little smaller than wanted, but hey, its already spent, $50 in for Anime Iowa o_o i swear, if i have no $$ for the con, i DIE. O_O! IT WAS HELL LAST YEAR AND I HAD $250 O_O!. well anyway. ^-^ when melissa called me telling me that Jerry asked her, i laughed and i was like "u aren't going to get involved with him, i don't want u to be hurt. when he gets dumped or he breaks up with someone, he just asks someone very soon after. and so on..." o_o and i know hes going to read this. because hes just like that **shrugs** i don't care. >< **coughs** ^-^ i'm in a really good mood. and i want to take a shower now, but i'm waiting until the morning because i want to go to school lookin all sexxi with long hair all soaking wet XP **i was told that wet hair is sexxi-i sure as hell think so** ^_^ when my hair gets longer maybe i'll pose for a picture for uglypeople.com. o_o in which i submitted a pic of **coughs** someone (not me) and.........it made it i think. O_O! ISN'T THAT FUNNY SHAUN! O_O I ALMOST PISSED MY PANTS WHEN I FIRST SAW IT! oh get this...
T_Kid says:
i happen to care a lot for ash
Megan says:
NO
Megan says:
DON'T even think for one moment that i will let u be with her..
Megan says:
i don't want her to be with you
Megan says:
i want her to be happy, i love her too much
Megan says:
and
Megan says:
i know what her answer is
T_Kid says:
its probably no
Megan says:
i know
T_Kid says:
well thats her choice, i told her there was no pressure
Megan says:
well shes not going to get involved with you
come to you
06.05.02
hmm. well i'm listening to hanson....so that can tell u i'm majorly corrupted... or i was totally...*shrugs* i don't know the word...o well. i bought chris and zak's cd of their band. its pretty tight. WOI--wedggie of insanity-- they are a mix of Blink 182, some Sum 41 ya know what i mean they are punk. i like being friends of a band. it'd be cool if they made it so i can be like "haha ya, i was friends with them in high school" and so on... i dunno what was wrong with Ash this morning but, shes fine now wow my cousin erin is on. i think i'm gunna talk to her for a little bit. ^-^ i loff her and i miss her so much. well i can still write this while doing that. hmmm... i met "Luke" today... one of Grams bizzotches **friends** T_T o god, who is this, they are asking me if i have seen their new pics!? o_o o god its JERRY **blocks** nya good. well hmm... erin hasta go and eat. her and i used to be the best of friends, like i've said before. and stuff hmm...well i am very happy for *******, i think she has gotten into a new guy. *-* and no one tell ok!? well i'm on the job... attepting to make a layout!!!! when doves cry
04.05.02
how can you leave me standing, alone in a world so cold, maybe i'm just too demanding, maybe i'm just like my father, too bold, maybe i'm just like my mother, shes never satisfied, why do we scream at eachother? this is what it sounds cry, when doves cry
hmm... i love prince. i'm crazy,ne? my mom is all "why aren't u doing something with melissa?" o______o;;;; **coughs** my day started ok. it was kinda like a normal day. i got some pictures that i'm going to attempt to make layouts with... i have a couple ideas. *shrugs* my layout now..i love it and all, but *-* i want something new... i've been listening to alot of like, new moosic. o__________O its amazing, i'm not listening to some various jrock band. =O hmmm... i was going to go take a shower, but i've been like. WAITING FOREVER to write an entry... in the last week i have cried soooooooo much. o_o #1. i watched my Queer as Folk tape and......OMFG.... i bawled so bad, i couldn't stop... Justin was at his prom and then Brian came **when they danced i was like =D SUGOI** and then and then **bawls** oh my god i was in tears for like, the rest of the tape i was so pissed because that was the season finale *shrugs* the 2nd season is already on air, i'm kinda behind. >> ne!? #2. watching Romeo and Juliet, downloading the music and so on... **bawls** #3. FFX nya i beat it. o_o i started it last saturday too >> **punches her brother** #4. something that happened to me monday #5. the shizznit that happened thursday. o_____o holy shit i was so unstable... i still amm. but i'm still recovering from Q.a.F T______T and then i have more reasons... but. i don't like telling that stuff. well i'm going to go to bed, because sleep is what i do, sleep is my thing, sleep is what i do when i feel this way...
..::forgotten shadows @ 11:21pm::..
desidero morire stasera...
30.04.02
i have alot of things to write about. but i guess i wont write about them. because... ya know what!? i don't feel like writing about them because all what will happen to me is, i'll get bitched at. and so on. >< why can't she go away... thats all what i want to say now..
..::forgotten shadows @ 8:04pm::..
my arms sting...
19.04.02
i have cuts all over my arms. it was just because a needle was sticking out of the chair and then.....o________O IT CUT ME. it hurts like a bitch. owwie...hmm. i AM making a manga. nyaaaa ^-^ i have made the first page and cover... there is a quote after it that i wrote. o_o mahself
**ahem**
i met him in my dreams...
he has no face, just a body and a voice
he spoke to to me through my empty dreams...
he spoke of being lost and looking for love
and so on... it is kinda corny but, the plot gives it some depth. ^-^;;; the main character **based off of my previous manga "utsukushii hoshi's" Kazuha <-- her: well i think that i'm changing her name to my own... because i based her off of me. and then i have the **sweatdrop** male. o_o no idea who i based him off of and i have no idea what his name will be... ^-^; well ya....**pauses and puts her straight jacket on so she doesn't do something she will regret** >_> wtf... i honestly want to slap her. her name is "alone" >______> because he isn't online. ya know. if she wants him so bad... why doesn't she just...like... i don't know what the fuck her problem is... if she doesn't get what she wants she gets all **fake** depressed.... i'm a bitch. i guess... do i care for peoples feelings. i guess not in a sense. AA MY ARMS ITCH. T_T blood makes me dizzy. i need to get my uniform from Courtney... nyaaaaaaaa......... i'm tired... i think its amazing how your mood can change in moments. my cousin erin e-mailed me tho. last time i saw her we didn't speak once... we were best friends tho... then she moved to indonesia and then malaysia and then argentina and now they are back in Texas. i'm scanning my computer......for viruses... i downloaded the Romeo & Juliet and it didn't work... i'm pissed. >< its one of my all time favorite movies... i like depressing movies... i hate kristen ally now.....shes gone down to a new low.....her acting is over...o_____o;; i'm tired. i want sleep... gah... my brother is singing like a wierdo..its kinda creepy... hmm... my mom says that hes hyper. T_T i wanna play my game waaaaaa but he wont let me play FFX unless hes gone. gah... what a poo head. T_T and i was having soo much fuuuunnn. T______T i guess i'll buy some of muh own shizznit... my first paycheck is like, all spent.....i think i'm getting melissa a $60 birthday present... kinda saying i'm sorry for a bunch of shit i've done. and yet... she pisses me off. o_______O;; i told her that if i got it for her she'd bow down to me and call me 'god'... or maybe just sit and drool on it. >< dun ruin it dammit. ^-^; i love giving people gifts, i never know what to get them tho... especially people like Saharu... T_T she has like, everything i want. o_____o she has so much manga and shit that its crazy, but she has jrock shizznit so =P nya. her sister is super cool. o_O she has like a dozen boxes full of anime magazines. heh... i'm tired. T_T sleep is good for when i feel this way... ==owari==
..::forgotten shadows @ 7:04::..
mmm bile >_<;;
28.04.02
[listening to: Cosmic Dare-seatbelts]
wow about 10 min ago i was locking myself in my bathroom hugging the toilet seat >_> wow, its amazing. i was puking my brains out. >_> and **sick-o warning** my pee was like really really light sea-foam green and all cloudy. o_O; i wonder if thats not normal? but hell... i think i'm ok now. my stomach still hurts a little, probably because i didn't have enough in muh stomach. o_O; ya... next on my list: buhlemia <<--- spelling? hmm. but.... lets think... i woke up at 7 from the pain in my stomach and my cat sleeping on my arm until it went numb... i sat there rolling around thinking about various things... i got a live journal for the hell of it. >_> i sign up for many-o-things. hmm......i downloaded lotsa gackt videos last night. accounting that i deleted them all when i had to re-do my compy. *shrugs* this time i got the Mirror, Seki-ray (wait i had that), Story.......and i think thats it. by far my favorite video is Vanilla. *-* its shibby. **shaun.......jealousy killed the monkey ><** my day was pretty shitty yesterday...but chunkachu made it feel better. nya i sound corny, ne? gah i think i'm going to dieeeeee. my stomach is eating itself. **i'm NOT hungry either** i think my mom is watching Devils Advocate or however u spell it. but.....that is one hell of a movie. Al Pacino is thuh devil! and Keanu <--- spelling? is in it too ^-^. hmm well i'm off! still sitting pretty with a pistol in hand, living to love you. jaaaaaaa----
..::forgotten shadows @ 10:38::..
BAH **falls over in her drool and tears?**
27.04.02
i went to block buster. gah they didn't have what i wanted, so i just got the 5th tape of Queer as Folk for my own enertainment. haha i was on the phone with melissa growling my head off **she likes it when i growl haha i should growl more, right shaun? ¬¬** and i was screaming too because i couldn't get my brothers playstation to work. **my oppurtunity to play FFX** but i rented FF8. T_T i wanted to see squall and that cute azz earring. i get turned on by earrings..... i'm a freak. o_______o m ya. i have a headache.... i tripped on a wire thing in my room **and my brothers cords only god knows what for** haha i'm a freak i like techno. T_______T i miss melissa, i miss my REAL friends. Not the fake ones i hang out with at work and so on. they drink and do shit and me as a **snickers**pure**snickers** female wouldn't do. gah no one iz online anymore. >> i have yahoo, aim, and msn and not one intresting person is online. hmm...i think i'm going to finish reading that one fic Lizzy sent me. *-* its lemony **drooooools** great SCOTT i can't wait to finish it. hahaha u shouldve seen me watching QAF i was like saying "OH MY GOD X) I THINK I JUST HAD AN ORGASM THIS IS SO HOT" (¬¬ i was on the phone with Melissa, mind you. i wasn't talking with myself at the time) **finishes reading the fic** O_______________O ::silence:: **growls for the hell of it** i can see that happening, seriously. O_____O **pictures it** **drools uncontrollably** ::applauds Lizzy:: BRAVO O______O! U MADE MY SATURDAY NIGHT WORTH IT. O_O OH MI GOD I LOFF U! hahaha ^-^ ab00t time i get to my QAF, ne? *muahness*
..::forgotten shadow @ 8:19pm::..
idols.... =O
27.04.02
[listening to: tears-xjapan]
mhmm i've been ONLINE shopping all damn day. @_# oh my god i'm in pain, my hands are like, shaking. i went through my animerica and i went through all THOSE sites. and then i went here as usual. i've been through every single artbook they sold on there. ^-^ me iz getting some. and then i'm going to get some manga. nya. i'm getting MORE CHOBITS. *rolls in her chobits stuf* *-* daisuki. i've been in a really bad mood.....since last night. hopefully i'll go and rent my movies that i can go get all sad ab00t T______T; because i'm a corny mofo. nyaaaaa T_T this song makes me cry. hmm... ya. today i downloaded some Prince. haha i've always loved Prince, he was **coughs** kinda my idol when i was a kid. When i was around 8-12 i had really wierd idols, because i didn't have anime to set meh up straight. my idols were of course my daddy **which.... now i have reasons for him not to be** madonna, **her and i share birthdays, shes a sexxi bizzotch X9** and Prince, he sang about the most controversal things, he bared his chicken cutlet ass cheeks in a performance, AND! he has really purdy eyes *-* ah, what eyeliner does he wear, i want some. ^-^ hehe... now my idols are kind of the same... in a sense... Gackt is one... hmm..... of course he is... "get off" by prince = "vanilla" by gackt. makes sense. and hmm.... i have no idea really. i have no morals or common sense i might as well get my ass dressed up in a poofy dress, move to japan and be a japanese idol *-* sugoiiiiiii that'd be so kool. >> i sound like a wierdo, ne? well i'm going to go sleep >> i do it when i feel this way. it helps... ja..
..::forgotten shadow @ 4:31pm
GAH *throws up a book of COMMON SENSE*
27.04.02
last night i didn't come home from work. i walked over to Courtneys and we met up with Brynn, then we walked over to Jessy and Jamisons house where we saw Jason and his new car (which i got a ride in XO it goes fazt-nya) and then there was other people there too. We were outside playing the music too loud and then someone called the cops so that sucked. and then after that Courtney gave Jessy some munah so he could go get the kids some booze. (geez i hang out with the right crowd) and Jessy stole her money so then Courtney was pissed and then she started to beat the shit out of his GIRLFRIEND (nyaaahaha and she gave Jessy head the day before) wow... o_o; that wil' whore. hmm. i left my uniform at her house. shit. well last night was one of the most intresting nights i've had in awhile. hmm... X) almost get arrested, beatin the shit out of some ugly blonde for puttin her nose in someones buisness.......ya. well i was in a really bad mood when i got home. except i was in a good mood for my mum and stuff because she was stressed. and ya. Melissa called like 80 times. because i was supposed to go to her house, and i'm so sorry because i spaced off. and i forgot. T_T gomen nasai ash-sama. and then i didn't want to get a lecture from Shaun **in which i did** so i didn't really talk to him. and then he left when i was typing something. so i kinda flipped out and *************** so on. i'm going to write a private entry. >> so ya....gah...shopping todah ^-^; yay. and then i get to go home and sit on my ass. =_= being the boring ass social outcast i am. matta..
..::forgotten shadow @ 10:49am::..
*sits in her corner, chews on the collar of her straight jacket*
26.04.02
T_____T my head hurts. and i'm in one of those moods. pms.....desu, ne? haha, well hmm. i need a HUGE bottle of asprin, a big ass tub of chocolate chip cookie dough icecream **hmm maybe not** and then 3 movies. Moulin Rouge, Romeo & Juliet **1996 ver.** and Bejing Bicycle. YEA, i'm in one of those moods! >_> and what it is god only knows. Josh is some senior or something. hes supposed to be really shy and shit. and ya know what, i dun give a rats ass. gah. my music keeps playing the same damn songs >< c'mon share the luff, me want some Gackt. T_T Lizzy god Rebirth, gah i want it sooo bad, haha i'll have it in less than a month, lets count the days. >< where the fuck is the damn asprin. my head hurts so bad. T_______T god, i think my house is desiesed, i always feel bad when i'm in it. **coughs** my brother put on a load of colounge **falls over and dies** someone open a window, thats too much for my lungs to take. he smells like Ryan Ballard **LMFAO** geez, thats a name i haven't sed in awhile, anyway... i get to go shopping this weekend. i wish i could get paid a couple weeks early. money is my friend. maybe i'll buy a monkey *-* i want a pet monkey, when i come home from school i can open the door and be like "MONKEY!!" and my monkey can be all jumpin up and down and say "HUU HA HA!" *-* sugoi desu, ne. i'll name him..... OOKII TAMA **LMFAO** god, jerry is such a annoying ass dick head. o__O; a week ago he liked me. nyaaaaaahahahaha but.....i don't go for guys. o_O; now...**digging herself a grave** hmm...... well... it was kinda embarassing yesterday i went to work and i forgot to shave my legs? o_O;;; well i'm off. going to raid Jerry's pitiful journal...ja!
..::forgotten shadow @ 1:33pm::..
